After this stop, we made on to the
southward continually for ten or twelve days, living
very sparingly on our provisions, which began to
abate very much, and going no oftener to the shore
than we were obliged to for fresh water. My
design in this was to make the river Gambia or Senegal,
that is to say anywhere about the Cape de Verde,
where I was in hopes to meet with some European ship;
and if I did not, I knew not what course I had to
take, but to seek for the islands, or perish there
among the negroes. I knew that all the ships
from Europe, which sailed either to the coast of Guinea
or to Brazil, or to the East Indies, made this cape,
or those islands; and, in a word, I put the whole
of my fortune upon this single point, either that
I must meet with some ship or must perish.
When I had pursued this resolution
about ten days longer, as I have said, I began to
see that the land was inhabited; and in two or three
places, as we sailed by, we saw people stand upon the
shore to look at us; we could also perceive they
were quite black and naked. I was once inclined
to have gone on shore to them; but Xury was my better
counsellor, and said to me, “No go, no go.”
However, I hauled in nearer the shore that I might
talk to them, and I found they ran along the shore
by me a good way. I observed they had no weapons
in their hand, except one, who had a long slender stick,
which Xury said was a lance, and that they could
throw them a great way with good aim; so I kept at
a distance, but talked with them by signs as well
as I could; and particularly made signs for something
to eat: they beckoned to me to stop my boat,
and they would fetch me some meat. Upon this
I lowered the top of my sail and lay by, and two
of them ran up into the country, and in less than half-an-hour
came back, and brought with them two pieces of dried
flesh and some corn, such as is the produce of their
country; but we neither knew what the one or the
other was; however, we were willing to accept it,
but how to come at it was our next dispute, for I would
not venture on shore to them, and they were as much
afraid of us; but they took a safe way for us all,
for they brought it to the shore and laid it down,
and went and stood a great way off till we fetched
it on board, and then came close to us again.
We made signs of thanks to them, for
we had nothing to make them amends; but an opportunity
offered that very instant to oblige them wonderfully;
for while we were lying by the shore came two mighty
creatures, one pursuing the other (as we took it)
with great fury from the mountains towards the sea;
whether it was the male pursuing the female, or whether
they were in sport or in rage, we could not tell,
any more than we could tell whether it was usual or
strange, but I believe it was the latter; because,
in the first place, those ravenous creatures seldom
appear but in the night; and, in the second place,
we found the people terribly frighted, especially
the women. The man that had the lance or dart
did not fly from them, but the rest did; however,
as the two creatures ran directly into the water,
they did not offer to fall upon any of the negroes,
but plunged themselves into the sea, and swam about,
as if they had come for their diversion; at last
one of them began to come nearer our boat than at
first I expected; but I lay ready for him, for I
had loaded my gun with all possible expedition, and
bade Xury load both the others. As soon as
he came fairly within my reach, I fired, and shot
him directly in the head; immediately he sank down
into the water, but rose instantly, and plunged up
and down, as if he were struggling for life, and
so indeed he was; he immediately made to the shore;
but between the wound, which was his mortal hurt,
and the strangling of the water, he died just before
he reached the shore.
It is impossible to express the astonishment
of these poor creatures at the noise and fire of
my gun: some of them were even ready to die
for fear, and fell down as dead with the very terror;
but when they saw the creature dead, and sunk in
the water, and that I made signs to them to come
to the shore, they took heart and came, and began
to search for the creature. I found him by his
blood staining the water; and by the help of a rope,
which I slung round him, and gave the negroes to
haul, they dragged him on shore, and found that it
was a most curious leopard, spotted, and fine to
an admirable degree; and the negroes held up their
hands with admiration, to think what it was I had
killed him with.
The other creature, frighted with
the flash of fire and the noise of the gun, swam
on shore, and ran up directly to the mountains from
whence they came; nor could I, at that distance, know
what it was. I found quickly the negroes wished
to eat the flesh of this creature, so I was willing
to have them take it as a favour from me; which,
when I made signs to them that they might take him,
they were very thankful for. Immediately they
fell to work with him; and though they had no knife,
yet, with a sharpened piece of wood, they took off
his skin as readily, and much more readily, than we
could have done with a knife. They offered
me some of the flesh, which I declined, pointing
out that I would give it them; but made signs for
the skin, which they gave me very freely, and brought
me a great deal more of their provisions, which,
though I did not understand, yet I accepted.
I then made signs to them for some water, and held
out one of my jars to them, turning it bottom upward,
to show that it was empty, and that I wanted to have
it filled. They called immediately to some
of their friends, and there came two women, and brought
a great vessel made of earth, and burnt, as I supposed,
in the sun, this they set down to me, as before,
and I sent Xury on shore with my jars, and filled them
all three. The women were as naked as the men.
I was now furnished with roots and
corn, such as it was, and water; and leaving my friendly
negroes, I made forward for about eleven days more,
without offering to go near the shore, till I saw the
land run out a great length into the sea, at about
the distance of four or five leagues before me; and
the sea being very calm, I kept a large offing to
make this point. At length, doubling the point,
at about two leagues from the land, I saw plainly
land on the other side, to seaward; then I concluded,
as it was most certain indeed, that this was the
Cape de Verde, and those the islands called, from
thence, Cape de Verde Islands. However, they
were at a great distance, and I could not well tell
what I had best to do; for if I should be taken with
a fresh of wind, I might neither reach one or other.
In this dilemma, as I was very pensive,
I stepped into the cabin and sat down, Xury having
the helm; when, on a sudden, the boy cried out, “Master,
master, a ship with a sail!” and the foolish
boy was frighted out of his wits, thinking it must
needs be some of his master’s ships sent to
pursue us, but I knew we were far enough out of their
reach. I jumped out of the cabin, and immediately
saw, not only the ship, but that it was a Portuguese
ship; and, as I thought, was bound to the coast of
Guinea, for negroes. But, when I observed the
course she steered, I was soon convinced they were
bound some other way, and did not design to come any
nearer to the shore; upon which I stretched out to
sea as much as I could, resolving to speak with them
if possible.
With all the sail I could make, I
found I should not be able to come in their way,
but that they would be gone by before I could make
any signal to them: but after I had crowded to
the utmost, and began to despair, they, it seems,
saw by the help of their glasses that it was some
European boat, which they supposed must belong to
some ship that was lost; so they shortened sail to
let me come up. I was encouraged with this,
and as I had my patron’s ancient on board,
I made a waft of it to them, for a signal of distress,
and fired a gun, both which they saw; for they told
me they saw the smoke, though they did not hear the
gun. Upon these signals they very kindly brought
to, and lay by for me; and in about three hours;
time I came up with them.
They asked me what I was, in Portuguese,
and in Spanish, and in French, but I understood none
of them; but at last a Scotch sailor, who was on
board, called to me: and I answered him, and told
him I was an Englishman, that I had made my escape
out of slavery from the Moors, at Sallee; they then
bade me come on board, and very kindly took me in,
and all my goods.
It was an inexpressible joy to me,
which any one will believe, that I was thus delivered,
as I esteemed it, from such a miserable and almost
hopeless condition as I was in; and I immediately offered
all I had to the captain of the ship, as a return
for my deliverance; but he generously told me he
would take nothing from me, but that all I had should
be delivered safe to me when I came to the Brazils.
“For,” says he, “I have saved your
life on no other terms than I would be glad to be
saved myself: and it may, one time or other,
be my lot to be taken up in the same condition.
Besides,” said he, “when I carry you
to the Brazils, so great a way from your own country,
if I should take from you what you have, you will
be starved there, and then I only take away that life
I have given. No, no,” says he:
“Seignior Inglese” (Mr. Englishman), “I
will carry you thither in charity, and those things
will help to buy your subsistence there, and your
passage home again.”
As he was charitable in this proposal,
so he was just in the performance to a tittle; for
he ordered the seamen that none should touch anything
that I had: then he took everything into his own
possession, and gave me back an exact inventory of
them, that I might have them, even to my three earthen
jars.
As to my boat, it was a very good
one; and that he saw, and told me he would buy it
of me for his ship’s use; and asked me what I
would have for it? I told him he had been so
generous to me in everything that I could not offer
to make any price of the boat, but left it entirely
to him: upon which he told me he would give me
a note of hand to pay me eighty pieces of eight for
it at Brazil; and when it came there, if any one
offered to give more, he would make it up.
He offered me also sixty pieces of eight more for my
boy Xury, which I was loth to take; not that I was
unwilling to let the captain have him, but I was
very loth to sell the poor boy’s liberty, who
had assisted me so faithfully in procuring my own.
However, when I let him know my reason, he owned
it to be just, and offered me this medium, that he
would give the boy an obligation to set him free
in ten years, if he turned Christian: upon this,
and Xury saying he was willing to go to him, I let
the captain have him.
We had a very good voyage to the Brazils,
and I arrived in the Bay de Todos los Santos, or
All Saints’ Bay, in about twenty-two days after.
And now I was once more delivered from the most miserable
of all conditions of life; and what to do next with
myself I was to consider.
The generous treatment the captain
gave me I can never enough remember: he would
take nothing of me for my passage, gave me twenty
ducats for the leopard’s skin, and forty for
the lion’s skin, which I had in my boat, and
caused everything I had in the ship to be punctually
delivered to me; and what I was willing to sell he
bought of me, such as the case of bottles, two of my
guns, and a piece of the lump of beeswax —
for I had made candles of the rest: in a word,
I made about two hundred and twenty pieces of eight
of all my cargo; and with this stock I went on shore
in the Brazils.
I had not been long here before I
was recommended to the house of a good honest man
like himself, who had an ingenio, as they call
it (that is, a plantation and a sugar-house).
I lived with him some time, and acquainted myself
by that means with the manner of planting and making
of sugar; and seeing how well the planters lived,
and how they got rich suddenly, I resolved, if I could
get a licence to settle there, I would turn planter
among them: resolving in the meantime to find
out some way to get my money, which I had left in
London, remitted to me. To this purpose, getting
a kind of letter of naturalisation, I purchased as
much land that was uncured as my money would reach,
and formed a plan for my plantation and settlement;
such a one as might be suitable to the stock which
I proposed to myself to receive from England.
I had a neighbour, a Portuguese, of
Lisbon, but born of English parents, whose name was
Wells, and in much such circumstances as I was.
I call him my neighbour, because his plantation lay
next to mine, and we went on very sociably together.
My stock was but low, as well as his; and we rather
planted for food than anything else, for about two
years. However, we began to increase, and our
land began to come into order; so that the third
year we planted some tobacco, and made each of us
a large piece of ground ready for planting canes
in the year to come. But we both wanted help;
and now I found, more than before, I had done wrong
in parting with my boy Xury.
But, alas! for me to do wrong that
never did right, was no great wonder. I hail
no remedy but to go on: I had got into an employment
quite remote to my genius, and directly contrary to
the life I delighted in, and for which I forsook
my father’s house, and broke through all his
good advice. Nay, I was coming into the very
middle station, or upper degree of low life, which
my father advised me to before, and which, if I resolved
to go on with, I might as well have stayed at home,
and never have fatigued myself in the world as I
had done; and I used often to say to myself, I could
have done this as well in England, among my friends,
as have gone five thousand miles off to do it among
strangers and savages, in a wilderness, and at such
a distance as never to hear from any part of the
world that had the least knowledge of me.
In this manner I used to look upon
my condition with the utmost regret. I had
nobody to converse with, but now and then this neighbour;
no work to be done, but by the labour of my hands;
and I used to say, I lived just like a man cast away
upon some desolate island, that had nobody there
but himself. But how just has it been —
and how should all men reflect, that when they compare
their present conditions with others that are worse,
Heaven may oblige them to make the exchange, and
be convinced of their former felicity by their experience
— I say, how just has it been, that the truly
solitary life I reflected on, in an island of mere
desolation, should be my lot, who had so often unjustly
compared it with the life which I then led, in which,
had I continued, I had in all probability been exceeding
prosperous and rich.
I was in some degree settled in my
measures for carrying on the plantation before my
kind friend, the captain of the ship that took me
up at sea, went back — for the ship remained
there, in providing his lading and preparing for
his voyage, nearly three months — when telling
him what little stock I had left behind me in London,
he gave me this friendly and sincere advice:- “Seignior
Inglese,” says he (for so he always called
me), “if you will give me letters, and a procuration
in form to me, with orders to the person who has your
money in London to send your effects to Lisbon, to
such persons as I shall direct, and in such goods
as are proper for this country, I will bring you
the produce of them, God willing, at my return; but,
since human affairs are all subject to changes and
disasters, I would have you give orders but for one
hundred pounds sterling, which, you say, is half
your stock, and let the hazard be run for the first;
so that, if it come safe, you may order the rest the
same way, and, if it miscarry, you may have the other
half to have recourse to for your supply.”
This was so wholesome advice, and
looked so friendly, that I could not but be convinced
it was the best course I could take; so I accordingly
prepared letters to the gentlewoman with whom I had
left my money, and a procuration to the Portuguese
captain, as he desired.
I wrote the English captain’s
widow a full account of all my adventures —
my slavery, escape, and how I had met with the Portuguese
captain at sea, the humanity of his behaviour, and
what condition I was now in, with all other necessary
directions for my supply; and when this honest captain
came to Lisbon, he found means, by some of the English
merchants there, to send over, not the order only,
but a full account of my story to a merchant in London,
who represented it effectually to her; whereupon she
not only delivered the money, but out of her own
pocket sent the Portugal captain a very handsome
present for his humanity and charity to me.
The merchant in London, vesting this
hundred pounds in English goods, such as the captain
had written for, sent them directly to him at Lisbon,
and he brought them all safe to me to the Brazils;
among which, without my direction (for I was too
young in my business to think of them), he had taken
care to have all sorts of tools, ironwork, and utensils
necessary for my plantation, and which were of great
use to me.
When this cargo arrived I thought
my fortune made, for I was surprised with the joy
of it; and my stood steward, the captain, had laid
out the five pounds, which my friend had sent him for
a present for himself, to purchase and bring me over
a servant, under bond for six years’ service,
and would not accept of any consideration, except
a little tobacco, which I would have him accept,
being of my own produce.
Neither was this all; for my goods
being all English manufacture, such as cloths, stuffs,
baize, and things particularly valuable and desirable
in the country, I found means to sell them to a very
great advantage; so that I might say I had more than
four times the value of my first cargo, and was now
infinitely beyond my poor neighbour — I mean
in the advancement of my plantation; for the first
thing I did, I bought me a negro slave, and an European
servant also — I mean another besides that
which the captain brought me from Lisbon.
But as abused prosperity is oftentimes
made the very means of our greatest adversity, so
it was with me. I went on the next year with
great success in my plantation: I raised fifty
great rolls of tobacco on my own ground, more than
I had disposed of for necessaries among my neighbours;
and these fifty rolls, being each of above a hundredweight,
were well cured, and laid by against the return of
the fleet from Lisbon: and now increasing in business
and wealth, my head began to be full of projects
and undertakings beyond my reach; such as are, indeed,
often the ruin of the best heads in business.
Had I continued in the station I was now in, I had
room for all the happy things to have yet befallen
me for which my father so earnestly recommended a
quiet, retired life, and of which he had so sensibly
described the middle station of life to be full of;
but other things attended me, and I was still to be
the wilful agent of all my own miseries; and particularly,
to increase my fault, and double the reflections
upon myself, which in my future sorrows I should
have leisure to make, all these miscarriages were
procured by my apparent obstinate adhering to my
foolish inclination of wandering abroad, and pursuing
that inclination, in contradiction to the clearest
views of doing myself good in a fair and plain pursuit
of those prospects, and those measures of life, which
nature and Providence concurred to present me with,
and to make my duty.
As I had once done thus in my breaking
away from my parents, so I could not be content now,
but I must go and leave the happy view I had of being
a rich and thriving man in my new plantation, only
to pursue a rash and immoderate desire of rising
faster than the nature of the thing admitted; and
thus I cast myself down again into the deepest gulf
of human misery that ever man fell into, or perhaps
could be consistent with life and a state of health
in the world.
To come, then, by the just degrees
to the particulars of this part of my story.
You may suppose, that having now lived almost four
years in the Brazils, and beginning to thrive and
prosper very well upon my plantation, I had not only
learned the language, but had contracted acquaintance
and friendship among my fellow-planters, as well
as among the merchants at St. Salvador, which was our
port; and that, in my discourses among them, I had
frequently given them an account of my two voyages
to the coast of Guinea: the manner of trading
with the negroes there, and how easy it was to purchase
upon the coast for trifles — such as beads,
toys, knives, scissors, hatchets, bits of glass,
and the like — not only gold-dust, Guinea grains,
elephants’ teeth, &c., but negroes, for the service
of the Brazils, in great numbers.
They listened always very attentively
to my discourses on these heads, but especially to
that part which related to the buying of negroes,
which was a trade at that time, not only not far entered
into, but, as far as it was, had been carried on
by assientos, or permission of the kings of Spain
and Portugal, and engrossed in the public stock:
so that few negroes were bought, and these excessively
dear.
It happened, being in company with
some merchants and planters of my acquaintance, and
talking of those things very earnestly, three of
them came to me next morning, and told me they had
been musing very much upon what I had discoursed
with them of the last night, and they came to make
a secret proposal to me; and, after enjoining me
to secrecy, they told me that they had a mind to fit
out a ship to go to Guinea; that they had all plantations
as well as I, and were straitened for nothing so
much as servants; that as it was a trade that could
not be carried on, because they could not publicly
sell the negroes when they came home, so they desired
to make but one voyage, to bring the negroes on shore
privately, and divide them among their own plantations;
and, in a word, the question was whether I would
go their supercargo in the ship, to manage the trading
part upon the coast of Guinea; and they offered me
that I should have my equal share of the negroes,
without providing any part of the stock.
This was a fair proposal, it must
be confessed, had it been made to any one that had
not had a settlement and a plantation of his own
to look after, which was in a fair way of coming to
be very considerable, and with a good stock upon
it; but for me, that was thus entered and established,
and had nothing to do but to go on as I had begun,
for three or four years more, and to have sent for
the other hundred pounds from England; and who in
that time, and with that little addition, could scarce
have failed of being worth three or four thousand
pounds sterling, and that increasing too — for
me to think of such a voyage was the most preposterous
thing that ever man in such circumstances could be
guilty of.
But I, that was born to be my own
destroyer, could no more resist the offer than I
could restrain my first rambling designs when my
father’ good counsel was lost upon me.
In a word, I told them I would go with all my heart,
if they would undertake to look after my plantation
in my absence, and would dispose of it to such as I
should direct, if I miscarried. This they all
engaged to do, and entered into writings or covenants
to do so; and I made a formal will, disposing of
my plantation and effects in case of my death, making
the captain of the ship that had saved my life, as
before, my universal heir, but obliging him to dispose
of my effects as I had directed in my will; one half
of the produce being to himself, and the other to
be shipped to England.
In short, I took all possible caution
to preserve my effects and to keep up my plantation.
Had I used half as much prudence to have looked
into my own interest, and have made a judgment of what
I ought to have done and not to have done, I had
certainly never gone away from so prosperous an undertaking,
leaving all the probable views of a thriving circumstance,
and gone upon a voyage to sea, attended with all
its common hazards, to say nothing of the reasons
I had to expect particular misfortunes to myself.
But I was hurried on, and obeyed blindly
the dictates of my fancy rather than my reason; and,
accordingly, the ship being fitted out, and the cargo
furnished, and all things done, as by agreement, by
my partners in the voyage, I went on board in an
evil hour, the 1st September 1659, being the same
day eight years that I went from my father and mother
at Hull, in order to act the rebel to their authority,
and the fool to my own interests.
Our ship was about one hundred and
twenty tons burden, carried six guns and fourteen
men, besides the master, his boy, and myself.
We had on board no large cargo of goods, except
of such toys as were fit for our trade with the negroes,
such as beads, bits of glass, shells, and other trifles,
especially little looking-glasses, knives, scissors,
hatchets, and the like.
The same day I went on board we set
sail, standing away to the northward upon our own
coast, with design to stretch over for the African
coast when we came about ten or twelve degrees of northern
latitude, which, it seems, was the manner of course
in those days. We had very good weather, only
excessively hot, all the way upon our own coast,
till we came to the height of Cape St. Augustino;
from whence, keeping further off at sea, we lost sight
of land, and steered as if we were bound for the
isle Fernando de Noronha, holding our course N.E.
by N., and leaving those isles on the east.
In this course we passed the line in about twelve days’
time, and were, by our last observation, in seven
degrees twenty-two minutes northern latitude, when
a violent tornado, or hurricane, took us quite out
of our knowledge. It began from the south-east,
came about to the north-west, and then settled in
the north-east; from whence it blew in such a terrible
manner, that for twelve days together we could do
nothing but drive, and, scudding away before it,
let it carry us whither fate and the fury of the winds
directed; and, during these twelve days, I need not
say that I expected every day to be swallowed up;
nor, indeed, did any in the ship expect to save their
lives.
In this distress we had, besides the
terror of the storm, one of our men die of the calenture,
and one man and the boy washed overboard. About
the twelfth day, the weather abating a little, the
master made an observation as well as he could, and
found that he was in about eleven degrees north latitude,
but that he was twenty-two degrees of longitude difference
west from Cape St. Augustino; so that he found he
was upon the coast of Guiana, or the north part of
Brazil, beyond the river Amazon, toward that of the
river Orinoco, commonly called the Great River; and
began to consult with me what course he should take,
for the ship was leaky, and very much disabled, and
he was going directly back to the coast of Brazil.
I was positively against that; and
looking over the charts of the sea-coast of America
with him, we concluded there was no inhabited country
for us to have recourse to till we came within the
circle of the Caribbee Islands, and therefore resolved
to stand away for Barbadoes; which, by keeping off
at sea, to avoid the indraft of the Bay or Gulf of
Mexico, we might easily perform, as we hoped, in
about fifteen days’ sail; whereas we could not
possibly make our voyage to the coast of Africa without
some assistance both to our ship and to ourselves.
With this design we changed our course,
and steered away N.W. by W., in order to reach some
of our English islands, where I hoped for relief.
But our voyage was otherwise determined; for, being
in the latitude of twelve degrees eighteen minutes,
a second storm came upon us, which carried us away
with the same impetuosity westward, and drove us
so out of the way of all human commerce, that, had
all our lives been saved as to the sea, we were rather
in danger of being devoured by savages than ever
returning to our own country.
In this distress, the wind still blowing
very hard, one of our men early in the morning cried
out, “Land!” and we had no sooner run
out of the cabin to look out, in hopes of seeing whereabouts
in the world we were, than the ship struck upon a
sand, and in a moment her motion being so stopped,
the sea broke over her in such a manner that we expected
we should all have perished immediately; and we were
immediately driven into our close quarters, to shelter
us from the very foam and spray of the sea.
It is not easy for any one who has
not been in the like condition to describe or conceive
the consternation of men in such circumstances.
We knew nothing where we were, or upon what land it
was we were driven — whether an island or the
main, whether inhabited or not inhabited. As
the rage of the wind was still great, though rather
less than at first, we could not so much as hope
to have the ship hold many minutes without breaking
into pieces, unless the winds, by a kind of miracle,
should turn immediately about. In a word, we
sat looking upon one another, and expecting death
every moment, and every man, accordingly, preparing
for another world; for there was little or nothing
more for us to do in this. That which was our
present comfort, and all the comfort we had, was
that, contrary to our expectation, the ship did not
break yet, and that the master said the wind began
to abate.
Now, though we thought that the wind
did a little abate, yet the ship having thus struck
upon the sand, and sticking too fast for us to expect
her getting off, we were in a dreadful condition indeed,
and had nothing to do but to think of saving our
lives as well as we could. We had a boat at
our stern just before the storm, but she was first
staved by dashing against the ship’s rudder,
and in the next place she broke away, and either
sunk or was driven off to sea; so there was no hope
from her. We had another boat on board, but
how to get her off into the sea was a doubtful thing.
However, there was no time to debate, for we fancied
that the ship would break in pieces every minute,
and some told us she was actually broken already.
In this distress the mate of our vessel
laid hold of the boat, and with the help of the rest
of the men got her slung over the ship’s side;
and getting all into her, let go, and committed ourselves,
being eleven in number, to God’s mercy and
the wild sea; for though the storm was abated considerably,
yet the sea ran dreadfully high upon the shore, and
might be well called DEN wild ZEE, as the Dutch
call the sea in a storm.
And now our case was very dismal indeed;
for we all saw plainly that the sea went so high
that the boat could not live, and that we should
be inevitably drowned. As to making sail, we
had none, nor if we had could we have done anything
with it; so we worked at the oar towards the land,
though with heavy hearts, like men going to execution;
for we all knew that when the boat came near the shore
she would be dashed in a thousand pieces by the breach
of the sea. However, we committed our souls
to God in the most earnest manner; and the wind driving
us towards the shore, we hastened our destruction
with our own hands, pulling as well as we could towards
land.
What the shore was, whether rock or
sand, whether steep or shoal, we knew not.
The only hope that could rationally give us the least
shadow of expectation was, if we might find some
bay or gulf, or the mouth of some river, where by
great chance we might have run our boat in, or got
under the lee of the land, and perhaps made smooth
water. But there was nothing like this appeared;
but as we made nearer and nearer the shore, the land
looked more frightful than the sea.
After we had rowed, or rather driven
about a league and a half, as we reckoned it, a raging
wave, mountain-like, came rolling astern of us, and
plainly bade us expect the COUP de grace.
It took us with such a fury, that it overset the
boat at once; and separating us as well from the
boat as from one another, gave us no time to say,
“O God!” for we were all swallowed up in
a moment.
Nothing can describe the confusion
of thought which I felt when I sank into the water;
for though I swam very well, yet I could not deliver
myself from the waves so as to draw breath, till that
wave having driven me, or rather carried me, a vast
way on towards the shore, and having spent itself,
went back, and left me upon the land almost dry,
but half dead with the water I took in. I had
so much presence of mind, as well as breath left,
that seeing myself nearer the mainland than I expected,
I got upon my feet, and endeavoured to make on towards
the land as fast as I could before another wave should
return and take me up again; but I soon found it
was impossible to avoid it; for I saw the sea come
after me as high as a great hill, and as furious
as an enemy, which I had no means or strength to
contend with: my business was to hold my breath,
and raise myself upon the water if I could; and so,
by swimming, to preserve my breathing, and pilot
myself towards the shore, if possible, my greatest
concern now being that the sea, as it would carry
me a great way towards the shore when it came on,
might not carry me back again with it when it gave
back towards the sea.
The wave that came upon me again buried
me at once twenty or thirty feet deep in its own
body, and I could feel myself carried with a mighty
force and swiftness towards the shore — a very
great way; but I held my breath, and assisted myself
to swim still forward with all my might. I
was ready to burst with holding my breath, when,
as I felt myself rising up, so, to my immediate relief,
I found my head and hands shoot out above the surface
of the water; and though it was not two seconds of
time that I could keep myself so, yet it relieved
me greatly, gave me breath, and new courage.
I was covered again with water a good while, but
not so long but I held it out; and finding the water
had spent itself, and began to return, I struck forward
against the return of the waves, and felt ground
again with my feet. I stood still a few moments
to recover breath, and till the waters went from
me, and then took to my heels and ran with what strength
I had further towards the shore. But neither
would this deliver me from the fury of the sea, which
came pouring in after me again; and twice more I
was lifted up by the waves and carried forward as
before, the shore being very flat.
The last time of these two had well-nigh
been fatal to me, for the sea having hurried me along
as before, landed me, or rather dashed me, against
a piece of rock, and that with such force, that it
left me senseless, and indeed helpless, as to my
own deliverance; for the blow taking my side and
breast, beat the breath as it were quite out of my
body; and had it returned again immediately, I must
have been strangled in the water; but I recovered
a little before the return of the waves, and seeing
I should be covered again with the water, I resolved
to hold fast by a piece of the rock, and so to hold
my breath, if possible, till the wave went back.
Now, as the waves were not so high as at first,
being nearer land, I held my hold till the wave abated,
and then fetched another run, which brought me so
near the shore that the next wave, though it went
over me, yet did not so swallow me up as to carry me
away; and the next run I took, I got to the mainland,
where, to my great comfort, I clambered up the cliffs
of the shore and sat me down upon the grass, free
from danger and quite out of the reach of the water.
I was now landed and safe on shore,
and began to look up and thank God that my life was
saved, in a case wherein there was some minutes before
scarce any room to hope. I believe it is impossible
to express, to the life, what the ecstasies and transports
of the soul are, when it is so saved, as I may say,
out of the very grave: and I do not wonder now
at the custom, when a malefactor, who has the halter
about his neck, is tied up, and just going to be turned
off, and has a reprieve brought to him — I
say, I do not wonder that they bring a surgeon with
it, to let him blood that very moment they tell him
of it, that the surprise may not drive the animal
spirits from the heart and overwhelm him.
“For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at first.”
I walked about on the shore lifting
up my hands, and my whole being, as I may say, wrapped
up in a contemplation of my deliverance; making a
thousand gestures and motions, which I cannot describe;
reflecting upon all my comrades that were drowned,
and that there should not be one soul saved but myself;
for, as for them, I never saw them afterwards, or
any sign of them, except three of their hats, one
cap, and two shoes that were not fellows.
I cast my eye to the stranded vessel,
when, the breach and froth of the sea being so big,
I could hardly see it, it lay so far of; and considered,
Lord! how was it possible I could get on shore
After I had solaced my mind with the
comfortable part of my condition, I began to look
round me, to see what kind of place I was in, and
what was next to be done; and I soon found my comforts
abate, and that, in a word, I had a dreadful deliverance;
for I was wet, had no clothes to shift me, nor anything
either to eat or drink to comfort me; neither did
I see any prospect before me but that of perishing
with hunger or being devoured by wild beasts; and
that which was particularly afflicting to me was, that
I had no weapon, either to hunt and kill any creature
for my sustenance, or to defend myself against any
other creature that might desire to kill me for theirs.
In a word, I had nothing about me but a knife, a
tobacco-pipe, and a little tobacco in a box.
This was all my provisions; and this threw me into
such terrible agonies of mind, that for a while I
ran about like a madman. Night coming upon me,
I began with a heavy heart to consider what would
be my lot if there were any ravenous beasts in that
country, as at night they always come abroad for
their prey.
All the remedy that offered to my
thoughts at that time was to get up into a thick
bushy tree like a fir, but thorny, which grew near
me, and where I resolved to sit all night, and consider
the next day what death I should die, for as yet
I saw no prospect of life. I walked about a
furlong from the shore, to see if I could find any
fresh water to drink, which I did, to my great joy;
and having drank, and put a little tobacco into my
mouth to prevent hunger, I went to the tree, and
getting up into it, endeavoured to place myself so
that if I should sleep I might not fall. And
having cut me a short stick, like a truncheon, for
my defence, I took up my lodging; and having been
excessively fatigued, I fell fast asleep, and slept
as comfortably as, I believe, few could have done in
my condition, and found myself more refreshed with
it than, I think, I ever was on such an occasion.