WE HAVE DONE WITH TEARS AND TREASONS
“Here is a letter from Arenta!”
repeated the Doctor to his wife, who was just entering
the room, “Come, Ava, and listen to what she
has to say. I have no doubt it will be interesting.”
Then Cornelia read aloud the following words:
My dear friend Cornelia:
If to-day I could walk down Maiden
Lane, if to-day I could see you and talk to you, I
should imagine myself in heaven. For as to this
city, I think that in hell the name of “Paris”
must have spread itself far and wide. Indeed
I often wonder if I am yet on the earth, or if I have
gone away in my sleep to the country of the devil
and his angels. Even as I am writing to you,
my pen is shaking with terror, for I hear the tumbrel
come jolting along, and I know that it is loaded with
innocent men and women who are going to the guillotine;
and I know also that it is accompanied by a mob of
dreadful creatures—mostly women—for
I hear them singing—no, screaming—in
a kind of rage,
“Ca ira les aristocrates a la lanterne!”
Do you remember our learning in those
happy days at Bethlehem of the slaughter of Christians
by Nero? Very well; right here in the Paris of
Marat and Robespierre, you may hear constantly the
same brutal cry that filled the Rome of the Caesars—“Death
to the Christians!” Famine, anarchy,
murder, are everywhere; and I live from moment to moment,
trembling if a step comes near me. For Athanase
is imprudence itself. His opinions will be the
death of him. He will not desert the Girondists,
though Mr. Morris tells him their doom is certain.
Marat is against them, and the Jacobins—who
are deliriously wicked—are against them,
and the mob of the Faubourgs is against them; and this
mob is always of one mind, always on the spot, and
always hungry and ready for anarchy and blood.
Besides which, they are already accused of having
sold themselves to Mr. Pitt. Very often I have
heard my dear father talking of universal suffrage
as the bulwark of liberty; well then, we have now,
and here, an universal suffrage that is neither a fraud
nor a fiction; and as Athanase says, “it is
expressing itself every minute, in the crimes of the
Holy Guillotine.”
And yet Paris makes a pretence of
being gay and of enjoying itself. We go to the
theatre and the opera, and we dance, as it were, red,
wet-shod to the hideous strains of the Carmagnole.
It is indeed a dance of death. The other night
we were at a reception given by Madame Talma to the
victorious General Dumouriez. All the Brissot
party were there. Your father will remember Brissot
de Warville very well. He was greatly petted
by Mrs. Jay and the aristocracy of New York and Philadelphia.
Jefferson made a friend of him, and even Washington
talked with him about his book on our country.
Then he passed himself off as a noble, but he is really
the son of an innkeeper. I had so often heard
of him, that I regarded with interest his pale face
and grave, melancholy manner. He was accompanied
by Camille Desmoulins, and by Danton; the latter a
man almost terrible in his ugliness. David, the
painter of Socrates, was there; he had his hair frizzed,
and was dressed splendidly; and with him was Chenier,
more tragic looking than any of his plays. The
salons were filled with flowers and beautiful women;
among them the majestic Madame Vestris, and the lovely
Mademoiselle Candeille, who was singing a song when
there arose a sudden indescribable noise, growing
louder and louder, and then the cry of Marat!
Marat! and the “Friend of the People”
entered. Now I shall spare a few minutes to tell
you, that no one has made frightful enough his large
bony face, his thin lips and his livid complexion.
He wore an old carmagnole, a dirty handkerchief twisted
about his neck, leather breeches, shoes without stockings,
and a piece of red cotton round his head, from which
there hung a few locks of greasy hair. A nervous
twitching keeps him constantly moving, and he has the
leprosy:—this is well known. He walked
straight to Dumouriez, who said disdainfully, “Ah!
are you the man they call Marat?” Marat immediately
demanded from him an account of military measures
he had taken. They had some sharp conversation
which I did not hear, and Marat finally went away uttering
the most insulting threats, and leaving every one in
a state of mortal terror. The next day the newsboys
were shouting “the discovery of a great plot
by Marat, the Friend of the People! Great meeting
of Aristocrats at Talmas, etc.”
This is the kind of pleasure we have;
as to religion, there is no longer any religion.
Everywhere the Almighty is spoken of as the “soi-disant
God.” The monarchy is abolished, and yet
so ignorant are the leaders of the people, that when
Brissot mentioned the word Republic in Petion’s
house, Robespierre said with a grin, “Republic!
Republic! what’s a republic?” Spying,
and fear, and death penetrate into the most private
houses; above all, fear, constant fear of every one
with whom you come in contact. This feeling is
so universal, that some one has conjugated it thus—I
am afraid—Thou art afraid—He
is afraid—We are afraid— You
are afraid—They are afraid—For
as death has been officially declared “an endless
sleep” any crime is possible; the mob have no
fear of hell, and as for the guillotine, it is their
opera and their perpetual comedy. Very soon these
things must bring on France the chastisement of the
Lord; and I shall not be sorry for it.
I have told you the truth about our
condition, because I have just had a letter from my
father, and he talks of leaving his business in Claus
Bergen’s care, and coming here to look after
me. You must convince him, that he could do me
no good whatever, and that he might do me much harm.
He is outspoken as a Zealander, and what is in his
head and his heart, would come to his lips; also,
if it should come to flight, he would embarrass me
very much. Tell him not to fear; Arenta says,
not to fear. I may indeed have to take a seat
in “the terrible armchair” [Footnote:
The chair in which the accused sat before the Revolutionary
Tribunal and from which they usually went to the guillotine.]
but I shall not go to the guillotine; I know that.
While Minister Morris is here I have a friend that
can do all that can be done. I have had a few
letters from Rem, but they do not satisfy me.
He is in love, and not with you.
Will you please inform me what that means? Say
to Aunt Angelica that I am astonished at her silence;
and ask our good Domine to pray that I may soon return
to a country where God reigns. Never again do
I wish to spend one minute in a place where there
is no God; for whatever they may call that place,
its real name is hell. Write me a long letter
and tell me all the news of New York, and with my
respectful remembrance to your dear father and mother,
I am always your loving friend, Arenta, marquise
de Tounnerre.
“Poor Arenta!” said the
Doctor when Cornelia had finished the wretched epistle.
“She is however showing the mettle of the race
from which she sprang. The spirit of the men
who fought Alva is in her, and I think she will be
a match for Marat, if it comes to that. Suppose
you go and see Van Ariens, and give him all the comfort
you can. Are you too weary?”
“I should like to see him, I
am not tired now. Home is such a good doctor.”
“I think you will find him in
his house. He comes from his office very early
these days.”
Cornelia crossed the street and was
going to knock at the door, when Van Ariens hastily
opened it. His broad face shone with pleasure,
and when Cornelia told him her errand, he was in a
hurry of loving anxiety to hear what his child had
written.
“I understand,” he said,
when he had heard the letter. “She is frightened,
the poor little one! but she will smile and say ’it
is nothing.’ That is her way. However,
I yet think I must go to her.”
“Do not,” urged Cornelia.
“France is now at war with Holland, and you
would be recognized as a Dutchman.”
“That is so. My tongue
would tell tales on me; and to go—even to
heaven—by the guillotine, is not what a
good man would wish. No indeed!”
“And you may see by Arenta’s
letter, that she does not fear the guillotine.
Come over to-night and talk to my father and mother,
and I will tell you what I saw in Philadelphia.”
“Well then, I will come.”
“Is Madame Jacobus back in New York yet?”
“She is in London.”
“But why in London?”
“That, I know not. Two
reasons I can suppose, but which is right, or if either
be right, that is beyond my certainty.”
“Is her sister-in-law dead?”
“She is dead. Her husband
was an Englishman; perhaps then it is about some property
in England she has gone. If it is not that, of
nothing else can I think but Captain Jacobus.
But my sister Angelica had ever two ways—nothing
at all she would say about her money or her business;
but constantly, to every one, she would talk of her
husband. I think then it is money or property
that has taken her to England. For if it had
been Jacobus, to the whole town she would have told
it.” Then he took both Cornelia’s
hands in his, and looking at her earnestly said—
“Poor Rem! Impossible is it?”
“Quite impossible, sir,” she answered.
“When he got thy letter refusing
his love and offer, he went to Boston. I think
he will not come back to me. I am very sorry,”
he said simply, and he let her hands drop.
“I am sorry also—for
your sake. I hear however that Rem is doing well
in Boston.”
“Better than his hopes.
Very good fortune has come to him.”
“And you, sir?”
“I am not doing much at present—but
Smith and Warren do less. In an hour or two to
your house I will come. There is plenty to talk
about.”
The next day Cornelia walked down
Broadway to Madame Jacobus’ house. It was
closed and desolate looking, and she sighed as she
compared its old bright spotless comfort, with its
present empty forlornness. The change typified
the change in her heart and love, but ere she could
entertain the thought, her eyes fell upon the trees
in the garden, full of the pale crinkled leaves of
spring, and she saw the early flowers breaking through
the dark earth, and the early shrubs bursting into
white and golden blooms. In some way they had
a message for her; and she went home with hope budding
in her heart. Soon after Mrs. Moran heard her
singing at her work,
“The far east
glows,
The morning wind blows fresh and free;
Should not the hour that wakes the rose
Awaken thee?
No longer sleep—
Oh listen now!
I wait and weep,
But where art thou?”
From one to another song she went,
simple melodies all of them, delightful little warblings
of love, which except for their gladness and loyalty,
had nothing in them to charm.
She was a deserted maiden. Her
lover had palpably and with extreme cruelty deceived
her; but she had grieved, and forgiven. And love
brings its reward, even if unrequited. Those
who love, and have loved, are the better for the revelation;
for love for love’s sake enriches and blesses
the lover to the very end of life. She did not
forget, for love has everlasting remembrance; and
she did not wish to forget, for a great affection
is a great happiness, and the whole soul can find shelter
in it.
Neither were her days monotonous or
unhappy. All the real pleasures of life lie in
narrow compass; and she found herself very often a
little hurried for want of time. She had not,
it is true, the resources of the woman of to-day—no
literary, musical, social, or sporting clubs existed
for Cornelia; but she had duties and devices that made
every moment pleasant or profitable. Many hours
daily were given to fine needlework— calm
quiet hours full of thought as well as work; she had
her music to practice, new books and papers to read,
calls to make, mantua makers and milliners to interview,
dinners and dances and tea-parties to attend, shopping
to look after, delicate bits of darning and mending
to exercise her skill on, creams and pasties and cakes
to prepare, visitors to welcome and entertain, and
many other duties which sprang up—as extras
do—unexpectedly, and yet which opened the
door for very pleasant surprises and events.
Besides which, there was her father.
After her return from school she had always driven
with him to some extent; but his claim on her now was
often a little exacting. He said the fresh spring
winds were good for her, and that she stayed in the
house too much, and there was no evading the dictum
that came with both parental and medical authority.
Perhaps this demand upon her time would not have been
made if the Hydes had been in New York; but Doctor
Moran by frequent inquiries satisfied himself that
they were yet in Philadelphia; and for his daughter’s
satisfaction he frequently said as they drove up Maiden
Lane, “We will take the Greenwich Road, there
is no fear of our meeting any one we do not wish to
see.” She understood the allusion, and was
satisfied to escape meetings that promised her nothing
but pain.
In the month of May there occurred
one of those wet spells which are so irritating “growing
weather” of course, but very tiresome to those
who felt the joy of spring escaping them. Week
after week it was too damp, or the winds were too
sharp, or the roads too heavy for quick driving, and
thus the month of all months went out of the calendar
with few red letter days to brighten it. Then
June came in royally, and Cornelia was glad of the
sunshine and the breeze and the rapid canter; and for
a week or two she was much out with her father.
But he was now ever on the watch, and she judged from
the circumstance that the Hydes were back in New York.
Besides which, he did not any longer give her the assurance
of not meeting any one they did not wish to see.
One exquisite day as they went up
Maiden Lane the Doctor said—” My
friend General Hewitt sails for England to-day, and
we will go and wish him a good voyage.”
So to the pier they went, and the Doctor left his
carriage, and taking Cornelia on his arm walked down
to where the English packet was lying. They were
a little too late to go on board, for the shoremen
were taking away the gang-plank, and the sailors preparing
to lift the anchor; but the General stood leaning over
the side of the vessel, and exchanged some last words
with his friend.
[Illustration: “She waved
him an adieu”]
While Cornelia listened, she became
suddenly conscious of the powerful magnetism of some
human eye, and obeying its irresistible attraction
she saw George Hyde steadily regarding her. He
stood by the side of his father, as handsome as on
that May morning when he had first looked love into
her heart. She was enthralled again by his glance,
and never for one moment thought of resisting the
appeal it made to her. With a conscious tenderness
she waved him an adieu whose spirit he could not but
feel. In the same moment he lifted his hat and
stood bareheaded looking at her with a pathetic inquiry,
which made her inwardly cry out, “Oh, what does
he mean?” The packet was moving—the
wind filled the blowing sails—the hoarse
crying of the sailormen blended with the “good-byes”
of the passengers—and the Earl, aware of
the sad and silent parting within his sight—moved
away as Cornelia again waved a mute farewell to her
lost lover. Then the Doctor touched her—
“Why do you do that?” he asked angrily.
“Because I must do it, father; I cannot help
it. I desire to do it.”
“I am in a hurry; let us go home.”
Filling her eyes with the beauty of
the splendid looking youth still standing bareheaded
watching her, seeing even such trivial things as his
long cloak thrown backward over his shoulder, his white
hand holding his lifted hat, and the wind-tossed curls
of his handsome head, she turned away with a sigh.
The Doctor drove rapidly to Maiden Lane and did not
on the way speak a word; and Cornelia was glad of
it. That image of her lover standing on the moving
ship watching her with his heart in his eyes, filled
her whole consciousness. Never would it be possible
for her to forget it, or to put any other image in
its place. She thanked her good angel for giving
her such a comforting memory; it seemed as if the
sting had been taken out of her sorrow. Henceforward
she was resolved to love without a doubt. She
would believe in Joris, no matter what she had seen,
or what she had heard. There were places in life
to which alas! truth could not come; and this might
be one of them. Though all the world blamed her
lover, she would excuse him. Her heart might ache,
her eyes might weep, but in that aching heart and
in those weeping eyes, his splendid image would live
in that radiant dimness which makes the unseen face,
often more real than the present one.
Doctor Moran divined something of
this resolute temper, and it made him silent.
He felt that his daughter had come to a place where
she had put reason firmly aside, and given her whole
assent to the assurances of her intuition. He
had no arguments for an antagonism of this kind.
What could he say to a soul that presaged a something,
and then believed it? His instinctive sagacity
told him that silence was now the part of wisdom.
But though he took her silently home he was conscious
of a great relief. His watch was over.
Now a woman’s intuition is like
a leopard’s spring, it seizes the truth —if
it seize it at all—at the first bound; and
it was by this unaccountable mental agility Cornelia
had arrived at the conviction of her lover’s
fidelity. At any rate, she felt confident, that
if circumstances had compelled him to be false to
her, the wrong had been sincerely mourned; and she
was able to forgive the offence that was blotted out
with tears. She reflected also, that now he was
so far away, it would be possible for her to call
upon Madame Van Heemskirk, and also upon Madame Jacobus
as soon as she returned; but if Hyde had remained in
New York, these houses would necessarily be closed
to her, for he was a constant visitor at both.
She resolved therefore to call upon
Madame Van Heemskirk the following week. She
expected the old lady might treat her a little formally,
perhaps even with some coldness, but she thought it
worth while to test her kindness. Joris had once
told her that his grandfather and grandmother both
approved their love, and they must know of his desertion,
and also of the reason for it. Yet there was in
her heart such a reluctance to take any step that
had the appearance of seeking her lost lover, that
she put off this visit day after day, finding in the
weather or in some household duty always a fair excuse
for doing so, until one morning the Doctor said at
breakfast:
“Councillor De Vrees died yesterday,
and there is to be a great funeral. Every Dutchman
in town will be there, and many others beside, He has
left an immense fortune.”
“Who told you this?” asked Mrs. Moran.
“I met Van Heemskirk and his
wife going there. Madame De Vrees is their daughter.
Now you will see great changes take place.”
“What do you mean, John?”
“Madame De Vrees has long wanted
to build a mansion equal to their wealth, but the
Councillor would never leave the house he built at
their marriage. Madame will now build, and her
children take their places among the great ones of
the city. De Vrees was an oddity; very few people
will be sorry to lose him. He had no good quality
but money, and he was the most unhappy of men about
its future disposal. I never understood until
I knew him, how wretched a thing it is to be merely
rich.”
This conversation again put off Cornelia’s
visit, and she virtually abandoned the idea.
Then one morning Mrs. Moran said, “Cornelia,
I wish you to go to William Irvin’s for some
hosiery and Kendal cottons. It is a new store
down the Lane at number ninety, and I hear his cloths
are strangely cheap. Go and examine them for
me.”
“Very well, mother. I will
also look in at Fisher’s;” and it was at
Fisher’s that she saw Madame Van Heemskirk.
She was talking to Mr. Henry Fisher as they advanced
from the back of the store, and Cornelia had time
to observe that madame was in deep mourning, and that
she had grown older looking since she had last seen
her. As they came forward madame raised her eyes
and saw Cornelia, and then hastily leaving the merchant,
she approached her.
“Good-morning, madame,”
said Cornelia, with a cheerful smile.
“Good-morning, miss. Step
aside once with me. A few words I have to say
to you;” and as she spoke she drew Cornelia a
little apart from the crowd at the counter, and looking
at her sternly, said—
“One question only—why
then did you treat my grandson so badly? A shameful
thing it is to be a flirt.”
“I am not a flirt, madame.
And I did not treat your grandson badly. No,
indeed!”
“Yes, indeed! He told me so himself.”
“He told you so?”
“He told me so. Surely he did.”
“That I treated him badly?”
“Pray then what else? You
let a young man love you—you let him tell
you so—you tell him ‘yes, I love
you’ and then when he says marry me, you say,
‘no.’ Such ways I call bad, very bad!
Not worthy of my Joris are you, and so then, I am
glad you said ‘no.’”
“I do not understand you.”
“Neither did you understand
my Joris—a great mistake he made—and
he did not understand you; and I do not understand
such ways of the girls of this day. They are
shameless, and I am ashamed for you.”
“Madame, you are very rude.”
“And very false are you.”
“I am not false.”
“My Joris told me so. Truth
itself is Joris. He would not lie. He would
not deceive.”
“If your grandson told you I
had deceived him, and refused to marry him,—let
it be so. I have no wish to contradict your grandson.”
“That you cannot do. I am ashamed—”
“Madame, I wish you good morning;”
and with these words Cornelia left the store.
Her cheeks were burning; the old lady’s angry
voice was in her ears, she felt the eyes of every
one in the store upon her, and she was indignant and
mortified at a meeting so inopportune. Her heart
had also received a new stab; and she had not at the
moment any philosophy to meet it. Joris had evidently
told his grandmother exactly what the old lady affirmed.
She had not a doubt of that, but why? Why had
he lied about her? Was there no other way out
of his entanglement with her? She walked home
in a hurry, and as soon as possible shut herself in
her room to consider this fresh wrong and injustice.
She could arrive at only one conclusion—Annie’s
most unexpected appearance had happened immediately
after his proposal to herself. He was pressed
for time, his grandparents would be especially likely
to embarrass him concerning her claims, and of course
the quickest and surest way to prevent questioning
on the matter, was to tell them that she had refused
him. That fact would close their mouths in sympathy
for his disappointment, and there would be no further
circumstances to clear up. It was the only explanation
of madame’s attitude that was possible, and
she was compelled to accept it, much as it humiliated
her. And then after it had been accepted and
sorrowed over, there came back to her those deeper
assurances, those soul assertions, which she could
not either examine or define, but which she felt compelled
to receive—He loves me! I feel it!
It is not his fault! I must not think wrong of
him.
There was still Madame Jacobus to
hope for. She was so shrewd and so kindly, that
Cornelia felt certain of her sympathy and wise advice.
But month after month passed away and madame’s
house remained empty and forlorn-looking. Now
and then there came short fateful letters from Arenta,
and Van Ariens—utterly miserable—visited
them frequently that he might be comforted with their
assurances of his child’s ability to manage
the very worst circumstances in which she could be
placed.
And so the long summer days passed
and the winter approached again; but before that time
Cornelia had at least attained to the wisest of all
the virtues—that calm, hushed contentment,
which is only another name for happiness—that
contentment which accepts the fact that there is a
chain of causes linked to effects by an invincible
necessity; and that whatever is, could not have wisely
been but so. And if this was fatalism, it was
at least a brighter thing than the languid pessimism,
which would have led her life among quicksands, to
end it in wreck.
One day at the close of October she
put down her needlework with a little impatience.
“I am tired of sewing, mother,” she said,
“and I will walk down to the Battery and get
a breath of the sea. I shall not stay long.”
On her way to the Battery she was
thinking of Hyde, and of their frequent walks together
there; and for once she passed the house of Madame
Jacobus without a glance at its long-closed windows.
It was growing dark as she returned, and ere she quite
reached it she was aware of a glow of fire light and
candle light from the windows. She quickened
her steps, and saw a servant well known to her standing
at the open door directing two men who were carrying
in trunks and packages. She immediately accosted
him.
“Has madame returned at last, Ameer?”
she asked joyfully.
“Madame has returned home,”
he answered. “She is weary—she
is not alone—she will not receive to-night.”
“Surely not. I did not
think of such a thing. Tell her only that I am
glad, and will call as soon as she can see me.”
The man’s manner—usually
so friendly—was shy and peculiar, and Cornelia
felt saddened and disappointed. “And yet
why?” she asked herself. “Madame
has but reached home—I did not wish to intrude
upon her—Ameer need not have thought so—however
I am glad she is back again”—and
she walked rapidly home to the thoughts which this
unexpected arrival induced. They were hopeful
thoughts, leaning—however she directed
them—towards her absent lover. She
felt sure madame would see clearly to the very bottom
of what she could not understand. She went into
her mother’s presence full of renewed expectations,
and met her smile with one of unusual brightness.
“Madame Jacobus is at home,”
said Mrs. Moran, before Cornelia could speak.
“She sent for your father just after you left
the house, and I suppose that he is still there.”
“Is she sick?”
“I do not know. I fear so, for the visit
is a long one.”
It continued so much longer that the
two ladies took their tea alone, nor could they talk
of any other subject than madame, and her most unexpected
call for Doctor Moran’s services.”
It was always the Dutch Doctor Gansvoort she had before,”
said Mrs. Moran; “and she was ever ready to
scoff at all others, as pretenders.—I do
wonder what keeps your father so long?”
It was near ten o’clock when
Doctor Moran returned, and his face was sombre and
thoughtful—the face of a man who had been
listening for hours to grave matters, and who had
not been able to throw off their physical reflection.
“Have you had tea, John?” asked Mrs. Moran.
“No. Give me a good strong
cup, Ava. I am tired with listening and feeling.”
She poured it out quickly, and after
he had taken the refreshing drink, Cornelia asked—
“Is madame very ill?”
“She is wonderfully well. It is her husband.”
“Captain Jacobus?”
“Who else? She has brought
him home, and I doubt if she has done wisely.”
“What has happened, John? Surely you will
tell us!”
“There is nothing to conceal.
I have heard the whole story—a very pitiful
story—but yet like enough to end well, Madame
told me that the day after her sister-in-law’s
burial, James Lauder, a Scotchman who had often sailed
with Captain Jacobus, came down to Charleston to see
her. He had sought her in New York, and been
directed by her lawyer to Charleston. He declared
that having had occasion to go to Guy’s Hospital
in London to visit a sick comrade, he saw there Captain
Jacobus. He would not admit any doubt of his
identity, but said the Captain had forgotten his name,
and everything in connection with his past life; and
was hanging about the premises by favour of the physicians,
holding their horses, and doing various little services
for them.”
“Oh how well I can imagine madame’s hurry
and distress,” said Cornelia.
“She hardly knew how to reach
London quickly enough. She said thought would
have been too slow for her. But Lauder’s
tale proved to be true. Her first action was
to take possession of the demented man, and surround
him with every comfort. He appeared quite indifferent
to her care, and she obtained no shadow of recognition
from him. She then brought to his case all the
medical skill money could procure, and in the consultation
which followed, the physicians decided to perform the
operation of trepanning.”
“But why? Had he been injured, John?”
“Very badly. The hospital
books showed that he had been brought there by two
sailors, who said he had been struck in a gale by a
falling mast. The wound healed, but left him
mentally a wreck. The physicians decided that
the brain was suffering from pressure, and that trepanning
would relieve, if it did not cure.”
“Then why was it not done at first?”
“Whose interest was it to inquire?
No money was left with the injured man. The sailors
who took him to the hospital gave false names, and
address, and he received only such treatment as a pauper
patient was likely to receive. But he made friends,
and was supported about the place. Imagine now
what a trial was before madame! It was a difficult
matter to perform the operation, for the patient could
not be made to understand its necessity; and he was
very hard to manage. Then picture to yourselves,
the terrible strain of nursing which followed; though
madame says it was soon brightened and lightened by
her husband’s recognition of her. After
that event all weariness was rest, and suffering ease;
and as soon as he was able to travel both were determined
to return at once to their own home. He is yet
however a sick man, and may never quite recover a
slight paralysis of the lower limbs.”
“Does he remember how he was hurt?”
“He declares his men mutinied,
because instead of returning to New York, he had taken
on a cargo for the East India Company; and that the
blow was given him either by his first, or second mate.
He thinks they sailed his ship out of the Thames,
for her papers were all made out, and she was ready
to drop down the river with the next tide. He
vows he will get well and find his ship and the rascals
that stole her; and I should not wonder if he does.
He has will enough for anything. Madame desires
to see you, Cornelia. Can you go there with me
in the morning?”
“I shall be glad to go. Madame is like
no one else.”
“She is not like herself at
present. I think you may be a little disappointed
in her. She has but one thought, one care, one
end and aim in life—her husband.”
The Doctor had judged correctly.
Cornelia was disappointed from the first moment.
She was taken to the dim uncanny drawing-room by Ameer,
and left among its ill-omened gods, and odd treasure-trove
for nearly half an hour before madame came to her.
The rudely graven faces, so marvellously instinct
with life, made her miserable; she fancied a thousand
mockeries and scorns in them; and no thought of Hyde,
or Arenta, or of the happy hours spent in that ill-boding
room, could charm away its sinister influence.
When madame at length came to her,
she appeared like the very genius of the place.
The experiences of the past year had left traces which
no after experience would be able to obliterate.
She looked ten years older. Her wonderful dark
eyes, glowing with a soft tender fire alone remained
untouched by the withering hand of anxious love.
They were as vital as ever they had been, and when
Cornelia said so, she answered, “That is because
my soul dwells in them, and my soul is always young.
I have had a year, Cornelia, to crumble the body to
dust; but my soul made light of it for love’s
sake. Did your father tell you how much Captain
Jacobus had suffered?”
“Yes, madame.”
But in spite of this assurance, madame
went over the whole story in detail, and Cornelia
could not help but remember that Mr. Van Ariens had
said “about her husband she will talk constantly,
and to the whole town.” For however far
the conversation diverged for a moment, madame always
brought it sharply back to the one subject that interested
her. Even Arenta’s peculiarly dangerous
position could not detain her thoughts and interest
for many minutes.
“I am sorry for Arenta,”
she said; “no greater hell can there be, than
to live in constant fear. But she has the gift
of a clever tongue, and every one has not the like
talent; and also if a woman with the decency of her
sex may be a scholar, Arenta has learning enough to
compass the fools who might injure her.”
“Marat and Robespierre are both
against her husband, and she may share his fate.”
“Marat and Robespierre!”
she cried. “Both of the creatures have a
devil. I wish them to go to the guillotine together,
and I would bury them together with their faces downwards.
Let them pass out of your memory. Poor Jacobus
was in a worse case than Arenta. Till I be key-cold
dead, I shall never forget my first sight of him in
that dreadful place—” and then she
described again her overwhelming emotions when she
perceived he was alike apathetic to his pauper condition,
and to her love and presence. There never came
a moment during the whole visit when it was possible
to speak of Hyde. Madame seemed to have quite
forgotten her liking for the handsome youth; it had
been swallowed up in her adoring affection for her
restored husband.
Cornelia would not force the memory
upon her. Some day she might remember; but for
a little while madame had more than enough of fresh
material for her conversation. Every one who had
known Captain Jacobus or herself, called with congratulations
for their happy return; and when Cornelia made a nearly
daily visit with her father, madame had these calls
to talk over with her.
One morning, however, the long-looked-for
topic was introduced. “I had a visit from
Madame Van Heemskirk yesterday afternoon,” she
said; “and the dear old Senator came with her
to see Captain Jacobus. While they talked, madame
told me that you had refused that handsome young fellow,
her grandson. What could you mean by such a stupidity,
Miss Moran?”
Her voice had just that tone of indifference,
mingled with sarcastic disapproval, that hurt and
offended Cornelia. She felt that it was not worth
while to explain herself, for madame had evidently
accepted the offended grandmother’s opinion;
and the memory of the young Lord was lively enough
to make her sympathize with his supposed wrong.
“I never considered you to be
a flirt,” she continued, “and I am astonished.
If, now, it had been Arenta, I could have understood
it. I told Madame Van Heemskirk that I had not
the least doubt Doctor Moran dictated the refusal.”
“Oh, indeed,” answered
Cornelia, with a good deal of spirit and some anger,
“you shall not blame my father. He knew
nothing whatever of Lord Hyde’s offer, until
I had been subjected to such insult and wrong as drove
me to the grave’s mouth. Only the mercy
of God, and my father’s skill, brought me back
to life.”
“Yes, I think your father to
be wonderfully skilful. He has done Jacobus a
great deal of good, and he now gives him hope of a
perfect recovery. Doctor Moran is a fine physician;
Jacobus says so.”
Cornelia remained silent. If
madame did not feel interest sufficient in her affairs
to ask for the particulars of one so nearly fatal to
her, she determined not to force the subject on her.
Then Jacobus rang his bell, and madame flew to his
room to see whether his want had received proper attention.
Cornelia sat still a few moments, her heart swelling,
her eyes filling with the sense of that injustice,
harder to bear than any other form of wrong.
She was going away, when madame returned to her, and
something in her eyes went to the heart of the older
woman. She turned her back, with a kind but peremptory
word, and taking her hand, said—
“I have been thoughtless, Cornelia,
selfish, I dare say; but I do not wish to be so.
Tell me, my dear, what has happened. Did you quarrel
with George Hyde? And pray what was it about?”
“We never had one word of any
kind, but words of affection. He wrote and asked
me if he could come and see my father about our marriage,
on a certain night. I answered his letter with
all the love that was in my heart for him, and told
him to come and see my father that very night.
He never came. He never sent me the least explanation.
He never wrote to me, or spoke to me again.”
“Oh, but this is a different
story! His grandmother told me that you refused
him.”
“That is not the truth.
Lady Annie Hyde came most unexpectedly that very day,
and I suppose the easiest way to stop all inquiries
about Miss Moran, was to say ‘she refused me.’”
“And after Lady Annie’s arrival, what
happened?”
“I was absolutely deserted.
That is the truth. I may as well admit it.
Perhaps you think it impossible for a young man so
good-natured to behave in a manner so cruel and dishonourable;
but I assure you it is the truth.”
“My dear, I have lived to see
it almost impossible to think worse of people than
they are; and if you can bear to hear more on this
subject, I will tell it to you myself.”
“I can always bear the truth.
If I have lost my heart, I have not lost my head;
nor will I surrender to useless grief the happiness
which I can yet make for others, and for myself.”
“If what you have told me be
so—and I believe it is—then I
say Lord George Hyde is an intolerable scoundrel.”
“I would rather not hear him spoken of in that
way.”
“I ask your pardon, but I must
give myself a little Christian liberty of railing.
The man is false clean through. He was evidently
engaged to Lady Annie when he first sought your love,
and therefore as soon as she came here, he deserted
you. I will tell you plainly that I saw him last
summer very frequently, and he was always with her—always
listening with ears and heart to what she said—always
watching her with all his soul in his eyes—ever
on the lookout to see that not a breath of wind ruffled
her soft wraps, or blew too strongly on her little
white face.”
“That was his way, madame.
I have seen him devoting himself to you in the same
manner; yes, and to Madame Griffin, and Miss White,
and a score of other ladies—old and young.
You know how good-natured he was. When did you
hear him say a wrong word of any one? even of Rem Van
Ariens who was often intolerably rude.”
“Very well! I would rather
have a man ‘intolerably rude’ like my nephew
Rem, than one like Lord Hyde who speaks well of everybody.
Upon my word, I think that is the worst kind of slander!”
“I think not.”
“It is; for it takes away the
reputation of good men, by making all men alike.
But this, that, or the other, I saw Lord Hyde in devoted
attendance on Lady Annie. Give him up totally.
He is in his kingdom when he has a pretty woman to
make a fool of. As for marriage, these young
men who have the world, or the better part of it, they
marry where Cupidity, not Cupid leads them. Give
him up entirely.”
“I have done so,” answered
Cornelia. And then she felt a sudden anger at
herself, so much so, that as she walked home, she kept
assuring her heart with an almost passionate insistence,
“I have not given him up! I will not give
him up! I believe in him yet.”
Madame’s advice might be wise,
but there are counsels of perfection that cannot be
followed; because they are utterly at variance with
that intuitive knowledge, which the soul has of old;
and which it will not surrender; and whose wisdom
it is interiorly sure of. And after this confidence
Cornelia did not go so often to madame’s.
Something jarred between them. We know that a
single drop taken from a glass of water changes the
water level swift as thought, and the same law is certain
in all human relations. Madame was not quite
the same; something had been taken away; the level
of their friendship was changed; and when Doctor Moran
could not but perceive this fact, he said—
“Go less frequently to madame’s,
Cornelia. You do not enjoy your visits; dissolve
a friendship that begins to be incomplete. It
is the best plan.”