“That comet is going to hit the earth!”
So said one of the two men who got
into the train and settled down.
“Ah!” said the other man.
“They do say that it is made
of gas, that comet. We sha’n’t blow
up, shall us?”. . .
What did it matter to me?
I was thinking of revenge—revenge
against the primary conditions of my being. I
was thinking of Nettie and her lover. I was firmly
resolved he should not have her—though I
had to kill them both to prevent it. I did not
care what else might happen, if only that end was
ensured. All my thwarted passions had turned to
rage. I would have accepted eternal torment that
night without a second thought, to be certain of revenge.
A hundred possibilities of action, a hundred stormy
situations, a whirl of violent schemes, chased one
another through my shamed, exasperated mind. The
sole prospect I could endure was of some gigantic,
inexorably cruel vindication of my humiliated self.
And Nettie? I loved Nettie still,
but now with the intensest jealousy, with the keen,
unmeasuring hatred of wounded pride, and baffled,
passionate desire.
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