I do not propose to add anything to
what has already been written concerning the loss
of the “Lady Vain.” As everyone knows,
she collided with a derelict when ten days out from
Callao. The longboat, with seven of the crew,
was picked up eighteen days after by H. M. gunboat
“Myrtle,” and the story of their terrible
privations has become quite as well known as the far
more horrible “Medusa” case. But
I have to add to the published story of the “Lady
Vain” another, possibly as horrible and far
stranger. It has hitherto been supposed that
the four men who were in the dingey perished, but
this is incorrect. I have the best of evidence
for this assertion: I was one of the four men.
But in the first place I must state
that there never were four men in the dingey,—the
number was three. Constans, who was “seen
by the captain to jump into the gig,”{1} luckily for
us and unluckily for himself did not reach us.
He came down out of the tangle of ropes under the
stays of the smashed bowsprit, some small rope caught
his heel as he let go, and he hung for a moment head
downward, and then fell and struck a block or spar
floating in the water. We pulled towards him,
but he never came up.
{1} Daily News, March 17, 1887.
I say lucky for us he did not reach
us, and I might almost say luckily for himself; for
we had only a small breaker of water and some soddened
ship’s biscuits with us, so sudden had been
the alarm, so unprepared the ship for any disaster.
We thought the people on the launch would be better
provisioned (though it seems they were not), and we
tried to hail them. They could not have heard
us, and the next morning when the drizzle cleared,—which
was not until past midday,—we could see
nothing of them. We could not stand up to look
about us, because of the pitching of the boat.
The two other men who had escaped so far with me were
a man named Helmar, a passenger like myself, and a
seaman whose name I don’t know,—a
short sturdy man, with a stammer.
We drifted famishing, and, after our
water had come to an end, tormented by an intolerable
thirst, for eight days altogether. After the
second day the sea subsided slowly to a glassy calm.
It is quite impossible for the ordinary reader to
imagine those eight days. He has not, luckily
for himself, anything in his memory to imagine with.
After the first day we said little to one another,
and lay in our places in the boat and stared at the
horizon, or watched, with eyes that grew larger and
more haggard every day, the misery and weakness gaining
upon our companions. The sun became pitiless.
The water ended on the fourth day, and we were already
thinking strange things and saying them with our eyes;
but it was, I think, the sixth before Helmar gave
voice to the thing we had all been thinking.
I remember our voices were dry and thin, so that we
bent towards one another and spared our words.
I stood out against it with all my might, was rather
for scuttling the boat and perishing together among
the sharks that followed us; but when Helmar said that
if his proposal was accepted we should have drink,
the sailor came round to him.
I would not draw lots however, and
in the night the sailor whispered to Helmar again
and again, and I sat in the bows with my clasp-knife
in my hand, though I doubt if I had the stuff in me
to fight; and in the morning I agreed to Helmar’s
proposal, and we handed halfpence to find the odd
man. The lot fell upon the sailor; but he was
the strongest of us and would not abide by it, and
attacked Helmar with his hands. They grappled
together and almost stood up. I crawled along
the boat to them, intending to help Helmar by grasping
the sailor’s leg; but the sailor stumbled with
the swaying of the boat, and the two fell upon the
gunwale and rolled overboard together. They sank
like stones. I remember laughing at that, and
wondering why I laughed. The laugh caught me
suddenly like a thing from without.
I lay across one of the thwarts for
I know not how long, thinking that if I had the strength
I would drink sea-water and madden myself to die quickly.
And even as I lay there I saw, with no more interest
than if it had been a picture, a sail come up towards
me over the sky-line. My mind must have been wandering,
and yet I remember all that happened, quite distinctly.
I remember how my head swayed with the seas, and the
horizon with the sail above it danced up and down;
but I also remember as distinctly that I had a persuasion
that I was dead, and that I thought what a jest it
was that they should come too late by such a little
to catch me in my body.
For an endless period, as it seemed
to me, I lay with my head on the thwart watching the
schooner (she was a little ship, schooner-rigged fore
and aft) come up out of the sea. She kept tacking
to and fro in a widening compass, for she was sailing
dead into the wind. It never entered my head
to attempt to attract attention, and I do not remember
anything distinctly after the sight of her side until
I found myself in a little cabin aft. There’s
a dim half-memory of being lifted up to the gangway,
and of a big round countenance covered with freckles
and surrounded with red hair staring at me over the
bulwarks. I also had a disconnected impression
of a dark face, with extraordinary eyes, close to mine;
but that I thought was a nightmare, until I met it
again. I fancy I recollect some stuff being poured
in between my teeth; and that is all.