OH! ask not a home in the mansions of
pride,
Where marble shines out in
the pillars and walls;
Though the roof be of gold, it is brilliantly
cold,
And joy may not be found in
its torch-lighted halls.
But seek for a bosom all honest and true,
Where love once awakened will
never depart;
Turn, turn to that breast like the dove
to its nest,
And you’ll find there’s
no home like a home in the heart.
Oh! link but one spirit that’s warmly
sincere,
That will heighten your pleasure
and solace your care;
Find a soul you may trust as the kind
and the just,
And be sure the wide world
holds no treasure so rare.
Then the frowns of misfortune may shadow
our lot,
The cheek-searing tear-drops,
of sorrow may start,
But a star never dim sheds a halo for
him
Who can turn for repose to
a home in the heart.
A LEAF FROM A FAMILY JOURNAL.
OUR married life had commenced, and
this was HOME. As I opened my eyes in our new
abode, the rays of the morning sun were penetrating
the muslin curtains, the air was, fill with the fragrance
of mignionette, and in the adjoining room I heard
a loved voice warbling my favourite air.
On the different articles of furniture
lay a hundred things to remind me the change which
had taken place in mode of life. There lay the
bouquet of orange flowers worn by Micelle on our wedding
day; here stood her work basket; a little further on,
and my eye fell on her small bookcase, ornamented
with her school prizes and several other volumes,
recent offerings from myself. Thus all my surroundings
indicated that I was no longer alone. Till then
in my independence I had merely skirted the great
army of humanity, measuring all things with regard
to my own strength only. I had now entered its
ranks; accompanied by a fellow traveller, whose powers
and feelings must be consulted, and whose tenderness
must be equalled by the protecting love shed around
her. A few weeks ago I should have fallen unnoticed
and left no void, henceforward my lot lay bound in
that of others. I had taken root in life, and
for the future must fortify and strengthen myself
for the protection of the nests which would in time
be formed beneath my shade.
Sweet sense of responsibility, which
elevated without alarming me! What had Marcelle
and I to fear? Was not our departure on the voyage
of life like that of Athenian Theori for the island
of Delos, sailing to the sound of harps and songs
while crowned with flowers? Did not our hearts
beat responsive to the chorus of youth’s protecting
genii?
Strength said, “What
matters the task? Feel you not that to you it
will all be easy? It is the weak alone who weigh
the burden. Atlas smiled, though he bore the
world on his shoulders.”
Faith added, “Have confidence,
and the mountains which obstruct your path shall vanish
like clouds; the sea shall bear you up, and the rainbow
shall become a bridge for your feet.”
Hope whispered, “Behold,
before lies repose after fatigue; plenty will follow
after scarcity. On, on, for the desert leads to
the promised land.”
And lastly, a voice more fascinating
than any, added, “Love one another; there is
not on earth a surer talisman; it is the ’Open
Sesame’ which will put you in the possession
of all the treasures of creation.”
Why not listen to these sweet assurances?
“Cherished companions of our opening career,
my faith in you is strong; you, who, like unto the
military music which animates the soldier’s courage,
lead us, intoxicated by your melody, on to the battle
field of life.” What can I fear from a
life through which I shall pass with Marcelle’s
arm entwined in mine? The sun shines on the commencement
of our journey; forward over flowery fields, by hedges
alive with song, through ever-verdant forests!
Let one horizon succeed another! The day is so
lovely, and the night yet so distant!
While thus occupied with my newborn
happiness, I had risen and joined Marcelle, who had
already taken possession of her domestic kingdom.
Everything must be visited with her;
her precocious housewifery must be admired; her arrangements
must be applauded. First she showed me the little
‘salle a manger,’ dedicated to the
meals which would unite us in the intervals of business:
to this cause it owed the air of opulence and brightness
which Marcelle had carefully striven to impart to
it. China, silver, and glass, sparkled on the
shelves. Here lay rich fruits half hidden in moss;
there, stood freshly-gathered flowers—everything
spoke of the reign of grace and plenty. From
thence we passed into the salon, the closed curtains
of which admitted only a soft and subdued light, which
fell on statuettes ornamenting the consoles, and the
gilt frames on the walls: on the tables lay scattered
in graceful negligence, albums, elegancies of papier
mache, and carved ivory; precious nothings which had
constituted the young girl’s treasures.
At the farther end, the folds of a heavy curtain concealed
the bower, sacred to the lady of the castle.
Here admittance was at first denied me, and I was
obliged to have recourse to entreaty before the drapery
was raised for our entrance.
The cabinet was lighted by a small
window, over which hung a blind, representing a gothic
casement of painted glass, the bright colours of which
were now rendered more brilliant by the sunlight which
streamed through. The principal furniture consisted
of a pretty lounging chair and the work table, near
which I had so often seen Marcelle seated with her
embroidery when I passed under her aunt’s window.
Her pretty flower-stand, gay with her favourite flowers,
occupied the window in which hung a gilt-wire cage,
the melodious prison-house of her pet bird; and lastly,
there stood fronting the window, the bureau, consecrated
since her school-days, to her intimate correspondence.
She showed it to me with an almost
tearful gravity. Everything it contained was
a relic, or souvenir. That agate inkstand had
belonged to her elder sister, who died just when Marcelle
was old enough to know and love her; this mother-of-pearl
paper-cutter was a present to her from her aunt, before
she became her adopted child; this seal had belonged
to her father! She half-opened the different drawers,
for me to peep at the treasures they contained.
In one were the letters of her dearest school-friend,
now married, gone abroad, and therefore lost to her;
in another, were family papers; lower down, her certificates
for the performance of religious obligations, prizes
obtained, and examinations passed—the young
girl’s humble patent of nobility!—and
last of all, in the most secret corner, lay some faded
flowers, and the correspondence which, with the consent
of her Aunt Roubert, we had interchanged when absent
from each other.
In the contents of this bureau, were
united all the touching and pleasing reminiscences
of her former life; they formed Marcelle’s poetic
archives, whither she often retired in her hours of
solitude. Often, on my return from business,
I found her here, smiling, and seemingly perfumed
by memories of the past.
Ah! thought I, why have not men also
some spot thus consecrated to like holy and sweet
remembrances, a sanctuary replete with tokens of family
affection, and relics of youth’s enthusiasm?
Our ancestors, in their pride, cut out of the granite
rock safe depositories for the proofs of their empty
titles and long pedigrees; is it impossible for us
to devote some obscure corner to the annals of the
heart, to all that recalls to us our former noble aspirations,
and generous hopes?
Time has torn from the walls the genealogical
trees of noble families, but he has left space for
those of the soul. Let us seek the origin of
our decisions, our sympathies, our repugnances, and
our hopes, and we shall ever find that they spring
from some circumstance of by-gone days. The present
is rooted in the past. Who has met by chance
with some relic of earlier years, and has not been
touched by the remembrances called forth? It is
by looking back to the starting-point, that we can
best calculate the distance traversed; it is in so
doing that we feel either pleasure or alarm.
Truly happy is the man who, after gazing on the portrait
of his youth, can turn towards the original and find
it unimpaired by age!
These reflections were interrupted
by the sound of my father’s voice, which brought
us out of Marcelle’s retreat to welcome him.
He came to see our new abode, and add his satisfaction
to our happiness. He was a gentle stoic, whose
courage had ever served as a bulwark to the weak,
and whose inflexibility was but another name for entire
self-abnegation; he was indulgent to all, because he
never forgave himself, and ever veiled severity in
gentleness. His wisdom partook neither of arrogance
nor passion; it descended to the level of your comprehension,
and while pointing upwards, led you by the hand, and
guided the ascent. It was a mother who instructed,
never a judge who condemned.
Though pleased with my choice, and
happy at seeing us united, he had nevertheless refused
a place at our fireside. “These first hours
of youth are especially your own,” he had said
to me with a paternal embrace; “an old man would
throw a shadow over the meridian sunshine of your
joy. It is better that you should regret my absence,
than for one moment feel my presence a restraint.
Besides, solitude is necessary to you, as well as
to me—for you to talk of your hopes
for the future, for me to recall remembrances
of the past. Some time hence, when my strength
is failing, I will come to you, and close my eyes
in the shadow of your prosperity.”
And all my entreaties had been unavailing:
the separation was unavoidable. Now, however,
Marcelle sprang forward to meet him, and led him triumphantly
across the room, to begin a re-examination of its
treasures. My father listened to all, replied
to all, and smiled at all. He lent himself to
our dreams of happiness, pausing before each new phase,
to point out a hope overlooked before, or a joy forgotten.
While thus pleasantly occupied, time slipped away
unnoticed, until Marcelle’s aunt arrived.
Who was there in our native town who
did not know Aunt Roubert? The very mention of
her name was sufficient to make one gay. Left
a widow in early life, and in involved circumstances,
she had, by dint of activity, order, and economy,
entirely extricated herself from pecuniary difficulty.
Of her might be said with truth, that “sa
part d’esprit lui avait ete donnee en bon sens.”
Taking reality for her guide, she had followed in the
beaten track of life, carefully avoiding the many
sharp flints which caprice scatters in the way.
Always on the move, alternately setting people to
rights, and grumbling at either them or herself, she
yet found time to manage well her own affairs, and
to improve those of others—a faculty which
had obtained for her the name of “La Femme
de menage de la Providence.” Vulgar
in appearance, she was practical in the extreme, and
results generally proved her in the right. Her
nature was made up of the prose of life, but prose
so clear, so consistent, that, but for its simplicity,
it would have been profound.
Aunt Roubert arrived, according to
custom, a large umbrella in hand, while her arm was
loaded with an immense horsehair bag. She entered
the little cabinet, where we were seated, like a shower
of hail:—“Here you are at last,”
she exclaimed, “I have been into every room,
in search of you, Do you know, my dear, that the chests
of linen have arrived?”
“Very well, I will go and see
after it,” said Marcelle, who, with one hand
in my father’s, and the other in mine, seemed
in no hurry to stir.
“You will go and see after it,”
repeated Aunt Roubert, “that will be very useless,
for you will find no place to put it in; I have been
over your abode, my poor child, and instead of a home
I find a ‘salon de theatre.’”
“Why, aunt,” exclaimed
Marcelle, “how can you say so? Remi and
his father have just been through the rooms, and are
delighted with them!”
“Don’t talk of men and
housekeeping in the same breath,” replied Madame,
in her most peremptory tone; “see that they are
provided with a pair of snuffers and a bootjack, and
they will not discover the want of anything else;
but I, dear friend, know what a house should be.
In entering the lobby just now, I looked about for
a hook, on which to hang my cloak, and could find
nothing, but flowering stocks! My dear, flowers
form the principal part of your furniture!”
Marcelle endeavoured to protest against
the assertion by enumerating our stock of valuables,
but she was interrupted by her aunt.
“I am not talking of what you
have, but of what you have not,” she said; “I
certainly saw in your salon some little bronze marmozettes.”
“Marmozettes!” I cried,
“you mean statuettes of Schiller and Rousseau.”
“Possibly,” Aunt Roubert
quietly replied, “they may at a push serve as
match holders; but, dear friend, in the fire-place
of your office below, I could see neither tongs nor
shovel. On opening the sideboard, I found a charming
little silver-gilt service, but no soup ladle, so
one can only suppose that you mean to live on sweetmeats;
and lastly, though the ’salle a manger
is ornamented with beautifully gilt porcelain, the
kitchen unfortunately is minus both roasting-jack
and frying-pan! Good heavens, these are most
unromantic details, are they not?” added she,
noticing the gesture of annoyance which we were unable
altogether to repress; “but as you will be obliged
to descend to them whenever you want a roast or an
omelette, it would perhaps be as well to provide for
them.”
“You are right!” I replied,
a little out of humour, for I had noticed Marcelle’s
confusion, “but such omissions are easily rectified
when their need is felt.”
“That is to say, you will wait
until bed-time to order the mattrass,” replied
Aunt Roubert; “well, well, my children, as you
will, but now your attendance is required on your linen,
which awaits you in the lobby; I suppose my niece
does not propose to arrange it in her birdcage, or
flower-stand; can she show me the place destined for
it?”
Marcelle had coloured to the roots
of her hair, and stood twisting and untwisting her
apron-string.
“Ah well! I see you have
not thought of that,” said the old aunt; “but
never mind, we will find some place to put it in after
breakfast; you know we are to breakfast together.”
This was a point Marcelle had not
forgotten, and she forthwith led the way to her breakfast-table.
At the sight of it my father gave
a start of pleased surprise. In the centre stood
a basket of fruit, flowers, and moss, round which
were arranged all our favourite dainties; each could
recognize the dish prepared to suit his taste.
After having given a rapid glance round, Madame Roubert
cried out,
“And the bread, my child?”
Marcelle uttered a cry of consternation.
“You have none,” said
her aunt, quietly; “send your servant for some.”
Then lowering her voice, she added, “As she will
pass by my door, she can at the same time tell Baptiste
to bring the large easy-chair for your father, and
I hope you will keep it. Your gothic chairs are
very pretty to look at but when one is old or invalided,
what one likes best in a chair, is a comfortable seat.”
While awaiting the servant’s
return, Madame Roubert accompanied Marcelle in a tour
round our abode. She pointed out what had been
forgotten, remedied the inconvenience of several arrangements,
or superseded them with better, doing it all with
the utmost cheerful simplicity. Her hints never
bordered on criticisms; she showed the error without
astonishment at its having been committed, and without
priding herself on its discovery.
When she had completed her examination,
she took her niece aside with her accounts. Marcelle
fetched the little rosewood case which served her
as a cash box, and sat down to calculate the expenses
of the past week. But her efforts to produce
a satisfactory balance, seemed useless. It was
in vain that she added and subtracted, and counted
piece by piece her remaining money, the deficit never
varied. Astounded at such a result, and at the
amount spent, she began to examine the lock of her
box, and to ask herself how its contents could have
so rapidly disappeared, when Aunt Roubert interrupted
her.
“Take care,” she said
in one of her most serious tones. “See,
how from want of careful account-keeping you already
suspect others; before this evening is here you will
be ready to accuse them. It always is so.
The want of order engenders suspicion, and it is easier
to doubt the probity of others than one’s own
memory. No lock can prevent that, my child, because
none can shelter you from the results of your own
miscalculations. There is no safeguard for the
woman at the head of a household, like a housekeeping-book
which serves to warn her day by day, and bears faithful
witness at the end of the month. I have brought
you such a one as your uncle used to give me.”
She drew it from her bag, and presented
it to Marcelle.
It was an account-book bound in parchment,
the cover of which was separated like a portfolio
into three pockets, destined for receipts, bills,
and memoranda. The book itself was divided into
several parts, distinguished one from the other by
markers corresponding to the different species of
expenditure, so that a glance was sufficient to form
an estimate, not only of the sum total, but also of
the amount of expenditure, in each separate branch.
The whole formed a domestic budget
as clear as it was complete, in which each portion
of the government service had its open account regulated
by the supreme comptroller.
M. Roubert, who had been during his
life a species of unknown Franklin, solely occupied
in the endeavour to make business and, opinions agree
with good sense, had written above, each chapter a
borrowed or unpublished maxim to serve as warning to
its possessor. At the beginning of the book the
following words were traced in red ink:—
“Economy is the true source of
independence and liberality.”
Farther on, at the head of the division
destined to expenses of the table:—
“A Wise man has always three cooks,
who season the simplest food: Sobriety, Exercise,
and Content.”
Above the chapter devoted to benevolence:—
“Give as thou hast received”
And lastly, on the page destined to
receive the amount of each month’s savings,
he had copied this saying of a Chinese philosopher:—
“Time and patience convert the
mulberry leaf into satin.”
After having given us time to look
over the book, and read its wise counsels, Aunt Roubert
explained to Marcelle the particulars of its use,
and endeavoured to initiate her in domestic book-keeping.