The morning was a brighter one than
London usually indulges in and the sun made its way
into Feather’s bedroom to the revealing of its
coral pink glow and comfort. She had always liked
her bedroom and had usually wakened in it to the sense
of luxuriousness it is possible a pet cat feels when
it wakens to stretch itself on a cushion with its
saucer of cream awaiting it.
But she did not awaken either to a
sense of brightness or luxury this morning. She
had slept it was true, but once or twice when the
pillow had slipped aside she had found herself disturbed
by the far-off sound of the wailing of some little
animal which had caused her automatically and really
scarcely consciously to replace the pillow. It
had only happened at long intervals because it is
Nature that an exhausted baby falls asleep when it
is worn out. Robin had probably slept almost
as much as her mother.
Feather staring at the pinkness around
her reached at last, with the assistance of a certain
physical consciousness, a sort of spiritless intention.
“She’s asleep now,”
she murmured. “I hope she won’t waken
for a long time. I feel faint. I shall have
to find something to eat—if it’s
only biscuits.” Then she lay and tried to
remember what Cook had said about her not starving.
“She said there were a few things left in the
pantry and closets. Perhaps there’s some
condensed milk. How do you mix it up? If
she cries I might go and give her some. It wouldn’t
be so awful now it’s daylight.”
She felt shaky when she got out of
bed and stood on her feet. She had not had a
maid in her girlhood so she could dress herself, much
as she detested to do it. After she had begun
however she could not help becoming rather interested
because the dress she had worn the day before had
become crushed and she put on a fresh one she had
not worn at all. It was thin and soft also, and
black was quite startlingly becoming to her.
She would wear this one when Lord Coombe came, after
she wrote to him. It was silly of her not to
have written before though she knew he had left town
after the funeral. Letters would be forwarded.
“It will be quite bright in
the dining-room now,” she said to encourage
herself. “And Tonson once said that the
only places the sun came into below stairs were the
pantry and kitchen and it only stayed about an hour
early in the morning. I must get there as soon
as I can.”
When she had so dressed herself that
the reflection the mirror gave back to her was of
the nature of a slight physical stimulant she opened
her bedroom door and faced exploration of the deserted
house below with a quaking sense of the proportions
of the inevitable. She got down the narrow stairs
casting a frightened glance at the emptiness of the
drawing-rooms which seemed to stare at her as she
passed them. There was sun in the dining-room
and when she opened the sideboard she found some wine
in decanters and some biscuits and even a few nuts
and some raisins and oranges. She put them on
the table and sat down and ate some of them and began
to feel a little less shaky.
If she had been allowed time to sit
longer and digest and reflect she might have reached
the point of deciding on what she would write to Lord
Coombe. She had not the pen of a ready writer
and it must be thought over. But just when she
was beginning to be conscious of the pleasant warmth
of the sun which shone on her shoulders from the window,
she was almost startled our of her chair by hearing
again stealing down the staircase from the upper regions
that faint wail like a little cat’s.
“Just the moment—the
very moment I begin to feel a little quieted—and
try to think—she begins again!” she
cried out. “It’s worse then anything!”
Large crystal tears ran down her face
and upon the polished table.
“I suppose she would starve
to death if I didn’t give her some food—and
then I should be blamed! People would be
horrid about it. I’ve got nothing to eat
myself.”
She must at any rate manage to stop
the crying before she could write to Coombe.
She would be obliged to go down into the pantry and
look for some condensed milk. The creature had
no teeth but perhaps she could mumble a biscuit or
a few raisins. If she could be made to swallow
a little port wine it might make her sleepy. The
sun was paying its brief morning visit to the kitchen
and pantry when she reached there, but a few cockroaches
scuttled away before her and made her utter a hysterical
little scream. But there was some condensed
milk and there was a little warm water in a kettle
became the fire was not quite out. She imperfectly
mixed a decoction and filled a bottle which ought
not to have been downstairs but had been brought and
left there by Louisa as a result of tender moments
with Edward.
When she put the bottle and some biscuits
and scraps of cold ham on a tray because she could
not carry them all in her hands, her sense of outrage
and despair made her almost sob.
“I am just like a servant—carrying
trays upstairs,” she wept. “I—I
might be Edward—or—or Louisa.”
And her woe increased when she added in the dining-room
the port wine and nuts and raisins and macaroons as
viands which might somehow add to infant diet
and induce sleep. She was not sure of course—but
she knew they sucked things and liked sweets.
A baby left unattended to scream itself
to sleep and awakening to scream itself to sleep again,
does not present to a resentful observer the flowerlike
bloom and beauty of infancy. When Feather carried
her tray into the Night Nursery and found herself confronting
the disordered crib on which her offspring lay she
felt the child horrible to look at. Its face
was disfigured and its eyes almost closed. She
trembled all over as she put the bottle to its mouth
and saw the fiercely hungry clutch of its hands.
It was old enough to clutch, and clutch it did, and
suck furiously and starvingly—even though
actually forced to stop once or twice at first to give
vent to a thwarted remnant of a scream.
Feather had only seen it as downy
whiteness and perfume in Louisa’s arms or in
its carriage. It had been a singularly vivid
and brilliant-eyed baby at whom people looked as they
passed.
“Who will give her a bath?”
wailed Feather. “Who will change her clothes?
Someone must! Could a woman by the day do it?
Cook said I could get a woman by the day.”
And then she remembered that one got
servants from agencies. And where were the agencies?
And even a woman “by the day” would demand
wages and food to eat.
And then the front door bell rang.
What could she do—what
could she do? Go downstairs and open the door
herself and let everyone know! Let the ringer
go on ringing until he was tired and went away?
She was indeed hard driven, even though the wail had
ceased as Robin clutched her bottle to her breast
and fed with frenzy. Let them go away—let
them! And then came the wild thought that it
might be Something—the Something which
must happen when things were at their worst! And
if it had come and the house seemed to be empty!
She did not walk down the stairs, she ran. Her
heart beat until she reached the door out of breath
and when she opened it stood their panting.
The people who waited upon the steps
were strangers. They were very nice looking and
quite young—a man and a woman very perfectly
dressed. The man took a piece of paper out of
his pocketbook and handed it to her with an agreeable
apologetic courtesy.
“I hope we have not called early
enough to disturb you,” he said. “We
waited until eleven but we are obliged to catch a train
at half past. It is an ‘order to view’
from Carson & Bayle.” He added this because
Feather was staring at the paper.
Carson & Bayle were the agents they
had rented the house from. It was Carson & Bayle’s
collector Robert had met on the threshold and sworn
at two days before he had been taken ill. They
were letting the house over her head and she would
be turned out into the street?
The young man and woman finding themselves
gazing at this exquisitely pretty creature in exquisite
mourning, felt themselves appallingly embarrassed.
She was plainly the widow Carson had spoken of.
But why did she open the door herself? And why
did she look as if she did not understand? Indignation
against Carson & Bayle began to stir the young man.
“Beg pardon! So sorry!
I am afraid we ought not to have come,” he protested.
“Agents ought to know better. They said
you were giving up the house at once and we were afraid
someone might take it.”
Feather held the “order to view”
in her hand and snared at them quite helplessly.
“There—are no—no
servants to show it to you,” she said. “If
you could wait—a few days—perhaps—”
She was so lovely and Madame Helene’s
filmy black creation was in itself such an appeal,
that the amiable young strangers gave up at once.
“Oh, certainly—certainly!
Do excuse us! Carson and Bayle ought not to have—!
We are so sorry. Good morning, good morning,”
they gave forth in discomfited sympathy and politeness,
and really quite scurried away.
Having shut the door on their retreat
Feather stood shivering.
“I am going to be turned out
of the house! I shall have to live in the street!”
she thought. “Where shall I keep my clothes
if I live in the street!”
Even she knew that she was thinking
idiotically. Of course if everything was taken
from you and sold, you would have no clothes at all,
and wardrobes and drawers and closets would not matter.
The realization that scarcely anything in the house
had been paid for came home to her with a ghastly
shock. She staggered upstairs to the first drawing-room
in which there was a silly pretty little buhl writing
table.
She felt even more senseless when
she sank into a chair before it and drew a sheet of
note-paper towards her. Her thoughts would not
connect themselves with each other and she could not
imagine what she ought to say in her letter to Coombe.
In fact she seemed to have no thoughts at all.
She could only remember the things which had happened,
and she actually found she could write nothing else.
There seemed nothing else in the world.
“Dear Lord Coombe,” trailed
tremulously over the page—“The house
is quite empty. The servants have gone away.
I have no money. And there is not any food.
And I am going to be turned out into the street—and
the baby is crying because it is hungry.”
She stopped there, knowing it was
not what she ought to say. And as she stopped
and looked at the words she began herself to wail
somewhat as Robin had wailed in the dark when she would
not listen or go to her. It was like a beggar’s
letter—a beggar’s! Telling him
that she had no money and no food—and would
be turned out for unpaid rent. And that the baby
was crying because it was starving!
“It’s a beggar’s
letter—just a beggar’s,” she
cried out aloud to the empty room. “And
it’s tru-ue!” Robin’s wail itself
had not been more hopeless than hers was as she dropped
her head and let it lie on the buhl table.
She was not however even to be allowed
to let it lie there, for the next instant there fell
on her startled ear quite echoing through the house
another ring at the doorbell and two steely raps on
the smart brass knocker. It was merely because
she did not know what else to do, having just lost
her wits entirely that she got up and trailed down
the staircase again.
When she opened the door, Lord Coombe—the
apotheosis of exquisite fitness in form and perfect
appointment as also of perfect expression—was
standing on the threshold.