They drew near and sat upon the substitutes
for seats in a circle—and the fire threw
up flame and made a glow in the fog hanging in the
black hole of a room.
It was Glad who set the battered kettle
on and when it boiled made tea. The other two
watched her, being under her spell. She handed
out slices of bread and sausage and pudding on bits
of paper. Polly fed with tremulous haste; Glad
herself with rejoicing and exulting in flavors.
Antony Dart ate bread and meat as he had eaten the
bread and dripping at the stall—accepting
his normal hunger as part of the dream.
Suddenly Glad paused in the midst of a huge bite.
“Mister,” she said, “p’raps
that cove’s waitin’ fer yer. Let’s
’ave ’im in. I’ll go and fetch
’im.”
She was getting up, but Dart was on his feet first.
“I must go,” he said. “He
is expecting me and—”
“Aw,” said Glad, “lemme
go along o’ yer, mister—jest to show
there’s no ill feelin’.”
“Very well,” he answered.
It was she who led, and he who followed.
At the door she stopped and looked round with a grin.
“Keep up the fire, Polly,”
she threw back. “Ain’t it warm and
cheerful? It’ll do the cove good to see
it.”
She led the way down the black, unsafe
stairway. She always led.
Outside the fog had thickened again,
but she went through it as if she could see her way.
At the entrance to the court the thief
was standing, leaning against the wall with fevered,
unhopeful waiting in his eyes. He moved miserably
when he saw the girl, and she called out to reassure
him.
“I ain’t up to no ’arm,”
she said; “I on’y come with the gent.”
Antony Dart spoke to him.
“Did you get food?”
The man shook his head.
“I turned faint after you left
me, and when I came to I was afraid I might miss you,”
he answered. “I daren’t lose my chance.
I bought some bread and stuffed it in my pocket.
I’ve been eating it while I’ve stood
here.”
“Come back with us,” said
Dart. “We are in a place where we have some
food.”
He spoke mechanically, and was aware
that he did so. He was a pawn pushed about upon
the board of this day’s life.
“Come on,” said the girl.
“Yer can get enough to last fer three days.”
She guided them back through the fog
until they entered the murky doorway again.
Then she almost ran up the staircase to the room they
had left.
When the door opened the thief fell
back a pace as before an unexpected thing. It
was the flare of firelight which struck upon his eyes.
He passed his hand over them.
“A fire!” he said.
“I haven’t seen one for a week.
Coming out of the blackness it gives a man a start.”
Improvident joy gleamed in Glad’s eyes.
“We’ll be warm onct,” she chuckled,
“if we ain’t never warm agaen.”
She drew her circle about the hearth
again. The thief took the place next to her
and she handed out food to him—a big slice
of meat, bread, a thick slice of pudding.
“Fill yerself up,” she said. “Then
ye’ll feel like yer can talk.”
The man tried to eat his food with
decorum, some recollection of the habits of better
days restraining him, but starved nature was too much
for him. His hands shook, his eyes filled, his
teeth tore. The rest of the circle tried not
to look at him. Glad and Polly occupied themselves
with their own food.
Antony Dart gazed at the fire.
Here he sat warming himself in a loft with a beggar,
a thief, and a helpless thing of the street.
He had come out to buy a pistol—its weight
still hung in his overcoat pocket—and he
had reached this place of whose existence he had an
hour ago not dreamed. Each step which had led
him had seemed a simple, inevitable thing, for which
he had apparently been responsible, but which he knew—
yes, somehow he knew—he had of his
own volition neither planned nor meant. Yet
here he sat—a part of the lives of the beggar,
the thief, and the poor thing of the street.
What did it mean?
“Tell me,” he said to the thief, “how
you came here.”
By this time the young fellow had
fed himself and looked less like a wolf. It
was to be seen now that he had blue-gray eyes which
were dreamy and young.
“I have always been inventing
things,” he said a little huskily. “I
did it when I was a child. I always seemed to
see there might be a way of doing a thing better—getting
more power. When other boys were playing games
I was sitting in corners trying to build models out
of wire and string, and old boxes and tin cans.
I often thought I saw the way to things, but I was
always too poor to get what was needed to work them
out. Twice I heard of men making great names
and for tunes because they had been able to finish
what I could have finished if I had had a few pounds.
It used to drive me mad and break my heart.”
His hands clenched themselves and his huskiness grew
thicker. “There was a man,” catching
his breath, “who leaped to the top of the ladder
and set the whole world talking and writing—and
I had done the thing first—I swear
I had! It was all clear in my brain, and I was
half mad with joy over it, but I could not afford
to work it out. He could, so to the end of time
it will be his.” He struck his fist
upon his knee.
“Aw!” The deep little drawl was a groan
from Glad.
“I got a place in an office
at last. I worked hard, and they began to trust
me. I—had a new idea. It was
a big one. I needed money to work it out.
I—I remembered what had happened before.
I felt like a poor fellow running a race for his
life. I knew I could pay back ten times—
a hundred times—what I took.”
“You took money?” said Dart.
The thief’s head dropped.
“No. I was caught when
I was taking it. I wasn’t sharp enough.
Someone came in and saw me, and there was a crazy
row. I was sent to prison. There was no
more trying after that. It’s nearly two
years since, and I’ve been hanging about the
streets and falling lower and lower. I’ve
run miles panting after cabs with luggage in them and
not had strength to carry in the boxes when they stopped.
I’ve starved and slept out of doors.
But the thing I wanted to work out is in my mind all
the time— like some machine tearing round.
It wants to be finished. It never will be.
That’s all.”
Glad was leaning forward staring at
him, her roughened hands with the smeared cracks on
them clasped round her knees.
“Things ’as to be
finished,” she said. “They finish
theirselves.”
“How do you know?” Dart turned on her.
“Dunno ’ow I know—but
I do. When things begin they finish. It’s
like a wheel rollin’ down an ’ill.”
Her sharp eyes fixed themselves on Dart’s.
“All of us’ll finish somethin’—’cos
we’ve begun. You will—Polly
will—’e will—I will.”
She stopped with a sudden sheepish chuckle and dropped
her forehead on her knees, giggling. “Dunno
wot I ’m talking about,” she said, “but
it’s true.”
Dart began to understand that it was.
And he also saw that this ragged thing who knew nothing
whatever, looked out on the world with the eyes of
a seer, though she was ignorant of the meaning of her
own knowledge. It was a weird thing. He
turned to the girl Polly.
“Tell me how you came here,” he said.
He spoke in a low voice and gently.
He did not want to frighten her, but he wanted to
know how she had begun. When she lifted
her childish eyes to his, her chin began to shake.
For some reason she did not question his right to
ask what he would. She answered him meekly, as
her fingers fumbled with the stuff of her dress.
“I lived in the country with
my mother,” she said. “We was very
happy together. In the spring there was primroses
and—and lambs. I—can’t
abide to look at the sheep in the park these days.
They remind me so. There was a girl in the village
got a place in town and came back and told us all
about it. It made me silly. I wanted to
come here, too. I—I came—”
She put her arm over her face and began to sob.
“She can’t tell you,”
said Glad. “There was a swell in the ’ouse
made love to her. She used to carry up coals
to ‘is parlor an’ ’e talked to ’er.
’E ’ad a wye with ’im—”
Polly broke into a smothered wail.
“Oh, I did love him so—I
did!” she cried. “I’d have
let him walk over me. I’d have let him
kill me.”
“’E nearly did it,” said Glad.
“‘E went away sudden an’ she’s
never ’eard word of ’im since.”
From under Polly’s face-hiding arm came broken
words.
“I couldn’t tell my mother.
I did not know how. I was too frightened and
ashamed. Now it’s too late. I shall
never see my mother again, and it seems as if all
the lambs and primroses in the world was dead.
Oh, they’re dead—they’re dead—and
I wish I was, too!”
Glad’s eyes winked rapidly and
she gave a hoarse little cough to clear her throat.
Her arms still clasping her knees, she hitched herself
closer to the girl and gave her a nudge with her elbow.
“Buck up, Polly,” she
said, “we ain’t none of us finished yet.
Look at us now—sittin’ by our own
fire with bread and puddin’ inside us—an’
think wot we was this mornin’. Who knows
wot we’ll ’ave this time to-morrer.”
Then she stopped and looked with a
wide grin at Antony Dart.
“Ow did I come ’ere?” she said.
“Yes,” he answered, “how did you
come here?”
“I dunno,” she said; “I
was ’ere first thing I remember. I lived
with a old woman in another ‘ouse in the court.
One mornin’ when I woke up she was dead.
Sometimes I’ve begged an’ sold matches.
Sometimes I’ve took care of women’s children
or ’elped ’em when they ’ad to lie
up. I’ve seen a lot—but I like
to see a lot. ’Ope I’ll see a lot
more afore I’m done. I’m used to
bein’ ‘ungry an’ cold, an’
all that, but—but I allers like to see
what’s comin’ to-morrer. There’s
allers somethin’ else to-morrer. That’s
all about me,” and she chuckled again.
Dart picked up some fresh sticks and
threw them on the fire. There was some fine
crackling and a new flame leaped up.
“If you could do what you liked,”
he said, “what would you like to do?”
Her chuckle became an outright laugh.
“If I ’ad ten pounds?”
she asked, evidently prepared to adjust herself in
imagination to any form of un-looked-for good luck.
“If you had more?”
His tone made the thief lift his head to look at him.
“If I ’ad a wand like the one Jem told
me was in the pantermine?”
“Yes,” he answered.
She sat and stared at the fire a few
moments, and then began to speak in a low luxuriating
voice.
“I’d get a better room,”
she said, revelling. “There’s one
in the next ’ouse. I’d ‘ave
a few sticks o’ furnisher in it—a
bed an’ a chair or two. I’d get
some warm petticuts an’ a shawl an’ a ’at—with
a ostrich feather in it. Polly an’ me
’d live together. We’d ‘ave
fire an’ grub every day. I’d get
drunken Bet’s biby put in an ’ome.
I’d ’elp the women when they ’ad
to lie up. I’d—I’d ’elp
’im a bit,” with a jerk of her elbow
toward the thief. “If ’e was kept
fed p’r’aps ’e could work out that
thing in ’is ‘ead. I’d go round
the court an’ ’elp them with ’usbands
that knocks ’em about. I’d—I’d
put a stop to the knockin’ about,” a queer
fixed look showing itself in her eyes. “If
I ’ad money I could do it. ’Ow much,”
with sudden prudence, “could a body ’ave—
with one o’ them wands?”
“More than enough to do all you have spoken
of,” answered Dart.
“It’s a shime a body couldn’t
’ave it. Apple Blossom Court ’d be
a different thing. It’d be the sime as
Miss Montaubyn says it’s goin’ to be.”
She laughed again, this time as if remembering something
fantastic, but not despicable.
“Who is Miss Montaubyn?”
“She’s a’ old woman
as lives next floor below. When she was young
she was pretty an’ used to dance in the ’alls.
Drunken Bet says she was one o’ the wust.
When she got old it made ‘er mad an’ she
got wusser. She was ready to tear gals eyes out,
an’ when she’d get took for makin’
a row she’d fight like a tiger cat. About
a year ago she tumbled downstairs when she’d
‘ad too much an’ she broke both ’er
legs. You remember, Polly?”
Polly hid her face in her hands.
“Oh, when they took her away
to the hospital!” she shuddered. “Oh,
when they lifted her up to carry her!”
“I thought Polly ’d ’ave
a fit when she ’eard ‘er screamin’
an’ swearin’. My! it was langwich!
But it was the ’orspitle did it.”
“Did what?”
“Dunno,” with an uncertain,
even slightly awed laugh. “Dunno wot it
did—neither does nobody else, but somethin’
’appened. It was along of a lidy as come
in one day an’ talked to ‘er when she was
lyin’ there. My eye,” chuckling,
“it was queer talk! But I liked it.
P’raps it was lies, but it was cheerfle lies
that ’elps yer. What I ses is—if
things ain’t cheerfle, PEOPLE’s got
to be—to fight it out. The women in
the ’ouse larft fit to kill theirselves when
she fust come ‘ome limpin’ an’ talked
to ’em about what the lidy told ’er.
But arter a bit they liked to ’ear ‘er—just
along o’ the cheerfleness. Said it was
like a pantermine. Drunken Bet says if she could
get ’old ‘f it an’ believe it sime
as Jinny Montaubyn does it’d be as cheerin’
as drink an’ last longer.”
“Is it a kind of religion?”
Dart asked, having a vague memory of rumors of fantastic
new theories and half-born beliefs which had seemed
to him weird visions floating through fagged brains
wearied by old doubts and arguments and failures.
The world was tired—the whole earth was
sad— centuries had wrought only to the
end of this twentieth century’s despair.
Was the struggle waking even here—in this
back water of the huge city’s human tide? he
wondered with dull interest.
“Is it a kind of religion?” he said.
“It’s cheerfler.”
Glad thrust out her sharp chin uncertainly again.
“There’s no ‘ell fire in it.
An’ there ain’t no blime laid on Godamighty.”
(The word as she uttered it seemed to have no connection
whatever with her usual colloquial invocation of the
Deity.) “When a dray run over little Billy
an’ crushed ‘im inter a rag, an’
’is mother was screamin’ an’ draggin’
’er ’air down, the curick ’e ses,
’It’s Gawd’s will,’ ‘e
ses—an’ ‘e ain’t no bad
sort neither, an’ ’is fice was white an’
wet with sweat—’Gawd done it,’
‘e ses. An’ me, I’d nussed the
child an’ I clawed me ’air sime as if I
was ‘is mother an’ I screamed out, ’Then
damn ‘im!’ An’ the curick ‘e
dropped sittin’ down on the curbstone an’
’id ’is fice in ’is ’ands.”
Dart hid his own face after the manner
of the wretched curate.
“No wonder,” he groaned. His blood
turned cold.
“But,” said Glad, “Miss
Montaubyn’s lidy she says Godamighty never done
it nor never intended it, an’ if we kep’
sayin’ an’ believin’ ’e’s
close to us an’ not millyuns o’ miles away,
we’d be took care of whilst we was alive an’
not ’ave to wait till we was dead.”
She got up on her feet and threw up
her arms with a sudden jerk and involuntary gesture.
“I ’m alive! I ’m
alive!” she cried out, “I’ve got
ter be took care of now! That’s why
I like wot she tells about it. So does the women.
We ain’t no more reason ter be sure of wot the
curick says than ter be sure o’ this.
Dunno as I’ve got ter choose either way, but
if I ’ad, I’d choose the cheerflest.”
Dart had sat staring at her—so
had Polly—so had the thief. Dart
rubbed his forehead.
“I do not understand,” he said.
“‘T ain’t understanding!
It’s believin’. Bless yer, she
doesn’t understand. I say, let’s
go an’ talk to ’er a bit. She don’t
mind nothin’, an’ she’ll let us
in. We can leave Polly an’ ’im ’ere.
They can make some more tea an’ drink it.”
It ended in their going out of the
room together again and stumbling once more down the
stairway’s crookedness. At the bottom of
the first short flight they stopped in the darkness
and Glad knocked at a door with a summons manifestly
expectant of cheerful welcome. She used the
formula she had used before.
“’S on’y me, Miss
Montaubyn,” she cried out. “’S on’y
Glad.”
The door opened in wide welcome, and
confronting them as she held its handle stood a small
old woman with an astonishing face. It was astonishing
because while it was withered and wrinkled with marks
of past years which had once stamped their reckless
unsavoriness upon its every line, some strange redeeming
thing had happened to it and its expression was that
of a creature to whom the opening of a door could
only mean the entrance—the tumbling in as
it were—of hopes realized. Its surface
was swept clean of even the vaguest anticipation of
anything not to be desired. Smiling as it did
through the black doorway into the unrelieved shadow
of the passage, it struck Antony Dart at once that
it actually implied this—and that in this
place—and indeed in any place—nothing
could have been more astonishing. What could,
indeed?
“Well, well,” she said, “come in,
Glad, bless yer.”
“I’ve brought a gent to ’ear yer
talk a bit,” Glad explained informally.
The small old woman raised her twinkling old face
to look at him.
“Ah!” she said, as if
summing up what was before her. “’E thinks
it’s worse than it is, doesn’t ’e,
now? Come in, sir, do.”
This time it struck Dart that her
look seemed actually to anticipate the evolving of
some wonderful and desirable thing from himself.
As if even his gloom carried with it treasure as
yet undisplayed. As she knew nothing of the
ten sovereigns, he wondered what, in God’s name,
she saw.
The poverty of the little square room
had an odd cheer in it. Much scrubbing had removed
from it the objections manifest in Glad’s room
above. There was a small red fire in the grate,
a strip of old, but gay carpet before it, two chairs
and a table were covered with a harlequin patchwork
made of bright odds and ends of all sizes and shapes.
The fog in all its murky volume could not quite obscure
the brightness of the often rubbed window and its
harlequin curtain drawn across upon a string.
“Bless yer,” said Miss Montaubyn, “sit
down.”
Dart sat and thanked her. Glad
dropped upon the floor and girdled her knees comfortably
while Miss Montaubyn took the second chair, which was
close to the table, and snuffed the candle which stood
near a basket of colored scraps such as, without doubt,
had made the harlequin curtain.
“Yer won’t mind me goin’
on with me bit o’ work?” she chirped.
“Tell ’im wot it is,” Glad suggested.
“They come from a dressmaker
as is in a small way,” designating the scraps
by a gesture. “I clean up for ‘er
an’ she lets me ’ave ’em. I
make ’em up into anythink I can—pin-cushions
an’ bags an’ curtings an’ balls.
Nobody’d think wot they run to sometimes.
Now an’ then I sell some of ’em.
Wot I can’t sell I give away.”
“Drunken Bet’s biby plays
with ’er ball all day,” said Glad.
“Ah!” said Miss Montaubyn,
drawing out a long needleful of thread, “Bet,
she thinks it worse than it is.”
“Could it be worse?” asked
Dart. “Could anything be worse than everything
is?”
“Lots,” suggested Glad;
“might ’ave broke your back, might ’ave
a fever, might be in jail for knifin’ someone.
’E wants to ’ear you talk, Miss Montaubyn;
tell ’im all about yerself.”
“Me!” her expectant eyes
on him. “’E wouldn’t want to ’ear
it. I shouldn’t want to ‘ear it
myself. Bein’ on the ’alls when yer
a pretty girl ain’t an ‘elpful life; an’
bein’ took up an’ dropped down till yer
dropped in the gutter an’ don’t know ’ow
to get out—it’s wot yer mustn’t
let yer mind go back to.”
“That’s wot the lidy said,”
called out Glad. “Tell ’im about
the lidy. She doesn’t even know who she
was.” The remark was tossed to Dart.
“Never even ’eard ’er
name,” with unabated cheer said Miss Montaubyn.
“She come an’ she went an’ me too
low to do anything but lie an’ look at ‘er
and listen. An’ ‘Which of us two
is mad?’ I ses to myself. But I lay thinkin’
and thinkin’—an’ it was so cheerfle
I couldn’t get it out of me ’ead—nor
never ’ave since.”
“What did she say?”
“I couldn’t remember the
words—it was the way they took away things
a body’s afraid of. It was about things
never ‘avin’ really been like wot we thought
they was. Godamighty now, there ain’t a
bit of ’arm in ’im.”
“What?” he said with a start.
“’E never done the accidents
and the trouble. It was us as went out of the
light into the dark. If we’d kep’
in the light all the time, an’ thought about
it, an’ talked about it, we’d never ‘ad
nothin’ else. ’Tain’t punishment
neither. ‘T ain’t nothin’ but
the dark—an’ the dark ain’t
nothin’ but the light bein’ away.
‘Keep in the light,’ she ses, ‘never
think of nothin’ else, an’ then you’ll
begin an’ see things. Everybody’s
been afraid. There ain’t no need.
You believe that.’”
“Believe?” said Dart heavily.
She nodded.
“‘Yes,’ ses I to
’er, ‘that’s where the trouble comes
in—believin’.’ And she
answers as cool as could be: ‘Yes, it is,’
she ses, ’we’ve all been thinkin’
we’ve been believin’, an’ none of
us ’as. If we ’ad what ‘d
there be to be afraid of? If we believed a king
was givin’ us our livin’ an’ takin’
care of us who’d be afraid of not ‘avin’
enough to eat?’”
“Who?” groaned Dart.
He sat hanging his head and staring at the floor.
This was another phase of the dream.
“’Where is ‘E?’
I ses. ‘’Im as breaks old women’s
legs an’ crushes babies under wheels—so
as they’ll be resigned?’ An’ all
of a sudden she calls out quite loud: ‘Nowhere,’
she ses. ‘An’ never was. But
’Im as stretched forth the ‘eavens an’
laid the foundations of the earth, ‘Im as is
the Life an’ Love of the world, ’E’s
’ere! Stretch out yer ‘and,’
she ses, ‘an’ call out, “Speak, Lord,
thy servant ‘eareth,” an’ ye’ll
‘ear an’ see.
“‘An’ never you
stop sayin’ it—let yer ‘eart
beat it an’ yer breath breathe it—an’
yer ‘ll find yer goin’ about laughin’
soft to yerself an’ lovin’ everythin’
as if it was yer own child at breast. An’
no ’arm can come to yer. Try it when yer
go ‘ome.’”
“Did you?” asked Dart.
Glad answered for her with a tremulous—yes
it was a tremulous—giggle, a weirdly
moved little sound.
“When she wakes in the mornin’
she ses to ’erself, ‘Good things is goin’
to come to-day—cheerfle things.’
When there’s a knock at the door she ses, ‘Somethin’
friendly’s comin’ in.’ An’
when Drunken Bet’s makin’ a row an’
ragin’ an’ tearin’ an’ threatenin’
to ’ave ’er eyes out of ’er fice,
she ses, ’Lor, Bet, yer don’t mean a word
of it—yer a friend to every woman in the
‘ouse.’ When she don’t know
which way to turn, she stands still an’ ses,
’Speak, Lord, thy servant ‘eareth,’
an’ then she does wotever next comes into ‘er
mind—an’ she says it’s allus
the right answer. Sometimes,” sheepishly,
“I’ve tried it myself—p’raps
it’s true. I did it this mornin’
when I sat down an’ pulled me sack over me ’ead
on the bridge. Polly ‘d been cryin’
so loud all night I’d got a bit low in me stummick
an’—” She stopped suddenly
and turned on Dart as if light had flashed across
her mind. “Dunno nothin’ about it,”
she stammered, “but I said it—just
like she does—an’ you come!”
Plainly she had uttered whatever words
she had used in the form of a sort of incantation,
and here was the result in the living body of this
man sitting before her. She stared hard at him,
repeating her words: “You come.
Yes, you did.”
“It was the answer,” said
Miss Montaubyn, with entire simplicity as she bit
off her thread, “that’s wot it was.”
Antony Dart lifted his heavy head.
“You believe it,” he said.
“I ‘m livin’ on
believin’ it,” she said confidingly.
“I ain’t got nothin’ else.
An’ answers keeps comin’ and comin’.”
“What answers?”
“Bits o’ work—an’ things
as ’elps. Glad there, she’s one.”
“Aw,” said Glad, “I
ain’t nothin’. I likes to ’ear
yer tell about it. She ses,” to Dart again,
a little slowly, as she watched his face with curiously
questioning eyes—“she ses ’e’s
in the room—same as ’E’s everywhere—in
this ’ere room. Sometimes she talks out
loud to ’Im.”
“What!” cried Dart, startled again.
The strange Majestic Awful Idea—the
Deity of the Ages—to be spoken of as a
mere unfeared Reality! And even as the vaguely
formed thought sprang in his brain he started once
more, suddenly confronted by the meaning his sense
of shock implied. What had all the sermons of
all the centuries been preaching but that it was Reality?
What had all the infidels of every age contended
but that it was Unreal, and the folly of a dream?
He had never thought of himself as an infidel; perhaps
it would have shocked him to be called one, though
he was not quite sure. But that a little superannuated
dancer at music-halls, battered and worn by an unlawful
life, should sit and smile in absolute faith at such
a—a superstition as this, stirred something
like awe in him.
For she was smiling in entire acquiescence.
“It’s what the curick
ses,” she enlarged radiantly. “Though
’e don t believe it, pore young man; ’e
on’y thinks ’e does. ’It’s
for ‘igh an’ low,’ ’e ses,
‘for you an’ me as well as for them as
is royal fambleys. The Almighty ‘E’s
everywhere!’ ‘Yes,’ ses I, ’I’ve
felt ’Im ’ere—as near as y’
are yerself, sir, I ‘ave—an’
I’ve spoke to ‘Im.”’
“What did the curate say?” Dart asked,
amazed.
“Seemed like it frightened ’im
a bit. ’We mustn’t be too bold, Miss
Montaubyn, my dear,’ ’e ses, for ’e’s
a kind young man as ever lived, an’ often ses
‘my dear’ to them ‘e’s comfortin’.
But yer see the lidy ‘ad gave me a Bible o’
me own an’ I’d set ‘ere an’
read it, an’ read it an’ learned verses
to say to meself when I was in bed—an’
I’d got ter feel like it was someone talkin’
to me an’ makin’ me understand. So
I ses, ‘’T ain’t boldness we’re
warned against; it’s not lovin’ an’
trustin’ enough, an’ not askin’ an’
believin’ true. Don’t yer remember
wot it ses: “I, even I, am ’e that
comforteth yer. Who art thou that thou art afraid
of man that shall die an’ the son of man that
shall be made as grass, an’ forgetteth Jehovah
thy Creator, that stretched forth the ‘eavens
an’ laid the foundations of the earth?”
an’ “I’ve covered thee with the
shadder of me ‘and,” it ses; an’
“I will go before thee an’ make the rough
places smooth;” an’ “’Itherto
ye ‘ave asked nothin’ in my name; ask
therefore that ye may receive, an’ yer joy may
be made full.”’ An’ ’e looked down
on the floor as if ‘e was doin’ some ’ard
thinkin’, pore young man, an’ ‘e
ses, quite sudden an’ shaky, ’Lord, I
believe, ‘elp thou my unbelief,’ an’
’e ses it as if ’e was in trouble an’
didn’t know ’e’d spoke out loud.”
“Where—how did you
come upon your verses?” said Dart. “How
did you find them?”
“Ah,” triumphantly, “they
was all answers—they was the first answers
I ever ’ad. When I first come ‘ome
an’ it seemed as if I was goin’ to be
swep’ away in the dirt o’ the street—one
day when I was near drove wild with cold an’
‘unger, I set down on the floor an’ I dragged
the Bible to me an’ I ses: ‘There
ain’t nothin’ on earth or in ’ell
as ’ll ’elp me. I’m goin’
to do wot the lidy said—mad or not.’
An’ I ’eld the book— an’
I ’eld my breath, too, ‘cos it was like
waitin’ for the end o’ the world—an’
after a bit I ’ears myself call out in a ’oller
whisper, ’Speak, Lord, thy servant ’eareth.
Show me a ‘ope.’ An’ I was
tremblin’ all over when I opened the book.
An’ there it was! ’I will go before
thee an’ make the rough places smooth, I will
break in pieces the doors of brass and will cut in
sunder the bars of iron.’ An’ I knowed
it was a answer.”
“You—knew—it—was
an answer?”
“Wot else was it?” with
a shining face. “I’d arst for it,
an’ there it was. An’ in about a
hour Glad come runnin’ up ‘ere, an’
she’d ’ad a bit o’ luck—”
“‘T wasn’t nothin’
much,” Glad broke in deprecatingly, “on’y
I’d got somethin’ to eat an’ a bit
o’ fire.”
“An’ she made me go an’
’ave a ‘earty meal, an’ set an’
warm meself. An’ she was that cheerfle
an’ full o’ pluck, she ’elped me
to forget about the things that was makin’ me
into a madwoman. She was the answer—
same as the book ’ad promised. They comes
in different wyes the answers does. Bless yer,
they don’t come in claps of thunder an’
streaks o’ lightenin’—they
just comes easy an’ natural—so’s
sometimes yer don’t think for a minit or two
that they’re answers at all. But it comes
to yer in a bit an’ yer ‘eart stands still
for joy. An’ ever since then I just go
to me book an’ arst. P’raps,”
her smile an illuminating thing, “me bein’
the low an’ pore in spirit at the beginnin’,
an’ settin’ ‘ere all alone by me-self
day in an’ day out, just thinkin’ it all
over—an’ arstin’—an’
waitin’—p’raps light was gave
me ’cos I was in such a little place an’
in the dark. But I ain’t pore in spirit
now. Lor’, no, yer can’t be when
yer’ve on’y got to believe. ‘An’
’itherto ye ‘ave arst nothin’ in
my name; arst therefore that ye may receive an’
yer joy be made full.’”
“Am I sitting here listening
to an old female reprobate’s disquisition on
religion?” passed through Antony Dart’s
mind. “Why am I listening? I am doing
it because here is a creature who believes—knowing
no doctrine, knowing no church. She believes—she
thinks she knows her Deity is by her side.
She is not afraid. To her simpleness the awful
Unknown is the Known—and with her.”
“Suppose it were true,”
he uttered aloud, in response to a sense of inward
tremor, “suppose—it—were—true?”
And he was not speaking either to the woman or the
girl, and his forehead was damp.
“Gawd!” said Glad, her
chin almost on her knees, her eyes staring fearsomely.
“S’pose it was—an’ us
sittin’ ‘ere an’ not knowin’
it—an’ no one knowin’ it—nor
gettin’ the good of it. Sime as if—”
pondering hard in search of simile, “sime as
if no one ’ad never knowed about ‘lectricity,
an’ there wasn’t no ’lectric lights
nor no ’lectric nothin’. Onct nobody
knowed, an’ all the sime it was there—jest
waitin’.”
Her fantastic laugh ended for her
with a little choking, vaguely hysteric sound.
“Blimme,” she said.
“Ain’t it queer, us not knowin’—if
it’s true.”
Antony Dart bent forward in his chair.
He looked far into the eyes of the ex-dancer as if
some unseen thing within them might answer him.
Miss Montaubyn herself for the moment he did not see.
“What,” he stammered hoarsely,
his voice broken with awe, “what of the hideous
wrongs—the woes and horrors—and
hideous wrongs?”
“There wouldn’t be none
if we was right—if we never thought
nothin’ but ’Good’s comin’—good
’s ‘ere.’ If we everyone of
us thought it—every minit of every day.”
She did not know she was speaking
of a millennium—the end of the world.
She sat by her one candle, threading her needle and
believing she was speaking of To-day.
He laughed a hollow laugh.
“If we were right!” he
said. “It would take long—long—long—to
make us all so.”
“It would be slow p’raps.
Well, so it would—but good comes quick
for them as begins callin’ it. It’s
been quick for me,” drawing her thread
through the needle’s eye triumphantly.
“Lor’, yes, me legs is better—
me luck’s better—people’s better.
Bless yer, yes!”
“It’s true,” said
Glad; “she gets on somehow. Things comes.
She never wants no drink. Me now,” she
applied to Miss Montaubyn, “if I took it up
same as you—wot’d come to a gal like
me?”
“Wot ud yer want ter come?”
Dart saw that in her mind was an absolute lack of
any premonition of obstacle. “Wot’d
yer arst fer in yer own mind?”
Glad reflected profoundly.
“Polly,” she said, “she
wants to go ’ome to ‘er mother an’
to the country. I ain’t got no mother an’
wot I ’ear of the country seems like I’d
get tired of it. Nothin’ but quiet an’
lambs an’ birds an’ things growin.’
Me, I likes things goin’ on. I likes people
an’ ’and organs an’ ’buses.
I’d stay ’ere—same as I told
you,” with a jerk of her hand toward Dart.
“An’ do things in the court—if
I ‘ad a bit o’ money. I don’t
want to live no gay life when I ’m a woman.
It’s too ’ard. Us pore uns ends
too bad. Wisht I knowed I could get on some ’ow.”
“Good ’ll come,”
said Miss Montaubyn. “Just you say the
same as me every mornin’—’Good’s
fillin’ the world, an’ some of it’s
comin’ to me. It’s bein’ sent—an’
I ‘m goin’ to meet it. It’s
comin’—it’s comin’.’”
She bent forward and touched the girl’s shoulder
with her astonishing eyes alight. “Bless
yer, wot’s in my room’s in yours; Lor’,
yes.”
Glad’s eyes stared into hers,
they became mysteriously, almost awesomely, astonishing
also.
“Is it?” she breathed in a hushed voice.
“Yes, Lor’, yes!
When yer get up in the mornin’ you just stand
still an’ arst it. ‘Speak,
Lord,’ ses you; ‘speak, Lord—’”
“Thy servant ’eareth,”
ended Glad’s hushed speech. “Blimme,
but I ’m goin’ to try it!”
Perhaps the brain of her saw it still
as an incantation, perhaps the soul of her, called
up strangely out of the dark and still new-born and
blind and vague, saw it vaguely and half blindly as
something else.
Dart was wondering which of these things were true.
“We’ve never been expectin’
nothin’ that’s good,” said Miss Montaubyn.
“We ‘re allus expectin’ the other.
Who isn’t? I was allus expectin’
rheumatiz an’ ‘unger an’ cold an’
starvin’ old age. Wot was you lookin’
for?” to Dart.
He looked down on the floor and answered heavily.
“Failing brain—failing life—despair—death!”
“None of ’em’s comin’—if
yer don’t call ’em. Stand still an’
listen for the other. It’s the other that’s
true.”
She was without doubt amazing.
She chirped like a bird singing on a bough, rejoicing
in token of the shining of the sun.
“It’s wot yer can work
on—this,” said Glad. “The
curick—’e’s a good sort an’
no’ ’arm in ’im—but ’e
ses: ‘Trouble an’ ’unger is
ter teach yer ter submit. Accidents an’
coughs as tears yer lungs is sent you to prepare yer
for ’eaven. If yer loves ’Im as sends
’em, yer ’ll go there.’ ‘’Ave
yer ever bin?’ ses I. ’’Ave yer ever
saw anyone that’s bin? ‘Ave yer
ever saw anyone that’s saw anyone that’s
bin?’ ‘No,’ ’e ses.
‘Don’t, me girl, don’t!’ ‘Garn,’
I ses; ‘tell me somethin’ as ’ll
do me some good afore I’m dead! ‘Eaven’s
too far off.’”
“The kingdom of ’eaven
is at ’and,” said Miss Montaubyn.
“Bless yer, yes, just ’ere.”
Antony Dart glanced round the room.
It was a strange place. But something was
here. Magic, was it? Frenzy—dreams—what?
He heard from below a sudden murmur
and crying out in the street. Miss Montaubyn
heard it and stopped in her sewing, holding her needle
and thread extended.
Glad heard it and sprang to her feet.
“Somethin’s ’appened,” she
cried out. “Someone’s ’urt.”
She was out of the room in a breath’s
space. She stood outside listening a few seconds
and darted back to the open door, speaking through
it. They could hear below commotion, exclamations,
the wail of a child.
“Somethin’s ’appened
to Bet!” she cried out again. “I
can ’ear the child.”
She was gone and flying down the staircase;
Antony Dart and Miss Montaubyn rose together.
The tumult was increasing; people were running about
in the court, and it was plain a crowd was forming
by the magic which calls up crowds as from nowhere
about the door. The child’s screams rose
shrill above the noise. It was no small thing
which had occurred.
“I must go,” said Miss
Montaubyn, limping away from her table. “P’raps
I can ’elp. P’raps you can ’elp,
too,” as he followed her.
They were met by Glad at the threshold.
She had shot back to them, panting.
“She was blind drunk,”
she said, “an’ she went out to get more.
She tried to cross the street an’ fell under
a car. She’ll be dead in five minits.
I’m goin’ for the biby.”
Dart saw Miss Montaubyn step back
into her room. He turned involuntarily to look
at her.
She stood still a second—so
still that it seemed as if she was not drawing mortal
breath. Her astonishing, expectant eyes closed
themselves, and yet in closing spoke expectancy still.
“Speak, Lord,” she said
softly, but as if she spoke to Something whose nearness
to her was such that her hand might have touched it.
“Speak, Lord, thy servant ’eareth.”
Antony Dart almost felt his hair rise.
He quaked as she came near, her poor clothes brushing
against him. He drew back to let her pass first,
and followed her leading.
The court was filled with men, women,
and children, who surged about the doorway, talking,
crying, and protesting against each other’s crowding.
Dart caught a glimpse of a policeman fighting his way
through with a doctor. A dishevelled woman with
a child at her dirty, bare breast had got in and was
talking loudly.
“Just outside the court it was,”
she proclaimed, “an’ I saw it. If
she’d bin ’erself it couldn’t ’ave
’appened. ’No time for ‘osspitles,’
ses I. She’s not twenty breaths to dror; let
’er die in ’er own bed, pore thing!”
And both she and her baby breaking into wails at one
and the same time, other women, some hysteric, some
maudlin with gin, joined them in a terrified outburst.
“Get out, you women,”
commanded the doctor, who had forced his way across
the threshold. “Send them away, officer,”
to the policeman.
There were others to turn out of the
room itself, which was crowded with morbid or terrified
creatures, all making for confusion. Glad had
seized the child and was forcing her way out into such
air as there was outside.
The bed—a strange and loathly
thing—stood by the empty, rusty fireplace.
Drunken Bet lay on it, a bundle of clothing over which
the doctor bent for but a few minutes before he turned
away.
Antony Dart, standing near the door,
heard Miss Montaubyn speak to him in a whisper.
“May I go to ’er?” and the doctor
nodded.
She limped lightly forward and her
small face was white, but expectant still. What
could she expect now—O Lord, what?
An extraordinary thing happened.
An abnormal silence fell. The owners of such
faces as on stretched necks caught sight of her seemed
in a flash to communicate with others in the crowd.
“Jinny Montaubyn!” someone
whispered. And “Jinny Montaubyn”
was passed along, leaving an awed stirring in its
wake. Those whom the pressure outside had crushed
against the wall near the window in a passionate hurry,
breathed on and rubbed the panes that they might lay
their faces to them. One tore out the rags stuffed
in a broken place and listened breathlessly.
Jinny Montaubyn was kneeling down
and laying her small old hand on the muddied forehead.
She held it there a second or so and spoke in a voice
whose low clearness brought back at once to Dart the
voice in which she had spoken to the Something upstairs.
“Bet,” she said, “Bet.”
And then more soft still and yet more clear, “Bet,
my dear.”
It seemed incredible, but it was a
fact. Slowly the lids of the woman’s eyes
lifted and the pupils fixed themselves on Jinny Montaubyn,
who leaned still closer and spoke again.
“’T ain’t true,”
she said. “Not this. ’T ain’t
true. There is no death,”
slow and soft, but passionately distinct. “There—is—no—
death.”
The muscles of the woman’s face
twisted it into a rueful smile. The three words
she dragged out were so faint that perhaps none but
Dart’s strained ears heard them.
“Wot—price—me?”
The soul of her was loosening fast
and straining away, but Jinny Montaubyn followed it.
“There—is—no—death,”
and her low voice had the tone of a slender silver
trumpet. “In a minit yer ’ll know—in
a minit. Lord,” lifting her expectant
face, “show her the wye.”
Mysteriously the clouds were clearing
from the sodden face—mysteriously.
Miss Montaubyn watched them as they were swept away!
A minute—two minutes—and they
were gone. Then she rose noiselessly and stood
looking down, speaking quite simply as if to herself.
“Ah,” she breathed, “she
does know now—fer sure an’ certain.”
Then Antony Dart, turning slightly,
realized that a man who had entered the house and
been standing near him, breathing with light quickness,
since the moment Miss Montaubyn had knelt, was plainly
the person Glad had called the “curick,”
and that he had bowed his head and covered his eyes
with a hand which trembled.