Before Robin had been taken to the
seaside to be helped by the bracing air of the Norfolk
coast to recover her lost appetite and forget her
small tragedy, she had observed that unaccustomed
things were taking place in the house. Workmen
came in and out through the mews at the back and brought
ladders with them and tools in queer bags. She
heard hammerings which began very early in the morning
and went on all day. As Andrews had trained her
not to ask tiresome questions, she only crept now
and then to a back window and peeped out. But
in a few days Dowson took her away.
When she came back to London, she
was not taken up the steep dark stairs to the third
floor. Dowson led her into some rooms she had
never seen before. They were light and airy and
had pretty walls and furniture. A sitting-room
on the ground floor had even a round window with plants
in it and a canary bird singing in a cage.
“May we stay here?” she asked Dowson in
a whisper.
“We are going to live here,” was the answer.
And so they did.
At first Feather occasionally took
her intimates to see the additional apartments.
“In perfect splendour is the
creature put up, and I with a bedroom like a coalhole
and such drawing-rooms as you see each time you enter
the house!” she broke forth spitefully one day
when she forgot herself.
She said it to the Starling and Harrowby,
who had been simply gazing about them in fevered mystification,
because the new development was a thing which must
invoke some more or less interesting explanation.
At her outbreak, all they could do was to gaze at her
with impartial eyes, which suggested question, and
Feather shrugged pettish shoulders.
“You knew I didn’t
do it. How could I?” she said. “It
is a queer whim of Coombe’s. Of course,
it is not the least like him. I call it morbid.”
After which people knew about the
matter and found it a subject for edifying and quite
stimulating discussion. There was something fantastic
in the situation. Coombe was the last man on earth
to have taken the slightest notice of the child’s
existence! It was believed that he had never
seen her—except in long clothes—until
she had glared at him and put her hand behind her back
the night she was brought into the drawing-room.
She had been adroitly kept tucked away in an attic
somewhere. And now behold an addition of several
wonderful, small rooms built, furnished and decorated
for her alone, where she was to live as in a miniature
palace attended by servitors! Coombe, as a purveyor
of nursery appurtenances, was regarded with humour,
the general opinion being that the eruption of a volcano
beneath his feet alone could have awakened his somewhat
chill self-absorption to the recognition of any child’s
existence.
“To be exact we none of us really
know anything in particular about his mental processes.”
Harrowby pondered aloud. “He’s capable
of any number of things we might not understand, if
he condescended to tell us about them—which
he would never attempt. He has a remote, brilliantly
stored, cynical mind. He owns that he is of an
inhuman selfishness. I haven’t a suggestion
to make, but it sets one searching through the purlieus
of one’s mind for an approximately reasonable
explanation.”
“Why ’purlieus’?”
was the Starling’s inquiry. Harrowby shrugged
his shoulders ever so lightly.
“Well, one isn’t searching
for reasons founded on copy-book axioms,” he
shook his head. “Coombe? No.”
There was a silence given to occult thought.
“Feather is really in a rage
and is too Feathery to be able to conceal it,”
said Starling.
“Feather would be—inevitably,”
Harrowby lifted his near-sighted eyes to her curiously.
“Can you see Feather in the future—when
Robin is ten years older?”
“I can,” the Starling answered.
* * * *
*
The years which followed were changing
years—growing years. Life and entertainment
went on fast and furiously in all parts of London,
and in no part more rapidly than in the slice of a
house whose front always presented an air of having
been freshly decorated, in spite of summer rain and
winter soot and fog. The plants in the window
boxes seemed always in bloom, being magically replaced
in the early morning hours when they dared to hint
at flagging. Mrs. Gareth-Lawless, it was said,
must be renewed in some such mysterious morning way,
as she merely grew prettier as she neared thirty and
passed it. Women did in these days! Which
last phrase had always been a useful one, probably
from the time of the Flood. Old fogeys, male
and female, had used it in the past as a means of
scathingly unfavourable comparison, growing flushed
and almost gobbling like turkey cocks in their indignation.
Now, as a phrase, it was a support and a mollifier.
“In these days” one knew better how to
amuse oneself, was more free to snatch at agreeable
opportunity, less in bondage to old fancies which
had called themselves beliefs; everything whirled
faster and more lightly—danced, two-stepped,
instead of marching.
Robin vaguely connected certain changes
in her existence with the changes which took place
in the fashion of sleeves and skirts which appeared
to produce radical effects in the world she caught
glimpses of. Sometimes sleeves were closely fitted
to people’s arms, then puffs sprang from them
and grew until they were enormous and required delicate
manipulation when coats were put on; then their lavishness
of material fell from the shoulder to the wrists and
hung there swaying until some sudden development of
skirt seemed to distract their attention from themselves
and they shrank into unimportance and skirts changed
instead. Afterwards, sometimes figures were slim
and encased in sheathlike draperies, sometimes folds
rippled about feet, “fullness” crept here
or there or disappeared altogether, trains grew longer
or shorter or wider or narrower, cashmeres, grosgrain
silks and heavy satins were suddenly gone and chiffon
wreathed itself about the world and took possession
of it. Bonnets ceased to exist and hats were immense
or tiny, tall or flat, tilted at the back, at the
side, at the front, worn over the face or dashingly
rolled back from it; feathers drooped or stood upright
at heights which rose and fell and changed position
with the changing seasons. No garment or individual
wore the same aspect for more than a month’s
time. It was necessary to change all things with
a rapidity matching the change of moods and fancies
which altered at the rate of the automobiles which
dashed here and there and everywhere, through country
roads, through town, through remote places with an
unsparing swiftness which set a new pace for the world.
“I cannot hark back regretfully
to stage coaches,” said Lord Coombe. “Even
I was not born early enough for that. But in the
days of my youth and innocence express trains seemed
almost supernatural. One could drive a pair of
horses twenty miles to make a country visit, but one
could not drive back the same day. One’s
circle had its limitations and degrees of intimacy.
Now it is possible motor fifty miles to lunch and
home to dine with guests from the remotest corners
of the earth. Oceans are crossed in six days,
and the eager flit from continent to continent.
Engagements can be made by cable and the truly enterprising
can accept an invitation to dine in America on a fortnight’s
notice. Telephones communicate in a few seconds
and no one is secure from social intercourse for fifteen
minutes. Acquaintances and correspondence have
no limitations because all the inhabitants of the
globe can reach one by motor or electricity.
In moments of fatigue I revert to the days of Queen
Anne with pleasure.”
While these changes went on, Robin
lived in her own world in her own quarters at the
rear of the slice of a house. During the early
years spent with Dowson, she learned gradually that
life was a better thing than she had known in the
dreary gloom of the third floor Day and Night Nurseries.
She was no longer left to spend hours alone, nor was
she taken below stairs to listen blankly to servants
talking to each other of mysterious things with which
she herself and the Lady Downstairs and “him”
were somehow connected, her discovery of this fact
being based on the dropping of voices and sidelong
glances at her and sudden warning sounds from Andrews.
She realized that Dowson would never pinch her, and
the rooms she lived in were pretty and bright.
Gradually playthings and picture books
appeared in them, which she gathered Dowson presented
her with. She gathered this from Dowson herself.
She had never played with the doll,
and, by chance a day arriving when Lord Coombe encountered
Dowson in the street without her charge, he stopped
her again and spoke as before.
“Is the little girl well and happy, Nurse?”
he asked.
“Quite well, my lord, and much happier than
she used to be.”
“Did she,” he hesitated
slightly, “like the playthings you bought her?”
Dowson hesitated more than slightly
but, being a sensible woman and at the same time curious
about the matter, she spoke the truth.
“She wouldn’t play with
them at all, my lord. I couldn’t persuade
her to. What her child’s fancy was I don’t
know.”
“Neither do I—except
that it is founded on a distinct dislike,” said
Coombe. There was a brief pause. “Are
you fond of toys yourself, Dowson?” he inquired
coldly.
“I am that—and I
know how to choose them, your lordship,” replied
Dowson, with a large, shrewd intelligence.
“Then oblige me by throwing
away the doll and its accompaniments and buying some
toys for yourself, at my expense. You can present
them to Miss Robin as a personal gift. She will
accept them from you.”
He passed on his way and Dowson looked
after him interestedly.
“If she was his,” she
thought, “I shouldn’t be puzzled.
But she’s not—that I’ve ever
heard of. He’s got some fancy of his own
the same as Robin has, though you wouldn’t think
it to look at him. I’d like to know what
it is.”
It was a fancy—an old,
old fancy—it harked back nearly thirty
years—to the dark days of youth and passion
and unending tragedy whose anguish, as it then seemed,
could never pass—but which, nevertheless,
had faded with the years as they flowed by. And
yet left him as he was and had been. He was not
sentimental about it, he smiled at himself drearily—though
never at the memory—when it rose again
and, through its vague power, led him to do strange
things curiously verging on the emotional and eccentric.
But even the child—who quite loathed him
for some fantastic infant reason of her own—even
the child had her part in it. His soul oddly
withdrew itself into a far remoteness as he walked
away and Piccadilly became a shadow and a dream.
Dowson went home and began to pack
neatly in a box the neglected doll and the toys which
had accompanied her. Robin seeing her doing it,
asked a question.
“Are they going back to the shop?”
“No. Lord Coombe is letting
me give them to a little girl who is very poor and
has to lie in bed because her back hurts her.
His lordship is so kind he does not want you to be
troubled with them. He is not angry. He
is too good to be angry.”
That was not true, thought Robin.
He had done that thing she remembered!
Goodness could not have done it. Only badness.
When Dowson brought in a new doll
and other wonderful things, a little hand enclosed
her wrist quite tightly as she was unpacking the boxes.
It was Robin’s and the small creature looked
at her with a questioning, half appealing, half fierce.
“Did he send them, Dowson?”
“They are a present from me,”
Dowson answered comfortably, and Robin said again,
“I want to kiss you. I like to kiss you.
I do.”
To those given to psychical interests
and speculations, it might have suggested itself that,
on the night when the creature who had seemed to Andrews
a soft tissued puppet had suddenly burst forth into
defiance and fearless shrillness, some cerebral change
had taken place in her. From that hour her softness
had become a thing of the past. Dowson had not
found a baby, but a brooding, little, passionate being.
She was neither insubordinate nor irritable, but Dowson
was conscious of a certain intensity of temperament
in her. She knew that she was always thinking
of things of which she said almost nothing. Only
a sensible motherly curiosity, such as Dowson’s
could have made discoveries, but a rare question put
by the child at long intervals sometimes threw a faint
light. There were questions chiefly concerning
mothers and their habits and customs. They were
such as, in their very unconsciousness, revealed a
strange past history. Lights were most unconsciously
thrown by Mrs. Gareth-Lawless herself. Her quite
amiable detachment from all shadow of responsibility,
her brilliantly unending occupations, her goings in
and out, the flocks of light, almost noisy, intimates
who came in and out with her revealed much to a respectable
person who had soberly watched the world.
“The Lady Downstairs is my mother,
isn’t she?” Robin inquired gravely once.
“Yes, my dear,” was Dowson’s answer.
A pause for consideration of the matter and then from
Robin:
“All mothers are not alike, Dowson, are they?”
“No, my dear,” with wisdom.
Though she was not yet seven, life
had so changed for her that it was a far cry back
to the Spring days in the Square Gardens. She
went back, however, back into that remote ecstatic
past.
“The Lady Downstairs is not—alike,”
she said at last, “Donal’s mother loved
him. She let him sit in the same chair with her
and read in picture books. She kissed him when
he was in bed.”
Jennings, the young footman who was
a humourist, had, of course, heard witty references
to Robin’s love affair while in attendance,
and he had equally, of course, repeated them below
stairs. Therefore,
Dowson had heard vague rumours but
had tactfully refrained from mentioning the subject
to her charge.
“Who was Donal?” she said
now, but quite quietly. Robin did not know that
a confidante would have made her first agony easier
to bear. She was not really being confidential
now, but, realizing Dowson’s comfortable kindliness,
she knew that it would be safe to speak to her.
“He was a big boy,” she
answered keeping her eyes on Dowson’s face.
“He laughed and ran and jumped. His eyes—”
she stopped there because she could not explain what
she had wanted to say about these joyous young eyes,
which were the first friendly human ones she had known.
“He lives in Scotland,”
she began again. “His mother loved him.
He kissed me. He went away. Lord Coombe sent
him.”
Dawson could not help her start.
“Lord Coombe!” she exclaimed.
Robin came close to her and ground
her little fist into her knee, until its plumpness
felt almost bruised.
“He is bad—bad—bad!”
and she looked like a little demon.
Being a wise woman, Dowson knew at
once that she had come upon a hidden child volcano,
and it would be well to let it seethe into silence.
She was not a clever person, but long experience had
taught her that there were occasions when it was well
to leave a child alone. This one would not answer
if she were questioned. She would only become
stubborn and furious, and no child should be goaded
into fury. Dowson had, of course, learned that
the boy was a relative of his lordship’s and
had a strict Scottish mother who did not approve of
the slice of a house. His lordship might have
been concerned in the matter—or he might
not. But at least Dowson had gained a side light.
And how the little thing had cared! Actually
as if she had been a grown girl, Dowson found herself
thinking uneasily.
She was rendered even a trifle more
uneasy a few days later when she came upon Robin sitting
in a corner on a footstool with a picture book on
her knee, and she recognized it as the one she had
discovered during her first exploitation of the resources
of the third floor nursery. It was inscribed “Donal”
and Robin was not looking at it alone, but at something
she held in her hand—something folded in
a crumpled, untidy bit of paper.
Making a reason for nearing her corner,
Dowson saw what the paper held. The contents
looked like the broken fragments of some dried leaves.
The child was gazing at them with a piteous, bewildered
face—so piteous that Dowson was sorry.
“Do you want to keep those?” she asked.
“Yes,” with a caught breath. “Yes.”
“I will make you a little silk
bag to hold them in,” Dowson said, actually
feeling rather piteous herself. The poor, little
lamb with her picture book and her bits of broken
dry leaves—almost like senna.
She sat down near her and Robin left
her footstool and came to her. She laid the picture
book on her lap and the senna like fragments of leaves
on its open page.
“Donal brought it to show me,”
she quavered. “He made pretty things on
the leaves—with his dirk.” She
recalled too much—too much all at once.
Her eyes grew rounder and larger with inescapable woe;
“Donal did! Donal!” And suddenly she
hid her face deep in Dowson’s skirts and the
tempest broke. She was so small a thing—so
inarticulate—and these were her dead!
Dowson could only catch her in her arms, drag her
up on her knee, and rock her to and fro.
“Good Lord! Good Lord!”
was her inward ejaculation. “And she not
seven! What’ll she do when she’s seventeen!
She’s one of them there’s no help for!”
It was the beginning of an affection.
After this, when Dowson tucked Robin in bed each night,
she kissed her. She told her stories and taught
her to sew and to know her letters. Using some
discretion she found certain little playmates for
her in the Gardens. But there were occasions
when all did not go well, and some pretty, friendly
child, who had played with Robin for a few days, suddenly
seemed to be kept strictly by her nurse’s side.
Once, when she was about ten years old, a newcomer,
a dramatic and too richly dressed little person, after
a day of wonderful imaginative playing appeared in
the Gardens the morning following to turn an ostentatious
cold shoulder.
“What is the matter?” asked Robin.
“Oh, we can’t play with
you any more,” with quite a flounce superiority.
“Why not?” said Robin, becoming haughty
herself.
“We can’t. It’s
because of Lord Coombe.” The little person
had really no definite knowledge of how Lord Coombe
was concerned, but certain servants’ whisperings
of names and mysterious phrases had conveyed quite
an enjoyable effect of unknown iniquity connected
with his lordship.
Robin said nothing to Dowson, but
walked up and down the paths reflecting and building
a slow fire which would continue to burn in her young
heart. She had by then passed the round, soft
baby period and had entered into that phase when bodies
and legs grow long and slender and small faces lose
their first curves and begin to show sharper modeling.
Accepting the situation in its entirety,
Dowson had seen that it was well to first reach Lord
Coombe with any need of the child’s. Afterwards,
the form of presenting it to Mrs. Gareth-Lawless must
be gone through, but if she were first spoken to any
suggestion might be forgotten or intentionally ignored.
Dowson became clever in her calculations
as to when his lordship might be encountered and where—as
if by chance, and therefore, quite respectfully.
Sometimes she remotely wondered if he himself did
not make such encounters easy for her. But his
manner never altered in its somewhat stiff, expressionless
chill of indifference. He never was kindly in
his manner to the child if he met her. Dowson
felt him at once casual and “lofty.”
Robin might have been a bit of unconsidered rubbish,
the sight of which slightly bored him. Yet the
singular fact remained that it was to him one must
carefully appeal.
One afternoon Feather swept him, with
one or two others, into the sitting-room with the
round window in which flowers grew. Robin was
sitting at a low table making pothooks with a lead
pencil on a piece of paper Dowson had given her.
Dowson had, in fact, set her at the task, having heard
from Jennings that his lordship and the other afternoon
tea drinkers were to be brought into the “Palace”
as Feather ironically chose to call it. Jennings
rather liked Dowson, and often told her little things
she wanted to know. It was because Lord Coombe
would probably come in with the rest that Dowson had
set the low, white table in the round windows and
suggested the pothooks.
In course of time there was a fluttering
and a chatter in the corridor. Feather was bringing
some new guests, who had not seen the place before.
“This is where my daughter lives.
She is much grander than I am,” she said.
“Stand up, Miss Robin, and make
your curtsey,” whispered Dowson. Robin
did as she was told, and Mrs. Gareth-Lawless’
pretty brows ran up.
“Look at her legs,” she
said. “She’s growing like Jack and
the Bean Stalk—though, I suppose, it was
only the Bean Stalk that grew. She’ll stick
through the top of the house soon. Look at her
legs, I ask you.”
She always spoke as if the child were
an inanimate object and she had, by this time and
by this means, managed to sweep from Robin’s
mind all the old, babyish worship of her loveliness
and had planted in its place another feeling.
At this moment the other feeling surged and burned.
“They are beautiful legs,”
remarked a laughing young man jocularly, “but
perhaps she does not particularly want us to look at
them. Wait until she begins skirt dancing.”
And everybody laughed at once and the child stood
rigid—the object of their light ridicule—not
herself knowing that her whole little being was cursing
them aloud.
Coombe stepped to the little table
and bestowed a casual glance on the pencil marks.
“What is she doing?” he asked as casually
of Dowson.
“She is learning to make pothooks,
my lord,” Dowson answered. “She’s
a child that wants to be learning things. I’ve
taught her her letters and to spell little words.
She’s quick—and old enough, your
lordship.”
“Learning to read and write!” exclaimed
Feather.
“Presumption, I call it.
I don’t know how to read and write—least
I don’t know how to spell. Do you know how
to spell, Collie?” to the young man, whose name
was Colin. “Do you, Genevieve? Do you,
Artie?”
“You can’t betray me into
vulgar boasting,” said Collie. “Who
does in these days? Nobody but clerks at Peter
Robinson’s.”
“Lord Coombe does—but
that’s his tiresome superior way,” said
Feather.
“He’s nearly forty years
older than most of you. That is the reason,”
Coombe commented. “Don’t deplore your
youth and innocence.”
They swept through the rooms and examined
everything in them. The truth was that the—by
this time well known—fact that the unexplainable
Coombe had built them made them a curiosity, and a
sort of secret source of jokes. The party even
mounted to the upper story to go through the bedrooms,
and, it was while they were doing this, that Coombe
chose to linger behind with Dowson.
He remained entirely expressionless
for a few moments. Dowson did not in the least
gather whether he meant to speak to her or not.
But he did.
“You meant,” he scarcely
glanced at her, “that she was old enough for
a governess.”
“Yes, my lord,” rather
breathless in her hurry to speak before she heard
the high heels tapping on the staircase again.
“And one that’s a good woman as well as
clever, if I may take the liberty. A good one
if—”
“If a good one would take the place?”
Dowson did not attempt refutation or apology.
She knew better.
He said no more, but sauntered out of the room.
As he did so, Robin stood up and made
the little “charity bob” of a curtsey
which had been part of her nursery education.
She was too old now to have refused him her hand,
but he never made any advances to her. He acknowledged
her curtsey with the briefest nod.
Not three minutes later the high heels
came tapping down the staircase and the small gust
of visitors swept away also.