Betty never denied that she enjoyed
her visit to California, despite the several thousand
miles between the Atlantic and the Pacific coasts,
and Senator North’s rooted aversion to writing
letters. She received exactly three brief epistles
from him in almost as many months, but in one he said
that he missed her even in the North, in another that
Washington was not Washington without her, and in the
third that he looked forward with pleasure to the cool
Adirondacks and herself. And a woman can live
on less than that. Betty read and re-read these
simple and possibly perfunctory statements until they
were weighted with love.
And although she visited all the wonders
of the most wonderful State in the Union, and was
deeply grateful to them, they never pushed the man
from the forefront of her mind for a moment. The
egoism of love reduces scenery to a setting and the
splendours of sunset to a background. Betty thought
of him by day and by night, in company and in solitude,
but even the agony of longing to which her imagination
sometimes rose contained no heartbreak. For the
future was all over there, on the far side of the
continent; its grave-clothes were deep under lavender
and rosemary. To think of him was a luxury and
a delight, and would remain so until Imagination had
been pushed aside by the contradictory details of
Reality. Sometimes she wept pleasurably, but
she smiled oftener. And still, although she laid
no reins on her imagination, she refused to look beyond
the summer among the Adirondack pines, the frequent
and more frequent hours at the close of busy days.
If pressed, she would doubtless have answered that
she must bow to Circumstance, but that in Thought he
was wholly hers.
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