THE MAN ON PUTNEY HILL
I spent that night in the inn that
stands at the top of Putney Hill, sleeping in a made
bed for the first time since my flight to Leatherhead.
I will not tell the needless trouble I had breaking
into that house—afterwards I found the
front door was on the latch—nor how I ransacked
every room for food, until just on the verge of despair,
in what seemed to me to be a servant’s bedroom,
I found a rat-gnawed crust and two tins of pineapple.
The place had been already searched and emptied.
In the bar I afterwards found some biscuits and sandwiches
that had been overlooked. The latter I could
not eat, they were too rotten, but the former not only
stayed my hunger, but filled my pockets. I lit
no lamps, fearing some Martian might come beating
that part of London for food in the night. Before
I went to bed I had an interval of restlessness, and
prowled from window to window, peering out for some
sign of these monsters. I slept little.
As I lay in bed I found myself thinking consecutively—a
thing I do not remember to have done since my last
argument with the curate. During all the intervening
time my mental condition had been a hurrying succession
of vague emotional states or a sort of stupid receptivity.
But in the night my brain, reinforced, I suppose,
by the food I had eaten, grew clear again, and I thought.
Three things struggled for possession
of my mind: the killing of the curate, the whereabouts
of the Martians, and the possible fate of my wife.
The former gave me no sensation of horror or remorse
to recall; I saw it simply as a thing done, a memory
infinitely disagreeable but quite without the quality
of remorse. I saw myself then as I see myself
now, driven step by step towards that hasty blow,
the creature of a sequence of accidents leading inevitably
to that. I felt no condemnation; yet the memory,
static, unprogressive, haunted me. In the silence
of the night, with that sense of the nearness of God
that sometimes comes into the stillness and the darkness,
I stood my trial, my only trial, for that moment of
wrath and fear. I retraced every step of our
conversation from the moment when I had found him
crouching beside me, heedless of my thirst, and pointing
to the fire and smoke that streamed up from the ruins
of Weybridge. We had been incapable of co-operation—grim
chance had taken no heed of that. Had I foreseen,
I should have left him at Halliford. But I did
not foresee; and crime is to foresee and do.
And I set this down as I have set all this story down,
as it was. There were no witnesses—all
these things I might have concealed. But I set
it down, and the reader must form his judgment as
he will.
And when, by an effort, I had set
aside that picture of a prostrate body, I faced the
problem of the Martians and the fate of my wife.
For the former I had no data; I could imagine a hundred
things, and so, unhappily, I could for the latter.
And suddenly that night became terrible. I
found myself sitting up in bed, staring at the dark.
I found myself praying that the Heat-Ray might have
suddenly and painlessly struck her out of being.
Since the night of my return from Leatherhead I had
not prayed. I had uttered prayers, fetish prayers,
had prayed as heathens mutter charms when I was in
extremity; but now I prayed indeed, pleading steadfastly
and sanely, face to face with the darkness of God.
Strange night! Strangest in this, that so soon
as dawn had come, I, who had talked with God, crept
out of the house like a rat leaving its hiding place—a
creature scarcely larger, an inferior animal, a thing
that for any passing whim of our masters might be
hunted and killed. Perhaps they also prayed confidently
to God. Surely, if we have learned nothing else,
this war has taught us pity—pity for those
witless souls that suffer our dominion.
The morning was bright and fine, and
the eastern sky glowed pink, and was fretted with
little golden clouds. In the road that runs from
the top of Putney Hill to Wimbledon was a number of
poor vestiges of the panic torrent that must have
poured Londonward on the Sunday night after the fighting
began. There was a little two-wheeled cart inscribed
with the name of Thomas Lobb, Greengrocer, New Malden,
with a smashed wheel and an abandoned tin trunk; there
was a straw hat trampled into the now hardened mud,
and at the top of West Hill a lot of blood-stained
glass about the overturned water trough. My
movements were languid, my plans of the vaguest.
I had an idea of going to Leatherhead, though I knew
that there I had the poorest chance of finding my
wife. Certainly, unless death had overtaken them
suddenly, my cousins and she would have fled thence;
but it seemed to me I might find or learn there whither
the Surrey people had fled. I knew I wanted
to find my wife, that my heart ached for her and the
world of men, but I had no clear idea how the finding
might be done. I was also sharply aware now
of my intense loneliness. From the corner I
went, under cover of a thicket of trees and bushes,
to the edge of Wimbledon Common, stretching wide and
far.
That dark expanse was lit in patches
by yellow gorse and broom; there was no red weed to
be seen, and as I prowled, hesitating, on the verge
of the open, the sun rose, flooding it all with light
and vitality. I came upon a busy swarm of little
frogs in a swampy place among the trees. I stopped
to look at them, drawing a lesson from their stout
resolve to live. And presently, turning suddenly,
with an odd feeling of being watched, I beheld something
crouching amid a clump of bushes. I stood regarding
this. I made a step towards it, and it rose
up and became a man armed with a cutlass. I approached
him slowly. He stood silent and motionless, regarding
me.
As I drew nearer I perceived he was
dressed in clothes as dusty and filthy as my own;
he looked, indeed, as though he had been dragged through
a culvert. Nearer, I distinguished the green
slime of ditches mixing with the pale drab of dried
clay and shiny, coaly patches. His black hair
fell over his eyes, and his face was dark and dirty
and sunken, so that at first I did not recognise him.
There was a red cut across the lower part of his
face.
“Stop!” he cried, when
I was within ten yards of him, and I stopped.
His voice was hoarse. “Where do you come
from?” he said.
I thought, surveying him.
“I come from Mortlake,”
I said. “I was buried near the pit the
Martians made about their cylinder. I have worked
my way out and escaped.”
“There is no food about here,”
he said. “This is my country. All
this hill down to the river, and back to Clapham, and
up to the edge of the common. There is only
food for one. Which way are you going?”
I answered slowly.
“I don’t know,”
I said. “I have been buried in the ruins
of a house thirteen or fourteen days. I don’t
know what has happened.”
He looked at me doubtfully, then started,
and looked with a changed expression.
“I’ve no wish to stop
about here,” said I. “I think I shall
go to Leatherhead, for my wife was there.”
He shot out a pointing finger.
“It is you,” said he;
“the man from Woking. And you weren’t
killed at Weybridge?”
I recognised him at the same moment.
“You are the artilleryman who came into my garden.”
“Good luck!” he said.
“We are lucky ones! Fancy you!”
He put out a hand, and I took it. “I
crawled up a drain,” he said. “But
they didn’t kill everyone. And after they
went away I got off towards Walton across the fields.
But—— It’s not sixteen days
altogether—and your hair is grey.”
He looked over his shoulder suddenly. “Only
a rook,” he said. “One gets to know
that birds have shadows these days. This is
a bit open. Let us crawl under those bushes and
talk.”
“Have you seen any Martians?” I said.
“Since I crawled out——”
“They’ve gone away across
London,” he said. “I guess they’ve
got a bigger camp there. Of a night, all over
there, Hampstead way, the sky is alive with their
lights. It’s like a great city, and in
the glare you can just see them moving. By daylight
you can’t. But nearer—I haven’t
seen them—” (he counted on his fingers)
“five days. Then I saw a couple across
Hammersmith way carrying something big. And the
night before last”—he stopped and
spoke impressively—“it was just a
matter of lights, but it was something up in the air.
I believe they’ve built a flying-machine, and
are learning to fly.”
I stopped, on hands and knees, for we had come to
the bushes.
“Fly!”
“Yes,” he said, “fly.”
I went on into a little bower, and sat down.
“It is all over with humanity,”
I said. “If they can do that they will
simply go round the world.”
He nodded.
“They will. But——
It will relieve things over here a bit. And
besides——” He looked at me.
“Aren’t you satisfied it is up
with humanity? I am. We’re down;
we’re beat.”
I stared. Strange as it may
seem, I had not arrived at this fact—a
fact perfectly obvious so soon as he spoke. I
had still held a vague hope; rather, I had kept a
lifelong habit of mind. He repeated his words,
“We’re beat.” They carried
absolute conviction.
“It’s all over,”
he said. “They’ve lost one—just
one. And they’ve made their footing
good and crippled the greatest power in the world.
They’ve walked over us. The death of that
one at Weybridge was an accident. And these
are only pioneers. They kept on coming.
These green stars—I’ve seen none
these five or six days, but I’ve no doubt they’re
falling somewhere every night. Nothing’s
to be done. We’re under! We’re
beat!”
I made him no answer. I sat
staring before me, trying in vain to devise some countervailing
thought.
“This isn’t a war,”
said the artilleryman. “It never was a
war, any more than there’s war between man and
ants.”
Suddenly I recalled the night in the observatory.
“After the tenth shot they fired
no more—at least, until the first cylinder
came.”
“How do you know?” said
the artilleryman. I explained. He thought.
“Something wrong with the gun,” he said.
“But what if there is? They’ll get
it right again. And even if there’s a delay,
how can it alter the end? It’s just men
and ants. There’s the ants builds their
cities, live their lives, have wars, revolutions, until
the men want them out of the way, and then they go
out of the way. That’s what we are now—just
ants. Only——”
“Yes,” I said.
“We’re eatable ants.”
We sat looking at each other.
“And what will they do with us?” I said.
“That’s what I’ve
been thinking,” he said; “that’s
what I’ve been thinking. After Weybridge
I went south—thinking. I saw what
was up. Most of the people were hard at it squealing
and exciting themselves. But I’m not so
fond of squealing. I’ve been in sight of
death once or twice; I’m not an ornamental soldier,
and at the best and worst, death—it’s
just death. And it’s the man that keeps
on thinking comes through. I saw everyone tracking
away south. Says I, ’Food won’t
last this way,’ and I turned right back.
I went for the Martians like a sparrow goes for man.
All round”—he waved a hand to the
horizon—“they’re starving in
heaps, bolting, treading on each other. . . .”
He saw my face, and halted awkwardly.
“No doubt lots who had money
have gone away to France,” he said. He
seemed to hesitate whether to apologise, met my eyes,
and went on: “There’s food all about
here. Canned things in shops; wines, spirits,
mineral waters; and the water mains and drains are
empty. Well, I was telling you what I was thinking.
‘Here’s intelligent things,’ I said,
’and it seems they want us for food. First,
they’ll smash us up—ships, machines,
guns, cities, all the order and organisation.
All that will go. If we were the size of ants
we might pull through. But we’re not.
It’s all too bulky to stop. That’s
the first certainty.’ Eh?”
I assented.
“It is; I’ve thought it
out. Very well, then—next; at present
we’re caught as we’re wanted. A Martian
has only to go a few miles to get a crowd on the run.
And I saw one, one day, out by Wandsworth, picking
houses to pieces and routing among the wreckage.
But they won’t keep on doing that. So
soon as they’ve settled all our guns and ships,
and smashed our railways, and done all the things they
are doing over there, they will begin catching us
systematic, picking the best and storing us in cages
and things. That’s what they will start
doing in a bit. Lord! They haven’t
begun on us yet. Don’t you see that?”
“Not begun!” I exclaimed.
“Not begun. All that’s
happened so far is through our not having the sense
to keep quiet—worrying them with guns and
such foolery. And losing our heads, and rushing
off in crowds to where there wasn’t any more
safety than where we were. They don’t want
to bother us yet. They’re making their
things—making all the things they couldn’t
bring with them, getting things ready for the rest
of their people. Very likely that’s why
the cylinders have stopped for a bit, for fear of
hitting those who are here. And instead of our
rushing about blind, on the howl, or getting dynamite
on the chance of busting them up, we’ve got
to fix ourselves up according to the new state of affairs.
That’s how I figure it out. It isn’t
quite according to what a man wants for his species,
but it’s about what the facts point to.
And that’s the principle I acted upon.
Cities, nations, civilisation, progress—it’s
all over. That game’s up. We’re
beat.”
“But if that is so, what is there to live for?”
The artilleryman looked at me for a moment.
“There won’t be any more
blessed concerts for a million years or so; there
won’t be any Royal Academy of Arts, and no nice
little feeds at restaurants. If it’s amusement
you’re after, I reckon the game is up.
If you’ve got any drawing-room manners or a
dislike to eating peas with a knife or dropping aitches,
you’d better chuck ’em away. They
ain’t no further use.”
“You mean——”
“I mean that men like me are
going on living—for the sake of the breed.
I tell you, I’m grim set on living. And
if I’m not mistaken, you’ll show what
insides you’ve got, too, before long.
We aren’t going to be exterminated. And
I don’t mean to be caught either, and tamed
and fattened and bred like a thundering ox. Ugh!
Fancy those brown creepers!”
“You don’t mean to say——”
“I do. I’m going
on, under their feet. I’ve got it planned;
I’ve thought it out. We men are beat.
We don’t know enough. We’ve got
to learn before we’ve got a chance. And
we’ve got to live and keep independent while
we learn. See! That’s what has to
be done.”
I stared, astonished, and stirred
profoundly by the man’s resolution.
“Great God!” cried I.
“But you are a man indeed!” And suddenly
I gripped his hand.
“Eh!” he said, with his
eyes shining. “I’ve thought it out,
eh?”
“Go on,” I said.
“Well, those who mean to escape
their catching must get ready. I’m getting
ready. Mind you, it isn’t all of us that
are made for wild beasts; and that’s what it’s
got to be. That’s why I watched you.
I had my doubts. You’re slender.
I didn’t know that it was you, you see, or
just how you’d been buried. All these—the
sort of people that lived in these houses, and all
those damn little clerks that used to live down that
way—they’d be no good. They
haven’t any spirit in them—no proud
dreams and no proud lusts; and a man who hasn’t
one or the other—Lord! What is he
but funk and precautions? They just used to
skedaddle off to work—I’ve seen hundreds
of ’em, bit of breakfast in hand, running wild
and shining to catch their little season-ticket train,
for fear they’d get dismissed if they didn’t;
working at businesses they were afraid to take the
trouble to understand; skedaddling back for fear they
wouldn’t be in time for dinner; keeping indoors
after dinner for fear of the back streets, and sleeping
with the wives they married, not because they wanted
them, but because they had a bit of money that would
make for safety in their one little miserable skedaddle
through the world. Lives insured and a bit invested
for fear of accidents. And on Sundays—fear
of the hereafter. As if hell was built for rabbits!
Well, the Martians will just be a godsend to these.
Nice roomy cages, fattening food, careful breeding,
no worry. After a week or so chasing about the
fields and lands on empty stomachs, they’ll
come and be caught cheerful. They’ll be
quite glad after a bit. They’ll wonder
what people did before there were Martians to take
care of them. And the bar loafers, and mashers,
and singers—I can imagine them. I
can imagine them,” he said, with a sort of sombre
gratification. “There’ll be any amount
of sentiment and religion loose among them.
There’s hundreds of things I saw with my eyes
that I’ve only begun to see clearly these last
few days. There’s lots will take things
as they are—fat and stupid; and lots will
be worried by a sort of feeling that it’s all
wrong, and that they ought to be doing something.
Now whenever things are so that a lot of people feel
they ought to be doing something, the weak, and those
who go weak with a lot of complicated thinking, always
make for a sort of do-nothing religion, very pious
and superior, and submit to persecution and the will
of the Lord. Very likely you’ve seen the
same thing. It’s energy in a gale of funk,
and turned clean inside out. These cages will
be full of psalms and hymns and piety. And those
of a less simple sort will work in a bit of—what
is it?—eroticism.”
He paused.
“Very likely these Martians
will make pets of some of them; train them to do tricks—who
knows?—get sentimental over the pet boy
who grew up and had to be killed. And some,
maybe, they will train to hunt us.”
“No,” I cried, “that’s impossible!
No human being——”
“What’s the good of going
on with such lies?” said the artilleryman.
“There’s men who’d do it cheerful.
What nonsense to pretend there isn’t!”
And I succumbed to his conviction.
“If they come after me,”
he said; “Lord, if they come after me!”
and subsided into a grim meditation.
I sat contemplating these things.
I could find nothing to bring against this man’s
reasoning. In the days before the invasion no
one would have questioned my intellectual superiority
to his—I, a professed and recognised writer
on philosophical themes, and he, a common soldier;
and yet he had already formulated a situation that
I had scarcely realised.
“What are you doing?”
I said presently. “What plans have you
made?”
He hesitated.
“Well, it’s like this,”
he said. “What have we to do? We
have to invent a sort of life where men can live and
breed, and be sufficiently secure to bring the children
up. Yes—wait a bit, and I’ll
make it clearer what I think ought to be done.
The tame ones will go like all tame beasts; in a
few generations they’ll be big, beautiful, rich-blooded,
stupid—rubbish! The risk is that we
who keep wild will go savage—degenerate
into a sort of big, savage rat. . . . You see,
how I mean to live is underground. I’ve
been thinking about the drains. Of course those
who don’t know drains think horrible things;
but under this London are miles and miles—hundreds
of miles—and a few days rain and London
empty will leave them sweet and clean. The main
drains are big enough and airy enough for anyone.
Then there’s cellars, vaults, stores, from which
bolting passages may be made to the drains. And
the railway tunnels and subways. Eh? You
begin to see? And we form a band—able-bodied,
clean-minded men. We’re not going to pick
up any rubbish that drifts in. Weaklings go
out again.”
“As you meant me to go?”
“Well—I parleyed, didn’t I?”
“We won’t quarrel about that. Go
on.”
“Those who stop obey orders.
Able-bodied, clean-minded women we want also—mothers
and teachers. No lackadaisical ladies—no
blasted rolling eyes. We can’t have any
weak or silly. Life is real again, and the useless
and cumbersome and mischievous have to die. They
ought to die. They ought to be willing to die.
It’s a sort of disloyalty, after all, to live
and taint the race. And they can’t be
happy. Moreover, dying’s none so dreadful;
it’s the funking makes it bad. And in
all those places we shall gather. Our district
will be London. And we may even be able to keep
a watch, and run about in the open when the Martians
keep away. Play cricket, perhaps. That’s
how we shall save the race. Eh? It’s
a possible thing? But saving the race is nothing
in itself. As I say, that’s only being
rats. It’s saving our knowledge and adding
to it is the thing. There men like you come
in. There’s books, there’s models.
We must make great safe places down deep, and get
all the books we can; not novels and poetry swipes,
but ideas, science books. That’s where
men like you come in. We must go to the British
Museum and pick all those books through. Especially
we must keep up our science—learn more.
We must watch these Martians. Some of us must
go as spies. When it’s all working, perhaps
I will. Get caught, I mean. And the great
thing is, we must leave the Martians alone.
We mustn’t even steal. If we get in their
way, we clear out. We must show them we mean
no harm. Yes, I know. But they’re
intelligent things, and they won’t hunt us down
if they have all they want, and think we’re
just harmless vermin.”
The artilleryman paused and laid a brown hand upon
my arm.
“After all, it may not be so
much we may have to learn before—Just imagine
this: four or five of their fighting machines
suddenly starting off—Heat-Rays right and
left, and not a Martian in ’em. Not a
Martian in ’em, but men—men who have
learned the way how. It may be in my time, even—those
men. Fancy having one of them lovely things,
with its Heat-Ray wide and free! Fancy having
it in control! What would it matter if you smashed
to smithereens at the end of the run, after a bust
like that? I reckon the Martians’ll open
their beautiful eyes! Can’t you see them,
man? Can’t you see them hurrying, hurrying—puffing
and blowing and hooting to their other mechanical
affairs? Something out of gear in every case.
And swish, bang, rattle, swish! Just as they
are fumbling over it, swish comes the Heat-Ray,
and, behold! man has come back to his own.”
For a while the imaginative daring
of the artilleryman, and the tone of assurance and
courage he assumed, completely dominated my mind.
I believed unhesitatingly both in his forecast of
human destiny and in the practicability of his astonishing
scheme, and the reader who thinks me susceptible and
foolish must contrast his position, reading steadily
with all his thoughts about his subject, and mine,
crouching fearfully in the bushes and listening, distracted
by apprehension. We talked in this manner through
the early morning time, and later crept out of the
bushes, and, after scanning the sky for Martians,
hurried precipitately to the house on Putney Hill where
he had made his lair. It was the coal cellar
of the place, and when I saw the work he had spent
a week upon—it was a burrow scarcely ten
yards long, which he designed to reach to the main
drain on Putney Hill—I had my first inkling
of the gulf between his dreams and his powers.
Such a hole I could have dug in a day. But I
believed in him sufficiently to work with him all
that morning until past midday at his digging.
We had a garden barrow and shot the earth we removed
against the kitchen range. We refreshed ourselves
with a tin of mock-turtle soup and wine from the neighbouring
pantry. I found a curious relief from the aching
strangeness of the world in this steady labour.
As we worked, I turned his project over in my mind,
and presently objections and doubts began to arise;
but I worked there all the morning, so glad was I
to find myself with a purpose again. After working
an hour I began to speculate on the distance one had
to go before the cloaca was reached, the chances we
had of missing it altogether. My immediate trouble
was why we should dig this long tunnel, when it was
possible to get into the drain at once down one of
the manholes, and work back to the house. It
seemed to me, too, that the house was inconveniently
chosen, and required a needless length of tunnel.
And just as I was beginning to face these things,
the artilleryman stopped digging, and looked at me.
“We’re working well,”
he said. He put down his spade. “Let
us knock off a bit” he said. “I
think it’s time we reconnoitred from the roof
of the house.”
I was for going on, and after a little
hesitation he resumed his spade; and then suddenly
I was struck by a thought. I stopped, and so
did he at once.
“Why were you walking about
the common,” I said, “instead of being
here?”
“Taking the air,” he said.
“I was coming back. It’s safer by
night.”
“But the work?”
“Oh, one can’t always
work,” he said, and in a flash I saw the man
plain. He hesitated, holding his spade.
“We ought to reconnoitre now,” he said,
“because if any come near they may hear the spades
and drop upon us unawares.”
I was no longer disposed to object.
We went together to the roof and stood on a ladder
peeping out of the roof door. No Martians were
to be seen, and we ventured out on the tiles, and slipped
down under shelter of the parapet.
From this position a shrubbery hid
the greater portion of Putney, but we could see the
river below, a bubbly mass of red weed, and the low
parts of Lambeth flooded and red. The red creeper
swarmed up the trees about the old palace, and their
branches stretched gaunt and dead, and set with shrivelled
leaves, from amid its clusters. It was strange
how entirely dependent both these things were upon
flowing water for their propagation. About us
neither had gained a footing; laburnums, pink mays,
snowballs, and trees of arbor-vitae, rose out of laurels
and hydrangeas, green and brilliant into the sunlight.
Beyond Kensington dense smoke was rising, and that
and a blue haze hid the northward hills.
The artilleryman began to tell me
of the sort of people who still remained in London.
“One night last week,”
he said, “some fools got the electric light
in order, and there was all Regent Street and the Circus
ablaze, crowded with painted and ragged drunkards,
men and women, dancing and shouting till dawn.
A man who was there told me. And as the day
came they became aware of a fighting-machine standing
near by the Langham and looking down at them.
Heaven knows how long he had been there. It
must have given some of them a nasty turn. He
came down the road towards them, and picked up nearly
a hundred too drunk or frightened to run away.”
Grotesque gleam of a time no history
will ever fully describe!
From that, in answer to my questions,
he came round to his grandiose plans again.
He grew enthusiastic. He talked so eloquently
of the possibility of capturing a fighting-machine
that I more than half believed in him again.
But now that I was beginning to understand something
of his quality, I could divine the stress he laid
on doing nothing precipitately. And I noted that
now there was no question that he personally was to
capture and fight the great machine.
After a time we went down to the cellar.
Neither of us seemed disposed to resume digging,
and when he suggested a meal, I was nothing loath.
He became suddenly very generous, and when we had
eaten he went away and returned with some excellent
cigars. We lit these, and his optimism glowed.
He was inclined to regard my coming as a great occasion.
“There’s some champagne in the cellar,”
he said.
“We can dig better on this Thames-side burgundy,”
said I.
“No,” said he; “I
am host today. Champagne! Great God!
We’ve a heavy enough task before us! Let
us take a rest and gather strength while we may.
Look at these blistered hands!”
And pursuant to this idea of a holiday,
he insisted upon playing cards after we had eaten.
He taught me euchre, and after dividing London between
us, I taking the northern side and he the southern,
we played for parish points. Grotesque and foolish
as this will seem to the sober reader, it is absolutely
true, and what is more remarkable, I found the card
game and several others we played extremely interesting.
Strange mind of man! that, with our
species upon the edge of extermination or appalling
degradation, with no clear prospect before us but
the chance of a horrible death, we could sit following
the chance of this painted pasteboard, and playing
the “joker” with vivid delight.
Afterwards he taught me poker, and I beat him at three
tough chess games. When dark came we decided
to take the risk, and lit a lamp.
After an interminable string of games,
we supped, and the artilleryman finished the champagne.
We went on smoking the cigars. He was no longer
the energetic regenerator of his species I had encountered
in the morning. He was still optimistic, but
it was a less kinetic, a more thoughtful optimism.
I remember he wound up with my health, proposed in
a speech of small variety and considerable intermittence.
I took a cigar, and went upstairs to look at the
lights of which he had spoken that blazed so greenly
along the Highgate hills.
At first I stared unintelligently
across the London valley. The northern hills
were shrouded in darkness; the fires near Kensington
glowed redly, and now and then an orange-red tongue
of flame flashed up and vanished in the deep blue
night. All the rest of London was black.
Then, nearer, I perceived a strange light, a pale,
violet-purple fluorescent glow, quivering under the
night breeze. For a space I could not understand
it, and then I knew that it must be the red weed from
which this faint irradiation proceeded. With
that realisation my dormant sense of wonder, my sense
of the proportion of things, awoke again. I
glanced from that to Mars, red and clear, glowing
high in the west, and then gazed long and earnestly
at the darkness of Hampstead and Highgate.
I remained a very long time upon the
roof, wondering at the grotesque changes of the day.
I recalled my mental states from the midnight prayer
to the foolish card-playing. I had a violent
revulsion of feeling. I remember I flung away
the cigar with a certain wasteful symbolism.
My folly came to me with glaring exaggeration.
I seemed a traitor to my wife and to my kind; I was
filled with remorse. I resolved to leave this
strange undisciplined dreamer of great things to his
drink and gluttony, and to go on into London.
There, it seemed to me, I had the best chance of learning
what the Martians and my fellowmen were doing.
I was still upon the roof when the late moon rose.