I
Alexina felt only an intolerable ennui.
Gora had gone in the morning; she sat alone in her
room. Of course she must have that explanation
with Mortimer, but any time before the first of the
month would do. She was far less concerned with
that now than with the problem: what to do with
her life. How was she to continue to live in
the same house with him? Perhaps in far smaller
quarters than these? For she could not leave him.
She had no visible excuse, and no desire to admit
to the world that she had made woman’s superlative
mistake.
She scowled at the lovely room in
which she had expected to find compensation in dreams,
the setting for an unreal and enchanted world.
Dreams had died out of her. For
the first time in her sheltered existence she appreciated
the grim reality of life. She was no longer sheltered,
secluded, one of the “fortunate class.”
Ways and means would occupy most of her time henceforth.
And it was not the privations she shrank from but
the contacts with the ugly facts of life; a side she
had found extremely picturesque in novels, but knew
from, occasional glimpses to be merely repulsive and
demoralizing.
And of whom could she ask advice!
She must make changes and make them quickly.
Four thousand dollars a year!...and taxes—besides
the new income tax—to be paid on the downtown
property, the fiats, the land on which her home stood,
Ballinger House itself and all its contents.
She knew vaguely that many girls these
days were given special training of some sort even
where their parents were well off; but more particularly
where the father was what is known as a high-salaried
man; or even a moderately successful professional
or business man—all of whose expenses arid
incomes balanced too nicely for investments.
Not in her set! Joan, bored after
her third season with dancing in winter and “sitting
round Alta” in summer, had asked permission to
become a trained nurse like Gora, or go into the decorating
business, “any old thing”; and Maria Abbott
had simply stared at her in horror; even her father
had asked her angrily if she wished to disgrace him,
advertise him as unable to provide for his family.
No self-respecting American, etc.
But something must be done. She
wished to live on in Ballinger House if possible,
not only because she loved it, or to avoid the commiserations
of the world; she had no desire to live in narrow quarters
with her husband….And she knew nothing, was fit
for nothing, belonged to a silly class that still
looked upon women workers as de-classed, although to
be sure two or three whose husbands had left them
penniless had gone into business and were loyally
tolerated, if deeply deplored.
The day after her return from Europe
Alice Thorndyke had come into this room and thrown
herself down on the couch, her long, languorous body
looking as if set on steel springs, her angelic blonde
beauty distorted with fury and disgust, and poured
out her hatred of men and all their ways, her loathing
for society and gambling and all the stupid vicious
round of the life both public and secret she had elected
to lead….She had had enough of it….After all,
she had some brains and she wanted to use them.
She wanted to go into the decorating business.
There was an opening. She had a natural flair
for that sort of thing. See what she had managed
to do with that old ark she had inherited, and on
five cents a year….When she had asked her sister
to advance the money Sibyl had flown into one of her
worst rages and thrown a gold hair brush through a
Venetian mirror. Didn’t she give her clothes
by the dozen that she hadn’t worn a month?
Did any girl have a better time in society? Was
any girl luckier at poker? Was any girl more
popular with men—too bad it was generally
the married ones that lost their heads….Better if
she stopped fooling and married. By and by it
would be too late.
But she didn’t want to marry.
She was sick of men. She wanted to get out of
her old life altogether and cultivate a side of her
mind and character that had stagnated so far…also
to enjoy the independent life of a money-earner…life
in an entirely different world…something new…new…new.
Alexina had offered to lend her the
capital, for Alice had a hard cool head. But
she had refused, saying she could mortgage her old
barrack if it came to that…but she didn’t
know…it would he a break….Sib might never speak
to her again…people were such snobs…and she mightn’t
like it…she wished she had been born of poor but
honest parents and put to work in a canning factory
or married the plumber.
She had done nothing, and Alexina
wondered if she would have the courage to go into
some sort of business with herself…they could give
out they were bored, seeking a new distraction…save
the precious pride of their families.
She leaned forward and took her head
in her hands. If she only had some one to talk
things over with. It was impossible to confide
in Gora, in any one. If she broached the subject
to Tom Abbott, to Judge Lawton, even in a roundabout
way, they would suspect at once. Aileen and Janet
and the other girls did not know enough. They
would suspect also. But her head would burst
if she didn’t consult some one. She was
too horribly alone. And after all she was still
very young. She had talked largely of her responsibilities,
but as a matter of fact until now she had never had
one worth the name.
Suddenly she thought of James Kirkpatrick.
II
The lessons in socialism had died
a natural death long since. But Alexina and Aileen
and Janet had never quite let him go. Whenever
there was a great strike on, either in California
or in any part of the nation, they invited him to
take tea with them at least once a week while it lasted
and tell them all the “ins.” This
he was nothing loath to do, and waived the question
of remuneration aside with a gesture. He was now
a foreman, and vice-president of his union, and it
gave him a distinct satisfaction to confer a favor
upon these “lofty dames,” whom, however,
he liked better as time went on. Alexina he had
always worshiped and the only time he ceased to be
a socialist was when he ground his teeth and cursed
fate for not making him a gentleman and giving him
a chance before she was corralled by that sawdust
dude.
He had also remained on friendly terms
with Gora, who had cold-bloodedly studied him and
made him the hero of a grim strike story. But
as he never read polite literature their friendship
was unimpaired.
III
He came to tea that afternoon in response
to a telephone call from Alexina. She had put
on a tea gown of periwinkle blue chiffon and a silver
fillet about her head, and looked to Mr. Kirkpatrick’s
despairing gaze as she intended to look—beautiful,
of course, but less woman than goddess. Exquisite
but not tempting. She was quite aware of the young
workman’s hopeless passion and she managed him
as skillfully as she did the more assured, sophisticated,
and sometimes “illuminated” Jimmie Thorne
and Bascom Luning.
She received him in the great drawing-room
behind the tea-table, laden with the massive silver
of dead and gone Ballingers.
“I’ve only been home a
week,” she said gayly. “See what a
good friend I am. I’ve scarcely seen any
one. Did you get my post cards?”
“I did and I’ve framed
them, if you don’t mind my saying so.”
“I hoped you would. I picked
out the prettiest I could find. They do have
such beauties in Europe. Just think, it was my
first visit. I was wildly excited. Wouldn’t
you like to go?”
“Naw. America’s good
enough for me. ’Fris—oh, Lord!
San Francisco—for that matter. I’d
like to go to the next International Socialist Congress
all right—next year. Maybe I will.
I guess that would give me enough of Europe to last
me the rest of my natural life.”
“I met a good many Frenchmen,
and I have a friend married to a very clever one.
He says they expect a war with Germany in a year two—”
“There’ll never be another
war. Not in Europe or anywhere else. The
socialists won’t permit it.”
“There are a good many socialists—and
syndicalists—in France, and it’s
quite true they’re doing all they can to prevent
any money being voted for the army or expended if
it is voted; but I happen to know that the Government
has asked the president of the Red Cross to train as
many nurses as she can induce to volunteer, and as
quickly as possible. My friend Madame Morsigny
was to begin her training a few days after I left.”
“Hm. So. I hadn’t heard a word
of it.”
“We get so much European news
out here! America first! Especially in the
matter of murders and hold-ups. Who cares for
a possible war in Europe when the headlines are as
black as the local crimes they announce?”
“Sure thing. Great little
old papers. But don’t let any talk of war
from anywhere at all worry you. And I’ll
tell you why. At the last International Congress
all the socialists of all the nations were ready to
agree that all labor should lay down its tools—quit
work—go on a colossal strike—the
moment those blood-sucking capitalists at the top,
those sawdust kings and kaisers and tsars—or
any president for that matter—declared war
for any cause whatsoever. All, that is, but the
German delegates. They couldn’t see the
light. Now they have. When we meet next August
the resolution will be unanimous. Take it from
me. You’ve read of your last war in some
old history book. Peace from now on, and thank
the socialists.”
“I should. But suppose
Germany should declare war before next August?”
“She won’t. She ain’t
ready. She’d have done it after that there
’Agadir Incident’ if she’d dared.
That is to say been good and ready. Now she’s
got to wait for another good excuse and there ain’t
one in sight.”
“But you believe she’d
like to precipitate a war in Europe for her own purposes?”
“She’d like it all right.”
And he quoted freely from Treitschke and Bernhardi,
while Alexina as ever looked at him in wonder.
He seemed to be more deeply read every time she met
him, and he remained exactly the same James Kirkpatrick.
“What an adventitious thing breeding was!
Mortimer had it!”
“Well, I am glad I spoke of
it. You have relieved my mind, for you speak
as one with authority….There is something else I
want to talk to you about….A friend of mine is in
a dilemma and I don’t quite know how to advise
her….We’re all such a silly set of moths—”
“No moth about you!” interrupted
Mr. Kirkpatrick firmly. “Some of them—those
others, if you like. The only redeeming virtue
I can see in most of them is that they are what they
are and don’t give a damn. But you—you’ve
got more brains and common sense than the whole bunch
of women in this town put together.”
“Oh, dear! Oh, dear!
I’m afraid I’ve addled my brains trying
to cultivate them, and what I’m more afraid
of is that I’ve addled my common sense.”
She spoke with such gayety, with such a roguish twinkle,
and curve of lip, that neither then nor later did
he suspect that she was the heroine of her own tale.
“Well, fire away. No, thanks,
no more. I only drink tea to please you anyway.
Tea is so much hot water to me.”
“Well, smoke.” She
pushed the box of cigarettes toward him. “I
know you smoke a pipe, but I won’t let my husband
smoke one at home. It’s bad for my curtains….This
is it—One of my friends, poor thing, has
had a terrible experience: discovered that her
husband has stolen the part of her little fortune
whose income enabled them to do something more than
keep alive. You see, it’s a sad case.
She believed in him, and he had always been the most
honest creature in the world; and that’s as much
of a blow as the loss of the money.”
“What’d he do it for?”
“Oh, I know so little about
business…he wanted to get rich too quickly I suppose…speculated
or something…perhaps got into a hole. This has
been a bad year.”
“Poor chap!” said Kirkpatriek reflectively.
“You’re not commiserating him?”
“Ain’t I, just? He
done it, didn’t he? He’s got to pay
the piper, hasn’t he? Women don’t
know anything about the awful struggles and temptations
of the rotten business world. He didn’t
do it because he wanted to, you can bet your life
on that. He’s just another poor victim of
a vicious system. A fly in the same old web;
same old fat spider in the middle!. Not capital
enough. Hard times and the little man goes under,
no matter if he’s a darn sight better fellow
than the bloated beast on top—”
“You mean if we were living
in the Socialistic Utopia no man could go under?”
“I mean just that. It’s
a sin and a shame, A fine young fellow—”
“Remember, you don’t know
anything about him. He’s not a bad sort
and has always been quite honest before; but he’s
not very clever. If he were he wouldn’t
have got himself into a predicament. He had a
good start, far better than nine-tenths of the millionaires
in this country had in their youth.”
“Oh, I don’t care anything
about that. If all men were equally clever in
chasing the almighty dollar there’d be no excuse
for socialism. It’s our job to displace
the present rotten system of government with one in
which the weak couldn’t be crowded out, where
all that are willing to work will have an equal chance—and
those that ain’t willing will have to work anyhow
or starve….One of the thousand things the matter
with the present system is that the square man is
so often in the round hole. In the socialized
state every man will he guided to the place which exactly
fits his abilities. No weaker to the wall there,”
“You think you can defy Nature to that extent!”
“You bet.”
“Well. I’m too much
distracted by my friend’s predicament to discuss
socialism….I rather like the idea though of the strong
man having the opportunity to prove himself stronger
than Life…find out what, he was put on earth and
endowed with certain characteristics for…rather a
pity all that should atrophy….However—what
shall my friend do? Continue to live with a man
she despises?”
“She’s no right to despise
him or anybody. It’s the system, I tell
you. And no doubt she’s just as weak in
some way herself. Every man jack of us is so
chuck full of faults and potential crime it’s
a wonder we don’t break out every day in the
week, and if women are going to desert us when the
old Adam runs head on into some one of the devilish
traps the present civilization has set out all over
the place, instead of being able to sidestep it once
more, well—she’d best divorce herself
from the idea of matrimony before she goes in for
the thing itself. Would I desert my brother if
he got into trouble? Would you?”
“N—o, I suppose you
are right, and I doubt if she would leave him anyway.
However…there’s the other aspect. What
can a woman in her position do to help matters out?
You have met a good many of her kind here. Fancy
Miss Lawton or Mrs. Bascom or Miss Maynard forced
to work—”
“I can’t. If I had
imagination enough for that I’d be writin’
novels like Miss Dwight.”
“I believe they’d do better
than you think. Well, this friend isn’t
quite so much absorbed in society and poker and dress.
She’s more like—well, there’s
Mrs. Ruyler, for instance. She was very much like
the rest of us, and now we never see her. She’s
as devoted to ranching as her husband.”
“There was sound bourgeois French
blood there,” he said shrewdly. “And
she wasn’t brought up like the rest of you.
Don’t you forget that.”
“Then you think we’re hopeless?”
“No, I don’t. Three
or four women of your crowd—a little older,
that’s all—are doin’ first-rate
in business, and they were light-headed enough in
their time, I’ll warrant. And you, for instance—if
you came up against it—”
“Yes? What could I do?”
cried Alexina gayly. “But alas! you admit
you have no imagination.”
“Don’t need any.
You’d be good for several things. You could
go into the insurance business like Mrs. Lake, or
into real estate like Mrs. Cole—people
like to have a pretty and stylish young lady showin’
’em round flats. Or you could buy an orchard
like the Ruylers—that’d require capital.
If we had the socialistic state you’d be put
on one of the thinking boards, so to speak. That’s
the point. You’ve got no training, but
you’ve got a thinker. You’d soon learn.
But I’m not so sure of your friend. Somehow,
you’ve given me the impression she’s just
one of these lady-birds.”
“I’m afraid she is,”
said Alexina with a sigh. “But you’re
so good to take an interest….Suppose you had the
socialistic state now—to-morrow, what would
you do with all these—lady-birds?”
“I’d put ’em in
a sanatorium until they got their nerves patched up,
and then I’d turn ’em over to a trainer
who’d put them into a normal physical condition;
and then I’d put ’em at hard labor—every
last one of ’em.”
“Oh, dear, Mr. Kirkpatrick, would you?”
“Yes,” he said grimly. “It
’ud be their turn.”