One afternoon toward the end of August
a group of girls sat in a room at Miss Hatchard’s
in a gay confusion of flags, turkey-red, blue and white
paper muslin, harvest sheaves and illuminated scrolls.
North Dormer was preparing for its
Old Home Week. That form of sentimental decentralization
was still in its early stages, and, precedents being
few, and the desire to set an example contagious, the
matter had become a subject of prolonged and passionate
discussion under Miss Hatchard’s roof.
The incentive to the celebration had come rather from
those who had left North Dormer than from those who
had been obliged to stay there, and there was some
difficulty in rousing the village to the proper state
of enthusiasm. But Miss Hatchard’s pale
prim drawing-room was the centre of constant comings
and goings from Hepburn, Nettleton, Springfield and
even more distant cities; and whenever a visitor arrived
he was led across the hall, and treated to a glimpse
of the group of girls deep in their pretty preparations.
“All the old names… all the
old names….” Miss Hatchard would be heard,
tapping across the hall on her crutches. “Targatt…
Sollas… Fry: this is Miss Orma Fry sewing
the stars on the drapery for the organ-loft.
Don’t move, girls… and this is Miss Ally Hawes,
our cleverest needle-woman… and Miss Charity Royall
making our garlands of evergreen…. I like the
idea of its all being homemade, don’t you?
We haven’t had to call in any foreign talent:
my young cousin Lucius Harney, the architect—you
know he’s up here preparing a book on Colonial
houses—he’s taken the whole thing
in hand so cleverly; but you must come and see his
sketch for the stage we’re going to put up in
the Town Hall.”
One of the first results of the Old
Home Week agitation had, in fact, been the reappearance
of Lucius Harney in the village street. He had
been vaguely spoken of as being not far off, but for
some weeks past no one had seen him at North Dormer,
and there was a recent report of his having left Creston
River, where he was said to have been staying, and
gone away from the neighbourhood for good. Soon
after Miss Hatchard’s return, however, he came
back to his old quarters in her house, and began to
take a leading part in the planning of the festivities.
He threw himself into the idea with extraordinary
good-humour, and was so prodigal of sketches, and
so inexhaustible in devices, that he gave an immediate
impetus to the rather languid movement, and infected
the whole village with his enthusiasm.
“Lucius has such a feeling for
the past that he has roused us all to a sense of our
privileges,” Miss Hatchard would say, lingering
on the last word, which was a favourite one.
And before leading her visitor back to the drawing-room
she would repeat, for the hundredth time, that she
supposed he thought it very bold of little North Dormer
to start up and have a Home Week of its own, when
so many bigger places hadn’t thought of it yet;
but that, after all, Associations counted more than
the size of the population, didn’t they?
And of course North Dormer was so full of Associations…
historic, literary (here a filial sigh for Honorius)
and ecclesiastical… he knew about the old pewter
communion service imported from England in 1769, she
supposed? And it was so important, in a wealthy
materialistic age, to set the example of reverting
to the old ideals, the family and the homestead, and
so on. This peroration usually carried her half-way
back across the hall, leaving the girls to return
to their interrupted activities.
The day on which Charity Royall was
weaving hemlock garlands for the procession was the
last before the celebration. When Miss Hatchard
called upon the North Dormer maidenhood to collaborate
in the festal preparations Charity had at first held
aloof; but it had been made clear to her that her
non-appearance might excite conjecture, and, reluctantly,
she had joined the other workers. The girls, at
first shy and embarrassed, and puzzled as to the exact
nature of the projected commemoration, had soon become
interested in the amusing details of their task, and
excited by the notice they received. They would
not for the world have missed their afternoons at
Miss Hatchard’s, and, while they cut out and
sewed and draped and pasted, their tongues kept up
such an accompaniment to the sewing-machine that Charity’s
silence sheltered itself unperceived under their chatter.
In spirit she was still almost unconscious
of the pleasant stir about her. Since her return
to the red house, on the evening of the day when Harney
had overtaken her on her way to the Mountain, she had
lived at North Dormer as if she were suspended in
the void. She had come back there because Harney,
after appearing to agree to the impossibility of her
doing so, had ended by persuading her that any other
course would be madness. She had nothing further
to fear from Mr. Royall. Of this she had declared
herself sure, though she had failed to add, in his
exoneration, that he had twice offered to make her
his wife. Her hatred of him made it impossible,
at the moment, for her to say anything that might
partly excuse him in Harney’s eyes.
Harney, however, once satisfied of
her security, had found plenty of reasons for urging
her to return. The first, and the most unanswerable,
was that she had nowhere else to go. But the one
on which he laid the greatest stress was that flight
would be equivalent to avowal. If—as
was almost inevitable—rumours of the scandalous
scene at Nettleton should reach North Dormer, how
else would her disappearance be interpreted?
Her guardian had publicly taken away her character,
and she immediately vanished from his house.
Seekers after motives could hardly fail to draw an
unkind conclusion. But if she came back at once,
and was seen leading her usual life, the incident
was reduced to its true proportions, as the outbreak
of a drunken old man furious at being surprised in
disreputable company. People would say that Mr.
Royall had insulted his ward to justify himself, and
the sordid tale would fall into its place in the chronicle
of his obscure debaucheries.
Charity saw the force of the argument;
but if she acquiesced it was not so much because of
that as because it was Harney’s wish. Since
that evening in the deserted house she could imagine
no reason for doing or not doing anything except the
fact that Harney wished or did not wish it. All
her tossing contradictory impulses were merged in a
fatalistic acceptance of his will. It was not
that she felt in him any ascendancy of character—there
were moments already when she knew she was the stronger—but
that all the rest of life had become a mere cloudy
rim about the central glory of their passion.
Whenever she stopped thinking about that for a moment
she felt as she sometimes did after lying on the grass
and staring up too long at the sky; her eyes were so
full of light that everything about her was a blur.
Each time that Miss Hatchard, in the
course of her periodical incursions into the work-room,
dropped an allusion to her young cousin, the architect,
the effect was the same on Charity. The hemlock
garland she was wearing fell to her knees and she
sat in a kind of trance. It was so manifestly
absurd that Miss Hatchard should talk of Harney in
that familiar possessive way, as if she had any claim
on him, or knew anything about him. She, Charity
Royall, was the only being on earth who really knew
him, knew him from the soles of his feet to the rumpled
crest of his hair, knew the shifting lights in his
eyes, and the inflexions of his voice, and the things
he liked and disliked, and everything there was to
know about him, as minutely and yet unconsciously
as a child knows the walls of the room it wakes up
in every morning. It was this fact, which nobody
about her guessed, or would have understood, that
made her life something apart and inviolable, as if
nothing had any power to hurt or disturb her as long
as her secret was safe.
The room in which the girls sat was
the one which had been Harney’s bedroom.
He had been sent upstairs, to make room for the Home
Week workers; but the furniture had not been moved,
and as Charity sat there she had perpetually before
her the vision she had looked in on from the midnight
garden. The table at which Harney had sat was
the one about which the girls were gathered; and her
own seat was near the bed on which she had seen him
lying. Sometimes, when the others were not looking,
she bent over as if to pick up something, and laid
her cheek for a moment against the pillow.
Toward sunset the girls disbanded.
Their work was done, and the next morning at daylight
the draperies and garlands were to be nailed up, and
the illuminated scrolls put in place in the Town Hall.
The first guests were to drive over from Hepburn in
time for the midday banquet under a tent in Miss Hatchard’s
field; and after that the ceremonies were to begin.
Miss Hatchard, pale with fatigue and excitement, thanked
her young assistants, and stood in the porch, leaning
on her crutches and waving a farewell as she watched
them troop away down the street.
Charity had slipped off among the
first; but at the gate she heard Ally Hawes calling
after her, and reluctantly turned.
“Will you come over now and
try on your dress?” Ally asked, looking at her
with wistful admiration. “I want to be sure
the sleeves don’t ruck up the same as they did
yesterday.”
Charity gazed at her with dazzled
eyes. “Oh, it’s lovely,” she
said, and hastened away without listening to Ally’s
protest. She wanted her dress to be as pretty
as the other girls’—wanted it, in
fact, to outshine the rest, since she was to take
part in the “exercises”—but
she had no time just then to fix her mind on such
matters….
She sped up the street to the library,
of which she had the key about her neck. From
the passage at the back she dragged forth a bicycle,
and guided it to the edge of the street. She
looked about to see if any of the girls were approaching;
but they had drifted away together toward the Town
Hall, and she sprang into the saddle and turned toward
the Creston road. There was an almost continual
descent to Creston, and with her feet against the
pedals she floated through the still evening air like
one of the hawks she had often watched slanting downward
on motionless wings. Twenty minutes from the
time when she had left Miss Hatchard’s door
she was turning up the wood-road on which Harney had
overtaken her on the day of her flight; and a few minutes
afterward she had jumped from her bicycle at the gate
of the deserted house.
In the gold-powdered sunset it looked
more than ever like some frail shell dried and washed
by many seasons; but at the back, whither Charity
advanced, drawing her bicycle after her, there were
signs of recent habitation. A rough door made
of boards hung in the kitchen doorway, and pushing
it open she entered a room furnished in primitive camping
fashion. In the window was a table, also made
of boards, with an earthenware jar holding a big bunch
of wild asters, two canvas chairs stood near by, and
in one corner was a mattress with a Mexican blanket
over it.
The room was empty, and leaning her
bicycle against the house Charity clambered up the
slope and sat down on a rock under an old apple-tree.
The air was perfectly still, and from where she sat
she would be able to hear the tinkle of a bicycle-bell
a long way down the road….
She was always glad when she got to
the little house before Harney. She liked to
have time to take in every detail of its secret sweetness—the
shadows of the apple-trees swaying on the grass, the
old walnuts rounding their domes below the road, the
meadows sloping westward in the afternoon light—before
his first kiss blotted it all out. Everything
unrelated to the hours spent in that tranquil place
was as faint as the remembrance of a dream. The
only reality was the wondrous unfolding of her new
self, the reaching out to the light of all her contracted
tendrils. She had lived all her life among people
whose sensibilities seemed to have withered for lack
of use; and more wonderful, at first, than Harney’s
endearments were the words that were a part of them.
She had always thought of love as something confused
and furtive, and he made it as bright and open as
the summer air.
On the morrow of the day when she
had shown him the way to the deserted house he had
packed up and left Creston River for Boston; but at
the first station he had jumped on the train with
a hand-bag and scrambled up into the hills. For
two golden rainless August weeks he had camped in
the house, getting eggs and milk from the solitary
farm in the valley, where no one knew him, and doing
his cooking over a spirit-lamp. He got up every
day with the sun, took a plunge in a brown pool he
knew of, and spent long hours lying in the scented
hemlock-woods above the house, or wandering along
the yoke of the Eagle Ridge, far above the misty blue
valleys that swept away east and west between the endless
hills. And in the afternoon Charity came to him.
With part of what was left of her
savings she had hired a bicycle for a month, and every
day after dinner, as soon as her guardian started to
his office, she hurried to the library, got out her
bicycle, and flew down the Creston road. She
knew that Mr. Royall, like everyone else in North
Dormer, was perfectly aware of her acquisition:
possibly he, as well as the rest of the village, knew
what use she made of it. She did not care:
she felt him to be so powerless that if he had questioned
her she would probably have told him the truth.
But they had never spoken to each other since the
night on the wharf at Nettleton. He had returned
to North Dormer only on the third day after that encounter,
arriving just as Charity and Verena were sitting down
to supper. He had drawn up his chair, taken his
napkin from the side-board drawer, pulled it out of
its ring, and seated himself as unconcernedly as if
he had come in from his usual afternoon session at
Carrick Fry’s; and the long habit of the household
made it seem almost natural that Charity should not
so much as raise her eyes when he entered. She
had simply let him understand that her silence was
not accidental by leaving the table while he was still
eating, and going up without a word to shut herself
into her room. After that he formed the habit
of talking loudly and genially to Verena whenever
Charity was in the room; but otherwise there was no
apparent change in their relations.
She did not think connectedly of these
things while she sat waiting for Harney, but they
remained in her mind as a sullen background against
which her short hours with him flamed out like forest
fires. Nothing else mattered, neither the good
nor the bad, or what might have seemed so before she
knew him. He had caught her up and carried her
away into a new world, from which, at stated hours,
the ghost of her came back to perform certain customary
acts, but all so thinly and insubstantially that she
sometimes wondered that the people she went about among
could see her….
Behind the swarthy Mountain the sun
had gone down in waveless gold. From a pasture
up the slope a tinkle of cow-bells sounded; a puff
of smoke hung over the farm in the valley, trailed
on the pure air and was gone. For a few minutes,
in the clear light that is all shadow, fields and
woods were outlined with an unreal precision; then
the twilight blotted them out, and the little house
turned gray and spectral under its wizened apple-branches.
Charity’s heart contracted.
The first fall of night after a day of radiance often
gave her a sense of hidden menace: it was like
looking out over the world as it would be when love
had gone from it. She wondered if some day she
would sit in that same place and watch in vain for
her lover….
His bicycle-bell sounded down the
lane, and in a minute she was at the gate and his
eyes were laughing in hers. They walked back through
the long grass, and pushed open the door behind the
house. The room at first seemed quite dark and
they had to grope their way in hand in hand.
Through the window-frame the sky looked light by contrast,
and above the black mass of asters in the earthen
jar one white star glimmered like a moth.
“There was such a lot to do
at the last minute,” Harney was explaining,
“and I had to drive down to Creston to meet someone
who has come to stay with my cousin for the show.”
He had his arms about her, and his
kisses were in her hair and on her lips. Under
his touch things deep down in her struggled to the
light and sprang up like flowers in sunshine.
She twisted her fingers into his, and they sat down
side by side on the improvised couch. She hardly
heard his excuses for being late: in his absence
a thousand doubts tormented her, but as soon as he
appeared she ceased to wonder where he had come from,
what had delayed him, who had kept him from her.
It seemed as if the places he had been in, and the
people he had been with, must cease to exist when
he left them, just as her own life was suspended in
his absence.
He continued, now, to talk to her
volubly and gaily, deploring his lateness, grumbling
at the demands on his time, and good-humouredly mimicking
Miss Hatchard’s benevolent agitation. “She
hurried off Miles to ask Mr. Royall to speak at the
Town Hall tomorrow: I didn’t know till
it was done.” Charity was silent, and he
added: “After all, perhaps it’s just
as well. No one else could have done it.”
Charity made no answer: She did
not care what part her guardian played in the morrow’s
ceremonies. Like all the other figures peopling
her meagre world he had grown non-existent to her.
She had even put off hating him.
“Tomorrow I shall only see you
from far off,” Harney continued. “But
in the evening there’ll be the dance in the
Town Hall. Do you want me to promise not to dance
with any other girl?”
Any other girl? Were there any
others? She had forgotten even that peril, so
enclosed did he and she seem in their secret world.
Her heart gave a frightened jerk.
“Yes, promise.”
He laughed and took her in his arms.
“You goose—not even if they’re
hideous?”
He pushed the hair from her forehead,
bending her face back, as his way was, and leaning
over so that his head loomed black between her eyes
and the paleness of the sky, in which the white star
floated…
Side by side they sped back along
the dark wood-road to the village. A late moon
was rising, full orbed and fiery, turning the mountain
ranges from fluid gray to a massive blackness, and
making the upper sky so light that the stars looked
as faint as their own reflections in water. At
the edge of the wood, half a mile from North Dormer,
Harney jumped from his bicycle, took Charity in his
arms for a last kiss, and then waited while she went
on alone.
They were later than usual, and instead
of taking the bicycle to the library she propped it
against the back of the wood-shed and entered the
kitchen of the red house. Verena sat there alone;
when Charity came in she looked at her with mild impenetrable
eyes and then took a plate and a glass of milk from
the shelf and set them silently on the table.
Charity nodded her thanks, and sitting down, fell hungrily
upon her piece of pie and emptied the glass.
Her face burned with her quick flight through the
night, and her eyes were dazzled by the twinkle of
the kitchen lamp. She felt like a night-bird suddenly
caught and caged.
“He ain’t come back since
supper,” Verena said. “He’s
down to the Hall.”
Charity took no notice. Her soul
was still winging through the forest. She washed
her plate and tumbler, and then felt her way up the
dark stairs. When she opened her door a wonder
arrested her. Before going out she had closed
her shutters against the afternoon heat, but they had
swung partly open, and a bar of moonlight, crossing
the room, rested on her bed and showed a dress of
China silk laid out on it in virgin whiteness.
Charity had spent more than she could afford on the
dress, which was to surpass those of all the other
girls; she had wanted to let North Dormer see that
she was worthy of Harney’s admiration. Above
the dress, folded on the pillow, was the white veil
which the young women who took part in the exercises
were to wear under a wreath of asters; and beside
the veil a pair of slim white satin shoes that Ally
had produced from an old trunk in which she stored
mysterious treasures.
Charity stood gazing at all the outspread
whiteness. It recalled a vision that had come
to her in the night after her first meeting with Harney.
She no longer had such visions… warmer splendours
had displaced them… but it was stupid of Ally to
have paraded all those white things on her bed, exactly
as Hattie Targatt’s wedding dress from Springfield
had been spread out for the neighbours to see when
she married Tom Fry….
Charity took up the satin shoes and
looked at them curiously. By day, no doubt, they
would appear a little worn, but in the moonlight they
seemed carved of ivory. She sat down on the floor
to try them on, and they fitted her perfectly, though
when she stood up she lurched a little on the high
heels. She looked down at her feet, which the
graceful mould of the slippers had marvellously arched
and narrowed. She had never seen such shoes before,
even in the shop-windows at Nettleton… never, except…
yes, once, she had noticed a pair of the same shape
on Annabel Balch.
A blush of mortification swept over
her. Ally sometimes sewed for Miss Balch when
that brilliant being descended on North Dormer, and
no doubt she picked up presents of cast-off clothing:
the treasures in the mysterious trunk all came from
the people she worked for; there could be no doubt
that the white slippers were Annabel Balch’s….
As she stood there, staring down moodily
at her feet, she heard the triple click-click-click
of a bicycle-bell under her window. It was Harney’s
secret signal as he passed on his way home. She
stumbled to the window on her high heels, flung open
the shutters and leaned out. He waved to her
and sped by, his black shadow dancing merrily ahead
of him down the empty moonlit road; and she leaned
there watching him till he vanished under the Hatchard
spruces.