WRONGED and repelled, Andrew left
the presence of his father, sad, hopeless, yet with
a sense of indignation in his heart against that father
for the wrong he had suffered at his hands.
“It’s no use for me to
try to do right,” he (sic) mnrmured to himself.
“If I want to be good, they won’t let me.”
As these thoughts passed through his
mind, a feeling of recklessness came over him, and
he said aloud—
“I don’t care what I do!”
“Don’t you, indeed?”
The voice that uttered this sentence
caused him to start. It was the voice of his
father, who had left his room soon after the expulsion
of Andrew, and was at the moment passing near, unobserved
by the boy.
“Don’t care what you do,
ha!” repeated Mr. Howland, standing in front
of the lad, and looking him sternly in the face.
“You’ve spoken the truth for once!”
For nearly a minute Mr. Howland stood
with contracted brows, scowling upon the half-frightened
child. He then walked away, deeply troubled and
perplexed in his mind.
“What is to become of this boy?”
he said to himself. “He really seems to
be one of those whom Satan designs to have, that he
might sift them as wheat. I sadly fear that he
is given over to a hard heart, and a perverse mind—one
predestinated, to evil from his birth. Ah me!
Have I not done, and am I not still doing everything
to restrain him and save him! But precept, admonition,
and punishment, all seem, thrown away. Even my
daily prayers for him remain unanswered. They
rise no higher than my head. What more can I
do than I am now doing? I have tried in every
way to break his stubborn will, but all is of no avail.”
While Mr. Howland mused thus, Andrew,
oppressed by the sphere of his father’s house,
was passing out at the street door, although expressly
forbidden to go away from home after his return from
school. For some time he stood leaning against
the railing, with a pressure of unhappiness on his
heart. While standing thus, a lad who was passing
by said to him—
“Come, Andy! there’s a
company of soldiers around in the Square. Hark!
Don’t you hear the music? Come! I’m
going.”
This was a strong temptation, for
Andrew loved music and was fond of sight-seeing.
It would be useless, he knew, to ask the permission
of his father, who usually said “No,”
to almost every request for a little liberty or privilege.
Especially at the present moment would (sic) be request
of this kind be useless.
“Come, Andy! come!” urged
the boy, for Andrew, restraining the first impulse
to bound away at the word soldiers, was debating the
question whether to go or not.
Just then the air thrilled with a
wave of music, and Andrew, unable longer to control
himself, sprung away with his companion. For half
an hour he enjoyed the music and military evolutions,
and then returned home.
“Where have you been, sir?”
was the sharp question that greeted him as he came
in.
“Around in the Square, to see
the soldiers,” replied Andrew.
“Who gave you permission to go?”
“No one, sir. I heard the
music, and thought I’d just go and look at them
a little while. I’ve not been doing anything
wrong, sir.”
“Wrong! Isn’t disobedience
wrong? Haven’t I forbidden you, over and
over again, to leave the house after school without
my permission? Say! You don’t care
what you do! That’s it! Go off up stairs
with you, to your own room, and you’ll get nothing
but bread and water until to-morrow morning!
I’ll teach you to mind what I say!”
The boy went sadly up to his room.
It had been a day of severer trial than usual—of
greater wrong and outrage upon him as a child.
For the time his spirit was broken, and he wept bitterly
when alone in his silent chamber, that was to be his
prison-house until the dawn of another day.
“Where is Andrew?” asked
Mrs. Howland, as her little family gathered at the
supper table, and she found that one was missing.
“I’ve sent him up to his
room. He can’t have anything but bread and
water to-night,” replied Mr. Howland, in a grave
tone.
“What has the poor child done,
now?” inquired the mother, in a troubled voice.
“He went off to see the soldiers,
though he had been expressly forbidden to leave the
house after coming home from school.”
“Oh, dear! He’s always
doing something wrong—what will become of
him?” sighed the mother.
“Heaven only knows! If
he escape the gallows in the end, it will be a mercy.
I never saw so young a child with so perverse an inclination.”
“Andrew had no dinner to-day,”
said Mrs. Howland, after a little while.
“His own fault,” replied
the father, “he chose to fast.”
“He must be very hungry by this
time. Won’t you allow him something more
than bread and water?”
“No. If he is hungry, that will taste sweet
to him.”
Mrs. Howland sighed and remained silent.
After supper, she took food to her boy. A slice
of bread and a glass of water were first placed on
a tray, and with these the mother started up stairs.
But, ere she reached the chamber, her heart plead
so strongly for the lad, that she paused, stood musing
for a few moments, and then returned to the dining-room.
A few slices of tongue, some biscuit, bread and butter,
and a cup of tea were taken from the table, and with
these Mrs. Howland returned up stairs. Unexpectedly,
her husband met her on the way.
“Who is that for?” he
asked, in a voice of surprise, seeing the articles
Mrs. Howland was bearing on the tray.
“It is Andrew’s supper,”
was replied; and as Mrs. Howland said this, her eyes
drooped, abashed beneath the stern and rebuking gaze
of her husband.
“Esther! Is it possible!”
exclaimed Mr. Howland. “Didn’t I say
that Andrew must have nothing but bread and water
for his supper?”
“He has had no dinner,” murmured the mother.
“I don’t care if he had
nothing to eat for a week. I said he should have
only bread and water, and I meant what I said.
Esther! I am surprised at you. Of what avail
will be efforts at correction, if you counteract them
in this way?”
Mrs. Howland never contended with
her husband. In all expressed differences of
opinion, it was his habit to bear her down with an
imperious will. She was weak, and he was her strong
tyrant. Not a word more did she speak but returned
to the dining-room, and replaced the food she had
prepared for Andrew by simple bread and water.
The feelings of childhood never run
for a long time in the same channel. Very soon
after entering his room, Andrew’s mind lost its
sad impression, and began to search about for something
to satisfy its restless activity. First he got
upon the chairs, and jumped from one to another.
This he continued until his feet passed through the
slender cane-works of one of them. Then he turned
somersets on the bed, until more than a handful of
feathers were beaten out and scattered about the room.
Next he climbed up the posts and balanced himself
on the tester, to the no small risk of breaking that
slender frame work, and injuring himself severely
by a fall. Soon the compass of the room became
too narrow, and the elevation of the bed-posts too
trifling for his expanding ideas. He went to the
window, and, opening it, looked forth. Here was
a new temptation. The roof of a piazza, built
out from a second story, came up to within a foot
of the window-sill. He had often ventured upon
this roof, and he sprung out upon it again without
a moment’s hesitation or reflection, and running
along, with the lightness of a cat, gained the roof
of the back building, which he ascended to the very
apex, and then placed himself astride thereof.
Here he sat for some minutes looking around him and
enjoying the prospect. On the end of the back
building was fastened a strong pole, running up into
the air some ten feet. On the top of this pole
was a bird-box, in which a pair of pigeons had their
nest. Two young pigeons had been hatched out,
and now nearly full-fledged and ready to fly, they
were thrusting their glossy heads from the box, and
looking about from their airy height.
A fluttering of wings, as the mother-bird
returned with food for her young ones, attracted the
attention of Andrew, and looking up, he saw the young
pigeons. Instantly came a desire to remove them
from their nest. But the way to that nest was
too difficult and perilous for him to think of securing
his wish. This was the first impression.
Then he fixed his eye on the nest, and watched the
old bird, as she sat on a ledge that projected from
the box, while she distributed to her younglings the
food she had brought. Thus sat the boy at the
moment his mother left the dining-room with the comfortable
supper she had prepared for him, and there she would
have found him in comparative safety, had she not been
prevented from carrying out the kind promptings of
her heart.
The longer Andrew gazed at the young
birds, the more desirous did he become to get them
in his possession. Over and over again he measured
the height and thickness of the pole with his eyes,
calculating, all the while, his ability to climb it,
and the amount of danger attendant on the adventure.
“I’m sure I could do it,”
said he, at length rising from the place where he
sat and walking with careful step to the edge of the
roof, at the point above which the pole projected.
Grasping the pole firmly, he first leaned his body
over until he could see in a perpendicular line to
the pavement in the yard below, a distance of more
than forty feet. For a moment his head swam, as
he looked from the dizzy height; but he shut his eyes
and clung to the pole until self-possessed again.
Then he looked up at the bird-box and reaching his
hands far above his head, grasped the pole firmly and
drew his body a few inches, upward. Clinging
tightly with his legs to retain the slight elevation
he had acquired, he moved his hands farther along
the pole, and then drew himself higher up. Thus
he progressed until he had reached a point some five
or six feet above the roof, when his strength became
exhausted, and, unable to retain even the position
he had acquired, his body slowly descended the pole,
swinging around to the side opposite the roof.
On reaching the bottom it was as much as he could
do to get himself once more in a position of safety,
where he stood for a few moments, until he could recover
himself. He then tried the ascent again.
This time he nearly reached the box, when his strength
once more failed him, and he had to slide down the
pole as before. But Andrew was not a lad to give
up easily anything he attempted to do. Difficulties
but inspired him to new efforts, and he once more
tried to effect the perilous ascent, firmly resolved
to reach the box at the third trial. In his eagerness,
he became unconscious of all danger, and commenced
clambering up the pole with as much confidence as if
it had been placed on the ground.
Great violence had been done to the
feelings of Mrs. Howland by her husband. His
stern rebuke hurt her exceedingly. She did not
feel that she was doing wrong in yielding to the appeals
of her heart in favor of her wayward, ever-offending
boy. Her mother’s instinct told her, that
he needed kindness, forbearance, and frequent exemption
from punishment; and she felt that it was better for
him to have this, even though in gaining it for him
she acted in violation of her husband’s wishes
and command—yea, even though her child knew
that such was the case. Sadly was she aware of
the fact, that the father’s iron-handed severity
had nearly crushed affection out of the heart of his
child; and that all obedience to him was extorted
under fear of punishment. And she well knew that
her interference in his favor, while it could not
estrange him from his father more than he was already
estranged, would give her greater influence over him
for good. Such were the conclusions of her mind—not
arrived at by cold ratiocination, but by woman’s
shorter way of perception. And she knew that
she was right.
Hurt in her own feelings was she,
by her husband’s harsh, rebuking words, and
sad for the sake of her boy, as she returned to the
dining-room. For some time she remained there,
debating with herself whether she should stealthily
convey something more than the bread and water to
Andrew, or take him the meager supply of food his
father had ordered. In the end her feelings triumphed.
A large slice of cake and an apple were placed in
her pocket. Then with the bread and water she
went up to her son’s chamber.
“Bless me! what a boy!”
fell from the lips of Mrs. Howland, as she pushed
open the door and saw the disordered condition of the
room. The chairs were scattered about the apartment,
and through the caning of one of them was a large
hole. The wash-bowl and pitcher were on the floor,
and a good deal of water spilled around. The
bed-clothes were nearly all dragged off; and it was
plain, from the feathers scattered about, that Andrew
had been amusing himself with jumping on the bed.
Lifting her eyes to the tester, Mrs. Howland saw nearly
a yard of the valance torn away and hanging down.
“Oh, what a boy!” she
again murmured. “He seems possessed with
a spirit of mischief and destruction. Andrew!”
She called the lad’s name, but there was no
answer.
“Andrew! where are you?”
The mother looked searchingly about the room.
But she neither saw the boy nor heard his voice.
Perceiving now that the back-window was open, she
sprung to it with a sudden thrill of alarm. The
first object that caught her sight, was Andrew suspended
in the air on the pole that supported the pigeon-box.
He was just about reaching the object of his perilous
adventure. A wild scream of terror came from
the mother’s lips, ere she had time to think
of self-control. The scream, as it pierced suddenly
the ears of Andrew, startled and unnerved him.
A quick muscular exhaustion followed, and ere he could
recover from the confusion and weakness of the moment,
his hands were dragged from their hold, and he went
flashing down from the eyes of his mother like the
passing of a lightning gleam. Another scream
thrilled on the air, and then Mrs. Howland sunk swooning
to the floor.
Mr. Howland was just stepping into
the yard, when his son fell, crushed by the terrific
fall, at his feet.
“Oh, father!” came in
a voice of anguish from the yet conscious boy, as
he lifted one hand with a feeble effort toward his
parent. Then a deathly whiteness came ever his
face, and he fainted instantly.
On the arrival of a physician it was
found that Andrew’s left arm was broken in two
places, his left ancle dislocated, and two ribs fractured.
As to the internal injury sustained, no estimate could
be made at the time. He did not recover fully
from the state of insensibility into which he lapsed
after the fall, until the work of setting the broken
bones and reducing the dislocation was nearly over.
His first utterance was to ask for his mother.
She was not present, however. Her cries, at seeing
the peril and fall of her child, brought a domestic
to the room, who found her lying insensible upon the
floor. Assistance being called, she was removed
to her own chamber, where she remained, apparently
lifeless for the space of half an hour. When
she recovered, her husband was pacing the chamber
floor with slow, measured steps, and his eyes cast
down.
“Andrew! Is he dead?”
were her first words. She spoke in a low voice,
and with forced composure.
Mr. Howland paused, and approached
the bed on which lay his pale exhausted wife, just
awakened from her death-like unconsciousness.
“No, Esther. He is not dead,” was
calmly replied.
“Is he badly hurt”?
The mother held her breath for a reply.
“Yes, badly, I fear,” answered Mr. Howland,
in the same calm voice.
“Will he live?” almost gasped the mother.
“God only knows,” replied
Mr. Howland. Then glancing his eyes upward piously,
he added, “If it be His will to remove him, I—”
“Oh, Andrew! don’t say
that!” quickly exclaimed the mother. “Don’t
say that!”
“Yes, Esther, I will say it,”
returned Mr. Howland, in a steady voice. “If
it be His good pleasure to remove him, I will not murmur.
He will be safer there than here.”
“Oh, my poor, poor boy!”
sobbed Mrs. Howland. “My poor, poor boy!”
To think that he should come to this? Oh, it was
wrong to send him off as he was sent! to punish him
so severely for a little thing. Heaven knows,
he had suffered enough, unjustly, without having this
added!”
“Esther!” exclaimed Mr. Howland, “this
from you!”
The distressed mother, in the anguish
of her mind, had given utterance to her feelings,
with scarce a thought as to who was her auditor.
The sternly uttered words of her husband subdued her
into silence.
“I did not expect this from
you, Esther,” continued Mr. Howland, severely,
“and at such a time.”
And he stood looking down upon the
mother’s pale face with a rebuking expression
of countenance. Mrs. Howland endured his gaze
only for a few moments, and then buried her face in
the bed-clothes. Her husband, as his eyes remained
fixed upon her form, saw that it was agitated by slight
convulsions, and he knew that she was striving to
suppress the sobs in which her heart was seeking an
utterance. For a little while he stood looking
at her, and then retired, without speaking, from the
chamber, and sought the one where the physician was
yet engaged with Andrew. The lad was insensible
when he left him a short time before; now signs of
returning animation were visible.
“Mother
Where is mother?” he at last said, opening his
eyes, and glancing from face to face of those who were
gathered around him.
“You have nearly killed your
mother,” replied. Mr. Howland, expressing,
without reflection, the feeling of anger toward the
lad that was still in his heart.
An instant change was visible in the
countenance of Andrew; a change that caused the physician
to turn suddenly from his patient and say, in a low,
severe tone—
“Sir! Do you wish to murder your child?”
Mr. Howland felt the rebuke, yet did
not his eyes sink for a moment beneath the steady
gaze of the physician, who, after a moment’s
reflection, added—
“Pray, sir, don’t speak
to your child in this way at the present time.
It may be as much as his life is worth. If he
have done wrong, his punishment has been severe enough,
Heaven knows! How is his mother?”
“Better. She has recovered
from her faintness,” replied Mr. Howland.
The door opened while he was yet speaking,
and Mrs. Howland came in, looking pale and agitated.
The physician raised his finger to enjoin prudence,
and then turning to Andrew said, in a cheerful voice,
“Here is your mother, my boy.”
Mrs. Howland came quickly to the bedside.
As she bent over to kiss the white-faced sufferer,
the child sobbed out—
“Oh mother!—dear mother!”
The mother’s frame quivered
under the pressure of intense feeling, and she was
on the eve of losing all self-control, when the physician
whispered in her ear.
“Be calm, madam—the
life of your child may depend on it!”
Instantly the mother was calm in all
that met the eye. Close to her child she bent,
and with a hand laid gently on his clammy forehead,
she spoke to him words of comfort and encouragement,
while the physician proceeded in the work of bandaging
his broken and injured limbs.
As for Mr. Howland, he walked the
floor with compressed and silent lips, until the physician’s
work was done. He pitied the suffering boy, yet
there was nothing of what he called weakness in his
pity. The idea that Andrew was suffering a just
retribution for his wrong conduct, was distinctly
present to his mind. And he even went so far
as to put up a prayer that the pain he was enduring,
and must for a long time endure, might work in him
a salutary change—might lead to his reformation.
In due time the poor boy was made
as comfortable as the nature of his injuries would
permit, and quiet and order restored to the agitated
family.
“You see, my son, that punishment
always follows evil conduct.” These were
the first words spoken by Mr. Howland to his suffering
boy, as soon as he found himself alone with him.
And then he lectured him on disobedience until the
poor child grew faint.