Section 9
As the evening drew on Karenin and
those who were about him went up upon the roof of
the buildings, so that they might the better watch
the sunset and the flushing of the mountains and the
coming of the afterglow. They were joined by
two of the surgeons from the laboratories below, and
presently by a nurse who brought Karenin refreshment
in a thin glass cup. It was a cloudless, windless
evening under the deep blue sky, and far away to the
north glittered two biplanes on the way to the observatories
on Everest, two hundred miles distant over the precipices
to the east. The little group of people watched
them pass over the mountains and vanish into the blue,
and then for a time they talked of the work that the
observatory was doing. From that they passed to
the whole process of research about the world, and
so Karenin’s thoughts returned again to the
mind of the world and the great future that was opening
upon man’s imagination. He asked the surgeons
many questions upon the detailed possibilities of
their science, and he was keenly interested and excited
by the things they told him. And as they talked
the sun touched the mountains, and became very swiftly
a blazing and indented hemisphere of liquid flame
and sank.
Karenin looked blinking at the last
quivering rim of incandescence, and shaded his eyes
and became silent.
Presently he gave a little start.
‘What?’ asked Rachel Borken.
‘I had forgotten,’ he said.
‘What had you forgotten?’
’I had forgotten about the operation
to-morrow. I have been so interested as Man to-day
that I have nearly forgotten Marcus Karenin.
Marcus Karenin must go under your knife to-morrow,
Fowler, and very probably Marcus Karenin will die.’
He raised his slightly shrivelled hand. ’It
does not matter, Fowler. It scarcely matters even
to me. For indeed is it Karenin who has been
sitting here and talking; is it not rather a common
mind, Fowler, that has played about between us?
You and I and all of us have added thought to thought,
but the thread is neither you nor me. What is
true we all have; when the individual has altogether
brought himself to the test and winnowing of expression,
then the individual is done. I feel as though
I had already been emptied out of that little vessel,
that Marcus Karenin, which in my youth held me so
tightly and completely. Your beauty, dear Edith,
and your broad brow, dear Rachel, and you, Fowler,
with your firm and skilful hands, are now almost as
much to me as this hand that beats the arm of my chair.
And as little me. And the spirit that desires
to know, the spirit that resolves to do, that spirit
that lives and has talked in us to-day, lived in Athens,
lived in Florence, lives on, I know, for ever….
’And you, old Sun, with your
sword of flame searing these poor eyes of Marcus for
the last time of all, beware of me! You think
I die—and indeed I am only taking off one
more coat to get at you. I have threatened you
for ten thousand years, and soon I warn you I shall
be coming. When I am altogether stripped and
my disguises thrown away. Very soon now, old
Sun, I shall launch myself at you, and I shall reach
you and I shall put my foot on your spotted face and
tug you about by your fiery locks. One step I
shall take to the moon, and then I shall leap at you.
I’ve talked to you before, old Sun, I’ve
talked to you a million times, and now I am beginning
to remember. Yes—long ago, long ago,
before I had stripped off a few thousand generations,
dust now and forgotten, I was a hairy savage and I
pointed my hand at you and—clearly I remember
it!—I saw you in a net. Have you forgotten
that, old Sun? . . .
’Old Sun, I gather myself together
out of the pools of the individual that have held
me dispersed so long. I gather my billion thoughts
into science and my million wills into a common purpose.
Well may you slink down behind the mountains from
me, well may you cower….’