War
The story came to me from a woman
met on a train. The car was crowded and I took
the seat beside her. There was a man in the offing
who belonged with her—a slender girlish
figure of a man in a heavy brown canvas coat such
as teamsters wear in the winter. He moved up and
down in the aisle of the car, wanting my place by
the woman’s side, but I did not know that at
the time.
The woman had a heavy face and a thick
nose. Something had happened to her. She
had been struck a blow or had a fall. Nature could
never have made a nose so broad and thick and ugly.
She had talked to me in very good English. I
suspect now that she was temporarily weary of the man
in the brown canvas coat, that she had travelled with
him for days, perhaps weeks, and was glad of the chance
to spend a few hours in the company of some one else.
Everyone knows the feeling of a crowded
train in the middle of the night. We ran along
through western Iowa and eastern Nebraska. It
had rained for days and the fields were flooded.
In the clear night the moon came out and the scene
outside the car-window was strange and in an odd way
very beautiful.
You get the feeling: the black
bare trees standing up in clusters as they do out
in that country, the pools of water with the moon reflected
and running quickly as it does when the train hurries
along, the rattle of the car-trucks, the lights in
isolated farm-houses, and occasionally the clustered
lights of a town as the train rushed through it into
the west.
The woman had just come out of war-ridden
Poland, had got out of that stricken land with her
lover by God knows what miracles of effort. She
made me feel the war, that woman did, and she told
me the tale that I want to tell you.
I do not remember the beginning of
our talk, nor can I tell you of how the strangeness
of my mood grew to match her mood until the story she
told became a part of the mystery of the still night
outside the car-window and very pregnant with meaning
to me.
There was a company of Polish refugees
moving along a road in Poland in charge of a German.
The German was a man of perhaps fifty, with a beard.
As I got him, he was much such a man as might be professor
of foreign languages in a college in our country,
say at Des Moines, Iowa, or Springfield, Ohio.
He would be sturdy and strong of body and given to
the eating of rather rank foods, as such men are.
Also he would be a fellow of books and in his thinking
inclined toward the ranker philosophies. He was
dragged into the war because he was a German, and
he had steeped his soul in the German philosophy of
might. Faintly, I fancy, there was another notion
in his head that kept bothering him, and so to serve
his government with a whole heart he read books that
would re-establish his feeling for the strong, terrible
thing for which he fought. Because he was past
fifty he was not on the battle line, but was in charge
of the refugees, taking them out of their destroyed
village to a camp near a railroad where they could
be fed.
The refugees were peasants, all except
the woman in the American train with me, her lover
and her mother, an old woman of sixty-five. They
had been small landowners and the others in their
party had worked on their estate.
Along a country road in Poland went
this party in charge of the German who tramped heavily
along, urging them forward. He was brutal in his
insistence, and the old woman of sixty-five, who was
a kind of leader of the refugees, was almost equally
brutal in her constant refusal to go forward.
In the rainy night she stopped in the muddy road and
her party gathered about her. Like a stubborn
horse she shook her head and muttered Polish words.
“I want to be let alone, that’s what I
want. All I want in the world is to be let alone,”
she said, over and over; and then the German came
up and putting his hand on her back pushed her along,
so that their progress through the dismal night was
a constant repetition of the stopping, her muttered
words, and his pushing. They hated each other
with whole-hearted hatred, that old Polish woman and
the German.
The party came to a clump of trees
on the bank of a shallow stream and the German took
hold of the old woman’s arm and dragged her through
the stream while the others followed. Over and
over she said the words: “I want to be
let alone. All I want in the world is to be let
alone.”
In the clump of trees the German started
a fire. With incredible efficiency he had it
blazing high in a few minutes, taking the matches
and even some bits of dry wood from a little rubber-lined
pouch carried in his inside coat pocket. Then
he got out tobacco and, sitting down on the protruding
root of a tree, smoked and stared at the refugees,
clustered about the old woman on the opposite side
of the fire.
The German went to sleep. That
was what started his trouble. He slept for an
hour and when he awoke the refugees were gone.
You can imagine him jumping up and tramping heavily
back through the shallow stream and along the muddy
road to gather his party together again. He would
be angry through and through, but he would not be
alarmed. It was only a matter, he knew, of going
far enough back along the road as one goes back along
a road for strayed cattle.
And then, when the German came up
to the party, he and the old woman began to fight.
She stopped muttering the words about being let alone
and sprang at him. One of her old hands gripped
his beard and the other buried itself in the thick
skin of his neck.
The struggle in the road lasted a
long time. The German was tired and not as strong
as he looked, and there was that faint thing in him
that kept him from hitting the old woman with his
fist. He took hold of her thin shoulders and
pushed, and she pulled. The struggle was like
a man trying to lift himself by his boot straps.
The two fought and were full of the determination
that will not stop fighting, but they were not very
strong physically.
And so their two souls began to struggle.
The woman in the train made me understand that quite
clearly, although it may be difficult to get the sense
of it over to you. I had the night and the mystery
of the moving train to help me. It was a physical
thing, the fight of the two souls in the dim light
of the rainy night on that deserted muddy road.
The air was full of the struggle and the refugees gathered
about and stood shivering. They shivered with
cold and weariness, of course, but also with something
else. In the air everywhere about them they could
feel the vague something going on. The woman said
that she would gladly have given her life to have
it stopped, or to have someone strike a light, and
that her man felt the same way. It was like two
winds struggling, she said, like a soft yielding cloud
become hard and trying vainly to push another cloud
out of the sky.
Then the struggle ended and the old
woman and the German fell down exhausted in the road.
The refugees gathered about and waited. They
thought something more was going to happen, knew in
fact something more would happen. The feeling
they had persisted, you see, and they huddled together
and perhaps whimpered a little.
What happened is the whole point of
the story. The woman in the train explained it
very clearly. She said that the two souls, after
struggling, went back into the two bodies, but that
the soul of the old woman went into the body of the
German and the soul of the German into the body of
the old woman.
After that, of course, everything
was quite simple. The German sat down by the
road and began shaking his head and saying he wanted
to be let alone, declared that all he wanted in the
world was to be let alone, and the Polish woman took
papers out of his pocket and began driving her companions
back along the road, driving them harshly and brutally
along, and when they grew weary pushing them with her
hands.
There was more of the story after
that. The woman’s lover, who had been a
school-teacher, took the papers and got out of the
country, taking his sweetheart with him. But
my mind has forgotten the details. I only remember
the German sitting by the road and muttering that he
wanted to be let alone, and the old tired mother-in-Poland
saying the harsh words and forcing her weary companions
to march through the night back into their own country.