Could Sir Thomas have seen all his
niece’s feelings, when she wrote her first letter
to her aunt, he would not have despaired; for though
a good night’s rest, a pleasant morning, the
hope of soon seeing William again, and the comparatively
quiet state of the house, from Tom and Charles being
gone to school, Sam on some project of his own, and
her father on his usual lounges, enabled her to express
herself cheerfully on the subject of home, there were
still, to her own perfect consciousness, many drawbacks
suppressed. Could he have seen only half that
she felt before the end of a week, he would have thought
Mr. Crawford sure of her, and been delighted with
his own sagacity.
Before the week ended, it was all
disappointment. In the first place, William was
gone. The Thrush had had her orders, the wind
had changed, and he was sailed within four days from
their reaching Portsmouth; and during those days she
had seen him only twice, in a short and hurried way,
when he had come ashore on duty. There had been
no free conversation, no walk on the ramparts, no
visit to the dockyard, no acquaintance with the Thrush,
nothing of all that they had planned and depended
on. Everything in that quarter failed her, except
William’s affection. His last thought on
leaving home was for her. He stepped back again
to the door to say, “Take care of Fanny, mother.
She is tender, and not used to rough it like the
rest of us. I charge you, take care of Fanny.”
William was gone: and the home
he had left her in was, Fanny could not conceal it
from herself, in almost every respect the very reverse
of what she could have wished. It was the abode
of noise, disorder, and impropriety. Nobody was
in their right place, nothing was done as it ought
to be. She could not respect her parents as she
had hoped. On her father, her confidence had
not been sanguine, but he was more negligent of his
family, his habits were worse, and his manners coarser,
than she had been prepared for. He did not want
abilities but he had no curiosity, and no information
beyond his profession; he read only the newspaper
and the navy-list; he talked only of the dockyard,
the harbour, Spithead, and the Motherbank; he swore
and he drank, he was dirty and gross. She had
never been able to recall anything approaching to
tenderness in his former treatment of herself.
There had remained only a general impression of roughness
and loudness; and now he scarcely ever noticed her,
but to make her the object of a coarse joke.
Her disappointment in her mother was
greater: there she had hoped much, and
found almost nothing. Every flattering scheme
of being of consequence to her soon fell to the ground.
Mrs. Price was not unkind; but, instead of gaining
on her affection and confidence, and becoming more
and more dear, her daughter never met with greater
kindness from her than on the first day of her arrival.
The instinct of nature was soon satisfied, and Mrs.
Price’s attachment had no other source.
Her heart and her time were already quite full; she
had neither leisure nor affection to bestow on Fanny.
Her daughters never had been much to her. She
was fond of her sons, especially of William, but Betsey
was the first of her girls whom she had ever much
regarded. To her she was most injudiciously
indulgent. William was her pride; Betsey her
darling; and John, Richard, Sam, Tom, and Charles
occupied all the rest of her maternal solicitude, alternately
her worries and her comforts. These shared her
heart: her time was given chiefly to her house
and her servants. Her days were spent in a kind
of slow bustle; all was busy without getting on, always
behindhand and lamenting it, without altering her
ways; wishing to be an economist, without contrivance
or regularity; dissatisfied with her servants, without
skill to make them better, and whether helping, or
reprimanding, or indulging them, without any power
of engaging their respect.
Of her two sisters, Mrs. Price very
much more resembled Lady Bertram than Mrs. Norris.
She was a manager by necessity, without any of Mrs.
Norris’s inclination for it, or any of her activity.
Her disposition was naturally easy and indolent,
like Lady Bertram’s; and a situation of similar
affluence and do-nothingness would have been much more
suited to her capacity than the exertions and self-denials
of the one which her imprudent marriage had placed
her in. She might have made just as good a woman
of consequence as Lady Bertram, but Mrs. Norris would
have been a more respectable mother of nine children
on a small income.
Much of all this Fanny could not but
be sensible of. She might scruple to make use
of the words, but she must and did feel that her mother
was a partial, ill-judging parent, a dawdle, a slattern,
who neither taught nor restrained her children, whose
house was the scene of mismanagement and discomfort
from beginning to end, and who had no talent, no conversation,
no affection towards herself; no curiosity to know
her better, no desire of her friendship, and no inclination
for her company that could lessen her sense of such
feelings.
Fanny was very anxious to be useful,
and not to appear above her home, or in any way disqualified
or disinclined, by her foreign education, from contributing
her help to its comforts, and therefore set about
working for Sam immediately; and by working early
and late, with perseverance and great despatch, did
so much that the boy was shipped off at last, with
more than half his linen ready. She had great
pleasure in feeling her usefulness, but could not
conceive how they would have managed without her.
Sam, loud and overbearing as he was,
she rather regretted when he went, for he was clever
and intelligent, and glad to be employed in any errand
in the town; and though spurning the remonstrances
of Susan, given as they were, though very reasonable
in themselves, with ill-timed and powerless warmth,
was beginning to be influenced by Fanny’s services
and gentle persuasions; and she found that the best
of the three younger ones was gone in him: Tom
and Charles being at least as many years as they were
his juniors distant from that age of feeling and reason,
which might suggest the expediency of making friends,
and of endeavouring to be less disagreeable.
Their sister soon despaired of making the smallest
impression on them; they were quite untameable
by any means of address which she had spirits or time
to attempt. Every afternoon brought a return
of their riotous games all over the house; and she
very early learned to sigh at the approach of Saturday’s
constant half-holiday.
Betsey, too, a spoiled child, trained
up to think the alphabet her greatest enemy, left
to be with the servants at her pleasure, and then
encouraged to report any evil of them, she was almost
as ready to despair of being able to love or assist;
and of Susan’s temper she had many doubts.
Her continual disagreements with her mother, her
rash squabbles with Tom and Charles, and petulance
with Betsey, were at least so distressing to Fanny
that, though admitting they were by no means without
provocation, she feared the disposition that could
push them to such length must be far from amiable,
and from affording any repose to herself.
Such was the home which was to put
Mansfield out of her head, and teach her to think
of her cousin Edmund with moderated feelings.
On the contrary, she could think of nothing but Mansfield,
its beloved inmates, its happy ways. Everything
where she now was in full contrast to it. The
elegance, propriety, regularity, harmony, and perhaps,
above all, the peace and tranquillity of Mansfield,
were brought to her remembrance every hour of the day,
by the prevalence of everything opposite to them here.
The living in incessant noise was,
to a frame and temper delicate and nervous like Fanny’s,
an evil which no superadded elegance or harmony could
have entirely atoned for. It was the greatest
misery of all. At Mansfield, no sounds of contention,
no raised voice, no abrupt bursts, no tread of violence,
was ever heard; all proceeded in a regular course
of cheerful orderliness; everybody had their due importance;
everybody’s feelings were consulted. If
tenderness could be ever supposed wanting, good sense
and good breeding supplied its place; and as to the
little irritations sometimes introduced by aunt Norris,
they were short, they were trifling, they were as a
drop of water to the ocean, compared with the ceaseless
tumult of her present abode. Here everybody was
noisy, every voice was loud (excepting, perhaps, her
mother’s, which resembled the soft monotony
of Lady Bertram’s, only worn into fretfulness).
Whatever was wanted was hallooed for, and the servants
hallooed out their excuses from the kitchen.
The doors were in constant banging, the stairs were
never at rest, nothing was done without a clatter,
nobody sat still, and nobody could command attention
when they spoke.
In a review of the two houses, as
they appeared to her before the end of a week, Fanny
was tempted to apply to them Dr. Johnson’s celebrated
judgment as to matrimony and celibacy, and say, that
though Mansfield Park might have some pains, Portsmouth
could have no pleasures.