Throws some Light upon Nicholas’s
Love; but whether for Good or Evil the Reader must
determine
After an anxious consideration of
the painful and embarrassing position in which he
was placed, Nicholas decided that he ought to lose
no time in frankly stating it to the kind brothers.
Availing himself of the first opportunity of being
alone with Mr Charles Cheeryble at the close of next
day, he accordingly related Smike’s little history,
and modestly but firmly expressed his hope that the
good old gentleman would, under such circumstances
as he described, hold him justified in adopting the
extreme course of interfering between parent and child,
and upholding the latter in his disobedience; even
though his horror and dread of his father might seem,
and would doubtless be represented as, a thing so repulsive
and unnatural, as to render those who countenanced
him in it, fit objects of general detestation and
abhorrence.
‘So deeply rooted does this
horror of the man appear to be,’ said Nicholas,
’that I can hardly believe he really is his son.
Nature does not seem to have implanted in his breast
one lingering feeling of affection for him, and surely
she can never err.’
‘My dear sir,’ replied
brother Charles, ’you fall into the very common
mistake of charging upon Nature, matters with which
she has not the smallest connection, and for which
she is in no way responsible. Men talk of Nature
as an abstract thing, and lose sight of what is natural
while they do so. Here is a poor lad who has
never felt a parent’s care, who has scarcely
known anything all his life but suffering and sorrow,
presented to a man who he is told is his father, and
whose first act is to signify his intention of putting
an end to his short term of happiness, of consigning
him to his old fate, and taking him from the only
friend he has ever had— which is yourself.
If Nature, in such a case, put into that lad’s
breast but one secret prompting which urged him towards
his father and away from you, she would be a liar
and an idiot.’
Nicholas was delighted to find that
the old gentleman spoke so warmly, and in the hope
that he might say something more to the same purpose,
made no reply.
’The same mistake presents itself
to me, in one shape or other, at every turn,’
said brother Charles. ’Parents who never
showed their love, complain of want of natural affection
in their children; children who never showed their
duty, complain of want of natural feeling in their
parents; law-makers who find both so miserable that
their affections have never had enough of life’s
sun to develop them, are loud in their moralisings
over parents and children too, and cry that the very
ties of nature are disregarded. Natural affections
and instincts, my dear sir, are the most beautiful
of the Almighty’s works, but like other beautiful
works of His, they must be reared and fostered, or
it is as natural that they should be wholly obscured,
and that new feelings should usurp their place, as
it is that the sweetest productions of the earth, left
untended, should be choked with weeds and briers.
I wish we could be brought to consider this, and
remembering natural obligations a little more at the
right time, talk about them a little less at the wrong
one.’
After this, brother Charles, who had
talked himself into a great heat, stopped to cool
a little, and then continued:
’I dare say you are surprised,
my dear sir, that I have listened to your recital
with so little astonishment. That is easily explained.
Your uncle has been here this morning.’
Nicholas coloured, and drew back a step or two.
‘Yes,’ said the old gentleman,
tapping his desk emphatically, ’here, in this
room. He would listen neither to reason, feeling,
nor justice. But brother Ned was hard upon him;
brother Ned, sir, might have melted a paving-stone.’
‘He came to—’ said Nicholas.
‘To complain of you,’
returned brother Charles, ’to poison our ears
with calumnies and falsehoods; but he came on a fruitless
errand, and went away with some wholesome truths in
his ear besides. Brother Ned, my dear My Nickleby—brother
Ned, sir, is a perfect lion. So is Tim Linkinwater;
Tim is quite a lion. We had Tim in to face him
at first, and Tim was at him, sir, before you could
say “Jack Robinson.”’
’How can I ever thank you for
all the deep obligations you impose upon me every
day?’ said Nicholas.
‘By keeping silence upon the
subject, my dear sir,’ returned brother Charles.
’You shall be righted. At least you shall
not be wronged. Nobody belonging to you shall
be wronged. They shall not hurt a hair of your
head, or the boy’s head, or your mother’s
head, or your sister’s head. I have said
it, brother Ned has said it, Tim Linkinwater has said
it. We have all said it, and we’ll all
do it. I have seen the father—if he
is the father—and I suppose he must be.
He is a barbarian and a hypocrite, Mr Nickleby.
I told him, “You are a barbarian, sir.”
I did. I said, “You’re a barbarian,
sir.” And I’m glad of it, I am very
glad I told him he was a barbarian, very glad indeed!’
By this time brother Charles was in
such a very warm state of indignation, that Nicholas
thought he might venture to put in a word, but the
moment he essayed to do so, Mr Cheeryble laid his hand
softly upon his arm, and pointed to a chair.
‘The subject is at an end for
the present,’ said the old gentleman, wiping
his face. ’Don’t revive it by a single
word. I am going to speak upon another subject,
a confidential subject, Mr Nickleby. We must
be cool again, we must be cool.’
After two or three turns across the
room he resumed his seat, and drawing his chair nearer
to that on which Nicholas was seated, said:
’I am about to employ you, my
dear sir, on a confidential and delicate mission.’
‘You might employ many a more
able messenger, sir,’ said Nicholas, ’but
a more trustworthy or zealous one, I may be bold to
say, you could not find.’
‘Of that I am well assured,’
returned brother Charles, ’well assured.
You will give me credit for thinking so, when I tell
you that the object of this mission is a young lady.’
‘A young lady, sir!’ cried
Nicholas, quite trembling for the moment with his
eagerness to hear more.
‘A very beautiful young lady,’
said Mr Cheeryble, gravely.
‘Pray go on, sir,’ returned Nicholas.
‘I am thinking how to do so,’
said brother Charles; sadly, as it seemed to his young
friend, and with an expression allied to pain.
’You accidentally saw a young lady in this room
one morning, my dear sir, in a fainting fit.
Do you remember? Perhaps you have forgotten.’
‘Oh no,’ replied Nicholas,
hurriedly. ’I—I—remember
it very well indeed.’
‘She is the lady I speak
of,’ said brother Charles. Like the famous
parrot, Nicholas thought a great deal, but was unable
to utter a word.
‘She is the daughter,’
said Mr Cheeryble, ’of a lady who, when she
was a beautiful girl herself, and I was very many years
younger, I— it seems a strange word for
me to utter now—I loved very dearly.
You will smile, perhaps, to hear a grey-headed man
talk about such things. You will not offend
me, for when I was as young as you, I dare say I should
have done the same.’
‘I have no such inclination, indeed,’
said Nicholas.
‘My dear brother Ned,’
continued Mr Cheeryble, ’was to have married
her sister, but she died. She is dead too now,
and has been for many years. She married her
choice; and I wish I could add that her after-life
was as happy as God knows I ever prayed it might be!’
A short silence intervened, which
Nicholas made no effort to break.
’If trial and calamity had fallen
as lightly on his head, as in the deepest truth of
my own heart I ever hoped (for her sake) it would,
his life would have been one of peace and happiness,’
said the old gentleman calmly. ’It will
be enough to say that this was not the case; that
she was not happy; that they fell into complicated
distresses and difficulties; that she came, twelve
months before her death, to appeal to my old friendship;
sadly changed, sadly altered, broken-spirited from
suffering and ill-usage, and almost broken-hearted.
He readily availed himself of the money which, to
give her but one hour’s peace of mind, I would
have poured out as freely as water—nay,
he often sent her back for more—and yet
even while he squandered it, he made the very success
of these, her applications to me, the groundwork of
cruel taunts and jeers, protesting that he knew she
thought with bitter remorse of the choice she had made,
that she had married him from motives of interest and
vanity (he was a gay young man with great friends
about him when she chose him for her husband), and
venting in short upon her, by every unjust and unkind
means, the bitterness of that ruin and disappointment
which had been brought about by his profligacy alone.
In those times this young lady was a mere child.
I never saw her again until that morning when you
saw her also, but my nephew, Frank—’
Nicholas started, and indistinctly
apologising for the interruption, begged his patron
to proceed.
‘—My nephew, Frank,
I say,’ resumed Mr Cheeryble, ’encountered
her by accident, and lost sight of her almost in a
minute afterwards, within two days after he returned
to England. Her father lay in some secret place
to avoid his creditors, reduced, between sickness
and poverty, to the verge of death, and she, a child,—we
might almost think, if we did not know the wisdom
of all Heaven’s decrees —who should
have blessed a better man, was steadily braving privation,
degradation, and everything most terrible to such a
young and delicate creature’s heart, for the
purpose of supporting him. She was attended,
sir,’ said brother Charles, ’in these reverses,
by one faithful creature, who had been, in old times,
a poor kitchen wench in the family, who was then their
solitary servant, but who might have been, for the
truth and fidelity of her heart—who might
have been—ah! the wife of Tim Linkinwater
himself, sir!’
Pursuing this encomium upon the poor
follower with such energy and relish as no words can
describe, brother Charles leant back in his chair,
and delivered the remainder of his relation with greater
composure.
It was in substance this: That
proudly resisting all offers of permanent aid and
support from her late mother’s friends, because
they were made conditional upon her quitting the wretched
man, her father, who had no friends left, and shrinking
with instinctive delicacy from appealing in their
behalf to that true and noble heart which he hated,
and had, through its greatest and purest goodness,
deeply wronged by misconstruction and ill report, this
young girl had struggled alone and unassisted to maintain
him by the labour of her hands. That through
the utmost depths of poverty and affliction she had
toiled, never turning aside for an instant from her
task, never wearied by the petulant gloom of a sick
man sustained by no consoling recollections of the
past or hopes of the future; never repining for the
comforts she had rejected, or bewailing the hard lot
she had voluntarily incurred. That every little
accomplishment she had acquired in happier days had
been put into requisition for this purpose, and directed
to this one end. That for two long years, toiling
by day and often too by night, working at the needle,
the pencil, and the pen, and submitting, as a daily
governess, to such caprices and indignities as women
(with daughters too) too often love to inflict upon
their own sex when they serve in such capacities,
as though in jealousy of the superior intelligence
which they are necessitated to employ,—indignities,
in ninety-nine cases out of every hundred, heaped
upon persons immeasurably and incalculably their betters,
but outweighing in comparison any that the most heartless
blackleg would put upon his groom—that for
two long years, by dint of labouring in all these
capacities and wearying in none, she had not succeeded
in the sole aim and object of her life, but that,
overwhelmed by accumulated difficulties and disappointments,
she had been compelled to seek out her mother’s
old friend, and, with a bursting heart, to confide
in him at last.
‘If I had been poor,’
said brother Charles, with sparkling eyes; ’if
I had been poor, Mr Nickleby, my dear sir, which thank
God I am not, I would have denied myself (of course
anybody would under such circumstances) the commonest
necessaries of life, to help her. As it is,
the task is a difficult one. If her father were
dead, nothing could be easier, for then she should
share and cheer the happiest home that brother Ned
and I could have, as if she were our child or sister.
But he is still alive. Nobody can help him;
that has been tried a thousand times; he was not abandoned
by all without good cause, I know.’
‘Cannot she be persuaded to—’
Nicholas hesitated when he had got thus far.
‘To leave him?’ said brother
Charles. ’Who could entreat a child to
desert her parent? Such entreaties, limited to
her seeing him occasionally, have been urged upon
her—not by me—but always with
the same result.’
‘Is he kind to her?’ said
Nicholas. ‘Does he requite her affection?’
’True kindness, considerate
self-denying kindness, is not in his nature,’
returned Mr Cheeryble. ’Such kindness as
he knows, he regards her with, I believe. The
mother was a gentle, loving, confiding creature, and
although he wounded her from their marriage till her
death as cruelly and wantonly as ever man did, she
never ceased to love him. She commended him
on her death-bed to her child’s care.
Her child has never forgotten it, and never will.’
‘Have you no influence over him?’ asked
Nicholas.
’I, my dear sir! The last
man in the world. Such are his jealousy and
hatred of me, that if he knew his daughter had opened
her heart to me, he would render her life miserable
with his reproaches; although—this is the
inconsistency and selfishness of his character—although
if he knew that every penny she had came from me,
he would not relinquish one personal desire that the
most reckless expenditure of her scanty stock could
gratify.’
‘An unnatural scoundrel!’ said Nicholas,
indignantly.
‘We will use no harsh terms,’
said brother Charles, in a gentle voice; ’but
accommodate ourselves to the circumstances in which
this young lady is placed. Such assistance as
I have prevailed upon her to accept, I have been obliged,
at her own earnest request, to dole out in the smallest
portions, lest he, finding how easily money was procured,
should squander it even more lightly than he is accustomed
to do. She has come to and fro, to and fro, secretly
and by night, to take even this; and I cannot bear
that things should go on in this way, Mr Nickleby,
I really cannot bear it.’
Then it came out by little and little,
how that the twins had been revolving in their good
old heads manifold plans and schemes for helping this
young lady in the most delicate and considerate way,
and so that her father should not suspect the source
whence the aid was derived; and how they had at last
come to the conclusion, that the best course would
be to make a feint of purchasing her little drawings
and ornamental work at a high price, and keeping up
a constant demand for the same. For the furtherance
of which end and object it was necessary that somebody
should represent the dealer in such commodities, and
after great deliberation they had pitched upon Nicholas
to support this character.
‘He knows me,’ said brother
Charles, ’and he knows my brother Ned.
Neither of us would do. Frank is a very good
fellow—a very fine fellow—but
we are afraid that he might be a little flighty and
thoughtless in such a delicate matter, and that he
might, perhaps— that he might, in short,
be too susceptible (for she is a beautiful creature,
sir; just what her poor mother was), and falling in
love with her before he knew well his own mind, carry
pain and sorrow into that innocent breast, which we
would be the humble instruments of gradually making
happy. He took an extraordinary interest in her
fortunes when he first happened to encounter her; and
we gather from the inquiries we have made of him,
that it was she in whose behalf he made that turmoil
which led to your first acquaintance.’
Nicholas stammered out that he had
before suspected the possibility of such a thing;
and in explanation of its having occurred to him,
described when and where he had seen the young lady
himself.
‘Well; then you see,’
continued brother Charles, ’that he wouldn’t
do. Tim Linkinwater is out of the question; for
Tim, sir, is such a tremendous fellow, that he could
never contain himself, but would go to loggerheads
with the father before he had been in the place five
minutes. You don’t know what Tim is, sir,
when he is aroused by anything that appeals to his
feelings very strongly; then he is terrific, sir,
is Tim Linkinwater, absolutely terrific. Now,
in you we can repose the strictest confidence; in
you we have seen—or at least I have seen,
and that’s the same thing, for there’s
no difference between me and my brother Ned, except
that he is the finest creature that ever lived, and
that there is not, and never will be, anybody like
him in all the world—in you we have seen
domestic virtues and affections, and delicacy of feeling,
which exactly qualify you for such an office.
And you are the man, sir.’
‘The young lady, sir,’
said Nicholas, who felt so embarrassed that he had
no small difficulty in saying anything at all—’Does—is—is
she a party to this innocent deceit?’
‘Yes, yes,’ returned Mr
Cheeryble; ’at least she knows you come from
us; she does not know, however, but that we shall
dispose of these little productions that you’ll
purchase from time to time; and, perhaps, if you did
it very well (that is, very well indeed), perhaps
she might be brought to believe that we—that
we made a profit of them. Eh? Eh?’
In this guileless and most kind simplicity,
brother Charles was so happy, and in this possibility
of the young lady being led to think that she was
under no obligation to him, he evidently felt so sanguine
and had so much delight, that Nicholas would not breathe
a doubt upon the subject.
All this time, however, there hovered
upon the tip of his tongue a confession that the very
same objections which Mr Cheeryble had stated to the
employment of his nephew in this commission applied
with at least equal force and validity to himself,
and a hundred times had he been upon the point of
avowing the real state of his feelings, and entreating
to be released from it. But as often, treading
upon the heels of this impulse, came another which
urged him to refrain, and to keep his secret to his
own breast. ’Why should I,’ thought
Nicholas, ’why should I throw difficulties in
the way of this benevolent and high-minded design?
What if I do love and reverence this good and lovely
creature. Should I not appear a most arrogant
and shallow coxcomb if I gravely represented that
there was any danger of her falling in love with me?
Besides, have I no confidence in myself? Am
I not now bound in honour to repress these thoughts?
Has not this excellent man a right to my best and
heartiest services, and should any considerations of
self deter me from rendering them?’
Asking himself such questions as these,
Nicholas mentally answered with great emphasis ‘No!’
and persuading himself that he was a most conscientious
and glorious martyr, nobly resolved to do what, if
he had examined his own heart a little more carefully,
he would have found he could not resist. Such
is the sleight of hand by which we juggle with ourselves,
and change our very weaknesses into stanch and most
magnanimous virtues!
Mr Cheeryble, being of course wholly
unsuspicious that such reflections were presenting
themselves to his young friend, proceeded to give
him the needful credentials and directions for his
first visit, which was to be made next morning; and
all preliminaries being arranged, and the strictest
secrecy enjoined, Nicholas walked home for the night
very thoughtfully indeed.
The place to which Mr Cheeryble had
directed him was a row of mean and not over-cleanly
houses, situated within ‘the Rules’ of
the King’s Bench Prison, and not many hundred
paces distant from the obelisk in St George’s
Fields. The Rules are a certain liberty adjoining
the prison, and comprising some dozen streets in which
debtors who can raise money to pay large fees, from
which their creditors do not derive any benefit,
are permitted to reside by the wise provisions of
the same enlightened laws which leave the debtor who
can raise no money to starve in jail, without the food,
clothing, lodging, or warmth, which are provided for
felons convicted of the most atrocious crimes that
can disgrace humanity. There are many pleasant
fictions of the law in constant operation, but there
is not one so pleasant or practically humorous as that
which supposes every man to be of equal value in its
impartial eye, and the benefits of all laws to be
equally attainable by all men, without the smallest
reference to the furniture of their pockets.
To the row of houses indicated to
him by Mr Charles Cheeryble, Nicholas directed his
steps, without much troubling his head with such matters
as these; and at this row of houses—after
traversing a very dirty and dusty suburb, of which
minor theatricals, shell-fish, ginger-beer, spring
vans, greengrocery, and brokers’ shops, appeared
to compose the main and most prominent features—he
at length arrived with a palpitating heart.
There were small gardens in front which, being wholly
neglected in all other respects, served as little
pens for the dust to collect in, until the wind came
round the corner and blew it down the road.
Opening the rickety gate which, dangling on its broken
hinges before one of these, half admitted and half
repulsed the visitor, Nicholas knocked at the street
door with a faltering hand.
It was in truth a shabby house outside,
with very dim parlour windows and very small show
of blinds, and very dirty muslin curtains dangling
across the lower panes on very loose and limp strings.
Neither, when the door was opened, did the inside
appear to belie the outward promise, as there was
faded carpeting on the stairs and faded oil-cloth
in the passage; in addition to which discomforts a
gentleman Ruler was smoking hard in the front parlour
(though it was not yet noon), while the lady of the
house was busily engaged in turpentining the disjointed
fragments of a tent-bedstead at the door of the back
parlour, as if in preparation for the reception of
some new lodger who had been fortunate enough to engage
it.
Nicholas had ample time to make these
observations while the little boy, who went on errands
for the lodgers, clattered down the kitchen stairs
and was heard to scream, as in some remote cellar,
for Miss Bray’s servant, who, presently appearing
and requesting him to follow her, caused him to evince
greater symptoms of nervousness and disorder than
so natural a consequence of his having inquired for
that young lady would seem calculated to occasion.
Upstairs he went, however, and into
a front room he was shown, and there, seated at a
little table by the window, on which were drawing
materials with which she was occupied, sat the beautiful
girl who had so engrossed his thoughts, and who, surrounded
by all the new and strong interest which Nicholas
attached to her story, seemed now, in his eyes, a
thousand times more beautiful than he had ever yet
supposed her.
But how the graces and elegancies
which she had dispersed about the poorly-furnished
room went to the heart of Nicholas! Flowers,
plants, birds, the harp, the old piano whose notes
had sounded so much sweeter in bygone times; how many
struggles had it cost her to keep these two last links
of that broken chain which bound her yet to home!
With every slender ornament, the occupation of her
leisure hours, replete with that graceful charm which
lingers in every little tasteful work of woman’s
hands, how much patient endurance and how many gentle
affections were entwined! He felt as though the
smile of Heaven were on the little chamber; as though
the beautiful devotion of so young and weak a creature
had shed a ray of its own on the inanimate things
around, and made them beautiful as itself; as though
the halo with which old painters surround the bright
angels of a sinless world played about a being akin
in spirit to them, and its light were visibly before
him.
And yet Nicholas was in the Rules
of the King’s Bench Prison! If he had
been in Italy indeed, and the time had been sunset,
and the scene a stately terrace! But, there
is one broad sky over all the world, and whether it
be blue or cloudy, the same heaven beyond it; so,
perhaps, he had no need of compunction for thinking
as he did.
It is not to be supposed that he took
in everything at one glance, for he had as yet been
unconscious of the presence of a sick man propped
up with pillows in an easy-chair, who, moving restlessly
and impatiently in his seat, attracted his attention.
He was scarce fifty, perhaps, but
so emaciated as to appear much older. His features
presented the remains of a handsome countenance, but
one in which the embers of strong and impetuous passions
were easier to be traced than any expression which
would have rendered a far plainer face much more prepossessing.
His looks were very haggard, and his limbs and body
literally worn to the bone, but there was something
of the old fire in the large sunken eye notwithstanding,
and it seemed to kindle afresh as he struck a thick
stick, with which he seemed to have supported himself
in his seat, impatiently on the floor twice or thrice,
and called his daughter by her name.
’Madeline, who is this?
What does anybody want here? Who told a stranger
we could be seen? What is it?’
‘I believe—’
the young lady began, as she inclined her head with
an air of some confusion, in reply to the salutation
of Nicholas.
‘You always believe,’
returned her father, petulantly. ’What
is it?’
By this time Nicholas had recovered
sufficient presence of mind to speak for himself,
so he said (as it had been agreed he should say) that
he had called about a pair of hand-screens, and some
painted velvet for an ottoman, both of which were
required to be of the most elegant design possible,
neither time nor expense being of the smallest consideration.
He had also to pay for the two drawings, with many
thanks, and, advancing to the little table, he laid
upon it a bank note, folded in an envelope and sealed.
‘See that the money is right,
Madeline,’ said the father. ’Open
the paper, my dear.’
‘It’s quite right, papa, I’m sure.’
‘Here!’ said Mr Bray,
putting out his hand, and opening and shutting his
bony fingers with irritable impatience. ’Let
me see. What are you talking about, Madeline?
You’re sure? How can you be sure of any
such thing? Five pounds—well, is that
right?’
‘Quite,’ said Madeline,
bending over him. She was so busily employed
in arranging the pillows that Nicholas could not see
her face, but as she stooped he thought he saw a tear
fall.
‘Ring the bell, ring the bell,’
said the sick man, with the same nervous eagerness,
and motioning towards it with such a quivering hand
that the bank note rustled in the air. ’Tell
her to get it changed, to get me a newspaper, to buy
me some grapes, another bottle of the wine that I
had last week—and—and—I
forget half I want just now, but she can go out again.
Let her get those first, those first. Now,
Madeline, my love, quick, quick! Good God, how
slow you are!’
‘He remembers nothing that she
wants!’ thought Nicholas. Perhaps something
of what he thought was expressed in his countenance,
for the sick man, turning towards him with great asperity,
demanded to know if he waited for a receipt.
‘It is no matter at all,’ said Nicholas.
‘No matter! what do you mean,
sir?’ was the tart rejoinder. ’No
matter! Do you think you bring your paltry money
here as a favour or a gift; or as a matter of business,
and in return for value received? D—n
you, sir, because you can’t appreciate the time
and taste which are bestowed upon the goods you deal
in, do you think you give your money away? Do
you know that you are talking to a gentleman, sir,
who at one time could have bought up fifty such men
as you and all you have? What do you mean?’
’I merely mean that as I shall
have many dealings with this lady, if she will kindly
allow me, I will not trouble her with such forms,’
said Nicholas.
’Then I mean, if you please,
that we’ll have as many forms as we can, returned
the father. ’My daughter, sir, requires
no kindness from you or anybody else. Have the
goodness to confine your dealings strictly to trade
and business, and not to travel beyond it. Every
petty tradesman is to begin to pity her now, is he?
Upon my soul! Very pretty. Madeline,
my dear, give him a receipt; and mind you always do
so.’
While she was feigning to write it,
and Nicholas was ruminating upon the extraordinary
but by no means uncommon character thus presented
to his observation, the invalid, who appeared at times
to suffer great bodily pain, sank back in his chair
and moaned out a feeble complaint that the girl had
been gone an hour, and that everybody conspired to
goad him.
‘When,’ said Nicholas,
as he took the piece of paper, ’when shall I
call again?’
This was addressed to the daughter,
but the father answered immediately.
’When you’re requested
to call, sir, and not before. Don’t worry
and persecute. Madeline, my dear, when is this
person to call again?’
’Oh, not for a long time, not
for three or four weeks; it is not necessary, indeed;
I can do without,’ said the young lady, with
great eagerness.
‘Why, how are we to do without?’
urged her father, not speaking above his breath.
’Three or four weeks, Madeline! Three
or four weeks!’
‘Then sooner, sooner, if you
please,’ said the young lady, turning to Nicholas.
‘Three or four weeks!’
muttered the father. ’Madeline, what on
earth—do nothing for three or four weeks!’
‘It is a long time, ma’am,’ said
Nicholas.
‘You think so, do you?’
retorted the father, angrily. ’If I chose
to beg, sir, and stoop to ask assistance from people
I despise, three or four months would not be a long
time; three or four years would not be a long time.
Understand, sir, that is if I chose to be dependent;
but as I don’t, you may call in a week.’
Nicholas bowed low to the young lady
and retired, pondering upon Mr Bray’s ideas
of independence, and devoutly hoping that there might
be few such independent spirits as he mingling with
the baser clay of humanity.
He heard a light footstep above him
as he descended the stairs, and looking round saw
that the young lady was standing there, and glancing
timidly towards him, seemed to hesitate whether she
should call him back or no. The best way of
settling the question was to turn back at once, which
Nicholas did.
‘I don’t know whether
I do right in asking you, sir,’ said Madeline,
hurriedly, ’but pray, pray, do not mention to
my poor mother’s dear friends what has passed
here today. He has suffered much, and is worse
this morning. I beg you, sir, as a boon, a favour
to myself.’
‘You have but to hint a wish,’
returned Nicholas fervently, ’and I would hazard
my life to gratify it.’
‘You speak hastily, sir.’
‘Truly and sincerely,’
rejoined Nicholas, his lips trembling as he formed
the words, ’if ever man spoke truly yet.
I am not skilled in disguising my feelings, and if
I were, I could not hide my heart from you.
Dear madam, as I know your history, and feel as men
and angels must who hear and see such things, I do
entreat you to believe that I would die to serve you.’
The young lady turned away her head,
and was plainly weeping.
‘Forgive me,’ said Nicholas,
with respectful earnestness, ’if I seem to say
too much, or to presume upon the confidence which has
been intrusted to me. But I could not leave
you as if my interest and sympathy expired with the
commission of the day. I am your faithful servant,
humbly devoted to you from this hour, devoted in strict
truth and honour to him who sent me here, and in pure
integrity of heart, and distant respect for you.
If I meant more or less than this, I should be unworthy
his regard, and false to the very nature that prompts
the honest words I utter.’
She waved her hand, entreating him
to be gone, but answered not a word. Nicholas
could say no more, and silently withdrew. And
thus ended his first interview with Madeline Bray.