So began those nine years of uninterrupted
tranquillity. They were characterized by an
extraordinary want of any communicativeness on the
part of the Ashburnhams to which we, on our part,
replied by leaving out quite as extraordinarily,
and nearly as completely, the personal note.
Indeed, you may take it that what characterized our
relationship was an atmosphere of taking everything
for granted. The given proposition was, that
we were all “good people.” We took
for granted that we all liked beef underdone but not
too underdone; that both men preferred a good liqueur
brandy after lunch; that both women drank a very
light Rhine wine qualified with Fachingen water—that
sort of thing. It was also taken for granted
that we were both sufficiently well off to afford
anything that we could reasonably want in the way
of amusements fitting to our station—that
we could take motor cars and carriages by the day;
that we could give each other dinners and dine our
friends and we could indulge if we liked in economy.
Thus, Florence was in the habit of having the Daily
Telegraph sent to her every day from London.
She was always an Anglo-maniac, was Florence; the
Paris edition of the New York Herald was always good
enough for me. But when we discovered that the
Ashburnhams’ copy of the London paper followed
them from England, Leonora and Florence decided between
them to suppress one subscription one year and the
other the next. Similarly it was the habit of
the Grand Duke of Nassau Schwerin, who came yearly
to the baths, to dine once with about eighteen families
of regular Kur guests. In return he would give
a dinner of all the eighteen at once. And, since
these dinners were rather expensive (you had to take
the Grand Duke and a good many of his suite and any
members of the diplomatic bodies that might be there)—Florence
and Leonora, putting their heads together, didn’t
see why we shouldn’t give the Grand Duke his
dinner together. And so we did. I don’t
suppose the Serenity minded that economy, or even
noticed it. At any rate, our joint dinner to the
Royal Personage gradually assumed the aspect of a
yearly function. Indeed, it grew larger and
larger, until it became a sort of closing function
for the season, at any rate as far as we were concerned.
I don’t in the least mean to say that we were
the sort of persons who aspired to mix “with
royalty.” We didn’t; we hadn’t
any claims; we were just “good people.”
But the Grand Duke was a pleasant, affable sort of
royalty, like the late King Edward VII, and it was
pleasant to hear him talk about the races and, very
occasionally, as a bonne bouche, about his nephew,
the Emperor; or to have him pause for a moment in
his walk to ask after the progress of our cures or
to be benignantly interested in the amount of money
we had put on Lelöffel’s hunter for the Frankfurt
Welter Stakes.
But upon my word, I don’t know
how we put in our time. How does one put in
one’s time? How is it possible to have achieved
nine years and to have nothing whatever to show for
it? Nothing whatever, you understand. Not
so much as a bone penholder, carved to resemble a
chessman and with a hole in the top through which
you could see four views of Nauheim. And, as for
experience, as for knowledge of one’s fellow
beings—nothing either. Upon my word,
I couldn’t tell you offhand whether the lady
who sold the so expensive violets at the bottom of
the road that leads to the station, was cheating me
or no; I can’t say whether the porter who carried
our traps across the station at Leghorn was a thief
or no when he said that the regular tariff was a lira
a parcel. The instances of honesty that one comes
across in this world are just as amazing as the instances
of dishonesty. After forty-five years of mixing
with one’s kind, one ought to have acquired the
habit of being able to know something about one’s
fellow beings. But one doesn’t.
I think the modern civilized habit—the
modern English habit of taking every one for granted—is
a good deal to blame for this. I have observed
this matter long enough to know the queer, subtle
thing that it is; to know how the faculty, for what
it is worth, never lets you down.
Mind, I am not saying that this is
not the most desirable type of life in the world;
that it is not an almost unreasonably high standard.
For it is really nauseating, when you detest it, to
have to eat every day several slices of thin, tepid,
pink india rubber, and it is disagreeable to have
to drink brandy when you would prefer to be cheered
up by warm, sweet Kümmel. And it is nasty to
have to take a cold bath in the morning when what
you want is really a hot one at night. And it
stirs a little of the faith of your fathers that is
deep down within you to have to have it taken for
granted that you are an Episcopalian when really you
are an old-fashioned Philadelphia Quaker.
But these things have to be done;
it is the cock that the whole of this society owes
to Æsculapius.
And the odd, queer thing is that the
whole collection of rules applies to anybody—to
the anybodies that you meet in hotels, in railway
trains, to a less degree, perhaps, in steamers, but
even, in the end, upon steamers. You meet a
man or a woman and, from tiny and intimate sounds,
from the slightest of movements, you know at once
whether you are concerned with good people or with
those who won’t do. You know, this is to
say, whether they will go rigidly through with the
whole programme from the underdone beef to the Anglicanism.
It won’t matter whether they be short or tall;
whether the voice squeak like a marionette or rumble
like a town bull’s; it won’t matter whether
they are Germans, Austrians, French, Spanish, or even
Brazilians— they will be the Germans or
Brazilians who take a cold bath every morning and
who move, roughly speaking, in diplomatic circles.
But the inconvenient—well,
hang it all, I will say it—the damnable
nuisance of the whole thing is, that with all the
taking for granted, you never really get an inch
deeper than the things I have catalogued.
I can give you a rather extraordinary
instance of this. I can’t remember whether
it was in our first year—the first year
of us four at Nauheim, because, of course, it would
have been the fourth year of Florence and myself—but
it must have been in the first or second year.
And that gives the measure at once of the extraordinariness
of our discussion and of the swiftness with which
intimacy had grown up between us. On the one hand
we seemed to start out on the expedition so naturally
and with so little preparation, , that it was as
if we must have made many such excursions before;
and our intimacy seemed so deep. . . .
Yet the place to which we went was
obviously one to which Florence at least would have
wanted to take us quite early, so that you would almost
think we should have gone there together at the beginning
of our intimacy. Florence was singularly expert
as a guide to archaeological expeditions and there
was nothing she liked so much as taking people round
ruins and showing you the window from which some
one looked down upon the murder of some one else.
She only did it once; but she did it quite magnificently.
She could find her way, with the sole help of Baedeker,
as easily about any old monument as she could about
any American city where the blocks are all square and
the streets all numbered, so that you can go perfectly
easily from Twenty-fourth to Thirtieth.
Now it happens that fifty minutes
away from Nauheim, by a good train, is the ancient
city of M——, upon a great pinnacle
of basalt, girt with a triple road running sideways
up its shoulder like a scarf. And at the top
there is a castle—not a square castle like
Windsor, but a castle all slate gables and high peaks
with gilt weathercocks flashing bravely—the
castle of St Elizabeth of Hungary. It has the
disadvantage of being in Prussia; and it is always
disagreeable to go into that country; but it is very
old and there are many double-spired churches and
it stands up like a pyramid out of the green valley
of the Lahn. I don’t suppose the Ashburnhams
wanted especially to go there and I didn’t especially
want to go there myself. But, you understand,
there was no objection. It was part of the cure
to make an excursion three or four times a week.
So that we were all quite unanimous in being grateful
to Florence for providing the motive power. Florence,
of course, had a motive of her own. She was
at that time engaged in educating Captain Ashburnham—oh,
of course, quite pour le bon motif! She used
to say to Leonora: “I simply can’t
understand how you can let him live by your side
and be so ignorant!” Leonora herself always
struck me as being remarkably well educated.
At any rate, she knew beforehand all that Florence
had to tell her. Perhaps she got it up out of
Baedeker before Florence was up in the morning.
I don’t mean to say that you would ever have
known that Leonora knew anything, but if Florence
started to tell us how Ludwig the Courageous wanted
to have three wives at once—in which he
differed from Henry VIII, who wanted them one after
the other, and this caused a good deal of trouble—if
Florence started to tell us this, Leonora would just
nod her head in a way that quite pleasantly rattled
my poor wife.
She used to exclaim: “Well,
if you knew it, why haven’t you told it all
already to Captain Ashburnham? I’m sure
he finds it interesting!” And Leonora would
look reflectively at her husband and say: “I
have an idea that it might injure his hand—the
hand, you know, used in connection with horses’
mouths. . . .” And poor Ashburnham would
blush and mutter and would say: “That’s
all right. Don’t you bother about me.”
I fancy his wife’s irony did
quite alarm poor Teddy; because one evening he asked
me seriously in the smoking-room if I thought that
having too much in one’s head would really interfere
with one’s quickness in polo. It struck
him, he said, that brainy Johnnies generally were
rather muffs when they got on to four legs.
I reassured him as best I could. I told him that
he wasn’t likely to take in enough to upset
his balance. At that time the Captain was quite
evidently enjoying being educated by Florence.
She used to do it about three or four times a week
under the approving eyes of Leonora and myself.
It wasn’t, you understand, systematic.
It came in bursts. It was Florence clearing up
one of the dark places of the earth, leaving the world
a little lighter than she had found it. She
would tell him the story of Hamlet; explain the form
of a symphony, humming the first and second subjects
to him, and so on; she would explain to him the difference
between Arminians and Erastians; or she would give
him a short lecture on the early history of the United
States. And it was done in a way well calculated
to arrest a young attention. Did you ever read
Mrs Markham? Well, it was like that. . . .
But our excursion to M——
was a much larger, a much more full dress affair.
You see, in the archives of the Schloss in that city
there was a document which Florence thought would
finally give her the chance to educate the whole
lot of us together. It really worried poor Florence
that she couldn’t, in matters of culture, ever
get the better of Leonora. I don’t know
what Leonora knew or what she didn’t know,
but certainly she was always there whenever Florence
brought out any information. And she gave, somehow,
the impression of really knowing what poor Florence
gave the impression of having only picked up.
I can’t exactly define it. It was almost
something physical. Have you ever seen a retriever
dashing in play after a greyhound? You see the
two running over a green field, almost side by side,
and suddenly the retriever makes a friendly snap
at the other. And the greyhound simply isn’t
there. You haven’t observed it quicken its
speed or strain a limb; but there it is, just two
yards in front of the retriever’s outstretched
muzzle. So it was with Florence and Leonora in
matters of culture.
But on this occasion I knew that something
was up. I found Florence some days before, reading
books like Ranke’s History of the Popes, Symonds’
Renaissance, Motley’s Rise of the Dutch Republic
and Luther’s Table Talk.
I must say that, until the astonishment
came, I got nothing but pleasure out of the little
expedition. I like catching the two-forty; I
like the slow, smooth roll of the great big trains—and
they are the best trains in the world! I like
being drawn through the green country and looking
at it through the clear glass of the great windows.
Though, of course, the country isn’t really
green. The sun shines, the earth is blood red
and purple and red and green and red. And the
oxen in the ploughlands are bright varnished brown
and black and blackish purple; and the peasants are
dressed in the black and white of magpies; and there
are great Rocks of magpies too. Or the peasants’
dresses in another field where there are little mounds
of hay that will be grey-green on the sunny side
and purple in the shadows—the peasants’
dresses are vermilion with emerald green ribbons and
purple skirts and white shirts and black velvet stomachers.
Still, the impression is that you are drawn through
brilliant green meadows that run away on each side
to the dark purple fir-woods; the basalt pinnacles;
the immense forests. And there is meadowsweet
at the edge of the streams, and cattle. Why,
I remember on that afternoon I saw a brown cow hitch
its horns under the stomach of a black and white animal
and the black and white one was thrown right into
the middle of a narrow stream. I burst out laughing.
But Florence was imparting information so hard and
Leonora was listening so intently that no one noticed
me. As for me, I was pleased to be off duty; I
was pleased to think that Florence for the moment
was indubitably out of mischief—because
she was talking about Ludwig the Courageous (I think
it was Ludwig the Courageous but I am not an historian)
about Ludwig the Courageous of Hessen who wanted to
have three wives at once and patronized Luther—something
like that!—I was so relieved to be off
duty, because she couldn’t possibly be doing
anything to excite herself or set her poor heart a-fluttering—that
the incident of the cow was a real joy to me.
I chuckled over it from time to time for the whole
rest of the day. Because it does look very funny,
you know, to see a black and white cow land on its
back in the middle of a stream. It is so just
exactly what one doesn’t expect of a cow.
I suppose I ought to have pitied the
poor animal; but I just didn’t. I was
out for enjoyment. And I just enjoyed myself.
It is so pleasant to be drawn along in front of the
spectacular towns with the peaked castles and the
many double spires. In the sunlight gleams come
from the city—gleams from the glass of
windows; from the gilt signs of apothecaries; from
the ensigns of the student corps high up in the mountains;
from the helmets of the funny little soldiers moving
their stiff little legs in white linen trousers.
And it was pleasant to get out in the great big spectacular
Prussian station with the hammered bronze ornaments
and the paintings of peasants and flowers and cows;
and to hear Florence bargain energetically with the
driver of an ancient droschka drawn by two lean horses.
Of course, I spoke German much more correctly than
Florence, though I never could rid myself quite of
the accent of the Pennsylvania Duitsch of my childhood.
Anyhow, we were drawn in a sort of triumph, for five
marks without any trinkgeld, right up to the castle.
And we were taken through the museum and saw the fire-backs,
the old glass, the old swords and the antique contraptions.
And we went up winding corkscrew staircases and through
the Rittersaal, the great painted hall where the Reformer
and his friends met for the first time under the protection
of the gentleman that had three wives at once and
formed an alliance with the gentleman that had six
wives, one after the other (I’m not really
interested in these facts but they have a bearing on
my story). And we went through chapels, and
music rooms, right up immensely high in the air to
a large old chamber, full of presses, with heavily-shuttered
windows all round. And Florence became positively
electric. She told the tired, bored custodian
what shutters to open; so that the bright sunlight
streamed in palpable shafts into the dim old chamber.
She explained that this was Luther’s bedroom
and that just where the sunlight fell had stood his
bed. As a matter of fact, I believe that she
was wrong and that Luther only stopped, as it were,
for lunch, in order to evade pursuit. But, no
doubt, it would have been his bedroom if he could
have been persuaded to stop the night. And then,
in spite of the protest of the custodian, she threw
open another shutter and came tripping back to a
large glass case.
“And there,” she exclaimed
with an accent of gaiety, of triumph, and of audacity.
She was pointing at a piece of paper, like the half-sheet
of a letter with some faint pencil scrawls that might
have been a jotting of the amounts we were spending
during the day. And I was extremely happy at
her gaiety, in her triumph, in her audacity.
Captain Ashburnham had his hands upon the glass case.
“There it is—the Protest.”
And then, as we all properly stage-managed our bewilderment,
she continued: “Don’t you know that
is why we were all called Protestants? That is
the pencil draft of the Protest they drew up.
You can see the signatures of Martin Luther, and
Martin Bucer, and Zwingli, and Ludwig the Courageous.
. . .”
I may have got some of the names wrong,
but I know that Luther and Bucer were there.
And her animation continued and I was glad. She
was better and she was out of mischief. She continued,
looking up into Captain Ashburnham’s eyes:
“It’s because of that piece of paper that
you’re honest, sober, industrious, provident,
and clean-lived. If it weren’t for that
piece of paper you’d be like the Irish or the
Italians or the Poles, but particularly the Irish.
. . .”
And she laid one finger upon Captain
Ashburnham’ s wrist.
I was aware of something treacherous,
something frightful, something evil in the day.
I can’t define it and can’t find a simile
for it. It wasn’t as if a snake had looked
out of a hole. No, it was as if my heart had
missed a beat. It was as if we were going to
run and cry out; all four of us in separate directions,
averting our heads. In Ashburnham’s face
I know that there was absolute panic. I was
horribly frightened and then I discovered that the
pain in my left wrist was caused by Leonora’s
clutching it:
“I can’t stand this,”
she said with a most extraordinary passion; “I
must get out of this.” I was horribly
frightened. It came to me for a moment, though
I hadn’t time to think it, that she must be
a madly jealous woman—jealous of Florence
and Captain Ashburnham, of all people in the world!
And it was a panic in which we fled! We went
right down the winding stairs, across the immense
Rittersaal to a little terrace that overlooks the
Lahn, the broad valley and the immense plain into
which it opens out.
“Don’t you see?”
she said, “don’t you see what’s going
on?” The panic again stopped my heart.
I muttered, I stuttered—I don’t know
how I got the words out:
“No! What’s the matter? Whatever’s
the matter?”
She looked me straight in the eyes;
and for a moment I had the feeling that those two
blue discs were immense, were overwhelming, were like
a wall of blue that shut me off from the rest of
the world. I know it sounds absurd; but that
is what it did feel like.
“Don’t you see,”
she said, with a really horrible bitterness, with a
really horrible lamentation in her voice, “Don’t
you see that that’s the cause of the whole
miserable affair; of the whole sorrow of the world?
And of the eternal damnation of you and me and them.
. . .”
I don’t remember how she went
on; I was too frightened; I was too amazed. I
think I was thinking of running to fetch assistance—a
doctor, perhaps, or Captain Ashburnham. Or possibly
she needed Florence’s tender care, though,
of course, it would have been very bad for Florence’s
heart. But I know that when I came out of it
she was saying: “Oh, where are all the
bright, happy, innocent beings in the world?
Where’s happiness? One reads of it in books!”
She ran her hand with a singular clawing
motion upwards over her forehead. Her eyes were
enormously distended; her face was exactly that of
a person looking into the pit of hell and seeing
horrors there. And then suddenly she stopped.
She was, most amazingly, just Mrs Ashburnham again.
Her face was perfectly clear, sharp and defined;
her hair was glorious in its golden coils. Her
nostrils twitched with a sort of contempt. She
appeared to look with interest at a gypsy caravan
that was coming over a little bridge far below us.
“Don’t you know,”
she said, in her clear hard voice, “don’t
you know that I’m an Irish Catholic?”
V those words gave me the greatest
relief that I have ever had in my life. They
told me, I think, almost more than I have ever gathered
at any one moment—about myself. I
don’t think that before that day I had ever
wanted anything very much except Florence. I
have, of course, had appetites, impatiences . . .
Why, sometimes at a table d’hôte, when there
would be, say, caviare handed round, I have been
absolutely full of impatience for fear that when
the dish came to me there should not be a satisfying
portion left over by the other guests. I have
been exceedingly impatient at missing trains.
The Belgian State Railway has a trick of letting the
French trains miss their connections at Brussels.
That has always infuriated me. I have written
about it letters to The Times that The Times never
printed; those that I wrote to the Paris edition
of the New York Herald were always printed, but they
never seemed to satisfy me when I saw them. Well,
that was a sort of frenzy with me.
It was a frenzy that now I can hardly
realize. I can understand it intellectually.
You see, in those days I was interested in people
with “hearts.” There was Florence,
there was Edward Ashburnham—or, perhaps,
it was Leonora that I was more interested in.
I don’t mean in the way of love. But, you
see, we were both of the. same profession—at
any rate as I saw it. And the profession was
that of keeping heart patients alive.
You have no idea how engrossing such
a profession may become. Just as the blacksmith
says: “By hammer and hand all Art doth
stand,” just as the baker thinks that all the
solar system revolves around his morning delivery
of rolls, as the postmaster-general believes that
he alone is the preserver of society—and
surely, surely, these delusions are necessary to keep
us going—so did I and, as I believed,
Leonora, imagine that the whole world ought to be
arranged so as to ensure the keeping alive of heart
patients. You have no idea how engrossing such
a profession may become—how imbecile,
in view of that engrossment, appear the ways of princes,
of republics, of municipalities. A rough bit
of road beneath the motor tyres, a couple of succeeding
“thank’ee-marms” with their quick
jolts would be enough to set me grumbling to Leonora
against the Prince or the Grand Duke or the Free City
through whose territory we might be passing.
I would grumble like a stockbroker whose conversations
over the telephone are incommoded by the ringing
of bells from a city church. I would talk about
medieval survivals, about the taxes being surely
high enough. The point, by the way, about the
missing of the connections of the Calais boat trains
at Brussels was that the shortest possible sea journey
is frequently of great importance to sufferers from
the heart. Now, on the Continent, there are two
special heart cure places, Nauheim and Spa, and to
reach both of these baths from England if in order
to ensure a short sea passage, you come by Calais—you
have to make the connection at Brussels. And
the Belgian train never waits by so much the shade
of a second for the one coming from Calais or from
Paris. And even if the French train, are just
on time, you have to run—imagine a heart
patient running! —along the unfamiliar
ways of the Brussels station and to scramble up the
high steps of the moving train. Or, if you miss
connection, you have to wait five or six hours. .
. . I used to keep awake whole nights cursing
that abuse. My wife used to run—she
never, in whatever else she may have misled me, tried
to give me the impression that she was not a gallant
soul. But, once in the German Express, she would
lean back, with one hand to her side and her eyes
closed. Well, she was a good actress. And
I would be in hell. In hell, I tell you.
For in Florence I had at once a wife and an unattained
mistress—that is what it comes to—and
in the retaining of her in this world I had my occupation,
my career, my ambition. It is not often that
these things are united in one body. Leonora
was a good actress too. By Jove she was good!
I tell you, she would listen to me by the hour, evolving
my plans for a shock-proof world. It is true
that, at times, I used to notice about her an air
of inattention as if she were listening, a mother,
to the child at her knee, or as if, precisely, I
were myself the patient.
You understand that there was nothing
the matter with Edward Ashburnham’s heart—that
he had thrown up his commission and had left India
and come half the world over in order to follow a
woman who had really had a “heart” to
Nauheim. That was the sort of sentimental ass
he was. For, you understand, too, that they
really needed to live in India, to economize, to let
the house at Branshaw Teleragh.
Of course, at that date, I had never
heard of the Kilsyte case. Ashburnham had, you
know, kissed a servant girl in a railway train, and
it was only the grace of God, the prompt functioning
of the communication cord and the ready sympathy
of what I believe you call the Hampshire Bench, that
kept the poor devil out of Winchester Gaol for years
and years. I never heard of that case until
the final stages of Leonora’s revelations. .
. .
But just think of that poor wretch.
. . . I, who have surely the right, beg you
to think of that poor wretch. Is it possible that
such a luckless devil should be so tormented by blind
and inscrutable destiny? For there is no other
way to think of it. None. I have the right
to say it, since for years he was my wife’s
lover, since he killed her, since he broke up all
the pleasantnesses that there were in my life.
There is no priest that has the right to tell me that
I must not ask pity for him, from you, silent listener
beyond the hearth-stone, from the world, or from
the God who created in him those desires, those madnesses.
. . .
Of course, I should not hear of the
Kilsyte case. I knew none of their friends;
they were for me just good people—fortunate
people with broad and sunny acres in a southern county.
Just good people! By heavens, I sometimes think
that it would have been better for him, poor dear,
if the case had been such a one that I must needs
have heard of it—such a one as maids and
couriers and other Kur guests whisper about for years
after, until gradually it dies away in the pity that
there is knocking about here and there in the world.
Supposing he had spent his seven years in Winchester
Gaol or whatever it is that inscrutable and blind
justice allots to you for following your natural
but ill-timed inclinations—there would
have arrived a stage when nodding gossips on the Kursaal
terrace would have said, “Poor fellow,”
thinking of his ruined career. He would have
been the fine soldier with his back now bent. . .
. Better for him, poor devil, if his back had
been prematurely bent.
Why, it would have been a thousand
times better. . . . For, of course, the Kilsyte
case, which came at the very beginning of his finding
Leonora cold and unsympathetic, gave him a nasty jar.
He left servants alone after that.
It turned him, naturally, all the
more loose amongst women of his own class. Why,
Leonora told me that Mrs Maidan—the woman
he followed from Burma to Nauheim—assured
her he awakened her attention by swearing that when
he kissed the servant in the train he was driven
to it. I daresay he was driven to it, by the
mad passion to find an ultimately satisfying woman.
I daresay he was sincere enough. Heaven help
me, I daresay he was sincere enough in his love for
Mrs Maidan. She was a nice little thing, a dear
little dark woman with long lashes, of whom Florence
grew quite fond. She had a lisp and a happy
smile. We saw plenty of her for the first month
of our acquaintance, then she died, quite quietly—of
heart trouble.
But you know, poor little Mrs Maidan—she
was so gentle, so young. She cannot have been
more than twenty-three and she had a boy husband out
in Chitral not more than twenty-four, I believe.
Such young things ought to have been left alone.
Of course Ashburnham could not leave her alone.
I do not believe that he could. Why, even I,
at this distance of time am aware that I am a little
in love with her memory. I can’t help smiling
when I think suddenly of her—as you might
at the thought of something wrapped carefully away
in lavender, in some drawer, in some old house that
you have long left. She was so—so
submissive. Why, even to me she had the air of
being submissive—to me that not the youngest
child will ever pay heed to. Yes, this is the
saddest story . . .
No, I cannot help wishing that Florence
had left her alone—with her playing with
adultery. I suppose it was; though she was such
a child that one has the impression that she would
hardly have known how to spell such a word.
No, it was just submissiveness—to the importunities,
to the tempestuous forces that pushed that miserable
fellow on to ruin. And I do not suppose that
Florence really made much difference. If it had
not been for her that Ashburnham left his allegiance
for Mrs Maidan, then it would have been some other
woman. But still, I do not know. Perhaps
the poor young thing would have died—she
was bound to die, anyhow, quite soon—but
she would have died without having to soak her noonday
pillow with tears whilst Florence, below the window,
talked to Captain Ashburnham about the Constitution
of the United States. . . . Yes, it would have
left a better taste in the mouth if Florence had
let her die in peace. . . .
Leonora behaved better in a sense.
She just boxed Mrs Maidan’s ears—yes,
she hit her, in an uncontrollable access of rage,
a hard blow on the side of the cheek, in the corridor
of the hotel, outside Edward’s rooms. It
was that, you know, that accounted for the sudden,
odd intimacy that sprang up between Florence and Mrs
Ashburnham. Because it was, of course, an odd
intimacy. If you look at it from the outside
nothing could have been more unlikely than that Leonora,
who is the proudest creature on God’s earth,
would have struck up an acquaintanceship with two
casual Yankees whom she could not really have regarded
as being much more than a carpet beneath her feet.
You may ask what she had to be proud of. Well,
she was a Powys married to an Ashburnham—I
suppose that gave her the right to despise casual
Americans as long as she did it unostentatiously.
I don’t know what anyone has to be proud of.
She might have taken pride in her patience, in her
keeping her husband out of the bankruptcy court.
Perhaps she did.
At any rate that was how Florence
got to know her. She came round a screen at
the corner of the hotel corridor and found Leonora
with the gold key that hung from her wrist caught
in Mrs Maidan’s hair just before dinner.
There was not a single word spoken. Little Mrs
Maidan was very pale, with a red mark down her left
cheek, and the key would not come out of her black
hair. It was Florence who had to disentangle
it, for Leonora was in such a state that she could
not have brought herself to touch Mrs Maidan without
growing sick.
And there was not a word spoken.
You see, under those four eyes—her own
and Mrs Maidan’s—Leonora could just
let herself go as far as to box Mrs Maidan’s
ears. But the moment a stranger came along she
pulled herself wonderfully up. She was at first
silent and then, the moment the key was disengaged
by Florence she was in a state to say: “So
awkward of me . . . I was just trying to put
the comb straight in Mrs Maidan’s hair. . . .”
Mrs Maidan, however, was not a Powys
married to an Ashburnham; she was a poor little O’Flaherty
whose husband was a boy of country parsonage origin.
So there was no mistaking the sob she let go as she
went desolately away along the corridor. But
Leonora was still going to play up. She opened
the door of Ashburnham’s room quite ostentatiously,
so that Florence should hear her address Edward in
terms of intimacy and liking. “Edward,”
she called. But there was no Edward there.
You understand that there was no Edward
there. It was then, for the only time of her
career, that Leonora really compromised herself—She
exclaimed . . . “How frightful! . . .
Poor little Maisie! . . .”
She caught herself up at that, but
of course it was too late. It was a queer sort
of affair. . . .
I want to do Leonora every justice.
I love her very dearly for one thing and in this
matter, which was certainly the ruin of my small household
cockle-shell, she certainly tripped up. I do
not believe—and Leonora herself does not
believe—that poor little Maisie Maidan
was ever Edward’s mistress. Her heart was
really so bad that she would have succumbed to anything
like an impassioned embrace. That is the plain
English of it, and I suppose plain English is best.
She was really what the other two, for reasons of
their own, just pretended to be. Queer, isn’t
it? Like one of those sinister jokes that Providence
plays upon one. Add to this that I do not suppose
that Leonora would much have minded, at any other
moment, if Mrs Maidan had been her husband’s
mistress. It might have been a relief from Edward’s
sentimental gurglings over the lady and from the lady’s
submissive acceptance of those sounds. No, she
would not have minded.
But, in boxing Mrs Maidan’s
ears, Leonora was just striking the face of an intolerable
universe. For, that afternoon she had had a frightfully
painful scene with Edward.
As far as his letters went, she claimed
the right to open them when she chose. She arrogated
to herself the right because Edward’s affairs
were in such a frightful state and he lied so about
them that she claimed the privilege of having his
secrets at her disposal. There was not, indeed,
any other way, for the poor fool was too ashamed
of his lapses ever to make a clean breast of anything.
She had to drag these things out of him.
It must have been a pretty elevating
job for her. But that afternoon, Edward being
on his bed for the hour and a half prescribed by the
Kur authorities, she had opened a letter that she
took to come from a Colonel Hervey. They were
going to stay with him in Linlithgowshire for the
month of September and she did not know whether the
date fixed would be the eleventh or the eighteenth.
The address on this letter was, in handwriting, as
like Colonel Hervey’s as one blade of corn
is like another. So she had at the moment no
idea of spying on him.
But she certainly was. For she
discovered that Edward Ashburnham was paying a blackmailer
of whom she had never heard something like three hundred
pounds a year . . . It was a devil of a blow;
it was like death; for she imagined that by that
time she had really got to the bottom of her husband’s
liabilities. You see, they were pretty heavy.
What had really smashed them up had been a perfectly
common-place affair at Monte Carlo—an affair
with a cosmopolitan harpy who passed for the mistress
of a Russian Grand Duke. She exacted a twenty
thousand pound pearl tiara from him as the price of
her favours for a week or so. It would have
pipped him a good deal to have found so much, and
he was not in the ordinary way a gambler. He might,
indeed, just have found the twenty thousand and the
not slight charges of a week at an hotel with the
fair creature. He must have been worth at that
date five hundred thousand dollars and a little over.
Well, he must needs go to the tables and lose forty
thousand pounds. . . . Forty thousand solid
pounds, borrowed from sharks! And even after
that he must—it was an imperative passion—enjoy
the favours of the lady. He got them, of course,
when it was a matter of solid bargaining, for far
less than twenty thousand, as he might, no doubt,
have done from the first. I daresay ten thousand
dollars covered the bill. Anyhow, there was
a pretty solid hole in a fortune of a hundred thousand
pounds or so. And Leonora had to fix things
up; he would have run from money-lender to money-lender.
And that was quite in the early days of her discovery
of his infidelities—if you like to call
them infidelities. And she discovered that one
from public sources. God knows what would have
happened if she had not discovered it from public
sources. I suppose he would have concealed it
from her until they were penniless. But she was
able, by the grace of God, to get hold of the actual
lenders of the money, to learn the exact sums that
were needed. And she went off to England.
Yes, she went right off to England
to her attorney and his while he was still in the
arms of his Circe—at Antibes, to which place
they had retired. He got sick of the lady quite
quickly, but not before Leonora had had such lessons
in the art of business from her attorney that she
had her plan as clearly drawn up as was ever that
of General Trochu for keeping the Prussians out of
Paris in 1870. It was about as effectual at first,
or it seemed so.
That would have been, you know, in
1895, about nine years before the date of which I
am talking—the date of Florence’s
getting her hold over Leonora; for that was what
it amounted to. . . . Well, Mrs Ashburnham had
simply forced Edward to settle all his property upon
her. She could force him to do anything; in his
clumsy, good-natured, inarticulate way he was as frightened
of her as of the devil. And he admired her enormously,
and he was as fond of her as any man could be of
any woman. She took advantage of it to treat
him as if he had been a person whose estates are
being managed by the Court of Bankruptcy. I suppose
it was the best thing for him.
Anyhow, she had no end of a job for
the first three years or so. Unexpected liabilities
kept on cropping up—and that afflicted fool
did not make it any easier. You see, along with
the passion of the chase went a frame of mind that
made him be extraordinarily ashamed of himself.
You may not believe it, but he really had such a
sort of respect for the chastity of Leonora’s
imagination that he hated—he was positively
revolted at the thought that she should know that
the sort of thing that he did existed in the world.
So he would stick out in an agitated way against
the accusation of ever having done anything.
He wanted to preserve the virginity of his wife’s
thoughts. He told me that himself during the
long walks we had at the last—while the
girl was on the way to Brindisi.
So, of course, for those three years
or so, Leonora had many agitations. And it was
then that they really quarrelled.
Yes, they quarrelled bitterly.
That seems rather extravagant. You might have
thought that Leonora would be just calmly loathing
and he lachrymosely contrite. But that was not
it a bit . . . Along with Edward’s passions
and his shame for them went the violent conviction
of the duties of his station—a conviction
that was quite unreasonably expensive. I trust
I have not, in talking of his liabilities, given
the impression that poor Edward was a promiscuous
libertine. He was not; he was a sentimentalist.
The servant girl in the Kilsyte case had been pretty,
but mournful of appearance. I think that, when
he had kissed her, he had desired rather to comfort
her. And, if she had succumbed to his blandishments
I daresay he would have set her up in a little house
in Portsmouth or Winchester and would have been faithful
to her for four or five years. He was quite capable
of that.
No, the only two of his affairs of
the heart that cost him money were that of the Grand
Duke’s mistress and that which was the subject
of the blackmailing letter that Leonora opened.
That had been a quite passionate affair with quite
a nice woman. It had succeeded the one with the
Grand Ducal lady. The lady was the wife of a
brother officer and Leonora had known all about the
passion, which had been quite a real passion and had
lasted for several years. You see, poor Edward’s
passions were quite logical in their progression
upwards. They began with a servant, went on to
a courtesan and then to a quite nice woman, very unsuitably
mated. For she had a quite nasty husband who,
by means of letters and things, went on blackmailing
poor Edward to the tune of three or four hundred
a year—with threats of the Divorce Court.
And after this lady came Maisie Maidan, and after
poor Maisie only one more affair and then—the
real passion of his life. His marriage with
Leonora had been arranged by his parents and, though
he always admired her immensely, he had hardly ever
pretended to be much more than tender to her, though
he desperately needed her moral support, too. . .
.
But his really trying liabilities
were mostly in the nature of generosities proper
to his station. He was, according to Leonora,
always remitting his tenants’ rents and giving
the tenants to understand that the reduction would
be permanent; he was always redeeming drunkards who
came before his magisterial bench; he was always
trying to put prostitutes into respectable places—and
he was a perfect maniac about children. I don’t
know how many ill-used people he did not pick up
and provide with careers—Leonora has told
me, but I daresay she exaggerated and the figure seems
so preposterous that I will not put it down.
All these things, and the continuance of them seemed
to him to be his duty—along with impossible
subscriptions to hospitals and Boy Scouts and to
provide prizes at cattle shows and antivivisection
societies. . . .
Well, Leonora saw to it that most
of these things were not continued. They could
not possibly keep up Branshaw Manor at that rate after
the money had gone to the Grand Duke’s mistress.
She put the rents back at their old figures; discharged
the drunkards from their homes, and sent all the
societies notice that they were to expect no more
subscriptions. To the children, she was more
tender; nearly all of them she supported till the age
of apprenticeship or domestic service. You see,
she was childless herself.
She was childless herself, and she
considered herself to be to blame. She had come
of a penniless branch of the Powys family, and they
had forced upon her poor dear Edward without making
the stipulation that the children should be brought
up as Catholics. And that, of course, was spiritual
death to Leonora. I have given you a wrong impression
if I have not made you see that Leonora was a woman
of a strong, cold conscience, like all English Catholics.
(I cannot, myself, help disliking this religion; there
is always, at the bottom of my mind, in spite of
Leonora, the feeling of shuddering at the Scarlet
Woman, that filtered in upon me in the tranquility
of the little old Friends’ Meeting House in
Arch Street, Philadelphia.) So I do set down a good
deal of Leonora’s mismanagement of poor dear
Edward’s case to the peculiarly English form
of her religion. Because, of course, the only
thing to have done for Edward would have been to
let him sink down until he became a tramp of gentlemanly
address, having, maybe, chance love affairs upon the
highways. He would have done so much less harm;
he would have been much less agonized too. At
any rate, he would have had fewer chances of ruining
and of remorse. For Edward was great at remorse.
But Leonora’s English Catholic conscience,
her rigid principles, her coldness, even her very
patience, were, I cannot help thinking, all wrong in
this special case. She quite seriously and naïvely
imagined that the Church of Rome disapproves of divorce;
she quite seriously and naïvely believed that her
church could be such a monstrous and imbecile institution
as to expect her to take on the impossible job of
making Edward Ashburnham a faithful husband.
She had, as the English would say, the Nonconformist
temperament. In the United States of North America
we call it the New England conscience. For,
of course, that frame of mind has been driven in on
the English Catholics. The centuries that they
have gone through—centuries of blind and
malignant oppression, of ostracism from public employment,
of being, as it were, a small beleagured garrison
in a hostile country, and therefore having to act
with great formality—all these things have
combined to perform that conjuring trick. And
I suppose that Papists in England are even technically
Nonconformists.
Continental Papists are a dirty, jovial
and unscrupulous crew. But that, at least, lets
them be opportunists. They would have fixed poor
dear Edward up all right. (Forgive my writing of these
monstrous things in this frivolous manner. If
I did not I should break down and cry.) In Milan,
say, or in Paris, Leonora would have had her marriage
dissolved in six months for two hundred dollars paid
in the right quarter. And Edward would have drifted
about until he became a tramp of the kind I have
suggested. Or he would have married a barmaid
who would have made him such frightful scenes in public
places and would so have torn out his moustache and
left visible signs upon his face that he would have
been faithful to her for the rest of his days.
That was what he wanted to redeem him. . . .
For, along with his passions and his
shames there went the dread of scenes in public places,
of outcry, of excited physical violence; of publicity,
in short. Yes, the barmaid would have cured him.
And it would have been all the better if she drank;
he would have been kept busy looking after her.
I know that I am right in this.
I know it because of the Kilsyte case. You see,
the servant girl that he then kissed was nurse in the
family of the Nonconformist head of the county—whatever
that post may be called. And that gentleman
was so determined to ruin Edward, who was the chairman
of the Tory caucus, or whatever it is—that
the poor dear sufferer had the very devil of a time.
They asked questions about it in the House of Commons;
they tried to get the Hampshire magistrates degraded;
they suggested to the War Ministry that Edward was
not the proper person to hold the King’s commission.
Yes, he got it hot and strong.
The result you have heard. He
was completely cured of philandering amongst the
lower classes. And that seemed a real blessing
to Leonora. It did not revolt her so much to
be connected—it is a sort of connection—with
people like Mrs Maidan, instead of with a little
kitchenmaid.
In a dim sort of way, Leonora was
almost contented when she arrived at Nauheim, that
evening. . . .
She had got things nearly straight
by the long years of scraping in little stations
in Chitral and Burma—stations where living
is cheap in comparison with the life of a county
magnate, and where, moreover, liaisons of one sort
or another are normal and inexpensive too. So
that, when Mrs Maidan came along—and the
Maidan affair might have caused trouble out there because
of the youth of the husband—Leonora had
just resigned herself to coming home. With pushing
and scraping and with letting Branshaw Teleragh, and
with selling a picture and a relic of Charles I or
so. had got—and, poor dear, she had never
had a really decent dress to her back in all those
years and years—she had got, as she imagined,
her poor dear husband back into much the same financial
position as had been his before the mistress of the
Grand Duke had happened along. And, of course,
Edward himself had helped her a little on the financial
side. He was a fellow that many men liked.
He was so presentable and quite ready to lend you
his cigar puncher—that sort of thing.
So, every now and then some financier whom he met
about would give him a good, sound, profitable tip.
And Leonora was never afraid of a bit of a gamble—English
Papists seldom are, I do not know why.
So nearly all her investment turned
up trumps, and Edward was really in fit case to reopen
Branshaw Manor and once more to assume his position
in the county. Thus Leonora had accepted Maisie
Maidan almost with resignation—almost with
a sigh of relief. She really liked the poor
child—she had to like somebody. And,
at any rate, she felt she could trust Maisie—she
could trust her not to rook Edward for several thousands
a week, for Maisie had refused to accept so much
as a trinket ring from him. It is true that
Edward gurgled and raved about the girl in a way that
she had never yet experienced. But that, too,
was almost a relief. I think she would really
have welcomed it if he could have come across the
love of his life. It would have given her a rest.
And there could not have been anyone
better than poor little Mrs Maidan; she was so ill
she could not want to be taken on expensive jaunts.
. . . It was Leonora herself who paid Maisie’s
expenses to Nauheim. She handed over the money
to the boy husband, for Maisie would never have allowed
it; but the husband was in agonies of fear.
Poor devil!
I fancy that, on the voyage from India,
Leonora was as happy as ever she had been in her
life. Edward was wrapped up, completely, in his
girl—he was almost like a father with a
child, trotting about with rugs and physic and things,
from deck to deck. He behaved, however, with
great circumspection, so that nothing leaked through
to the other passengers. And Leonora had almost
attained to the attitude of a mother towards Mrs Maidan.
So it had looked very well—the benevolent,
wealthy couple of good people, acting as saviours
to the poor, dark-eyed, dying young thing. And
that attitude of Leonora’s towards Mrs Maidan
no doubt partly accounted for the smack in the face.
She was hitting a naughty child who had been stealing
chocolates at an inopportune moment. It was
certainly an inopportune moment. For, with the
opening of that blackmailing letter from that injured
brother officer, all the old terrors had redescended
upon Leonora. Her road had again seemed to stretch
out endless; she imagined that there might be hundreds
and hundreds of such things that Edward was concealing
from her—that they might necessitate more
mortgagings, more pawnings of bracelets, more and
always more horrors. She had spent an excruciating
afternoon. The matter was one of a divorce case,
of course, and she wanted to avoid publicity as much
as Edward did, so that she saw the necessity of continuing
the payments. And she did not so much mind that.
They could find three hundred a year. But it was
the horror of there being more such obligations.
She had had no conversation with Edward
for many years—none that went beyond the
mere arrangements for taking trains or engaging servants.
But that afternoon she had to let him have it.
And he had been just the same as ever. It was
like opening a book after a decade to find the words
the same. He had the same motives. He had
not wished to tell her about the case because he
had not wished her to sully her mind with the idea
that there was such a thing as a brother officer
who could be a blackmailer—and he had
wanted to protect the credit of his old light of love.
That lady was certainly not concerned with her husband.
And he swore, and swore, and swore, that there was
nothing else in the world against him. She did
not believe him.
He had done it once too often—and
she was wrong for the first time, so that he acted
a rather creditable part in the matter. For he
went right straight out to the post-office and spent
several hours in coding a telegram to his solicitor,
bidding that hard-headed man to threaten to take out
at once a warrant against the fellow who was on his
track. He said afterwards that it was a bit too
thick on poor old Leonora to be ballyragged any more.
That was really the last of his outstanding accounts,
and he was ready to take his personal chance of the
Divorce Court if the blackmailer turned nasty.
He would face it out—the publicity, the
papers, the whole bally show. Those were his
simple words. . . .
He had made, however, the mistake
of not telling Leonora where he was going, so that,
having seen him go to his room to fetch the code for
the telegram, and seeing, two hours later, Maisie
Maidan come out of his room, Leonora imagined that
the two hours she had spent in silent agony Edward
had spent with Maisie Maidan in his arms. That
seemed to her to be too much. As a matter of
fact, Maisie’s being in Edward’s room had
been the result, partly of poverty, partly of pride,
partly of sheer innocence. She could not, in
the first place, afford a maid; she refrained as much
as possible from sending the hotel servants on errands,
since every penny was of importance to her, and she
feared to have to pay high tips at the end of her
stay. Edward had lent her one of his fascinating
cases contaiing fifteen different sizes of scisssors,
and, having seen from her window, his departure for
the post-office, she had taken the opportunity of
returning the case. She could not see why she
should not, though she felt a certain remorse at the
thought that she had kissed the pillows of his bed.
That was the way it took her.
But Leonora could see that, without
the shadow of a doubt, the incident gave Florence
a hold over her. It let Florence into things
and Florence was the only created being who had any
idea that the Ashburnhams were not just good people
with nothing to their tails. She determined at
once, not so much to give Florence the privilege
of her intimacy—which would have been the
payment of a kind of blackmail—as to keep
Florence under observation until she could have demonstrated
to Florence that she was not in the least jealous
of poor Maisie. So that was why she had entered
the dining-room arm in arm with my wife, and why
she had so markedly planted herself at our table.
She never left us, indeed, for a minute that night,
except just to run up to Mrs Maidan’s room
to beg her pardon and to beg her also to let Edward
take her very markedly out into the gardens that night.
She said herself, when Mrs Maidan came rather wistfully
down into the lounge where we were all sitting:
“Now, Edward, get up and take Maisie to the
Casino. I want Mrs Dowell to tell me all about
the families in Connecticut who came from Fordingbridge.”
For it had been discovered that Florence came of a
line that had actually owned Branshaw Teleragh for
two centuries before the Ashburnhams came there.
And there she sat with me in that hall, long after
Florence had gone to bed, so that I might witness
her gay reception of that pair. She could play
up.
And that enables me to fix exactly
the day of our going to the town of M——.
For it was the very day poor Mrs Maidan died.
We found her dead when we got back—pretty
awful, that, when you come to figure out what it all
means. . . .
At any rate the measure of my relief
when Leonora said that she was an Irish Catholic
gives you the measure of my affection for that couple.
It was an affection so intense that even to this day
I cannot think of Edward without sighing. I
do not believe that I could have gone on any more
with them. I was getting too tired. And
I verily believe, too, if my suspicion that Leonora
was jealous of Florence had been the reason she gave
for her outburst I should have turned upon Florence
with the maddest kind of rage. Jealousy would
have been incurable. But Florence’s mere
silly jibes at the Irish and at the Catholics could
be apologized out of existence. And that I appeared
to fix up in two minutes or so.
She looked at me for a long time rather
fixedly and queerly while I was doing it. And
at last I worked myself up to saying:
“Do accept the situation.
I confess that I do not like your religion. But
I like you so intensely. I don’t mind saying
that I have never had anyone to be really fond of,
and I do not believe that anyone has ever been fond
of me, as I believe you really to be.”
“Oh, I’m fond enough of
you,” she said. “Fond enough to say
that I wish every man was like you. But there
are others to be considered.” She was
thinking, as a matter of fact, of poor Maisie.
She picked a little piece of pellitory out of the
breast-high wall in front of us. She chafed it
for a long minute between her finger and thumb, then
she threw it over the coping.
“Oh, I accept the situation,”
she said at last, “if you can.”
VI I remember laughing at the
phrase, “accept the situation”, which
she seemed to repeat with a gravity too intense.
I said to her something like:
“It’s hardly as much as
that. I mean, that I must claim the liberty of
a free American citizen to think what I please about
your co-religionists. And I suppose that Florence
must have liberty to think what she pleases and to
say what politeness allows her to say.”
“She had better,” Leonora
answered, “not say one single word against my
people or my faith.” It struck me at the
time, that there was an unusual, an almost threatening,
hardness in her voice. It was almost as if she
were trying to convey to Florence, through me, that
she would seriously harm my wife if Florence went
to something that was an extreme. Yes, I remember
thinking at the time that it was almost as if Leonora
were saying, through me to Florence:
“You may outrage me as you will;
you may take all that I personally possess, but do
not you care to say one single thing in view of the
situation that that will set up—against
the faith that makes me become the doormat for your
feet.”
But obviously, as I saw it, that could
not be her meaning. Good people, be they ever
so diverse in creed, do not threaten each other.
So that I read Leonora’s words to mean just
no more than: “It would be better if Florence
said nothing at all against my co-religionists, because
it is a point that I am touchy about.”
That was the hint that, accordingly,
I conveyed to Florence when, shortly afterwards,
she and Edward came down from the tower. And
I want you to understand that, from that moment until
after Edward and the girl and Florence were all dead
together, I had never the remotest glimpse, not the
shadow of a suspicion, that there was anything wrong,
as the saying is. For five minutes, then, I
entertained the possibility that Leonora might be
jealous; but there was never another flicker in that
flame-like personality. How in the world should
I get it?
For, all that time, I was just a male
sick nurse. And what chance had I against those
three hardened gamblers, who were all in league to
conceal their hands from me? What earthly chance?
They were three to one—and they made me
happy. Oh God, they made me so happy that I doubt
if even paradise, that shall smooth out all temporal
wrongs, shall ever give me the like. And what
could they have done better, or what could they have
done that could have been worse? I don’t
know. . . .
I suppose that, during all that time
I was a deceived husband and that Leonora was pimping
for Edward. That was the cross that she had to
take up during her long Calvary of a life. . . .
You ask how it feels to be a deceived
husband. Just Heavens, I do not know. It
feels just nothing at all. It is not Hell, certainly
it is not necessarily Heaven. So I suppose it
is the intermediate stage. What do they call
it? Limbo. No, I feel nothing at all about
that. They are dead; they have gone before their
Judge who, I hope, will open to them the springs of
His compassion. It is not my business to think
about it. It is simply my business to say, as
Leonora’s people say: “Requiem aeternam
dona eis, Do mine, et lux perpetua luceat eis.
In memoria aeterna erit. . . .” But what
were they? The just? The unjust? God
knows! I think that the pair of them were only
poor wretches, creeping over this earth in the shadow
of an eternal wrath. It is very terrible. . .
.
It is almost too terrible, the picture
of that judgement, as it appears to me sometimes,
at nights. It is probably the suggestion of some
picture that I have seen somewhere. But upon
an immense plain, suspended in mid-air, I seem to
see three figures, two of them clasped close in an
intense embrace, and one intolerably solitary. lt
is in black and white, my picture of that judgement,
an etching, perhaps; only I cannot tell an etching
from a photographic reproduction. And the immense
plain is the hand of God, stretching out for miles
and miles, with great spaces above it and below it.
And they are in the sight of God, and it is Florence
that is alone. . . . And, do you know, at the
thought of that intense solitude I feel an overwhelming
desire to rush forward and comfort her. You cannot,
you see, have acted as nurse to a person for twelve
years without wishing to go on nursing them, even
though you hate them with the hatred of the adder,
and even in the palm of God. But, in the nights,
with that vision of judgement before me, I know that
I hold myself back. For I hate Florence.
I hate Florence with such a hatred that I would not
spare her an eternity of loneliness. She need
not have done what she did. She was an American,
a New Englander. She had not the hot passions
of these Europeans. She cut out that poor imbecile
of an Edward—and I pray God that he is
really at peace, clasped close in the arms of that
poor, poor girl! And, no doubt, Maisie Maidan
will find her young husband again, and Leonora will
burn, clear and serene, a northern light and one
of the archangels of God. And me. . . .
Well, perhaps, they will find me an elevator to run.
. . . But Florence. . . .
She should not have done it.
She should not have done it. It was playing it
too low down. She cut out poor dear Edward from
sheer vanity; she meddled between him and Leonora
from a sheer, imbecile spirit of district visiting.
Do you understand that, whilst she was Edward’s
mistress, she was perpetually trying to reunite him
to his wife? She would gabble on to Leonora about
forgiveness—treating the subject from the
bright, American point of view. And Leonora
would treat her like the whore she was. Once
she said to Florence in the early morning:
“You come to me straight out
of his bed to tell me that that is my proper place.
I know it, thank you.”
But even that could not stop Florence.
She went on saying that it was her ambition to leave
this world a little brighter by the passage of her
brief life, and how thankfully she would leave Edward,
whom she thought she had brought to a right frame
of mind, if Leonora would only give him a chance.
He needed, she said, tenderness beyond anything.
And Leonora would answer—for
she put up with this outrage for years—Leonora,
as I understand, would answer something like:
“Yes, you would give him up.
And you would go on writing to each other in secret,
and committing adultery in hired rooms. I know
the pair of you, you know. No. I prefer
the situation as it is.” Half the time
Florence would ignore Leonora’s remarks.
She would think they were not quite ladylike.
The other half of the time she would try to persuade
Leonora that her love for Edward was quite spiritual—on
account of her heart. Once she said:
“If you can believe that of
Maisie Maidan, as you say you do, why cannot you
believe it of me?” Leonora was, I understand,
doing her hair at that time in front of the mirror
in her bedroom. And she looked round at Florence,
to whom she did not usually vouchsafe a glance,—she
looked round coolly and calmly, and said:
“Never do you dare to mention
Mrs Maidan’s name again. You murdered her.
You and I murdered her between us. I am as much
a scoundrel as you. I don’t like to be
reminded of it.”
Florence went off at once into a babble
of how could she have hurt a person whom she hardly
knew, a person whom with the best intentions, in pursuance
of her efforts to leave the world a little brighter,
she had tried to save from Edward. That was how
she figured it out to herself. She really thought
that. . . . So Leonora said patiently:
“Very well, just put it that
I killed her and that it’s a painful subject.
One does not like to think that one had killed someone.
Naturally not. I ought never to have brought
her from India.” And that, indeed, is
exactly how Leonora looked at it. It is stated
a little baldly, but Leonora was always a great one
for bald statements.
What had happened on the day of our
jaunt to the ancient city of M——
had been this:
Leonora, who had been even then filled
with pity and contrition for the poor child, on returning
to our hotel had gone straight to Mrs Maidan’s
room. She had wanted just to pet her. And
she had perceived at first only, on the clear, round
table covered with red velvet, a letter addressed
to her. It ran something like:
“Oh, Mrs Ashburnham, how could
you have done it? I trusted you so. You
never talked to me about me and Edward, but I trusted
you. How could you buy me from my husband?
I have just heard how you have—in the hall
they were talking about it, Edward and the American
lady. You paid the money for me to come here.
Oh, how could you? How could you? I am going
straight back to Bunny. . . .” Bunny
was Mrs Maidan’s husband.
And Leonora said that, as she went
on reading the letter, she had, without looking round
her, a sense that that hotel room was cleared, that
there were no papers on the table, that there were
no clothes on the hooks, and that there was a strained
silence—a silence, she said, as if there
were something in the room that drank up such sounds
as there were. She had to fight against that
feeling, whilst she read the postscript of the letter.
“I did not know you wanted me
for an adulteress,” the postscript began.
The poor child was hardly literate. “It
was surely not right of you and I never wanted to
be one. And I heard Edward call me a poor little
rat to the American lady. He always called me
a little rat in private, and I did not mind.
But, if he called me it to her, I think he does not
love me any more. Oh, Mrs Ashburnham, you knew
the world and I knew nothing. I thought it would
be all right if you thought it could, and I thought
you would not have brought me if you did not, too.
You should not have done it, and we out of the same
convent. . . .”
Leonora said that she screamed when she read that.
And then she saw that Maisie’s
boxes were all packed, and she began a search for
Mrs Maidan herself—all over the hotel.
The manager said that Mrs Maidan had paid her bill,
and had gone up to the station to ask the Reiseverkehrsbureau
to make her out a plan for her immediate return to
Chitral. He imagined that he had seen her come
back, but he was not quite certain. No one in
the large hotel had bothered his head about the child.
And she, wandering solitarily in the hall, had no
doubt sat down beside a screen that had Edward and
Florence on the other side. I never heard then
or after what had passed between that precious couple.
I fancy Florence was just about beginning her cutting
out of poor dear Edward by addressing to him some
words of friendly warning as to the ravages he might
be making in the girl’s heart. That would
be the sort of way she would begin. And Edward
would have sentimentally assured her that there was
nothing in it; that Maisie was just a poor little
rat whose passage to Nauheim his wife had paid out
of her own pocket. That would have been enough
to do the trick.
For the trick was pretty efficiently
done. Leonora, with panic growing and with contrition
very large in her heart, visited every one of the
public rooms of the hotel—the dining-room,
the lounge, the schreibzimmer, the winter garden.
God knows what they wanted with a winter garden in
an hotel that is only open from May till October.
But there it was. And then Leonora ran—yes,
she ran up the stairs—to see if Maisie
had not returned to her rooms. She had determined
to take that child right away from that hideous place.
It seemed to her to be all unspeakable. I do not
mean to say that she was not quite cool about it.
Leonora was always Leonora. But the cold justice
of the thing demanded that she should play the part
of mother to this child who had come from the same
convent. She figured it out to amount to that.
She would leave Edward to Florence and to me—and
she would devote all her time to providing that child
with an atmosphere of love until she could be returned
to her poor young husband. It was naturally too
late.
She had not cared to look round Maisie’s
rooms at first. Now, as soon as she came in,
she perceived, sticking out beyond the bed, a small
pair of feet in high-heeled shoes. Maisie had
died in the effort to strap up a great portmanteau.
She had died so grotesquely that her little body had
fallen forward into the trunk, and it had closed
upon her, like the jaws of a gigantic alligator.
The key was in her hand. Her dark hair, like
the hair of a Japanese, had come down and covered
her body and her face.
Leonora lifted her up—she
was the merest featherweight—and laid her
on the bed with her hair about her. She was smiling,
as if she had just scored a goal in a hockey match.
You understand she had not committed suicide.
Her heart had just stopped. I saw her, with
the long lashes on the cheeks, with the smile about
the lips, with the flowers all about her. The
stem of a white lily rested in her hand so that the
spike of flowers was upon her shoulder. She
looked like a bride in the sunlight of the mortuary
candles that were all about her, and the white coifs
of the two nuns that knelt at her feet with their
faces hidden might have been two swans that were to
bear her away to kissing-kindness land, or wherever
it is. Leonora showed her to me. She would
not let either of the others see her. She wanted,
you know, to spare poor dear Edward’s feelings.
He never could bear the sight of a corpse. And,
since she never gave him an idea that Maisie had written
to her, he imagined that the death had been the most
natural thing in the world. He soon got over
it. Indeed, it was the one affair of his about
which he never felt much remorse.