For years, Dorian Gray could not free
himself from the influence of this book. Or
perhaps it would be more accurate to say that he never
sought to free himself from it. He procured from
Paris no less than nine large-paper copies of the first
edition, and had them bound in different colours,
so that they might suit his various moods and the
changing fancies of a nature over which he seemed,
at times, to have almost entirely lost control.
The hero, the wonderful young Parisian in whom the
romantic and the scientific temperaments were so strangely
blended, became to him a kind of prefiguring type
of himself. And, indeed, the whole book seemed
to him to contain the story of his own life, written
before he had lived it.
In one point he was more fortunate
than the novel’s fantastic hero. He never
knew—never, indeed, had any cause to know—that
somewhat grotesque dread of mirrors, and polished
metal surfaces, and still water which came upon the
young Parisian so early in his life, and was occasioned
by the sudden decay of a beau that had once, apparently,
been so remarkable. It was with an almost cruel
joy— and perhaps in nearly every joy, as
certainly in every pleasure, cruelty has its place—that
he used to read the latter part of the book, with
its really tragic, if somewhat overemphasized, account
of the sorrow and despair of one who had himself lost
what in others, and the world, he had most dearly
valued.
For the wonderful beauty that had
so fascinated Basil Hallward, and many others besides
him, seemed never to leave him. Even those who
had heard the most evil things against him—
and from time to time strange rumours about his mode
of life crept through London and became the chatter
of the clubs— could not believe anything
to his dishonour when they saw him. He had always
the look of one who had kept himself unspotted from
the world. Men who talked grossly became silent
when Dorian Gray entered the room. There was
something in the purity of his face that rebuked them.
His mere presence seemed to recall to them the memory
of the innocence that they had tarnished. They
wondered how one so charming and graceful as he was
could have escaped the stain of an age that was at
once sordid and sensual.
Often, on returning home from one
of those mysterious and prolonged absences that gave
rise to such strange conjecture among those who were
his friends, or thought that they were so, he himself
would creep upstairs to the locked room, open the door
with the key that never left him now, and stand, with
a mirror, in front of the portrait that Basil Hallward
had painted of him, looking now at the evil and aging
face on the canvas, and now at the fair young face
that laughed back at him from the polished glass.
The very sharpness of the contrast used to quicken
his sense of pleasure. He grew more and more
enamoured of his own beauty, more and more interested
in the corruption of his own soul. He would examine
with minute care, and sometimes with a monstrous and
terrible delight, the hideous lines that seared the
wrinkling forehead or crawled around the heavy sensual
mouth, wondering sometimes which were the more horrible,
the signs of sin or the signs of age. He would
place his white hands beside the coarse bloated hands
of the picture, and smile. He mocked the misshapen
body and the failing limbs.
There were moments, indeed, at night,
when, lying sleepless in his own delicately scented
chamber, or in the sordid room of the little ill-famed
tavern near the docks which, under an assumed name
and in disguise, it was his habit to frequent, he
would think of the ruin he had brought upon his soul
with a pity that was all the more poignant because
it was purely selfish. But moments such as these
were rare. That curiosity about life which Lord
Henry had first stirred in him, as they sat together
in the garden of their friend, seemed to increase
with gratification. The more he knew, the more
he desired to know. He had mad hungers that grew
more ravenous as he fed them.
Yet he was not really reckless, at
any rate in his relations to society. Once or
twice every month during the winter, and on each Wednesday
evening while the season lasted, he would throw open
to the world his beautiful house and have the most
celebrated musicians of the day to charm his guests
with the wonders of their art. His little dinners,
in the settling of which Lord Henry always assisted
him, were noted as much for the careful selection
and placing of those invited, as for the exquisite
taste shown in the decoration of the table, with its
subtle symphonic arrangements of exotic flowers, and
embroidered cloths, and antique plate of gold and silver.
Indeed, there were many, especially among the very
young men, who saw, or fancied that they saw, in Dorian
Gray the true realization of a type of which they
had often dreamed in Eton or Oxford days, a type that
was to combine something of the real culture of the
scholar with all the grace and distinction and perfect
manner of a citizen of the world. To them he
seemed to be of the company of those whom Dante describes
as having sought to “make themselves perfect
by the worship of beauty.” Like Gautier,
he was one for whom “the visible world existed.”
And, certainly, to him life itself
was the first, the greatest, of the arts, and for
it all the other arts seemed to be but a preparation.
Fashion, by which what is really fantastic becomes
for a moment universal, and dandyism, which, in its
own way, is an attempt to assert the absolute modernity
of beauty, had, of course, their fascination for him.
His mode of dressing, and the particular styles that
from time to time he affected, had their marked influence
on the young exquisites of the Mayfair balls and Pall
Mall club windows, who copied him in everything that
he did, and tried to reproduce the accidental charm
of his graceful, though to him only half-serious,
fopperies.
For, while he was but too ready to
accept the position that was almost immediately offered
to him on his coming of age, and found, indeed, a
subtle pleasure in the thought that he might really
become to the London of his own day what to imperial
Neronian Rome the author of the Satyricon once had
been, yet in his inmost heart he desired to be something
more than a mere arbiter elegantiarum, to be consulted
on the wearing of a jewel, or the knotting of a necktie,
or the conduct of a cane. He sought to elaborate
some new scheme of life that would have its reasoned
philosophy and its ordered principles, and find in
the spiritualizing of the senses its highest realization.
The worship of the senses has often,
and with much justice, been decried, men feeling a
natural instinct of terror about passions and sensations
that seem stronger than themselves, and that they
are conscious of sharing with the less highly organized
forms of existence. But it appeared to Dorian
Gray that the true nature of the senses had never
been understood, and that they had remained savage
and animal merely because the world had sought to
starve them into submission or to kill them by pain,
instead of aiming at making them elements of a new
spirituality, of which a fine instinct for beauty was
to be the dominant characteristic. As he looked
back upon man moving through history, he was haunted
by a feeling of loss. So much had been surrendered!
and to such little purpose! There had been mad
wilful rejections, monstrous forms of self-torture
and self-denial, whose origin was fear and whose result
was a degradation infinitely more terrible than that
fancied degradation from which, in their ignorance,
they had sought to escape; Nature, in her wonderful
irony, driving out the anchorite to feed with the
wild animals of the desert and giving to the hermit
the beasts of the field as his companions.
Yes: there was to be, as Lord
Henry had prophesied, a new Hedonism that was to recreate
life and to save it from that harsh uncomely puritanism
that is having, in our own day, its curious revival.
It was to have its service of the intellect, certainly,
yet it was never to accept any theory or system that
would involve the sacrifice of any mode of passionate
experience. Its aim, indeed, was to be experience
itself, and not the fruits of experience, sweet or
bitter as they might be. Of the asceticism that
deadens the senses, as of the vulgar profligacy that
dulls them, it was to know nothing. But it was
to teach man to concentrate himself upon the moments
of a life that is itself but a moment.
There are few of us who have not sometimes
wakened before dawn, either after one of those dreamless
nights that make us almost enamoured of death, or
one of those nights of horror and misshapen joy, when
through the chambers of the brain sweep phantoms more
terrible than reality itself, and instinct with that
vivid life that lurks in all grotesques, and that
lends to Gothic art its enduring vitality, this art
being, one might fancy, especially the art of those
whose minds have been troubled with the malady of
reverie. Gradually white fingers creep through
the curtains, and they appear to tremble. In
black fantastic shapes, dumb shadows crawl into the
corners of the room and crouch there. Outside,
there is the stirring of birds among the leaves, or
the sound of men going forth to their work, or the
sigh and sob of the wind coming down from the hills
and wandering round the silent house, as though it
feared to wake the sleepers and yet must needs call
forth sleep from her purple cave. Veil after
veil of thin dusky gauze is lifted, and by degrees
the forms and colours of things are restored to them,
and we watch the dawn remaking the world in its antique
pattern. The wan mirrors get back their mimic
life. The flameless tapers stand where we had
left them, and beside them lies the half-cut book
that we had been studying, or the wired flower that
we had worn at the ball, or the letter that we had
been afraid to read, or that we had read too often.
Nothing seems to us changed. Out of the unreal
shadows of the night comes back the real life that
we had known. We have to resume it where we had
left off, and there steals over us a terrible sense
of the necessity for the continuance of energy in
the same wearisome round of stereotyped habits, or
a wild longing, it may be, that our eyelids might
open some morning upon a world that had been refashioned
anew in the darkness for our pleasure, a world in
which things would have fresh shapes and colours,
and be changed, or have other secrets, a world in which
the past would have little or no place, or survive,
at any rate, in no conscious form of obligation or
regret, the remembrance even of joy having its bitterness
and the memories of pleasure their pain.
It was the creation of such worlds
as these that seemed to Dorian Gray to be the true
object, or amongst the true objects, of life; and
in his search for sensations that would be at once
new and delightful, and possess that element of strangeness
that is so essential to romance, he would often adopt
certain modes of thought that he knew to be really
alien to his nature, abandon himself to their subtle
influences, and then, having, as it were, caught their
colour and satisfied his intellectual curiosity, leave
them with that curious indifference that is not incompatible
with a real ardour of temperament, and that, indeed,
according to certain modern psychologists, is often
a condition of it.
It was rumoured of him once that he
was about to join the Roman Catholic communion, and
certainly the Roman ritual had always a great attraction
for him. The daily sacrifice, more awful really
than all the sacrifices of the antique world, stirred
him as much by its superb rejection of the evidence
of the senses as by the primitive simplicity of its
elements and the eternal pathos of the human tragedy
that it sought to symbolize. He loved to kneel
down on the cold marble pavement and watch the priest,
in his stiff flowered dalmatic, slowly and with white
hands moving aside the veil of the tabernacle, or
raising aloft the jewelled, lantern-shaped monstrance
with that pallid wafer that at times, one would fain
think, is indeed the “panis caelestis,”
the bread of angels, or, robed in the garments of
the Passion of Christ, breaking the Host into the
chalice and smiting his breast for his sins.
The fuming censers that the grave boys, in their lace
and scarlet, tossed into the air like great gilt flowers
had their subtle fascination for him. As he
passed out, he used to look with wonder at the black
confessionals and long to sit in the dim shadow of
one of them and listen to men and women whispering
through the worn grating the true story of their lives.
But he never fell into the error of
arresting his intellectual development by any formal
acceptance of creed or system, or of mistaking, for
a house in which to live, an inn that is but suitable
for the sojourn of a night, or for a few hours of
a night in which there are no stars and the moon is
in travail. Mysticism, with its marvellous power
of making common things strange to us, and the subtle
antinomianism that always seems to accompany it, moved
him for a season; and for a season he inclined to the
materialistic doctrines of the Darwinismus movement
in Germany, and found a curious pleasure in tracing
the thoughts and passions of men to some pearly cell
in the brain, or some white nerve in the body, delighting
in the conception of the absolute dependence of the
spirit on certain physical conditions, morbid or healthy,
normal or diseased. Yet, as has been said of
him before, no theory of life seemed to him to be
of any importance compared with life itself.
He felt keenly conscious of how barren all intellectual
speculation is when separated from action and experiment.
He knew that the senses, no less than the soul, have
their spiritual mysteries to reveal.
And so he would now study perfumes
and the secrets of their manufacture, distilling heavily
scented oils and burning odorous gums from the East.
He saw that there was no mood of the mind that had
not its counterpart in the sensuous life, and set
himself to discover their true relations, wondering
what there was in frankincense that made one mystical,
and in ambergris that stirred one’s passions,
and in violets that woke the memory of dead romances,
and in musk that troubled the brain, and in champak
that stained the imagination; and seeking often to
elaborate a real psychology of perfumes, and to estimate
the several influences of sweet-smelling roots and
scented, pollen-laden flowers; of aromatic balms and
of dark and fragrant woods; of spikenard, that sickens;
of hovenia, that makes men mad; and of aloes, that
are said to be able to expel melancholy from the soul.
At another time he devoted himself
entirely to music, and in a long latticed room, with
a vermilion-and-gold ceiling and walls of olive-green
lacquer, he used to give curious concerts in which
mad gipsies tore wild music from little zithers, or
grave, yellow-shawled Tunisians plucked at the strained
strings of monstrous lutes, while grinning Negroes
beat monotonously upon copper drums and, crouching
upon scarlet mats, slim turbaned Indians blew through
long pipes of reed or brass and charmed—
or feigned to charm—great hooded snakes
and horrible horned adders. The harsh intervals
and shrill discords of barbaric music stirred him
at times when Schubert’s grace, and Chopin’s
beautiful sorrows, and the mighty harmonies of Beethoven
himself, fell unheeded on his ear. He collected
together from all parts of the world the strangest
instruments that could be found, either in the tombs
of dead nations or among the few savage tribes that
have survived contact with Western civilizations,
and loved to touch and try them. He had the mysterious
juruparis of the Rio Negro Indians, that women are
not allowed to look at and that even youths may not
see till they have been subjected to fasting and scourging,
and the earthen jars of the Peruvians that have the
shrill cries of birds, and flutes of human bones such
as Alfonso de Ovalle heard in Chile, and the sonorous
green jaspers that are found near Cuzco and give forth
a note of singular sweetness. He had painted
gourds filled with pebbles that rattled when they
were shaken; the long clarin of the Mexicans, into
which the performer does not blow, but through which
he inhales the air; the harsh ture of the Amazon tribes,
that is sounded by the sentinels who sit all day long
in high trees, and can be heard, it is said, at a
distance of three leagues; the teponaztli, that has
two vibrating tongues of wood and is beaten with sticks
that are smeared with an elastic gum obtained from
the milky juice of plants; the yotl-bells of the Aztecs,
that are hung in clusters like grapes; and a huge
cylindrical drum, covered with the skins of great serpents,
like the one that Bernal Diaz saw when he went with
Cortes into the Mexican temple, and of whose doleful
sound he has left us so vivid a description.
The fantastic character of these instruments fascinated
him, and he felt a curious delight in the thought
that art, like Nature, has her monsters, things of
bestial shape and with hideous voices. Yet, after
some time, he wearied of them, and would sit in his
box at the opera, either alone or with Lord Henry,
listening in rapt pleasure to “Tannhauser”
and seeing in the prelude to that great work of art
a presentation of the tragedy of his own soul.
On one occasion he took up the study
of jewels, and appeared at a costume ball as Anne
de Joyeuse, Admiral of France, in a dress covered
with five hundred and sixty pearls. This taste
enthralled him for years, and, indeed, may be said
never to have left him. He would often spend
a whole day settling and resettling in their cases
the various stones that he had collected, such as
the olive-green chrysoberyl that turns red by lamplight,
the cymophane with its wirelike line of silver, the
pistachio-coloured peridot, rose-pink and wine-yellow
topazes, carbuncles of fiery scarlet with tremulous,
four-rayed stars, flame-red cinnamon-stones, orange
and violet spinels, and amethysts with their alternate
layers of ruby and sapphire. He loved the red
gold of the sunstone, and the moonstone’s pearly
whiteness, and the broken rainbow of the milky opal.
He procured from Amsterdam three emeralds of extraordinary
size and richness of colour, and had a turquoise de
la vieille roche that was the envy of all the connoisseurs.
He discovered wonderful stories, also,
about jewels. In Alphonso’s Clericalis
Disciplina a serpent was mentioned with eyes of real
jacinth, and in the romantic history of Alexander,
the Conqueror of Emathia was said to have found in
the vale of Jordan snakes “with collars of real
emeralds growing on their backs.” There
was a gem in the brain of the dragon, Philostratus
told us, and “by the exhibition of golden letters
and a scarlet robe” the monster could be thrown
into a magical sleep and slain. According to
the great alchemist, Pierre de Boniface, the diamond
rendered a man invisible, and the agate of India made
him eloquent. The cornelian appeased anger, and
the hyacinth provoked sleep, and the amethyst drove
away the fumes of wine. The garnet cast out
demons, and the hydropicus deprived the moon of her
colour. The selenite waxed and waned with the
moon, and the meloceus, that discovers thieves, could
be affected only by the blood of kids. Leonardus
Camillus had seen a white stone taken from the brain
of a newly killed toad, that was a certain antidote
against poison. The bezoar, that was found in
the heart of the Arabian deer, was a charm that could
cure the plague. In the nests of Arabian birds
was the aspilates, that, according to Democritus,
kept the wearer from any danger by fire.
The King of Ceilan rode through his
city with a large ruby in his hand, as the ceremony
of his coronation. The gates of the palace of
John the Priest were “made of sardius, with
the horn of the horned snake inwrought, so that no
man might bring poison within.” Over the
gable were “two golden apples, in which were
two carbuncles,” so that the gold might shine
by day and the carbuncles by night. In Lodge’s
strange romance ‘A Margarite of America’,
it was stated that in the chamber of the queen one
could behold “all the chaste ladies of the world,
inchased out of silver, looking through fair mirrours
of chrysolites, carbuncles, sapphires, and greene emeraults.”
Marco Polo had seen the inhabitants of Zipangu place
rose-coloured pearls in the mouths of the dead.
A sea-monster had been enamoured of the pearl that
the diver brought to King Perozes, and had slain the
thief, and mourned for seven moons over its loss.
When the Huns lured the king into the great pit, he
flung it away— Procopius tells the story—nor
was it ever found again, though the Emperor Anastasius
offered five hundred-weight of gold pieces for it.
The King of Malabar had shown to a certain Venetian
a rosary of three hundred and four pearls, one for
every god that he worshipped.
When the Duke de Valentinois, son
of Alexander VI, visited Louis XII of France, his
horse was loaded with gold leaves, according to Brantome,
and his cap had double rows of rubies that threw out
a great light. Charles of England had ridden
in stirrups hung with four hundred and twenty-one
diamonds. Richard II had a coat, valued at thirty
thousand marks, which was covered with balas rubies.
Hall described Henry VIII, on his way to the Tower
previous to his coronation, as wearing “a jacket
of raised gold, the placard embroidered with diamonds
and other rich stones, and a great bauderike about
his neck of large balasses.” The favourites
of James I wore ear-rings of emeralds set in gold filigrane.
Edward II gave to Piers Gaveston a suit of red-gold
armour studded with jacinths, a collar of gold roses
set with turquoise-stones, and a skull-cap parseme
with pearls. Henry II wore jewelled gloves reaching
to the elbow, and had a hawk-glove sewn with twelve
rubies and fifty-two great orients. The ducal
hat of Charles the Rash, the last Duke of Burgundy
of his race, was hung with pear-shaped pearls and studded
with sapphires.
How exquisite life had once been!
How gorgeous in its pomp and decoration! Even
to read of the luxury of the dead was wonderful.
Then he turned his attention to embroideries
and to the tapestries that performed the office of
frescoes in the chill rooms of the northern nations
of Europe. As he investigated the subject—
and he always had an extraordinary faculty of becoming
absolutely absorbed for the moment in whatever he
took up—he was almost saddened by the reflection
of the ruin that time brought on beautiful and wonderful
things. He, at any rate, had escaped that.
Summer followed summer, and the yellow jonquils bloomed
and died many times, and nights of horror repeated
the story of their shame, but he was unchanged.
No winter marred his face or stained his flowerlike
bloom. How different it was with material things!
Where had they passed to? Where was the great
crocus-coloured robe, on which the gods fought against
the giants, that had been worked by brown girls for
the pleasure of Athena? Where the huge velarium
that Nero had stretched across the Colosseum at Rome,
that Titan sail of purple on which was represented
the starry sky, and Apollo driving a chariot drawn
by white, gilt-reined steeds? He longed to see
the curious table-napkins wrought for the Priest of
the Sun, on which were displayed all the dainties and
viands that could be wanted for a feast; the mortuary
cloth of King Chilperic, with its three hundred golden
bees; the fantastic robes that excited the indignation
of the Bishop of Pontus and were figured with “lions,
panthers, bears, dogs, forests, rocks, hunters—all,
in fact, that a painter can copy from nature”;
and the coat that Charles of Orleans once wore, on
the sleeves of which were embroidered the verses of
a song beginning “Madame, je suis tout joyeux,”
the musical accompaniment of the words being wrought
in gold thread, and each note, of square shape in
those days, formed with four pearls. He read
of the room that was prepared at the palace at Rheims
for the use of Queen Joan of Burgundy and was decorated
with “thirteen hundred and twenty-one parrots,
made in broidery, and blazoned with the king’s
arms, and five hundred and sixty-one butterflies,
whose wings were similarly ornamented with the arms
of the queen, the whole worked in gold.”
Catherine de Medicis had a mourning-bed made for
her of black velvet powdered with crescents and suns.
Its curtains were of damask, with leafy wreaths and
garlands, figured upon a gold and silver ground, and
fringed along the edges with broideries of pearls,
and it stood in a room hung with rows of the queen’s
devices in cut black velvet upon cloth of silver.
Louis XIV had gold embroidered caryatides fifteen feet
high in his apartment. The state bed of Sobieski,
King of Poland, was made of Smyrna gold brocade embroidered
in turquoises with verses from the Koran. Its
supports were of silver gilt, beautifully chased,
and profusely set with enamelled and jewelled medallions.
It had been taken from the Turkish camp before Vienna,
and the standard of Mohammed had stood beneath the
tremulous gilt of its canopy.
And so, for a whole year, he sought
to accumulate the most exquisite specimens that he
could find of textile and embroidered work, getting
the dainty Delhi muslins, finely wrought with gold-thread
palmates and stitched over with iridescent beetles’
wings; the Dacca gauzes, that from their transparency
are known in the East as “woven air,”
and “running water,” and “evening
dew”; strange figured cloths from Java; elaborate
yellow Chinese hangings; books bound in tawny satins
or fair blue silks and wrought with fleurs-de-lis,
birds and images; veils of lacis worked in Hungary
point; Sicilian brocades and stiff Spanish velvets;
Georgian work, with its gilt coins, and Japanese Foukousas,
with their green-toned golds and their marvellously
plumaged birds.
He had a special passion, also, for
ecclesiastical vestments, as indeed he had for everything
connected with the service of the Church. In
the long cedar chests that lined the west gallery
of his house, he had stored away many rare and beautiful
specimens of what is really the raiment of the Bride
of Christ, who must wear purple and jewels and fine
linen that she may hide the pallid macerated body
that is worn by the suffering that she seeks for and
wounded by self-inflicted pain. He possessed
a gorgeous cope of crimson silk and gold-thread damask,
figured with a repeating pattern of golden pomegranates
set in six-petalled formal blossoms, beyond which
on either side was the pine-apple device wrought in
seed-pearls. The orphreys were divided into panels
representing scenes from the life of the Virgin, and
the coronation of the Virgin was figured in coloured
silks upon the hood. This was Italian work of
the fifteenth century. Another cope was of green
velvet, embroidered with heart-shaped groups of acanthus-leaves,
from which spread long-stemmed white blossoms, the
details of which were picked out with silver thread
and coloured crystals. The morse bore a seraph’s
head in gold-thread raised work. The orphreys
were woven in a diaper of red and gold silk, and were
starred with medallions of many saints and martyrs,
among whom was St. Sebastian. He had chasubles,
also, of amber-coloured silk, and blue silk and gold
brocade, and yellow silk damask and cloth of gold,
figured with representations of the Passion and Crucifixion
of Christ, and embroidered with lions and peacocks
and other emblems; dalmatics of white satin and pink
silk damask, decorated with tulips and dolphins and
fleurs-de-lis; altar frontals of crimson velvet and
blue linen; and many corporals, chalice-veils, and
sudaria. In the mystic offices to which such
things were put, there was something that quickened
his imagination.
For these treasures, and everything
that he collected in his lovely house, were to be
to him means of forgetfulness, modes by which he could
escape, for a season, from the fear that seemed to
him at times to be almost too great to be borne.
Upon the walls of the lonely locked room where he
had spent so much of his boyhood, he had hung with
his own hands the terrible portrait whose changing
features showed him the real degradation of his life,
and in front of it had draped the purple-and-gold pall
as a curtain. For weeks he would not go there,
would forget the hideous painted thing, and get back
his light heart, his wonderful joyousness, his passionate
absorption in mere existence. Then, suddenly,
some night he would creep out of the house, go down
to dreadful places near Blue Gate Fields, and stay
there, day after day, until he was driven away.
On his return he would sit in front of the her times,
with that pride of individualism that is half the
fascination of sin, and smiling with secret pleasure
at the misshapen shadow that had to bear the burden
that should have been his own.
After a few years he could not endure
to be long out of England, and gave up the villa that
he had shared at Trouville with Lord Henry, as well
as the little white walled-in house at Algiers where
they had more than once spent the winter. He
hated to be separated from the picture that was such
a part of his life, and was also afraid that during
his absence some one might gain access to the room,
in spite of the elaborate bars that he had caused to
be placed upon the door.
He was quite conscious that this would
tell them nothing. It was true that the portrait
still preserved, under all the foulness and ugliness
of the face, its marked likeness to himself; but what
could they learn from that? He would laugh at
any one who tried to taunt him. He had not painted
it. What was it to him how vile and full of shame
it looked? Even if he told them, would they believe
it?
Yet he was afraid. Sometimes
when he was down at his great house in Nottinghamshire,
entertaining the fashionable young men of his own
rank who were his chief companions, and astounding
the county by the wanton luxury and gorgeous splendour
of his mode of life, he would suddenly leave his guests
and rush back to town to see that the door had not
been tampered with and that the picture was still
there. What if it should be stolen? The
mere thought made him cold with horror. Surely
the world would know his secret then. Perhaps
the world already suspected it.
For, while he fascinated many, there
were not a few who distrusted him. He was very
nearly blackballed at a West End club of which his
birth and social position fully entitled him to become
a member, and it was said that on one occasion, when
he was brought by a friend into the smoking-room of
the Churchill, the Duke of Berwick and another gentleman
got up in a marked manner and went out. Curious
stories became current about him after he had passed
his twenty-fifth year. It was rumoured that he
had been seen brawling with foreign sailors in a low
den in the distant parts of Whitechapel, and that he
consorted with thieves and coiners and knew the mysteries
of their trade. His extraordinary absences became
notorious, and, when he used to reappear again in
society, men would whisper to each other in corners,
or pass him with a sneer, or look at him with cold
searching eyes, as though they were determined to
discover his secret.
Of such insolences and attempted slights
he, of course, took no notice, and in the opinion
of most people his frank debonair manner, his charming
boyish smile, and the infinite grace of that wonderful
youth that seemed never to leave him, were in themselves
a sufficient answer to the calumnies, for so they
termed them, that were circulated about him.
It was remarked, however, that some of those who had
been most intimate with him appeared, after a time,
to shun him. Women who had wildly adored him,
and for his sake had braved all social censure and
set convention at defiance, were seen to grow pallid
with shame or horror if Dorian Gray entered the room.
Yet these whispered scandals only
increased in the eyes of many his strange and dangerous
charm. His great wealth was a certain element
of security. Society—civilized society,
at least— is never very ready to believe
anything to the detriment of those who are both rich
and fascinating. It feels instinctively that
manners are of more importance than morals, and, in
its opinion, the highest respectability is of much
less value than the possession of a good chef.
And, after all, it is a very poor consolation to
be told that the man who has given one a bad dinner,
or poor wine, is irreproachable in his private life.
Even the cardinal virtues cannot atone for half-cold
entrees, as Lord Henry remarked once, in a discussion
on the subject, and there is possibly a good deal
to be said for his view. For the canons of good
society are, or should be, the same as the canons
of art. Form is absolutely essential to it.
It should have the dignity of a ceremony, as well as
its unreality, and should combine the insincere character
of a romantic play with the wit and beauty that make
such plays delightful to us. Is insincerity
such a terrible thing? I think not. It
is merely a method by which we can multiply our personalities.
Such, at any rate, was Dorian Gray’s
opinion. He used to wonder at the shallow psychology
of those who conceive the ego in man as a thing simple,
permanent, reliable, and of one essence. To him,
man was a being with myriad lives and myriad sensations,
a complex multiform creature that bore within itself
strange legacies of thought and passion, and whose
very flesh was tainted with the monstrous maladies
of the dead. He loved to stroll through the
gaunt cold picture-gallery of his country house and
look at the various portraits of those whose blood
flowed in his veins. Here was Philip Herbert,
described by Francis Osborne, in his Memoires on the
Reigns of Queen Elizabeth and King James, as one who
was “caressed by the Court for his handsome face,
which kept him not long company.” Was it
young Herbert’s life that he sometimes led?
Had some strange poisonous germ crept from body to
body till it had reached his own? Was it some
dim sense of that ruined grace that had made him so
suddenly, and almost without cause, give utterance,
in Basil Hallward’s studio, to the mad prayer
that had so changed his life? Here, in gold-embroidered
red doublet, jewelled surcoat, and gilt-edged ruff
and wristbands, stood Sir Anthony Sherard, with his
silver-and-black armour piled at his feet. What
had this man’s legacy been? Had the lover
of Giovanna of Naples bequeathed him some inheritance
of sin and shame? Were his own actions merely
the dreams that the dead man had not dared to realize?
Here, from the fading canvas, smiled Lady Elizabeth
Devereux, in her gauze hood, pearl stomacher, and
pink slashed sleeves. A flower was in her right
hand, and her left clasped an enamelled collar of
white and damask roses. On a table by her side
lay a mandolin and an apple. There were large
green rosettes upon her little pointed shoes.
He knew her life, and the strange stories that were
told about her lovers. Had he something of her
temperament in him? These oval, heavy-lidded
eyes seemed to look curiously at him. What of
George Willoughby, with his powdered hair and fantastic
patches? How evil he looked! The face was
saturnine and swarthy, and the sensual lips seemed
to be twisted with disdain. Delicate lace ruffles
fell over the lean yellow hands that were so overladen
with rings. He had been a macaroni of the eighteenth
century, and the friend, in his youth, of Lord Ferrars.
What of the second Lord Beckenham, the companion of
the Prince Regent in his wildest days, and one of
the witnesses at the secret marriage with Mrs. Fitzherbert?
How proud and handsome he was, with his chestnut
curls and insolent pose! What passions had he
bequeathed? The world had looked upon him as
infamous. He had led the orgies at Carlton House.
The star of the Garter glittered upon his breast.
Beside him hung the portrait of his wife, a pallid,
thin-lipped woman in black. Her blood, also,
stirred within him. How curious it all seemed!
And his mother with her Lady Hamilton face and her
moist, wine-dashed lips—he knew what he
had got from her. He had got from her his beauty,
and his passion for the beauty of others. She
laughed at him in her loose Bacchante dress.
There were vine leaves in her hair. The purple
spilled from the cup she was holding. The carnations
of the painting had withered, but the eyes were still
wonderful in their depth and brilliancy of colour.
They seemed to follow him wherever he went.
Yet one had ancestors in literature
as well as in one’s own race, nearer perhaps
in type and temperament, many of them, and certainly
with an influence of which one was more absolutely
conscious. There were times when it appeared
to Dorian Gray that the whole of history was merely
the record of his own life, not as he had lived it
in act and circumstance, but as his imagination had
created it for him, as it had been in his brain and
in his passions. He felt that he had known them
all, those strange terrible figures that had passed
across the stage of the world and made sin so marvellous
and evil so full of subtlety. It seemed to him
that in some mysterious way their lives had been his
own.
The hero of the wonderful novel that
had so influenced his life had himself known this
curious fancy. In the seventh chapter he tells
how, crowned with laurel, lest lightning might strike
him, he had sat, as Tiberius, in a garden at Capri,
reading the shameful books of Elephantis, while dwarfs
and peacocks strutted round him and the flute-player
mocked the swinger of the censer; and, as Caligula,
had caroused with the green-shirted jockeys in their
stables and supped in an ivory manger with a jewel-frontleted
horse; and, as Domitian, had wandered through a corridor
lined with marble mirrors, looking round with haggard
eyes for the reflection of the dagger that was to
end his days, and sick with that ennui, that terrible
taedium vitae, that comes on those to whom life denies
nothing; and had peered through a clear emerald at
the red shambles of the circus and then, in a litter
of pearl and purple drawn by silver-shod mules, been
carried through the Street of Pomegranates to a House
of Gold and heard men cry on Nero Caesar as he passed
by; and, as Elagabalus, had painted his face with
colours, and plied the distaff among the women, and
brought the Moon from Carthage and given her in mystic
marriage to the Sun.
Over and over again Dorian used to
read this fantastic chapter, and the two chapters
immediately following, in which, as in some curious
tapestries or cunningly wrought enamels, were pictured
the awful and beautiful forms of those whom vice and
blood and weariness had made monstrous or mad:
Filippo, Duke of Milan, who slew his wife and painted
her lips with a scarlet poison that her lover might
suck death from the dead thing he fondled; Pietro
Barbi, the Venetian, known as Paul the Second, who
sought in his vanity to assume the title of Formosus,
and whose tiara, valued at two hundred thousand florins,
was bought at the price of a terrible sin; Gian Maria
Visconti, who used hounds to chase living men and
whose murdered body was covered with roses by a harlot
who had loved him; the Borgia on his white horse,
with Fratricide riding beside him and his mantle stained
with the blood of Perotto; Pietro Riario, the young
Cardinal Archbishop of Florence, child and minion
of Sixtus IV, whose beauty was equalled only by his
debauchery, and who received Leonora of Aragon in a
pavilion of white and crimson silk, filled with nymphs
and centaurs, and gilded a boy that he might serve
at the feast as Ganymede or Hylas; Ezzelin, whose
melancholy could be cured only by the spectacle of
death, and who had a passion for red blood, as other
men have for red wine—the son of the Fiend,
as was reported, and one who had cheated his father
at dice when gambling with him for his own soul; Giambattista
Cibo, who in mockery took the name of Innocent and
into whose torpid veins the blood of three lads was
infused by a Jewish doctor; Sigismondo Malatesta,
the lover of Isotta and the lord of Rimini, whose
effigy was burned at Rome as the enemy of God and man,
who strangled Polyssena with a napkin, and gave poison
to Ginevra d’Este in a cup of emerald, and in
honour of a shameful passion built a pagan church
for Christian worship; Charles VI, who had so wildly
adored his brother’s wife that a leper had warned
him of the insanity that was coming on him, and who,
when his brain had sickened and grown strange, could
only be soothed by Saracen cards painted with the images
of love and death and madness; and, in his trimmed
jerkin and jewelled cap and acanthuslike curls, Grifonetto
Baglioni, who slew Astorre with his bride, and Simonetto
with his page, and whose comeliness was such that,
as he lay dying in the yellow piazza of Perugia, those
who had hated him could not choose but weep, and Atalanta,
who had cursed him, blessed him.
There was a horrible fascination in
them all. He saw them at night, and they troubled
his imagination in the day. The Renaissance knew
of strange manners of poisoning— poisoning
by a helmet and a lighted torch, by an embroidered
glove and a jewelled fan, by a gilded pomander and
by an amber chain. Dorian Gray had been poisoned
by a book. There were moments when he looked
on evil simply as a mode through which he could realize
his conception of the beautiful.