One morning, at the end of his second
year of wandering, Sam got out of his bed in a cold
little hotel in a mining village in West Virginia,
looked at the miners, their lamps in their caps, going
through the dimly lighted streets, ate a portion of
leathery breakfast cakes, paid his bill at the hotel,
and took a train for New York. He had definitely
abandoned the idea of getting at what he wanted through
wandering about the country and talking to chance
acquaintances by the wayside and in villages, and
had decided to return to a way of life more befitting
his income.
He felt that he was not by nature
a vagabond, and that the call of the wind and the
sun and the brown road was not insistent in his blood.
The spirit of Pan did not command him, and although
there were certain spring mornings of his wandering
days that were like mountain tops in his experience
of life, mornings when some strong, sweet feeling ran
through the trees, and the grass, and the body of
the wanderer, and when the call of life seemed to
come shouting and inviting down the wind, filling him
with delight of the blood in his body and the thoughts
in his brain, yet at bottom and in spite of these
days of pure joy he was, after all, a man of the towns
and the crowds. Caxton and South Water Street
and LaSalle Street had all left their marks on him,
and so, throwing his canvas jacket into a corner of
the room in the West Virginia hotel, he returned to
the haunts of his kind.
In New York he went to an uptown club
where he owned a membership and into the grill where
he found at breakfast an actor acquaintance named Jackson.
Sam dropped into a chair and looked
about him. He remembered a visit he had made
there some years before with Webster and Crofts and
felt again the quiet elegance of the surroundings.
“Hello, Moneymaker,” said
Jackson, heartily. “Heard you had gone to
a nunnery.”
Sam laughed and began ordering a breakfast
that made Jackson’s eyes open with astonishment.
“You, Mr. Elegance, would not
understand a man’s spending month after month
in the open air seeking a good body and an end in life
and then suddenly changing his mind and coming back
to a place like this,” he observed.
Jackson laughed and lighted a cigarette.
“How little you know me,”
he said. “I would live my life in the open
but that I am a mighty good actor and have just finished
another long New York run. What are you going
to do now that you are thin and brown? Will you
go back to Morrison and Prince and money making?”
Sam shook his head and looked at the
quiet elegance of the man before him. How satisfied
and happy he looked.
“I am going to try living among
the rich and the leisurely,” he said.
“They are a rotten crew,”
Jackson assured him, “and I am taking a night
train for Detroit. Come with me. We will
talk things over.”
On the train that night they got into
talk with a broad-shouldered old man who told them
of a hunting trip on which he was bound.
“I am going to sail from Seattle,”
he said, “and go everywhere and hunt everything.
I am going to shoot the head off of every big animal
kind of thing left in the world and then come back
to New York and stay there until I die.”
“I will go with you,”
said Sam, and in the morning left Jackson at Detroit
and continued westward with his new acquaintance.
For months Sam travelled and shot
with the old man, a vigorous, big-hearted old fellow
who, having become wealthy through an early investment
in stock of the Standard Oil Company, devoted his life
to his lusty, primitive passion for shooting and killing.
They went on lion hunts, elephant hunts and tiger
hunts, and when on the west coast of Africa Sam took
a boat for London, his companion walked up and down
the beach smoking black cheroots and declaring the
fun was only half over and that Sam was a fool to
go.
After the year of the hunt royal Sam
spent another year living the life of a gentleman
of wealth and leisure in London, New York, and Paris.
He went on automobile trips, fished and loafed along
the shores of northern lakes, canoed through Canada
with a writer of nature books, and sat about clubs
and fashionable hotels listening to the talk of the
men and women of that world.
Late one afternoon in the spring of
the year he went to the village on the Hudson River
where Sue had taken a house, and almost immediately
saw her. For an hour he followed, watching her
quick, active little figure as she walked through
the village streets, and wondering what life had come
to mean to her, but when, turning suddenly, she would
have come face to face with him, he hurried down a
side street and took a train to the city feeling that
he could not face her empty-handed and ashamed after
the years.
In the end he started drinking again,
not moderately now, but steadily and almost continuously.
One night in Detroit, with three young men from his
hotel, he got drunk and was, for the first time since
his parting with Sue, in the company of women.
Four of them, met in some restaurant, got into an
automobile with Sam and the three young men and rode
about town laughing, waving bottles of wine in the
air, and calling to passers-by in the street.
They wound up in a diningroom in a place at the edge
of town, where the party spent hours around a long
table, drinking, and singing songs.
One of the girls sat on Sam’s
lap and put an arm about his neck.
“Give me some money, rich man,” she said.
Sam looked at her closely.
“Who are you?” he asked.
She began explaining that she was
a clerk in a downtown store and that she had a lover
who drove a laundry wagon.
“I go on these bats to get money
to buy good clothes,” she said frankly, “but
if Tim saw me here he would kill me.”
Putting a bill into her hand Sam went
downstairs and getting into a taxicab drove back to
his hotel.
After that night he went frequently
on carouses of this kind. He was in a kind of
prolonged stupor of inaction, talked of trips abroad
which he did not take, bought a huge farm in Virginia
which he never visited, planned a return to business
which he did not execute, and month after month continued
to waste his days. He would get out of bed at
noon and begin drinking steadily. As the afternoon
passed he grew merry and talkative, calling men by
their first names, slapping chance acquaintances on
the back, playing pool or billiards with skilful young
men intent upon gain. In the early summer he
got in with a party of young men from New York and
with them spent months in sheer idle waste of time.
Together they drove high-powered automobiles on long
trips, drank, quarrelled, and went on board a yacht
to carouse, alone or with women. At times Sam
would leave his companions and spend days riding through
the country on fast trains, sitting for hours in silence
looking out of the window at the passing country and
wondering at his endurance of the life he led.
For some months he carried with him a young man whom
he called a secretary and paid a large salary for
his ability to tell stories and sing clever songs,
only to discharge him suddenly for telling a foul
tale that reminded Sam of another tale told by the
stoop-shouldered old man in the office of Ed’s
hotel in the Illinois town.
From being silent and taciturn, as
during the months of his wanderings, Sam became morose
and combative. Staying on and on in the empty,
aimless way of life he had adopted he yet felt that
there was for him a right way of living and wondered
at his continued inability to find it. He lost
his native energy, grew fat and coarse of body, was
pleased for hours by little things, read no books,
lay for hours in bed drunk and talking nonsense to
himself, ran about the streets swearing vilely, grew
habitually coarse in thought and speech, sought constantly
a lower and more vulgar set of companions, was brutal
and ugly with attendants about hotels and clubs where
he lived, hated life, but ran like a coward to sanitariums
and health resorts at the wagging of a doctor’s
head.