“And what became of Pauline?”
“Pauline? Ah! Do you
sometimes spend a pleasant winter evening by your
own fireside, and give yourself up luxuriously to memories
of love or youth, while you watch the glow of the
fire where the logs of oak are burning? Here,
the fire outlines a sort of chessboard in red squares,
there it has a sheen like velvet; little blue flames
start up and flicker and play about in the glowing
depths of the brasier. A mysterious artist comes
and adapts that flame to his own ends; by a secret
of his own he draws a visionary face in the midst of
those flaming violet and crimson hues, a face with
unimaginable delicate outlines, a fleeting apparition
which no chance will ever bring back again. It
is a woman’s face, her hair is blown back by
the wind, her features speak of a rapture of delight;
she breathes fire in the midst of the fire. She
smiles, she dies, you will never see her any more.
Farewell, flower of the flame! Farewell, essence
incomplete and unforeseen, come too early or too late
to make the spark of some glorious diamond.”
“But, Pauline?”
“You do not see, then?
I will begin again. Make way! make way! She
comes, she is here, the queen of illusions, a woman
fleeting as a kiss, a woman bright as lightning, issuing
in a blaze like lightning from the sky, a being uncreated,
of spirit and love alone. She has wrapped her
shadowy form in flame, or perhaps the flame betokens
that she exists but for a moment. The pure outlines
of her shape tell you that she comes from heaven.
Is she not radiant as an angel? Can you not hear
the beating of her wings in space? She sinks down
beside you more lightly than a bird, and you are entranced
by her awful eyes; there is a magical power in her
light breathing that draws your lips to hers; she
flies and you follow; you feel the earth beneath you
no longer. If you could but once touch that form
of snow with your eager, deluded hands, once twine
the golden hair round your fingers, place one kiss
on those shining eyes! There is an intoxicating
vapor around, and the spell of a siren music is upon
you. Every nerve in you is quivering; you are
filled with pain and longing. O joy for which
there is no name! You have touched the woman’s
lips, and you are awakened at once by a horrible pang.
Oh! ah! yes, you have struck your head against the
corner of the bedpost, you have been clasping its brown
mahogany sides, and chilly gilt ornaments; embracing
a piece of metal, a brazen Cupid.”
“But how about Pauline, sir?”
“What, again? Listen.
One lovely morning at Tours a young man, who held
the hand of a pretty woman in his, went on board the
Ville d’Angers. Thus united they
both looked and wondered long at a white form that
rose elusively out of the mists above the broad waters
of the Loire, like some child of the sun and the river,
or some freak of air and cloud. This translucent
form was a sylph or a naiad by turns; she hovered
in the air like a word that haunts the memory, which
seeks in vain to grasp it; she glided among the islands,
she nodded her head here and there among the tall
poplar trees; then she grew to a giant’s height;
she shook out the countless folds of her drapery to
the light; she shot light from the aureole that the
sun had litten about her face; she hovered above the
slopes of the hills and their little hamlets, and
seemed to bar the passage of the boat before the Chateau
d’Usse. You might have thought that La
dame des belles cousines sought to protect her
country from modern intrusion.”
“Well, well, I understand.
So it went with Pauline. But how about Foedora?”
“Oh! Foedora, you are sure
to meet with her! She was at the Bouffons last
night, and she will go to the Opera this evening, and
if you like to take it so, she is Society.”