The slice of a house from that time
forward presented the external aspect to which the
inhabitants of the narrow and fashionable street and
those who passed through it had been accustomed.
Such individuals as had anticipated beholding at some
early day notices conspicuously placed announcing
“Sale by Auction. Elegant Modern Furniture”
were vaguely puzzled as well as surprised by the fact
that no such notices appeared even inconspicuously.
Also there did not draw up before the door—even
as the weeks went on—huge and heavy removal
vans with their resultant litter, their final note
of farewell a “To Let” in the front windows.
On the contrary, the florist came
and refilled the window boxes with an admirable arrangement
of fresh flowers; new and even more correct servants
were to be seen ascending and descending the area
step; a young footman quite as smart as the departed
Edward opened the front door and attended Mrs. Gareth-Lawless
to her perfect little brougham. The trades-people
appeared promptly every day and were obsequiously
respectful in manner. Evidently the household
had not disintegrated as a result of the death of Mr.
Gareth-Lawless.
As it became an established fact that
the household had not fallen to pieces its frequenters
gradually returned to it, wearing indeed the air of
people who had never really remained away from it.
There had been natural reasons enough for considerate
absence from a house of bereavement and a desolate
widow upon whose grief it would have been indelicate
to intrude. As Feather herself had realized,
the circle of her intimates was not formed of those
who could readily adjust themselves to entirely changed
circumstances. If you dance on a tight rope and
the rope is unexpectedly withdrawn, where are you?
You cannot continue dancing until the rope is restrung.
The rope, however, being apparently
made absolutely secure, it was not long before the
dancing began again. Feather’s mourning,
wonderfully shading itself from month to month, was
the joy of all beholders. Madame Helene treated
her as a star gleaming through gradually dispersing
clouds. Her circle watched her with secretly
humorous interest as each fine veil of dimness was
withdrawn.
“The things she wears are priceless,”
was said amiably in her own drawing-room. “Where
does she get them? Figure to yourself Lawdor
paying the bills.”
“She gets them from Helene,”
said a long thin young man with a rather good-looking
narrow face and dark eyes, peering through pince nez,
“But I couldn’t.”
In places where entertainment as a
means of existence proceed so to speak, fast and furiously,
questions of taste are not dwelt upon at leisure.
You need not hesitate before saying anything you liked
in any one’s drawing-room so long as it was amusing
enough to make somebody—if not everybody—laugh.
Feather had made people laugh in the same fashion
in the past. The persons she most admired were
always making sly little impudent comments and suggestions,
and the thwarted years on the island of Jersey had,
in her case, resulted in an almost hectic desire to
keep pace. Her efforts had usually been successes
because Nature’s self had provided her with
the manner of a silly pretty child who did not know
how far she went. Shouts of laughter had often
greeted her, and the first time she had for a moment
doubted her prowess was on an occasion when she had
caught a glimpse of Coombe who stared at her with an
expression which she would—just for one
second—have felt might be horror, if she
had not been so sure it couldn’t be, and must
of course be something else—one of the
things nobody ever understood in him.
By the time the softly swathing veils
of vaporous darkness were withdrawn, and the tight
rope assuring everyone of its permanent security became
a trusted support, Feather at her crowded little parties
and at other people’s bigger ones did not remain
wholly unaware of the probability that even people
who rather liked her made, among themselves, more
or less witty comments upon her improved fortunes.
They were improved greatly. Bills were paid,
trades-people were polite, servants were respectful;
she had no need to invent excuses and lies. She
and Robert had always kept out of the way of stodgy,
critical people, so they had been intimate with none
of the punctilious who might have withdrawn themselves
from a condition of things they chose to disapprove:
accordingly, she found no gaps in her circle.
Those who had formed the habit of amusing themselves
at her house were as ready as before to amuse themselves
again.
The fact remained, however,—curiously,
perhaps, in connection with the usual slightness of
all impressions made on her—that there
was a memory which never wholly left her. Even
when she tried to force it so far into the background
of her existence that it might almost be counted as
forgotten, it had a trick of rising before her.
It was the memory of the empty house as its emptiness
had struck to the centre of her being when she had
turned from her bedroom window after watching the
servants drive away in their cabs. It was also
the memory of the hours which had followed—the
night in which nobody had been in any of the rooms—no
one had gone up or down the stairs—when
all had seemed dark and hollow—except the
Night Nursery where Robin screamed, and her own room
where she herself cowered under the bed clothes and
pulled the pillow over her head. But though the
picture would not let itself be blotted out, its effect
was rather to intensify her sense of relief because
she had slipped so safely from under the wheels of
destiny.
“Sometimes,” she revealed
artlessly to Coombe, “while I am driving in
the park on a fine afternoon when every one is out
and the dresses look like the flower beds, I let myself
remember it just to make myself enjoy everything more
by contrast.”
The elderly woman who had been a nurse
in her youth and who had been sent by Lord Coombe
temporarily to replace Louisa had not remained long
in charge of Robin. She was not young and smart
enough for a house on the right side of the right street,
and Feather found a young person who looked exactly
as she should when she pushed the child’s carriage
before her around the square.
The square—out of which
the right street branches—and the “Gardens”
in the middle of the square to which only privileged
persons were admitted by private key, the basement
kitchen and Servants’ Hall, and the two top
floor nurseries represented the world to the child
Robin for some years. When she was old enough
to walk in the street she was led by the hand over
the ground she had travelled daily in her baby carriage.
Her first memory of things was a memory of standing
on the gravel path in the Square Gardens and watching
some sparrows quarrel while Andrews, her nurse, sat
on a bench with another nurse and talked in low tones.
They were talking in a way Robin always connected
with servants and which she naturally accepted as
being the method of expression of their species—much
as she accepted the mewing of cats and the barking
of dogs. As she grew older, she reached the stage
of knowing that they were generally saying things
they did not wish her to hear.
She liked watching the sparrows in
the Gardens because she liked watching sparrows at
all times. They were the only friends she had
ever known, though she was not old enough to call them
friends, or to know what friends meant. Andrews
had taught her, by means of a system of her own, to
know better than to cry or to make any protesting
noise when she was left alone in her ugly small nursery.
Andrews’ idea of her duties did not involve boring
herself to death by sitting in a room on the top floor
when livelier entertainment awaited her in the basement
where the cook was a woman of wide experience, the
housemaid a young person who had lived in gay country
houses, and the footman at once a young man of spirit
and humour. So Robin spent many hours of the day—taking
them altogether—quite by herself.
She might have more potently resented her isolations
if she had ever known any other condition than that
of a child in whom no one was in the least interested
and in whom “being good” could only mean
being passive under neglect and calling no one’s
attention to the fact that she wanted anything from
anybody. As a bird born in captivity lives in
its cage and perhaps believes it to be the world,
Robin lived in her nursery and knew every square inch
of it with a deadly if unconscious sense of distaste
and fatigue. She was put to bed and taken up,
she was fed and dressed in it, and once a day—twice
perhaps if Andrews chose—she was taken
out of it downstairs and into the street. That
was all. And that was why she liked the sparrows
so much.
And sparrows are worth watching if
you live in a nursery where nothing ever happens and
where, when you look out, you are so high up that
it is not easy to see the people in the world below,
in addition to which it seems nearly always raining.
Robin used to watch them hopping about on the slate
roofs of the homes on the other side of the street.
They fluttered their wings, they picked up straws
and carried them away. She thought they must have
houses of their own among the chimneys—in
places she could not see. She fancied it would
be nice to hop about on the top of a roof oneself
if one were not at all afraid of falling. She
liked the chippering and chirping sounds the birds
made became it sounded like talking and laughing—like
the talking and laughing she sometimes wakened out
of her sleep to lie and listen to when the Lady Downstairs
had a party. She often wondered what the people
were doing because it sounded as if they liked doing
it very much.
Sometimes when it had rained two or
three days she had a feeling which made her begin
to cry to herself—but not aloud. She
had once had a little black and blue mark on her arm
for a week where Andrews had pinched her because she
had cried loud enough to be heard. It had seemed
to her that Andrews twisted and pinched the bit of
flesh for five minutes without letting it go and she
had held her large hand over her mouth as she did
it.
“Now you keep that in your mind,”
she had said when she had finished and Robin had almost
choked in her awful little struggle to keep back all
sound.
The one thing Andrews was surest of
was that nobody would come upstairs to the Nursery
to inquire the meaning of any cries which were not
unearthly enough to disturb the household. So
it was easy to regulate the existence of her charge
in such a manner as best suited herself.
“Just give her food enough and
keep her from making silly noises when she wants what
she doesn’t get,” said Andrews to her companions
below stairs. “That one in the drawing-room
isn’t going to interfere with the Nursery.
Not her! I know my business and I know how to
manage her kind. I go to her politely now and
then and ask her permission to buy things from Best’s
or Liberty’s or some other good place.
She always stares a minute when I begin, as if she
scarcely understood what I was talking about and then
she says ‘Oh, yes, I suppose she must have them.’
And I go and get them. I keep her as well dressed
as any child in Mayfair. And she’s been
a beauty since she was a year old so she looks first
rate when I wheel her up and down the street, so the
people can see she’s well taken care of and
not kept hidden away. No one can complain of her
looks and nobody is bothered with her. That’s
all that’s wanted of me. I get good
wages and I get them regular. I don’t turn
up my nose at a place like this, whatever the outside
talk is. Who cares in these days anyway?
Fashionable people’s broader minded than they
used to be. In Queen Victoria’s young days
they tell me servants were no class that didn’t
live in families where they kept the commandments.”
“Fat lot the commandments give
any one trouble in these times,” said Jennings,
the footman, who was a wit. “There’s
one of ’em I could mention that’s been
broken till there’s no bits of it left to keep.
If I smashed that plate until it was powder it’d
have to be swept into the dust din. That’s
what happened to one or two commandments in particular.”
“Well,” remarked Mrs.
Blayne, the cook, “she don’t interfere
and he pays the bills prompt. That’ll do
me instead of commandments. If you’ll
believe me, my mother told me that in them Queen Victoria
days ladies used to inquire about cold meat and ask
what was done with the dripping. Civilisation’s
gone beyond that—commandments or no commandments.”
“He’s precious particular
about bills being paid,” volunteered Jennings,
with the air of a man of the world. “I heard
him having a row with her one day about some bills
she hadn’t paid. She’d spent the
money for some nonsense and he was pretty stiff in
that queer way of his. Quite right he was too.
I’d have been the same myself,” pulling
up his collar and stretching his neck in a manner
indicating exact knowledge of the natural sentiments
of a Marquis when justly annoyed. “What
he intimated was that if them bills was not paid with
the money that was meant to pay them, the money wouldn’t
be forthcoming the next time.” Jennings
was rather pleased by the word “forthcoming”
and therefore he repeated it with emphasis, “It
wouldn’t be forthcoming.”
“That’d frighten her,”
was Andrews’ succinct observation.
“It did!” said Jennings.
“She’d have gone in hysterics if he hadn’t
kept her down. He’s got a way with him,
Coombe has.”
Andrews laughed, a brief, dry laugh.
“Do you know what the child
calls her?” she said. “She calls her
the Lady Downstairs. She’s got a sort of
fancy for her and tries to get peeps at her when we
go out. I notice she always cranes her little
neck if we pass a room she might chance to be in.
It’s her pretty clothes and her laughing that
does it. Children’s drawn by bright colours
and noise that sounds merry.”
“It’s my belief the child
doesn’t know she is her mother!” said
Mrs. Blayne as she opened an oven door to look at some
rolls.
“It’s my belief that if
I told her she was she wouldn’t know what the
word meant. It was me she got the name from,”
Andrews still laughed as she explained. “I
used to tell her about the Lady Downstairs would hear
if she made a noise, or I’d say I’d let
her have a peep at the Lady Downstairs if she was
very good. I saw she had a kind of awe of her
though she liked her so much, so it was a good way
of managing her. You mayn’t believe me but
for a good bit I didn’t take in that she didn’t
know there was such things as mothers and, when I
did take it in, I saw there wasn’t any use in
trying to explain. She wouldn’t have understood.”
“How would you go about to explain
a mother, anyway?” suggested Jennings.
“I’d have to say that she was the person
that had the right to slap your head if you didn’t
do what she told you.”
“I’d have to say that
she was the woman that could keep you slaving at kitchen
maid’s work fifteen hours a day,” said
Mrs. Blayne; “My mother was cook in a big house
and trained me under her.”
“I never had one,” said
Andrews stiffly. The truth was that she had taken
care of eight infant brothers and sisters, while her
maternal parent slept raucously under the influence
of beer when she was not quarrelling with her offspring.
Jane, the housemaid, had passed a
not uncomfortable childhood in the country and was
perhaps of a soft nature.
“I’d say that a mother’s
the one that you belong to and that’s fond of
you, even if she does keep you straight,” she
put in.
“Her mother isn’t fond
of her and doesn’t keep herself straight,”
said Jennings. “So that wouldn’t do.”
“And she doesn’t slap
her head or teach her to do kitchen maid’s work,”
put in Mrs. Blayne, “so yours is no use, Mr.
Jennings, and neither is mine. Miss Andrews ’ll
have to cook up an explanation of her own herself
when she finds she has to.”
“She can get it out of a Drury
Lane melodrama,” said Jennings, with great humour.
“You’ll have to sit down some night, Miss
Andrews, and say, ’The time has come, me chee-ild,
when I must tell you All’.”
In this manner were Mrs. Gareth-Lawless
and her maternal affections discussed below stairs.
The interesting fact remained that to Robin the Lady
Downstairs was merely a radiant and beautiful being
who floated through certain rooms laughing or chattering
like a bird, and always wearing pretty clothes, which
were different each time one beheld her. Sometimes
one might catch a glimpse of her through a door, or,
if one pressed one’s face against the window
pane at the right moment, she might get into her bright
little carnage in the street below and, after Jennings
had shut its door, she might be seen to give a lovely
flutter to her clothes as she settled back against
the richly dark blue cushions.
It is a somewhat portentous thing
to realize that a newborn human creature can only
know what it is taught. The teaching may be conscious
or unconscious, intelligent or idiotic, exquisite
or brutal. The images presented by those surrounding
it, as its perceptions awaken day by day, are those
which record themselves on its soul, its brain, its
physical being which is its sole means of expressing,
during physical life, all it has learned. That
which automatically becomes the Law at the dawning
of newborn consciousness remains, to its understanding,
the Law of Being, the Law of the Universe. To
the cautious of responsibility this at times wears
the aspect of an awesome thing, suggesting, however
remotely, that it might seem well, perhaps, to remove
the shoes from one’s feet, as it were, and tread
with deliberate and delicate considering of one’s
steps, as do the reverently courteous even on the
approaching of an unknown altar.
This being acknowledged a scientific,
as well as a spiritual truth, there remains no mystery
in the fact that Robin at six years old—when
she watched the sparrows in the Square Gardens—did
not know the name of the feeling which had grown within
her as a result of her pleasure in the chance glimpses
of the Lady Downstairs. It was a feeling which
made her eager to see her or anything which belonged
to her; it made her strain her child ears to catch
the sound of her voice; it made her long to hear Andrews
or the other servants speak of her, and yet much too
shy to dare to ask any questions. She had found
a place on the staircase leading to the Nursery, where,
by squeezing against the balustrade, she could sometimes
see the Lady pass in and out of her pink bedroom.
She used to sit on a step and peer between the railing
with beating heart. Sometimes, after she had
been put to bed for the night and Andrews was safely
entertained downstairs, Robin would be awakened from
her first sleep by sounds in the room below and would
creep out of bed and down to her special step and,
crouching in a hectic joy, would see the Lady come
out with sparkling things in her hair and round her
lovely, very bare white neck and arms, all swathed
in tints and draperies which made her seem a vision
of colour and light. She was so radiant a thing
that often the child drew in her breath with a sound
like a little sob of ecstasy, and her lip trembled
as if she were going to cry. But she did not know
that what she felt was the yearning of a thing called
love—a quite simple and natural common
thing of which she had no reason for having any personal
knowledge. As she was unaware of mothers, so she
was unaware of affection, of which Andrews would have
felt it to be superfluously sentimental to talk to
her.
On the very rare occasions when the
Lady Downstairs appeared on the threshold of the Day
Nursery, Robin—always having been freshly
dressed in one of her nicest frocks—stood
and stared with immense startled eyes and answered
in a whisper the banal little questions put to her.
The Lady appeared at such rare intervals and remained
poised upon the threshold like a tropic plumaged bird
for moments so brief, that there never was time to
do more than lose breath and gaze as at a sudden vision.
Why she came—when she did come—Robin
did not understand. She evidently did not belong
to the small, dingy nurseries which grew shabbier
every year as they grew steadily more grimy under
the persistent London soot and fogs.
Feather always held up her draperies
when she came. She would not have come at all
but for the fact that she had once or twice been asked
if the child was growing pretty, and it would have
seemed absurd to admit that she never saw her at all.
“I think she’s rather
pretty,” she said downstairs. “She’s
round and she has a bright colour—almost
too bright, and her eyes are round too. She’s
either rather stupid or she’s shy—and
one’s as bad as the other. She’s
a child that stares.”
If, when Andrews had taken her into
the Gardens, she had played with other children, Robin
would no doubt have learned something of the existence
and normal attitude of mothers through the mere accident
of childish chatter, but it somehow happened that
she never formed relations with the charges of other
nurses. She took it for granted for some time
that this was because Andrews had laid down some mysterious
law. Andrews did not seem to form acquaintances
herself. Sometimes she sat on a bench and talked
a little to another nurse, but she seldom sat twice
with the same person. It was indeed generally
her custom to sit alone, crocheting or sewing, with
a rather lofty and exclusive air and to call Robin
back to her side if she saw her slowly edging towards
some other child.
“My rule is to keep myself to
myself,” she said in the kitchen. “And
to look as if I was the one that would turn up noses,
if noses was to be turned up. There’s those
that would snatch away their children if I let Robin
begin to make up to them. Some wouldn’t,
of course, but I’m not going to run risks.
I’m going to save my own pride.”
But one morning when Robin was watching
her sparrows, a nurse, who was an old acquaintance,
surprised Andrews by appearing in the Gardens with
two little girls in her charge. They were children
of nine and eleven and quite sufficient for themselves,
apart from the fact that they regarded Robin as a
baby and, therefore, took no notice of her. They
began playing with skipping ropes, which left their
nurse free to engage in delighted conversation with
Andrews.
It was conversation so delightful
that Robin was forgotten, even to the extent of being
allowed to follow her sparrows round a clump of shrubbery
and, therefore, out of Andrews’ sight, though
she was only a few yards away. The sparrows this
morning were quarrelsome and suddenly engaged in a
fight, pecking each other furiously, beating their
wings and uttering shrill, protesting chipperings.
Robin did not quite understand what they were doing
and stood watching them with spellbound interest.
It was while she watched them that
she heard footsteps on the gravel walk which stopped
near her and made her look up to see who was at her
side. A big boy in Highland kilts and bonnet and
sporan was standing by her, and she found herself
staring into a pair of handsome deep blue eyes, blue
like the waters of a hillside tarn. They were
wide, glowing, friendly eyes and none like them had
ever looked into hers before. He seemed to her
to be a very big boy indeed, and in fact, he was unusually
tall and broad for his age, but he was only eight
years old and a simple enough child pagan. Robin’s
heart began to beat as it did when she watched the
Lady Downstairs, but there was something different
in the beating. It was something which made her
red mouth spread and curve itself into a smile which
showed all her small teeth.
So they stood and stared at each other
and for some strange, strange reason—created,
perhaps, with the creating of Man and still hidden
among the deep secrets of the Universe—they
were drawn to each other—wanted each other—knew
each other. Their advances were, of course, of
the most primitive—as primitive and as much
a matter of instinct as the nosing and sniffing of
young animals. He spread and curved his red mouth
and showed the healthy whiteness of his own handsome
teeth as she had shown her smaller ones. Then
he began to run and prance round in a circle, capering
like a Shetland pony to exhibit at once his friendliness
and his prowess. He tossed his curled head and
laughed to make her laugh also, and she not only laughed
but clapped her hands. He was more beautiful than
anything she had ever seen before in her life, and
he was plainly trying to please her. No child
creature had ever done anything like it before, because
no child creature had ever been allowed by Andrews
to make friends with her. He, on his part, was
only doing what any other little boy animal would
have done—expressing his child masculinity
by “showing off” before a little female.
But to this little female it had never happened before.
It was all beautifully elemental.
As does not too often happen, two souls as well as
two bodies were drawn towards each other by the Magnet
of Being. When he had exhibited himself for a
minute or two he came back to her, breathing fast
and glowing.
“My pony in Scotland does that.
His name is Chieftain. He is a Shetland pony
and he is only that high,” he measured forty
inches from the ground. “I’m called
Donal. What are you called?”
“Robin,” she answered,
her lips and voice trembling with joy. He was
so beautiful. His hair was bright and curly.
His broad forehead was clear white where he had pushed
back his bonnet with the eagle feather standing upright
on it. His strong legs and knees were white between
his tartan kilt and his rolled back stockings.
The clasps which held his feather and the plaid over
his shoulder were set with fine stones in rich silver.
She did not know that he was perfectly equipped as
a little Highland chieftain, the head of his clan,
should be.
They began to play together, and the
unknown Fates, which do their work as they choose,
so wrought on this occasion as to cause Andrews’
friend to set forth upon a journey through a story
so exciting in its nature that its hearer was held
spellbound and oblivious to her surroundings themselves.
Once, it is true, she rose as in a dream and walked
round the group of shrubs, but the Fates had arranged
for that moment also. Robin was alone and was
busily playing with some leaves she had plucked and
laid on the seat of a bench for some mysterious reason.
She looked good for an hour’s safe occupation,
and Andrews returned to her friend’s detailed
and intimate version of a great country house scandal,
of which the papers were full because it had ended
in the divorce court.
Donal had, at that special moment,
gone to pick some of the biggest leaves from the lilac
bush of which the Gardens contained numerous sooty
specimens. The leaves Robin was playing with were
some he had plucked first to show her a wonderful
thing. If you laid a leaf flat on the seat of
the bench and were fortunate enough to possess a large
pin you could prick beautiful patterns on the leaf’s
greenness—dots and circles, and borders
and tiny triangles of a most decorative order.
Neither Donal nor Robin had a pin but Donal had, in
his rolled down stocking, a little dirk the point of
which could apparently be used for any interesting
purpose. It was really he who did the decoration,
but Robin leaned against the bench and looked on enthralled.
She had never been happy before in the entire course
of her brief existence. She had not known or expected
and conditions other than those she was familiar with—the
conditions of being fed and clothed, kept clean and
exercised, but totally unloved and unentertained.
She did not even know that this nearness to another
human creature, the exchange of companionable looks,
which were like flashes of sunlight, the mutual outbreaks
of child laughter and pleasure were happiness.
To her, what she felt, the glow and delight of it,
had no name but she wanted it to go on and on, never
to be put an end to by Andrews or anyone else.
The boy Donal was not so unconscious.
He had been happy all his life. What he felt
was that he had liked this little girl the minute
he saw her. She was pretty, though he thought
her immensely younger than himself, and, when she
had looked up at him with her round, asking eyes,
he had wanted to talk to her and make friends.
He had not played much with boys and he had no haughty
objection to girls who liked him. This one did,
he saw at once.
Through what means children so quickly
convey to each other—while seeming scarcely
to do more than play—the entire history
of their lives and surroundings, is a sort of occult
secret. It is not a matter of prolonged conversation.
Perhaps images created by the briefest of unadorned
statements produce on the unwritten tablets of the
child mind immediate and complete impressions.
Safe as the locked garden was, Andrews cannot have
forgotten her charge for any very great length of
time and yet before Donal, hearing his attendant’s
voice from her corner, left Robin to join her and
be taken home, the two children knew each other intimately.
Robin knew that Donal’s home was in Scotland—where
there are hills and moors with stags on them.
He lived there with “Mother” and he had
been brought to London for a visit. The person
he called “Mother” was a woman who took
care of him and he spoke of her quite often.
Robin did not think she was like Andrews, though she
did not in the least know why. On his part Donal
knew about the nurseries and the sparrows who hopped
about on the slates of the houses opposite. Robin
did not describe the nurseries to him, but Donal knew
that they were ugly and that there were no toys in
them and nothing to do. Also, in some mystic
fashion, he realized that Andrews would not let Robin
play with him if she saw them together, and that,
therefore, they must make the most of their time.
Full of their joy in each other, they actually embarked
upon an ingenious infant intrigue, which involved
their trying to meet behind the shrubs if they were
brought to the Gardens the next day. Donal was
sure he could come because his nurse always did what
he asked of her. He was so big now that she was
not a real nurse, but she had been his nurse when
he was quite little and “Mother” liked
her to travel with them. He had a tutor but he
had stayed behind in Scotland at Braemarnie, which
was their house. Donal would come tomorrow and
he would look for Robin and when she saw him she must
get away from Andrews and they would play together
again.
“I will bring one of my picture
books,” he said grandly. “Can you
read at all?”
“No,” answered Robin adoring
him. “What are picture books?”
“Haven’t you any?” he blurted out.
“No,” said Robin.
She looked at the gravel walk, reflecting a moment
thoughtfully on the Day Nursery and the Night Nursery.
Then she lifted her eyes to the glowing blueness of
his and said quite simply, “I haven’t
anything.”
He suddenly remembered things his
Mother had told him about poor people. Perhaps
she was poor. Could she be poor when her frock
and hat and coat were so pretty? It was not polite
to ask. But the thought made him love her more.
He felt something warm rush all over his body.
The truth, if he had been old enough to be aware of
it, was that the entire simpleness of her acceptance
of things as they were, and a something which was
unconsciousness of any cause for complaint, moved
his child masculinity enormously. His old nurse’s
voice came from her corner again.
“I must go to Nanny,”
he said, feeling somehow as if he had been running
fast. “I’ll come tomorrow and bring
two picture books.”
He was a loving, warm blooded child
human thing, and the expression of affection was,
to him, a familiar natural impulse. He put his
strong little eight-year-old arms round her and kissed
her full on her mouth, as he embraced her with all
his strength. He kissed her twice.
It was the first time for Robin.
Andrews did not kiss. There was no one else.
It was the first time, and Nature had also made her
a loving, warm blooded, human thing. How beautiful
he was—how big—how strong his
arms were—and how soft and warm his mouth
felt. She stood and gazed at him with wide asking
eyes and laughed a little. She had no words because
she did not know what had happened.
“Don’t you like to be
kissed?” said Donal, uncertain because she looked
so startled and had not kissed him back.
“Kissed,” she repeated,
with a small, caught breath, “ye-es.”
She knew now what it was. It was being kissed.
She drew nearer at once and lifted up her face as
sweetly and gladly, as a flower lifts itself to the
sun. “Kiss me again,” she said quite
eagerly. As ingenuously and heartily as before,
he kissed her again and, this time, she kissed too.
When he ran quickly away, she stood looking after
him with smiling, trembling lips, uplifted, joyful—wondering
and amazed.