I was now in the twenty-third year
of my residence in this island, and was so naturalised
to the place and the manner of living, that, could
I but have enjoyed the certainty that no savages would
come to the place to disturb me, I could have been
content to have capitulated for spending the rest
of my time there, even to the last moment, till I
had laid me down and died, like the old goat in the
cave. I had also arrived to some little diversions
and amusements, which made the time pass a great
deal more pleasantly with me than it did before —
first, I had taught my Poll, as I noted before, to
speak; and he did it so familiarly, and talked so
articulately and plain, that it was very pleasant to
me; and he lived with me no less than six-and-twenty
years. How long he might have lived afterwards
I know not, though I know they have a notion in the
Brazils that they live a hundred years. My dog
was a pleasant and loving companion to me for no
less than sixteen years of my time, and then died
of mere old age. As for my cats, they multiplied,
as I have observed, to that degree that I was obliged
to shoot several of them at first, to keep them from
devouring me and all I had; but at length, when the
two old ones I brought with me were gone, and after
some time continually driving them from me, and letting
them have no provision with me, they all ran wild into
the woods, except two or three favourites, which
I kept tame, and whose young, when they had any,
I always drowned; and these were part of my family.
Besides these I always kept two or three household
kids about me, whom I taught to feed out of my hand;
and I had two more parrots, which talked pretty well,
and would all call “Robin Crusoe,” but
none like my first; nor, indeed, did I take the pains
with any of them that I had done with him. I
had also several tame sea-fowls, whose name I knew
not, that I caught upon the shore, and cut their
wings; and the little stakes which I had planted
before my castle-wall being now grown up to a good
thick grove, these fowls all lived among these low
trees, and bred there, which was very agreeable to
me; so that, as I said above, I began to he very
well contented with the life I led, if I could have
been secured from the dread of the savages. But
it was otherwise directed; and it may not be amiss
for all people who shall meet with my story to make
this just observation from it: How frequently,
in the course of our lives, the evil which in itself
we seek most to shun, and which, when we are fallen
into, is the most dreadful to us, is oftentimes the
very means or door of our deliverance, by which alone
we can be raised again from the affliction we are
fallen into. I could give many examples of this
in the course of my unaccountable life; but in nothing
was it more particularly remarkable than in the circumstances
of my last years of solitary residence in this island.
It was now the month of December,
as I said above, in my twenty-third year; and this,
being the southern solstice (for winter I cannot
call it), was the particular time of my harvest, and
required me to be pretty much abroad in the fields,
when, going out early in the morning, even before
it was thorough daylight, I was surprised with seeing
a light of some fire upon the shore, at a distance
from me of about two miles, toward that part of the
island where I had observed some savages had been,
as before, and not on the other side; but, to my
great affliction, it was on my side of the island.
I was indeed terribly surprised at
the sight, and stopped short within my grove, not
daring to go out, lest I might be surprised; and
yet I had no more peace within, from the apprehensions
I had that if these savages, in rambling over the
island, should find my corn standing or cut, or any
of my works or improvements, they would immediately
conclude that there were people in the place, and
would then never rest till they had found me out.
In this extremity I went back directly to my castle,
pulled up the ladder after me, and made all things
without look as wild and natural as I could.
Then I prepared myself within, putting
myself in a posture of defence. I loaded all
my cannon, as I called them — that is to say,
my muskets, which were mounted upon my new fortification
— and all my pistols, and resolved to defend
myself to the last gasp — not forgetting seriously
to commend myself to the Divine protection, and earnestly
to pray to God to deliver me out of the hands of
the barbarians. I continued in this posture about
two hours, and began to be impatient for intelligence
abroad, for I had no spies to send out. After
sitting a while longer, and musing what I should
do in this case, I was not able to bear sitting in
ignorance longer; so setting up my ladder to the
side of the hill, where there was a flat place, as
I observed before, and then pulling the ladder after
me, I set it up again and mounted the top of the
hill, and pulling out my perspective glass, which I
had taken on purpose, I laid me down flat on my belly
on the ground, and began to look for the place.
I presently found there were no less than nine naked
savages sitting round a small fire they had made,
not to warm them, for they had no need of that, the
weather being extremely hot, but, as I supposed,
to dress some of their barbarous diet of human flesh
which they had brought with them, whether alive or
dead I could not tell.
They had two canoes with them, which
they had hauled up upon the shore; and as it was
then ebb of tide, they seemed to me to wait for the
return of the flood to go away again. It is not
easy to imagine what confusion this sight put me
into, especially seeing them come on my side of the
island, and so near to me; but when I considered
their coming must be always with the current of the
ebb, I began afterwards to be more sedate in my mind,
being satisfied that I might go abroad with safety
all the time of the flood of tide, if they were not
on shore before; and having made this observation,
I went abroad about my harvest work with the more
composure.
As I expected, so it proved; for as
soon as the tide made to the westward I saw them
all take boat and row (or paddle as we call it) away.
I should have observed, that for an hour or more before
they went off they were dancing, and I could easily
discern their postures and gestures by my glass.
I could not perceive, by my nicest observation,
but that they were stark naked, and had not the least
covering upon them; but whether they were men or women
I could not distinguish.
As soon as I saw them shipped and
gone, I took two guns upon my shoulders, and two
pistols in my girdle, and my great sword by my side
without a scabbard, and with all the speed I was able
to make went away to the hill where I had discovered
the first appearance of all; and as soon as I get
thither, which was not in less than two hours (for
I could not go quickly, being so loaded with arms as
I was), I perceived there had been three canoes more
of the savages at that place; and looking out farther,
I saw they were all at sea together, making over
for the main. This was a dreadful sight to
me, especially as, going down to the shore, I could
see the marks of horror which the dismal work they
had been about had left behind it — viz.
the blood, the bones, and part of the flesh of human
bodies eaten and devoured by those wretches with
merriment and sport. I was so filled with indignation
at the sight, that I now began to premeditate the
destruction of the next that I saw there, let them
be whom or how many soever. It seemed evident
to me that the visits which they made thus to this
island were not very frequent, for it was above fifteen
months before any more of them came on shore there
again — that is to say, I neither saw them nor
any footsteps or signals of them in all that time;
for as to the rainy seasons, then they are sure not
to come abroad, at least not so far. Yet all
this while I lived uncomfortably, by reason of the
constant apprehensions of their coming upon me by
surprise: from whence I observe, that the expectation
of evil is more bitter than the suffering, especially
if there is no room to shake off that expectation
or those apprehensions.
During all this time I was in a murdering
humour, and spent most of my hours, which should
have been better employed, in contriving how to circumvent
and fall upon them the very next time I should see
them — especially if they should be divided,
as they were the last time, into two parties; nor
did I consider at all that if I killed one party
— suppose ten or a dozen — I was still
the next day, or week, or month, to kill another,
and so another, even AD INFINITUM, till I should
be, at length, no less a murderer than they were in
being man-eaters — and perhaps much more so.
I spent my days now in great perplexity and anxiety
of mind, expecting that I should one day or other
fall, into the hands of these merciless creatures;
and if I did at any time venture abroad, it was not
without looking around me with the greatest care
and caution imaginable. And now I found, to
my great comfort, how happy it was that I had provided
a tame flock or herd of goats, for I durst not upon
any account fire my gun, especially near that side
of the island where they usually came, lest I should
alarm the savages; and if they had fled from me now,
I was sure to have them come again with perhaps two
or three hundred canoes with them in a few days,
and then I knew what to expect. However, I
wore out a year and three months more before I ever
saw any more of the savages, and then I found them
again, as I shall soon observe. It is true
they might have been there once or twice; but either
they made no stay, or at least I did not see them;
but in the month of May, as near as I could calculate,
and in my four-and-twentieth year, I had a very strange
encounter with them; of which in its place.
The perturbation of my mind during
this fifteen or sixteen months’ interval was
very great; I slept unquietly, dreamed always frightful
dreams, and often started out of my sleep in the night.
In the day great troubles overwhelmed my mind; and
in the night I dreamed often of killing the savages
and of the reasons why I might justify doing it.
But to waive all this for a while.
It was in the middle of May, on the sixteenth day,
I think, as well as my poor wooden calendar would
reckon, for I marked all upon the post still; I say,
it was on the sixteenth of May that it blew a very
great storm of wind all day, with a great deal of
lightning and thunder, and; a very foul night it
was after it. I knew not what was the particular
occasion of it, but as I was reading in the Bible,
and taken up with very serious thoughts about my
present condition, I was surprised with the noise
of a gun, as I thought, fired at sea. This was,
to be sure, a surprise quite of a different nature
from any I had met with before; for the notions this
put into my thoughts were quite of another kind.
I started up in the greatest haste imaginable; and,
in a trice, clapped my ladder to the middle place of
the rock, and pulled it after me; and mounting it
the second time, got to the top of the hill the very
moment that a flash of fire bid me listen for a second
gun, which, accordingly, in about half a minute I
heard; and by the sound, knew that it was from that
part of the sea where I was driven down the current
in my boat. I immediately considered that this
must be some ship in distress, and that they had
some comrade, or some other ship in company, and fired
these for signals of distress, and to obtain help.
I had the presence of mind at that minute to think,
that though I could not help them, it might be that
they might help me; so I brought together all the dry
wood I could get at hand, and making a good handsome
pile, I set it on fire upon the hill. The wood
was dry, and blazed freely; and, though the wind
blew very hard, yet it burned fairly out; so that I
was certain, if there was any such thing as a ship,
they must needs see it. And no doubt they did;
for as soon as ever my fire blazed up, I heard another
gun, and after that several others, all from the
same quarter. I plied my fire all night long,
till daybreak: and when it was broad day, and
the air cleared up, I saw something at a great distance
at sea, full east of the island, whether a sail or
a hull I could not distinguish — no, not with
my glass: the distance was so great, and the
weather still something hazy also; at least, it was
so out at sea.
I looked frequently at it all that
day, and soon perceived that it did not move; so
I presently concluded that it was a ship at anchor;
and being eager, you may be sure, to be satisfied,
I took my gun in my hand, and ran towards the south
side of the island to the rocks where I had formerly
been carried away by the current; and getting up
there, the weather by this time being perfectly clear,
I could plainly see, to my great sorrow, the wreck
of a ship, cast away in the night upon those concealed
rocks which I found when I was out in my boat; and
which rocks, as they checked the violence of the
stream, and made a kind of counter-stream, or eddy,
were the occasion of my recovering from the most desperate,
hopeless condition that ever I had been in in all
my life. Thus, what is one man’s safety
is another man’s destruction; for it seems
these men, whoever they were, being out of their knowledge,
and the rocks being wholly under water, had been
driven upon them in the night, the wind blowing hard
at ENE. Had they seen the island, as I must
necessarily suppose they did not, they must, as I thought,
have endeavoured to have saved themselves on shore
by the help of their boat; but their firing off guns
for help, especially when they saw, as I imagined,
my fire, filled me with many thoughts. First,
I imagined that upon seeing my light they might have
put themselves into their boat, and endeavoured to
make the shore: but that the sea running very
high, they might have been cast away. Other
times I imagined that they might have lost their boat
before, as might be the case many ways; particularly
by the breaking of the sea upon their ship, which
many times obliged men to stave, or take in pieces,
their boat, and sometimes to throw it overboard with
their own hands. Other times I imagined they
had some other ship or ships in company, who, upon
the signals of distress they made, had taken them
up, and carried them off. Other times I fancied
they were all gone off to sea in their boat, and
being hurried away by the current that I had been
formerly in, were carried out into the great ocean,
where there was nothing but misery and perishing:
and that, perhaps, they might by this time think
of starving, and of being in a condition to eat one
another.
As all these were but conjectures
at best, so, in the condition I was in, I could do
no more than look on upon the misery of the poor
men, and pity them; which had still this good effect
upon my side, that it gave me more and more cause
to give thanks to God, who had so happily and comfortably
provided for me in my desolate condition; and that
of two ships’ companies, who were now cast away
upon this part of the world, not one life should
be spared but mine. I learned here again to
observe, that it is very rare that the providence
of God casts us into any condition so low, or any
misery so great, but we may see something or other
to be thankful for, and may see others in worse circumstances
than our own. Such certainly was the case of
these men, of whom I could not so much as see room
to suppose any were saved; nothing could make it rational
so much as to wish or expect that they did not all
perish there, except the possibility only of their
being taken up by another ship in company; and this
was but mere possibility indeed, for I saw not the
least sign or appearance of any such thing. I
cannot explain, by any possible energy of words,
what a strange longing I felt in my soul upon this
sight, breaking out sometimes thus: “Oh
that there had been but one or two, nay, or but one
soul saved out of this ship, to have escaped to me,
that I might but have had one companion, one fellow-creature,
to have spoken to me and to have conversed with!”
In all the time of my solitary life I never felt
so earnest, so strong a desire after the society of
my fellow-creatures, or so deep a regret at the want
of it.
There are some secret springs in the
affections which, when they are set a-going by some
object in view, or, though not in view, yet rendered
present to the mind by the power of imagination, that
motion carries out the soul, by its impetuosity,
to such violent, eager embracings of the object,
that the absence of it is insupportable. Such
were these earnest wishings that but one man had
been saved. I believe I repeated the words, “Oh
that it had been but one!” a thousand times;
and my desires were so moved by it, that when I spoke
the words my hands would clinch together, and my
fingers would press the palms of my hands, so that
if I had had any soft thing in my hand I should have
crushed it involuntarily; and the teeth in my head
would strike together, and set against one another
so strong, that for some time I could not part them
again. Let the naturalists explain these things,
and the reason and manner of them. All I can
do is to describe the fact, which was even surprising
to me when I found it, though I knew not from whence
it proceeded; it was doubtless the effect of ardent
wishes, and of strong ideas formed in my mind, realising
the comfort which the conversation of one of my fellow-Christians
would have been to me. But it was not to be;
either their fate or mine, or both, forbade it; for,
till the last year of my being on this island, I never
knew whether any were saved out of that ship or no;
and had only the affliction, some days after, to
see the corpse of a drowned boy come on shore at
the end of the island which was next the shipwreck.
He had no clothes on but a seaman’s waistcoat,
a pair of open-kneed linen drawers, and a blue linen
shirt; but nothing to direct me so much as to guess
what nation he was of. He had nothing in his
pockets but two pieces of eight and a tobacco pipe
— the last was to me of ten times more value
than the first.
It was now calm, and I had a great
mind to venture out in my boat to this wreck, not
doubting but I might find something on board that
might be useful to me. But that did not altogether
press me so much as the possibility that there might
be yet some living creature on board, whose life
I might not only save, but might, by saving that
life, comfort my own to the last degree; and this
thought clung so to my heart that I could not be quiet
night or day, but I must venture out in my boat on
board this wreck; and committing the rest to God’s
providence, I thought the impression was so strong
upon my mind that it could not be resisted —
that it must come from some invisible direction,
and that I should be wanting to myself if I did not
go.
Under the power of this impression,
I hastened back to my castle, prepared everything
for my voyage, took a quantity of bread, a great
pot of fresh water, a compass to steer by, a bottle
of rum (for I had still a great deal of that left),
and a basket of raisins; and thus, loading myself
with everything necessary. I went down to my
boat, got the water out of her, got her afloat, loaded
all my cargo in her, and then went home again for more.
My second cargo was a great bag of rice, the umbrella
to set up over my head for a shade, another large
pot of water, and about two dozen of small loaves,
or barley cakes, more than before, with a bottle
of goat’s milk and a cheese; all which with great
labour and sweat I carried to my boat; and praying
to God to direct my voyage, I put out, and rowing
or paddling the canoe along the shore, came at last
to the utmost point of the island on the north-east
side. And now I was to launch out into the
ocean, and either to venture or not to venture.
I looked on the rapid currents which ran constantly
on both sides of the island at a distance, and which
were very terrible to me from the remembrance of
the hazard I had been in before, and my heart began
to fail me; for I foresaw that if I was driven into
either of those currents, I should be carried a great
way out to sea, and perhaps out of my reach or sight
of the island again; and that then, as my boat was
but small, if any little gale of wind should rise,
I should be inevitably lost.
These thoughts so oppressed my mind
that I began to give over my enterprise; and having
hauled my boat into a little creek on the shore,
I stepped out, and sat down upon a rising bit of ground,
very pensive and anxious, between fear and desire,
about my voyage; when, as I was musing, I could perceive
that the tide was turned, and the flood come on;
upon which my going was impracticable for so many
hours. Upon this, presently it occurred to me
that I should go up to the highest piece of ground
I could find, and observe, if I could, how the sets
of the tide or currents lay when the flood came in,
that I might judge whether, if I was driven one way
out, I might not expect to be driven another way
home, with the same rapidity of the currents.
This thought was no sooner in my head than I cast
my eye upon a little hill which sufficiently overlooked
the sea both ways, and from whence I had a clear
view of the currents or sets of the tide, and which
way I was to guide myself in my return. Here
I found, that as the current of ebb set out close
by the south point of the island, so the current of
the flood set in close by the shore of the north
side; and that I had nothing to do but to keep to
the north side of the island in my return, and I
should do well enough.
Encouraged by this observation, I
resolved the next morning to set out with the first
of the tide; and reposing myself for the night in
my canoe, under the watch-coat I mentioned, I launched
out. I first made a little out to sea, full
north, till I began to feel the benefit of the current,
which set eastward, and which carried me at a great
rate; and yet did not so hurry me as the current on
the south side had done before, so as to take from
me all government of the boat; but having a strong
steerage with my paddle, I went at a great rate directly
for the wreck, and in less than two hours I came
up to it. It was a dismal sight to look at;
the ship, which by its building was Spanish, stuck
fast, jammed in between two rocks. All the
stern and quarter of her were beaten to pieces by
the sea; and as her forecastle, which stuck in the
rocks, had run on with great violence, her mainmast
and foremast were brought by the board — that
is to say, broken short off; but her bowsprit was
sound, and the head and bow appeared firm. When
I came close to her, a dog appeared upon her, who,
seeing me coming, yelped and cried; and as soon as
I called him, jumped into the sea to come to me.
I took him into the boat, but found him almost dead
with hunger and thirst. I gave him a cake of
my bread, and he devoured it like a ravenous wolf
that had been starving a fortnight in the snow; I
then gave the poor creature some fresh water, with
which, if I would have let him, he would have burst
himself. After this I went on board; but the
first sight I met with was two men drowned in the
cook-room, or forecastle of the ship, with their
arms fast about one another. I concluded, as
is indeed probable, that when the ship struck, it
being in a storm, the sea broke so high and so continually
over her, that the men were not able to bear it,
and were strangled with the constant rushing in of
the water, as much as if they had been under water.
Besides the dog, there was nothing left in the ship
that had life; nor any goods, that I could see, but
what were spoiled by the water. There were
some casks of liquor, whether wine or brandy I knew
not, which lay lower in the hold, and which, the
water being ebbed out, I could see; but they were
too big to meddle with. I saw several chests,
which I believe belonged to some of the seamen; and
I got two of them into the boat, without examining
what was in them. Had the stern of the ship
been fixed, and the forepart broken off, I am persuaded
I might have made a good voyage; for by what I found
in those two chests I had room to suppose the ship
had a great deal of wealth on board; and, if I may
guess from the course she steered, she must have
been bound from Buenos Ayres, or the Rio de la Plata,
in the south part of America, beyond the Brazils
to the Havannah, in the Gulf of Mexico, and so perhaps
to Spain. She had, no doubt, a great treasure
in her, but of no use, at that time, to anybody;
and what became of the crew I then knew not.
I found, besides these chests, a little
cask full of liquor, of about twenty gallons, which
I got into my boat with much difficulty. There
were several muskets in the cabin, and a great powder-horn,
with about four pounds of powder in it; as for the
muskets, I had no occasion for them, so I left them,
but took the powder-horn. I took a fire-shovel
and tongs, which I wanted extremely, as also two
little brass kettles, a copper pot to make chocolate,
and a gridiron; and with this cargo, and the dog, I
came away, the tide beginning to make home again
— and the same evening, about an hour within
night, I reached the island again, weary and fatigued
to the last degree. I reposed that night in the
boat and in the morning I resolved to harbour what
I had got in my new cave, and not carry it home to
my castle. After refreshing myself, I got all
my cargo on shore, and began to examine the particulars.
The cask of liquor I found to be a kind of rum,
but not such as we had at the Brazils; and, in a
word, not at all good; but when I came to open the
chests, I found several things of great use to me —
for example, I found in one a fine case of bottles,
of an extraordinary kind, and filled with cordial
waters, fine and very good; the bottles held about
three pints each, and were tipped with silver.
I found two pots of very good succades, or sweetmeats,
so fastened also on the top that the salt-water had
not hurt them; and two more of the same, which the
water had spoiled. I found some very good shirts,
which were very welcome to me; and about a dozen and
a half of white linen handkerchiefs and coloured
neckcloths; the former were also very welcome, being
exceedingly refreshing to wipe my face in a hot day.
Besides this, when I came to the till in the chest,
I found there three great bags of pieces of eight,
which held about eleven hundred pieces in all; and
in one of them, wrapped up in a paper, six doubloons
of gold, and some small bars or wedges of gold; I
suppose they might all weigh near a pound. In
the other chest were some clothes, but of little
value; but, by the circumstances, it must have belonged
to the gunner’s mate; though there was no powder
in it, except two pounds of fine glazed powder, in
three flasks, kept, I suppose, for charging their fowling-pieces
on occasion. Upon the whole, I got very little
by this voyage that was of any use to me; for, as
to the money, I had no manner of occasion for it;
it was to me as the dirt under my feet, and I would
have given it all for three or four pair of English
shoes and stockings, which were things I greatly
wanted, but had had none on my feet for many years.
I had, indeed, got two pair of shoes now, which
I took off the feet of two drowned men whom I saw in
the wreck, and I found two pair more in one of the
chests, which were very welcome to me; but they were
not like our English shoes, either for ease or service,
being rather what we call pumps than shoes.
I found in this seaman’s chest about fifty pieces
of eight, in rials, but no gold: I supposed
this belonged to a poorer man than the other, which
seemed to belong to some officer. Well, however,
I lugged this money home to my cave, and laid it up,
as I had done that before which I had brought from
our own ship; but it was a great pity, as I said,
that the other part of this ship had not come to
my share: for I am satisfied I might have loaded
my canoe several times over with money; and, thought
I, if I ever escape to England, it might lie here
safe enough till I come again and fetch it.