I
One day at the Hotel Crillon she thought she had found
him.
She had passed the portals of that
fortress with some delay, for the American Commission
protected itself as if it dwelt under the shadow of
imminent assassination and theft; whereas it was merely
exclusive. The sentries at the door demanded
her permit, and passed her in with intense suspicion
to the inner guard. This was composed of three
polite but very young lieutenants in smart new uniforms
with no blight of war on them, and flagrantly of the
American aristocracy.
With these she had less trouble, for
they recognized her social status and accepted her
explanation that she had been invited for tea with
one of the ladies of the Commission. Nevertheless,
they knew their duty and Alexina was followed up to
the door of her hostess’ suite by another young
guardian who watched her entrance through the sacred
door as carefully as if he suspected her of carrying
a bomb in her muff.
II
The party numbered about thirty, and
Alexina, after chatting with the few she knew, was
standing apart by a small table drinking a cup of tea
with three lumps of sugar in it and consuming cakes
like a greedy boarding-school girl home for the holidays,
when she caught sight of a man in the British khaki,
a major by his insignia, a tall man, thin and straight,
standing with his back to her at the opposite end of
the room. He was talking to the host and a small
group of men. She glimpsed something like half
of his profile when he turned from the host for a moment.
Like all men in khaki, when not pronounced brunettes,
his complexion and hair looked the same color as his
uniform.
Nevertheless…if she could only see
his eyes…he turned his full profile…she had never
glanced at Gathbroke’s profile; he had given
her no opportunity!...Certainly she had not the faintest
idea whether the man of the embassy had had a snub
nose or the thin straight feature of this man who
would have attracted her attention in any ease if only
because he did not carry his shoulders with the disillusioning
obliquity of the British Army…why did he not turn
round? Alexina felt an impulse to throw her cup
straight across the room at the back of that well-shaped
head.
Suddenly he shook hands with his host,
nodded to the others and left the room.
III
Alexina set her cup and saucer down
on the table, forebore to interrupt her hostess, who
was known to talk steadily in order to avoid questions,
and walked quickly and deliberately out after him.
It is a primitive instinct in woman to chase the male;
but civilization having initiated her into the art
of permitting him to chase her, Alexina was merely
bent upon giving this man his chance if the interest
had been mutual and existed beyond the moment.
One lift was descending as she reached
the outer corridor and the other was closed.
She ran down the wide staircase as rapidly as a woman
in fashionable skirts may. There was no British
uniform in the hall below.
IV
She stood for a quarter of an hour
under the arcade before the Crillon waiting for a
taxi, staring out into the dreary mist of rain, at
the round soft blurs of light in the Place de la Concorde,
but in no wise depressed. What did it matter
if she had not met him to-day? The conviction
that she should meet him before long was as strong
as if she were ever hopeful sixteen….That was the
real secret of her elation. She felt very young
and entirely carefree. She reflected that if
she had met Gathbroke, or whoever he might be, during
the last three years of the war she would have felt
neither joy nor elation, however interested she might
have been. To love and dream and enjoy when men
were falling every minute, writhing in agony, gasping
out their life, would have seemed to her grossly unæsthetic
if nothing worse. It was not in the picture.
The primal impulses she had experienced at the front
to that harsh music of Death’s orchestra were
natural enough; but safe (comparatively!) in Paris,
certainly quiet, the romance of love would have been
as incongruous and heartless as to go out to the great
hospital at Neuilly and tango through a ward of dying
men.
But now! She had done her part.
She could do no more. Men still must die, but
in every comfort, with every consolation. And
there would be no more recruits.
She was free. She was young, young, young again.
And at this moment her heart emptied
itself of song and sank like lead in her breast.
She pressed her muff against her face to hide the sudden
grimace she was sure contorted it; there had been few
moments in her life when she had not been mistress
of her features, but this was one of them.
Gora Dwight was walking rapidly toward her.