Below the hill there was a swamp in
which cattails grew. The wind rustled the dry
leaves of a walnut tree that grew on top of the hill.
She went beyond the tree to where
the grass was long and matted. In the farmhouse
a door bangs and in the road before the house a dog
barked.
For a long time there was no sound.
Then a wagon came jolting and bumping over the frozen
road. The little noises ran along the ground to
where she was lying on the grass and seemed like fingers
playing over her body. A fragrance arose from
her. It took a long time for the wagon to pass.
Then another sound broke the stillness.
A young man from a neighboring farm came stealthily
across a field and climbed a fence. He also came
to the hill but for a time did not see her lying almost
at his feet. He looked toward the house and stood
with hands in pockets, stamping on the frozen ground
like a horse.
Then he knew she was there. The
aroma of her crept into his consciousness.
He ran to kneel beside her silent
figure. Everything was different than it had
been when they crept to the hill on the other evenings.
The time of talking and waiting was over. She
was different. He grew bold and put his hands
on her face, her neck, her breasts, her hips.
There was a strange new firmness and hardness to her
body. When he kissed her lips she did not move
and for a moment he was afraid. Then courage came
and he went down to lie with her.
He had been a farm boy all his life
and had plowed many acres of rich black land.
He became sure of himself.
He plowed her deeply.
He planted the seeds of a son in the warm rich quivering
soil.
* * * *
She carried the seeds of a son within
herself. On winter evenings she went along a
path at the foot of a small hill and turned up the
hill to a barn where she milked cows. She was
large and strong. Her legs went swinging along.
The son within her went swinging along.
He learned the rhythm of little hills.
He learned the rhythm of flat places.
He learned the rhythm of legs walking.
He learned the rhythm of firm strong
hands pulling at the teats of cows.
* * *
*
There was a field that was barren
and filled with stones. In the spring when the
warm nights came and when she was big with him she
went to the fields. The heads of little stones
stuck out of the ground like the heads of buried children.
The field, washed with moonlight, sloped gradually
downward to a murmuring brook. A few sheep went
among the stones nibbling the sparse grass.
A thousand children were buried in
the barren field. They struggled to come out
of the ground. They struggled to come to her.
The brook ran over stones and its voice cried out.
For a long time she stayed in the field, shaken with
sorrow.
She arose from her seat on a large
stone and went to the farmhouse. The voices of
the darkness cried to her as she went along a lane
and past a silent barn.
Within herself only the one child
struggled. When she got into bed his heels beat
upon the walls of his prison. She lay still and
listened. Only one small voice seemed coming
to her out of the silence of the night.