I
Gora, to whom she had telephoned before
leaving home, was standing on the steps of her house,
looking anxiously up the street, as her young sister-in-law
left the car at the corner.
Gora walked up to meet her guest.
“Where on earth have you, been?” she demanded.
“I supposed of course that you’d take a
taxi. You should not go out alone at night.
Mortimer would be wild. He has the strictest ideas;
and you—”
“Haven’t. Not, any
more. I’m tired of being kept in a glass
case—being a parasite.” She
laughed gayly at Gora’s look of amazement.
“I’ve had an adventure. Almost the
first I ever had.”
She related it as they walked slowly
down the street and up the steps and stairs to the
attic.
Gora looked very thoughtful as she
listened. “Shall you tell Mortimer?”
“Oh, I don’t know.
Possibly not. Why agitate him? The thing
is done.”
“But if you study with this man?”
“There is no necessity to explain
where I met him. I look upon myself as Morty’s
partner, not as his subject. We have never disputed
over anything yet, but of course as time goes on I
shall wish to do many things whether he happens to
like it or not. Possibly without consulting him.”
“You’ve had time to think
these past three months for the first time in your
life,” said Gora shrewdly. “Here we
are. I hope you don’t hate stairs.
I do when I come home dog-tired, but somehow I can’t
give up the old place….And I’ve lit the candles
in your honor.”
II
“Oh, but it is pretty! Charming!”
Thought Gora: “I do hope
she’s not going to be gracious. I’ve
never liked her so well before.”
But Alexina was too excited to have
a firm grip on the Ballinger-Groome tradition.
She had had an adventure, an uncommon one, in a far
from respectable night district; she had done something
that would cause the impeccable Mortimer the acutest
anguish if he knew of it; and she had caught sight
immediately of Gathbroke’s picture framed and
enthroned on the mantelpiece.
She walked about the room admiring
the hangings and prints, the old Chinese lanterns
that held the candles.
“I am going to refurnish our
lower rooms,” she said. “If you have
time do help me. Heavens! I wish I could
work off some of that old furniture on you. I
like the Italian pieces well enough, but there are
too many of them. That rather low Florentine
cabinet in the back parlor would just fit in this
corner….”
She gave a little girlish exclamation and ran forward.
“Isn’t that young Gathbroke,
who was out here at the time of the earthquake and
fire…or an older brother, perhaps?”
She had taken the photograph from
the mantel and was examining it under one of the lanterns.
Her alert ear detected the deeper and less steady note
in Gora’s always hoarse voice.
“It is the same. Did you
meet him?...Oh, I remember he told me he met you at
the Hofer ball. He rather raved over you, in fact.”
“Did he? How sweet of him.
I met him again, I remember. Mr. Gwynne brought
him down to Rincona one day.”
“Oh?”
And Alexina, knew that he had never mentioned that
visit.
“But he looks much much older.”
“He did before he left.
That horrible experience of his seemed to prey on
him more and more.
“Oh.”
He had not looked a day over twenty-three
on that afternoon at Eincona, two weeks after the
fire.
Alexina replaced the picture, then
turned to her sister-in-law with a coaxing smile.
“Are you engaged? It would be too romantic.
Do tell me.”
“No,” said Gora, shortly.
“We are not engaged. Good friends, that
is all, and write occasionally.”
“Well, he must be very much
interested—and you must be a very interesting
correspondent, Gora dear! Is he? Interesting,
I mean. What does he do, anyhow? I have
a vague remembrance that he said something about the
army.”
“He was in the army, the Grenadier
Guards. But he has resigned and gone into business
with a cousin of his in Lancashire. He wrote me—oh,
it must be nearly two years ago—that if
there should be a war he would enlist as a matter
of course, but as there was no prospect of any, and
he was sick of idleness—his good middle-class
energetic blood asserting itself, he said,—he
was going to amuse himself with work, incidentally
try to make a fortune. His mother left a good
deal of money, but there are several children and
I guess the present earl needs most of it to keep up
his estates, to say nothing of his position.
Fotten law, that—entail, I mean.”
Alexina came and sat down on the divan
beside Gora, piling the cushions behind her.
“Are you a socialist?”
“I am not. I believe in
sticking to your own class, whether you have a grudge
against it or not, or even if you think it far from
perfection.”
She shot a quick challenging glance
at her admittedly aristocratic sister-in-law, but
Alexina had lifted the lower white of her eyes just
above their soft black fringe and looked more innocent
than any new born lamb. As she did not answer
Gora continued:
“I remember that night I sat
out with Gathbroke on Calvary he said something about
socialism…that it was a confession of failure.
I may feel so furious with destiny sometimes that
I could go out and wave a red flag, or even the darker
red of anarchy, but what always sobers me is the thought
that if I had the good luck to inherit or make even
a reasonable fortune I’d have no more use for
socialism than for a rattlesnake in my bed. Why
are you interested?”
“Only as in any subject that
interests a few million people. I haven’t
the least intention of being converted, but I don’t
want to be an ignoramus. Aileen and Sibyl and
I did start Marx’s Das Kapital—in
German! We nearly died of it. But I felt
sure that this man, Kirkpatrick, had studied his subject,
if only because his language changed so completely
when he talked about it. It was as if he were
quoting, but intelligently. Of course the poor
man had little or no education to begin with.
Somehow he struck me as a pathetic figure. Perhaps
when every one is educated—and there must
be many thousands of naturally intelligent men in
the working class whose brains if trained would be
mighty useful in Washington—well, all having
had equal opportunities they would surely arrive at
some way to improve conditions without struggling
for anything so hopeless as socialism. I know
enough to be sure that it is hopeless, because it antagonizes
human nature.”
“Rather. The trend under
all the talk is more and more toward individualism,
not self-effacing communism. As for myself I like
the idea of the fight—for public recognition,
I mean; and I don’t think I’d be happy
at all if things were made too smooth for me; if, for
instance, in a socialized state it were decided that
I could devote all my time to writing, and that the
state would take care of me, publish my work, and
distribute it exactly where it was sure to be appreciated.
I haven’t any of the old California gambling
blood in me, but I guess the hardy ghost of those
old days still dominates the atmosphere, and I have
not been one of those to escape.”
“It’s in mine! Not
that I care for gambling, really, like Aileen and Alice.
But I’ve always been fascinated by the idea of
taking long chances, and I have had inklings that
I’ll be rather more than less fascinated as I
grow older….When are your stories to be published?
I am simply expiring to read them.”
“Are you?”
III
Alexina had thrust her slim index
finger unerringly through Gora’s bristling armor
and tickled her weakest spot. The fledgling author
smiled into the dazzling eyes opposite and a deep
flush rose to her high cheek bones,
“Rather!”
“Then…” Gora rose
and took a magazine from the table beside her bed.
She spread it open on her lap, when she had resumed
her seat, and handled it as Alexina had seen young
mothers fondle their first-born.
“It’s here. Just out.”
“Oh!” Alexina. gave a
little shriek of genuine anticipation. “Read
it to me. Quick. I can’t wait.”
Gora led a lonely life outside of
her work, a lonely inner life always. She had
never had an intimate friend, and she suddenly reflected
that there had been a certain measure of sadness in
her joy both when her manuscripts were accepted and
to-day when for the first time she had gazed at herself
in print….She had had no one to rejoice with her….She
felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude to Alexina.
But she gave this young wife of her
brother whom she knew as little as Alexina knew her,
another swift suspicious glance….No, there was nothing
of Alexina’s usual high and careless courtesy
in that eager almost excited face.
“I’d love to have your
opinion….I read very badly….Make allowances….”
“Oh, fire away. If I’d
written a story and had it accepted by that magazine
I’d read it from the housetops.”
Gora read the story well enough, and
Alexina’s mind did not wander even to Gathbroke.
It was written in a pure direct vigorous English.
A little less self-consciousness and it would have
been distinguished. The story itself was built
craftily; she had been coached by a clever instructor
who was a successful writer of short stories himself;
and it worked up to a climax of genuine drama.
But this was merely the framework, the flexible technique
for the real Gora. The story had not only an original
point of view but it pulsed with the insurgent resentful
passionate spirit of the writer.
Alexina gave a little gasp as Gora finished.
“Many people won’t like
that story,” she said. “It shocks
and jars and gives one’s smugness a pain in
the middle. But those that do like it will give
you a great reputation, and after all there are a few
thousand intelligent readers in the United States.
How on earth did that magazine come to accept it?”
Gora was staring at Alexina with an
uncommonly soft expression in her opaque light eyes.
She felt, indeed, as if her ego would leap through
them and make a fool of her.
“The editor wrote me something
of what you have just said. He wanted something
new—to give his conservative old subscribers
a shock. Thought it would be good for them and
for the magazine. You—you—have
said what I should have wanted you to say if I could
have thought it out….I think I should have hated
you if you had said, ‘How charming!’ or
’How frantically interesting!’”
“Well, it’s the last if
not the first. Aileen will say that and mean it.
I’ll telephone to the bookstore the first thing
Monday morning and get a copy. Now I must go.
It’s late.”
IV
“Let me telephone for a taxi.”
Alexina laughed merrily. “You’ll
never believe it, but I’ve just thirty cents
in my purse. I forgot to ask Morty for something
before he left….You see, I happened to find quite
a bit in mother’s desk and so I’ve never
thought to ask him for an allowance. But I shall
at once.”
“An allowance? But you
have your own money? Or is it because the estate
isn’t settled? What has Morty to do with
that?”
“I believe we get the income
from the estate until it is settled. But I gave
my power of attorney to Morty.”
“Oh! But if there is money
on deposit in the bank you can draw on it.”
“Could I? Well! I’ll
just draw a round hundred on Monday at ten A.M.”
“Why did you give your power of attorney to
Morty?”
“Oh…why…he asked me to…I
know nothing about business, and he naturally would
attend to my affairs.”
“But you are not going away.
No one needs your power of attorney. And the
executors are Judge Lawton and Mr. Abbott. You
are here to sign such papers as they advise….Don’t
he angry, please. I am not insinuating anything
against Morty. He’s never bad a dishonest
thought in his life…has always been, the squarest…but…”
“Well?”
Alexina’s head was very high.
It was quite bad enough for Tom Abbott and Judge Lawton…but
for his sister…
“It’s this way, Alexina.
People in this world, more particularly men, are just
about as honest as circumstances will permit them to
be. Some are stronger than Life in one way or
another, no doubt of it; but they make up for it by
being weaker in others….I am talking particularly
of the money question, the struggle for existence,
which the vast majority of men are forced to make….
“Men fight Life from the hour
they leave their homes, when they have any, to force
success—in one way or another—out
of her until the hour they are able to lay down the
burden….Some are too strong and too firm in their
ideals ever to do wrong; they would prefer failure,
and generally they are strong enough to avoid it,
even to succeed in their way against the most overwhelming
odds….Many are too clever not to find some way of
compromising and circumventing….Others just peg along
and barely make both ends meet….Others go under
and down and out.
“Morty, like millions of other
young Americans, had good principles and high ideals
inculcated from his earliest boyhood and took to them
as a duck takes to water. Nor is he weak.
But although he is a hard and steady worker he is
also visionary. He speculated on the stock market
before he was married. Probably not now as the
market is moribund. He is frantic to get rich…for
more reasons than one.”
“But he never would do anything dishonorable.”
“No. Nothing he couldn’t
square with his conscience if it turned out all right.
But the most honest man, when in a hole, finds little
difficulty in arriving at the conclusion that what
is, illogically, the possession of the women of his
family, is his if he needs it.
“Moreover, no doubt you have
discovered that Morty is the sort of man who looks
upon women as man’s natural inferiors, that if
there is any question of sacrifice the woman is not
to be considered for a moment…especially where no
public risk is involved. That sort of man only
thinks he is too honest to refrain from taking some
unrelated woman’s money, but as a matter of
fact it is because she would send him to State’s
Prison as readily as a man would. One’s
own women are safe.
“I lent Morty my small inheritance
with my eyes open. But he knows a good deal of
that particular business, and I did not dream the times
were going to be so bad….I doubt if I ever see it
again….But you must not run the risk of losing yours.
I want you to promise me that on Monday morning you
will go down to the City Hall and revoke your power
of attorney. And as much for Morty’s sake
as for your own. He will lose your money if he
keeps it in his hands, and then he will suffer agonies
of remorse. He will be infinitely more miserable
than if he merely failed in business. That is
honorable. It would only hurt his pride.
Then he could get a position again, and you would
have your own income.”
“But do you mean to say that
if I did revoke my power of attorney and he asked
me later for money to save his business that I should
not give it to him?”
“Yes, I mean just that.
Morty will never take any of the prizes in the business
world. He may hold on and make a living, that
is all. He has plenty to start with, and tells
me he is doing fairly well, in spite of the times.
But he would do better in the long run as a clerk.
In time he might get a large salary as a sort of general
director of all the routine business of some large
house—”
Alexina curled her lip. “I do not want
him to be a clerk.”
“No, of course you don’t!
But you’d like it still less if he cleaned you
out. You—would have to sell or rent
your old home and live on a hundred and fifty dollars
a month in a flat in some out-of-the-way quarter.
You might have to go to work yourself,”
“I shouldn’t mind that
so much, except that I’m afraid I’d not
be good for much. Perhaps it was snobbish of
me to object lo Morty’s being a clerk.
But…well, I’m not so sure that it is snobbish
to prefer what you have always been accustomed to—I
mean if it is a higher standard. And after all
I married him when he was only a clerk.”
“You are surprisingly little
of a snob, all things considered; but you are a hopeless
aristocrat.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“I think the line between the
aristocratic and the snobbish attitude of mind is
almost too fine to be put into words. But they
are often confused by the undiscriminating. Will
you revoke that power of attorney on Monday?”
“Shouldn’t I wait until
Morty is home?...tell him first? It seems rather
taking an advantage…and he will be very angry.”
“That doesn’t matter.”
“What excuse shall I give him?”
“Any one of a dozen. You
are bored and want to take care of your money…intend
to learn something of business, as all women should,
and will in time….Ring in the feminist stuff…wife’s
economic independence…woman’s new position
in the world….That will make Morty so raving angry
that he will forget about the other. Will you
do it?”
“Yes, I will. I believe
you are right. So were the others…there must
be something in it.”
She told Gora of the advice of Tom
Abbott and Judge Lawton. Gora nodded.
“They meant more than they said.
And merely because they are men of the world, not
because they like and trust Morty any the less.”
Alexina did not hear her. She
was staring hard at the floor….A year ago…three
months ago…she couldn’t have done this thing.
She had been still under the illusion that she loved
her husband, that her marriage was a complete success.
She would have sacrificed her last penny rather than
hurt his feelings. Now she only cared that she
didn’t care….She had admitted to herself that
she did not love her husband but that was different
from committing an overt act that proved it….She
felt something crumbling within her….It was the
last of the fairy edifice of her romance…of her
first, her real, youth….What was to take its place?
The future smugly secure on six thousand a year and
an inviolate social position…a good dull husband…not
even the prospect of travel….
V
She sprang to her feet and turned away her head.
“Why don’t you come and
live with us?” she asked abruptly. “Why
should you keep this on? There are so many vacant
bedrooms up there. You could have one for your
study. I’d love to have you. You’d
have the most complete independence. Do.”
Gora shook her head. “I’ve always
this to fall back on.”
“Fall back on?”
“Oh! I never meant to let
that out. However….Perhaps it is as well….Morty—you
know his pride—everybody has his prime weakness
and that is his. Transpose it into snobbery if
you like….We did not board down here. I kept
a lodging house for business women. It paid well,
but Morty, when he became engaged to you, insisted
that I give it up. He was afraid you’d
be outraged in your finest sensibilities! Well,
I did. One of my lodgers resigned from her job
and took it over. I entered the hospital, but
kept on my room as I had to have one somewhere.
Eight months later she married, and I took it back.
I found I could run it as well as ever with the aid
of a treasure of a Chinaman she had discovered.
But I never told Morty.”
Alexina laughed. “Better
not. But you could run it and live with us all
the same.”
“No. I have too little
time. I’d waste it coming back and forth,
for I must be here some time every day….Besides…”
“Your own precious atmosphere?”
“You do understand!”
“Well, come to see me often. I shall need
your advice.”
“You bet. And now, I’ll
see you to your car; stay with you until you are safely
transferred to the Fillmore car. And don’t
assert your independence in just this way again.
All those loafers on Fillmore Street are not spiteful
socialists.”
As Gora put on her hat at the distant
mirror Alexina turned to Gathbroke’s picture
with a scowl. She even clenched her hands into
fists.
“Oh…you…you….Why weren’t you….Why
didn’t you….”