The tide was out; the beach was deserted;
lazily flopped the warm sea. The sun beat down,
beat down hot and fiery on the fine sand, baking the
grey and blue and black and white-veined pebbles.
It sucked up the little drop of water that lay in
the hollow of the curved shells; it bleached the pink
convolvulus that threaded through and through the sand-hills.
Nothing seemed to move but the small sand-hoppers.
Pit-pit-pit! They were never still.
Over there on the weed-hung rocks
that looked at low tide like shaggy beasts come down
to the water to drink, the sunlight seemed to spin
like a silver coin dropped into each of the small
rock pools. They danced, they quivered, and
minute ripples laved the porous shores. Looking
down, bending over, each pool was like a lake with
pink and blue houses clustered on the shores; and
oh! the vast mountainous country behind those houses—the
ravines, the passes, the dangerous creeks and fearful
tracks that led to the water’s edge. Underneath
waved the sea-forest—pink thread-like trees,
velvet anemones, and orange berry-spotted weeds.
Now a stone on the bottom moved, rocked, and there
was a glimpse of a black feeler; now a thread-like
creature wavered by and was lost. Something was
happening to the pink, waving trees; they were changing
to a cold moonlight blue. And now there sounded
the faintest “plop.” Who made that
sound? What was going on down there? And
how strong, how damp the seaweed smelt in the hot
sun…
The green blinds were drawn in the
bungalows of the summer colony. Over the verandas,
prone on the paddock, flung over the fences, there
were exhausted-looking bathing-dresses and rough striped
towels. Each back window seemed to have a pair
of sand-shoes on the sill and some lumps of rock or
a bucket or a collection of pawa shells. The
bush quivered in a haze of heat; the sandy road was
empty except for the Trouts’ dog Snooker, who
lay stretched in the very middle of it. His blue
eye was turned up, his legs stuck out stiffly, and
he gave an occasional desperate-sounding puff, as
much as to say he had decided to make an end of it
and was only waiting for some kind cart to come along.
“What are you looking at, my
grandma? Why do you keep stopping and sort of
staring at the wall?”
Kezia and her grandmother were taking
their siesta together. The little girl, wearing
only her short drawers and her under-bodice, her arms
and legs bare, lay on one of the puffed-up pillows
of her grandma’s bed, and the old woman, in
a white ruffled dressing-gown, sat in a rocker at the
window, with a long piece of pink knitting in her lap.
This room that they shared, like the other rooms
of the bungalow, was of light varnished wood and the
floor was bare. The furniture was of the shabbiest,
the simplest. The dressing-table, for instance,
was a packing-case in a sprigged muslin petticoat,
and the mirror above was very strange; it was as though
a little piece of forked lightning was imprisoned
in it. On the table there stood a jar of sea-pinks,
pressed so tightly together they looked more like a
velvet pincushion, and a special shell which Kezia
had given her grandma for a pin-tray, and another
even more special which she had thought would make
a very nice place for a watch to curl up in.
“Tell me, grandma,” said Kezia.
The old woman sighed, whipped the
wool twice round her thumb, and drew the bone needle
through. She was casting on.
“I was thinking of your Uncle
William, darling,” she said quietly.
“My Australian Uncle William?” said Kezia.
She had another.
“Yes, of course.”
“The one I never saw?”
“That was the one.”
“Well, what happened to him?”
Kezia knew perfectly well, but she wanted to be told
again.
“He went to the mines, and he
got a sunstroke there and died,” said old Mrs.
Fairfield.
Kezia blinked and considered the picture
again…a little man fallen over like a tin soldier
by the side of a big black hole.
“Does it make you sad to think
about him, grandma?” She hated her grandma
to be sad.
It was the old woman’s turn
to consider. Did it make her sad? To look
back, back. To stare down the years, as Kezia
had seen her doing. To look after them as a
woman does, long after they were out of sight.
Did it make her sad? No, life was like that.
“No, Kezia.”
“But why?” asked Kezia.
She lifted one bare arm and began to draw things
in the air. “Why did Uncle William have
to die? He wasn’t old.”
Mrs. Fairfield began counting the
stitches in threes. “It just happened,”
she said in an absorbed voice.
“Does everybody have to die?” asked Kezia.
“Everybody!”
“Me?” Kezia sounded fearfully incredulous.
“Some day, my darling.”
“But, grandma.”
Kezia waved her left leg and waggled the toes.
They felt sandy. “What if I just won’t?”
The old woman sighed again and drew a long thread
from the ball.
“We’re not asked, Kezia,”
she said sadly. “It happens to all of us
sooner or later.”
Kezia lay still thinking this over.
She didn’t want to die. It meant she
would have to leave here, leave everywhere, for ever,
leave—leave her grandma. She rolled
over quickly.
“Grandma,” she said in a startled voice.
“What, my pet!”
“You’re not to die.” Kezia
was very decided.
“Ah, Kezia”—her
grandma looked up and smiled and shook her head—“don’t
let’s talk about it.”
“But you’re not to.
You couldn’t leave me. You couldn’t
not be there.” This was awful. “Promise
me you won’t ever do it, grandma,” pleaded
Kezia.
The old woman went on knitting.
“Promise me! Say never!”
But still her grandma was silent.
Kezia rolled off her bed; she couldn’t
bear it any longer, and lightly she leapt on to her
grandma’s knees, clasped her hands round the
old woman’s throat and began kissing her, under
the chin, behind the ear, and blowing down her neck.
“Say never…say never…say
never—” She gasped between the kisses.
And then she began, very softly and lightly, to tickle
her grandma.
“Kezia!” The old woman
dropped her knitting. She swung back in the
rocker. She began to tickle Kezia. “Say
never, say never, say never,” gurgled Kezia,
while they lay there laughing in each other’s
arms. “Come, that’s enough, my squirrel!
That’s enough, my wild pony!” said old
Mrs. Fairfield, setting her cap straight. “Pick
up my knitting.”
Both of them had forgotten what the “never”
was about.