The history of the circumstances about
to be related began many years ago—or so
it seems in these days. It began, at least, years
before the world being rocked to and fro revealed in
the pause between each of its heavings some startling
suggestion of a new arrangement of its kaleidoscopic
particles, and then immediately a re-arrangement,
and another and another until all belief in a permanency
of design seemed lost, and the inhabitants of the earth
waited, helplessly gazing at changing stars and colours
in a degree of mental chaos.
Its opening incidents may be dated
from a period when people still had reason to believe
in permanency and had indeed many of them—sometimes
through ingenuousness, sometimes through stupidity
of type—acquired a singular confidence in
the importance and stability of their possessions,
desires, ambitions and forms of conviction.
London at the time, in common with
other great capitals, felt itself rather final though
priding itself on being much more fluid and adaptable
than it had been fifty years previously. In speaking
of itself it at least dealt with fixed customs, and
conditions and established facts connected with them—which
gave rise to brilliant—or dull—witticisms.
One of these, heard not infrequently,
was to the effect that—in London—one
might live under an umbrella if one lived under it
in the right neighbourhood and on the right side of
the street, which axiom is the reason that a certain
child through the first six years of her life sat
on certain days staring out of a window in a small,
dingy room on the top floor of a slice of a house on
a narrow but highly fashionable London street and looked
on at the passing of motors, carriages and people
in the dull afternoon grayness.
The room was exalted above its station
by being called The Day Nursery and another room equally
dingy and uninviting was known as The Night Nursery.
The slice of a house was inhabited by the very pretty
Mrs. Gareth-Lawless, its inordinate rent being reluctantly
paid by her—apparently with the assistance
of those “ravens” who are expected to
supply the truly deserving. The rent was inordinate
only from the standpoint of one regarding it soberly
in connection with the character of the house itself
which was a gaudy little kennel crowded between two
comparatively stately mansions. On one side lived
an inordinately rich South African millionaire, and
on the other an inordinately exalted person of title,
which facts combined to form sufficient grounds for
a certain inordinateness of rent.
Mrs. Gareth-Lawless was also, it may
be stated, of the fibre which must live on the right
side of the street or dissolve into nothingness—since
as nearly nothingness as an embodied entity can achieve
had Nature seemingly created her at the outset.
So light and airy was the fair, slim, physical presentation
of her being to the earthly vision, and so almost
impalpably diaphanous the texture and form of mind
and character to be observed by human perception,
that among such friends—and enemies—as
so slight a thing could claim she was prettily known
as “Feather”. Her real name, “Amabel”,
was not half as charming and whimsical in its appropriateness.
“Feather” she adored being called and as
it was the fashion among the amazing if amusing circle
in which she spent her life, to call its acquaintances
fantastic pet names selected from among the world
of birds, beasts and fishes or inanimate objects—“Feather”
she floated through her curious existence. And
it so happened that she was the mother of the child
who so often stared out of the window of the dingy
and comfortless Day Nursery, too much a child to be
more than vaguely conscious in a chaotic way that
a certain feeling which at times raged within her and
made her little body hot and restless was founded
on something like actual hate for a special man who
had certainly taken no deliberate steps to cause her
detestation.
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“Feather” had not been
called by that delicious name when she married Robert
Gareth-Lawless who was a beautiful and irresponsibly
rather than deliberately bad young man. She was
known as Amabel Darrel and the loveliest girl in the
lovely corner of the island of Jersey where her father,
a country doctor, had begotten a large family of lovely
creatures and brought them up on the appallingly inadequate
proceeds of his totally inadequate practice. Pretty
female things must be disposed of early lest their
market value decline. Therefore a well-born young
man even without obvious resources represents a sail
in the offing which is naturally welcomed as possibly
belonging to a bark which may at least bear away a
burden which the back carrying it as part of its pack
will willingly shuffle on to other shoulders.
It is all very well for a man with six lovely daughters
to regard them as capital if he has money or position
or generous relations or if he has energy and an ingenious
unfatigued mind. But a man who is tired and neither
clever nor important in any degree and who has reared
his brood in one of the Channel Islands with a faded,
silly, unattractive wife as his only aid in any difficulty,
is wise in leaving the whole hopeless situation to
chance and luck. Sometimes luck comes without
assistance but—almost invariably—it
does not.
“Feather”—who
was then “Amabel”—thought Robert
Gareth-Lawless incredible good luck. He only
drifted into her summer by merest chance because a
friend’s yacht in which he was wandering about
“came in” for supplies. A girl Ariel
in a thin white frock and with big larkspur blue eyes
yearning at you under her flapping hat as she answers
your questions about the best road to somewhere will
not be too difficult about showing the way herself.
And there you are at a first-class beginning.
The night after she met Gareth-Lawless
in a lane whose banks were thick with bluebells, Amabel
and her sister Alice huddled close together in bed
and talked almost pantingly in whispers over the possibilities
which might reveal themselves—God willing—through
a further acquaintance with Mr. Gareth-Lawless.
They were eager and breathlessly anxious but they
were young—young in their eagerness
and Amabel was full of delight in his good looks.
“He is so handsome, Alice,”
she whispered actually hugging her, not with affection
but exultation. “And he can’t be more
than twenty-six or seven. And I’m sure
he liked me. You know that way a man has of looking
at you—one sees it even in a place like
this where there are only curates and things.
He has brown eyes—like dark bright water
in pools. Oh, Alice, if he should!”
Alice was not perhaps as enthusiastic
as her sister. Amabel had seen him first and
in the Darrel household there was a sort of unwritten,
not always observed code flimsily founded on “First
come first served.” Just at the outset
of an acquaintance one might say “Hands off”
as it were. But not for long.
“It doesn’t matter how
pretty one is they seldom do,” Alice grumbled.
“And he mayn’t have a farthing.”
“Alice,” whispered Amabel
almost agonizingly, “I wouldn’t care
a farthing—if only he would! Have
I a farthing—have you a farthing—has
anyone who ever comes here a farthing? He lives
in London. He’d take me away. To live
even in a back street in London would be
Heaven! And one must—as soon as
one possibly can.—One must! And
Oh!” with another hug which this time was a shudder,
“think of what Doris Harmer had to do! Think
of his thick red old neck and his horrid fatness!
And the way he breathed through his nose. Doris
said that at first it used to make her ill to look
at him.”
“She’s got over it,”
whispered Alice. “She’s almost as
fat as he is now. And she’s loaded with
pearls and things.”
“I shouldn’t have to ‘get
over’ anything,” said Amabel, “if
this one would. I could fall in love with
him in a minute.”
“Did you hear what Father said?”
Alice brought out the words rather slowly and reluctantly.
She was not eager on the whole to yield up a detail
which after all added glow to possible prospects which
from her point of view were already irritatingly glowing.
Yet she could not resist the impulse of excitement.
“No, you didn’t hear. You were out
of the room.”
“What about? Something
about him? I hope it wasn’t horrid.
How could it be?”
“He said,” Alice drawled
with a touch of girlishly spiteful indifference, “that
if he was one of the poor Gareth-Lawlesses he hadn’t
much chance of succeeding to the title. His uncle—Lord
Lawdor—is only forty-five and he has four
splendid healthy boys—perfect little giants.”
“Oh, I didn’t know there
was a title. How splendid,” exclaimed Amabel
rapturously. Then after a few moments’ innocent
maiden reflection she breathed with sweet hopefulness
from under the sheet, “Children so often have
scarlet fever or diphtheria, and you know they say
those very strong ones are more likely to die than
the other kind. The Vicar of Sheen lost four
all in a week. And the Vicar died too. The
doctor said the diphtheria wouldn’t have killed
him if the shock hadn’t helped.”
Alice—who had a teaspoonful
more brain than her sister—burst into a
fit of giggling it was necessary to smother by stuffing
the sheet in her mouth.
“Oh! Amabel!” she
gurgled. “You are such a donkey!
You would have been silly enough to say that even
if people could have heard you. Suppose he
had!”
“Why should he care,”
said Amabel simply. “One can’t help
thinking things. If it happened he would be the
Earl of Lawdor and—”
She fell again into sweet reflection
while Alice giggled a little more. Then she herself
stopped and thought also. After all perhaps—!
One had to be practical. The tenor of her thoughts
was such that she did not giggle again when Amabel
broke the silence by whispering with tremulous, soft
devoutness.
“Alice—do you think that praying
really helps?”
“I’ve prayed for things
but I never got them,” answered Alice.
“But you know what the Vicar said on Sunday in
sermon about ’Ask and ye shall receive’.”
“Perhaps you haven’t prayed
in the right spirit,” Amabel suggested with
true piety. “Shall we—shall we
try? Let us get out of bed and kneel down.”
“Get out of bed and kneel down
yourself,” was Alice’s sympathetic rejoinder.
“You wouldn’t take that much trouble for
me.”
Amabel sat up on the edge of the bed.
In the faint moonlight and her white night-gown she
was almost angelic. She held the end of the long
fair soft plait hanging over her shoulder and her eyes
were full of reproach.
“I think you ought to take some
interest,” she said plaintively. “You
know there would be more chances for you and the others—if
I were not here.”
“I’ll wait until you are
not here,” replied the unstirred Alice.
But Amabel felt there was no time
for waiting in this particular case. A yacht
which “came in” might so soon “put
out”. She knelt down, clasping her slim
young hands and bending her forehead upon them.
In effect she implored that Divine Wisdom might guide
Mr. Robert Gareth-Lawless in the much desired path.
She also made divers promises because nothing is so
easy as to promise things. She ended with a gently
fervent appeal that—if her prayer were
granted—something “might happen”
which would result in her becoming a Countess of Lawdor.
One could not have put the request with greater tentative
delicacy.
She felt quite uplifted and a trifle
saintly when she rose from her knees. Alice had
actually fallen asleep already and she sighed quite
tenderly as she slipped into the place beside her.
Almost as her lovely little head touched the pillow
her own eyes closed. Then she was asleep herself—and
in the faintly moonlit room with the long soft plait
trailing over her shoulder looked even more like an
angel than before.
Whether or not as a result of this
touching appeal to the Throne of Grace, Robert Gareth-Lawless
did. In three months there was a wedding
at the very ancient village church, and the flowerlike
bridesmaids followed a flower of a bride to the altar
and later in the day to the station from where Mr.
and Mrs. Robert Gareth-Lawless went on their way to
London. Perhaps Alice and Olive also knelt by
the side of their white beds the night after the wedding,
for on that propitious day two friends of the bridegroom’s—one
of them the owner of the yacht—decided
to return again to the place where there were to be
found the most nymphlike of pretty creatures a man
had ever by any chance beheld. Such delicate little
fair crowned heads, such delicious little tip-tilted
noses and slim white throats, such ripples of gay
chatter and nonsense! When a man has fortune
enough of his own why not take the prettiest thing
he sees? So Alice and Olive were borne away also
and poor Mr. and Mrs. Darrel breathed sighs of relief
and there were not only more chances but causes for
bright hopefulness in the once crowded house which
now had rooms to spare.
A certain inattention on the part
of the Deity was no doubt responsible for the fact
that “something” did not “happen”
to the family of Lord Lawdor. On the contrary
his four little giants of sons throve astonishingly
and a few months after the Gareth-Lawless wedding
Lady Lawdor—a trifle effusively, as it were—presented
her husband with twin male infants so robust that
they were humorously known for years afterwards as
the “Twin Herculeses.”
By that time Amabel had become “Feather”
and despite Robert’s ingenious and carefully
detailed method of living upon nothing whatever, had
many reasons for knowing that “life is a back
street in London” is not a matter of beds of
roses. Since the back street must be the “right
street” and its accompaniments must wear an aspect
of at least seeming to belong to the right order of
detachment and fashionable ease, one was always in
debt and forced to keep out of the way of duns, and
obliged to pretend things and tell lies with aptness
and outward gaiety. Sometimes one actually was
so far driven to the wall that one could not keep
most important engagements and the invention of plausible
excuses demanded absolute genius. The slice of
a house between the two big ones was a rash feature
of the honeymoon but a year of giving smart little
dinners in it and going to smart big dinners from
it in a smart if small brougham ended in a condition
somewhat akin to the feat of balancing oneself on
the edge of a sword.
Then Robin was born. She was
an intruder and a calamity of course. Nobody
had contemplated her for a moment. Feather cried
for a week when she first announced the probability
of her advent. Afterwards however she managed
to forget the approaching annoyance and went to parties
and danced to the last hour continuing to be a great
success because her prettiness was delicious and her
diaphanous mentality was no train upon the minds of
her admirers male and female.
That a Feather should become a parent
gave rise to much wit of light weight when Robin in
the form of a bundle of lace was carried down by her
nurse to be exhibited in the gaudy crowded little drawing-room
in the slice of a house in the Mayfair street.
It was the Head of the House of Coombe
who asked the first question about her.
“What will you do with her?” he inquired
detachedly.
The frequently referred to “babe
unborn” could not have presented a gaze of purer
innocence than did the lovely Feather. Her eyes
of larkspur blueness were clear of any thought or
intention as spring water is clear at its unclouded
best.
Her ripple of a laugh was clear also—enchantingly
clear.
“Do!” repeated. “What
is it people ‘do’ with babies? I suppose
the nurse knows. I don’t. I wouldn’t
touch her for the world. She frightens me.”
She floated a trifle nearer and bent to look at her.
“I shall call her Robin,”
she said. “Her name is really Roberta as
she couldn’t be called Robert. People will
turn round to look at a girl when they hear her called
Robin. Besides she has eyes like a robin.
I wish she’d open them and let you see.”
By chance she did open them at the
moment—quite slowly. They were dark
liquid brown and seemed to be all lustrous iris which
gazed unmovingly at the object in of focus. That
object was the Head of the House of Coombe.
“She is staring at me.
There is antipathy in her gaze,” he said, and
stared back unmovingly also, but with a sort of cold
interest.