THE NIGHT VIGIL
On a hill in the midst of a great
Austrian plain, around which high Alps wait watching
through the ages stands a venerable fortress, almost
more beautiful than anything one has ever seen.
Perhaps, if it were not for the great plain flowering
broadly about it with its wide-spread beauties of
meadow-land, and wood, and dim toned buildings gathered
about farms, and its dream of a small ancient city
at its feet, it might—though it is to be
doubted—seem something less a marvel of
medieval picturesqueness. But out of the plain
rises the low hill, and surrounding it at a stately
distance stands guard the giant majesty of Alps, with
shoulders in the clouds and god-like heads above them,
looking on—always looking on—sometimes
themselves ethereal clouds of snow-whiteness, some
times monster bare crags which pierce the blue, and
whose unchanging silence seems to know the secret of
the everlasting. And on the hill which this august
circle holds in its embrace, as though it enclosed
a treasure, stands the old, old, towered fortress built
as a citadel for the Prince Archbishops, who were
kings in their domain in the long past centuries when
the splendor and power of ecclesiastical princes was
among the greatest upon earth.
And as you approach the town—and
as you leave it—and as you walk through
its streets, the broad calm empty-looking ones, or
the narrow thoroughfares whose houses seem so near
to each other, whether you climb or descend—or
cross bridges, or gaze at churches, or step out on
your balcony at night to look at the mountains and
the moon—always it seems that from some
point you can see it gazing down at you—the
citadel of Hohen-Salzburg.
It was to Salzburg they went next,
because at Salzburg was to be found the man who looked
like a hair-dresser and who worked in a barber’s
shop. Strange as it might seem, to him also must
be carried the Sign.
“There may be people who come
to him to be shaved—soldiers, or men who
know things,” The Rat worked it out, “and
he can speak to them when he is standing close to
them. It will be easy to get near him. You
can go and have your hair cut.”
The journey from Munich was not a
long one, and during the latter part of it they had
the wooden-seated third-class carriage to themselves.
Even the drowsy old peasant who nodded and slept in
one corner got out with his bundles at last.
To Marco the mountains were long-known wonders which
could never grow old. They had always and always
been so old! Surely they had been the first of
the world! Surely they had been standing there
waiting when it was said “Let there be Light.”
The Light had known it would find them there.
They were so silent, and yet it seemed as if they
said some amazing thing—something which
would take your breath from you if you could hear
it. And they never changed. The clouds changed,
they wreathed them, and hid them, and trailed down
them, and poured out storm torrents on them, and thundered
against them, and darted forked lightnings round them.
But the mountains stood there afterwards as if such
things had not been and were not in the world.
Winds roared and tore at them, centuries passed over
them—centuries of millions of lives, of
changing of kingdoms and empires, of battles and world-wide
fame which grew and died and passed away; and temples
crumbled, and kings’ tombs were forgotten, and
cities were buried and others built over them after
hundreds of years—and perhaps a few stones
fell from a mountain side, or a fissure was worn, which
the people below could not even see. And that
was all. There they stood, and perhaps their
secret was that they had been there for ever and ever.
That was what the mountains said to Marco, which was
why he did not want to talk much, but sat and gazed
out of the carriage window.
The Rat had been very silent all the
morning. He had been silent when they got up,
and he had scarcely spoken when they made their way
to the station at Munich and sat waiting for their
train. It seemed to Marco that he was thinking
so hard that he was like a person who was far away
from the place he stood in. His brows were drawn
together and his eyes did not seem to see the people
who passed by. Usually he saw everything and
made shrewd remarks on almost all he saw. But
to-day he was somehow otherwise absorbed. He
sat in the train with his forehead against the window
and stared out. He moved and gasped when he found
himself staring at the Alps, but afterwards he was
even strangely still. It was not until after
the sleepy old peasant had gathered his bundles and
got out at a station that he spoke, and he did it
without turning his head.
“You only told me one of the
two laws,” he said. “What was the
other one?”
Marco brought himself back from his
dream of reaching the highest mountain-top and seeing
clouds float beneath his feet in the sun. He had
to come back a long way.
“Are you thinking of that?
I wondered what you had been thinking of all the morning,”
he said.
“I couldn’t stop thinking
of it. What was the second one?” said The
Rat, but he did not turn his head.
“It was called the Law of Earthly
Living. It was for every day,” said Marco.
“It was for the ordering of common things—the
small things we think don’t matter, as well
as the big ones. I always remember that one without
any trouble. This was it:
“’Let pass through
thy mind, my son, only the image thou wouldst desire
to see become a truth. Meditate only upon the
wish of thy heart—seeing first that it
is such as can wrong no man and is not ignoble.
Then will it take earthly form and draw near to thee.
“’This is the Law of That which Creates.’”
Then The Rat turned round. He had a shrewdly
reasoning mind.
“That sounds as if you could
get anything you wanted, if you think about it long
enough and in the right way,” he said. “But
perhaps it only means that, if you do it, you’ll
be happy after you’re dead. My father used
to shout with laughing when he was drunk and talked
about things like that and looked at his rags.”
He hugged his knees for a few minutes.
He was remembering the rags, and the fog-darkened
room in the slums, and the loud, hideous laughter.
“What if you want something
that will harm somebody else?” he said next.
“What if you hate some one and wish you could
kill him?”
“That was one of the questions
my father asked that night on the ledge. The
holy man said people always asked it,” Marco
answered. “This was the answer:
“’Let him who stretcheth
forth his hand to draw the lightning to his brother
recall that through his own soul and body will pass
the bolt.’”
“Wonder if there’s anything
in it?” The Rat pondered. “It’d
make a chap careful if he believed it! Revenging
yourself on a man would be like holding him against
a live wire to kill him and getting all the volts
through yourself.”
A sudden anxiety revealed itself in his face.
“Does your father believe it?” he asked.
“Does he?”
“He knows it is true,” Marco said.
“I’ll own up,” The
Rat decided after further reflection—“I’ll
own up I’m glad that there isn’t any one
left that I’ve a grudge against. There
isn’t any one—now.”
Then he fell again into silence and
did not speak until their journey was at an end.
As they arrived early in the day, they had plenty of
time to wander about the marvelous little old city.
But through the wide streets and through the narrow
ones, under the archways into the market gardens,
across the bridge and into the square where the “glockenspiel”
played its old tinkling tune, everywhere the Citadel
looked down and always The Rat walked on in his dream.
They found the hair-dresser’s
shop in one of the narrow streets. There were
no grand shops there, and this particular shop was
a modest one. They walked past it once, and then
went back. It was a shop so humble that there
was nothing remarkable in two common boys going into
it to have their hair cut. An old man came forward
to receive them. He was evidently glad of their
modest patronage. He undertook to attend to The
Rat himself, but, having arranged him in a chair, he
turned about and called to some one in the back room.
“Heinrich,” he said.
In the slit in Marco’s sleeve
was the sketch of the man with smooth curled hair,
who looked like a hair-dresser. They had found
a corner in which to take their final look at it before
they turned back to come in. Heinrich, who came
forth from the small back room, had smooth curled
hair. He looked extremely like a hair-dresser.
He had features like those in the sketch—his
nose and mouth and chin and figure were like what
Marco had drawn and committed to memory. But—
He gave Marco a chair and tied the
professional white covering around his neck.
Marco leaned back and closed his eyes a moment.
“That is not the man!”
he was saying to himself. “He is not
the man.”
How he knew he was not, he could not
have explained, but he felt sure. It was a strong
conviction. But for the sudden feeling, nothing
would have been easier than to give the Sign.
And if he could not give it now, where was the one
to whom it must be spoken, and what would be the result
if that one could not be found? And if there were
two who were so much alike, how could he be sure?
Each owner of each of the pictured
faces was a link in a powerful secret chain; and if
a link were missed, the chain would be broken.
Each time Heinrich came within the line of his vision,
he recorded every feature afresh and compared it with
the remembered sketch. Each time the resemblance
became more close, but each time some persistent inner
conviction repeated, “No; the Sign is not for
him!”
It was disturbing, also, to find that
The Rat was all at once as restless as he had previously
been silent and preoccupied. He moved in his
chair, to the great discomfort of the old hair-dresser.
He kept turning his head to talk. He asked Marco
to translate divers questions he wished him to ask
the two men. They were questions about the Citadel—about
the Monchsberg—the Residenz—the
Glockenspiel—the mountains. He added
one query to another and could not sit still.
“The young gentleman will get
an ear snipped,” said the old man to Marco.
“And it will not be my fault.”
“What shall I do?” Marco
was thinking. “He is not the man.”
He did not give the Sign. He
must go away and think it out, though where his thoughts
would lead him he did not know. This was a more
difficult problem than he had ever dreamed of facing.
There was no one to ask advice of. Only himself
and The Rat, who was nervously wriggling and twisting
in his chair.
“You must sit still,”
he said to him. “The hair-dresser is afraid
you will make him cut you by accident.”
“But I want to know who lives
at the Residenz?” said The Rat. “These
men can tell us things if you ask them.”
“It is done now,” said
the old hair-dresser with a relieved air. “Perhaps
the cutting of his hair makes the young gentleman nervous.
It is sometimes so.”
The Rat stood close to Marco’s
chair and asked questions until Heinrich also had
done his work. Marco could not understand his
companion’s change of mood. He realized
that, if he had wished to give the Sign, he had been
allowed no opportunity. He could not have given
it. The restless questioning had so directed
the older man’s attention to his son and Marco
that nothing could have been said to Heinrich without
his observing it.
“I could not have spoken if
he had been the man,” Marco said to himself.
Their very exit from the shop seemed
a little hurried. When they were fairly in the
street, The Rat made a clutch at Marco’s arm.
“You didn’t give it?”
he whispered breathlessly. “I kept talking
and talking to prevent you.”
Marco tried not to feel breathless,
and he tried to speak in a low and level voice with
no hint of exclamation in it.
“Why did you say that?” he asked.
The Rat drew closer to him.
“That was not the man!”
he whispered. “It doesn’t matter how
much he looks like him, he isn’t the right one.”
He was pale and swinging along swiftly as if he were
in a hurry.
“Let’s get into a quiet
place,” he said. “Those queer things
you’ve been telling me have got hold of me.
How did I know? How could I know—unless
it’s because I’ve been trying to work that
second law? I’ve been saying to myself
that we should be told the right things to do—for
the Game and for your father—and so that
I could be the right sort of aide-de-camp. I’ve
been working at it, and, when he came out, I knew he
was not the man in spite of his looks. And I couldn’t
be sure you knew, and I thought, if I kept on talking
and interrupting you with silly questions, you could
be prevented from speaking.”
“There’s a place not far
away where we can get a look at the mountains.
Let’s go there and sit down,” said Marco.
“I knew it was not the right one, too.
It’s the Help over again.”
“Yes, it’s the Help—it’s
the Help—it must be,” muttered The
Rat, walking fast and with a pale, set face.
“It could not be anything else.”
They got away from the streets and
the people and reached the quiet place where they
could see the mountains. There they sat down by
the wayside. The Rat took off his cap and wiped
his forehead, but it was not only the quick walking
which had made it damp.
“The queerness of it gave me
a kind of fright,” he said. “When
he came out and he was near enough for me to see him,
a sudden strong feeling came over me. It seemed
as if I knew he wasn’t the man. Then I said
to myself—’but he looks like him’—and
I began to get nervous. And then I was sure again—and
then I wanted to try to stop you from giving him the
Sign. And then it all seemed foolishness—and
the next second all the things you had told me rushed
back to me at once—and I remembered what
I had been thinking ever since—and I said—’Perhaps
it’s the Law beginning to work,’ and the
palms of my hands got moist.”
Marco was very quiet. He was
looking at the farthest and highest peaks and wondering
about many things.
“It was the expression of his
face that was different,” he said. “And
his eyes. They are rather smaller than the right
man’s are. The light in the shop was poor,
and it was not until the last time he bent over me
that I found out what I had not seen before. His
eyes are gray—the other ones are brown.”
“Did you see that!” The
Rat exclaimed. “Then we’re sure!
We’re safe!”
“We’re not safe till we’ve
found the right man,” Marco said. “Where
is he? Where is he? Where is he?”
He said the words dreamily and quietly,
as if he were lost in thought—but also
rather as if he expected an answer. And he still
looked at the far-off peaks. The Rat, after watching
him a moment or so, began to look at them also.
They were like a loadstone to him too. There
was something stilling about them, and when your eyes
had rested upon them a few moments they did not want
to move away.
“There must be a ledge up there
somewhere,” he said at last.
“Let’s go up and look
for it and sit there and think and think—about
finding the right man.”
There seemed nothing fantastic in
this to Marco. To go into some quiet place and
sit and think about the thing he wanted to remember
or to find out was an old way of his. To be quiet
was always the best thing, his father had taught him.
It was like listening to something which could speak
without words.
“There is a little train which
goes up the Gaisberg,” he said. “When
you are at the top, a world of mountains spreads around
you. Lazarus went once and told me. And
we can lie out on the grass all night. Let us
go, Aide-de-camp.”
So they went, each one thinking the
same thought, and each boy-mind holding its own vision.
Marco was the calmer of the two, because his belief
that there was always help to be found was an accustomed
one and had ceased to seem to partake of the supernatural.
He believed quite simply that it was the working of
a law, not the breaking of one, which gave answer
and led him in his quests. The Rat, who had known
nothing of laws other than those administered by police-courts,
was at once awed and fascinated by the suggestion
of crossing some borderland of the Unknown. The
law of the One had baffled and overthrown him, with
its sweeping away of the enmities of passions which
created wars and called for armies. But the Law
of Earthly Living seemed to offer practical benefits
if you could hold on to yourself enough to work it.
“You wouldn’t get everything
for nothing, as far as I can make out,” he had
said to Marco. “You’d have to sweep
all the rubbish out of your mind—sweep
it as if you did it with a broom—and then
keep on thinking straight and believing you were going
to get things—and working for them—and
they’d come.”
Then he had laughed a short ugly laugh
because he recalled something.
“There was something in the
Bible that my father used to jeer about—something
about a man getting what he prayed for if he believed
it,” he said.
“Oh, yes, it’s there,”
said Marco. “That if a man pray believing
he shall receive what he asks it shall be given him.
All the books say something like it. It’s
been said so often it makes you believe it.”
“He didn’t believe it, and I didn’t,”
said The Rat.
“Nobody does—really,”
answered Marco, as he had done once before. “It’s
because we don’t know.”
They went up the Gaisberg in the little
train, which pushed and dragged and panted slowly
upward with them. It took them with it stubbornly
and gradually higher and higher until it had left
Salzburg and the Citadel below and had reached the
world of mountains which rose and spread and lifted
great heads behind each other and beside each other
and beyond each other until there seemed no other
land on earth but that on mountain sides and backs
and shoulders and crowns. And also one felt the
absurdity of living upon flat ground, where life must
be an insignificant thing.
There were only a few sight-seers
in the small carriages, and they were going to look
at the view from the summit. They were not in
search of a ledge.
The Rat and Marco were. When
the little train stopped at the top, they got out
with the rest. They wandered about with them over
the short grass on the treeless summit and looked
out from this viewpoint and the other. The Rat
grew more and more silent, and his silence was not
merely a matter of speechlessness but of expression.
He looked silent and as if he were no longer
aware of the earth. They left the sight-seers
at last and wandered away by themselves. They
found a ledge where they could sit or lie and where
even the world of mountains seemed below them.
They had brought some simple food with them, and they
laid it behind a jutting bit of rock. When the
sight-seers boarded the laboring little train again
and were dragged back down the mountain, their night
of vigil would begin.
That was what it was to be. A
night of stillness on the heights, where they could
wait and watch and hold themselves ready to hear any
thought which spoke to them.
The Rat was so thrilled that he would
not have been surprised if he had heard a voice from
the place of the stars. But Marco only believed
that in this great stillness and beauty, if he held
his boy-soul quiet enough, he should find himself
at last thinking of something that would lead him
to the place which held what it was best that he should
find. The people returned to the train and it
set out upon its way down the steepness.
They heard it laboring on its way,
as though it was forced to make as much effort to
hold itself back as it had made to drag itself upward.
Then they were alone, and it was a
loneness such as an eagle might feel when it held
itself poised high in the curve of blue. And they
sat and watched. They saw the sun go down and,
shade by shade, deepen and make radiant and then draw
away with it the last touches of color—rose-gold,
rose-purple, and rose-gray.
One mountain-top after another held
its blush a few moments and lost it. It took
long to gather them all but at length they were gone
and the marvel of night fell.
The breath of the forests below was
sweet about them, and soundlessness enclosed them
which was of unearthly peace. The stars began
to show themselves, and presently the two who waited
found their faces turned upward to the sky and they
both were speaking in whispers.
“The stars look large here,” The Rat said.
“Yes,” answered Marco.
“We are not as high as the Buddhist was, but
it seems like the top of the world.”
“There is a light on the side
of the mountain yonder which is not a star,”
The Rat whispered.
“It is a light in a hut where
the guides take the climbers to rest and to spend
the night,” answered Marco.
“It is so still,” The
Rat whispered again after a silence, and Marco whispered
back:
“It is so still.”
They had eaten their meal of black
bread and cheese after the setting of the sun, and
now they lay down on their backs and looked up until
the first few stars had multiplied themselves into
myriads. They began a little low talk, but the
soundlessness was stronger than themselves.
“How am I going to hold on to
that second law?” The Rat said restlessly.
“’Let pass through thy mind only the image
thou wouldst see become a truth.’ The things
that are passing through my mind are not the things
I want to come true. What if we don’t find
him—don’t find the right one, I mean!”
“Lie still—still—and
look up at the stars,” whispered Marco.
“They give you a sure feeling.”
There was something in the curious
serenity of him which calmed even his aide-de-camp.
The Rat lay still and looked—and looked—and
thought. And what he thought of was the desire
of his heart. The soundlessness enwrapped him
and there was no world left. That there was a
spark of light in the mountain-climbers’ rest-hut
was a thing forgotten.
They were only two boys, and they
had begun their journey on the earliest train and
had been walking about all day and thinking of great
and anxious things.
“It is so still,” The Rat whispered again
at last.
“It is so still,” whispered Marco.
And the mountains rising behind each
other and beside each other and beyond each other
in the night, and also the myriads of stars which had
so multiplied themselves, looking down knew that they
were asleep—as sleep the human things which
do not watch forever.
* * * *
*
“Some one is smoking,”
Marco found himself saying in a dream. After
which he awakened and found that the smoke was not
part of a dream at all. It came from the pipe
of a young man who had an alpenstock and who looked
as if he had climbed to see the sun rise. He wore
the clothes of a climber and a green hat with a tuft
at the back. He looked down at the two boys,
surprised.
“Good day,” he said.
“Did you sleep here so that you could see the
sun get up?”
“Yes,” answered Marco.
“Were you cold?”
“We slept too soundly to know. And we brought
our thick coats.”
“I slept half-way down the mountains,”
said the smoker. “I am a guide in these
days, but I have not been one long enough to miss a
sunrise it is no work to reach. My father and
brother think I am mad about such things. They
would rather stay in their beds. Oh! he is awake,
is he?” turning toward The Rat, who had risen
on one elbow and was staring at him. “What
is the matter? You look as if you were afraid
of me.”
Marco did not wait for The Rat to recover his breath
and speak.
“I know why he looks at you
so,” he answered for him. “He is startled.
Yesterday we went to a hair-dresser’s shop down
below there, and we saw a man who was almost exactly
like you—only—” he added,
looking up, “his eyes were gray and yours are
brown.”
“He was my twin brother,”
said the guide, puffing at his pipe cheerfully.
“My father thought he could make hair-dressers
of us both, and I tried it for four years. But
I always wanted to be climbing the mountains and there
were not holidays enough. So I cut my hair, and
washed the pomade out of it, and broke away. I
don’t look like a hair-dresser now, do I?”
He did not. Not at all.
But Marco knew him. He was the man. There
was no one on the mountain-top but themselves, and
the sun was just showing a rim of gold above the farthest
and highest giant’s shoulders. One need
not be afraid to do anything, since there was no one
to see or hear. Marco slipped the sketch out
of the slit in his sleeve. He looked at it and
he looked at the guide, and then he showed it to him.
“That is not your brother. It is you!”
he said.
The man’s face changed a little—more
than any other face had changed when its owner had
been spoken to. On a mountain-top as the sun rises
one is not afraid.
“The Lamp is lighted,” said Marco.
“The Lamp is lighted.”
“God be thanked!” burst
forth the man. And he took off his hat and bared
his head. Then the rim behind the mountain’s
shoulder leaped forth into a golden torrent of splendor.
And The Rat stood up, resting his
weight on his crutches in utter silence, and stared
and stared.
“That is three!” said Marco.