When she awoke next morning she arose
and dressed herself at once: in bed the will
loses its control over thought, and she wished to think
as little as possible. But her mind reverted to
the day before, in spite of her will, and she laughed
suddenly and went to her desk and wrote on a slip
of paper,—
“Every woman writes with one
eye on the page and one eye on some man, except the
Countess Hahn-Hahn, who has only one eye.”—HEINE.
“Some day when I know him better
I will give him this,” she thought, and put
the slip into a drawer by itself.
The load of care had lifted itself
and gone. She had done the right thing, the momentous
question was settled for the present, and Betty Madison
had merely to shake her shoulders and enjoy life again.
She threw open the window and let in the sun.
There had been a rain-storm in the night and then
a severe frost. The ice glistened on the naked
trees, encasing and jewelling them. A park near
by looked as if the crystal age of the world had come.
The bronze equestrian statue within that little wood
of radiant trees alone defied the ice-storm, as if
the dignity of the death it represented rebuked the
lavish hand of Nature.
Betty felt happy and elated, and blew
a kiss to the beauty about her. She always had
had a large fund of the purely animal joy in being
alive, but to-day she was fully conscious that the
tremulous quality of her gladness was due to the knowledge
that she should see Senator North within five more
days and the light of approval in his eyes. Exactly
what her feeling for him was she made no attempt to
define. She did not care. It was enough
that the prospect of seeing him made her happier than
she ever had felt before. That might go on indefinitely
and she would ask for nothing more. Her recent
contact with the serious-practical side of life—as
distinct from the serious-intellectual which she
had cultivated more than once—had terrified
her; she wanted the pleasant, thrilling, unformulated
part. For the first time one of her ideals had
come forth from the mists of fancy and filled her
vision as a man; and he was become the strongest influence
in her life. As yet he was unaware of this honour,
and she doubtless occupied a very small corner of
his thought; but he was interested at last, and he
was coming to see her. And then he would come
again and again, and she would always feel this same
glad quiver in her soul. She felt no regret that
she could not marry him; the question of marriage
but brushed her mind and was dismissed in haste.
That was a serious subject, glum indeed, and dark.
She was glad that circumstance limited her imagination
to the happy present. She felt sixteen, and as
if the world were but as old. Love and the intellect
have little in common. They can jog along side
by side and not exchange a comment.
“Come down and take a walk,”
cried a staccato voice. Sally Carter was standing
on the sidewalk, her head thrown back. Betty nodded,
put on her things and ran downstairs. Miss Carter
was wrapped in an old cape, and her turban was on
one side, but she looked rosier than usual.
“I’ve been half-way out
to Chevy Chase,” she said, “and I was just
thinking of paying poor old General Lathom a visit.
He does look so well in bronze, poor old dear, and
all that ice round him will make him seem like an
ogre in fairy-land. He wasn’t a bit of an
ogre, he was downright afraid of me.”
“I suppose a man really feels
as great a fool as he looks when he is proposing to
a woman he is not sure of. I wonder why they ever
do. After I gave up coquetting, came to the conclusion
that it wasn’t honest, they proposed just the
same.”
“Some women unconsciously establish
a habit of being proposed to. I’ve had
very few proposals, and I know several really beautiful
women who have had practically none. As I said,
it’s a habit, and you can’t account for
it.”
“I went yesterday to Virginia
to call on a relative who has just lost her last adopted
parent,” said Betty, abruptly, “and she
looked so forlorn that I asked her to visit us for
a while. I hope you’ll like her.”
“Ah? She must be some relation
of mine, too. You and I are third cousins.”
“Don’t ask me to straighten
it out. The ramifications of Southern kinships
are beyond me. She is a beauty—very
dark and tragic.”
“That is kind of you—to
run the risk of Senator Burleigh going off at a tangent,”
said Miss Carter, sharply. “By the way,
you cannot deny that you have given him encouragement;
you have neither eyes nor ears for any one else when
he is round.”
“He is usually the most interesting
person ‘round;’ and I have a concentrative
mind. But I never intend to marry, and Senator
Burleigh has never even looked as if he wanted to
propose. By the way, Molly has actually asked
him to come to the Adirondacks for a few days.
Can’t you and your father come for a month or
two? Jack has promised to stay with us the whole
summer, and we’ll be quite a family party.”
“Yes, I will,” said Miss
Carter, promptly. “I haven’t been
in the Adirondacks for six years and I should love
it.”
“Harriet Walker—that’s
our new cousin—will be with us too, most
likely. She looks delicate, and I shall try to
persuade her that she needs the pines.”
“Ah! Look out for the Senator—in
the dark pine forests on the mountain.”
“I don’t know why you
should be so concerned for me. I usually have
kept an admirer as long as I wanted him.”
“Oh, no offence, dear.
The dark and tragic lady merely filled my eye at the
moment. By the way, Mrs. North thinks of going
to the Lake Hotel this summer. Isn’t that
close by your place?”
“It is just across the lake.
There is your old General. He does look like
an ogre, and he’s got a patch of green mould
on his nose. You ought to take better care of
him.”
“He looks so much better than
he did in life that I have no fault to find.
The doctor has told Mrs. North that the pine forests
may do her all the good in the world, prolong her
life, and Mr. North has written to see if he can get
an entire wing for her. I hope he can go too,
but he always seems to have so much to do at home
in summer. I do like him. He’s the
only man I know who, I feel positive, never could make
a fool of himself.”
“I am half starved. Come
home and have your breakfast with me.”
“I should like to. Senator North—”
“There is Mr. Burleigh on horseback—with
Mr. Montgomery. He will look well in bronze—but
they only put Generals on horseback, don’t they?
There—he sees me. I am going to ask
them to come in to breakfast.”
“I believe you like him better
than you think, my dear. Your eyes shine like
two suns, and I never saw you look so happy.”
“The morning is so beautiful
and I am so glad that I am alive. I know exactly
how much I like Mr. Burleigh.”