A BRAVE MAN IN SORROW
Ifmy fair readers should be of opinion
that my hero’s levity in love is altogether
unpardonable, I must remind them that all his griefs
and difficulties did not arise from that sentimental
source. Even the lyric poet who complains so feelingly
of the pains of love could not forget, that at the
same time he was ’in debt and in drink,’
which, doubtless, were great aggravations of his distress.
There were, indeed, whole days in which Waverley thought
neither of Flora nor Rose Bradwardine, but which were
spent in melancholy conjectures on the probable state
of matters at Waverley-Honour, and the dubious issue
of the civil contest in which he was pledged.
Colonel Talbot often engaged him in discussions upon
the justice of the cause he had espoused. ‘Not,’
he said, ’that it is possible for you to quit
it at this present moment, for, come what will, you
must stand by your rash engagement. But I wish
you to be aware that the right is not with you; that
you are fighting against the real interests of your
country; and that you ought, as an Englishman and a
patriot, to take the first opportunity to leave this
unhappy expedition before the snowball melts.’
In such political disputes Waverley
usually opposed the common arguments of his party,
with which it is unnecessary to trouble the reader.
But he had little to say when the Colonel urged him
to compare the strength by which they had undertaken
to overthrow the government with that which was now
assembling very rapidly for its support. To this
statement Waverley had but one answer: ’If
the cause I have undertaken be perilous, there would
be the greater disgrace in abandoning it.’
And in his turn he generally silenced Colonel Talbot,
and succeeded in changing the subject.
One night, when, after a long dispute
of this nature, the friends had separated and our
hero had retired to bed, he was awakened about midnight
by a suppressed groan. He started up and listened;
it came from the apartment of Colonel Talbot, which
was divided from his own by a wainscotted partition,
with a door of communication. Waverley approached
this door and distinctly heard one or two deep-drawn
sighs. What could be the matter? The Colonel
had parted from him apparently in his usual state of
spirits. He must have been taken suddenly ill.
Under this impression he opened the door of communication
very gently, and perceived the Colonel, in his night-gown,
seated by a table, on which lay a letter and a picture.
He raised his head hastily, as Edward stood uncertain
whether to advance or retire, and Waverley perceived
that his cheeks were stained with tears.
As if ashamed at being found giving
way to such emotion, Colonel Talbot rose with apparent
displeasure and said, with some sternness, ’I
think, Mr. Waverley, my own apartment and the hour
might have secured even a prisoner against—’
’Do not say intrusion,
Colonel Talbot; I heard you breathe hard and feared
you were ill; that alone could have induced me to break
in upon you.’
‘I am well,’ said the Colonel, ‘perfectly
well.’
‘But you are distressed,’
said Edward; ’is there anything can be done?’
’Nothing, Mr. Waverley; I was
only thinking of home, and some unpleasant occurrences
there.’
‘Good God, my uncle!’ exclaimed Waverley.
’No, it is a grief entirely
my own. I am ashamed you should have seen it
disarm me so much; but it must have its course at times,
that it may be at others more decently supported.
I would have kept it secret from you; for I think
it will grieve you, and yet you can administer no
consolation. But you have surprised me,—I
see you are surprised yourself,—and I hate
mystery. Read that letter.’
The letter was from Colonel Talbot’s
sister, and in these words:—
’I received yours, my dearest
brother, by Hodges. Sir E. W. and Mr. R. are
still at large, but are not permitted to leave London.
I wish to Heaven I could give you as good an account
of matters in the square. But the news of the
unhappy affair at Preston came upon us, with the dreadful
addition that you were among the fallen. You
know Lady Emily’s state of health, when your
friendship for Sir E. induced you to leave her.
She was much harassed with the sad accounts from Scotland
of the rebellion having broken out; but kept up her
spirits, as, she said, it became your wife, and for
the sake of the future heir, so long hoped for in
vain. Alas, my dear brother, these hopes are now
ended! Notwithstanding all my watchful care, this
unhappy rumour reached her without preparation.
She was taken ill immediately; and the poor infant
scarce survived its birth. Would to God this
were all! But although the contradiction of the
horrible report by your own letter has greatly revived
her spirits, yet Dr.—— apprehends,
I grieve to say, serious, and even dangerous, consequences
to her health, especially from the uncertainty in
which she must necessarily remain for some time, aggravated
by the ideas she has formed of the ferocity of those
with whom you are a prisoner.
’Do therefore, my dear brother,
as soon as this reaches you, endeavour to gain your
release, by parole, by ransom, or any way that is
practicable. I do not exaggerate Lady Emily’s
state of health; but I must not—dare not—suppress
the truth. Ever, my dear Philip, your most affectionate
sister,
‘Lucy talbot.’
Edward stood motionless when he had
perused this letter; for the conclusion was inevitable,
that, by the Colonel’s journey in quest of him,
he had incurred this heavy calamity. It was severe
enough, even in its irremediable part; for Colonel
Talbot and Lady Emily, long without a family, had
fondly exulted in the hopes which were now blasted.
But this disappointment was nothing to the extent of
the threatened evil; and Edward, with horror, regarded
himself as the original cause of both.
Ere he could collect himself sufficiently
to speak, Colonel Talbot had recovered his usual composure
of manner, though his troubled eye denoted his mental
agony.
’She is a woman, my young friend,
who may justify even a soldier’s tears.’
He reached him the miniature, exhibiting features which
fully justified the eulogium; ’and yet, God knows,
what you see of her there is the least of the charms
she possesses—possessed, I should perhaps
say—but God’s will be done.’
’ You must fly—you
must fly instantly to her relief. It is not—
it shall not be too late.’
‘Fly? how is it possible?
I am a prisoner, upon parole.’
‘I am your keeper; I restore
your parole; I am to answer for you.’
’You cannot do so consistently
with your duty; nor can I accept a discharge from
you, with due regard to my own honour; you would be
made responsible.’
‘I will answer it with my head,
if necessary,’ said Waverley impetuously.
’I have been the unhappy cause of the loss of
your child, make me not the murderer of your wife.’
‘No, my dear Edward,’
said Talbot, taking him kindly by the hand, ’you
are in no respect to blame; and if I concealed this
domestic distress for two days, it was lest your sensibility
should view it in that light. You could not think
of me, hardly knew of my existence, when I left England
in quest of you. It is a responsibility, Heaven
knows, sufficiently heavy for mortality, that we must
answer for the foreseen and direct result of our actions;
for their indirect and consequential operation the
great and good Being, who alone can foresee the dependence
of human events on each other, hath not pronounced
his frail creatures liable.’
‘But that you should have left
Lady Emily,’ said Waverley, with much emotion,
’in the situation of all others the most interesting
to a husband, to seek a—’
‘I only did my duty,’
answered Colonel Talbot, calmly, ’and I do not,
ought not, to regret it. If the path of gratitude
and honour were always smooth and easy, there would
be little merit in following it; but it moves often
in contradiction to our interest and passions, and
sometimes to our better affections. These are
the trials of life, and this, though not the least
bitter’ (the tears came unbidden to his eyes),
’is not the first which it has been my fate
to encounter. But we will talk of this to-morrow,’
he said, wringing Waverley’s hands. ’Good-night;
strive to forget it for a few hours. It will
dawn, I think, by six, and it is now past two.
Good-night.’
Edward retired, without trusting his
voice with a reply.