At the kitchen door Daniel Byrne sat
in his sleigh behind a big-boned grey who pawed the
snow and swung his long head restlessly from side
to side.
Ethan went into the kitchen and found
his wife by the stove. Her head was wrapped in
her shawl, and she was reading a book called “Kidney
Troubles and Their Cure” on which he had had
to pay extra postage only a few days before.
Zeena did not move or look up when
he entered, and after a moment he asked: “Where’s
Mattie?”
Without lifting her eyes from the
page she replied: “I presume she’s
getting down her trunk.”
The blood rushed to his face.
“Getting down her trunk-alone?”
“Jotham Powell’s down
in the wood-lot, and Dan’l Byrne says he darsn’t
leave that horse,” she returned.
Her husband, without stopping to hear
the end of the phrase, had left the kitchen and sprung
up the stairs. The door of Mattie’s room
was shut, and he wavered a moment on the landing.
“Matt,” he said in a low voice; but there
was no answer, and he put his hand on the door-knob.
He had never been in her room except
once, in the early summer, when he had gone there
to plaster up a leak in the eaves, but he remembered
exactly how everything had looked: the red-and-white
quilt on her narrow bed, the pretty pin-cushion on
the chest of drawers, and over it the enlarged photograph
of her mother, in an oxydized frame, with a bunch
of dyed grasses at the back. Now these and all
other tokens of her presence had vanished and the room
looked as bare and comfortless as when Zeena had shown
her into it on the day of her arrival. In the
middle of the floor stood her trunk, and on the trunk
she sat in her Sunday dress, her back turned to the
door and her face in her hands. She had not heard
Ethan’s call because she was sobbing and she
did not hear his step till he stood close behind her
and laid his hands on her shoulders.
“Matt-oh, don’t-oh, Matt!”
She started up, lifting her wet face
to his. “Ethan-I thought I wasn’t
ever going to see you again!”
He took her in his arms, pressing
her close, and with a trembling hand smoothed away
the hair from her forehead.
“Not see me again? What do you mean?”
She sobbed out: “Jotham
said you told him we wasn’t to wait dinner for
you, and I thought-”
“You thought I meant to cut
it?” he finished for her grimly.
She clung to him without answering,
and he laid his lips on her hair, which was soft yet
springy, like certain mosses on warm slopes, and had
the faint woody fragrance of fresh sawdust in the
sun.
Through the door they heard Zeena’s
voice calling out from below: “Dan’l
Byrne says you better hurry up if you want him to take
that trunk.”
They drew apart with stricken faces.
Words of resistance rushed to Ethan’s lips and
died there. Mattie found her handkerchief and
dried her eyes; then,-bending down, she took hold
of a handle of the trunk.
Ethan put her aside. “You
let go, Matt,” he ordered her.
She answered: “It takes
two to coax it round the corner”; and submitting
to this argument he grasped the other handle, and
together they manoeuvred the heavy trunk out to the
landing.
“Now let go,” he repeated;
then he shouldered the trunk and carried it down the
stairs and across the passage to the kitchen.
Zeena, who had gone back to her seat by the stove,
did not lift her head from her book as he passed.
Mattie followed him out of the door and helped him
to lift the trunk into the back of the sleigh.
When it was in place they stood side by side on the
door-step, watching Daniel Byrne plunge off behind
his fidgety horse.
It seemed to Ethan that his heart
was bound with cords which an unseen hand was tightening
with every tick of the clock. Twice he opened
his lips to speak to Mattie and found no breath.
At length, as she turned to re-enter the house, he
laid a detaining hand on her.
“I’m going to drive you over, Matt,”
he whispered.
She murmured back: “I think Zeena wants
I should go with Jotham.”
“I’m going to drive you
over,” he repeated; and she went into the kitchen
without answering.
At dinner Ethan could not eat.
If he lifted his eyes they rested on Zeena’s
pinched face, and the corners of her straight lips
seemed to quiver away into a smile. She ate well,
declaring that the mild weather made her feel better,
and pressed a second helping of beans on Jotham Powell,
whose wants she generally ignored.
Mattie, when the meal was over, went
about her usual task of clearing the table and washing
up the dishes. Zeena, after feeding the cat,
had returned to her rocking-chair by the stove, and
Jotham Powell, who always lingered last, reluctantly
pushed back his chair and moved toward the door.
On the threshold he turned back to
say to Ethan: “What time’ll I come
round for Mattie?”
Ethan was standing near the window,
mechanically filling his pipe while he watched Mattie
move to and fro. He answered: “You
needn’t come round; I’m going to drive
her over myself.”
He saw the rise of the colour in Mattie’s
averted cheek, and the quick lifting of Zeena’s
head.
“I want you should stay here
this afternoon, Ethan,” his wife said.
“Jotham can drive Mattie over.”
Mattie flung an imploring glance at
him, but he repeated curtly: “I’m
going to drive her over myself.”
Zeena continued in the same even tone:
“I wanted you should stay and fix up that stove
in Mattie’s room afore the girl gets here.
It ain’t been drawing right for nigh on a month
now.”
Ethan’s voice rose indignantly.
“If it was good enough for Mattie I guess it’s
good enough for a hired girl.”
“That girl that’s coming
told me she was used to a house where they had a furnace,”
Zeena persisted with the same monotonous mildness.
“She’d better ha’
stayed there then,” he flung back at her; and
turning to Mattie he added in a hard voice: “You
be ready by three, Matt; I’ve got business at
Corbury.”
Jotham Powell had started for the
barn, and Ethan strode down after him aflame with
anger. The pulses in his temples throbbed and
a fog was in his eyes. He went about his task
without knowing what force directed him, or whose
hands and feet were fulfilling its orders. It
was not till he led out the sorrel and backed him between
the shafts of the sleigh that he once more became
conscious of what he was doing. As he passed
the bridle over the horse’s head, and wound the
traces around the shafts, he remembered the day when
he had made the same preparations in order to drive
over and meet his wife’s cousin at the Flats.
It was little more than a year ago, on just such a
soft afternoon, with a “feel” of spring
in the air. The sorrel, turning the same big
ringed eye on him, nuzzled the palm of his hand in
the same way; and one by one all the days between rose
up and stood before him…
He flung the bearskin into the sleigh,
climbed to the seat, and drove up to the house.
When he entered the kitchen it was empty, but Mattie’s
bag and shawl lay ready by the door. He went to
the foot of the stairs and listened. No sound
reached him from above, but presently he thought he
heard some one moving about in his deserted study,
and pushing open the door he saw Mattie, in her hat
and jacket, standing with her back to him near the
table.
She started at his approach and turning
quickly, said: “Is it time?”
“What are you doing here, Matt?” he asked
her.
She looked at him timidly. “I
was just taking a look round-that’s all,”
she answered, with a wavering smile.
They went back into the kitchen without
speaking, and Ethan picked up her bag and shawl.
“Where’s Zeena?” he asked.
“She went upstairs right after
dinner. She said she had those shooting pains
again, and didn’t want to be disturbed.”
“Didn’t she say good-bye to you?”
“No. That was all she said.”
Ethan, looking slowly about the kitchen,
said to himself with a shudder that in a few hours
he would be returning to it alone. Then the sense
of unreality overcame him once more, and he could not
bring himself to believe that Mattie stood there for
the last time before him.
“Come on,” he said almost
gaily, opening the door and putting her bag into the
sleigh. He sprang to his seat and bent over to
tuck the rug about her as she slipped into the place
at his side. “Now then, go ’long,”
he said, with a shake of the reins that sent the sorrel
placidly jogging down the hill.
“We got lots of time for a good
ride, Matt!” he cried, seeking her hand beneath
the fur and pressing it in his. His face tingled
and he felt dizzy, as if he had stopped in at the
Starkfield saloon on a zero day for a drink.
At the gate, instead of making for
Starkfield, he turned the sorrel to the right, up
the Bettsbridge road. Mattie sat silent, giving
no sign of surprise; but after a moment she said:
“Are you going round by Shadow Pond?”
He laughed and answered: “I knew you’d
know!”
She drew closer under the bearskin,
so that, looking sideways around his coat-sleeve,
he could just catch the tip of her nose and a blown
brown wave of hair. They drove slowly up the road
between fields glistening under the pale sun, and
then bent to the right down a lane edged with spruce
and larch. Ahead of them, a long way off, a range
of hills stained by mottlings of black forest flowed
away in round white curves against the sky. The
lane passed into a pine-wood with boles reddening
in the afternoon sun and delicate blue shadows on
the snow. As they entered it the breeze fell and
a warm stillness seemed to drop from the branches
with the dropping needles. Here the snow was
so pure that the tiny tracks of wood-animals had left
on it intricate lace-like patterns, and the bluish
cones caught in its surface stood out like ornaments
of bronze.
Ethan drove on in silence till they
reached a part of the wood where the pines were more
widely spaced, then he drew up and helped Mattie to
get out of the sleigh. They passed between the
aromatic trunks, the snow breaking crisply under their
feet, till they came to a small sheet of water with
steep wooded sides. Across its frozen surface,
from the farther bank, a single hill rising against
the western sun threw the long conical shadow which
gave the lake its name. It was a shy secret spot,
full of the same dumb melancholy that Ethan felt in
his heart.
He looked up and down the little pebbly
beach till his eye lit on a fallen tree-trunk half
submerged in snow.
“There’s where we sat at the picnic,”
he reminded her.
The entertainment of which he spoke
was one of the few that they had taken part in together:
a “church picnic” which, on a long afternoon
of the preceding summer, had filled the retired place
with merry-making. Mattie had begged him to go
with her but he had refused. Then, toward sunset,
coming down from the mountain where he had been felling
timber, he had been caught by some strayed revellers
and drawn into the group by the lake, where Mattie,
encircled by facetious youths, and bright as a blackberry
under her spreading hat, was brewing coffee over a
gipsy fire. He remembered the shyness he had
felt at approaching her in his uncouth clothes, and
then the lighting up of her face, and the way she had
broken through the group to come to him with a cup
in her hand. They had sat for a few minutes on
the fallen log by the pond, and she had missed her
gold locket, and set the young men searching for it;
and it was Ethan who had spied it in the moss….
That was all; but all their intercourse had been made
up of just such inarticulate flashes, when they seemed
to come suddenly upon happiness as if they had surprised
a butterfly in the winter woods…
“It was right there I found
your locket,” he said, pushing his foot into
a dense tuft of blueberry bushes.
“I never saw anybody with such
sharp eyes!” she answered.
She sat down on the tree-trunk in
the sun and he sat down beside her.
“You were as pretty as a picture
in that pink hat,” he said.
She laughed with pleasure. “Oh,
I guess it was the hat!” she rejoined.
They had never before avowed their
inclination so openly, and Ethan, for a moment, had
the illusion that he was a free man, wooing the girl
he meant to marry. He looked at her hair and longed
to touch it again, and to tell her that it smelt of
the woods; but he had never learned to say such things.
Suddenly she rose to her feet and
said: “We mustn’t stay here any longer.”
He continued to gaze at her vaguely,
only half-roused from his dream. “There’s
plenty of time,” he answered.
They stood looking at each other as
if the eyes of each were straining to absorb and hold
fast the other’s image. There were things
he had to say to her before they parted, but he could
not say them in that place of summer memories, and
he turned and followed her in silence to the sleigh.
As they drove away the sun sank behind the hill and
the pine-boles turned from red to grey.
By a devious track between the fields
they wound back to the Starkfield road. Under
the open sky the light was still clear, with a reflection
of cold red on the eastern hills. The clumps of
trees in the snow seemed to draw together in ruffled
lumps, like birds with their heads under their wings;
and the sky, as it paled, rose higher, leaving the
earth more alone.
As they turned into the Starkfield
road Ethan said: “Matt, what do you mean
to do?”
She did not answer at once, but at
length she said: “I’ll try to get
a place in a store.”
“You know you can’t do
it. The bad air and the standing all day nearly
killed you before.”
“I’m a lot stronger than
I was before I came to Starkfield.”
“And now you’re going
to throw away all the good it’s done you!”
There seemed to be no answer to this,
and again they drove on for a while without speaking.
With every yard of the way some spot where they had
stood, and laughed together or been silent, clutched
at Ethan and dragged him back.
“Isn’t there any of your
father’s folks could help you?”
“There isn’t any of ’em I’d
ask.”
He lowered his voice to say:
“You know there’s nothing I wouldn’t
do for you if I could.”
“I know there isn’t.”
“But I can’t-”
She was silent, but he felt a slight
tremor in the shoulder against his.
“Oh, Matt,” he broke out,
“if I could ha’ gone with you now I’d
ha’ done it-”
She turned to him, pulling a scrap
of paper from her breast. “Ethan-I found
this,” she stammered. Even in the failing
light he saw it was the letter to his wife that he
had begun the night before and forgotten to destroy.
Through his astonishment there ran a fierce thrill
of joy. “Matt-” he cried; “if
I could ha’ done it, would you?”
“Oh, Ethan, Ethan-what’s
the use?” With a sudden movement she tore the
letter in shreds and sent them fluttering off into
the snow.
“Tell me, Matt! Tell me!” he adjured
her.
She was silent for a moment; then
she said, in such a low tone that he had to stoop
his head to hear her: “I used to think of
it sometimes, summer nights, when the moon was so
bright I couldn’t sleep.”
His heart reeled with the sweetness
of it. “As long ago as that?”
She answered, as if the date had long
been fixed for her: “The first time was
at Shadow Pond.”
“Was that why you gave me my
coffee before the others?”
“I don’t know. Did
I? I was dreadfully put out when you wouldn’t
go to the picnic with me; and then, when I saw you
coming down the road, I thought maybe you’d
gone home that way o’ purpose; and that made
me glad.”
They were silent again. They
had reached the point where the road dipped to the
hollow by Ethan’s mill and as they descended
the darkness descended with them, dropping down like
a black veil from the heavy hemlock boughs.
“I’m tied hand and foot,
Matt. There isn’t a thing I can do,”
he began again.
“You must write to me sometimes, Ethan.”
“Oh, what good’ll writing
do? I want to put my hand out and touch you.
I want to do for you and care for you. I want
to be there when you’re sick and when you’re
lonesome.”
“You mustn’t think but what I’ll
do all right.”
“You won’t need me, you mean? I suppose
you’ll marry!”
“Oh, Ethan!” she cried.
“I don’t know how it is
you make me feel, Matt. I’d a’most
rather have you dead than that!”
“Oh, I wish I was, I wish I was!” she
sobbed.
The sound of her weeping shook him
out of his dark anger, and he felt ashamed.
“Don’t let’s talk that way,”
he whispered.
“Why shouldn’t we, when
it’s true? I’ve been wishing it every
minute of the day.”
“Matt! You be quiet! Don’t you
say it.”
“There’s never anybody been good to me
but you.”
“Don’t say that either, when I can’t
lift a hand for you!”
“Yes; but it’s true just the same.”
They had reached the top of School
House Hill and Starkfield lay below them in the twilight.
A cutter, mounting the road from the village, passed
them by in a joyous flutter of bells, and they straightened
themselves and looked ahead with rigid faces.
Along the main street lights had begun to shine from
the house-fronts and stray figures were turning in
here and there at the gates. Ethan, with a touch
of his whip, roused the sorrel to a languid trot.
As they drew near the end of the village
the cries of children reached them, and they saw a
knot of boys, with sleds behind them, scattering across
the open space before the church.
“I guess this’ll be their
last coast for a day or two,” Ethan said, looking
up at the mild sky.
Mattie was silent, and he added:
“We were to have gone down last night.”
Still she did not speak and, prompted
by an obscure desire to help himself and her through
their miserable last hour, he went on discursively:
“Ain’t it funny we haven’t been down
together but just that once last winter?”
She answered: “It wasn’t
often I got down to the village.”
“That’s so,” he said.
They had reached the crest of the
Corbury road, and between the indistinct white glimmer
of the church and the black curtain of the Varnum
spruces the slope stretched away below them without
a sled on its length. Some erratic impulse prompted
Ethan to say: “How’d you like me
to take you down now?”
She forced a laugh. “Why, there isn’t
time!”
“There’s all the time
we want. Come along!” His one desire now
was to postpone the moment of turning the sorrel toward
the Flats.
“But the girl,” she faltered.
“The girl’ll be waiting at the station.”
“Well, let her wait. You’d
have to if she didn’t. Come!”
The note of authority in his voice
seemed to subdue her, and when he had jumped from
the sleigh she let him help her out, saying only,
with a vague feint of reluctance: “But there
isn’t a sled round anywheres.”
“Yes, there is! Right over
there under the spruces.” He threw the
bearskin over the sorrel, who stood passively by the
roadside, hanging a meditative head. Then he
caught Mattie’s hand and drew her after him
toward the sled.
She seated herself obediently and
he took his place behind her, so close that her hair
brushed his face. “All right, Matt?”
he called out, as if the width of the road had been
between them.
She turned her head to say: “It’s
dreadfully dark. Are you sure you can see?”
He laughed contemptuously: “I
could go down this coast with my eyes tied!”
and she laughed with him, as if she liked his audacity.
Nevertheless he sat still a moment, straining his eyes
down the long hill, for it was the most confusing
hour of the evening, the hour when the last clearness
from the upper sky is merged with the rising night
in a blur that disguises landmarks and falsifies distances.
“Now!” he cried.
The sled started with a bound, and
they flew on through the dusk, gathering smoothness
and speed as they went, with the hollow night opening
out below them and the air singing by like an organ.
Mattie sat perfectly still, but as they reached the
bend at the foot of the hill, where the big elm thrust
out a deadly elbow, he fancied that she shrank a little
closer.
“Don’t be scared, Matt!”
he cried exultantly, as they spun safely past it and
flew down the second slope; and when they reached the
level ground beyond, and the speed of the sled began
to slacken, he heard her give a little laugh of glee.
They sprang off and started to walk
back up the hill. Ethan dragged the sled with
one hand and passed the other through Mattie’s
arm.
“Were you scared I’d run
you into the elm?” he asked with a boyish laugh.
“I told you I was never scared
with you,” she answered.
The strange exaltation of his mood
had brought on one of his rare fits of boastfulness.
“It is a tricky place, though. The least
swerve, and we’d never ha’ come up again.
But I can measure distances to a hair’s-breadth-always
could.”
She murmured: “I always
say you’ve got the surest eye…”
Deep silence had fallen with the starless
dusk, and they leaned on each other without speaking;
but at every step of their climb Ethan said to himself:
“It’s the last time we’ll ever walk
together.”
They mounted slowly to the top of
the hill. When they were abreast of the church
he stooped his head to her to ask: “Are
you tired?” and she answered, breathing quickly:
“It was splendid!”
With a pressure of his arm he guided
her toward the Norway spruces. “I guess
this sled must be Ned Hale’s. Anyhow I’ll
leave it where I found it.” He drew the
sled up to the Varnum gate and rested it against the
fence. As he raised himself he suddenly felt Mattie
close to him among the shadows.
“Is this where Ned and Ruth
kissed each other?” she whispered breathlessly,
and flung her arms about him. Her lips, groping
for his, swept over his face, and he held her fast
in a rapture of surprise.
“Good-bye-good-bye,” she
stammered, and kissed him again.
“Oh, Matt, I can’t let
you go!” broke from him in the same old cry.
She freed herself from his hold and
he heard her sobbing. “Oh, I can’t
go either!” she wailed.
“Matt! What’ll we do? What’ll
we do?”
They clung to each other’s hands
like children, and her body shook with desperate sobs.
Through the stillness they heard the
church clock striking five.
“Oh, Ethan, it’s time!” she cried.
He drew her back to him. “Time
for what? You don’t suppose I’m going
to leave you now?”
“If I missed my train where’d I go?”
“Where are you going if you catch it?”
She stood silent, her hands lying cold and relaxed
in his.
“What’s the good of either
of us going anywheres without the other one now?”
he said.
She remained motionless, as if she
had not heard him. Then she snatched her hands
from his, threw her arms about his neck, and pressed
a sudden drenched cheek against his face. “Ethan!
Ethan! I want you to take me down again!”
“Down where?”
“The coast. Right off,”
she panted. “So ’t we’ll never
come up any more.”
“Matt! What on earth do you mean?”
She put her lips close against his
ear to say: “Right into the big elm.
You said you could. So ’t we’d never
have to leave each other any more.”
“Why, what are you talking of? You’re
crazy!”
“I’m not crazy; but I will be if I leave
you.”
“Oh, Matt, Matt-” he groaned.
She tightened her fierce hold about
his neck. Her face lay close to his face.
“Ethan, where’ll I go
if I leave you? I don’t know how to get
along alone. You said so yourself just now.
Nobody but you was ever good to me. And there’ll
be that strange girl in the house… and she’ll
sleep in my bed, where I used to lay nights and listen
to hear you come up the stairs…”
The words were like fragments torn
from his heart. With them came the hated vision
of the house he was going back to-of the stairs he
would have to go up every night, of the woman who would
wait for him there. And the sweetness of Mattie’s
avowal, the wild wonder of knowing at last that all
that had happened to him had happened to her too,
made the other vision more abhorrent, the other life
more intolerable to return to…
Her pleadings still came to him between
short sobs, but he no longer heard what she was saying.
Her hat had slipped back and he was stroking her hair.
He wanted to get the feeling of it into his hand,
so that it would sleep there like a seed in winter.
Once he found her mouth again, and they seemed to
be by the pond together in the burning August sun.
But his cheek touched hers, and it was cold and full
of weeping, and he saw the road to the Flats under
the night and heard the whistle of the train up the
line.
The spruces swathed them in blackness
and silence. They might have been in their coffins
underground. He said to himself: “Perhaps
it’ll feel like this…” and then again:
“After this I sha’n’t feel anything…”
Suddenly he heard the old sorrel whinny
across the road, and thought: “He’s
wondering why he doesn’t get his supper…”
“Come!” Mattie whispered, tugging at his
hand.
Her sombre violence constrained him:
she seemed the embodied instrument of fate. He
pulled the sled out, blinking like a night-bird as
he passed from the shade of the spruces into the transparent
dusk of the open. The slope below them was deserted.
All Starkfield was at supper, and not a figure crossed
the open space before the church. The sky, swollen
with the clouds that announce a thaw, hung as low
as before a summer storm. He strained his eyes
through the dimness, and they seemed less keen, less
capable than usual.
He took his seat on the sled and Mattie
instantly placed herself in front of him. Her
hat had fallen into the snow and his lips were in
her hair. He stretched out his legs, drove his
heels into the road to keep the sled from slipping
forward, and bent her head back between his hands.
Then suddenly he sprang up again.
“Get up,” he ordered her.
It was the tone she always heeded,
but she cowered down in her seat, repeating vehemently:
“No, no, no!”
“Get up!”
“Why?”
“I want to sit in front.”
“No, no! How can you steer in front?”
“I don’t have to. We’ll follow
the track.”
They spoke in smothered whispers,
as though the night were listening.
“Get up! Get up!”
he urged her; but she kept on repeating: “Why
do you want to sit in front?”
“Because I-because I want to
feel you holding me,” he stammered, and dragged
her to her feet.
The answer seemed to satisfy her,
or else she yielded to the power of his voice.
He bent down, feeling in the obscurity for the glassy
slide worn by preceding coasters, and placed the runners
carefully between its edges. She waited while
he seated himself with crossed legs in the front of
the sled; then she crouched quickly down at his back
and clasped her arms about him. Her breath in
his neck set him shuddering again, and he almost sprang
from his seat. But in a flash he remembered the
alternative. She was right: this was better
than parting. He leaned back and drew her mouth
to his…
Just as they started he heard the
sorrel’s whinny again, and the familiar wistful
call, and all the confused images it brought with
it, went with him down the first reach of the road.
Half-way down there was a sudden drop, then a rise,
and after that another long delirious descent.
As they took wing for this it seemed to him that they
were flying indeed, flying far up into the cloudy night,
with Starkfield immeasurably below them, falling away
like a speck in space… Then the big elm shot
up ahead, lying in wait for them at the bend of the
road, and he said between his teeth: “We
can fetch it; I know we can fetch it-”
As they flew toward the tree Mattie
pressed her arms tighter, and her blood seemed to
be in his veins. Once or twice the sled swerved
a little under them. He slanted his body to keep
it headed for the elm, repeating to himself again
and again: “I know we can fetch it”;
and little phrases she had spoken ran through his head
and danced before him on the air. The big tree
loomed bigger and closer, and as they bore down on
it he thought: “It’s waiting for us:
it seems to know.” But suddenly his wife’s
face, with twisted monstrous lineaments, thrust itself
between him and his goal, and he made an instinctive
movement to brush it aside. The sled swerved in
response, but he righted it again, kept it straight,
and drove down on the black projecting mass.
There was a last instant when the air shot past him
like millions of fiery wires; and then the elm…
The sky was still thick, but looking
straight up he saw a single star, and tried vaguely
to reckon whether it were Sirius, or-or-The effort
tired him too much, and he closed his heavy lids and
thought that he would sleep… The stillness
was so profound that he heard a little animal twittering
somewhere near by under the snow. It made a small
frightened cheep like a field mouse, and he wondered
languidly if it were hurt. Then he understood
that it must be in pain: pain so excruciating
that he seemed, mysteriously, to feel it shooting
through his own body. He tried in vain to roll
over in the direction of the sound, and stretched
his left arm out across the snow. And now it
was as though he felt rather than heard the twittering;
it seemed to be under his palm, which rested on something
soft and springy. The thought of the animal’s
suffering was intolerable to him and he struggled
to raise himself, and could not because a rock, or
some huge mass, seemed to be lying on him. But
he continued to finger about cautiously with his left
hand, thinking he might get hold of the little creature
and help it; and all at once he knew that the soft
thing he had touched was Mattie’s hair and that
his hand was on her face.
He dragged himself to his knees, the
monstrous load on him moving with him as he moved,
and his hand went over and over her face, and he felt
that the twittering came from her lips…
He got his face down close to hers,
with his ear to her mouth, and in the darkness he
saw her eyes open and heard her say his name.
“Oh, Matt, I thought we’d
fetched it,” he moaned; and far off, up the
hill, he heard the sorrel whinny, and thought:
“I ought to be getting him his feed…”
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The querulous DRONE ceased
as I entered Frome’s kitchen, and of the two
women sitting there I could not tell which had been
the speaker.
One of them, on my appearing, raised
her tall bony figure from her seat, not as if to welcome
me-for she threw me no more than a brief glance of
surprise-but simply to set about preparing the meal
which Frome’s absence had delayed. A slatternly
calico wrapper hung from her shoulders and the wisps
of her thin grey hair were drawn away from a high
forehead and fastened at the back by a broken comb.
She had pale opaque eyes which revealed nothing and
reflected nothing, and her narrow lips were of the
same sallow colour as her face.
The other woman was much smaller and
slighter. She sat huddled in an arm-chair near
the stove, and when I came in she turned her head
quickly toward me, without the least corresponding
movement of her body. Her hair was as grey as
her companion’s, her face as bloodless and shrivelled,
but amber-tinted, with swarthy shadows sharpening
the nose and hollowing the temples. Under her
shapeless dress her body kept its limp immobility,
and her dark eyes had the bright witch-like stare
that disease of the spine sometimes gives.
Even for that part of the country
the kitchen was a poor-looking place. With the
exception of the dark-eyed woman’s chair, which
looked like a soiled relic of luxury bought at a country
auction, the furniture was of the roughest kind.
Three coarse china plates and a broken-nosed milk-jug
had been set on a greasy table scored with knife-cuts,
and a couple of straw-bottomed chairs and a kitchen
dresser of unpainted pine stood meagrely against the
plaster walls.
“My, it’s cold here!
The fire must be ’most out,” Frome said,
glancing about him apologetically as he followed me
in.
The tall woman, who had moved away
from us toward the dresser, took no notice; but the
other, from her cushioned niche, answered complainingly,
in a high thin voice. “It’s on’y
just been made up this very minute. Zeena fell
asleep and slep’ ever so long, and I thought
I’d be frozen stiff before I could wake her up
and get her to ’tend to it.”
I knew then that it was she who had
been speaking when we entered.
Her companion, who was just coming
back to the table with the remains of a cold mince-pie
in a battered pie-dish, set down her unappetising
burden without appearing to hear the accusation brought
against her.
Frome stood hesitatingly before her
as she advanced; then he looked at me and said:
“This is my wife, Mis’ Frome.”
After another interval he added, turning toward the
figure in the arm-chair: “And this is Miss
Mattie Silver…”
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Mrs. Hale, tender soul, had pictured
me as lost in the Flats and buried under a snow-drift;
and so lively was her satisfaction on seeing me safely
restored to her the next morning that I felt my peril
had caused me to advance several degrees in her favour.
Great was her amazement, and that
of old Mrs. Varnum, on learning that Ethan Frome’s
old horse had carried me to and from Corbury Junction
through the worst blizzard of the winter; greater still
their surprise when they heard that his master had
taken me in for the night.
Beneath their wondering exclamations
I felt a secret curiosity to know what impressions
I had received from my night in the Frome household,
and divined that the best way of breaking down their
reserve was to let them try to penetrate mine.
I therefore confined myself to saying, in a matter-of-fact
tone, that I had been received with great kindness,
and that Frome had made a bed for me in a room on
the ground-floor which seemed in happier days to have
been fitted up as a kind of writing-room or study.
“Well,” Mrs. Hale mused,
“in such a storm I suppose he felt he couldn’t
do less than take you in-but I guess it went hard with
Ethan. I don’t believe but what you’re
the only stranger has set foot in that house for over
twenty years. He’s that proud he don’t
even like his oldest friends to go there; and I don’t
know as any do, any more, except myself and the doctor…”
“You still go there, Mrs. Hale?” I ventured.
“I used to go a good deal after
the accident, when I was first married; but after
awhile I got to think it made ’em feel worse
to see us. And then one thing and another came,
and my own troubles… But I generally make out
to drive over there round about New Year’s,
and once in the summer. Only I always try to pick
a day when Ethan’s off somewheres. It’s
bad enough to see the two women sitting there-but
his face, when he looks round that bare place, just
kills me… You see, I can look back and call
it up in his mother’s day, before their troubles.”
Old Mrs. Varnum, by this time, had
gone up to bed, and her daughter and I were sitting
alone, after supper, in the austere seclusion of the
horse-hair parlour. Mrs. Hale glanced at me tentatively,
as though trying to see how much footing my conjectures
gave her; and I guessed that if she had kept silence
till now it was because she had been waiting, through
all the years, for some one who should see what she
alone had seen.
I waited to let her trust in me gather
strength before I said: “Yes, it’s
pretty bad, seeing all three of them there together.”
She drew her mild brows into a frown
of pain. “It was just awful from the beginning.
I was here in the house when they were carried up-they
laid Mattie Silver in the room you’re in.
She and I were great friends, and she was to have
been my bridesmaid in the spring… When she
came to I went up to her and stayed all night.
They gave her things to quiet her, and she didn’t
know much till to’rd morning, and then all of
a sudden she woke up just like herself, and looked
straight at me out of her big eyes, and said…
Oh, I don’t know why I’m telling you all
this,” Mrs. Hale broke off, crying.
She took off her spectacles, wiped
the moisture from them, and put them on again with
an unsteady hand. “It got about the next
day,” she went on, “that Zeena Frome had
sent Mattie off in a hurry because she had a hired
girl coming, and the folks here could never rightly
tell what she and Ethan were doing that night coasting,
when they’d ought to have been on their way
to the Flats to ketch the train… I never knew
myself what Zeena thought-I don’t to this day.
Nobody knows Zeena’s thoughts. Anyhow, when
she heard o’ the accident she came right in
and stayed with Ethan over to the minister’s,
where they’d carried him. And as soon as
the doctors said that Mattie could be moved, Zeena
sent for her and took her back to the farm.”
“And there she’s been ever since?”
Mrs. Hale answered simply: “There
was nowhere else for her to go;” and my heart
tightened at the thought of the hard compulsions of
the poor.
“Yes, there she’s been,”
Mrs. Hale continued, “and Zeena’s done
for her, and done for Ethan, as good as she could.
It was a miracle, considering how sick she was-but
she seemed to be raised right up just when the call
came to her. Not as she’s ever given up
doctoring, and she’s had sick spells right along;
but she’s had the strength given her to care
for those two for over twenty years, and before the
accident came she thought she couldn’t even care
for herself.”
Mrs. Hale paused a moment, and I remained
silent, plunged in the vision of what her words evoked.
“It’s horrible for them all,” I
murmured.
“Yes: it’s pretty
bad. And they ain’t any of ’em easy
people either. Mattie was, before the accident;
I never knew a sweeter nature. But she’s
suffered too much-that’s what I always say when
folks tell me how she’s soured. And Zeena,
she was always cranky. Not but what she bears
with Mattie wonderful-I’ve seen that myself.
But sometimes the two of them get going at each other,
and then Ethan’s face’d break your heart…
When I see that, I think it’s him that suffers
most… anyhow it ain’t Zeena, because she ain’t
got the time… It’s a pity, though,”
Mrs. Hale ended, sighing, “that they’re
all shut up there’n that one kitchen. In
the summertime, on pleasant days, they move Mattie
into the parlour, or out in the door-yard, and that
makes it easier… but winters there’s the fires
to be thought of; and there ain’t a dime to
spare up at the Fromes.’”
Mrs. Hale drew a deep breath, as though
her memory were eased of its long burden, and she
had no more to say; but suddenly an impulse of complete
avowal seized her.
She took off her spectacles again,
leaned toward me across the bead-work table-cover,
and went on with lowered voice: “There was
one day, about a week after the accident, when they
all thought Mattie couldn’t live. Well,
I say it’s a pity she did. I said it right
out to our minister once, and he was shocked at me.
Only he wasn’t with me that morning when she
first came to… And I say, if she’d ha’
died, Ethan might ha’ lived; and the way they
are now, I don’t see’s there’s much
difference between the Fromes up at the farm and the
Fromes down in the graveyard; ’cept that down
there they’re all quiet, and the women have
got to hold their tongues.”