AT HER GATES
We shape ourselves the joy
or tear,
Of which the coming
life is made;
And fill our future atmosphere
With sunshine
or with shade.
It was just at the edge of the dark
when John left his mother. He had perhaps been
strengthened by her counsel, but he had not been comforted.
In Hatton market-place he saw a large gathering of
men and women and heard Greenwood in a passionate
tone talking to them. Very soon a voice, almost
equally powerful, started what appeared to be a hymn,
and John rode closer to the crowd and listened.
“The Day of the Lord
is at hand, at hand,
His storms roll
up the sky;
The nations sleep starving
on heaps of gold,
The dreamers toss
and sigh.
The night is darkest before
the morn,
When the pain is sorest the
child is born,
And the Day of
the Lord is at hand.
“Gather you, gather
you, hounds of hell,
Famine, and Plague,
and War,
Idleness, Bigotry, Cant and
Misrule,
Gather, and fall
in the snare.
Hireling and Mammonite, Bigot
and Knave,
Crawl to the battlefield,
sneak to your grave,
In the Day of
the Lord at hand.”
John did not hear Greenwood’s
voice among the singers, but at the close of the second
verse it rose above all others. “Lads and
lasses of the chapel singing-pew,” he cried,
“we will better that kind of stuff. Sing
up to the tune of Olivet,” and to this majestic
melody he started in a clarion-like voice Toplady’s
splendid hymn,
“Lo! He comes with
clouds descending,
Once for favored
sinners slain,
Thousand, thousand saints
attending,
Swell the triumph
of his train.
Hallelujah!
God appears on
earth to reign.”
The words were as familiar as their
mother tongue, and Greenwood’s authoritative
voice in chapel, mill, and trade meetings, was quite
as intimate and potential. They answered his
request almost as automatically as the looms answered
the signal for their movement or stoppage; for music
quickly fires a Yorkshire heart and a hymn led by
Jonathan Greenwood was a temptation no man or woman
present could resist. Very soon he gave them
the word “Home,” and they scattered
in every direction, singing the last verse. Then
Greenwood’s voice rose higher and higher, jubilant,
triumphant in its closing lines,
“Yea, amen! Let
all adore Thee,
High on thy eternal
throne;
Saviour, take the power and
glory,
Claim the kingdom
for thine own.
Jah
Jehovah!
Everlasting God
come down.”
Greenwood’s joyful enthusiasm
was more than John could encounter at that hour.
He did not stop to speak with him, but rode swiftly
home. He saw and felt the brooding trouble and
knew the question of more wage and shorter hours,
though now a smoldering one, might at any hour become
a burning one, only there was the coming war.
If the men went on strike, he could then reasonably
lock his factory gates. No, he could not.
The inner John Hatton would not permit the outer man
to do such a thing. His looms must work while
he had a pound of cotton to feed them.
This resolution, warm and strong in
his heart, cheered him, and he hastened home.
Then he wondered how it would be with him there, and
a feeling of unhappiness conquered for a moment.
But John’s mental bravery was the salt to all
his other virtues, and mental bravery does not quail
before an uncertainty.
He hoped that Jane would, as was her
usual custom, meet him at the door, that she would
hear his step and answer the call of it. But she
did not. Then he remembered that the night had
turned chilly and that it was near to dinner-time.
She was probably in her dressing-room, but this uncertainty
was not cheerful. Yet he sang as he prepared himself
for dinner. He did not know why he sang for the
song was not in his heart—he only felt
it to be an act of relief and encouragement.
When he went to the dining-room Jane
was there. She roused herself with a sleepy languor
and stretched out her arms to him with welcoming smiles.
For a moment he stood motionless and silent. She
had dressed herself wonderfully in a long, graceful
robe of white broadcloth, rich and soft and shining
as the white satin which lay in folds about the bosom
and sleeves and encircled her waist in a broad belt.
Her hair, freed of puffs and braids, showed all its
beauty in glossy smoothness and light coils, and in
its meshes was one large red rose, the fellow of which
was partly hidden among the laces at her bosom.
Half-asleep she went to meet him, and his first feeling
was a kind of awe at the sight of her. He had
not dreamed she was so beautiful. Without a word
he took her hands and hiding his emotion in some commonplace
remark, drew her to his side.
“You are lovelier than on your
bridal morning, most sweet Jane,” he whispered.
“What have you been doing to yourself?”
“Well, John,” she laughed,
“Mrs. Tracy sent me word she was going to call
between four and five to give me a few points about
the girls’ sewing-class, and I thought I would
at the same time give her a few points about dressing
herself. You know she is usually a fright.”
“I thought—perhaps—you
had dressed yourself to please me.”
“You are quite right, John.
Your pleasure is always the first motive for anything
I do or wear.”
The dinner hour passed to such pleasant
platitudes as John’s description of the manner
in which Greenwood broke up the radical meeting in
the market-place; but in both hearts and below all
the sweet intercourse there lay a sense of tragedy
that nothing could propitiate or avert.
The subject, however, was not named
till they were quite alone and the very house in its
intense stillness appeared to be waiting and listening
for the words to be spoken. John was about to
speak them, but Jane rose suddenly to her feet and
looking steadily at him said,
“John, what did your mother
say about me this afternoon? I expect you to
tell me every word.”
“She would not talk about you
in any way. She said she had given you her whole
mind straight to your face and would do no backbiting.
That is, as you know, mother’s way.”
“Well, John, I would rather
have the backbiting. I like to be treated decently
to my face. People are welcome to say whatever
they like when I am not present to be annoyed by their
evil suspicions.”
“She told me to ask you what
was said and I trust you will tell me.”
“I will. You remember that
I had a whole society of women in the parlors and
I could only give you a short farewell; but I was much
grieved to send you away with such a brooding sorrow
in your heart. The next day I was putting the
house in order and writing to you and I did not go
out. But on the morning of the third day I determined
to visit my mother and to call at Hatton Hall as I
returned home.
“I did not have a pleasant visit
at Harlow. Since mother has begun to save money,
she has lost all interest in any other subject.
I told her how affairs were between us, and though
she had hitherto been rabidly in favor of no children
she appeared that morning indifferent to everything
but the loss of a brood of young chickens which some
animal had eaten or carried off. On this subject
she was passionately in earnest; she knew to a farthing
the amount of her loss, and when I persisted in telling
her how you and I had parted, she only reiterated in
a more angry manner her former directions and assurances
on this subject.
“After a very spare dinner she
was more attentive to my trouble. She said it
had become a serious question in nearly all married
lives—”
“I deny that, Jane. The
large majority of women, I am sure, when they marry
do not hold themselves outraged and degraded by the
consequences, nor do they consider natural functions
less honorable than social ones. Money can release
a woman from work, but it cannot release her from any
service of love.”
“Men forget very easily the
physical sufferings of wives. I love our little
Martha as well as, perhaps better than, you do, but
I remember clearly that for nearly a whole year I
endured the solitude, sickness, and acute suffering
of maternity. And whatever else you do, you will
never persuade me to like having children.
And pray what kind of children will women bear when
they don’t want them?”
“Well, Jane, your question would
stagger me, if I did not know that Nature often skips
a generation, and produces some older and finer type.”
“Highly civilized men don’t
want children. Lady Harlow told me so, John.”
“Well then, Jane, highly civilized
men are in no danger. They need not fear what
women can do to them. They will only find women
pleasant to meet and easy to leave. I saw many,
many women in the London parks and shopping district
so perverted as to be on friendly terms with dogs,
and in their homes, with cats and cockatoos, and who
had no affection for children—women who
could try to understand the screams of a parrot, the
barking of a dog, but who would not tolerate the lovely
patois of the nursery. Jane, the salvation of
society depends on good mothers, and if women decline
to be mothers at all, it is a shameful and dangerous
situation.”
“Oh, no! Why should I,
for instance, undertake the reformation of society?
I wish rather to educate and reform myself.”
“All right! No education
is too wide or too high for a mother. She has
to educate heroes, saints, and good workers. There
would have been no Gracchi, if there had been no Cornelia;
no Samuel, if Hannah had not trained him. The
profession of motherhood is woman’s great natural
office; no others can be named with it. The family
must be put before everything else as a principle.”
“John,” she said coaxingly,
“you are so far behind the times. The idea
of ‘home’ is growing antiquated, and the
institution of the family is passing out of date,
my dear.”
“You are mistaken, Jane.
Mother and home are the soul of the world; they will
never pass. I read the other day that Horace Walpole
thanked God that he came into the world when there
were still such terms as ‘afternoon’ and
‘evening.’ I hope I may say I came
when the ideas of ‘home’ and children’
were still the moving principles of human society;
and I swear that I will do nothing to sink them below
the verge. God forbid!”
“John, I am not concerned about
principles. My care is not for anything but what
concerns ourselves and our home. I tell you plainly
I do not desire children. I will not have any
more. I will do all I can to make you honorable
and happy. I will order and see to your house,
servants, and expenditures. I will love and cherish
and bring up properly our dear child. I will
make you socially respected. I will read or write,
or play or sing to your desire. I will above
all other things love and obey you. Is not this
sufficient, John?”
“No, I want children. They
were an understood consequence of our marriage.
I feel ashamed among my fellows——”
“Yes, I suppose you would like
to imitate Squire Atherton and take two pews in church
for your sons and daughters and walk up the aisle every
Sunday before them. It is comical to watch them.
And poor Mrs. Atherton! Once she was the beauty
of the West Riding! Now she is a faded, draggled
skeleton, carelessly and unfashionably dressed, following
meekly the long procession of her giggling girls and
sulky boys. Upon my word, John, it is enough
to cure any girl of the marriage fever to see Squire
Atherton and his friend Ashby and Roper of Roper’s
Mills and Coates of Coates Mills and the like.
And if it was an understood thing in our marriage
that I should suffer and perhaps die in order that
a new lot of cotton-spinners be born, why was it not
so stated in the bond?”
“My dear Jane, the trial to
which you propose to subject me, I cannot discuss
tonight. You have said all I can bear at present.
It has been a long, long, hard day. God help
me! Good night!” Then he bowed his head
and slowly left the room.
Jane was astonished, but his white
face, the sad, yonderly look in his eyes, and the
way in which he bit his lower lip went like a knife
to her heart.
She sat still, speechless, motionless.
She had not expected either his prompt denial of her
position or its powerful effect on him physically.
Never before had she seen John show any symptoms of
illness, and his sudden collapse of bodily endurance,
his evident suffering and deliberate walk frightened
her. She feared he might have a fit and fall
downstairs. Colonel Booth had found his death
in that way when he heard of his son’s accident
on the railway. “All Yorkshiremen,”
she mused, “are so full-blooded and hot-blooded,
everything that does not please them goes either to
their brains or their hearts—and John has
a heart.” Yes, she acknowledged John had
a heart, and then wondered again what made him so
anxious to have children.
But with all her efforts to make a
commonplace event of her husband’s great sorrow,
she did not succeed in stifling the outcry in her own
heart. She whispered to it to “Be still!”
She promised to make up for it, even to undo it, sometime;
but the Accuser would not let her rest, and when exhaustion
ended in sleep, chastised her with distracting, miserable
dreams.
John walked slowly upstairs, but he
had no thought of falling. He knew that something
had happened to the Inner Man, and he wanted to steady
and control him. It was not Jane’s opinions;
it was not public opinion, however widespread it might
be. It was the blood of generations of good men
and good women that roused in him a passionate protest
against the destruction of their race. His private
sense of injustice and disloyalty came later.
Then the iron entered his soul and it was on this very
bread of bitterness he had now to feed it; for on
this bread only could he grow to the full stature
of a man of God. His heart was bruised and torn,
but his soul was unshaken, and the hidden power and
strength of life revealed themselves.
First he threw all anger behind him.
He thought of his wife with tenderness and pity only.
He made himself recall her charm and her love.
He decided that it would be better not to argue the
fatal subject with her again. “No man can
convince a woman,” he thought. “She
must be led to convince herself. I will trust
her to God. He will send some teacher who cannot
fail.” Then he thought of the days of pleasantness
they had passed together, and his heart felt as if
it must break, while from behind his closed eyelids
great tears rolled down his face.
This incident, though so natural,
shocked him. He arrested such evident grief at
once and very soon he stood up to pray. So prayed
the gray fathers of the world, Terah and Abram, Lot
and Jacob; and John stood at the open window with
his troubled face lifted to the starlit sky. His
soul was seeking earnestly that depth in our nature
where the divine and human are one, for when the brain
is stupefied by the inevitable and we know not what
to abandon and what to defend, that is the sanctuary
where we shall find help for every hour of need.
What words, wonderful and secret,
were there spoken it is not well to inquire.
They were for John’s wounded heart alone, and
though he came from that communion weeping, it was
—as
a child that cries,
But crying, knows his Father
near.
Nothing was different but he sat down
hushed and strengthened, and in his heart and on his
lips the most triumphant words a man or woman can
utter, “Thy Will be done!” Then there was a
great peace. He had cast all his sorrow upon
God and left it with God. He did not bring
it back with him as we are so ready to do. It
was not that he comprehended any more clearly why
this sorrow and trial had come to darken his happy
home, but Oh, what matters comprehension when there
is faith! John did not make inquiries; he knew
by experience that there are spiritual conditions
as real as physical facts. The shadows were all
gone. Nothing was different,
—yet
this much he knew,
His soul stirred in its chrysalis
of clay,
A strange peace filled him
like a cup; he grew
Better, wiser
and gladder, on that day:
This dusty, worn-out world
seemed made anew,
Because
God’s Way, had now become his way.
Then he fell into that sleep which
God gives to his beloved, and when he awoke it was
the dayshine. The light streamed in through the
eastern windows, there was a robin singing on his
window sill, and there was no trouble in his heart
but what he could face.
His business was now urging him to
be diligent, and his business—being that
of so many others, he durst not neglect it. Jane
he did not see. Her maid said she had been ill
all night and had fallen asleep at the dawning, and
John left her a written message and went earlier to
the mill than usual. But Greenwood was there,
busily examining bales of cotton and singing and scolding
alternately as he worked. John joined him and
they had a hard morning’s work together, throughout
which only one subject occupied both minds—the
mill and cotton to feed its looms.
In the afternoon Greenwood took up
the more human phase of the question. He told
John that six of their unmarried men had gone to America.
“They think mebbe they’ll be a bit better
off there, sir. I don’t think they will.”
“Not a bit.”
“And while you were away Jeremiah
Stokes left his loom forever. It didn’t
put him out any. It was a stormy night for the
flitting—thunder and lightning and wind
and rain—but he went smiling and whispering,
“There is a land of
pure delight!”
“The woman, poor soul, had a harder journey.”
“Who was she?”
“Susanna Dobson. You remember the little
woman that came from Leeds?”
“Yes. Loom forty. I hope she has not
left a large family.”
“Nay, if there had been a big
family, she would varry likely hev been at her loom
today”—then there were a few softly
spoken words, and John walked forward, but he could
not forget how singularly the empty loom had appealed
to him on that last morning he had walked through the
mill with Greenwood. There are strange coincidences
and links in events of which we know nothing at all—occult,
untraceable altogether, material, yet having distinct
influences not over matter but over some one mind or
heart.
A little before closing time Greenwood
said, “Julius Yorke will be spreading himself
all over Hatton tonight. A word or two from thee,
sir, might settle him a bit.”
“I think you settled him very well last night.”
“It suited me to do so.
I like to threep a man that is my equal in his head
piece. Yorke is nobbut a hunchbacked dwarf and
he talks a lot of nonsense, but he feels all
he says. He’s just a bit of crooked humanity
on fire and talking at white heat.”
“What was he talking about?”
“Rights and wrongs, of course.
There was a good deal of truth in what he said, but
he used words I didn’t like; they came out of
some blackguard’s dictionary, so I told him
to be quiet, and when he wouldn’t be quiet,
we sung him down with a verse out o’ John Wesley’s
hymn-book.”
“All right! You are a match
for Yorke, Greenwood. I will leave him to you.
I am very weary. The last two days have been hard
ones.”
There was a tone of pathos in John’s
words and voice and Greenwood realized it. He
touched his cap, and turned away. “Married
men hev their own tribulations,” he muttered.
“I hev had a heartache mysen all day long about
the way Polly went on this morning. And her with
such a good husband as I am!”
Greenwood went home to such discouraging
reflections, and John’s were just as discomforting.
For he had left his wife on the previous night, in
a distressed unsettled condition, and he felt that
there was now something in Jane’s, and his own,
past which must not be referred to, and indeed he
had promised himself never to name it.
But a past that is buried alive is
a difficult ghost to lay, and he feared Jane would
not be satisfied until she had opened the dismal grave
of their dead happiness again—and perhaps
again and again. He set his lips straight and
firm during this reflection, and said something of
which only the last four words were audible, “Thy
grace is sufficient.”
However, there was no trace of a disposition
to resume a painful argument in Jane’s words
or attitude. She looked pale from headache and
wakefulness, but was dressed with her usual care, and
was even more than usually solicitous about his comfort
and satisfaction. Still John noticed the false
note of make-believe through all her attentions and
he was hardly sorry when she ended a conversation
about Harry’s affairs by a sudden and unexpected
reversion to her own. “John,” she
said, with marked interest, “I was telling you
last night about my visit to Hatton Hall while you
were in London. You interrupted and then left
me. Have you any objections to my finishing the
story now? I shall not go to Hatton Hall again
and as mother declines to tell her own fault, it is
only fair to me that you know the whole truth.
I don’t want you to think worse of me than is
necessary.”
“Tell me whatever you wish,
Jane, then we will forget the subject.”
“As if that were possible!
O John, as if it were possible to forget one hour
of our life together!”
“You are right. It is not possible—no,
indeed!”
“Well, John, when I left Harlow
House that afternoon, I went straight to Hatton Hall.
It was growing late, but I expected to have a cup of
tea there and perhaps, if asked, stay all night and
have a good wise talk over the things that troubled
me. When I arrived at the Hall your mother had
just returned from the village. She was sitting
by the newly-made fire with her cloak and bonnet on
but they were both unfastened and her furs and gloves
had been removed. She looked troubled, and even
angry, and when I spoke to her, barely answered me.
I sat down and began to tell her I had been at Harlow
all day. She did not inquire after mother’s
health and took no interest in any remark I made.”
“That was very unlike my mother.”
“It was, John. Finally
I said, ’I see that you are troubled about something,
mother,’ and she answered sharply, ’Yes,
I’m troubled and plenty of reason for trouble.’
I asked if I could help in any way.”
John sat upright at this question
and said, “What reply did mother make?”
“She said, ’Not you!
The trouble is past all help now. I might have
prevented it a few days ago, but I did not know the
miserable lass was again on the road of sin and danger.
Nobody knew. Nobody stopped her. And, O
merciful God, in three days danger turned out to be
death! I have just come back from her funeral.’
‘Whose funeral?’ I asked. ’Susanna
Dobson’s funeral,’ mother said. ‘Did
you never hear John speak of her?’ I told her
you never spoke to me of your hands; I knew nothing
about them. ‘Well then,’ mother continued,
’I’ll tell you something about Susanna.
Happen it may do you good. She came here with
her husband and baby all of three years ago, and they
have worked in Hatton factory ever since. She
was very clever and got big wages. The day before
John went to London she was ill and had to leave her
loom. The next day Gammer Denby came to tell
me she was very ill and must have a good doctor.
I sent one and in the afternoon went to see her.
By this time her husband had been called from the
mill, and while I was sitting at the dying woman’s
side, he came in.’”
“Stop, Jane. My dear love,
what is the use of bringing that dying bed to our
fireside? Mother should not have repeated such
a scene.”
“She did, however. I was
leaving the room when she said, ’Listen a moment,
Jane. The man entered angrily, and leaning on
the footboard of the bed cried out, “So you’ve
been at your old tricks once more, Susanna! This
is the third time. You are a bad woman. I
will never live with you again. I am going away
forever, and I’ll take little Willy with me.
If you aren’t fit to be a mother, you aren’t
fit to be a wife!” She cried out pitifully,
but he lifted the child in his arms and went out with
him.’
“At these words, John, I rang
the bell and ordered my horse. Mother paid no
attention to that, but continued, ’The woman
raved all night, and died early the next morning.’
I said with a good deal of anger, that her husband’s
brutality had killed her and that the grave was the
only place for a poor woman who was married to such
a monster. And then I heard the trampling of
horses’ feet and I came away without another
word. But my heart was hot and I was sick and
trembling and I rode so recklessly that it was a wonder
I ever reached home.”
“My dear Jane, I think—”
“Nay, John, I do not want you
to express any opinion on the subject. I should
not respect you if you said your mother could do wrong,
and I do not wish to hear you say she did right.
I only want you to understand why I refuse to go to
Hatton Hall any more.”
“Do not say that, Jane.
I am sure mother was conscious of no feeling but a
desire to do good.”
“I do not like her way of doing
good. I will not voluntarily go to receive it.
Would you do so, John?”
“She is my mother. A few
words could not drive us apart. She may come to
you, you may go to her. As to that, nothing is
certain.”
“Except that your words are
most uncertain and uncomforting, John.”
Then John rose and went to her side
and whispered those little words, those simple words,
those apparently meaningless, disconnected words which
children and women love and understand so well.
And she wept a little and then smiled, and the wretched
story was buried in love and pity—and perhaps
the poor soul knew it!
“You see, Jane, my dear one,
the Unknown fulfills what we never dare to expect,
so we will leave the door wide open for Faith and Hope.”
And as John said these words, he had a sudden clear
remembrance of the empty loom and the fair little
woman he had so often seen at work there. Then
a prayer leaped from his heart to the Everlasting Mercy,
a prayer we too seldom use, “Father, forgive,
they know not what they do.”
For a moment or two they sat hand
in hand and were silent. Then Jane, who was visibly
suffering, from headache, went to her room, and John
took a pencil and began to make figures and notes in
his pocketbook. His face and manner was quiet
and thoughtful. He had consented to his trial
outwardly; inwardly he knew it to be overcome.
And to suffer, to be wronged and unhappy, yet not
to cease being loving and pleasant, implies a very
powerful, Christ-like disposition.
He knew well very hard days were before
his people, and he was now endeavoring by every means
in his power to provide alleviations for the great
tragedy he saw approaching. All other things seemed
less urgent, and a letter from Harry full of small
worries about pictures and bric-a-brac was almost
an irritation. But he answered it in brotherly
fashion and laid the responsibility so kindly on Harry
himself that the careless young fellow was proudly
encouraged and uplifted.
In the meantime the small cloud in
the far west was casting deeper shadows of forthcoming
events, but in the lovely springtime they were not
very alarming. Also in Hatton town the people
relied on the Master of Hatton. They told themselves
he was doing all that could be done to ward off evil
and they trusted in him. And no one foresaw as
yet how long the struggle would last. So Harry
Hatton’s return to the home county and neighborhood
was full of interest. He was their favorite and
their friend, and he had been long enough away to blot
out any memory of his faults; and indeed a fault connected
with horses calls forth from Yorkshiremen ready excuse
and forgiveness. As to the mill, few of its workers
blamed him for hating it. They hated it also and
would have preferred some other out-door employment.
So Harry’s return was far more interesting than
the supply of cotton, and then England might do this
and that and perhaps France might interfere. That
wide, slippery word “perhaps” led them
into many delusive suppositions.
Very nearly three weeks after John
left him in London, Harry announced his purpose of
being in Yoden the following afternoon. He said
his furniture and trunks had arrived there three days
previously, having gone to Yoden by railway.
In the afternoon John went up the hill to tell his
mother and found her thoroughly aware of all Harry’s
plans.
“I went to Yoden, John, a week
ago,” she said, “to hire men to meet the
furniture and take it to the house. Well, I can
tell you I was a bit amazed to find there had been
a lot of workmen there for more than two weeks—paperers,
painters, decorators and upholsterers. I thought
you had sent them to Yoden.”
“Not I! Not one of them.
Did you think I could be so wicked? I want every
penny I can touch for cotton.”
“Wicked or not, the men were
there. They were not men of this side of England
either. I asked who sent them to Yoden, and one
of them told me they came from Sandfords’, Bond
Street, London. I dare say Harry sent them.”
“Then I fear Harry must pay
for it. It is a bad time for him to be extravagant.”
“Well then, if Harry can’t
pay, I can. Don’t thee be cross with the
poor lad. He hesn’t found life very pleasant
so far and now that a bit of pleasure comes into it,
he’s right to make the most of it.”
“All shall be as you wish, mother.
Will you meet them tomorrow afternoon?”
“Nay, I know better. Lucy
will be worn out, dusty and hungry, and she’ll
thank nobody for bothering her, until she is rested.
I’ll go early next morning. Lucy knows
there is a time to call and a time to bide at home.”
John took dinner with his mother,
and as they were eating it, Mrs. Hatton said, “I
suppose Jane is at Thirsk Hall tonight.”
“Yes,” answered John.
“I refused the invitation. I could not think
of feasting and dancing with the cry of War and Famine
at my door.”
“You are saying too much, John.
Neither war nor famine can touch you.”
“If it touches those who work
for me and with me, it touches me. I must think
of them as well as myself.”
“How is little Martha? I never see her
now.”
“Jane keeps her at her own side.
She has many fine new ideas about the bringing up
of children.”
“Did she take Martha to Thirsk with her?”
“Not likely. I hope not.”
“Hum-m!!”
Towards dusk John rode slowly down
the hill. Somehow he had missed the usual tonic
of his mother’s company, and Harry’s unexpected
expenses troubled him, for it is the petty details
of life rather than its great sorrows which fret and
irritate the soul. Indeed, to face simple daily
duties and trials bravely and cheerfully is the most
heroic struggle and the greatest victory the soul
can win. That it is generally unwitnessed and
unapplauded, that it seldom gains either honor or gratitude,
that it is frequently despised and blamed, is not
to be regarded. It is the fine tooling or graving
on the soul capable of bearing it, of that supreme
grace we call character; that grace that makes all
the difference between one human being and another
that there is between a block of granite and a reach
of shifting sand. Every person we meet, has more
or less of this quality, and not to be influenced
by it is to belong to those hard blocks of humanity
whom Carlyle calls formulas and phantoms.
Well, this little incident of Harry’s
unexpected extravagance was a line of character-tooling
on John’s soul. He felt the first keen touches,
was suddenly angry, then passive, and as he rode down
the hill, satisfied. Some way or other he felt
sure the expense would not interfere with the things
so vitally important to him. As he rode through
the village he noticed that the Spinners’ Hall
was lit up and that there was a mixed sound of song
and laughter and loud talking within and as Jane was
at Thirsk he alighted at the door of the hall and
went in.
On the platform there was one of his
own spinners, a lad of seventeen years old. The
audience were mostly young men and women, and they
were dressed for dancing. A mirthful spirit pervaded
the room and the usual order was wanting. The
lad speaking appeared to be an object of criticism
and amusement rather than of respect but he went on
talking in a schoolboy fashion of “the rights
of the people.” He was in a West Riding
evening-suit, he had a flower in his coat, and a pair
of white gloves in his hand.
“Rich people all hev their rights,”
he said, “but a poor lad like me can’t
spend his hard-earned wage without heving to pay this
and that sixpenny claim—”
“For board and lodging, Sam,”
cried a pretty girl impatient for the talking to cease,
and the dance to begin.
“Silence!” a voice called
authoritatively and the lecturer stopped and looked
round. Then a big dark man pushed his way through
the tittering crowd of girls and reaching the platform,
stretched out his hand and grasping one of its supports,
leaped lightly to it. The feat was not an easy
one and it was boldly and gracefully done; a hearty
cheer greeted its success. Even John joined in
it and then he looked at the man and though there
was a slight change in appearance, knew him. It
was Ralph Lugur, and as soon as he was generally recognized,
order and silence reigned. He turned first to
the speaker.
“Samuel, my boy,” he said,
“keep quiet until you learn how to talk.
Your place is at a bobbin frame, it isn’t on
a platform. What do you know about a rich man’s
rights?” and a pretty girl looked saucily at
the blushing lad and laughed.
“I’ll tell you, friends,”
continued Lugur, “how much right a rich man
has in his wealth. He has practically very little.
The Poor Laws, the Sunday Laws, the School Laws, the
Income Tax, and twenty other taxes that he must pay
completely prevent him from doing as he likes with
his own money. Rich men are only the stewards
of the poor man. They have to provide him with
bread, homes, roads, ships, railways, parks, music,
schools, doctors, hospitals, and a large variety of
other comforts and amusements. And, my dear friends,
this is not tyranny. Oh no! It is civilization.
And if all these obligations did not control him, there
are two powerful and significant people whom he has
to obey whether he likes to or not. I mean a
lady you don’t know much about, called Mrs.
Grundy; and a gentleman whom you know as much of as
you want to know, called Policeman A. Don’t
you fall into the mistake of taking sides against
your country. No! Don’t do that but,
“Let the laws of your
own land,
Good or bad, between you stand.”
Then he slipped off the platform,
and the band began to tune up. And the boy who
had been sent off the platform to his bobbin frame
went up to the pretty girl who had laughed at his
oratorical efforts and asked her to dance. She
made a mocking curtsey, and refused his request, and
John who knew both of them said, “Don’t
be so saucy, Polly. Samuel will do better next
time.” But Polly with a little laugh turned
away singing,
“He wears a penny flower
in his coat, lah-de-dah!
And a penny paper collar round
his throat, lah-de-dah!
In his mouth a penny pick,
In
his hand a penny stick,
And a penny in his pocket,
lah-de-dah-heigh!”
John and Lugur walked through the
village together, and then John discovered that the
remodeling of Yoden was Lugur’s gift to the young
people who were really to begin life over again in
its comfortable handsome shelter.
“My father, Colonel Thomas Lugur,
died two years ago,” said Lugur, “and
as it is now certain that my elder brother was killed
in a late Afghan engagement, I came into the Lugur
estate naturally. It is not considered a very
rich one, but it is quite large enough for all the
demands I shall make on it.”
Some words of congratulation followed,
and then they talked of Harry. “He has
a good heart,” said Lugur, “and when I
learned you were moving in such a sensible way for
his salvation, I wanted to help. The improvements
I have made at Yoden were not carelessly chosen.
Harry loves beautiful surroundings. They may
mean little to you or to me, but to him they are almost
necessary. He is easily persuaded, but you cannot
reason with him. As a general thing you cannot
reason with youth. You may as well try to beat
a cloud with a stick. Youth moves in the sublime
region of its own aspirations.”
John laughed softly as he answered,
“That is the difficult point with Harry.
He cannot find a reality that fills his ideals.”
“Well then, Hatton, that is
a sign of a rich and varied nature. We must bear
with patience and good nature Harry’s gushing,
little condescensions, for he really thinks the majority
of his elders to be grossly ignorant, perverse, and
cynical. Yet he really loves us in spite of our
faults, so I think we must be lenient with his faults.”
Lugur’s ideas exactly fitted
John’s and as the men parted Lugur said, “I
foresee that we shall be friends. Call on me,
if in the bad days coming I can help you.”
“I will do so gladly, Lugur”—and
then a silent clasp of their hands said all that was
necessary.
At the entrance to John’s grounds
Lugur turned to the railway station and John walked
slowly onward through the wooded park till he came
to the main entrance of the house. There were
few lights in the front rooms and when the door was
opened to him he was painfully conscious of a great
silence. He had expected the want of company and
light, for Jane had told him she would not return
until the following day; but even if we expect unpleasant
conditions, the realized expectation does not console
us for them. But his dinner was immediately served
and he ate it with leisurely enjoyment, letting his
thoughts drift calmly with his physical rest and refreshment.
After dinner he was quickly absorbed
in a variety of calculations and, lost in this arbitrary
occupation, forgot all else until the clock chimed
ten. Then with a sigh he folded away a note of
results and ordered the closing of the house.
A new light was immediately on his face, and he went
upstairs like a man who has a purpose. This purpose
took him to little Martha’s sleeping-room.
He opened the door gently. There was only a rush
light burning, but its faint beams showed him the
soft white bed on which his darling lay sleeping.
Noiselessly he stepped to her side and for a few moments
stood in silent prayer, looking at the lovely sleeper.
No one saw him, no one heard him, and he left the little
sanctuary unnoticed by any human eye.
Then he went to his own room, turned
the key in his chamber door, and walked straight to
the Bible lying open on its stand; and as he read,
a glory seemed to shine over its pages and his face
reflected the comfort and joy he found there.
And afterwards as he stood before the Book with lifted
eyes and clasped hands, he was a visible incarnation
of that beautiful manliness which is the outcome and
result of nearly two thousand years of Christian thought
and feeling.
[Illustration: “Noiselessly
he stepped to her side and … stood in silent prayer.”]
He had not permitted himself to think
of his wife. His calculations had demanded his
whole mind and intellect and he had purposely occupied
himself with subjects that would not permit wandering
thought. For he was aware that he had once been
jealous of Lord Thirsk and he knew that it was not
pleasant for him to think of Jane brightening with
her beauty Lord Thirsk’s mansion while he sat
lonely in his own silent home.
But he soon put all such reveries
vigorously, even a little angrily, under the positive
stamp of his foot as he began to take his own share
in the circumstance. “I could have gone
with Jane—I did not want to go—I
don’t like Thirsk—I do not want his
hospitality. How could I feast and dance when
I know some of my men must be out of work and out
of bread in a few weeks—Jane does not feel
as I do—Mother does not either—I
cannot expect it—but I know!—I
know!—I took my own wish and way, and I
have no right to complain—I must be just
and fair—just and fair to all—to
all;” and with this decision, he slept well,
courting sleep consciously, because he knew that the
times were too full of anxiety to lose the rest so
needful in unhappy and doubtful brooding.
In the morning a thing quite unlooked-for
occurred. When John went into the breakfast-room
Jane was there to receive him. “O John!”
she cried, “I am delighted that I caught you
napping. I left Thirsk at seven o’clock.
Are you not glad to see me?”
“Glad!” He could not find
words to express his gladness, but his silent kisses
spoke for him and his beaming eyes and the warm clasp
of his strong hand. And his coffee was not coffee,
it was some heavenly nectar, and his bread was more
than the staff of life, it was the bread of love.
She brought her chair close to his side, she said that
was the place of honor. She fed his heart with
soft, beaming glances, and she amused him with laughable
descriptions of her partners. “After you,
John,” she said with a pretty seriousness, “after
you, John, all other men look so small!” And
what man wholly devoted to his wife, would not have
been intoxicated with the rapture of a love so near
and yet so far from understanding him?