They finished supper, and while Mattie
cleared the table Ethan went to look at the cows and
then took a last turn about the house. The earth
lay dark under a muffled sky and the air was so still
that now and then he heard a lump of snow come thumping
down from a tree far off on the edge of the wood-lot.
When he returned to the kitchen Mattie
had pushed up his chair to the stove and seated herself
near the lamp with a bit of sewing. The scene
was just as he had dreamed of it that morning.
He sat down, drew his pipe from his pocket and stretched
his feet to the glow. His hard day’s work
in the keen air made him feel at once lazy and light
of mood, and he had a confused sense of being in another
world, where all was warmth and harmony and time could
bring no change. The only drawback to his complete
well-being was the fact that he could not see Mattie
from where he sat; but he was too indolent to move
and after a moment he said: “Come over here
and sit by the stove.”
Zeena’s empty rocking-chair
stood facing him. Mattie rose obediently, and
seated herself in it. As her young brown head
detached itself against the patch-work cushion that
habitually framed his wife’s gaunt countenance,
Ethan had a momentary shock. It was almost as
if the other face, the face of the superseded woman,
had obliterated that of the intruder. After a
moment Mattie seemed to be affected by the same sense
of constraint. She changed her position, leaning
forward to bend her head above her work, so that he
saw only the foreshortened tip of her nose and the
streak of red in her hair; then she slipped to her
feet, saying “I can’t see to sew,”
and went back to her chair by the lamp.
Ethan made a pretext of getting up
to replenish the stove, and when he returned to his
seat he pushed it sideways that he might get a view
of her profile and of the lamplight falling on her
hands. The cat, who had been a puzzled observer
of these unusual movements, jumped up into Zeena’s
chair, rolled itself into a ball, and lay watching
them with narrowed eyes.
Deep quiet sank on the room.
The clock ticked above the dresser, a piece of charred
wood fell now and then in the stove, and the faint
sharp scent of the geraniums mingled with the odour
of Ethan’s smoke, which began to throw a blue
haze about the lamp and to hang its greyish cobwebs
in the shadowy corners of the room.
All constraint had vanished between
the two, and they began to talk easily and simply.
They spoke of every-day things, of the prospect of
snow, of the next church sociable, of the loves and
quarrels of Starkfield. The commonplace nature
of what they said produced in Ethan an illusion of
long-established intimacy which no outburst of emotion
could have given, and he set his imagination adrift
on the fiction that they had always spent their evenings
thus and would always go on doing so…
“This is the night we were to
have gone coasting. Matt,” he said at length,
with the rich sense, as he spoke, that they could go
on any other night they chose, since they had all
time before them.
She smiled back at him. “I guess you forgot!”
“No, I didn’t forget;
but it’s as dark as Egypt outdoors. We might
go to-morrow if there’s a moon.”
She laughed with pleasure, her head
tilted back, the lamplight sparkling on her lips and
teeth. “That would be lovely, Ethan!”
He kept his eyes fixed on her, marvelling
at the way her face changed with each turn of their
talk, like a wheat-field under a summer breeze.
It was intoxicating to find such magic in his clumsy
words, and he longed to try new ways of using it.
“Would you be scared to go down
the Corbury road with me on a night like this?”
he asked.
Her cheeks burned redder. “I
ain’t any more scared than you are!”
“Well, I’d be scared,
then; I wouldn’t do it. That’s an
ugly corner down by the big elm. If a fellow
didn’t keep his eyes open he’d go plumb
into it.” He luxuriated in the sense of
protection and authority which his words conveyed.
To prolong and intensify the feeling he added:
“I guess we’re well enough here.”
She let her lids sink slowly, in the
way he loved. “Yes, we’re well enough
here,” she sighed.
Her tone was so sweet that he took
the pipe from his mouth and drew his chair up to the
table. Leaning forward, he touched the farther
end of the strip of brown stuff that she was hemming.
“Say, Matt,” he began with a smile, “what
do you think I saw under the Varnum spruces, coming
along home just now? I saw a friend of yours getting
kissed.”
The words had been on his tongue all
the evening, but now that he had spoken them they
struck him as inexpressibly vulgar and out of place.
Mattie blushed to the roots of her
hair and pulled her needle rapidly twice or thrice
through her work, insensibly drawing the end of it
away from him. “I suppose it was Ruth and
Ned,” she said in a low voice, as though he
had suddenly touched on something grave.
Ethan had imagined that his allusion
might open the way to the accepted pleasantries, and
these perhaps in turn to a harmless caress, if only
a mere touch on her hand. But now he felt as if
her blush had set a flaming guard about her.
He supposed it was his natural awkwardness that made
him feel so. He knew that most young men made
nothing at all of giving a pretty girl a kiss, and
he remembered that the night before, when he had put
his arm about Mattie, she had not resisted. But
that had been out-of-doors, under the open irresponsible
night. Now, in the warm lamplit room, with all
its ancient implications of conformity and order, she
seemed infinitely farther away from him and more unapproachable.
To ease his constraint he said:
“I suppose they’ll be setting a date before
long.”
“Yes. I shouldn’t
wonder if they got married some time along in the
summer.” She pronounced the word married
as if her voice caressed it. It seemed a rustling
covert leading to enchanted glades. A pang shot
through Ethan, and he said, twisting away from her
in his chair: “It’ll be your turn
next, I wouldn’t wonder.”
She laughed a little uncertainly.
“Why do you keep on saying that?”
He echoed her laugh. “I
guess I do it to get used to the idea.”
He drew up to the table again and
she sewed on in silence, with dropped lashes, while
he sat in fascinated contemplation of the way in which
her hands went up and down above the strip of stuff,
just as he had seen a pair of birds make short perpendicular
flights over a nest they were building. At length,
without turning her head or lifting her lids, she
said in a low tone: “It’s not because
you think Zeena’s got anything against me, is
it?”
His former dread started up full-armed
at the suggestion. “Why, what do you mean?”
he stammered.
She raised distressed eyes to his,
her work dropping on the table between them.
“I don’t know. I thought last night
she seemed to have.”
“I’d like to know what,” he growled.
“Nobody can tell with Zeena.”
It was the first time they had ever spoken so openly
of her attitude toward Mattie, and the repetition
of the name seemed to carry it to the farther corners
of the room and send it back to them in long repercussions
of sound. Mattie waited, as if to give the echo
time to drop, and then went on: “She hasn’t
said anything to you?”
He shook his head. “No, not a word.”
She tossed the hair back from her
forehead with a laugh. “I guess I’m
just nervous, then. I’m not going to think
about it any more.”
“Oh, no-don’t let’s think about
it, Matt!”
The sudden heat of his tone made her
colour mount again, not with a rush, but gradually,
delicately, like the reflection of a thought stealing
slowly across her heart. She sat silent, her hands
clasped on her work, and it seemed to him that a warm
current flowed toward him along the strip of stuff
that still lay unrolled between them. Cautiously
he slid his hand palm-downward along the table till
his finger-tips touched the end of the stuff.
A faint vibration of her lashes seemed to show that
she was aware of his gesture, and that it had sent
a counter-current back to her; and she let her hands
lie motionless on the other end of the strip.
As they sat thus he heard a sound
behind him and turned his head. The cat had jumped
from Zeena’s chair to dart at a mouse in the
wainscot, and as a result of the sudden movement the
empty chair had set up a spectral rocking.
“She’ll be rocking in
it herself this time to-morrow,” Ethan thought.
“I’ve been in a dream, and this is the
only evening we’ll ever have together.”
The return to reality was as painful as the return
to consciousness after taking an anaesthetic.
His body and brain ached with indescribable weariness,
and he could think of nothing to say or to do that
should arrest the mad flight of the moments.
His alteration of mood seemed to have
communicated itself to Mattie. She looked up
at him languidly, as though her lids were weighted
with sleep and it cost her an effort to raise them.
Her glance fell on his hand, which now completely
covered the end of her work and grasped it as if it
were a part of herself. He saw a scarcely perceptible
tremor cross her face, and without knowing what he
did he stooped his head and kissed the bit of stuff
in his hold. As his lips rested on it he felt
it glide slowly from beneath them, and saw that Mattie
had risen and was silently rolling up her work.
She fastened it with a pin, and then, finding her
thimble and scissors, put them with the roll of stuff
into the box covered with fancy paper which he had
once brought to her from Bettsbridge.
He stood up also, looking vaguely
about the room. The clock above the dresser struck
eleven.
“Is the fire all right?” she asked in
a low voice.
He opened the door of the stove and
poked aimlessly at the embers. When he raised
himself again he saw that she was dragging toward the
stove the old soap-box lined with carpet in which the
cat made its bed. Then she recrossed the floor
and lifted two of the geranium pots in her arms, moving
them away from the cold window. He followed her
and brought the other geraniums, the hyacinth bulbs
in a cracked custard bowl and the German ivy trained
over an old croquet hoop.
When these nightly duties were performed
there was nothing left to do but to bring in the tin
candlestick from the passage, light the candle and
blow out the lamp. Ethan put the candlestick in
Mattie’s hand and she went out of the kitchen
ahead of him, the light that she carried before her
making her dark hair look like a drift of mist on
the moon.
“Good night, Matt,” he
said as she put her foot on the first step of the
stairs.
She turned and looked at him a moment.
“Good night, Ethan,” she answered, and
went up.
When the door of her room had closed
on her he remembered that he had not even touched
her hand.