Section 2
Karenin lay on the bed with a soft
white rug about him, and Fowler, who was to be his
surgeon sat on the edge of the bed and talked to him.
An assistant was seated quietly in the shadow behind
the bed. The examination had been made, and Karenin
knew what was before him. He was tired but serene.
‘So I shall die,’ he said, ‘unless
you operate?’
Fowler assented. ‘And then,’
said Karenin, smiling, ’probably I shall die.’
‘Not certainly.’
‘Even if I do not die; shall I be able to work?’
‘There is just a chance….’
’So firstly I shall probably
die, and if I do not, then perhaps I shall be a useless
invalid?’
‘I think if you live, you may be able to go
on—as you do now.’
’Well, then, I suppose I must
take the risk of it. Yet couldn’t you,
Fowler, couldn’t you drug me and patch me instead
of all this—vivisection? A few days
of drugged and active life—and then the
end?’
Fowler thought. ‘We are
not sure enough yet to do things like that,’
he said.
‘But a day is coming when you will be certain.’
Fowler nodded.
’You make me feel as though
I was the last of deformity—Deformity is
uncertainty—inaccuracy. My body works
doubtfully, it is not even sure that it will die or
live. I suppose the time is not far off when such
bodies as mine will no longer be born into the world.’
‘You see,’ said Fowler,
after a little pause, ’it is necessary that
spirits such as yours should be born into the world.’
‘I suppose,’ said Karenin,
’that my spirit has had its use. But if
you think that is because my body is as it is I think
you are mistaken. There is no peculiar virtue
in defect. I have always chafed against—all
this. If I could have moved more freely and lived
a larger life in health I could have done more.
But some day perhaps you will be able to put a body
that is wrong altogether right again. Your science
is only beginning. It’s a subtler thing
than physics and chemistry, and it takes longer to
produce its miracles. And meanwhile a few more
of us must die in patience.’
‘Fine work is being done and
much of it,’ said Fowler. ’I can say
as much because I have nothing to do with it.
I can understand a lesson, appreciate the discoveries
of abler men and use my hands, but those others, Pigou,
Masterton, Lie, and the others, they are clearing the
ground fast for the knowledge to come. Have you
had time to follow their work?’
Karenin shook his head. ‘But
I can imagine the scope of it,’ he said.
‘We have so many men working
now,’ said Fowler. ’I suppose at
present there must be at least a thousand thinking
hard, observing, experimenting, for one who did so
in nineteen hundred.’
‘Not counting those who keep the records?’
’Not counting those. Of
course, the present indexing of research is in itself
a very big work, and it is only now that we are getting
it properly done. But already we are feeling
the benefit of that. Since it ceased to be a
paid employment and became a devotion we have had only
those people who obeyed the call of an aptitude at
work upon these things. Here—I must
show you it to-day, because it will interest you—we
have our copy of the encyclopaedic index—every
week sheets are taken out and replaced by fresh sheets
with new results that are brought to us by the aeroplanes
of the Research Department. It is an index of
knowledge that grows continually, an index that becomes
continually truer. There was never anything like
it before.’
‘When I came into the education
committee,’ said Karenin, ’that index
of human knowledge seemed an impossible thing.
Research had produced a chaotic mountain of results,
in a hundred languages and a thousand different types
of publication. . . .’ He smiled at his
memories. ’How we groaned at the job!’
‘Already the ordering of that
chaos is nearly done. You shall see.’
‘I have been so busy with my
own work——Yes, I shall be glad to
see.’
The patient regarded the surgeon for
a time with interested eyes.
‘You work here always?’ he asked abruptly.
‘No,’ said Fowler.
‘But mostly you work here?’
’I have worked about seven years
out of the past ten. At times I go away—down
there. One has to. At least I have to.
There is a sort of grayness comes over all this, one
feels hungry for life, real, personal passionate life,
love-making, eating and drinking for the fun of the
thing, jostling crowds, having adventures, laughter—above
all laughter——’
‘Yes,’ said Karenin understandingly.
’And then one day, suddenly
one thinks of these high mountains again….’
‘That is how I would have lived,
if it had not been for my—defects,’
said Karenin. ’Nobody knows but those who
have borne it the exasperation of abnormality.
It will be good when you have nobody alive whose body
cannot live the wholesome everyday life, whose spirit
cannot come up into these high places as it wills.’
‘We shall manage that soon,’ said Fowler.
’For endless generations man
has struggled upward against the indignities of his
body—and the indignities of his soul.
Pains, incapacities, vile fears, black moods, despairs.
How well I’ve known them. They’ve
taken more time than all your holidays. It is
true, is it not, that every man is something of a
cripple and something of a beast? I’ve
dipped a little deeper than most; that’s all.
It’s only now when he has fully learnt the truth
of that, that he can take hold of himself to be neither
beast nor cripple. Now that he overcomes his servitude
to his body, he can for the first time think of living
the full life of his body…. Before another
generation dies you’ll have the thing in hand.
You’ll do as you please with the old Adam and
all the vestiges from the brutes and reptiles that
lurk in his body and spirit. Isn’t that
so?’
‘You put it boldly,’ said Fowler.
Karenin laughed cheerfully at his
caution…. ‘When,’ asked Karenin
suddenly, ‘when will you operate?’
‘The day after to-morrow,’
said Fowler. ’For a day I want you to drink
and eat as I shall prescribe. And you may think
and talk as you please.’
‘I should like to see this place.’
’You shall go through it this
afternoon. I will have two men carry you in a
litter. And to-morrow you shall lie out upon the
terrace. Our mountains here are the most beautiful
in the world….’