THE PARTICULAR INCIDENT
Betty Vanderpoel’s walk back
to Stornham did not, long though it was, give her
time to follow to its end the thread of her thoughts.
Mentally she walked again with her uncommunicative
guide, through woodpaths and gardens, and stood gazing
at the great blind-faced house. She had not given
the man more than an occasional glance until he had
told her his name. She had been too much absorbed,
too much moved, by what she had been seeing.
She wondered, if she had been more aware of him, whether
his face would have revealed a great deal. She
believed it would not. He had made himself outwardly
stolid. But the thing must have been bitter.
To him the whole story of the splendid past was familiar
even if through his own life he had looked on only
at gradual decay. There must be stories enough
of men and women who had lived in the place, of what
they had done, of how they had loved, of what they
had counted for in their country’s wars and
peacemakings, great functions and law-building.
To be able to look back through centuries and know
of one’s blood that sometimes it had been shed
in the doing of great deeds, must be a thing to remember.
To realise that the courage and honour had been lost
in ignoble modern vices, which no sense of dignity
and reverence for race and name had restrained—must
be bitter—bitter! And in the role of
a servant to lead a stranger about among the ruins
of what had been—that must have been bitter,
too. For a moment Betty felt the bitterness of
it herself and her red mouth took upon itself a grim
line. The worst of it for him was that he was
not of that strain of his race who had been the “bad
lot.” The “bad lot” had been
the weak lot, the vicious, the self-degrading.
Scandals which had shut men out from their class and
kind were usually of an ugly type. This man had
a strong jaw, a powerful, healthy body, and clean,
though perhaps hard, eyes. The First Man of them,
who hewed his way to the front, who stood fierce in
the face of things, who won the first lands and laid
the first stones, might have been like him in build
and look.
“It’s a disgusting thing,”
she said to herself, “to think of the corrupt
weaklings the strong ones dwindled down to. I
hate them. So does he.”
There had been many such of late years,
she knew. She had seen them in Paris, in Rome,
even in New York. Things with thin or over-thick
bodies and receding chins and foreheads; things haunting
places of amusement and finding inordinate entertainment
in strange jokes and horseplay. She herself had
hot blood and a fierce strength of rebellion, and she
was wondering how, if the father and elder brother
had been the “bad lot,” he had managed
to stand still, looking on, and keeping his hands off
them.
The last gold of the sun was mellowing
the grey stone of the terrace and enriching the green
of the weeds thrusting themselves into life between
the uneven flags when she reached Stornham, and passing
through the house found Lady Anstruthers sitting there.
In sustenance of her effort to keep up appearances,
she had put on a weird little muslin dress and had
elaborated the dressing of her thin hair. It was
no longer dragged back straight from her face, and
she looked a trifle less abject, even a shade prettier.
Bettina sat upon the edge of the balustrade and touched
the hair with light fingers, ruffling it a little becomingly.
“If you had worn it like this
yesterday,” she said, “I should have known
you.”
“Should you, Betty? I never
look into a mirror if I can help it, but when I do
I never know myself. The thing that stares back
at me with its pale eyes is not Rosy. But, of
course, everyone grows old.”
“Not now! People are just
discovering how to grow young instead.”
Lady Anstruthers looked into the clear
courage of her laughing eyes.
“Somehow,” she said, “you
say strange things in such a way that one feels as
if they must be true, however—however unlike
anything else they are.”
“They are not as new as they
seem,” said Betty. “Ancient philosophers
said things like them centuries ago, but people did
not believe them. We are just beginning to drag
them out of the dust and furbish them up and pretend
they are ours, just as people rub up and adorn themselves
with jewels dug out of excavations.”
“In America people think so
many new things,” said poor little Lady Anstruthers
with yearning humbleness.
“The whole civilised world is
thinking what you call new things,” said Betty.
“The old ones won’t do. They have
been tried, and though they have helped us to the
place we have reached, they cannot help us any farther.
We must begin again.”
“It is such a long time since
I began,” said Rosy, “such a long time.”
“Then there must be another
beginning for you, too. The hour has struck.”
Lady Anstruthers rose with as involuntary
a movement as if a strong hand had drawn her to her
feet. She stood facing Betty, a pathetic little
figure in her washed-out muslin frock and with her
washed-out face and eyes and being, though on her
faded cheeks a flush was rising.
“Oh, Betty!” she said,
“I don’t know what there is about you,
but there is something which makes one feel as if
you believed everything and could do everything, and
as if one believes you. Whatever you were
to say, you would make it seem true. If
you said the wildest thing in the world I should believe
you.”
Betty got up, too, and there was an
extraordinary steadiness in her eyes.
“You may,” she answered.
“I shall never say one thing to you which is
not a truth, not one single thing.”
“I believe that,” said
Rosy Anstruthers, with a quivering mouth. “I
do believe it so.”
“I walked to Mount Dunstan,” Betty said
later.
“Really?” said Rosy. “There
and back?”
“Yes, and all round the park and the gardens.”
Rosy looked rather uncertain.
“Weren’t you a little afraid of meeting
someone?”
“I did meet someone. At
first I took him for a gamekeeper. But he turned
out to be Lord Mount Dunstan.”
Lady Anstruthers gasped.
“What did he do?” she
exclaimed. “Did he look angry at seeing
a stranger? They say he is so ill-tempered and
rude.”
“I should feel ill-tempered
if I were in his place,” said Betty. “He
has enough to rouse his evil passions and make him
savage. What a fate for a man with any sense
and decency of feeling! What fools and criminals
the last generation of his house must have produced!
I wonder how such things evolve themselves. But
he is different—different. One can
see it. If he had a chance—just half
a chance—he would build it all up again.
And I don’t mean merely the place, but all that
one means when one says ‘his house.’”
“He would need a great deal
of money,” sighed Lady Anstruthers.
Betty nodded slowly as she looked
out, reflecting, into the park.
“Yes, it would require money,” was her
admission.
“And he has none,” Lady Anstruthers added.
“None whatever.”
“He will get some,” said
Betty, still reflecting. “He will make it,
or dig it up, or someone will leave it to him.
There is a great deal of money in the world, and when
a strong creature ought to have some of it he gets
it.”
“Oh, Betty!” said Rosy. “Oh,
Betty!”
“Watch that man,” said Betty; “you
will see. It will come.”
Lady Anstruthers’ mind, working
at no time on complex lines, presented her with a
simple modern solution.
“Perhaps he will marry an American,”
she said, and saying it, sighed again.
“He will not do it on purpose.”
Bettina answered slowly and with such an air of absence
of mind that Rosy laughed a little.
“Will he do it accidentally,
or against his will?” she said.
Betty herself smiled.
“Perhaps he will,” she
said. “There are Englishmen who rather dislike
Americans. I think he is one of them.”
It apparently became necessary for
Lady Anstruthers, a moment later, to lean upon the
stone balustrade and pick off a young leaf or so, for
no reason whatever, unless that in doing so she averted
her look from her sister as she made her next remark.
“Are you—when are
you going to write to father and mother?”
“I have written,” with
unembarrassed evenness of tone. “Mother
will be counting the days.”
“Mother!” Rosy breathed,
with a soft little gasp. “Mother!”
and turned her face farther away. “What
did you tell her?”
Betty moved over to her and stood
close at her side. The power of her personality
enveloped the tremulous creature as if it had been
a sense of warmth.
“I told her how beautiful the
place was, and how Ughtred adored you—and
how you loved us all, and longed to see New York again.”
The relief in the poor little face
was so immense that Betty’s heart shook before
it. Lady Anstruthers looked up at her with adoring
eyes.
“I might have known,”
she said; “I might have known that—that
you would only say the right thing. You couldn’t
say the wrong thing, Betty.”
Betty bent over her and spoke almost yearningly.
“Whatever happens,” she
said, “we will take care that mother is not
hurt. She’s too kind—she’s
too good—she’s too tender.”
“That is what I have remembered,”
said Lady Anstruthers brokenly. “She used
to hold me on her lap when I was quite grown up.
Oh! her soft, warm arms—her warm shoulder!
I have so wanted her.”
“She has wanted you,”
Betty answered. “She thinks of you just
as she did when she held you on her lap.”
“But if she saw me now—looking
like this! If she saw me! Sometimes I have
even been glad to think she never would.”
“She will.” Betty’s
tone was cool and clear. “But before she
does I shall have made you look like yourself.”
Lady Anstruthers’ thin hand
closed on her plucked leaves convulsively, and then
opening let them drop upon the stone of the terrace.
“We shall never see each other.
It wouldn’t be possible,” she said.
“And there is no magic in the world now, Betty.
You can’t bring back——”
“Yes, you can,” said Bettina.
“And what used to be called magic is only the
controlled working of the law and order of things in
these days. We must talk it all over.”
Lady Anstruthers became a little pale.
“What?” she asked, low
and nervously, and Betty saw her glance sideways at
the windows of the room which opened on to the terrace.
Betty took her hand and drew her down
into a chair. She sat near her and looked her
straight in the face.
“Don’t be frightened,”
she said. “I tell you there is no need to
be frightened. We are not living in the Middle
Ages. There is a policeman even in Stornham village,
and we are within four hours of London, where there
are thousands.”
Lady Anstruthers tried to laugh, but
did not succeed very well, and her forehead flushed.
“I don’t quite know why
I seem so nervous,” she said. “It’s
very silly of me.”
She was still timid enough to cling
to some rag of pretence, but Betty knew that it would
fall away. She did the wisest possible thing,
which was to make an apparently impersonal remark.
“I want you to go over the place
with me and show me everything. Walls and fences
and greenhouses and outbuildings must not be allowed
to crumble away.”
“What?” cried Rosy.
“Have you seen all that already?” She actually
stared at her. “How practical and—and
American!”
“To see that a wall has fallen
when you find yourself obliged to walk round a pile
of grass-grown brickwork?” said Betty.
Lady Anstruthers still softly stared.
“What—what are you thinking of?”
she asked.
“Thinking that it is all too
beautiful——” Betty’s
look swept the loveliness spread about her, “too
beautiful and too valuable to be allowed to lose its
value and its beauty.” She turned her eyes
back to Rosy and the deep dimple near her mouth showed
itself delightfully. “It is a throwing
away of capital,” she added.
“Oh!” cried Lady Anstruthers,
“how clever you are! And you look so different,
Betty.”
“Do I look stupid?” the
dimple deepening. “I must try to alter that.”
“Don’t try to alter your
looks,” said Rosy. “It is your looks
that make you so—so wonderful. But
usually women—girls——”
Rosy paused.
“Oh, I have been trained,”
laughed Betty. “I am the spoiled daughter
of a business man of genius. His business is
an art and a science. I have had advantages.
He has let me hear him talk. I even know some
trifling things about stocks. Not enough to do
me vital injury—but something. What
I know best of all,”—her laugh ended
and her eyes changed their look,—“is
that it is a blunder to think that beauty is not capital—that
happiness is not—and that both are not the
greatest assets in the scheme. This,” with
a wave of her hand, taking in all they saw, “is
beauty, and it ought to be happiness, and it must be
taken care of. It is your home and Ughtred’s——”
“It is Nigel’s,” put in Rosy.
“It is entailed, isn’t it?” turning
quickly. “He cannot sell it?”
“If he could we should not be sitting here,”
ruefully.
“Then he cannot object to its being rescued
from ruin.”
“He will object to—to
money being spent on things he does not care for.”
Lady Anstruthers’ voice lowered itself, as it
always did when she spoke of her husband, and she
indulged in the involuntary hasty glance about her.
“I am going to my room to take
off my hat,” Betty said. “Will you
come with me?”
She went into the house, talking quietly
of ordinary things, and in this way they mounted the
stairway together and passed along the gallery which
led to her room. When they entered it she closed
the door, locked it, and, taking off her hat, laid
it aside. After doing which she sat.
“No one can hear and no one
can come in,” she said. “And if they
could, you are afraid of things you need not be afraid
of now. Tell me what happened when you were so
ill after Ughtred was born.”
“You guessed that it happened
then,” gasped Lady Anstruthers.
“It was a good time to make
anything happen,” replied Bettina. “You
were prostrated, you were a child, and felt yourself
cast off hopelessly from the people who loved you.”
“Forever! Forever!”
Lady Anstruthers’ voice was a sharp little moan.
“That was what I felt—that nothing
could ever help me. I dared not write things.
He told me he would not have it—that he
would stop any hysterical complaints—that
his mother could testify that he behaved perfectly
to me. She was the only person in the room with
us when—when——”
“When?” said Betty.
Lady Anstruthers shuddered. She
leaned forward and caught Betty’s hand between
her own shaking ones.
“He struck me! He struck
me! He said it never happened—but it
did—it did! Betty, it did! That
was the one thing that came back to me clearest.
He said that I was in delirious hysterics, and that
I had struggled with his mother and himself, because
they tried to keep me quiet, and prevent the servants
hearing. One awful day he brought Lady Anstruthers
into the room, and they stood over me, as I lay in
bed, and she fixed her eyes on me and said that she—being
an Englishwoman, and a person whose word would be
believed, could tell people the truth—my
father and mother, if necessary, that my spoiled, hysterical
American tempers had created unhappiness for me—merely
because I was bored by life in the country and wanted
excitement. I tried to answer, but they would
not let me, and when I began to shake all over, they
said that I was throwing myself into hysterics again.
And they told the doctor so, and he believed it.”
The possibilities of the situation
were plainly to be seen. Fate, in the form of
temperament itself, had been against her. It was
clear enough to Betty as she patted and stroked the
thin hands. “I understand. Tell me
the rest,” she said.
Lady Anstruthers’ head dropped.
“When I was loneliest, and dying
of homesickness, and so weak that I could not speak
without sobbing, he came to me—it was one
morning after I had been lying awake all night—and
he began to seem kinder. He had not been near
me for two days, and I had thought I was going to be
left to die alone—and mother would never
know. He said he had been reflecting and that
he was afraid that we had misunderstood each other—because
we belonged to different countries, and had been brought
up in different ways——” she
paused.
“And that if you understood
his position and considered it, you might both be
quite happy,” Betty gave in quiet termination.
Lady Anstruthers started.
“Oh, you know it all!” she exclaimed
“Only because I have heard it
before. It is an old trick. And because
he seemed kind and relenting, you tried to understand—and
signed something.”
“I wanted to understand.
I wanted to believe. What did it matter which
of us had the money, if we liked each other and were
happy? He told me things about the estate, and
about the enormous cost of it, and his bad luck, and
debts he could not help. And I said that I would
do anything if—if we could only be like
mother and father. And he kissed me and I signed
the paper.”
“And then?”
“He went to London the next
day, and then to Paris. He said he was obliged
to go on business. He was away a month. And
after a week had passed, Lady Anstruthers began to
be restless and angry, and once she flew into a rage,
and told me I was a fool, and that if I had been an
Englishwoman, I should have had some decent control
over my husband, because he would have respected me.
In time I found out what I had done. It did not
take long.”
“The paper you signed,”
said Betty, “gave him control over your money?”
A forlorn nod was the answer.
“And since then he has done
as he chose, and he has not chosen to care for Stornham.
And once he made you write to father, to ask for more
money?”
“I did it once. I never
would do it again. He has tried to make me.
He always says it is to save Stornham for Ughtred.”
“Nothing can take Stornham from
Ughtred. It may come to him a ruin, but it will
come to him.”
“He says there are legal points
I cannot understand. And he says he is spending
money on it.”
“Where?”
“He—doesn’t
go into that. If I were to ask questions, he would
make me know that I had better stop. He says
I know nothing about things. And he is right.
He has never allowed me to know and—and
I am not like you, Betty.”
“When you signed the paper,
you did not realise that you were doing something
you could never undo and that you would be forced to
submit to the consequences?”
“I—I didn’t
realise anything but that it would kill me to live
as I had been living—feeling as if they
hated me. And I was so glad and thankful that
he seemed kinder. It was as if I had been on the
rack, and he turned the screws back, and I was ready
to do anything—anything—if I
might be taken off. Oh, Betty! you know, don’t
you, that—that if he would only have been
a little kind—just a little—I
would have obeyed him always, and given him everything.”
Betty sat and looked at her, with
deeply pondering eyes. She was confronting the
fact that it seemed possible that one must build a
new soul for her as well as a new body. In these
days of science and growing sanity of thought, one
did not stand helpless before the problem of physical
rebuilding, and—and perhaps, if one could
pour life into a creature, the soul of it would respond,
and wake again, and grow.
“You do not know where he is?”
she said aloud. “You absolutely do not
know?”
“I never know exactly,”
Lady Anstruthers answered. “He was here
for a few days the week before you came. He said
he was going abroad. He might appear to-morrow,
I might not hear of him for six months. I can’t
help hoping now that it will be the six months.”
“Why particularly now?” inquired Betty.
Lady Anstruthers flushed and looked shy and awkward.
“Because of—you.
I don’t know what he would say. I don’t
know what he would do.”
“To me?” said Betty.
“It would be sure to be something
unreasonable and wicked,” said Lady Anstruthers.
“It would, Betty.”
“I wonder what it would be?” Betty said
musingly.
“He has told lies for years
to keep you all from me. If he came now, he would
know that he had been found out. He would say
that I had told you things. He would be furious
because you have seen what there is to see. He
would know that you could not help but realise that
the money he made me ask for had not been spent on
the estate. He,—Betty, he would try
to force you to go away.”
“I wonder what he would do?”
Betty said again musingly. She felt interested,
not afraid.
“It would be something cunning,”
Rosy protested. “It would be something
no one could expect. He might be so rude that
you could not remain in the room with him, or he might
be quite polite, and pretend he was rather glad to
see you. If he was only frightfully rude we should
be safer, because that would not be an unexpected
thing, but if he was polite, it would be because he
was arranging something hideous, which you could not
defend yourself against.”
“Can you tell me,” said
Betty quite slowly, because, as she looked down at
the carpet, she was thinking very hard, “the
kind of unexpected thing he has done to you?”
Lifting her eyes, she saw that a troubled flush was
creeping over Lady Anstruthers’ face.
“There—have been—so
many queer things,” she faltered. Then Betty
knew there was some special thing she was afraid to
talk about, and that if she desired to obtain illuminating
information it would be well to go into the matter.
“Try,” she said, “to remember some
particular incident.”
Lady Anstruthers looked nervous.
“Rosy,” in the level voice,
“there has been a particular incident—and
I would rather hear of it from you than from him.”
Rosy’s lap held little shaking hands.
“He has held it over me for
years,” she said breathlessly. “He
said he would write about it to father and mother.
He says he could use it against me as evidence in—in
the divorce court. He says that divorce courts
in America are for women, but in England they are for
men, and—he could defend himself against
me.”
The incongruity of the picture of
the small, faded creature arraigned in a divorce court
on charges of misbehaviour would have made Betty smile
if she had been in smiling mood.
“What did he accuse you of?”
“That was the—the unexpected thing,”
miserably.
Betty took the unsteady hands firmly in her own.
“Don’t be afraid to tell
me,” she said. “He knew you so well
that he understood what would terrify you the most.
I know you so well that I understand how he does it.
Did he do this unexpected thing just before you wrote
to father for the money?” As she quite suddenly
presented the question, Rosy exclaimed aloud.
“How did you know?” she
said. “You—you are like a lawyer.
How could you know?”
How simple she was! How obviously
an easy prey! She had been unconsciously giving
evidence with every word.
“I have been thinking him over,”
Betty said. “He interests me. I have
begun to guess that he always wants something when
he professes that he has a grievance.”
Then with drooping head, Rosy told the story.
“Yes, it happened before he
made me write to father for so much money. The
vicar was ill and was obliged to go away for six months.
The clergyman who came to take his place was a young
man. He was kind and gentle, and wanted to help
people. His mother was with him and she was like
him. They loved each other, and they were quite
poor. His name was Ffolliott. I liked to
hear him preach. He said things that comforted
me. Nigel found out that he comforted me, and—when
he called here, he was more polite to him than he
had ever been to Mr. Brent. He seemed almost
as if he liked him. He actually asked him to dinner
two or three times. After dinner, he would go
out of the room and leave us together. Oh, Betty!”
clinging to her hands, “I was so wretched then,
that sometimes I thought I was going out of my mind.
I think I looked wild. I used to kneel down and
try to pray, and I could not.”
“Yes, yes,” said Betty.
“I used to feel that if I could
only have one friend, just one, I could bear it better.
Once I said something like that to Nigel. He only
shrugged his shoulders and sneered when I said it.
But afterwards I knew he had remembered. One
evening, when he had asked Mr. Ffolliott to dinner,
he led him to talk about religion. Oh, Betty!
It made my blood turn cold when he began. I knew
he was doing it for some wicked reason. I knew
the look in his eyes and the awful, agreeable smile
on his mouth. When he said at last, ’If
you could help my poor wife to find comfort in such
things,’ I began to see. I could not explain
to anyone how he did it, but with just a sentence,
dropped here and there, he seemed to tell the whole
story of a silly, selfish, American girl, thwarted
in her vulgar little ambitions, and posing as a martyr,
because she could not have her own way in everything.
He said once, quite casually, ’I’m afraid
American women are rather spoiled.’ And
then he said, in the same tolerant way—’A
poor man is a disappointment to an American girl.
America does not believe in rank combined with lack
of fortune.’ I dared not defend myself.
I am not clever enough to think of the right things
to say. He meant Mr. Ffolliott to understand that
I had married him because I thought he was grand and
rich, and that I was a disappointed little spiteful
shrew. I tried to act as if he was not hurting
me, but my hands trembled, and a lump kept rising
in my throat. When we returned to the drawing-room,
and at last he left us together, I was praying and
praying that I might be able to keep from breaking
down.”
She stopped and swallowed hard.
Betty held her hands firmly until she went on.
“For a few minutes, I sat still,
and tried to think of some new subject—something
about the church or the village. But I could not
begin to speak because of the lump in my throat.
And then, suddenly, but quietly, Mr. Ffolliott got
up. And though I dared not lift my eyes, I knew
he was standing before the fire, quite near me.
And, oh! what do you think he said, as low and gently
as if his voice was a woman’s. I did not
know that people ever said such things now, or even
thought them. But never, never shall I forget
that strange minute. He said just this:
“‘God will help you. He will.
He will.’
“As if it was true, Betty!
As if there was a God—and—He
had not forgotten me. I did not know what I was
doing, but I put out my hand and caught at his sleeve,
and when I looked up into his face, I saw in his kind,
good eyes, that he knew—that somehow—God
knows how—he understood and that I need
not utter a word to explain to him that he had been
listening to lies.”
“Did you talk to him?” Betty asked quietly.
“He talked to me. We did
not even speak of Nigel. He talked to me as I
had never heard anyone talk before. Somehow he
filled the room with something real, which was hope
and comfort and like warmth, which kept my soul from
shivering. The tears poured from my eyes at first,
but the lump in my throat went away, and when Nigel
came back I actually did not feel frightened, though
he looked at me and sneered quietly.”
“Did he say anything afterwards?”
“He laughed a little cold laugh
and said, ’I see you have been seeking the consolation
of religion. Neurotic women like confessors.
I do not object to your confessing, if you confess
your own backslidings and not mine.’”
“That was the beginning,”
said Betty speculatively. “The unexpected
thing was the end. Tell me the rest?”
“No one could have dreamed of
it,” Rosy broke forth. “For weeks
he was almost like other people. He stayed at
Stornham and spent his days in shooting. He professed
that he was rather enjoying himself in a dull way.
He encouraged me to go to the vicarage, he invited
the Ffolliotts here. He said Mrs. Ffolliott was
a gentlewoman and good for me. He said it was
proper that I should interest myself in parish work.
Once or twice he even brought some little message
to me from Mr. Ffolliott.”
It was a pitiably simple story.
Betty saw, through its relation, the unconsciousness
of the easily allured victim, the adroit leading on
from step to step, the ordinary, natural, seeming method
which arranged opportunities. The two had been
thrown together at the Court, at the vicarage, the
church and in the village, and the hawk had looked
on and bided his time. For the first time in
her years of exile, Rosy had begun to feel that she
might be allowed a friend—though she lived
in secret tremor lest the normal liberty permitted
her should suddenly be snatched away.
“We never talked of Nigel,”
she said, twisting her hands. “But he made
me begin to live again. He talked to me of Something
that watched and would not leave me—would
never leave me. I was learning to believe it.
Sometimes when I walked through the wood to the village,
I used to stop among the trees and look up at the
bits of sky between the branches, and listen to the
sound in the leaves—the sound that never
stops—and it seemed as if it was saying
something to me. And I would clasp my hands and
whisper, ‘Yes, yes,’ ‘I will,’
‘I will.’ I used to see Nigel looking
at me at table with a queer smile in his eyes and once
he said to me—’You are growing young
and lovely, my dear. Your colour is improving.
The counsels of our friend are of a salutary nature.’
It would have made me nervous, but he said it almost
good-naturedly, and I was silly enough even to wonder
if it could be possible that he was pleased to see
me looking less ill. It was true, Betty, that
I was growing stronger. But it did not last long.”
“I was afraid not,” said Betty.
“An old woman in the lane near
Bartyon Wood was ill. Mr. Ffolliott had asked
me to go to see her, and I used to go. She suffered
a great deal and clung to us both. He comforted
her, as he comforted me. Sometimes when he was
called away he would send a note to me, asking me to
go to her. One day he wrote hastily, saying that
she was dying, and asked if I would go with him to
her cottage at once. I knew it would save time
if I met him in the path which was a short cut.
So I wrote a few words and gave them to the messenger.
I said, ’Do not come to the house. I will
meet you in Bartyon Wood.’”
Betty made a slight movement, and
in her face there was a dawning of mingled amazement
and incredulity. The thought which had come to
her seemed—as Ughtred’s locking of
the door had seemed—too wild for modern
days.
Lady Anstruthers saw her expression
and understood it. She made a hopeless gesture
with her small, bony hand.
“Yes,” she said, “it
is just like that. No one would believe it.
The worst cleverness of the things he does, is that
when one tells of them, they sound like lies.
I have a bewildered feeling that I should not believe
them myself if I had not seen them. He met the
boy in the park and took the note from him. He
came back to the house and up to my room, where I
was dressing quickly to go to Mr. Ffolliott.”
She stopped for quite a minute, rather
as if to recover breath.
“He closed the door behind him
and came towards me with the note in his hand.
And I saw in a second the look that always terrifies
me, in his face. He had opened the note and he
smoothed out the paper quietly and said, ’What
is this. I could not help it—I turned
cold and began to shiver. I could not imagine
what was coming.”
“‘Is it my note to Mr. Ffolliott?’
I asked.
“‘Yes, it is your note
to Mr. Ffolliott,’ and he read it aloud.
“Do not come to the house. I will meet
you in Bartyon Wood.” That is a nice note
for a man’s wife to have written, to be picked
up and read by a stranger, if your confessor is not
cautious in the matter of letters from women——’
“When he begins a thing in that
way, you may always know that he has planned everything—that
you can do nothing—I always know. I
knew then, and I knew I was quite white when I answered
him:
“’I wrote it in a great
hurry, Mrs. Farne is worse. We are going together
to her. I said I would meet him—to
save time.’
“He laughed, his awful little
laugh, and touched the paper.
“’I have no doubt.
And I have no doubt that if other persons saw this,
they would believe it. It is very likely.
“‘But you believe it,’
I said. ’You know it is true. No one
would be so silly—so silly and wicked as
to——’ Then I broke down and
cried out. ‘What do you mean? What
could anyone think it meant?’ I was so wild that
I felt as if I was going crazy. He clenched my
wrist and shook me.
“‘Don’t think you
can play the fool with me,’ he said. ’I
have been watching this thing from the first.
The first time I leave you alone with the fellow,
I come back to find you have been giving him an emotional
scene. Do you suppose your simpering good spirits
and your imbecile pink cheeks told me nothing?
They told me exactly this. I have waited to come
upon it, and here it is. “Do not come to
the house—I will meet you in the wood.”’
“That was the unexpected thing.
It was no use to argue and try to explain. I
knew he did not believe what he was saying, but he
worked himself into a rage, he accused me of awful
things, and called me awful names in a loud voice,
so that he could be heard, until I was dumb and staggering.
All the time, I knew there was a reason, but I could
not tell then what it was. He said at last, that
he was going to Mr. Ffolliott. He said, ’I
will meet him in the wood and I will take your note
with me.’
“Betty, it was so shameful that
I fell down on my knees. ’Oh, don’t—don’t—do
that,’ I said. ’I beg of you, Nigel.
He is a gentleman and a clergyman. I beg and
beg of you. If you will not, I will do anything—anything.’
And at that minute I remembered how he had tried to
make me write to father for money. And I cried
out—catching at his coat, and holding him
back. ’I will write to father as you asked
me. I will do anything. I can’t bear
it.’”
“That was the whole meaning
of the whole thing,” said Betty with eyes ablaze.
“That was the beginning, the middle and the end.
What did he say?”
“He pretended to be made more
angry. He said, ’Don’t insult me by
trying to bribe me with your vulgar money. Don’t
insult me.’ But he gradually grew sulky
instead of raging, and though he put the note in his
pocket, he did not go to Mr. Ffolliott. And—I
wrote to father.”
“I remember that,” Betty
answered. “Did you ever speak to Mr. Ffolliott
again?”
“He guessed—he knew—I
saw it in his kind, brown eyes when he passed me without
speaking, in the village. I daresay the villagers
were told about the awful thing by some servant, who
heard Nigel’s voice. Villagers always know
what is happening. He went away a few weeks later.
The day before he went, I had walked through the wood,
and just outside it, I met him. He stopped for
one minute—just one—he lifted
his hat and said, just as he had spoken them that
first night—just the same words, ‘God
will help you. He will. He will.’”
A strange, almost unearthly joy suddenly
flashed across her face.
“It must be true,” she
said. “It must be true. He has sent
you, Betty. It has been a long time—it
has been so long that sometimes I have forgotten his
words. But you have come!”
“Yes, I have come,” Betty
answered. And she bent forward and kissed her
gently, as if she had been soothing a child.
There were other questions to ask.
She was obliged to ask them. “The unexpected
thing” had been used as an instrument for years.
It was always efficacious. Over the yearningly
homesick creature had hung the threat that her father
and mother, those she ached and longed for, could
be told the story in such a manner as would brand her
as a woman with a shameful secret. How could
she explain herself? There were the awful, written
words. He was her husband. He was remorseless,
plausible. She dared not write freely. She
had no witnesses to call upon. She had discovered
that he had planned with composed steadiness that misleading
impressions should be given to servants and village
people. When the Brents returned to the vicarage,
she had observed, with terror, that for some reason
they stiffened, and looked askance when the Ffolliotts
were mentioned.
“I am afraid, Lady Anstruthers,
that Mr. Ffolliott was a great mistake,” Mrs.
Brent said once.
Lady Anstruthers had not dared to
ask any questions. She had felt the awkward colour
rising in her face and had known that she looked guilty.
But if she had protested against the injustice of the
remark, Sir Nigel would have heard of her words before
the day had passed, and she shuddered to think of
the result. He had by that time reached the point
of referring to Ffolliott with sneering lightness,
as “Your lover.”
“Do you defend your lover to
me,” he had said on one occasion, when she had
entered a timid protest. And her white face and
wild helpless eyes had been such evidence as to the
effect the word had produced, that he had seen the
expediency of making a point of using it.
The blood beat in Betty Vanderpoel’s veins.
“Rosy,” she said, looking
steadily in the faded face, “tell me this.
Did you never think of getting away from him, of going
somewhere, and trying to reach father, by cable, or
letter, by some means?”
Lady Anstruthers’ weary and
wrinkled little smile was a pitiably illuminating
thing.
“My dear” she said, “if
you are strong and beautiful and rich and well dressed,
so that people care to look at you, and listen to what
you say, you can do things. But who, in England,
will listen to a shabby, dowdy, frightened woman,
when she runs away from her husband, if he follows
her and tells people she is hysterical or mad or bad?
It is the shabby, dowdy woman who is in the wrong.
At first, I thought of nothing else but trying to
get away. And once I went to Stornham station.
I walked all the way, on a hot day. And just
as I was getting into a third-class carriage, Nigel
marched in and caught my arm, and held me back.
I fainted and when I came to myself I was in the carriage,
being driven back to the Court, and he was sitting
opposite to me. He said, ’You fool!
It would take a cleverer woman than you to carry that
out.’ And I knew it was the awful truth.”
“It is not the awful truth now,”
said Betty, and she rose to her feet and stood looking
before her, but with a look which did not rest on
chairs and tables. She remained so, standing for
a few moments of dead silence.
“What a fool he was!”
she said at last. “And what a villain!
But a villain is always a fool.”
She bent, and taking Rosy’s
face between her hands, kissed it with a kiss which
seemed like a seal. “That will do,”
she said. “Now I know. One must know
what is in one’s hands and what is not.
Then one need not waste time in talking of miserable
things. One can save one’s strength for
doing what can be done.”
“I believe you would always
think about doing things,” said Lady Anstruthers.
“That is American, too.”
“It is a quality Americans inherited
from England,” lightly; “one of the results
of it is that England covers a rather large share of
the map of the world. It is a practical quality.
You and I might spend hours in talking to each other
of what Nigel has done and what you have done, of
what he has said, and of what you have said. We
might give some hours, I daresay, to what the Dowager
did and said. But wiser people than we are have
found out that thinking of black things past is living
them again, and it is like poisoning one’s blood.
It is deterioration of property.”
She said the last words as if she
had ended with a jest. But she knew what she
was doing.
“You were tricked into giving
up what was yours, to a person who could not be trusted.
What has been done with it, scarcely matters.
It is not yours, but Sir Nigel’s. But we
are not helpless, because we have in our hands the
most powerful material agent in the world.
“Come, Rosy, and let us walk
over the house. We will begin with that.”