John Telfer’s friendship was
a formative influence upon Sam McPherson. His
father’s worthlessness and the growing realisation
of the hardship of his mother’s position had
given life a bitter taste in his mouth, and Telfer
sweetened it. He entered with zeal into Sam’s
thoughts and dreams, and tried valiantly to arouse
in the quiet, industrious, money-making boy some of
his own love of life and beauty. At night, as
the two walked down country roads, the man would stop
and, waving his arms about, quote Poe or Browning
or, in another mood, would compel Sam’s attention
to the rare smell of a hayfield or to a moonlit stretch
of meadow.
Before people gathered on the streets
he teased the boy, calling him a little money grubber
and saying, “He is like a little mole that works
underground. As the mole goes for a worm so this
boy goes for a five-cent piece. I have watched
him. A travelling man goes out of town leaving
a stray dime or nickel here and within an hour it
is in this boy’s pocket. I have talked
to banker Walker of him. He trembles lest his
vaults become too small to hold the wealth of this
young Croesus. The day will come when he will
buy the town and put it into his vest pocket.”
For all his public teasing of the
boy Telfer had the genius to adopt a different attitude
when they were alone together. Then he talked
to him openly and freely as he talked to Valmore and
Freedom Smith and to other cronies of his on the streets
of Caxton. Walking along the road he would point
with his cane to the town and say, “You and that
mother of yours have more of the real stuff in you
than the rest of the boys and mothers of the town
put together.”
In all Caxton Telfer was the only
man who knew books and who took them seriously.
Sam sometimes found his attitude toward them puzzling
and would stand with open mouth listening as Telfer
swore or laughed at a book as he did at Valmore or
Freedom Smith. He had a fine portrait of Browning
which he kept hung in the stable and before this he
would stand, his legs spread apart, and his head tilted
to one side, talking.
“A rich old sport you are, eh?”
he would say, grinning. “Getting yourself
discussed by women and college professors in clubs,
eh? You old fraud!”
Toward Mary Underwood, the school
teacher who had become Sam’s friend and with
whom the boy sometimes walked and talked, Telfer had
no charity. Mary Underwood was a sort of cinder
in the eyes of Caxton. She was the only child
of Silas Underwood, the town harness maker, who once
had worked in a shop belonging to Windy McPherson.
After the business failure of Windy he had started
independently and for a time did well, sending his
daughter to a school in Massachusetts. Mary did
not understand the people of Caxton and the people
misunderstood and distrusted her. Taking no part
in the life of the town and keeping to herself and
to her books she awoke a kind of fear in others.
Because she did not join them at church suppers, or
go from porch to porch gossiping with other women
through the long summer evenings, they thought her
something abnormal. On Sundays she sat alone in
her pew at church and on Saturday afternoons, come
storm, come sunshine, she walked on country roads
and through the woods accompanied by a collie dog.
She was a small woman with a straight, slender figure
and had fine blue eyes filled with changing lights,
hidden by the eye-glasses she almost constantly wore.
Her lips were very full and red, and she sat with
them parted so that the edges of her fine teeth showed.
Her nose was large, and a fine reddish-brown colour
glowed in her cheeks. Though different, she had,
like Jane McPherson, a habit of silence; and under
her silence, she, like Sam’s mother, possessed
an unusually strong and vigorous mind.
As a child she was a sort of half
invalid and had not been on friendly footing with
other children. It was then that her habit of
silence and reticence had been established. The
years in the school in Massachusetts restored her
health but did not break this habit. She came
home and took the place in the schools to earn money
with which to take her back East, dreaming of a position
as instructor in an eastern college. She was that
rare thing, a woman scholar, loving scholarship for
its own sake.
Mary Underwood’s position in
the town and in the schools was insecure. Out
of her silent, independent way of life had sprung a
misunderstanding that, at least once, had taken definite
form and had come near driving her from the town and
schools. That she did not succumb to the storm
of criticism that for some weeks beat about her head
was due to her habit of silence and to a determination
to get her own way in the face of everything.
It was a suggestion of scandal that
had put the grey hairs upon her head. The scandal
had blown over before the time of her friendship for
Sam, but he had known of it. In those days he
knew of everything that went on in the town—his
quick ears and eyes missed nothing. More than
once he had heard the men waiting to be shaved in
Sawyer’s barber shop speak of her.
The tale ran that she had been involved
in an affair with a real estate agent who had afterward
left town. It was said that the man, a tall, fine-looking
fellow, had been in love with Mary and had wanted to
desert his wife and go away with her. One night
he had driven to Mary’s house in a closed buggy
and the two had driven into the country. They
had sat for hours in the covered buggy at the side
of the road and talked, and people driving past had
seen them there talking together.
And then she had got out of the buggy
and walked home alone through snow drifts. The
next day she was at school as usual. When told
of it the school superintendent, a puttering old fellow
with vacant eyes, had shaken his head in alarm and
declared that it must be looked into. He called
Mary into his little narrow office in the school building,
but lost courage when she sat before him, and said
nothing. The man in the barber shop, who repeated
the tale, said that the real estate man drove on to
a distant station and took a train to the city, and
that some days later he came back to Caxton and moved
his family out of town.
Sam dismissed the story from his mind.
Having begun a friendship for Mary he put the man
in the barber shop into a class with Windy McPherson
and thought of him as a pretender and liar who talked
for the sake of talk. He remembered with a shock
the crude levity with which the loafers in the shop
had greeted the repetition of the tale. Their
comments had come back to his mind as he walked through
the streets with his newspapers and had given him
a kind of jolt. He went along under the trees
thinking of the sunlight falling upon the grey hair
as they walked together on summer afternoons, and
bit his lip and opened and closed his fist convulsively.
During Mary’s second year in
the Caxton schools her mother died, and at the end
of another year, her father, failing in the harness
business, Mary became a fixture in the schools.
The house at the edge of the town, the property of
her mother, had come down to her and she lived there
with an old aunt. After the passing of the wind
of scandal concerning the real estate man the town
lost interest in her. She was thirty-six at the
time of her first friendship with Sam and lived alone
among her books.
Sam had been deeply moved by her friendship.
It had seemed to him something significant that grown
people with affairs of their own should be so in earnest
about his future as she and Telfer were. Boylike,
he counted it a tribute to himself rather than to
the winsome youth in him, and was made proud by it.
Having no real feeling for books, and only pretending
to have out of a desire to please, he sometimes went
from one to the other of his two friends, passing
off their opinions as his own.
At this trick Telfer invariably caught
him. “That is not your notion,” he
would shout, “you have it from that school teacher.
It is the opinion of a woman. Their opinions,
like the books they sometimes write, are founded on
nothing. They are not the real things. Women
know nothing. Men only care for them because
they have not had what they want from them. No
woman is really big—except maybe my woman,
Eleanor.”
When Sam continued to be much in the
company of Mary, Telfer grew more bitter.
“I would have you observe women’s
minds and avoid letting them influence your own,”
he told the boy. “They live in a world of
unrealities. They like even vulgar people in
books, but shrink from the simple, earthy folk about
them. That school teacher is so. Is she like
me? Does she, while loving books, love also the
very smell of human life?”
In a way Telfer’s attitude toward
the kindly little school teacher became Sam’s
attitude. Although they walked and talked together
the course of study she had planned for him he never
took up and as he grew to know her better, the books
she read and the ideas she advanced appealed to him
less and less. He thought that she, as Telfer
held, lived in a world of illusion and unreality and
said so. When she lent him books, he put them
in his pocket and did not read them. When he did
read, he thought the books reminded him of something
that hurt him. They were in some way false and
pretentious. He thought they were like his father.
One day he tried reading aloud to Telfer from a book
Mary Underwood had lent him.
The story was one of a poetic man
with long, unclean fingernails who went among people
preaching the doctrine of beauty. It began with
a scene on a hillside in a rainstorm where the poetic
man sat under a tent writing a letter to his sweetheart.
Telfer was beside himself. Jumping
from his seat under a tree by the roadside he waved
his arms and shouted:
“Stop! Stop it! Do
not go on with it. The story lies. A man
could not write love letters under the circumstances
and he was a fool to pitch his tent on a hillside.
A man in a tent on a hillside in a storm would be cold
and wet and getting the rheumatism. To be writing
letters he would need to be an unspeakable ass.
He had better be out digging a trench to keep the
water from running through his tent.”
Waving his arms, Telfer went off up
the road and Sam followed thinking him altogether
right, and, if later in life he learned that there
are men who could write love letters on a piece of
housetop in a flood, he did not know it then and the
least suggestion of windiness or pretence lay heavy
in his stomach.
Telfer had a vast enthusiasm for Bellamy’s
“Looking Backward,” and read it aloud
to his wife on Sunday afternoons, sitting under the
apple trees in the garden. They had a fund of
little personal jokes and sayings that they were forever
laughing over, and she had infinite delight in his
comments on the life and people of Caxton, but did
not share his love of books. When she sometimes
went to sleep in her chair during the Sunday afternoon
readings he poked her with his cane and laughingly
told her to wake up and listen to the dream of a great
dreamer. Among Browning’s verses his favourites
were “A Light Woman” and “Fra Lippo
Lippi,” and he would recite these aloud with
great gusto. He declared Mark Twain the greatest
man in the world and in certain moods he would walk
the road beside Sam reciting over and over one or
two lines of verse, often this from Poe:
Helen, thy beauty is to me
Like some Nicean bark of yore.
Then, stopping and turning upon the
boy, he would demand whether or not the writing of
such lines wasn’t worth living a life for.
Telfer had a pack of dogs that always
went with them on their walks at night and he had
for them long Latin names that Sam could never remember.
One summer be bought a trotting mare from Lem McCarthy
and gave great attention to the colt, which he named
Bellamy Boy, trotting him up and down a little driveway
by the side of his house for hours at a time and declaring
he would be a great trotting horse. He could recite
the colt’s pedigree with great gusto and when
he had been talking to Sam of some book he would repay
the boy’s attention by saying, “You, my
boy, are as far superior to the run of boys about
town as the colt, Bellamy Boy, is superior to the
farm horses that are hitched along Main Street on Saturday
afternoons.” And then, with a wave of his
hand and a look of much seriousness on his face, he
would add, “And for the same reason. You
have been, like him, under a master trainer of youth.”
* * * *
One evening Sam, now grown to man’s
stature and full of the awkwardness and self-consciousness
of his new growth, was sitting on a cracker barrel
at the back of Wildman’s grocery. It was
a summer evening and a breeze blew through the open
doors swaying the hanging oil lamps that burned and
sputtered overhead. As usual he was listening
in silence to the talk that went on among the men.
Standing with legs wide apart and
from time to time jabbing with his cane at Sam’s
legs, John Telfer held forth on the subject of love.
“It is a theme that poets do
well to write of,” he declared. “In
writing of it they avoid the necessity of embracing
it. In trying for a well-turned line they forget
to look at well-turned ankles. He who sings most
passionately of love has been in love the least; he
woos the goddess of poesy and only gets into trouble
when he, like John Keats, turns to the daughter of
a villager and tries to live the lines he has written.”
“Stuff and nonsense,”
roared Freedom Smith, who had been sitting tilted
far back in a chair with his feet against the cold
stove, smoking a short, black pipe, and who now brought
his feet down upon the floor with a bang. Admiring
Telfer’s flow of words he pretended to be filled
with scorn. “The night is too hot for eloquence,”
he bellowed. “If you must be eloquent talk
of ice cream or mint juleps or recite a verse about
the old swimming pool.”
Telfer, wetting his finger, thrust it into the air.
“The wind is in the north-west;
the beasts roar; we will have a storm,” he said,
winking at Valmore.
Banker Walker came into the store,
followed by his daughter. She was a small, dark-skinned
girl with black, quick eyes. Seeing Sam sitting
with swinging legs upon the cracker barrel she spoke
to her father and went out of the store. At the
sidewalk she stopped and, turning, made a quick motion
with her hand.
Sam jumped off the cracker barrel
and strolled toward the street door. A flush
was on his cheeks. His mouth felt hot and dry.
He went with extreme deliberateness, stopping to bow
to the banker, and for a moment lingering to read
a newspaper that lay upon the cigar case, to avoid
the comments he feared his going might excite among
the men by the stove. In his heart he trembled
lest the girl should have disappeared down the street,
and with his eyes, he looked guiltily at the banker,
who had joined the group at the back of the store
and who now stood listening to the talk, while he
read from a list held in his hand and Wildman went
here and there doing up packages and repeating aloud
the names of articles called off by the banker.
At the end of the lighted business
section of Main Street, Sam found the girl waiting
for him. She began to tell of the subterfuge by
which she had escaped her father.
“I told him I would go home
with my sister,” she said, tossing her head.
Taking hold of the boy’s hand,
she led him along the shaded street. For the
first time Sam walked in the company of one of the
strange beings that had begun to bring him uneasy
nights, and overcome with the wonder of it the blood
climbed through his body and made his head reel so
that he walked in silence unable to understand his
own emotions. He felt the soft hand of the girl
with delight; his heart pounded against the walls of
his chest and a choking sensation gripped at his throat.
Walking along the street, past lighted
residences where the low voices of women in talk greeted
his ears, Sam was inordinately proud. He thought
that he should like to turn and walk with this girl
through the lighted Main Street. Had she not
chosen him from among all the boys of the town; had
she not, with a flutter of her little, white hand,
called to him with a call that he wondered the men
upon the cracker barrels had not heard? Her boldness
and his own took his breath away. He could not
talk. His tongue seemed paralysed.
Down the street went the boy and girl,
loitering in the shadows, hurrying past the dim oil
lamps at street crossings, getting from each other
wave after wave of exquisite little thrills.
Neither spoke. They were beyond words. Had
they not together done this daring thing?
In the shadow of a tree they stopped
and stood facing each other; the girl looked at the
ground and stood facing the boy. Putting out his
hand he laid it upon her shoulder. In the darkness
on the other side of the street a man stumbled homeward
along a board sidewalk. The lights of Main Street
glowed in the distance. Sam drew the girl toward
him. She raised her head. Their lips met,
and then, throwing her arms about his neck, she kissed
him again and again eagerly.
* * *
*
Sam’s return to Wildman’s
was marked by extreme caution. Although he had
been absent but fifteen minutes it seemed to him that
hours must have passed and he would not have been
surprised to see the stores locked and darkness settled
down on Main Street. It was inconceivable that
the grocer could still be wrapping packages for banker
Walker. Worlds had been remade. Manhood
had come to him. Why! the man should have wrapped
the entire store, package after package, and sent
it to the ends of the earth. He lingered in the
shadows at the first of the store lights where ages
before he had gone, a mere boy, to meet her, a mere
girl, and looked with wonder at the lighted way before
him.
Sam crossed the street and, from the
front of Sawyer’s barber shop, looked into Wildman’s.
He felt like a spy looking into the camp of an enemy.
There before him sat the men into whose midst he had
it in his power to cast a thunderbolt. He might
walk to the door and say, truthfully enough, “Here
before you is a boy that by the flutter of a white
hand has been made into a man; here is one who has
wrung the heart of womankind and eaten his fill at
the tree of the knowledge of life.”
In the grocery the talk still continued
among the men upon the cracker barrels who seemed
unconscious of the boy’s slinking entrance.
Indeed, their talk had sunk. From talking of
love and of poets they talked of corn and of steers.
Banker Walker, his packages of groceries lying on the
counter, smoked a cigar.
“You can fairly hear the corn
growing to-night,” he said. “It wants
but another shower or two and we shall have a record
crop. I plan to feed a hundred steers at my farm
out Rabbit Road this winter.”
The boy climbed again upon a cracker
barrel and tried to look unconcerned and interested
in the talk. Still his heart thumped; still a
throbbing went on in his wrists. He turned and
looked at the floor hoping his agitation would pass
unnoticed.
The banker, taking up the packages,
walked out at the door. Valmore and Freedom Smith
went over to the livery barn for a game of pinochle.
And John Telfer, twirling his cane and calling to
a troup of dogs that loitered in an alley back of
the store, took Sam for a walk into the country.
“I will continue this talk of
love,” said Telfer, striking at weeds along
the road with his cane and from time to time calling
sharply to the dogs that, filled with delight at being
abroad, ran growling and tumbling over each other
in the dusty road.
“That Freedom Smith is a sample
of life in this town. At the word love he drops
his feet upon the floor and pretends to be filled with
disgust. He will talk of corn or steers or of
the stinking hides that he buys, but at the mention
of the word love he is like a hen that has seen a hawk
in the sky. He runs about in circles making a
fuss. ‘Here! Here! Here!’
he cries, ’you are making public something that
should be kept hidden. You are doing in the light
of day what should only be done with a shamed face
in a darkened room.’ Why, boy, if I were
a woman in this town I would not stand it—I
would go to New York, to France, to Paris—To
be wooed for but a passing moment by a shame-faced
yokel without art—uh—it is unthinkable.”
The man and the boy walked in silence.
The dogs, scenting a rabbit, disappeared across a
long pasture, their master letting them go. From
time to time he threw back his head and took long
breaths of the night air.
“I am not like banker Walker,”
he declared. “He thinks of the growing corn
in terms of fat steers feeding on the Rabbit Run farm;
I think of it as something majestic. I see the
long corn rows with the men and the horses half hidden,
hot and breathless, and I think of a vast river of
life. I catch a breath of the flame that was
in the mind of the man who said, ’The land is
flowing with milk and honey.’ I am made
happy by my thoughts not by the dollars clinking in
my pocket.
“And then in the fall when the
corn stands shocked I see another picture. Here
and there in companies stand the armies of the corn.
It puts a ring in my voice to look at them. ’These
orderly armies has mankind brought out of chaos,’
I say to myself. ’On a smoking black ball
flung by the hand of God out of illimitable space
has man stood up these armies to defend his home against
the grim attacking armies of want.’”
Telfer stopped and stood in the road
with his legs spread apart. He took off his hat
and throwing back his head laughed up at the stars.
“Freedom Smith should hear me
now,” he cried, rocking back and forth with
laughter and switching his cane at the boy’s
legs so that Sam had to hop merrily about in the road
to avoid it. “Flung by the hand of God out
of illimitable space—eh! not bad, eh!
I should be in Congress. I am wasted here.
I am throwing priceless eloquence to dogs who prefer
to chase rabbits and to a boy who is the worst little
money grubber in the town.”
The midsummer madness that had seized
Telfer passed and for a time he walked in silence.
Suddenly, putting his arm on the boy’s shoulder,
he stopped and pointed to where a faint light in the
sky marked the lighted town.
“They are good people,”
he said, “but their ways are not my ways or your
ways. You will go out of the town. You have
genius. You will be a man of finance. I
have watched you. You are not niggardly and you
do not cheat and lie—result—you
will not be a little business man. What have you?
You have the gift of seeing dollars where the rest
of the boys of the town see nothing and you are tireless
after those dollars—you will be a big man
of dollars, it is plain.” Into his voice
came a touch of bitterness. “I also was
marked out. Why do I carry a cane? why do I not
buy a farm and raise steers? I am the most worthless
thing alive. I have the touch of genius without
the energy to make it count.”
Sam’s mind that had been inflamed
by the kiss of the girl cooled in the presence of
Telfer. In the summer madness of the talking man
there was something soothing to the fever in his blood.
He followed the words eagerly, seeing pictures, getting
thrills, filled with happiness.
At the edge of town a buggy passed
the walking pair. In the buggy sat a young farmer,
his arm about the waist of a girl, her head upon his
shoulder. Far in the distance sounded the faint
call of the dogs. Sam and Telfer sat down on
a grassy bank under a tree while Telfer rolled and
lighted a cigarette.
“As I promised, I will talk
to you of love,” he said, making a wide sweep
with his arm each time as he put his cigarette into
his mouth.
The grassy bank on which they lay
had the rich, burned smell of the hot days. A
wind rustled the standing corn that formed a kind of
wall behind them. The moon was in the sky and
shone down across bank after bank of serried clouds.
The grandiloquence went out of the voice of Telfer
and his face became serious.
“My foolishness is more than
half earnest,” he said. “I think that
a man or boy who has set for himself a task had better
let women and girls alone. If he be a man of
genius, he has a purpose independent of all the world,
and should cut and slash and pound his way toward his
mark, forgetting every one, particularly the woman
that would come to grips with him. She also has
a mark toward which she goes. She is at war with
him and has a purpose that is not his purpose.
She believes that the pursuit of women is an end for
a life. For all they now condemn Mike McCarthy
who went to the asylum because of them and who, while
loving life, came near to taking life, the women of
Caxton do not condemn his madness for themselves;
they do not blame him for loitering away his good years
or for making an abortive mess of his good brain.
While he made an art of the pursuit of women they
applauded secretly. Did not twelve of them accept
the challenge thrown out by his eyes as he loitered
in the streets?”
The man, who had begun talking quietly
and seriously, raised his voice and waved the lighted
cigarette in the air and the boy who had begun to think
again of the dark-skinned daughter of banker Walker
listened attentively. The barking of the dogs
grew nearer.
“If you as a boy can get from
me, a grown man, an understanding of the purpose of
women you will not have lived in this town for nothing.
Set your mark at money making if you will, but drive
at that. Let yourself but go and a sweet wistful
pair of eyes seen in a street crowd or a pair of little
feet running over a dance floor will retard your growth
for years. No man or boy can grow toward the
purpose of a life while he thinks of women. Let
him try it and he will be undone. What is to him
a passing humour is to them an end. They are
diabolically clever. They will run and stop and
run and stop again, keeping just without his reach.
He sees them here and there about him. His mind
is filled with vague, delicious thoughts that come
out of the very air; before he realises what he has
done he has spent his years in vain pursuit and turning
finds himself old and undone.”
Telfer began jabbing at the ground with his stick.
“I had my chance. In New
York I had money to live on and time to have made
an artist of myself. I won prize after prize.
The master, walking up and down back of us, lingered
longest over my easel. There was a fellow sat
beside me who had nothing. I made sport of him
and called him Sleepy Jock after a dog we used to
have about our house here in Caxton. Now I am
here idly waiting for death and that Jock, where is
he? Only last week I saw in a paper that he had
won a place among the world’s great artists by
a picture he has painted. In the school I watched
for a look in the eyes of the girl students and went
about with them night after night winning, like Mike
McCarthy, fruitless victories. Sleepy Jock had
the best of it. He did not look about with open
eyes but kept peering instead at the face of the master.
My days were full of small successes. I could
wear clothes. I could make soft-eyed girls turn
to look at me in a dance hall. I remember a night.
We students gave a dance and Sleepy Jock came.
He went about asking for dances and the girls laughed
and told him they had none to give, that the dances
were taken. I followed him and had my ears filled
with flattery and my card with names. In riding
the wave of small success I got the habit of small
success. When I could not catch the line I wanted
to make a drawing live, I dropped my pencil and, taking
a girl upon my arm, went for a day in the country.
Once, sitting in a restaurant, I overheard two women
talking of the beauty of my eyes and was made happy
for a week.”
Telfer threw up his hands in disgust.
“My flow of words, my ready
trick of talking; to what does it bring me? Let
me tell you. It has brought me to this—that
at fifty I, who might have been an artist fixing the
minds of thousands upon some thing of beauty or of
truth, have become a village cut-up, a pot-house wit,
a flinger of idle words into the air of a village
intent upon raising corn.
“If you ask me why, I tell you
that my mind was paralysed by small success and if
you ask me where I got the taste for that, I tell you
that I got it when I saw it lurking in a woman’s
eyes and heard the pleasant little songs that lull
to sleep upon a woman’s lips.”
The boy, sitting upon the grassy bank
beside Telfer, began thinking of life in Caxton.
The man smoking the cigarette fell into one of his
rare silences. The boy thought of girls that
had come into his mind at night, of how he had been
thrilled by a glance from the eyes of a little blue-eyed
school girl who had once visited at Freedom Smith’s
home and of how he had gone at night to stand under
her window.
In Caxton adolescent love had about
it a virility befitting a land that raised so many
bushels of yellow corn and drove so many fat steers
through the streets to be loaded upon cars. Men
and women went their ways believing, with characteristic
American what-boots-it attitude toward the needs of
childhood, that it was well for growing boys and girls
to be much alone together. To leave them alone
together was a principle with them. When a young
man called upon his sweetheart, her parents sat in
the presence of the two with apologetic eyes and presently
disappeared leaving them alone together. When
boys’ and girls’ parties were given in
Caxton houses, parents went away leaving the children
to shift for themselves.
“Now have a good time and don’t
tear the house down,” they said, going off upstairs.
Left to themselves the children played
kissing games and young men and tall half-formed girls
sat on the front porches in the darkness, thrilled
and half frightened, getting through their instincts,
crudely and without guidance, their first peep at
the mystery of life. They kissed passionately
and the young men, walking home, lay upon their beds
fevered and unnaturally aroused, thinking thoughts.
Young men went into the company of
girls time and again without knowing aught of them
except that they caused a stirring of their whole being,
a kind of riot of the senses to which they returned
on other evenings as a drunkard to his cups.
After such an evening they found themselves, on the
next morning, confused and filled with vague longings.
They had lost their keenness for fun, they heard without
hearing the talk of the men about the station and
in the stores, they went slinking through the streets
in groups and people seeing them nodded their heads
and said, “It is the loutish age.”
If Sam did not have a loutish age
it was due to his tireless struggle to increase the
totals at the foot of the pages in the yellow bankbook,
to the growing ill health of his mother that had begun
to frighten him, and to the society of Valmore, Wildman,
Freedom Smith, and the man who now sat musing beside
him. He began to think he would have nothing more
to do with the Walker girl. He remembered his
sister’s affair with a young farmer and shuddered
at the crude vulgarity of it. He looked over the
shoulder of the man sitting beside him absorbed in
thought, and saw the rolling fields stretched away
in the moonlight and into his mind came Telfer’s
speech. So vivid, so moving, seemed the picture
of the armies of standing corn which men had set up
in the fields to protect themselves against the march
of pitiless Nature, and Sam, holding the picture in
his mind as he followed the sense of Telfer’s
talk, thought that all society had resolved itself
into a few sturdy souls who went on and on regardless,
and a hunger to make of himself such another arose
engulfing him. The desire within him seemed so
compelling that he turned and haltingly tried to express
what was in his mind.
“I will try,” he stammered,
“I will try to be a man. I will try to not
have anything to do with them—with women.
I will work and make money— and—and——”
Speech left him. He rolled over
and lying on his stomach looked at the ground.
“To Hell with women and girls,”
he burst forth as though throwing something distasteful
out of his throat.
In the road a clamour arose.
The dogs, giving up the pursuit of rabbits, came barking
and growling into sight and scampered up the grassy
bank, covering the man and the boy. Shaking off
the reaction upon his sensitive nature of the emotions
of the boy Telfer arose. His sang froid
had returned to him. Cutting right and left with
his stick at the dogs he cried joyfully, “We
have had enough of eloquence from man, boy, and dog.
We will be on our way. We will get this boy Sam
home and tucked into bed.”