CHAPTER I
AT ONE O’CLOCK, YOUR EXCELLENCY!
As the Minister was a very stout man,
inclined to apoplexy, they feared to arouse in him
any dangerous excitement, and it was with every possible
precaution that they informed him that a very serious
attempt upon his life had been planned. When they
saw that he received the news calmly, even with a
smile, they gave him, also, the details. The
attempt was to be made on the following day at the
time that he was to start out with his official report;
several men, terrorists, plans had already been betrayed
by a provocateur, and who were now under the vigilant
surveillance of detectives, were to meet at one o’clock
in the afternoon in front of his house, and, armed
with bombs and revolvers, were to wait till he came
out. There the terrorists were to be trapped.
“Wait!” muttered the Minister,
perplexed. “How did they know that I was
to leave the house at one o’clock in the afternoon
with my report, when I myself learned of it only the
day before yesterday?”
The Chief of the Guards stretched
out his arms with a shrug.
“Exactly at one o’clock
in the afternoon, your Excellency,” he said.
Half surprised, half commending the
work of the police, who had managed everything skilfully,
the Minister shook his head, a morose smile upon his
thick, dark lips, and still smiling obediently, and
not desiring to interfere with the plans of the police,
he hastily made ready, and went out to pass the night
in some one else’s hospitable palace. His
wife and his two children were also removed from the
dangerous house, before which the bomb-throwers were
to gather upon the following day.
While the lights were burning in the
palace, and courteous, familiar faces were bowing
to him, smiling and expressing their concern, the
dignitary experienced a sensation of pleasant excitement-he
felt as if he had already received, or was soon to
receive, some great and unexpected reward. But
the people went away, the lights were extinguished,
and through the mirrors, the lace-like and fantastic
reflection of the electric lamps on the street, quivered
across the ceiling and over the walls. A stranger
in the house, with its paintings, its statues and
its silence, the light-itself silent and indefinite-awakened
painful thoughts in him as to the vanity of bolts
and guards and walls. And then, in the dead of
night, in the silence and solitude of a strange bedroom,
a sensation of unbearable fear swept over the dignitary.
He had some kidney trouble, and whenever
he grew strongly agitated, his face, his hands and
his feet became swollen. Now, rising like a mountain
of bloated flesh above the taut springs of the bed,
he felt, with the anguish of a sick man, his swollen
face, which seemed to him to belong to some one else.
Unceasingly he kept thinking of the cruel fate which
people were preparing for him. He recalled, one
after another, all the recent horrible instances of
bombs that had been thrown at men of even greater
eminence than himself; he recalled how the bombs had
torn bodies to pieces, had spattered brains over dirty
brick walls, had knocked teeth from their roots.
And influenced by these meditations, it seemed to
him that his own stout, sickly body, outspread on
the bed, was already experiencing the fiery shock of
the explosion. He seemed to be able to feel his
arms being severed from the shoulders, his teeth knocked
out, his brains scattered into particles, his feet
growing numb, lying quietly, their toes upward, like
those of a dead man. He stirred with an effort,
breathed loudly and coughed in order not to seem to
himself to resemble a corpse in any way. He encouraged
himself with the live noise of the grating springs,
of the rustling blanket; and to assure himself that
he was actually alive and not dead, he uttered in
a bass voice, loudly and abruptly, in the silence
and solitude of the bedroom:
“Molodtsi! Molodtsi! Molodtsi! (Good
boys)!”
He was praising the detectives, the
police, and the soldiers-all those who guarded his
life, and who so opportunely and so cleverly had averted
the assassination. But even though he stirred,
even though he praised his protectors, even though
he forced an unnatural smile, in order to express
his contempt for the foolish, unsuccessful terrorists,
he nevertheless did not believe in his safety, he was
not sure that his life would not leave him suddenly,
at once. Death, which people had devised for
him, and which was only in their minds, in their intention,
seemed to him to be already standing there in the
room. It seemed to him that Death would remain
standing there, and would not go away until those
people had been captured, until the bombs had been
taken from them, until they had been placed in a strong
prison. There Death was standing in the corner,
and would not go away-it could not go away, even as
an obedient sentinel stationed on guard by a superior’s
will and order.
“At one o’clock in the
afternoon, your Excellency!” this phrase kept
ringing, changing its tone continually: now it
was cheerfully mocking, now angry, now dull and obstinate.
It sounded as if a hundred wound-up gramophones had
been placed in his room, and all of them, one after
another, were shouting with idiotic repetition the
words they had been made to shout:
“At one o’clock in the afternoon, your
Excellency!”
And suddenly, this one o’clock
in the afternoon to-morrow, which but a short while
ago was not in any way different from other hours,
which was only a quiet movement of the hand along
the dial of his gold watch, assumed an ominous finality,
sprang out of the dial, began to live separately,
stretched itself into an enormously huge black pole
which cut all life in two. It seemed as if no
other hours had existed before it and no other hours
would exist after it-as if this hour alone, insolent
and presumptuous, had a right to a certain peculiar
existence.
“Well, what do you want?”
asked the Minister angrily, muttering between his
teeth.
The gramophone shouted:
“At one o’clock in the
afternoon, your Excellency!” and the black pole
smiled and bowed. Gnashing his teeth, the Minister
rose in his bed to a sitting posture, leaning his
face on the palms of his hands-he positively could
not sleep on that dreadful night.
Clasping his face in his swollen,
perfumed palms, he pictured to himself with horrifying
clearness how on the following morning, not knowing
anything of the plot against his life, he would have
risen, would have drunk his coffee, not knowing anything,
and then would have put on his coat in the hallway.
And neither he, nor the doorkeeper who would have
handed him his fur coat, nor the lackey who would have
brought him the coffee, would have known that it was
utterly useless to drink coffee, and to put on the
coat, since a few instants later, everything- the
fur coat and his body and the coffee within it-would
be destroyed by an explosion, would be seized by death.
The doorkeeper would have opened the glass door. ...
He, the amiable, kind, gentle doorkeeper, with the
blue, typical eyes of a soldier, and with medals across
his breast- he himself with his own hands would have
opened the terrible door, opened it because he knew
nothing. Everybody would have smiled because
they did not know anything. “Oho!”
he suddenly said aloud, and slowly removed his hands
from his face. Peering into the darkness, far
ahead of him, with a fixed, strained look, he outstretched
his hand just as slowly, felt the button on the wall
and pressed it. Then he arose, and without putting
on his slippers, walked in his bare feet over the
rug in the strange, unfamiliar bedroom, found the
button of another lamp upon the wall and pressed it.
It became light and pleasant, and only the disarranged
bed with the blanket, which had slipped off to the
floor, spoke of the horror, not altogether past.
In his night-clothes, with his beard
disheveled by his restless movements, with his angry
eyes, the dignitary resembled any other angry old
man who suffered with insomnia and shortness of breath.
It was as if the death which people were preparing
for him, had made him bare, had torn away from him
the magnificence and splendor which had surrounded
him-and it was hard to believe that it was he who had
so much power, that his body was but an ordinary plain
human body that must have perished terribly in the
flame and roar of a monstrous explosion. Without
dressing himself and not feeling the cold, he sat
down in the first armchair he found, stroking his disheveled
beard, and fixed his eyes in deep, calm thoughtfulness
upon the unfamiliar plaster figures of the ceiling.
So that was the trouble! That
was why he had trembled in fear and had become so
agitated! That was why Death seemed to stand in
the corner and would not go away, could not go away!
“Fools!” he said emphatically, with contempt.
“Fools!” he repeated more
loudly, and turned his head slightly toward the door
that those to whom he was referring might hear it.
He was referring to those whom he had praised hut
a moment before, who in the excess of their zeal had
told him of the plot against his life.
“Of course,” he thought
deeply, an easy, convincing idea arising in his mind.
“Now that they have told me, I know, and feel
terrified, but if I had not been told, I would not
have known anything and would have drunk my coffee
calmly. After that Death would have come-but then,
am I so afraid of Death? Here have I been suffering
with kidney trouble, and I must surely die from it
some day, and yet I am not afraid-because I do not
know anything. And those fools told me: ’At
one o’clock in the afternoon, your Excellency!’
and they thought I would be glad. But instead
of that Death stationed itself in the corner and would
not go away. It would not go away because it was
my thought. It is not death that is terrible,
but the knowledge of it: it would be utterly
impossible to live if a man could know exactly and
definitely the day and hour of his death. And
the fools cautioned me: ‘At one o’clock
in the afternoon, your Excellency!’ “
He began to feel light-hearted and
cheerful, as if some one had told him that he was
immortal, that he would never die. And, feeling
himself again strong and wise amidst the herd of fools
who had so stupidly and impudently broken into the
mystery of the future, he began to think of the bliss
of ignorance, and his thoughts were the painful thoughts
of an old, sick man who had gone through endless experience.
It was not given to any living being-man or beast -to
know the day and hour of death. Here had he been
ill not long ago and the physicians told him that
he must expect the end, that he should make his final
arrangements-but he had not believed them and he remained
alive. In his youth he had become entangled in
an affair and had resolved to end his life; he had
even loaded the revolver, had “written his letters,
and had fixed upon ’the hour for suicide-but
before the very end he had suddenly changed his mind.
It would always be thus-at the very last moment something
would change, an unexpected accident would befall-no
one could tell when he would die.
“At one o’clock in the
afternoon, your Excellency!” those kind asses
had said to him, and although they had told him of
it only that death might he averted, the mere knowledge
of its possibility at a certain hour again filled
him with horror. It was probable that some day
he should be assassinated, but it would not happen
to-morrow-it would not happen to-morrow-and he could
sleep undisturbed, as if he were really immortal.
Fools-they did not know what a great law they had dislodged,
what an abyss they had opened, when they said in their
idiotic kindness: “At one o’clock
in the afternoon, your Excellency!”
“No, not at one o’clock
in the afternoon, your Excellency, but no one knows
when. No one knows when! What?”
“Nothing,” answered Silence, “nothing.”
“But you did say something.”
“Nothing, nonsense. I say:
to-morrow, at one o’clock in the afternoon!”
There was a sudden, acute pain in
his heart-and he understood that he would have neither
sleep, nor peace, nor joy until that accursed black
hour standing out of the dial should have passed.
Only the shadow of the knowledge of something which
no living being could know stood there in the corner,
and that was enough to darken the world and envelop
him with the impenetrable gloom of horror. The
once disturbed fear of death diffused through his
body, penetrated into his bones.
He no longer feared the murderers
of the next day-they had vanished, they had been forgotten,
they had mingled with the crowd of hostile faces and
incidents which surrounded his life. He now feared
something sudden and inevitable-an apoplectic stroke,
heart failure, some foolish thin little vessel which
might suddenly fail to withstand the pressure of the
blood and might burst like a tight glove upon swollen
fingers.
His short, thick neck seemed terrible
to him. It became unbearable for him to look
upon his short, swollen ringers-to feel how short they
were and how they were filled with the moisture of
death. And if before, when it was dark, he had
had to stir in order not to resemble a corpse, now
in the bright, cold, inimical, dreadful light he was
so filled with horror that he could not move in order
to get a cigarette or to ring for some one. His
nerves were giving way. Each one of them seemed
as if it were a bent wire, at the top of which there
was a small head with mad, wide-open frightened eyes
and a convulsively gaping, speechless mouth.
He could not draw his breath.
Suddenly in the darkness, amidst the
dust and cobwebs somewhere upon the ceiling, an electric
bell came to life. The small, metallic tongue,
agitatedly, in terror, kept striking the edge of the
ringing cap, became silent-and again quivered in an
unceasing, frightened din. His Excellency was
ringing his bell in his own room.
People began to run. Here and
there, in the shadows upon the walls, lamps flared
up -there were not enough of them to give light, but
there were enough to cast shadows. The shadows
appeared everywhere; they rose in the corners, they
stretched across the ceiling; tremulously clinging
to each and every elevation, they covered the walls.
And it was hard to understand where all these innumerable,
deformed silent shadows- voiceless souls of voiceless
objects-had been before.
A deep, trembling voice said something
loudly. Then the doctor was hastily summoned
by telephone; the dignitary was collapsing. The
wife of his Excellency was also called.