Dear heart! There remained for
her but a very brief while in this world that had
been renewed. I did not know how short that time
would be, but the little I could do—perhaps
after all it was not little to her—to atone
for the harshness of my days of wrath and rebellion,
I did. I took care to be constantly with her,
for I perceived now her curious need of me. It
was not that we had ideas to exchange or pleasures
to share, but she liked to see me at table, to watch
me working, to have me go to and fro. There was
no toil for her any more in the world, but only such
light services as are easy and pleasant for a worn
and weary old woman to do, and I think she was happy
even at her end.
She kept to her queer old eighteenth
century version of religion, too, without a change.
She had worn this particular amulet so long it was
a part of her. Yet the Change was evident even
in that persistence. I said to her one day, “But
do you still believe in that hell of flame, dear mother?
You—with your tender heart!”
She vowed she did.
Some theological intricacy made it necessary to her, but still------
She looked thoughtfully at a bank
of primulas before her for a time, and then laid her
tremulous hand impressively on my arm. “You
know, Willie, dear,” she said, as though she
was clearing up a childish misunderstanding of mine,
“I don’t think any one will go there.
I never did think that. . . .”
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