I
Alexina in the weariness of reaction
climbed the long stairs of her pension in Passy.
Sibyl Bascom, whose husband being
on government duty in Washington left her free to
go to France, and who rolled bandages all day long
in the great hospital in Neuilly; Janet Maynard and
Alice Thorndyke, who ran a canteen in the environs
of Paris, and herself, had lived until the Armistice
in a comfortable hotel not far from the house of Olive
de Morsigny, and found much solace together.
But their hotel had been commandeered for one of the
Commissions; Sibyl had taken refuge with her sister-in-law,
and Alexina, Janet, and Alice had found with no little
difficulty vacant rooms in a second-rate pension in
Passy. The food was even worse than at the hotel,
the rooms were barely heated, and as trams at Alexina’s
hours were airless and jammed, and taxicabs in swarming
Paris as scarce as tiaras, with drivers of an unsurpassable
effrontery, she was forced to walk three miles a day
in all weathers. It is true that she could have
rented a limousine for a thousand francs a month,
but it was almost a religion with workers of her class
to economize rigorously and give all their surplus
to the oeuvre of their devotion. Janet and Alice
went back and forth in one of the supply camions of
the Y.M.C.A.
II
Alexina passed Janet’s room
softly. She saw a light under the door and inferred
that she and Alice were playing poker and consuming
many cigarettes, that being their idea of recuperation
between one hard day’s work and the next.
She was in no mood for talking.
Her room was stuffy as well as cold;
the furniture and curtains had probably not been changed
since the second empire. She opened one of the
long windows and stepped out on the balcony. The
Seine was nearly in flood after the heavy rains, but
it reflected the stars to-night and many long banners
of light from the almost festive banks.
It was bitterly cold and she closed
her window in a moment and moved about her room.
It was too cold to undress. She was inured to
discomforts and thankful that she had been brought
up in San Francisco, which is seldom warm; but she
longed for a few creature comforts nevertheless.
During the war she had sustained herself with the
thought of the men in the trenches, but now that their
lot was ameliorated she felt that she had a right to
what comforts she could find. The difficulty was
to find them. With Paris overflowing. Generals
sleeping in servants’ rooms under the roof, soldiers,
even officers, picking up women on the streets if only
to have a bed for the night, and hotel after hotel
being requisitioned for the various Peace Commissions
and their illimitable suites, conditions were likely
to grow worse. Olive de Morsigny had repeatedly
offered hospitality, but she preferred her independence.
To leave was impossible. Her
oeuvre must continue for several months. Sick
and wounded men do not recover miraculously with the
cessation of hostilities. No doubt she should
be grateful for this refuge, and now that the war
was over it might be possible to buy petrol for an
oil stove.
Then she became aware that it was
not only the cold that made her restless. The
rigidly enforced calm of her inner life had received
a shock to-night and not from the imagined assassination
of a king.
She went suddenly to her mirror and
looked at herself intently…shook her head with a
frown. She had always been slim; she was now very
thin. The roundness and color had left her cheeks.
They were pale—almost hollow. Janet
and Alice had rejoiced in the lack of fats and sweets,
both having a tendency to plumpness had achieved without
effort the most fashionable slenderness that anxious
woman could wish. But she had not had a pound
to lose. It seemed to her that she was almost
plain. Her eyes retained their dazzling brilliancy,
a trick of nature that old age alone no doubt could
conquer, but there were dark stains beneath the lower
lashes.
She let down her hair. It was
the same soft dusky mass as ever. Her teeth were
as even and bright; her lips had not lost their curves,
but they were pink, not red. She was anæmic,
no doubt. Why, in heaven’s name, shouldn’t
she be? Even Olive, whose major domo, driving
a Ford, had paid daily visits to the farms and brought
back what eggs, chickens and other succulences the
peasants would part with for coin, had lost her brilliant
color and the full lines of her beautiful figure.
She had rouged to-night and looked as lovely as when
Morsigny had captured her, but her magnificent gown
had been too hastily taken in by an elderly inefficient
maid—her young one having patriotically
deserted her for munitions long since, and sagged on
her bones as she expressed it. Sibyl, who was
in bed with the flu, had offered to lend her one of
the new ones she had had the forethought to buy in
New York before sailing, and was only a year old,
but Olive had feared the critical eyes of French women
who had not replenished their evening wardrobe since
nineteen-fourteen.
Alexina did not feel particularly
consoled because others had looked no better than
she. Until to-night she had given little thought
to her looks, but she now felt a renewed interest
in herself, and the frown was as much for this revival
as for her wilted beauty.
Her evening wrap was very warm and
she sat down in the hard arm-chair and huddled into
its folds, covering the lower part of her body with
a hideous brown quilt. No doubt the sheets were
damp, and she knew that she could not sleep.
Why shiver in bed?
III
Was it Gathbroke? It was long
since she had thought of him. She had not even
seen his photograph for four or five years. If
it were, he had changed even more since that photograph
had been taken than after she had dismissed him at
Rincona.
She was by no means sore that it was
he. The light of a briquet was not precisely
searching, and for the most part he had looked like
more than one war-worn British officer she had seen
during her long residence in Paris….It was something
in the eyes…she could have vowed they were hazel…their
expression had altered; it was that of a somewhat ironic
man of the world, which had changed as she watched
them to the piercing alertness of a man of action…but
after…was it perhaps an emanation of the personality
that had so impressed her angry young soul and refused
to be obliterated?
But what of it? He might be married.
Love another woman. All officers and soldiers
during the war had looked about eagerly for love, when
not already supplied, and given themselves up to it,
indifferent as they may have been before….Life seemed
shorter every time they went back to the front.
And if not why should he be attracted
to her again! He had loved her for a moment when
she had been in the first flush of her exquisite youth.
That was twelve years ago. She was now thirty.
True, thirty, to-day, was but the beginning of a woman’s
third youth, and a few weeks in the California sunshine
and nourished by the California abundance would restore
her looks, no doubt of that. But she would look
no better as long as she remained in Paris….Nor
did she wish to return to California…and beyond all
question he must have forgotten, lost all interest
in her long since.
Still—there had been an
eager upspringing light in his eyes…was it recognition?...merely
the passing impulse of flirtation over a match and
a briquet?...No doubt she would never see him again.