XI.
THE STORY OF THE LATE MR. ELVESHAM.
I set this story down, not expecting
it will be believed, but, if possible, to prepare
a way of escape for the next victim. He, perhaps,
may profit by my misfortune. My own case, I know,
is hopeless, and I am now in some measure prepared
to meet my fate.
My name is Edward George Eden.
I was born at Trentham, in Staffordshire, my father
being employed in the gardens there. I lost my
mother when I was three years old, and my father when
I was five, my uncle, George Eden, then adopting me
as his own son. He was a single man, self-educated,
and well-known in Birmingham as an enterprising journalist;
he educated me generously, fired my ambition to succeed
in the world, and at his death, which happened four
years ago, left me his entire fortune, a matter of
about five hundred pounds after all outgoing charges
were paid. I was then eighteen. He advised
me in his will to expend the money in completing my
education. I had already chosen the profession
of medicine, and through his posthumous generosity
and my good fortune in a scholarship competition,
I became a medical student at University College, London.
At the time of the beginning of my story I lodged
at 11A University Street in a little upper room, very
shabbily furnished and draughty, overlooking the back
of Shoolbred’s premises. I used this little
room both to live in and sleep in, because I was anxious
to eke out my means to the very last shillings-worth.
I was taking a pair of shoes to be
mended at a shop in the Tottenham Court Road when
I first encountered the little old man with the yellow
face, with whom my life has now become so inextricably
entangled. He was standing on the kerb, and staring
at the number on the door in a doubtful way, as I
opened it. His eyes—they were dull
grey eyes, and reddish under the rims—fell
to my face, and his countenance immediately assumed
an expression of corrugated amiability.
“You come,” he said, “apt
to the moment. I had forgotten the number of
your house. How do you do, Mr. Eden?”
I was a little astonished at his familiar
address, for I had never set eyes on the man before.
I was a little annoyed, too, at his catching me with
my boots under my arm. He noticed my lack of cordiality.
“Wonder who the deuce I am,
eh? A friend, let me assure you. I have seen
you before, though you haven’t seen me.
Is there anywhere where I can talk to you?”
I hesitated. The shabbiness of
my room upstairs was not a matter for every stranger.
“Perhaps,” said I, “we might walk
down the street. I’m unfortunately prevented—”
My gesture explained the sentence before I had spoken
it.
“The very thing,” he said,
and faced this way, and then that. “The
street? Which way shall we go?” I slipped
my boots down in the passage. “Look here!”
he said abruptly; “this business of mine is a
rigmarole. Come and lunch with me, Mr. Eden.
I’m an old man, a very old man, and not good
at explanations, and what with my piping voice and
the clatter of the traffic——”
He laid a persuasive skinny hand that
trembled a little upon my arm.
I was not so old that an old man might
not treat me to a lunch. Yet at the same time
I was not altogether pleased by this abrupt invitation.
“I had rather——” I began.
“But I had rather,” he said, catching me
up, “and a certain civility is surely due to
my grey hairs.”
And so I consented, and went with him.
He took me to Blavitiski’s;
I had to walk slowly to accommodate myself to his
paces; and over such a lunch as I had never tasted
before, he fended off my leading question, and I took
a better note of his appearance. His clean-shaven
face was lean and wrinkled, his shrivelled, lips fell
over a set of false teeth, and his white hair was
thin and rather long; he seemed small to me,—though
indeed, most people seemed small to me,—and
his shoulders were rounded and bent. And watching
him, I could not help but observe that he too was
taking note of me, running his eyes, with a curious
touch of greed in them, over me, from my broad shoulders
to my suntanned hands, and up to my freckled face
again. “And now,” said he, as we
lit our cigarettes, “I must tell you of the business
in hand.
“I must tell you, then, that
I am an old man, a very old man.” He paused
momentarily. “And it happens that I have
money that I must presently be leaving, and never
a child have I to leave it to.” I thought
of the confidence trick, and resolved I would be on
the alert for the vestiges of my five hundred pounds.
He proceeded to enlarge on his loneliness, and the
trouble he had to find a proper disposition of his
money. “I have weighed this plan and that
plan, charities, institutions, and scholarships, and
libraries, and I have come to this conclusion at last,”—he
fixed his eyes on my face,—“that
I will find some young fellow, ambitious, pure-minded,
and poor, healthy in body and healthy in mind, and,
in short, make him my heir, give him all that I have.”
He repeated, “Give him all that I have.
So that he will suddenly be lifted out of all the trouble
and struggle in which his sympathies have been educated,
to freedom and influence.”
I tried to seem disinterested.
With a transparent hypocrisy I said, “And you
want my help, my professional services maybe, to find
that person.”
He smiled, and looked at me over his
cigarette, and I laughed at his quiet exposure of
my modest pretence.
“What a career such a man might
have!” he said. “It fills me with
envy to think how I have accumulated that another
man may spend——
“But there are conditions, of
course, burdens to be imposed. He must, for instance,
take my name. You cannot expect everything without
some return. And I must go into all the circumstances
of his life before I can accept him. He must
be sound. I must know his heredity, how his parents
and grandparents died, have the strictest inquiries
made into his private morals.”
This modified my secret congratulations a little.
“And do I understand,” said I, “that
I——”
“Yes,” he said, almost fiercely.
“You. You.”
I answered never a word. My imagination
was dancing wildly, my innate scepticism was useless
to modify its transports. There was not a particle
of gratitude in my mind—I did not know what
to say nor how to say it. “But why me in
particular?” I said at last.
He had chanced to hear of me from
Professor Haslar; he said, as a typically sound and
sane young man, and he wished, as far as possible,
to leave his money where health and integrity were
assured.
That was my first meeting with the
little old man. He was mysterious about himself;
he would not give his name yet, he said, and after
I had answered some questions of his, he left me at
the Blavitiski portal. I noticed that he drew
a handful of gold coins from his pocket when it came
to paying for the lunch. His insistence upon
bodily health was curious. In accordance with
an arrangement we had made I applied that day for a
life policy in the Loyal Insurance Company for a large
sum, and I was exhaustively overhauled by the medical
advisers of that company in the subsequent week.
Even that did not satisfy him, and he insisted I must
be re-examined by the great Doctor Henderson.
It was Friday in Whitsun week before
he came to a decision. He called me down, quite
late in the evening,—nearly nine it was,—from
cramming chemical equations for my Preliminary Scientific
examination. He was standing in the passage under
the feeble gas-lamp, and his face was a grotesque
interplay of shadows. He seemed more bowed than
when I had first seen him, and his cheeks had sunk
in a little.
His voice shook with emotion.
“Everything is satisfactory, Mr. Eden,”
he said. “Everything is quite, quite satisfactory.
And this night of all nights, you must dine with me
and celebrate your—accession.”
He was interrupted by a cough. “You won’t
have long to wait, either,” he said, wiping
his handkerchief across his lips, and gripping my hand
with his long bony claw that was disengaged.
“Certainly not very long to wait.”
We went into the street and called
a cab. I remember every incident of that drive
vividly, the swift, easy motion, the vivid contrast
of gas and oil and electric light, the crowds of people
in the streets, the place in Regent Street to which
we went, and the sumptuous dinner we were served with
there. I was disconcerted at first by the well-dressed
waiter’s glances at my rough clothes, bothered
by the stones of the olives, but as the champagne
warmed my blood, my confidence revived. At first
the old man talked of himself. He had already
told me his name in the cab; he was Egbert Elvesham,
the great philosopher, whose name I had known since
I was a lad at school. It seemed incredible to
me that this man, whose intelligence had so early
dominated mine, this great abstraction, should suddenly
realise itself as this decrepit, familiar figure.
I daresay every young fellow who has suddenly fallen
among celebrities has felt something of my disappointment.
He told me now of the future that the feeble streams
of his life would presently leave dry for me, houses,
copyrights, investments; I had never suspected that
philosophers were so rich. He watched me drink
and eat with a touch of envy. “What a capacity
for living you have!” he said; and then with
a sigh, a sigh of relief I could have thought it,
“it will not be long.”
“Ay,” said I, my head
swimming now with champagne; “I have a future
perhaps—of a passing agreeable sort, thanks
to you. I shall now have the honour of your name.
But you have a past. Such a past as is worth all
my future.”
He shook his head and smiled, as I
thought, with half sad appreciation of my flattering
admiration. “That future,” he said,
“would you in truth change it?” The waiter
came with liqueurs. “You will not perhaps
mind taking my name, taking my position, but would
you indeed—willingly—take my
years?”
“With your achievements,” said I gallantly.
He smiled again. “Kummel—both,”
he said to the waiter, and turned his attention to
a little paper packet he had taken from his pocket.
“This hour,” said he, “this after-dinner
hour is the hour of small things. Here is a scrap
of my unpublished wisdom.” He opened the
packet with his shaking yellow fingers, and showed
a little pinkish powder on the paper. “This,”
said he—“well, you must guess what
it is. But Kummel—put but a dash of
this powder in it—is Himmel.”
His large greyish eyes watched mine
with an inscrutable expression.
It was a bit of a shock to me to find
this great teacher gave his mind to the flavour of
liqueurs. However, I feigned an interest in his
weakness, for I was drunk enough for such small sycophancy.
He parted the powder between the little
glasses, and, rising suddenly, with a strange unexpected
dignity, held out his hand towards me. I imitated
his action, and the glasses rang. “To a
quick succession,” said he, and raised his glass
towards his lips.
“Not that,” I said hastily. “Not
that.”
He paused with the liqueur at the
level of his chin, and his eyes blazing into mine.
“To a long life,” said I.
He hesitated. “To a long
life,” said he, with a sudden bark of laughter,
and with eyes fixed on one another we tilted the little
glasses. His eyes looked straight into mine,
and as I drained the stuff off, I felt a curiously
intense sensation. The first touch of it set my
brain in a furious tumult; I seemed to feel an actual
physical stirring in my skull, and a seething humming
filled my ears. I did not notice the flavour in
my mouth, the aroma that filled my throat; I saw only
the grey intensity of his gaze that burnt into mine.
The draught, the mental confusion, the noise and stirring
in my head, seemed to last an interminable time.
Curious vague impressions of half-forgotten things
danced and vanished on the edge of my consciousness.
At last he broke the spell. With a sudden explosive
sigh he put down his glass.
“Well?” he said.
“It’s glorious,” said I, though
I had not tasted the stuff.
My head was spinning. I sat down.
My brain was chaos. Then my perception grew clear
and minute as though I saw things in a concave mirror.
His manner seemed to have changed into something nervous
and hasty. He pulled out his watch and grimaced
at it. “Eleven-seven! And to-night
I must— Seven-twenty-five. Waterloo!
I must go at once.” He called for the bill,
and struggled with his coat. Officious waiters
came to our assistance. In another moment I was
wishing him good-bye, over the apron of a cab, and
still with an absurd feeling of minute distinctness,
as though—how can I express it?—I
not only saw but felt through an inverted opera-glass.
“That stuff,” he said.
He put his hand to his forehead. “I ought
not to have given it to you. It will make your
head split to-morrow. Wait a minute. Here.”
He handed me out a little flat thing like a seidlitz-powder.
“Take that in water as you are going to bed.
The other thing was a drug. Not till you’re
ready to go to bed, mind. It will clear your head.
That’s all. One more shake—Futurus!”
I gripped his shrivelled claw.
“Good-bye,” he said, and by the droop of
his eyelids I judged he too was a little under the
influence of that brain-twisting cordial.
He recollected something else with
a start, felt in his breast-pocket, and produced another
packet, this time a cylinder the size and shape of
a shaving-stick. “Here,” said he.
“I’d almost forgotten. Don’t
open this until I come to-morrow—but take
it now.”
It was so heavy that I wellnigh dropped
it. “All ri’!” said I, and he
grinned at me through the cab window as the cabman
flicked his horse into wakefulness. It was a
white packet he had given me, with red seals at either
end and along its edge. “If this isn’t
money,” said I, “it’s platinum or
lead.”
I stuck it with elaborate care into
my pocket, and with a whirling brain walked home through
the Regent Street loiterers and the dark back streets
beyond Portland Road. I remember the sensations
of that walk very vividly, strange as they were.
I was still so far myself that I could notice my strange
mental state, and wonder whether this stuff I had had
was opium—a drug beyond my experience.
It is hard now to describe the peculiarity of my mental
strangeness—mental doubling vaguely expresses
it. As I was walking up Regent Street I found
in my mind a queer persuasion that it was Waterloo
Station, and had an odd impulse to get into the Polytechnic
as a man might get into a train. I put a knuckle
in my eye, and it was Regent Street. How can
I express it? You see a skilful actor looking
quietly at you, he pulls a grimace, and lo!—another
person. Is it too extravagant if I tell you that
it seemed to me as if Regent Street had, for the moment,
done that? Then, being persuaded it was Regent
Street again, I was oddly muddled about some fantastic
reminiscences that cropped up. “Thirty
years ago,” thought I, “it was here that
I quarrelled with my brother.” Then I burst
out laughing, to the astonishment and encouragement
of a group of night prowlers. Thirty years ago
I did not exist, and never in my life had I boasted
a brother. The stuff was surely liquid folly,
for the poignant regret for that lost brother still
clung to me. Along Portland Road the madness
took another turn. I began to recall vanished
shops, and to compare the street with what it used
to be. Confused, troubled thinking is comprehensible
enough after the drink I had taken, but what puzzled
me were these curiously vivid phantasm memories that
had crept into my mind, and not only the memories
that had crept in, but also the memories that had
slipped out. I stopped opposite Stevens’,
the natural history dealer’s, and cudgelled
my brains to think what he had to do with me.
A ’bus went by, and sounded exactly like the
rumbling of a train. I seemed to be dipping into
some dark, remote pit for the recollection. “Of
course,” said I, at last, “he has promised
me three frogs to-morrow. Odd I should have forgotten.”
Do they still show children dissolving
views? In those I remember one view would begin
like a faint ghost, and grow and oust another.
In just that way it seemed to me that a ghostly set
of new sensations was struggling with those of my
ordinary self.
I went on through Euston Road to Tottenham
Court Road, puzzled, and a little frightened, and
scarcely noticed the unusual way I was taking, for
commonly I used to cut through the intervening network
of back streets. I turned into University Street,
to discover that I had forgotten my number. Only
by a strong effort did I recall 11A, and even then
it seemed to me that it was a thing some forgotten
person had told me. I tried to steady my mind
by recalling the incidents of the dinner, and for the
life of me I could conjure up no picture of my host’s
face; I saw him only as a shadowy outline, as one
might see oneself reflected in a window through which
one was looking. In his place, however, I had
a curious exterior vision of myself, sitting at a
table, flushed, bright-eyed, and talkative.
“I must take this other powder,”
said I. “This is getting impossible.”
I tried the wrong side of the hall
for my candle and the matches, and had a doubt of
which landing my room might be on. “I’m
drunk,” I said, “that’s certain,”
and blundered needlessly on the staircase to sustain
the proposition.
At the first glance my room seemed
unfamiliar. “What rot!” I said, and
stared about me. I seemed to bring myself back
by the effort, and the odd phantasmal quality passed
into the concrete familiar. There was the old
glass still, with my notes on the albumens stuck in
the corner of the frame, my old everyday suit of clothes
pitched about the floor. And yet it was not so
real after all. I felt an idiotic persuasion trying
to creep into my mind, as it were, that I was in a
railway carriage in a train just stopping, that I
was peering out of the window at some unknown station.
I gripped the bed-rail firmly to reassure myself.
“It’s clairvoyance, perhaps,” I
said. “I must write to the Psychical Research
Society.”
I put the rouleau on my dressing-table,
sat on my bed, and began to take off my boots.
It was as if the picture of my present sensations was
painted over some other picture that was trying to
show through. “Curse it!” said I;
“my wits are going, or am I in two places at
once?” Half-undressed, I tossed the powder into
a glass and drank it off. It effervesced, and
became a fluorescent amber colour. Before I was
in bed my mind was already tranquillised. I felt
the pillow at my cheek, and thereupon I must have
fallen asleep.
* * * *
I awoke abruptly out of a dream of
strange beasts, and found myself lying on my back.
Probably every one knows that dismal, emotional dream
from which one escapes, awake indeed, but strangely
cowed. There was a curious taste in my mouth,
a tired feeling in my limbs, a sense of cutaneous
discomfort. I lay with my head motionless on my
pillow, expecting that my feeling of strangeness and
terror would pass away, and that I should then doze
off again to sleep. But instead of that, my uncanny
sensations increased. At first I could perceive
nothing wrong about me. There was a faint light
in the room, so faint that it was the very next thing
to darkness, and the furniture stood out in it as
vague blots of absolute darkness. I stared with
my eyes just over the bedclothes.
It came into my mind that some one
had entered the room to rob me of my rouleau of money,
but after lying for some moments, breathing regularly
to simulate sleep, I realised this was mere fancy.
Nevertheless, the uneasy assurance of something wrong
kept fast hold of me. With an effort I raised
my head from the pillow, and peered about me at the
dark. What it was I could not conceive.
I looked at the dim shapes around me, the greater and
lesser darknesses that indicated curtains, table, fireplace,
bookshelves, and so forth. Then I began to perceive
something unfamiliar in the forms of the darkness.
Had the bed turned round? Yonder should be the
bookshelves, and something shrouded and pallid rose
there, something that would not answer to the bookshelves,
however I looked at it. It was far too big to
be my shirt thrown on a chair.
Overcoming a childish terror, I threw
back the bedclothes and thrust my leg out of bed.
Instead of coming out of my truckle-bed upon the floor,
I found my foot scarcely reached the edge of the mattress.
I made another step, as it were, and sat up on the
edge of the bed. By the side of my bed should
be the candle, and the matches upon the broken chair.
I put out my hand and touched—nothing.
I waved my hand in the darkness, and it came against
some heavy hanging, soft and thick in texture, which
gave a rustling noise at my touch. I grasped
this and pulled it; it appeared to be a curtain suspended
over the head of my bed.
I was now thoroughly awake, and beginning
to realise that I was in a strange room. I was
puzzled. I tried to recall the overnight circumstances,
and I found them now, curiously enough, vivid in my
memory: the supper, my reception of the little
packages, my wonder whether I was intoxicated, my
slow undressing, the coolness to my flushed face of
my pillow. I felt a sudden distrust. Was
that last night, or the night before? At any
rate, this room was strange to me, and I could not
imagine how I had got into it. The dim, pallid
outline was growing paler, and I perceived it was
a window, with the dark shape of an oval toilet-glass
against the weak intimation of the dawn that filtered
through the blind. I stood up, and was surprised
by a curious feeling of weakness and unsteadiness.
With trembling hands outstretched, I walked slowly
towards the window, getting, nevertheless, a bruise
on the knee from a chair by the way. I fumbled
round the glass, which was large, with handsome brass
sconces, to find the blind cord. I could not find
any. By chance I took hold of the tassel, and
with the click of a spring the blind ran up.
I found myself looking out upon a
scene that was altogether strange to me. The
night was overcast, and through the flocculent grey
of the heaped clouds there filtered a faint half-light
of dawn. Just at the edge of the sky the cloud-canopy
had a blood-red rim. Below, everything was dark
and indistinct, dim hills in the distance, a vague
mass of buildings running up into pinnacles, trees
like spilt ink, and below the window a tracery of
black bushes and pale grey paths. It was so unfamiliar
that for the moment I thought myself still dreaming.
I felt the toilet-table; it appeared to be made of
some polished wood, and was rather elaborately furnished—there
were little cut-glass bottles and a brush upon it.
There was also a queer little object, horse-shoe shape
it felt, with smooth, hard projections, lying in a
saucer. I could find no matches nor candlestick.
I turned my eyes to the room again.
Now the blind was up, faint spectres of its furnishing
came out of the darkness. There was a huge curtained
bed, and the fireplace at its foot had a large white
mantel with something of the shimmer of marble.
I leant against the toilet-table,
shut my eyes and opened them again, and tried to think.
The whole thing was far too real for dreaming.
I was inclined to imagine there was still some hiatus
in my memory, as a consequence of my draught of that
strange liqueur; that I had come into my inheritance
perhaps, and suddenly lost my recollection of everything
since my good fortune had been announced. Perhaps
if I waited a little, things would be clearer to me
again. Yet my dinner with old Elvesham was now
singularly vivid and recent. The champagne, the
observant waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs—I
could have staked my soul it all happened a few hours
ago.
And then occurred a thing so trivial
and yet so terrible to me that I shiver now to think
of that moment. I spoke aloud. I said, “How
the devil did I get here?” ... And the voice
was not my own.
It was not my own, it was thin, the
articulation was slurred, the resonance of my facial
bones was different. Then, to reassure myself
I ran one hand over the other, and felt loose folds
of skin, the bony laxity of age. “Surely,”
I said, in that horrible voice that had somehow established
itself in my throat, “surely this thing is a
dream!” Almost as quickly as if I did it involuntarily,
I thrust my fingers into my mouth. My teeth had
gone. My finger-tips ran on the flaccid surface
of an even row of shrivelled gums. I was sick
with dismay and disgust.
I felt then a passionate desire to
see myself, to realise at once in its full horror
the ghastly change that had come upon me. I tottered
to the mantel, and felt along it for matches.
As I did so, a barking cough sprang up in my throat,
and I clutched the thick flannel nightdress I found
about me. There were no matches there, and I
suddenly realised that my extremities were cold.
Sniffing and coughing, whimpering a little, perhaps,
I fumbled back to bed. “It is surely a dream,”
I whispered to myself as I clambered back, “surely
a dream.” It was a senile repetition.
I pulled the bedclothes over my shoulders, over my
ears, I thrust my withered hand under the pillow,
and determined to compose myself to sleep. Of
course it was a dream. In the morning the dream
would be over, and I should wake up strong and vigorous
again to my youth and studies. I shut my eyes,
breathed regularly, and, finding myself wakeful, began
to count slowly through the powers of three.
But the thing I desired would not
come. I could not get to sleep. And the
persuasion of the inexorable reality of the change
that had happened to me grew steadily. Presently
I found myself with my eyes wide open, the powers
of three forgotten, and my skinny fingers upon my shrivelled
gums, I was, indeed, suddenly and abruptly, an old
man. I had in some unaccountable manner fallen
through my life and come to old age, in some way I
had been cheated of all the best of my life, of love,
of struggle, of strength, and hope. I grovelled
into the pillow and tried to persuade myself that such
hallucination was possible. Imperceptibly, steadily,
the dawn grew clearer.
At last, despairing of further sleep,
I sat up in bed and looked about me. A chill
twilight rendered the whole chamber visible. It
was spacious and well-furnished, better furnished
than any room I had ever slept in before. A candle
and matches became dimly visible upon a little pedestal
in a recess. I threw back the bedclothes, and,
shivering with the rawness of the early morning, albeit
it was summer-time, I got out and lit the candle.
Then, trembling horribly, so that the extinguisher
rattled on its spike, I tottered to the glass and
saw—Elvesham’s face! It
was none the less horrible because I had already dimly
feared as much. He had already seemed physically
weak and pitiful to me, but seen now, dressed only
in a coarse flannel nightdress, that fell apart and
showed the stringy neck, seen now as my own body,
I cannot describe its desolate decrepitude. The
hollow cheeks, the straggling tail of dirty grey hair,
the rheumy bleared eyes, the quivering, shrivelled
lips, the lower displaying a gleam of the pink interior
lining, and those horrible dark gums showing.
You who are mind and body together, at your natural
years, cannot imagine what this fiendish imprisonment
meant to me. To be young and full of the desire
and energy of youth, and to be caught, and presently
to be crushed in this tottering ruin of a body…
But I wander from the course of my
story. For some time I must have been stunned
at this change that had come upon me. It was daylight
when I did so far gather myself together as to think.
In some inexplicable way I had been changed, though
how, short of magic, the thing had been done, I could
not say. And as I thought, the diabolical ingenuity
of Elvesham came home to me. It seemed plain
to me that as I found myself in his, so he must be
in possession of my body, of my strength, that
is, and my future. But how to prove it?
Then, as I thought, the thing became so incredible,
even to me, that my mind reeled, and I had to pinch
myself, to feel my toothless gums, to see myself in
the glass, and touch the things about me, before I
could steady myself to face the facts again. Was
all life hallucination? Was I indeed Elvesham,
and he me? Had I been dreaming of Eden overnight?
Was there any Eden? But if I was Elvesham, I should
remember where I was on the previous morning, the name
of the town in which I lived, what happened before
the dream began. I struggled with my thoughts.
I recalled the queer doubleness of my memories overnight.
But now my mind was clear. Not the ghost of any
memories but those proper to Eden could I raise.
“This way lies insanity!”
I cried in my piping voice. I staggered to my
feet, dragged my feeble, heavy limbs to the washhand-stand,
and plunged my grey head into a basin of cold water.
Then, towelling myself, I tried again. It was
no good. I felt beyond all question that I was
indeed Eden, not Elvesham. But Eden in Elvesham’s
body!
Had I been a man of any other age,
I might have given myself up to my fate as one enchanted.
But in these sceptical days miracles do not pass current.
Here was some trick of psychology. What a drug
and a steady stare could do, a drug and a steady stare,
or some similar treatment, could surely undo.
Men have lost their memories before. But to exchange
memories as one does umbrellas! I laughed.
Alas! not a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, senile
titter. I could have fancied old Elvesham laughing
at my plight, and a gust of petulant anger, unusual
to me, swept across my feelings. I began dressing
eagerly in the clothes I found lying about on the
floor, and only realised when I was dressed that it
was an evening suit I had assumed. I opened the
wardrobe and found some more ordinary clothes, a pair
of plaid trousers, and an old-fashioned dressing-gown.
I put a venerable smoking-cap on my venerable head,
and, coughing a little from my exertions, tottered
out upon the landing.
It was then, perhaps, a quarter to
six, and the blinds were closely drawn and the house
quite silent. The landing was a spacious one,
a broad, richly-carpeted staircase went down into
the darkness of the hall below, and before me a door
ajar showed me a writing-desk, a revolving bookcase,
the back of a study chair, and a fine array of bound
books, shelf upon shelf.
“My study,” I mumbled,
and walked across the landing. Then at the sound
of my voice a thought struck me, and I went back to
the bedroom and put in the set of false teeth.
They slipped in with the ease of old, habit.
“That’s better,” said I, gnashing
them, and so returned to the study.
The drawers of the writing-desk were
locked. Its revolving top was also locked.
I could see no indications of the keys, and there were
none in the pockets of my trousers. I shuffled
back at once to the bedroom, and went through the
dress suit, and afterwards the pockets of all the garments
I could find. I was very eager, and one might
have imagined that burglars had been at work, to see
my room when I had done. Not only were there no
keys to be found, but not a coin, nor a scrap of paper—save
only the receipted bill of the overnight dinner.
A curious weariness asserted itself.
I sat down and stared at the garments flung here and
there, their pockets turned inside out. My first
frenzy had already flickered out. Every moment
I was beginning to realise the immense intelligence
of the plans of my enemy, to see more and more clearly
the hopelessness of my position. With an effort
I rose and hurried hobbling into the study again.
On the staircase was a housemaid pulling up the blinds.
She stared, I think, at the expression of my face.
I shut the door of the study behind me, and, seizing
a poker, began an attack upon the desk. That
is how they found me. The cover of the desk was
split, the lock smashed, the letters torn out of the
pigeon-holes, and tossed about the room. In my
senile rage I had flung about the pens and other such
light stationery, and overturned the ink. Moreover,
a large vase upon the mantel had got broken—I
do not know how. I could find no cheque-book,
no money, no indications of the slightest use for
the recovery of my body. I was battering madly
at the drawers, when the butler, backed by two women-servants,
intruded upon me.
* * *
That simply is the story of my change.
No one will believe my frantic assertions. I
am treated as one demented, and even at this moment
I am under restraint. But I am sane, absolutely
sane, and to prove it I have sat down to write this
story minutely as the things happened to me. I
appeal to the reader, whether there is any trace of
insanity in the style or method, of the story he has
been reading. I am a young man locked away in
an old man’s body. But the clear fact is
incredible to everyone. Naturally I appear demented
to those who will not believe this, naturally I do
not know the names of my secretaries, of the doctors
who come to see me, of my servants and neighbours,
of this town (wherever it is) where I find myself.
Naturally I lose myself in my own house, and suffer
inconveniences of every sort. Naturally I ask
the oddest questions. Naturally I weep and cry
out, and have paroxysms of despair. I have no
money and no cheque-book. The bank will not recognise
my signature, for I suppose that, allowing for the
feeble muscles I now have, my handwriting is still
Eden’s. These people about me will not let
me go to the bank personally. It seems, indeed,
that there is no bank in this town, and that I have
an account in some part of London. It seems that
Elvesham kept the name of his solicitor secret from
all his household. I can ascertain nothing.
Elvesham was, of course, a profound student of mental
science, and all my declarations of the facts of the
case merely confirm the theory that my insanity is
the outcome of overmuch brooding upon psychology.
Dreams of the personal identity indeed! Two days
ago I was a healthy youngster, with all life before
me; now I am a furious old man, unkempt, and desperate,
and miserable, prowling about a great, luxurious, strange
house, watched, feared, and avoided as a lunatic by
everyone about me. And in London is Elvesham
beginning life again in a vigorous body, and with
all the accumulated knowledge and wisdom of threescore
and ten. He has stolen my life.
What has happened I do not clearly
know. In the study are volumes of manuscript
notes referring chiefly to the psychology of memory,
and parts of what may be either calculations or ciphers
in symbols absolutely strange to me. In some
passages there are indications that he was also occupied
with the philosophy of mathematics. I take it
he has transferred the whole of his memories, the
accumulation that makes up his personality, from this
old withered brain of his to mine, and, similarly,
that he has transferred mine to his discarded tenement.
Practically, that is, he has changed bodies.
But how such a change may be possible is without the
range of my philosophy. I have been a materialist
for all my thinking life, but here, suddenly, is a
clear case of man’s detachability from matter.
One desperate experiment I am about
to try. I sit writing here before putting the
matter to issue. This morning, with the help of
a table-knife that I had secreted at breakfast, I
succeeded in breaking open a fairly obvious secret
drawer in this wrecked writing-desk. I discovered
nothing save a little green glass phial containing
a white powder. Round the neck of the phial was
a label, and thereon was written this one word, “Release.”
This may be—is most probably—poison.
I can understand Elvesham placing poison in my way,
and I should be sure that it was his intention so
to get rid of the only living witness against him,
were it not for this careful concealment. The
man has practically solved the problem of immortality.
Save for the spite of chance, he will live in my body
until it has aged, and then, again, throwing that aside,
he will assume some other victim’s youth and
strength. When one remembers his heartlessness,
it is terrible to think of the ever-growing experience
that… How long has he been leaping from body
to body?... But I tire of writing. The powder
appears to be soluble in water. The taste is not
unpleasant.
* * *
*
There the narrative found upon Mr.
Elvesham’s desk ends. His dead body lay
between the desk and the chair. The latter had
been pushed back, probably by his last convulsions.
The story was written in pencil and in a crazy hand,
quite unlike his usual minute characters. There
remain only two curious facts to record. Indisputably
there was some connection between Eden and Elvesham,
since the whole of Elvesham’s property was bequeathed
to the young man. But he never inherited.
When Elvesham committed suicide, Eden was, strangely
enough, already dead. Twenty-four hours before,
he had been knocked down by a cab and killed instantly,
at the crowded crossing at the intersection of Gower
Street and Euston Road. So that the only human
being who could have thrown light upon this fantastic
narrative is beyond the reach of questions. Without
further comment I leave this extraordinary matter
to the reader’s individual judgment.