Reflections—The wounded
man—The squall—True consolation
—Death.
There is a power of endurance in human
beings, both in their bodies and in their minds, which,
I have often thought, seems to be wonderfully adapted
and exactly proportioned to the circumstances in which
individuals may happen to be placed—a power
which, in most cases, is sufficient to carry a man
through and over every obstacle that may happen to
be thrown in his path through life, no matter how high
or how steep the mountain may be, but which often
forsakes him the moment the summit is gained, the
point of difficulty passed, and leaves him prostrated,
with energies gone, nerves unstrung, and a feeling
of incapacity pervading the entire frame that renders
the most trifling effort almost impossible.
During the greater part of that day
I had been subjected to severe mental and much physical
excitement, which had almost crushed me down by the
time I was relieved from duty in the course of the
evening. But when the expedition whose failure
has just been narrated was planned, my anxieties and
energies had been so powerfully aroused that I went
through the protracted scenes of that terrible night
without a feeling of the slightest fatigue. My
mind and body were alike active and full of energy.
No sooner was the last thrilling fear of danger past,
however, than my faculties went utterly relaxed; and
when I felt the cool breezes of the Pacific playing
around my fevered brow, and heard the free waves rippling
at the schooner’s prow, as we left the hated
island behind us, my senses forsook me, and I fell
in a swoon upon the deck.
From this state I was quickly aroused
by Bill, who shook me by the arm, saying—
“Hallo, Ralph boy! rouse up,
lad; we’re safe now. Poor thing! I
believe he’s fainted.” And, raising
me in his arms, he laid me on the folds of the gaff
top-sail, which lay upon the deck near the tiller.
“Here, take a drop o’ this; it’ll
do you good, my boy,” he added, in a voice of
tenderness which I had never heard him use before,
while he held a brandy-flask to my lips.
I raised my eyes gratefully as I swallowed
a mouthful; next moment my head sank heavily upon
my arm, and I fell fast asleep. I slept long,
for when I awoke the sun was a good way above the horizon,
I did not move on first opening my eyes, as I felt
a delightful sensation of rest pervading me, and my
eyes were riveted on and charmed with the gorgeous
splendour of the mighty ocean that burst upon my sight.
It was a dead calm; the sea seemed a sheet of undulating
crystal, tipped and streaked with the saffron hues
of sunrise, which had not yet merged into the glowing
heat of noon; and there was a deep calm in the blue
dome above that was not broken even by the usual flutter
of the sea-fowl. How long I would have lain in
contemplation of this peaceful scene I know not, but
my mind was recalled suddenly and painfully to the
past and the present by the sight of Bill, who was
seated on the deck at my feet, with his head reclining,
as if in sleep, on his right arm, which rested on
the tiller. As he seemed to rest peacefully, I
did not mean to disturb him, but the slight noise
I made in raising myself on my elbow caused him to
start and look round.
“Well, Ralph, awake at last,
my boy? You have slept long and soundly,”
he said, turning towards me.
On beholding his countenance I sprang
up in anxiety. He was deadly pale, and his hair,
which hung in dishevelled locks over his face, was
clotted with blood. Blood also stained his hollow
cheeks and covered the front of his shirt, which,
with the greater part of his dress, was torn and soiled
with mud.
“O Bill!” said I with
deep anxiety, “what is the matter with you?
You are ill. You must have been wounded.”
“Even so, lad,” said Bill
in a deep, soft voice, while he extended his huge
frame on the couch from which I had just risen.
“I’ve got an ugly wound, I fear, and I’ve
been waiting for you to waken, to ask you to get me
a drop o’ brandy and a mouthful o’ bread
from the cabin lockers. You seemed to sleep so
sweetly, Ralph, that I didn’t like to disturb
you. But I don’t feel up to much just now.”
I did not wait till he had done talking,
but ran below immediately, and returned in a few seconds
with a bottle of brandy and some broken biscuit.
He seemed much refreshed after eating a few morsels
and drinking a long draught of water mingled with
a little of the spirits. Immediately afterwards
he fell asleep, and I watched him anxiously until
he awoke, being desirous of knowing the nature and
extent of his wound.
“Ha!” he exclaimed, on
awaking suddenly after a slumber of an hour, “I’m
the better of that nap, Ralph; I feel twice the man
I was;” and he attempted to rise, but sank back
again immediately with a deep groan.
“Nay, Bill, you must not move,
but lie still while I look at your wound. I’ll
make a comfortable bed for you here on deck, and get
you some breakfast. After that you shall tell
me how you got it. Cheer up, Bill,” seeing
that he turned his head away; “you’ll be
all right in a little, and I’ll be a capital
nurse to you, though I’m no doctor.”
I then left him, and lighted a fire
in the caboose. While it was kindling, I went
to the steward’s pantry and procured the materials
for a good breakfast, with which, in little more than
half-an-hour, I returned to my companion. He
seemed much better, and smiled kindly on me as I set
before him a cup of coffee and a tray with several
eggs and some bread on it.
“Now then, Bill,” said
I cheerfully, sitting down beside him on the deck,
“let’s fall to. I’m very hungry
myself, I can tell you; but—I forgot—your
wound,” I added, rising; “let me look at
it.”
I found that the wound was caused
by a pistol-shot in the chest. It did not bleed
much, and as it was on the right side, I was in hopes
that it might not be very serious. But Bill shook
his head. “However,” said he, “sit
down, Ralph, and I’ll tell you all about it.
“You see, after we left the
boat an’ began to push through the bushes, we
went straight for the line of my musket, as I had expected;
but by some unlucky chance it didn’t explode,
for I saw the line torn away by the men’s legs,
and heard the click o’ the lock; so I fancy the
priming had got damp and didn’t catch.
I was in a great quandary now what to do, for I couldn’t
concoct in my mind, in the hurry, any good reason
for firin’ off my piece. But they say necessity’s
the mother of invention; so just as I was givin’
it up and clinchin’ my teeth to bide the worst
o’t and take what should come, a sudden thought
came into my head. I stepped out before the rest,
seemin’ to be awful anxious to be at the savages,
tripped my foot on a fallen tree, plunged head foremost
into a bush, an of coorse, my carbine exploded!
Then came such a screechin’ from the camp as
I never heard in all my life. I rose at once,
and was rushing on with the rest, when the captain
called a halt.
“‘You did that a-purpose,
you villain!’ he said with a tremendous oath,
and drawin’ a pistol from his belt, let fly right
into my breast. I fell at once, and remembered
no more till I was startled and brought round by the
most awful yell I ever heard in my life—except,
maybe, the shrieks o’ them poor critters that
were crushed to death under yon big canoe. Jumpin’
up, I looked round, and through the trees saw a fire
gleamin’ not far off, the light of which showed
me the captain and men tied hand and foot, each to
a post, and the savages dancin’ round them like
demons. I had scarce looked for a second, when
I saw one o’ them go up to the captain flourishing
a knife, and before I could wink he plunged it into
his breast, while another yell, like the one that
roused me, rang upon my ear. I didn’t wait
for more, but bounding up, went crashing through the
bushes into the woods. The black fellows caught
sight of me, however, but not in time to prevent me
jumpin’ into the boat, as you know.”
Bill seemed to be much exhausted after
this recital, and shuddered frequently during the
narrative, so I refrained from continuing the subject
at that time, and endeavoured to draw his mind to other
things.
“But now, Bill,” said
I, “it behoves us to think about the future,
and what course of action we shall pursue. Here
we are, on the wide Pacific, in a well-appointed schooner,
which is our own—at least no one has a
better claim to it than we have—and the
world lies before us, Moreover, here comes a breeze,
so we must make up our minds which way to steer.”
“Ralph, boy,” said my
companion; “it matters not to me which way we
go. I fear that my time is short now. Go
where you will; I’m content.”
“Well then, Bill, I think we
had better steer to the Coral Island, and see what
has become of my dear old comrades, Jack and Peterkin.
I believe the island has no name, but the captain
once pointed it out to me on the chart, and I marked
it afterwards; so, as we know pretty well our position
just now, I think I can steer to it. Then, as
to working the vessel, it is true I cannot hoist the
sails single-handed, but luckily we have enough of
sail set already; and if it should come on to blow
a squall, I could at least drop the peaks of the main
and fore sails, and clew them up partially without
help, and throw her head close into the wind, so as
to keep her all shaking till the violence of the squall
is past. And if we have continued light breezes,
I’ll rig up a complication of blocks and fix
them to the top-sail halyards, so that I shall be
able to hoist the sails without help. ’Tis
true I’ll require half a day to hoist them,
but we don’t need to mind that. Then I’ll
make a sort of erection on deck to screen you from
the sun, Bill; and if you can only manage to sit beside
the tiller and steer for two hours every day, so as
to let me get a nap, I’ll engage to let you off
duty all the rest of the twenty-four hours. And
if you don’t feel able for steering, I’ll
lash the helm and heave-to, while I get you your breakfasts
and dinners; and so we’ll manage famously, and
soon reach the Coral Island.”
Bill smiled faintly as I ran on in this strain.
“And what will you do,” said he, “if
it comes on to blow a storm?”
This question silenced me, while I
considered what I should do in such a case. At
length I laid my hand on his arm, and said, “Bill,
when a man has done all that he can do, he ought to
leave the rest to God.”
“O Ralph,” said my companion
in a faint voice, looking anxiously into my face,
“I wish that I had the feelin’s about God
that you seem to have, at this hour. I’m
dyin’, Ralph; yet I, who have braved death a
hundred times, am afraid to die. I’m afraid
to enter the next world. Something within tells
me there will be a reckoning when I go there.
But it’s all over with me, Ralph. I feel
that there’s no chance o’ my bein’
saved.”
“Don’t say that, Bill,”
said I in deep compassion; “don’t say that.
I’m quite sure there’s hope even for you,
but I can’t remember the words of the Bible
that make me think so. Is there not a Bible on
board, Bill?”
“No; the last that was in the
ship belonged to a poor boy that was taken aboard
against his will. He died, poor lad—I
think through ill-treatment and fear. After he
was gone the captain found his Bible and flung it
overboard.”
I now reflected, with great sadness
and self-reproach, on the way in which I had neglected
my Bible; and it flashed across me that I was actually
in the sight of God a greater sinner than this blood-stained
pirate; for, thought I, he tells me that he never read
the Bible, and was never brought up to care for it;
whereas I was carefully taught to read it by my own
mother, and had read it daily as long as I possessed
one, yet to so little purpose that I could not now
call to mind a single text that would meet this poor
man’s case, and afford him the consolation he
so much required. I was much distressed, and taxed
my memory for a long time. At last a text did
flash into my mind, and I wondered much that I had
not thought of it before.
“Bill,” said I in a low
voice, “’Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ,
and thou shalt be saved.’”
“Ay, Ralph, I’ve heard
the missionaries say that before now, but what good
can it do me? It’s not for me, that; it’s
not for the likes o’ me.”
I knew not now what to say, for although
I felt sure that that word was for him as well as
for me, I could not remember any other word whereby
I could prove it.
After a short pause, Bill raised his
eyes to mine and said, “Ralph, I’ve led
a terrible life. I’ve been a sailor since
I was a boy, and I’ve gone from bad to worse
ever since I left my father’s roof. I’ve
been a pirate three years now. It is true I did
not choose the trade, but I was inveigled aboard this
schooner and kept here by force till I became reckless
and at last joined them. Since that time my hand
has been steeped in human blood again and again.
Your young heart would grow cold if I—But
why should I go on? ’Tis of no use, Ralph;
my doom is fixed.”
“Bill,” said I, “’Though
your sins be red like crimson, they shall be white
as snow.’ Only believe.”
“Only believe!” cried
Bill, starting up on his elbow. “I’ve
heard men talk o’ believing as if it was easy.
Ha! ’tis easy enough for a man to point to a
rope and my, ‘I believe that would bear my weight;’
but ’tis another thing for a man to catch hold
o’ that rope and swing himself by it over the
edge of a precipice!”
The energy with which he said this,
and the action with which it was accompanied, were
too much for Bill. He sank back with a deep groan.
As if the very elements sympathised with this man’s
sufferings, a low moan came sweeping over the sea.
“Hist, Ralph!” said Bill,
opening his eyes; “there’s a squall coming,
lad. Look alive, boy! Clew up the fore-sail.
Drop the main-sail peak. Them squalls come quick
sometimes.”
I had already started to my feet,
and saw that a heavy squall was indeed bearing down
on us. It had hitherto escaped my notice, owing
to my being so much engrossed by our conversation.
I instantly did as Bill desired, for the schooner
was lying motionless on the glassy sea. I observed
with some satisfaction that the squall was bearing
down on the larboard bow, so that it would strike
the vessel in the position in which she would be best
able to stand the shock. Having done my best to
shorten sail, I returned aft, and took my stand at
the helm.
“Now, boy,” said Bill
in a faint voice, “keep her close to the wind.”
A few seconds afterwards he said,
“Ralph, let me hear those two texts again.”
I repeated them.
“Are ye sure, lad, ye saw them in the Bible?”
“Quite sure,” I replied.
Almost before the words had left my
lips the wind burst upon us, and the spray dashed
over our decks. For a time the schooner stood
it bravely, and sprang forward against the rising
sea like a war-horse. Meanwhile clouds darkened
the sky, and the sea began to rise in huge billows.
There was still too much sail on the schooner, and
as the gale increased, I feared that the masts would
be torn out of her or carried away, while the wind
whistled and shrieked through the strained rigging.
Suddenly the wind shifted a point, a heavy sea struck
us on the bow, and the schooner was almost laid on
her beam ends, so that I could scarcely keep my legs.
At the same moment Bill lost his hold of the belaying-pin
which had served to steady him, and he slid with stunning
violence against the skylight. As he lay on the
deck close beside me, I could see that the shock had
rendered him insensible; but I did not dare to quit
the tiller for an instant, as it required all my faculties,
bodily and mental, to manage the schooner. For
an hour the blast drove us along, while, owing to
the sharpness of the vessel’s bow and the press
of canvas, she dashed through the waves instead of
breasting over them, thereby drenching the decks with
water fore and aft. At the end of that time the
squall passed away, and left us rocking on the bosom
of the agitated sea.
My first care, the instant I could
quit the helm, was to raise Bill from the deck and
place him on the couch. I then ran below for the
brandy bottle, and rubbed his face and hands with it,
and endeavoured to pour a little down his throat.
But my efforts, although I continued them long and
assiduously, were of no avail; as I let go the hand
which I had been chafing, it fell heavily on the deck.
I laid my hand over his heart, and sat for some time
quite motionless; but there was no flutter there—the
pirate was dead!