She saw him again during the following
week and was obliged to tell him that she had not
been able to take her charge to Kensington Gardens
on the morning that he had appointed but that, as the
girl was fond of the place and took pleasure in watching
the children sailing their boats on the Round Pond,
it would be easy to lead her there. He showed
her a photograph of the woman she would find sitting
on a particular bench, and he required she should look
at it long enough to commit the face to memory.
It was that of a quietly elegant woman with gentle
eyes.
“She will call herself Lady
Etynge,” he said. “You are to remember
that you once taught her little girl in Paris.
There must be no haste and no mistakes. It be
well for them to meet—by accident—several
times.”
Later he aid to her:
“When Lady Etynge invites her
to go to her house, you will, of course, go with her.
You will not stay. Lady Etynge will tell you
what to do.”
In words, he did not involve himself
by giving any hint of his intentions. So far
as expression went, he might have had none, whatever.
Her secret conclusion was that he knew, if he could
see the girl under propitious circumstances—at
the house of a clever and sympathetic acquaintance,
he need have no shadow of a doubt as to the result
of his efforts to please her. He knew she was
a lonely, romantic creature, who had doubtless read
sentimental books and been allured by their heroes.
She was, of course, just ripe for young peerings into
the land of love making. His had been no peerings,
thought the pale Hirsch sadly. What girl—or
woman—could resist the alluring demand of
his drooping eyes, if he chose to allow warmth to
fill them? Thinking of it, she almost gnashed
her teeth. Did she not see how he would look,
bending his high head and murmuring to a woman who
shook with joy under his gaze? Had she not seen
it in her own forlorn, hopeless dreams?
What did it matter if what the world
calls disaster befell the girl? Fraulein Hirsch
would not have called it disaster. Any woman
would have been paid a thousand times over. His
fancy might last a few months. Perhaps he would
take her to Berlin—or to some lovely secret
spot in the mountains where he could visit her.
What heaven—what heaven! She wept,
hiding her face on her hot, dry hands.
But it would not last long—and
he would again think only of the immense work—the
august Machine, of which he was a mechanical part—and
he would be obliged to see and talk to her, Mathilde
Hirsch, having forgotten the rest. She could only
hold herself decently in check by telling herself
again and again that it was only natural that such
things should come and go in his magnificent life,
and that the sooner it began the sooner it would end.
It was a lovely morning when her pupil
walked with her in Kensington Gardens, and, quite
naturally, strolled towards the Round Pond. Robin
was happy because there were flutings of birds in the
air, gardeners were stuffing crocuses and hyacinths
into the flower beds, there were little sweet scents
floating about and so it was Spring. She pulled
a bare looking branch of a lilac bush towards her
and stooped and kissed the tiny brown buttons upon
it, half shyly.
“I can’t help it when
I see the first ones swelling on the twigs. They
are working so hard to break out into green,”
she said. “One loves everything at this
time—everything! Look at the children
round the pond. That fat, little boy in a reefer
and brown leather leggings is bursting with joy.
Let us go and praise his boat, Fraulein.”
They went and Robin praised the boat
until its owner was breathless with rapture.
Fraulein Hirsch, standing near her, looked furtively
at all the benches round the circle, giving no incautiously
interested glance to any one of them in particular.
Presently, however, she said:
“I think that is Lady Etynge
sitting on the third bench from here. I said
to you that I had heard she was in London. I wonder
if her daughter is still in the Convent at Tours?”
When Robin returned, she saw a quiet
woman in perfect mourning recognize Fraulein Hirsch
with a a bow and smile which seemed to require nearer
approach.
“We must go and speak to her.”
Fraulein Hirsch said. “I know she wil wish
me to present you. She is fond of young girls—because
of Helene.”
Robin went forward prettily.
The woman was gentle looking and attracting.
She had a sweet manner and was very kind to Fraulein
Hirsch. She seemed to know her well and to like
her. Her daughter, Helene, was still in the Convent
at Tours but was expected home very shortly.
She would be glad to find that Fraulein Hirsch was
in London.
“I have turned the entire top
story of my big house into a pretty suite for her.
She has a fancy for living high above the street,”
smiled Lady Etynge, indulgently. Perhaps she was
a “Mother” person, Robin thought.
Both her looks and talk were kind,
and she was very nice in her sympathetic interest
in the boats and the children’s efforts to sail
them.
“I often bring my book here
and forget to read, because I find I am watching them,”
she said. “They are so eager and so triumphant
when a boat gets across the Pond.”
She went away very soon and Robin
watched her out of sight with interest.
They saw her again a few days later
and talked a little more. She was not always
near the Pond when they came, and they naturally did
not go there each time they walked together, though
Fraulein Hirsch was fond of sitting and watching the
children.
She had been to take tea with her
former employer, she told Robin one day, and she was
mildly excited by the preparations for Helene, who
had been educated entirely in a French convent and
was not like an English girl at all. She had
always been very delicate and the nuns seemed to know
how to take care of her and calm her nerves with their
quiet ways.
“Her mother is rather anxious
about her coming to London. She has, of course,
no young friends here and she is so used to the quiet
of convent life,” the Fraulein explained.
“That is why the rooms at the top of the house
have been arranged for her. She will hear so
little sound. I confess I am anxious about her
myself. Lady Etynge is wondering if she can find
a suitable young companion to live in the house with
her. She must be a young lady and perfectly educated—and
with brightness and charm. Not a person like myself,
but one who can be treated as an equal and a friend—almost
a playmate.”
“It would be an agreeable position,”
commented Robin, thoughtfully.
“Extremely so,” answered
Fraulein Hirsch. “Helene is a most lovable
and affectionate girl. And Lady Etynge is rich
enough to pay a large salary. Helene is her idol.
The suite of rooms is perfect. In Germany, girls
are not spoiled in that way. It is not considered
good for them.”
It was quite natural, since she felt
an interest in Helene, that, on their next meeting,
Robin should find pleasure in sitting on the green
bench near the girl’s mother and hear her speak
of her daughter. She was not diffuse or intimate
in her manner. Helene first appeared in the talk
as a result of a polite inquiry made by Fraulein Hirsch.
Robin gathered, as she listened, that this particular
girl was a tenderly loved and cared for creature and
was herself gentle and intelligent and loving.
She sounded like the kind of a girl one would be glad
to have for a friend. Robin wondered and wondered—if
she would “do.” Perhaps, out of tactful
consideration for the feelings of Fraulein Hirsch who
would not “do”—because she
was neither bright, nor pretty, nor a girl—Lady
Etynge touched but lightly on her idea that she might
find a sort of sublimated young companion for her
daughter.
“It would be difficult to advertise
for what one wants,” she said.
“Yes. To state that a girl
must be clever and pretty and graceful, and attractive,
would make it difficult for a modest young lady to
write a suitable reply,” said Fraulein Hirsch
grimly, and both Lady Etynge and Robin smiled.
“Among your own friends,”
Lady Etynge said to Robin, a little pathetically in
her yearning, “do you know of anyone—who
might know of anyone who would fit in? Sometimes
there are poor little cousins, you know?”
“Or girls who have an independent
spirit and would like to support themselves,”
said the Fraulein. “There are such girls
in these advanced times.”
“I am afraid I don’t know
anyone,” answered Robin. Modesty also prevented
her from saying that she thought she did. She
herself was well educated, she was good tempered and
well bred, and she had known for some time that she
was pretty.
“Perhaps Fraulein Hirsch may
bring you in to have tea with me some afternoon when
you are out,” Lady Etynge said kindly before
she left them. “I think you would like
to see Helene’s rooms. I should be glad
to hear what another girl thinks of them.”
Robin was delighted. Perhaps
this was a way opening to her. She talked to
Mademoiselle Valle about it and so glowed with hope
that Mademoiselle’s heart was moved.
“Do you think I might go?”
she said. “Do you think there is any chance
that I might be the right person? Am I nice
enough—and well enough educated, and are
my manners good?”
She did not know exactly where Lady
Etynge lived, but believed it was one of those big
houses in a certain dignified “Place”
they both knew—a corner house, she was sure,
because—by mere chance—she had
one day seen Lady Etynge go into such a house as if
it were her own. She did not know the number,
but they could ask Fraulein.
Fraulein Hirsch was quite ready with
detail concerning her former patroness and her daughter.
She obviously admired them very much. Her manner
held a touch of respectful reverence. She described
Helene’s disposition and delicate nerves and
the perfection of the nuns’ treatment of her.
She described the beauty of the interior
of the house, its luxury and convenience, and the
charms of the suite of apartments prepared for Helene.
She thought the number of the house was No. 97 A. Lady
Etynge was the kindest employer she had ever had.
She believed that Miss Gareth-Lawless and Helene would
be delighted with each other, if they met, and her
impression was that Lady Etynge privately hoped they
would become friends.
Her mild, flat face was so modestly
amiable that Mademoiselle Valle, who always felt her
unattractive femininity pathetic, was a little moved
by her evident pleasure in having been the humble
means of providing Robin with acquaintances of an advantageous
kind.
No special day had been fixed upon
for the visit and the cup of tea. Robin was eager
in secret and hoped Lady Etynge would not forget to
remind them of her invitation.
She did not forget. One afternoon—they
had not seen her for several days and had not really
expected to meet her, because they took their walk
later than usual—they found her just rising
from her seat to go home as they appeared.
“Our little encounters almost
assume the air of appointments,” she said.
“This is very nice, but I am just going away,
I am sorry to say. I wonder—”
she paused a moment, and then looked at Fraulein Hirsch
pleasantly; “I wonder if, in about an hour, you
would bring Miss Gareth-Lawless to me to have tea
and tell me if she thinks Helene will like her new
rooms. You said you would like to see them,”
brightly to Robin.
“You are very kind. I should
like it so much,” was Robin’s answer.
Fraulein Hirsch was correctly appreciative
of the condescension shown to her. Her manner
was the perfection of the exact shade of unobtrusive
chaperonship. There was no improper suggestion
of a mistaken idea that she was herself a guest, or,
indeed, anything, in fact, but a proper appendage
to her charge. Robin had never been fond of Fraulein
as she was fond of Mademoiselle and Dowie, still she
was not only an efficient teacher, but also a good
walker and very fond of long tramps, which Mademoiselle
was really not strong enough for, but which Robin’s
slender young legs rejoiced in.
The two never took cabs or buses,
but always walked everywhere. They walked on
this occasion, and, about an hour later, arrived at
a large, corner house in Berford Place. A tall
and magnificently built footman opened the door for
them, and they were handed into a drawing room much
grander than the one Robin sometimes glanced into
as she passed it, when she was at home. A quite
beautiful tea equipage awaited them on a small table,
but Lady Etynge was not in the room.
“What a beautiful house to live
in,” said Robin, “but, do you know, the
number isn’t 97 A. I looked as we came in,
and it is No. 25.”
“Is it? I ought to have
been more careful,” answered Fraulein Hirsch.
“It is wrong to be careless even in small matters.”
Almost immediately Lady Etynge came
in and greeted them, with a sort of gentle delight.
She drew Robin down on to a sofa beside her and took
her hand and gave it a light pat which was a caress.
“Now you really are here,”
she said, “I have been so busy that I have been
afraid I should not have time to show you the rooms
before it was too late to make a change, if you thought
anything might be improved.”
“I am sure nothing can improve
them,” said Robin, more dewy-eyed than usual
and even a thought breathless, because this was really
a sort of adventure, and she longed to ask if, by any
chance, she would “do.” And she was
so afraid that she might lose this amazingly good
opportunity, merely because she was too young and
inexperienced to know how she ought to broach the subject.
She had not thought yet of asking Mademoiselle Valle
how it should be done.
She was not aware that she looked
at Lady Etynge with a heavenly, little unconscious
appeal, which made her enchanting. Lady Etynge
looked at her quite fixedly for an instant.
“What a child you are!
And what a colour your cheeks and lips are!”
she said. “You are much—much
prettier than Helene, my dear.”
She got up and brought a picture from
a side table to show it to her.
“I think she is lovely,”
she said. “Is it became I am her mother?”
“Oh, no! Not because you
are her mother!” exclaimed Robin. “She
is angelic!”
She was rather angelic, with her delicate
uplifted face and her communion veil framing it mistily.
The picture was placed near them and
Robin looked at is many times as they took their tea.
To be a companion to a girl with a face like that
would be almost too much to ask of one’s luck.
There was actual yearning in Robin’s heart.
Suddenly she realized that she had missed something
all her life, without knowing that she missed it.
It was the friendly nearness of youth like her own.
How she hoped that she might make Lady Etynge like
her. After tea was over, Lady Etynge spoke pleasantly
to Fraulein Hirsch.
“I know that you wanted to register
a letter. There is a post-office just around
the corner. Would you like to go and register
it while I take Miss Gareth-Lawless upstairs?
You have seen the rooms. You will only be away
a few minutes.”
Fraulein Hirsch was respectfully appreciative
again. The letter really was important.
It contained money which she sent monthly to her parents.
This month she was rather late, and she would be very
glad to be allowed to attend to the matter without
losing a post.
So she went out of the drawing-room
and down the stairs, and Robin heard the front door
close behind her with a slight thud. She had
evidently opened and closed it herself without waiting
for the footman.
The upper rooms in London houses—even
in the large ones—are usually given up
to servants’ bedrooms, nurseries, and school
rooms. Stately staircases become narrower as they
mount, and the climber gets glimpses of apartments
which are frequently bare, whatsoever their use, and,
if not grubby in aspect, are dull and uninteresting.
But, in Lady Etynge’s house,
it was plain that a good deal had been done.
Stairs had been altered and widened, walls had been
given fresh and delicate tints, and one laid one’s
hand on cream white balustrades and trod on soft carpets.
A good architect had taken interest in the problems
presented to him, and the result was admirable.
Partitions must have been removed to make rooms larger
and of better shape.
“Nothing could be altered without
spoiling it!” exclaimed Robin, standing in the
middle of a sitting room, all freshness and exquisite
colour—the very pictures on the wall being
part of the harmony.
All that a girl would want or love
was there. There was nothing left undone—unremembered.
The soft Chesterfield lounge, which was not too big
and was placed near the fire, the writing table, the
books, the piano of satinwood inlaid with garlands;
the lamp to sit and read by.
“How glad she must be to come
back to anyone who loves her so,” said Robin.
Here was a quilted basket with three
Persian kittens purring in it, and she knelt and stroked
their fluffiness, bending her slim neck and showing
how prettily the dark hair grew up from it. It
was, perhaps, that at which Lady Etynge was looking
as she stood behind her and watched her. The
girl-nymph slenderness and flexibility of her leaning
body was almost touchingly lovely.
There were several other rooms and
each one was, in its way, more charming than the other.
A library in Dresden blue and white, and with peculiarly
pretty windows struck the last note of cosiness.
All the rooms had pretty windows with rather small
square panes enclosed in white frames.
It was when she was in this room that
Robin took her courage in her hands. She must
not let her chance go by. Lady Etynge was so
kind. She wondered if it would seem gauche and
too informal to speak now.
She stood quite upright and still,
though her voice was not quite steady when she began.
“Lady Etynge,” she said,
“you remember what Fraulein Hirsch said about
girls who wish to support themselves? I—I
am one of them. I want very much to earn my own
living. I think I am well educated. I have
been allowed to read a good deal and my teachers, Mademoiselle
Valle and Fraulein Hirsch, say I speak and write French
and German well for an English girl. If you thought
I could be a suitable companion for Miss Etynge, I—should
be very happy.”
How curiously Lady Etynge watched
her as she spoke. She did not look displeased,
but there was something in her face which made Robin
afraid that she was, perhaps, after all, not the girl
who was fortunate enough to quite “do.”
She felt her hopes raised a degree,
however, when Lady Etynge smiled at her.
“Do you know, I feel that is
very pretty of you!” she said. “It
quite delights me—as I am an idolizing mother—that
my mere talk of Helene should have made you like her
well enough to think you might care to live with her.
And I confess I am modern enough to be pleased with
your wishing to earn your own living.”
“I must,” said Robin.
“I must! I could not bear not to earn
it!” She spoke a little suddenly, and a flag
of new colour fluttered in her cheek.
“When Helene comes, you must
meet. If you like each other, as I feel sure
you will, and if Mrs. Gareth-Lawless does not object—if
it remains only a matter of being suitable—you
are suitable, my dear—you are suitable.”
She touched Robin’s hand with
the light pat which was a caress, and the child was
radiant.
“Oh, you are kind to me!”
The words broke from her involuntarily. “And
it is such good fortune! Thank you, thank
you, Lady Etynge.”
The flush of her joy and relief had
not died out before the footman, who had opened the
door, appeared on the threshold. He was a handsome
young fellow, whose eyes were not as professionally
impassive as his face. A footman had no right
to dart a swift side look at one as people did in
the street. He did dart such a glance. Robin
saw, and she was momentarily struck by its being one
of those she sometimes objected to.
Otherwise his manner was without flaw.
He had only come to announce to his mistress the arrival
of a caller.
When Lady Etynge took the card from
the salver, her expression changed. She even
looked slightly disturbed.
“Oh, I am sorry,” she
murmured, “I must see her,” lifting her
eyes to Robin. “It is an old friend merely
passing through London. How wicked of me to forget
that she wrote to say that she might dash in at any
hour.”
“Please!” pled Robin,
prettily. “I can run away at once.
Fraulein Hirsch must have come back. Please—”
“The lady asked me particularly
to say that she has only a few minutes to stay, as
she is catching a train,” the footman decorously
ventured.
“If that is the case,”
Lady Etynge said, even relievedly, “I will leave
you here to look at things until I come back.
I really want to talk to you a little more about yourself
and Helene. I can’t let you go.”
She looked back from the door before she passed through
it. “Amuse yourself, my dear,” and
then she added hastily to the man.
“Have you remembered that there
was something wrong with the latch, William?
See if it needs a locksmith.”
“Very good, my lady.”
She was gone and Robin stood by the
sofa thrilled with happiness and relief. How
wonderful it was that, through mere lucky chance,
she had gone to watch the children sailing their boats!
And that Fraulein Hirsch had seen Lady Etynge!
What good luck and how grateful she was! The
thought which passed through her mind was like a little
prayer of thanks. How strange it would be to be
really intimate with a girl like herself—or
rather like Helene. It made her heart beat to
think of it. How wonderful it would be if Helene
actually loved her, and she loved Helene. Something
sprang out of some depths of her being where past
things were hidden. The something was a deadly
little memory. Donal! Donal! It would
be—if she loved Helene and Helene loved
her—as new a revelation as Donal.
Oh! she remembered.
She heard the footman doing something
to the latch of the door, which caused it to make
a clicking sound. He was obeying orders and examining
it. As she involuntarily glanced at him, he—bending
over the door handle—raised his eyes sideways
and glanced at her. It was an inexcusable glance
from a domestic, because it was actually as if he
were taking the liberty of privately summing her up—taking
her points in for his own entertainment. She so
resented the unprofessional bad manners of it, that
she turned away and sauntered into the Dresden blue
and white library and sat down with a book.
She was quite relieved, when, only
a few minutes later, he went away having evidently
done what he could.
The book she had picked up was a new
novel and opened with an attention-arresting agreeableness,
which led her on. In fact it led her on further
and, for a longer time than she was aware of.
It was her way to become wholly absorbed in books when
they allured her; she forgot her surroundings and
forgot the passing of time. This was a new book
by a strong man with the gift which makes alive people,
places, things. The ones whose lives had taken
possession of his being in this story were throbbing
with vital truth.
She read on and on because, from the
first page, she knew them as actual pulsating human
creatures. They looked into her face, they laughed,
she heard their voices, she cared for every trivial
thing that happened to them—to any of them.
If one of them picked a flower, she saw how he or
she held it and its scent was in the air.
Having been so drawn on into a sort
of unconsciousness of all else, it was inevitable
that, when she suddenly became aware that she did
not see her page quite clearly, she should withdraw
her eyes from her page and look about her. As
she did so, she started from her comfortable chair
in amazement and some alarm. The room had become
so much darker that it must be getting late. How
careless and silly she had been. Where was Fraulein
Hirsch?
“I am only a strange girl and
Lady Etynge might so easily have forgotten me,”
passed through her mind. “Her friend may
have stayed and they may have had so much to talk
about, that, of coarse, I was forgotten. But
Fraulein Hirsch—how could she!”
Then, remembering the subservient
humility of the Fraulein’s mind, she wondered
if it could have been possible that she had been too
timid to do more than sit waiting—in the
hall, perhaps—afraid to allow the footman
to disturb Lady Etynge by asking her where her pupil
was. The poor, meek, silly thing.
“I must get away without disturbing
anyone,” she thought, “I will slip downstairs
and snatch Fraulein Hirsch from her seat and we will
go quietly out. I can write a nice note to Lady
Etynge tomorrow, and explain. I hope she
won’t mind having forgotten me. I must
make her feel sure that it did not matter in the least.
I’ll tell her about the book.”
She replaced the book on the shelf
from which she had taken it and passed through into
the delightful sitting room. The kittens were
playing together on the hearth, having deserted their
basket. One of them gave a soft, airy pounce
after her and caught at her dress with tiny claws,
rolling over and over after his ineffectual snatch.
She had not heard the footman close
the door when he left the room, but she found he must
have done so, as it was now shut. When she turned
the handle it did not seem to work well, because the
door did not open as it ought to have done. She
turned it again and gave it a little pull, but it
still remained tightly shut. She turned it again,
still with no result, and then she tried the small
latch. Perhaps the man had done some blundering
thing when he had been examining it. She remembered
hearing several clicks. She turned the handle
again and again. There was no key in the keyhole,
so he could not have bungled with the key. She
was quite aghast at the embarrassment of the situation.
“How can I get out without
disturbing anyone, if I cannot open the door!”
she said. “How stupid I shall seem to Lady
Etynge! She won’t like it. A girl
who could forget where she was—and then
not be able to open a door and be obliged to bang
until people come!”
Suddenly she remembered that there
had been a door in the bedroom which had seemed to
lead out into the hall. She ran into the room
in such a hurry that all three kittens ran frisking
after her. She saw she had not been mistaken.
There was a door. She went to it and turned the
handle, breathless with excitement and relief.
But the handle of that door also would not open it.
Neither would the latch. And there was no key.
“Oh!” she gasped. “Oh!”
Then she remembered the electric bell
near the fireplace in the sitting room. There
was one by the fireplace here, also. No, she
would ring the one in the sitting room. She went
to it and pressed the button. She could not hear
the ghost of a sound and one could generally hear
something like one. She rang again and waited.
The room was getting darker. Oh, how could
Fraulein Hirsch—how could she?
She waited—she waited.
Fifteen minutes by her little watch—twenty
minutes—and, in their passing, she rang
again. She rang the bell in the library and the
one in the bedroom—even the one in the
bathroom, lest some might be out of order. She
slowly ceased to be embarrassed and self-reproachful
and began to feel afraid, though she did not know
quite what she was afraid of. She went to one
of the windows to look at her watch again in the vanishing
light, and saw that she had been ringing the bells
for an hour. She automatically put up a hand
and leaned against the white frame of one of the decorative
small panes of glass. As she touched it, she
vaguely realized that it was of such a solidity that
it felt, not like wood but iron. She drew her
hand away quickly, feeling a sweep of unexplainable
fear—yes, it was fear. And why
should she so suddenly feel it? She went back
to the door and tried again to open it—as
ineffectively as before. Then she began to feel
a little cold and sick. She returned to the Chesterfield
and sat down on it helplessly.
“It seems as if—I
had been locked in!” she broke out, in a faint,
bewildered wail of a whisper. “Oh, why—did
they lock the doors!”