THE AWAKENING
But Warming was wrong in that. An awakening came.
What a wonderfully complex thing!
this simple seeming unity—the self!
Who can trace its reintegration as morning after morning
we awaken, the flux and confluence of its countless
factors interweaving, rebuilding, the dim first stirrings
of the soul, the growth and synthesis of the unconscious
to the subconscious, the subconscious to dawning consciousness,
until at last we recognise ourselves again. And
as it happens to most of us after the night’s
sleep, so it was with Graham at the end of his vast
slumber. A dim cloud of sensation taking shape,
a cloudy dreariness, and he found himself vaguely
somewhere, recumbent, faint, but alive.
The pilgrimage towards a personal
being seemed to traverse vast gulfs, to occupy epochs.
Gigantic dreams that were terrible realities at the
time, left vague perplexing memories, strange creatures,
strange scenery, as if from another planet. There
was a distinct impression, too, of a momentous conversation,
of a name—he could not tell what name—that
was subsequently to recur, of some queer long-forgotten
sensation of vein and muscle, of a feeling of vast
hopeless effort, the effort of a man near drowning
in darkness. Then came a panorama of dazzling
unstable confluent scenes….
Graham became aware that his eyes
were open and regarding some unfamiliar thing.
It was something white, the edge of
something, a frame of wood. He moved his head
slightly, following the contour of this shape.
It went up beyond the top of his eyes. He tried
to think where he might be. Did it matter, seeing
he was so wretched? The colour of his thoughts
was a dark depression. He felt the featureless
misery of one who wakes towards the hour of dawn.
He had an uncertain sense of whispers and footsteps
hastily receding.
The movement of his head involved
a perception of extreme physical weakness. He
supposed he was in bed in the hotel at the place in
the valley—but he could not recall that
white edge. He must have slept. He remembered
now that he had wanted to sleep. He recalled the
cliff and Waterfall again, and then recollected something
about talking to a passer-by….
How long had he slept? What was
that sound of pattering feet? And that rise and
fall, like the murmur of breakers on pebbles?
He put out a languid hand to reach his watch from
the chair whereon it was his habit to place it, and
touched some smooth hard surface like glass. This
was so unexpected that it startled him extremely.
Quite suddenly he rolled over, stared for a moment,
and struggled into a sitting position. The effort
was unexpectedly difficult, and it left him giddy and
weak—and amazed.
He rubbed his eyes. The riddle
of his surroundings was confusing but his mind was
quite clear—evidently his sleep had benefited
him. He was not in a bed at all as he understood
the word, but lying naked on a very soft and yielding
mattress, in a trough of dark glass. The mattress
was partly transparent, a fact he observed with a
sense of insecurity, and below it was a mirror reflecting
him greyly. About his arm—and he saw
with a shock that his skin was strangely dry and yellow—was
bound a curious apparatus of rubber, bound so cunningly
that it seemed to pass into his skin above and below.
And this bed was placed in a case of greenish coloured
glass (as it seemed to him), a bar in the white framework
of which had first arrested his attention. In
the corner of the case was a stand of glittering and
delicately made apparatus, for the most part quite
strange appliances, though a maximum and minimum thermometer
was recognisable.
The slightly greenish tint of the
glass-like substance which surrounded him on every
hand obscured what lay behind, but he perceived it
was a vast apartment of splendid appearance, and with
a very large and simple white archway facing him.
Close to the walls of the cage were articles of furniture,
a table covered with a silvery cloth, silvery like
the side of a fish, a couple of graceful chairs, and
on the table a number of dishes with substances piled
on them, a bottle and two glasses. He realised
that he was intensely hungry.
He could see no one, and after a period
of hesitation scrambled off the translucent mattress
and tried to stand on the clean white floor of his
little apartment. He had miscalculated his strength,
however, and staggered and put his hand against the
glass like pane before him to steady himself.
For a moment it resisted his hand, bending outward
like a distended bladder, then it broke with a slight
report and vanished—a pricked bubble.
He reeled out into the general space of the hall, greatly
astonished. He caught at the table to save himself,
knocking one of the glasses to the floor—it
rang but did not break—and sat down in one
of the armchairs.
When he had a little recovered he
filled the remaining glass from the bottle and drank—a
colourless liquid it was, but not water, with a pleasing
faint aroma and taste and a quality of immediate support
and stimulus. He put down the vessel and looked
about him.
The apartment lost none of its size
and magnificence now that the greenish transparency
that had intervened was removed. The archway he
saw led to a flight of steps, going downward without
the intermediation of a door, to a spacious transverse
passage. This passage ran between polished pillars
of some white-veined substance of deep ultramarine,
and along it came the sound of human movements, and
voices and a deep undeviating droning note. He
sat, now fully awake, listening alertly, forgetting
the viands in his attention.
Then with a shock he remembered that
he was naked, and casting about him for covering,
saw a long black robe thrown on one of the chairs beside
him. This he wrapped about him and sat down again,
trembling.
His mind was still a surging perplexity.
Clearly he had slept, and had been removed in his
sleep. But where? And who were those people,
the distant crowd beyond the deep blue pillars?
Boscastle? He poured out and partially drank
another glass of the colourless fluid.
What was this place?—this
place that to his senses seemed subtly quivering like
a thing alive? He looked about him at the clean
and beautiful form of the apartment, unstained by
ornament, and saw that the roof was broken in one
place by a circular shaft full of light, and, as he
looked, a steady, sweeping shadow blotted it out and
passed, and came again and passed. “Beat,
beat,” that sweeping shadow had a note of its
own in the subdued tumult that filled the air.
He would have called out, but only
a little sound came into his throat. Then he
stood up, and, with the uncertain steps of a drunkard,
made his way towards the archway. He staggered
down the steps, tripped on the corner of the black
cloak he had wrapped about himself, and saved himself
by catching at one of the blue pillars.
The passage ran down a cool vista
of blue and purple and ended remotely in a railed
space like a balcony brightly lit and projecting into
a space of haze, a space like the interior of some
gigantic building. Beyond and remote were vast
and vague architectural forms. The tumult of voices
rose now loud and clear, and on the balcony and with
their backs to him, gesticulating and apparently in
animated conversation, were three figures, richly
dressed in loose and easy garments of bright soft
colourings. The noise of a great multitude of
people poured up over the balcony, and once it seemed
the top of a banner passed, and once some brightly
coloured object, a pale blue cap or garment thrown
up into the air perhaps, flashed athwart the space
and fell. The shouts sounded like English, there
was a reiteration of “Wake!” He heard some
indistinct shrill cry, and abruptly these three men
began laughing.
“Ha, ha, ha!” laughed
one—a red-haired man in a short purple robe.
“When the Sleeper wakes—When!”
He turned his eyes full of merriment
along the passage. His face changed, the whole
man changed, became rigid. The other two turned
swiftly at his exclamation and stood motionless.
Their faces assumed an expression of consternation,
an expression that deepened into awe.
Suddenly Graham’s knees bent
beneath him, his arm against the pillar collapsed
limply, he staggered forward and fell upon his face.