Of the Meaning of Progress
Willst Du Deine Macht verkunden,
Wahle sie die frei von Sunden,
Steh’n in Deinem ew’gen Haus!
Deine Geister sende aus!
Die Unsterblichen, die Reinen,
Die nicht fuhlen, die nicht weinen!
Nicht die zarte Jungfrau wahle,
Nicht der Hirtin weiche Seele!
SCHILLER.
Once upon a time I taught school in
the hills of Tennessee, where the broad dark vale
of the Mississippi begins to roll and crumple to greet
the Alleghanies. I was a Fisk student then,
and all Fisk men thought that Tennessee—beyond
the Veil—was theirs alone, and in vacation
time they sallied forth in lusty bands to meet the
county school-commissioners. Young and happy,
I too went, and I shall not soon forget that summer,
seventeen years ago.
First, there was a Teachers’
Institute at the county-seat; and there distinguished
guests of the superintendent taught the teachers fractions
and spelling and other mysteries,—white
teachers in the morning, Negroes at night. A
picnic now and then, and a supper, and the rough world
was softened by laughter and song. I remember
how— But I wander.
There came a day when all the teachers
left the Institute and began the hunt for schools.
I learn from hearsay (for my mother was mortally
afraid of firearms) that the hunting of ducks and
bears and men is wonderfully interesting, but I am
sure that the man who has never hunted a country school
has something to learn of the pleasures of the chase.
I see now the white, hot roads lazily rise and fall
and wind before me under the burning July sun; I feel
the deep weariness of heart and limb as ten, eight,
six miles stretch relentlessly ahead; I feel my heart
sink heavily as I hear again and again, “Got
a teacher? Yes.” So I walked on
and on—horses were too expensive—until
I had wandered beyond railways, beyond stage lines,
to a land of “varmints” and rattlesnakes,
where the coming of a stranger was an event, and men
lived and died in the shadow of one blue hill.
Sprinkled over hill and dale lay cabins
and farmhouses, shut out from the world by the forests
and the rolling hills toward the east. There
I found at last a little school. Josie told
me of it; she was a thin, homely girl of twenty, with
a dark-brown face and thick, hard hair. I had
crossed the stream at Watertown, and rested under
the great willows; then I had gone to the little cabin
in the lot where Josie was resting on her way to town.
The gaunt farmer made me welcome, and Josie, hearing
my errand, told me anxiously that they wanted a school
over the hill; that but once since the war had a teacher
been there; that she herself longed to learn,—and
thus she ran on, talking fast and loud, with much earnestness
and energy.
Next morning I crossed the tall round
hill, lingered to look at the blue and yellow mountains
stretching toward the Caro-linas, then plunged into
the wood, and came out at Josie’s home.
It was a dull frame cottage with four rooms, perched
just below the brow of the hill, amid peach-trees.
The father was a quiet, simple soul, calmly ignorant,
with no touch of vulgarity. The mother was different,—strong,
bustling, and energetic, with a quick, restless tongue,
and an ambition to live “like folks.”
There was a crowd of children. Two boys had
gone away. There remained two growing girls;
a shy midget of eight; John, tall, awkward, and eighteen;
Jim, younger, quicker, and better looking; and two
babies of indefinite age. Then there was Josie
herself. She seemed to be the centre of the
family: always busy at service, or at home, or
berry-picking; a little nervous and inclined to scold,
like her mother, yet faithful, too, like her father.
She had about her a certain fineness, the shadow
of an unconscious moral heroism that would willingly
give all of life to make life broader, deeper, and
fuller for her and hers. I saw much of this
family afterwards, and grew to love them for their
honest efforts to be decent and comfortable, and for
their knowledge of their own ignorance. There
was with them no affectation. The mother would
scold the father for being so “easy”;
Josie would roundly berate the boys for carelessness;
and all knew that it was a hard thing to dig a living
out of a rocky side-hill.
I secured the school. I remember
the day I rode horseback out to the commissioner’s
house with a pleasant young white fellow who wanted
the white school. The road ran down the bed
of a stream; the sun laughed and the water jingled,
and we rode on. “Come in,” said
the commissioner,—“come in.
Have a seat. Yes, that certificate will do.
Stay to dinner. What do you want a month?”
“Oh,” thought I, “this is lucky”;
but even then fell the awful shadow of the Veil, for
they ate first, then I—alone.
The schoolhouse was a log hut, where
Colonel Wheeler used to shelter his corn. It
sat in a lot behind a rail fence and thorn bushes,
near the sweetest of springs. There was an entrance
where a door once was, and within, a massive rickety
fireplace; great chinks between the logs served as
windows. Furniture was scarce. A pale blackboard
crouched in the corner. My desk was made of
three boards, reinforced at critical points, and my
chair, borrowed from the landlady, had to be returned
every night. Seats for the children—these
puzzled me much. I was haunted by a New England
vision of neat little desks and chairs, but, alas!
the reality was rough plank benches without backs,
and at times without legs. They had the one
virtue of making naps dangerous,—possibly
fa-tal, for the floor was not to be trusted.
It was a hot morning late in July
when the school opened. I trembled when I heard
the patter of little feet down the dusty road, and
saw the growing row of dark solemn faces and bright
eager eyes facing me. First came Josie and her
brothers and sisters. The longing to know, to
be a student in the great school at Nashville, hovered
like a star above this child-woman amid her work and
worry, and she studied doggedly. There were
the Dowells from their farm over toward Alexandria,—Fanny,
with her smooth black face and wondering eyes; Martha,
brown and dull; the pretty girl-wife of a brother,
and the younger brood.
There were the Burkes,—two
brown and yellow lads, and a tiny haughty-eyed girl.
Fat Reuben’s little chubby girl came, with
golden face and old-gold hair, faithful and sol-emn.
’Thenie was on hand early,—a jolly,
ugly, good-hearted girl, who slyly dipped snuff and
looked after her little bow-legged brother.
When her mother could spare her, ’Tildy came,—a
midnight beauty, with starry eyes and tapering limbs;
and her brother, correspondingly homely. And
then the big boys,—the hulking Lawrences;
the lazy Neills, unfa-thered sons of mother and daughter;
Hickman, with a stoop in his shoulders; and the rest.
There they sat, nearly thirty of them,
on the rough benches, their faces shading from a pale
cream to a deep brown, the little feet bare and swinging,
the eyes full of expectation, with here and there
a twinkle of mischief, and the hands grasping Webster’s
blue-black spelling-book. I loved my school,
and the fine faith the children had in the wisdom of
their teacher was truly marvellous. We read
and spelled together, wrote a little, picked flowers,
sang, and listened to stories of the world beyond
the hill. At times the school would dwindle
away, and I would start out. I would visit Mun
Eddings, who lived in two very dirty rooms, and ask
why little Lugene, whose flaming face seemed ever
ablaze with the dark-red hair uncombed, was absent
all last week, or why I missed so often the inimitable
rags of Mack and Ed. Then the father, who worked
Colonel Wheeler’s farm on shares, would tell
me how the crops needed the boys; and the thin, slovenly
mother, whose face was pretty when washed, assured
me that Lugene must mind the baby. “But
we’ll start them again next week.”
When the Lawrences stopped, I knew that the doubts
of the old folks about book-learning had conquered
again, and so, toiling up the hill, and getting as
far into the cabin as possi-ble, I put Cicero “pro
Archia Poeta” into the simplest En-glish with
local applications, and usually convinced them—for
a week or so.
On Friday nights I often went home
with some of the children,—sometimes to
Doc Burke’s farm. He was a great, loud,
thin Black, ever working, and trying to buy the seventy-five
acres of hill and dale where he lived; but people said
that he would surely fail, and the “white folks
would get it all.” His wife was a magnificent
Amazon, with saffron face and shining hair, uncorseted
and barefooted, and the children were strong and beautiful.
They lived in a one-and-a-half-room cabin in the
hollow of the farm, near the spring. The front
room was full of great fat white beds, scrupulously
neat; and there were bad chromos on the walls, and
a tired centre-table. In the tiny back kitchen
I was often invited to “take out and help”
myself to fried chicken and wheat biscuit, “meat”
and corn pone, string-beans and berries. At first
I used to be a little alarmed at the approach of bedtime
in the one lone bedroom, but embarrassment was very
deftly avoided. First, all the children nodded
and slept, and were stowed away in one great pile
of goose feathers; next, the mother and the father
discreetly slipped away to the kitchen while I went
to bed; then, blowing out the dim light, they retired
in the dark. In the morning all were up and
away before I thought of awaking. Across the
road, where fat Reuben lived, they all went outdoors
while the teacher retired, because they did not boast
the luxury of a kitchen.
I liked to stay with the Dowells,
for they had four rooms and plenty of good country
fare. Uncle Bird had a small, rough farm, all
woods and hills, miles from the big road; but he was
full of tales,—he preached now and then,—and
with his children, berries, horses, and wheat he was
happy and prosperous. Often, to keep the peace,
I must go where life was less lovely; for instance,
’Tildy’s mother was incorrigibly dirty,
Reuben’s larder was limited seriously, and herds
of untamed insects wandered over the Eddingses’
beds. Best of all I loved to go to Josie’s,
and sit on the porch, eating peaches, while the mother
bustled and talked: how Josie had bought the
sewing-machine; how Josie worked at service in winter,
but that four dollars a month was “mighty little”
wages; how Josie longed to go away to school, but that
it “looked like” they never could get
far enough ahead to let her; how the crops failed
and the well was yet unfinished; and, finally, how
“mean” some of the white folks were.
For two summers I lived in this little
world; it was dull and humdrum. The girls looked
at the hill in wistful longing, and the boys fretted
and haunted Alexandria. Alexandria was “town,”—a
straggling, lazy village of houses, churches, and
shops, and an aristocracy of Toms, Dicks, and Captains.
Cuddled on the hill to the north was the village
of the colored folks, who lived in three- or four-room
unpainted cottages, some neat and homelike, and some
dirty. The dwellings were scattered rather aimlessly,
but they centred about the twin temples of the hamlet,
the Methodist, and the Hard-Shell Baptist churches.
These, in turn, leaned gingerly on a sad-colored
schoolhouse. Hither my little world wended its
crooked way on Sunday to meet other worlds, and gossip,
and won-der, and make the weekly sacrifice with frenzied
priest at the altar of the “old-time religion.”
Then the soft melody and mighty cadences of Negro
song fluttered and thundered.
I have called my tiny community a
world, and so its isolation made it; and yet there
was among us but a half-awakened common consciousness,
sprung from common joy and grief, at burial, birth,
or wedding; from a common hardship in poverty, poor
land, and low wages; and, above all, from the sight
of the Veil that hung between us and Opportunity.
All this caused us to think some thoughts to-gether;
but these, when ripe for speech, were spoken in various
languages. Those whose eyes twenty-five and more
years before had seen “the glory of the coming
of the Lord,” saw in every present hindrance
or help a dark fatalism bound to bring all things
right in His own good time. The mass of those
to whom slavery was a dim recollection of childhood
found the world a puzzling thing: it asked little
of them, and they answered with little, and yet it
ridiculed their offering. Such a paradox they
could not understand, and therefore sank into listless
indifference, or shiftlessness, or reckless bravado.
There were, however, some—such as Josie,
Jim, and Ben—to whom War, Hell, and Slavery
were but childhood tales, whose young appetites had
been whetted to an edge by school and story and half-awakened
thought. Ill could they be con-tent, born without
and beyond the World. And their weak wings beat
against their barriers,—barriers of caste,
of youth, of life; at last, in dangerous moments,
against everything that opposed even a whim.
The ten years that follow youth, the
years when first the realization comes that life is
leading somewhere,—these were the years
that passed after I left my little school. When
they were past, I came by chance once more to the
walls of Fisk University, to the halls of the chapel
of melody. As I lingered there in the joy and
pain of meeting old school-friends, there swept over
me a sudden longing to pass again beyond the blue
hill, and to see the homes and the school of other
days, and to learn how life had gone with my school-children;
and I went.
Josie was dead, and the gray-haired
mother said simply, “We’ve had a heap
of trouble since you’ve been away.”
I had feared for Jim. With a cultured parentage
and a social caste to uphold him, he might have made
a venturesome merchant or a West Point cadet.
But here he was, angry with life and reckless; and
when Fanner Durham charged him with stealing wheat,
the old man had to ride fast to escape the stones
which the furious fool hurled after him. They
told Jim to run away; but he would not run, and the
constable came that afternoon. It grieved Josie,
and great awkward John walked nine miles every day
to see his little brother through the bars of Lebanon
jail. At last the two came back together in
the dark night. The mother cooked supper, and
Josie emptied her purse, and the boys stole away.
Josie grew thin and silent, yet worked the more.
The hill became steep for the quiet old father, and
with the boys away there was little to do in the valley.
Josie helped them to sell the old farm, and they
moved nearer town. Brother Dennis, the carpenter,
built a new house with six rooms; Josie toiled a year
in Nashville, and brought back ninety dollars to furnish
the house and change it to a home.
When the spring came, and the birds
twittered, and the stream ran proud and full, little
sister Lizzie, bold and thought-less, flushed with
the passion of youth, bestowed herself on the tempter,
and brought home a nameless child. Josie shiv-ered
and worked on, with the vision of schooldays all fled,
with a face wan and tired,—worked until,
on a summer’s day, some one married another;
then Josie crept to her mother like a hurt child,
and slept—and sleeps.
I paused to scent the breeze as I
entered the valley. The Lawrences have gone,—father
and son forever,—and the other son lazily
digs in the earth to live. A new young widow
rents out their cabin to fat Reuben. Reuben is
a Baptist preacher now, but I fear as lazy as ever,
though his cabin has three rooms; and little Ella
has grown into a bouncing woman, and is ploughing
corn on the hot hillside. There are babies a-plenty,
and one half-witted girl. Across the valley is
a house I did not know before, and there I found,
rocking one baby and expecting another, one of my
schoolgirls, a daugh-ter of Uncle Bird Dowell.
She looked somewhat worried with her new duties,
but soon bristled into pride over her neat cabin and
the tale of her thrifty husband, and the horse and
cow, and the farm they were planning to buy.
My log schoolhouse was gone.
In its place stood Progress; and Progress, I understand,
is necessarily ugly. The crazy foundation stones
still marked the former site of my poor little cabin,
and not far away, on six weary boulders, perched a
jaunty board house, perhaps twenty by thirty feet,
with three windows and a door that locked. Some
of the window-glass was broken, and part of an old
iron stove lay mourn-fully under the house.
I peeped through the window half reverently, and
found things that were more familiar. The blackboard
had grown by about two feet, and the seats were still
without backs. The county owns the lot now, I
hear, and every year there is a session of school.
As I sat by the spring and looked on the Old and
the New I felt glad, very glad, and yet—
After two long drinks I started on.
There was the great double log-house on the corner.
I remembered the broken, blighted family that used
to live there. The strong, hard face of the
mother, with its wilderness of hair, rose before me.
She had driven her husband away, and while I taught
school a strange man lived there, big and jovial,
and people talked. I felt sure that Ben and
’Tildy would come to naught from such a home.
But this is an odd world; for Ben is a busy farmer
in Smith County, “doing well, too,” they
say, and he had cared for little ’Tildy until
last spring, when a lover married her. A hard
life the lad had led, toiling for meat, and laughed
at because he was homely and crooked. There
was Sam Carlon, an impudent old skinflint, who had
definite notions about “niggers,” and
hired Ben a summer and would not pay him. Then
the hungry boy gathered his sacks together, and in
broad daylight went into Carlon’s corn; and when
the hard-fisted farmer set upon him, the angry boy
flew at him like a beast. Doc Burke saved a
murder and a lynching that day.
The story reminded me again of the
Burkes, and an impa-tience seized me to know who
won in the battle, Doc or the seventy-five acres.
For it is a hard thing to make a farm out of nothing,
even in fifteen years. So I hurried on, thinking
of the Burkes. They used to have a certain magnificent
barba-rism about them that I liked. They were
never vulgar, never immoral, but rather rough and
primitive, with an unconven-tionality that spent
itself in loud guffaws, slaps on the back, and naps
in the corner. I hurried by the cottage of the
misborn Neill boys. It was empty, and they were
grown into fat, lazy farm-hands. I saw the home
of the Hickmans, but Albert, with his stooping shoulders,
had passed from the world. Then I came to the
Burkes’ gate and peered through; the enclosure
looked rough and untrimmed, and yet there were the
same fences around the old farm save to the left,
where lay twenty-five other acres. And lo!
the cabin in the hollow had climbed the hill and swollen
to a half-finished six-room cottage.
The Burkes held a hundred acres, but
they were still in debt. Indeed, the gaunt
father who toiled night and day would scarcely be
happy out of debt, being so used to it. Some
day he must stop, for his massive frame is showing
decline. The mother wore shoes, but the lion-like
physique of other days was broken. The children
had grown up. Rob, the image of his father, was
loud and rough with laughter. Birdie, my school
baby of six, had grown to a picture of maiden beauty,
tall and tawny. “Edgar is gone,”
said the mother, with head half bowed,—“gone
to work in Nashville; he and his father couldn’t
agree.”
Little Doc, the boy born since the
time of my school, took me horseback down the creek
next morning toward Farmer Dowell’s. The
road and the stream were battling for mastery, and
the stream had the better of it. We splashed
and waded, and the merry boy, perched behind me, chattered
and laughed. He showed me where Simon Thompson
had bought a bit of ground and a home; but his daughter
Lana, a plump, brown, slow girl, was not there.
She had married a man and a farm twenty miles away.
We wound on down the stream till we came to a gate
that I did not recognize, but the boy insisted that
it was “Uncle Bird’s.” The
farm was fat with the growing crop. In that
little valley was a strange stillness as I rode up;
for death and marriage had stolen youth and left age
and childhood there. We sat and talked that night
after the chores were done. Uncle Bird was grayer,
and his eyes did not see so well, but he was still
jovial. We talked of the acres bought,—one
hundred and twenty-five,—of the new guest-chamber
added, of Martha’s marrying. Then we talked
of death: Fanny and Fred were gone; a shadow
hung over the other daughter, and when it lifted she
was to go to Nashville to school. At last we
spoke of the neighbors, and as night fell, Uncle Bird
told me how, on a night like that, ’Thenie came
wandering back to her home over yonder, to escape the
blows of her husband. And next morning she died
in the home that her little bow-legged brother, working
and saving, had bought for their widowed mother.
My journey was done, and behind me
lay hill and dale, and Life and Death. How shall
man measure Progress there where the dark-faced Josie
lies? How many heartfuls of sorrow shall balance
a bushel of wheat? How hard a thing is life to
the lowly, and yet how human and real! And all
this life and love and strife and failure,—is
it the twilight of nightfall or the flush of some
faint-dawning day?
Thus sadly musing, I rode to Nashville
in the Jim Crow car.