“Do not go out to-night, Amanda.
The pavements are damp, and the air is loaded with
vapour.”
“Indeed, ma, I must go.”
“Amanda, there is no necessity
for your attending this party; and very urgent reasons
why you should stay at home. Your cough is still
troublesome, and a little exposure might give it permanency.
You know that from your father you inherit a predisposition
to disease of the lungs.”
“You only say that to alarm me.”
“Not so, my child; I know your
constitution, and know how fatally the exposure of
a night like this may affect you.”
“But I’ll wrap up warmly,
and put on my India rubbers.”
“A necessary precaution, if
you will go out, Amanda. But I wish I could persuade
you to be guided by me. You know that the Bible
says, the way of transgressors is hard.”
“I don’t know how you
will apply that to me, ma. I am transgressing
no law of divine appointment.”
“Be not sure of that, Amanda.”
“I do not understand you, ma.”
“I will try and make my meaning
clear. In our creation, as organized beings,
we were so constituted as to bear a certain relation
to every thing around us, and our bodily health was
made dependent upon this relation. Here then,
we have a law of health, which may be called a divine
law—for there is nothing good that does
not flow from the Divine Creator. If we violate
this law, we become transgressors, and shall certainly
prove the way we have chosen, in so doing, to be a
hard one.”
“Oh, is that all?” said
the daughter, looking up with a smile, and breathing
more freely. “I’ll risk the consequences
of breaking the law you have announced.”
“Amanda!”
“Don’t be so serious,
ma. I will wrap up close and have my feet well
protected. There is not the least danger of my
taking cold.”
“Well, you must do as you please.
Still I cannot approve of your going, for I see that
there is danger. But you are fully of age, and
I will not seek to control you.”
So strong was Amanda’s desire
to attend a large but select party, that she went,
in company with a young man who called for her, notwithstanding
the atmosphere was so humid and dense with fog, that
breathing became oppressive.
The rooms were crowded, and the air
in them so warm as to cause the perspiration to start
from the fair brows of the merry dancers, among whom
none was more fair or more lively than Amanda Beaufort.
At eleven, after having passed an evening of much pleasure,
she started for home with her companion. She
was so well wrapped up, that she did not feel the
cold, and her feet were protected from the damp pavement
by the impervious India rubber.
“I’m safe home, ma, after
all!” she exclaimed with her merry ringing laugh,
as she bounded into the chamber where her ever-watchful
and interested mother sat awaiting her daughter’s
return.
“I am glad to see you back,
Amanda,” said Mrs. Beaufort kindly, “and
hope that no ill consequences will follow what I must
still call a very imprudent act.”
“Oh I’m just as well as
ever, and have not taken the least cold. How
could I, wrapped up so warm?”
Still, on the next morning, unaccountable
as it was to Amanda, she was quite hoarse, and was
much troubled by a cough occasioned by a slight but
constant tickling in her throat. Accompanying
these symptoms was a pale anxious face and a general
feeling of lassitude.
“I feared all this, Amanda,”
said her mother, with manifest concern.
“It’s only a slight cold,
ma. And, anyhow, I don’t believe it was
occasioned by going out last night, I was wrapped up
so warm. I must have got the bed-clothes off
of me in the night.”
“What to one is a slight cold,
my daughter, is a very serious affair to another;
and you are one of those who can never take a slight
cold without shocking the whole system. Your pale
face and your evident debility this morning show how
much even this slight cold, as you call it, has affected
you. That you have this cold is to me no subject
of wonder. You were well wrapped up, it is true,
and your feet protected. Still, your face was
exposed, and every particle of air you inhaled was
teeming with moisture. From dancing in a warm
room, the pores of your skin were all opened, and the
striking of moist chilly air upon your face could
hardly fail of producing some degree of cold.
The most susceptible parts of your body are your throat
and lungs, and to these any shock which is received
by the system is directly conveyed. You cannot
take cold in your hand or foot or face, or any other
part of your body, without your breast sympathizing;—that
you are hoarse, and have a slight cough, then, is
to me in no way surprising.”
Amanda tried to make light of this,
but every hour she felt worse and worse. Her
hoarseness, instead of diminishing, increased, and
her cough grew more and more troublesome. Finally,
she was compelled to go to bed, and have the physician
called in.—“Is there any danger?”
asked Mrs. Beaufort, with an anxious and troubled
countenance, as the physician, after prescribing among
other things a stimulating application to the throat
externally, was about leaving the house.
“Is your daughter subject to
these fits of hoarseness, ma’am?” he asked.
“Yes, sir, whenever she takes cold.”
“And does that frequent irritating
cough always attend the recurrence of hoarseness?”
“Always.”
“Then, madam, it is but right
that you should know, that such results, following
a slight cold, indicate a very great tendency to pulmonary
or bronchial affections. The predisposition existing,
very great care should be taken to prevent all exciting
causes. With care, your daughter may retain her
health until she passes over the most critical portion
in the life of every one with such a constitution
as hers—that is, from twenty years of age
until thirty or thirty-five. Without great care
and prudence during that time, her constitution may
be shattered so as to set all remedial efforts at
defiance.”
“But, doctor, how is she now?”
was Mrs. Beaufort’s anxious inquiry.
“Not dangerous, madam, but still
in a condition requiring care and skill to prevent
unfavourable consequences.”
“Then do your best for her, doctor.”
“You can rely on me for that, Mrs. Beaufort.
Good morning.”
With a heavy heart the mother returned
to the sick chamber of her daughter, and sat down
by the bedside, thoughtfully, for a few moments, while
she held Amanda’s hand, that was hot with fever.
Then recollecting herself, she left the room to prepare
the stimulating application which had been ordered.
It is remarkable how the whole system
will sympathize with one diseased part. The cold
which Amanda had taken concentrated its active effects
upon her respiratory organs; but it was felt also in
every member, prostrating the whole body, and giving
a sensation of general suffering. Her head ached
violently, and a burning fever diffused itself over
the entire surface of her body.
How sadly was she proving the truth
of her mother’s warning, when she said to her,
in the language of divine authority, “The way
of transgressors is hard.”
She had violated a law of health,
and in that violation, as in the violation of every
physical or moral law, the penalty of transgression
followed too surely.
It was a week before Amanda was able
to go about again, and then her pale cheeks, and debilitated
frame indicated but too plainly the sad consequences
of a single imprudent act.
A few weeks after she had become restored
apparently to her usual health, as Amanda was dressing
one morning to go out, her mother said—
“Your clothes are a great deal too tight, Amanda.”
“Oh no, I am not tight at all,
ma. Julia Mason laces as tight again. She
gets her sister to draw her lacings for her, and she
has to pull with all her strength.”
“That is wrong in Julia Mason,
and yet half the pressure that she can bear would
seriously injure you.”
“How can that be, ma? I am as healthy as
she is.”
“I will tell you, Amanda.
She has a full round chest, giving free play to the
lungs; while your chest is narrow and flat. Without
any compression, the action of your lungs is not so
free and healthy as hers would be, laced as tightly
as you say she laces. But when to your natural
conformation you add artificial pressure, the action
of your lungs becomes not only enfeebled, but the
unhealthy action induced tends to develop that peculiar
form of disease, the predisposition to which you inherit.”
“That is only an idea of yours,
ma. I am sure I have quite a full bust,”
said Amanda, glancing down at her chest, and embracing
it with her hands.
“There you are mistaken.
I have noticed this defect, with much anxiety, ever
since you were a child; and having had my attention
called to it, have frequently made comparisons, and
have found that you are remarkably narrow and flat,
and what is more, have a tendency to stoop, which
still lessens the size of the cavity in which the
lungs play.”
“Well, ma, my clothes are not tight. Just
see here.”
Mrs. Beaufort tried her clothes, and
found them to be much tighter than in her judgment
was good for health.
“You are still unwilling, Amanda,
to be governed by your mother, where her wishes come
in opposition to your pride or inclinations. I
know that you are compressing your chest too much,
but you are not willing to yield to my judgment.
And yet I prescribe no arbitrary rules, but endeavor
to guide you by a rational consideration of true principles.
These you will not see; and the consequences that must
follow their violation will be the transgressor’s
reward.”
“Indeed, indeed, ma, you are
too serious. You are frightened at a shadow.
No one of my friends enjoys better general health than
I do.”
“And so might the graceful maple
say of the sturdy oak in the first years of their
existence. But long after the first had been humbled
beneath the hand of decay, the other would stand with
its roots more firmly imbedded in the earth, and its
limbs battling the storms as vigorously as ever.”
Amanda made no reply to this, for
she was suddenly struck with its force. Still
she only pretended to loosen her stays to satisfy her
mother, while the lacings remained as tense as ever.
It is unnecessary to trace, step by
step, the folly of Amanda Beaufort through a series
of years—years that caused her mother much
and painful anxiety—up to her twenty-sixth
summer, when, as a wife and mother, she was suffering
the penalty of her indiscretion, proving too clearly
the truth, that the way of transgressors is hard.
In spite of all her mother’s warnings and remonstrances,
she had continued to expose herself to the night air
in damp weather—to attend balls thinly
clad, and remain at them to a very late hour, and
to lace herself so tightly as to seriously retard the
healthy action of the vital organs. At the age
of twenty-three she married. A year after, the
birth of a child gave her whole system, which had
indicated long before its feebleness, a powerful shock,
from which the reaction was slow and unsteady.
The colour never came back to her cheek, nor the elasticity
to her frame. She had so long subjected herself
to the pressure of an artificial external support,
that she could not leave off her stays without experiencing
such a sinking, sickening sensation, as she called
it, that she was compelled to continue, however reluctantly,
the compression and support of tightly-laced corsets.
And from frequently taking cold, through imprudence,
the susceptibility had become so great, that the slightest
dampness of the feet or the exposure to a light draught
of air was sure to bring on a cough of hoarseness.
Her nervous system, too, was sadly shattered.
Indeed, every indication presented, foreshadowed a
rapid and premature decline—consequent,
solely, upon her thoughtless imprudence in earlier
years.
“Shall I never feel any better,
ma?” asked Amanda, one day, as a faint sickness
came over her, compelling her to resign her dear little
babe into the arms of its nurse, looking up at the
same time so earnestly and appealingly into her mother’s
face, that Mrs. Beaufort’s heart was touched
with unwonted sorrow and tenderness.
“I hope so, Amanda,” was
replied, but in a tone that, though meant to encourage,
conveyed little hope to the bosom of her child.
“Every time little Anna nurses,
I feel so sick and faint, that, sometimes, it seems
that I must give up. And yet the thought of letting
the dear little angel draw her food from another bosom
than mine, makes me fainter and sicker still.
Can nothing be done to help me, ma?”
“We must see the doctor and
consult with him. Perhaps he can do something,”
Mrs. Beaufort replied, in an abstracted tone.
That day the family physician was
called in, and a long consultation held. The
result was, a decision that Amanda must get a nurse
for her child, and then try the effect upon her system
of a change of air and the use of medicinal waters.
In a word, she must put away her child and go to the
Springs.
“Indeed, doctor, I cannot give
up little Anna,” said the invalid mother, while
the tears started to her eyes. “I will be
very careful of myself, and teach her to take a little
food early, so as to relieve me as much as possible.
It seems as if it would kill me, were I forced to
resign to a stranger a mother’s dearest privilege
and holiest duty.”
“I can but honour your devotion
to your child, Amanda,” the old family physician
said, with a tenderness unusual to one whose daily
intercourse was with suffering in its varied forms.
“Still, I am satisfied, that for every month
you nurse that babe, a year is taken from your life.”
There was in the tone and manner of
the doctor a solemn emphasis, that instantly aroused
the young husband’s liveliest fears, and sent
a chill to the heart of Mrs. Beaufort.
For a moment or two, Amanda’s
thoughts were turned inward, and then looking up with
a smile of strange meaning, while her eyes grew brighter,
and something like a glow kindled upon her thin, pale
cheek, she said, drawing her babe at the same time
closer to her bosom—
“I will risk all, doctor.
I cannot forego a mother’s duty.”
“A mother’s duty, my dear
young friend,” the physician replied, with increased
tenderness, for his heart was touched, “is to
prolong, by every possible means, her own life, for
the sake of her offspring. There are duties which
none but a mother can perform. Reserve yourself
for these, Amanda, and let others do for your babe
all that can be done as well as you can perform it.
Take my advice. Leave little Anna at home with
your mother and a careful nurse; and then, with your
husband and some female friend, upon whose judicious
care you can rely, go to the Springs and spend a few
weeks.”
The advice of the physician was taken,
and the young mother, with clinging, though lacerated
affections, resigned to the care of a hired nurse
the babe over which her heart yearned with unutterable
tenderness.
Three weeks were spent at one of the
Virginia springs, but little apparent benefit was
the result. The young mother grieved for the
loss of her babe so deeply and constantly, often giving
way to tears, that the renovating effects of changed
air and medicinal waters were counteracted, and she
returned home, drooping in body and depressed in spirits.
Her infant seemed but half restored to her, as she
clasped it to a bosom in which the current of its young
life had been dried up. Sad, sad indeed was her
realization of the immutable truth, that the way of
transgressors is hard!
Two years more of a painful and anxious
existence were eked out, and Amanda again became a
mother.
From this additional shock she partially
recovered; but it soon became evident to all, that
her shattered and enfeebled constitution was rapidly
giving way. Her last babe was but four months
old, when the pale messenger passed by, and gave his
fearful summons.
It was toward the close of one of
those calm days in September, when nature seems pausing
to note the first few traces of decay which autumn
has thrown upon garden, field, and forest, that Mrs.
Beaufort, and the husband of her daughter, with a few
friends, were gathered in the chamber of their beloved
one, to see her die. How sad, how very sad is
the death-bed of the young, sinking beneath premature
decay! In the passing away of one who has met
the storms of life, and battled with them through
vigorous maturity, and sinks at last in the course
of nature, there is little to pain the feelings.
But when the young and beautiful die, with all their
tenderest and earliest ties clinging to them—an
event so unlooked for, so out of the true order of
nature—we can only turn away and weep.
We can extract from such an affliction but few thoughts
of comfort. All is dreary, and blank, and desolate.
“Bring me my children,”
the dying mother said, rousing up from a state of
partial slumber, with an earnest emphasis, that brought
both her mother and her husband to her bedside.
“What did you want, dear Amanda?”
asked the husband, laying his hand gently upon her
white forehead, that was damp with the dews of coming
dissolution.
“My dear babes,” she replied
in a changed tone, rising up with an effort.
“My Anna and Mary. Who will be a mother
to them, when I am laid at rest? Oh, that I could
take them with me!”
Tears came to the relief of her overwrought
feelings, and leaning her head upon the breast of
her husband, she wept and sobbed aloud. The infant
was brought in by her mother, and laid in her arms,
when she had a little recovered herself.
“Oh, my baby! my sweet baby!”
she said, with tender animation. “My sweet,
sweet baby! I cannot give you up!” And she
clasped it to her breast with an energy of affection,
while the large drops rolled over her pale cheek.
“And Anna, dear little girl! where is my Anna?”
she asked.
Anna, a beautiful child, a few months
past her second birth-day, was brought in and lifted
upon the bed.
“Don’t cry, ma,”
said the little thing, seeing the tears upon her mother’s
cheeks, “don’t cry; I’ll always be
good.”
“Heaven bless you and keep you,
my child!” the mother sobbed, eagerly kissing
the sweet lips that were turned up to hers; and then
clasped the child to her bosom in a strong embrace.
The children were, after a time, removed,
but the thoughts of the dying mother were still upon
them; and with these thoughts were self-reproach,
that made her pillow one of thorns.
“I now see and feel,”
said she, looking up into the face of her mother,
after having lain with closed eyes for about ten minutes,
“that all my sufferings, and this early death,
which will soon be upon me, would have been avoided,
if I had only permitted myself to be guided by you.
I do not wonder now that my constitution gave way.
How could it have been otherwise, and I so strangely
regardless of all the laws of health? But, my
dear mother, the past is beyond recall; and now I
leave to you the dear little ones from whom I must
soon part for ever. I feel calmer than I have
felt for some time. The bitterness of the last
agony seems over. But I do not see you, nor you,
dear husband! Give me your hands. Here, let
my head rest on your bosom. It is sweet to lie
thus—Anna—dear child! Mary—sweet,
sweet babe!”—
The lips of the young wife and mother
moved feebly, and inarticulate whispers fell faintly
from her tongue for some moments, and then she sank
to sleep—and it was a sleep from which none
wake in the body.
Thus, at the age of twenty-six, abused
and exhausted nature gave up the struggle; and the
mother, who had violated the laws of health, sank
to the earth just at the moment when her tenderest
and holiest duties called loudest for performance.
Who, in this brief and imperfect sketch,
does not recognise familiar features? Amanda
Beaufort is but one of a class which has far too many
representatives. These are in every town and village,
in every street and neighbourhood. Why do we
see so many pale-faced mothers? Why are our young
and lovely females so soon broken down under their
maternal duties? The answer, in far too many cases,
may be found in their early and persevering transgression
of the most palpable physiological laws. The
violation of these is ever followed, sooner or later,
in a greater or less degree, by painful consequences.
Sometimes life is spared to the young mother, and she
is allowed to linger on through years of suffering
that the heart aches to think of. Often death
terminates early her pains, and her babes are left
a legacy to the cold charities of an unfeeling world.
How sad, how painful the picture! Alas! that
it is a true one.