As soon as his wife had driven off
Ethan took his coat and cap from the peg. Mattie
was washing up the dishes, humming one of the dance
tunes of the night before. He said “So long,
Matt,” and she answered gaily “So long,
Ethan”; and that was all.
It was warm and bright in the kitchen.
The sun slanted through the south window on the girl’s
moving figure, on the cat dozing in a chair, and on
the geraniums brought in from the door-way, where
Ethan had planted them in the summer to “make
a garden” for Mattie. He would have liked
to linger on, watching her tidy up and then settle
down to her sewing; but he wanted still more to get
the hauling done and be back at the farm before night.
All the way down to the village he
continued to think of his return to Mattie. The
kitchen was a poor place, not “spruce”
and shining as his mother had kept it in his boyhood;
but it was surprising what a homelike look the mere
fact of Zeena’s absence gave it. And he
pictured what it would be like that evening, when he
and Mattie were there after supper. For the first
time they would be alone together indoors, and they
would sit there, one on each side of the stove, like
a married couple, he in his stocking feet and smoking
his pipe, she laughing and talking in that funny way
she had, which was always as new to him as if he had
never heard her before.
The sweetness of the picture, and
the relief of knowing that his fears of “trouble”
with Zeena were unfounded, sent up his spirits with
a rush, and he, who was usually so silent, whistled
and sang aloud as he drove through the snowy fields.
There was in him a slumbering spark of sociability
which the long Starkfield winters had not yet extinguished.
By nature grave and inarticulate, he admired recklessness
and gaiety in others and was warmed to the marrow
by friendly human intercourse. At Worcester, though
he had the name of keeping to himself and not being
much of a hand at a good time, he had secretly gloried
in being clapped on the back and hailed as “Old
Ethe” or “Old Stiff”; and the cessation
of such familiarities had increased the chill of his
return to Starkfield.
There the silence had deepened about
him year by year. Left alone, after his father’s
accident, to carry the burden of farm and mill, he
had had no time for convivial loiterings in the village;
and when his mother fell ill the loneliness of the
house grew more oppressive than that of the fields.
His mother had been a talker in her day, but after
her “trouble” the sound of her voice was
seldom heard, though she had not lost the power of
speech. Sometimes, in the long winter evenings,
when in desperation her son asked her why she didn’t
“say something,” she would lift a finger
and answer: “Because I’m listening”;
and on stormy nights, when the loud wind was about
the house, she would complain, if he spoke to her:
“They’re talking so out there that I can’t
hear you.”
It was only when she drew toward her
last illness, and his cousin Zenobia Pierce came over
from the next valley to help him nurse her, that human
speech was heard again in the house. After the
mortal silence of his long imprisonment Zeena’s
volubility was music in his ears. He felt that
he might have “gone like his mother” if
the sound of a new voice had not come to steady him.
Zeena seemed to understand his case at a glance.
She laughed at him for not knowing the simplest sick-bed
duties and told him to “go right along out”
and leave her to see to things. The mere fact
of obeying her orders, of feeling free to go about
his business again and talk with other men, restored
his shaken balance and magnified his sense of what
he owed her. Her efficiency shamed and dazzled
him. She seemed to possess by instinct all the
household wisdom that his long apprenticeship had
not instilled in him. When the end came it was
she who had to tell him to hitch up and go for the
undertaker, and she thought it “funny”
that he had not settled beforehand who was to have
his mother’s clothes and the sewing-machine.
After the funeral, when he saw her preparing to go
away, he was seized with an unreasoning dread of being
left alone on the farm; and before he knew what he
was doing he had asked her to stay there with him.
He had often thought since that it would not have
happened if his mother had died in spring instead
of winter…
When they married it was agreed that,
as soon as he could straighten out the difficulties
resulting from Mrs. Frome’s long illness, they
would sell the farm and saw-mill and try their luck
in a large town. Ethan’s love of nature
did not take the form of a taste for agriculture.
He had always wanted to be an engineer, and to live
in towns, where there were lectures and big libraries
and “fellows doing things.” A slight
engineering job in Florida, put in his way during
his period of study at Worcester, increased his faith
in his ability as well as his eagerness to see the
world; and he felt sure that, with a “smart”
wife like Zeena, it would not be long before he had
made himself a place in it.
Zeena’s native village was slightly
larger and nearer to the railway than Starkfield,
and she had let her husband see from the first that
life on an isolated farm was not what she had expected
when she married. But purchasers were slow in
coming, and while he waited for them Ethan learned
the impossibility of transplanting her. She chose
to look down on Starkfield, but she could not have
lived in a place which looked down on her. Even
Bettsbridge or Shadd’s Falls would not have
been sufficiently aware of her, and in the greater
cities which attracted Ethan she would have suffered
a complete loss of identity. And within a year
of their marriage she developed the “sickliness”
which had since made her notable even in a community
rich in pathological instances. When she came
to take care of his mother she had seemed to Ethan
like the very genius of health, but he soon saw that
her skill as a nurse had been acquired by the absorbed
observation of her own symptoms.
Then she too fell silent. Perhaps
it was the inevitable effect of life on the farm,
or perhaps, as she sometimes said, it was because
Ethan “never listened.” The charge
was not wholly unfounded. When she spoke it was
only to complain, and to complain of things not in
his power to remedy; and to check a tendency to impatient
retort he had first formed the habit of not answering
her, and finally of thinking of other things while
she talked. Of late, however, since he had reasons
for observing her more closely, her silence had begun
to trouble him. He recalled his mother’s
growing taciturnity, and wondered if Zeena were also
turning “queer.” Women did, he knew.
Zeena, who had at her fingers’ ends the pathological
chart of the whole region, had cited many cases of
the kind while she was nursing his mother; and he
himself knew of certain lonely farm-houses in the
neighbourhood where stricken creatures pined, and of
others where sudden tragedy had come of their presence.
At times, looking at Zeena’s shut face, he felt
the chill of such forebodings. At other times
her silence seemed deliberately assumed to conceal
far-reaching intentions, mysterious conclusions drawn
from suspicions and resentments impossible to guess.
That supposition was even more disturbing than the
other; and it was the one which had come to him the
night before, when he had seen her standing in the
kitchen door.
Now her departure for Bettsbridge
had once more eased his mind, and all his thoughts
were on the prospect of his evening with Mattie.
Only one thing weighed on him, and that was his having
told Zeena that he was to receive cash for the lumber.
He foresaw so clearly the consequences of this imprudence
that with considerable reluctance he decided to ask
Andrew Hale for a small advance on his load.
When Ethan drove into Hale’s
yard the builder was just getting out of his sleigh.
“Hello, Ethe!” he said. “This
comes handy.”
Andrew Hale was a ruddy man with a
big gray moustache and a stubbly double-chin unconstrained
by a collar; but his scrupulously clean shirt was
always fastened by a small diamond stud. This
display of opulence was misleading, for though he
did a fairly good business it was known that his easygoing
habits and the demands of his large family frequently
kept him what Starkfield called “behind.”
He was an old friend of Ethan’s family, and
his house one of the few to which Zeena occasionally
went, drawn there by the fact that Mrs. Hale, in her
youth, had done more “doctoring” than any
other woman in Starkfield, and was still a recognised
authority on symptoms and treatment.
Hale went up to the grays and patted
their sweating flanks.
“Well, sir,” he said,
“you keep them two as if they was pets.”
Ethan set about unloading the logs
and when he had finished his job he pushed open the
glazed door of the shed which the builder used as
his office. Hale sat with his feet up on the stove,
his back propped against a battered desk strewn with
papers: the place, like the man, was warm, genial
and untidy.
“Sit right down and thaw out,” he greeted
Ethan.
The latter did not know how to begin,
but at length he managed to bring out his request
for an advance of fifty dollars. The blood rushed
to his thin skin under the sting of Hale’s astonishment.
It was the builder’s custom to pay at the end
of three months, and there was no precedent between
the two men for a cash settlement.
Ethan felt that if he had pleaded
an urgent need Hale might have made shift to pay him;
but pride, and an instinctive prudence, kept him from
resorting to this argument. After his father’s
death it had taken time to get his head above water,
and he did not want Andrew Hale, or any one else in
Starkfield, to think he was going under again.
Besides, he hated lying; if he wanted the money he
wanted it, and it was nobody’s business to ask
why. He therefore made his demand with the awkwardness
of a proud man who will not admit to himself that
he is stooping; and he was not much surprised at Hale’s
refusal.
The builder refused genially, as he
did everything else: he treated the matter as
something in the nature of a practical joke, and wanted
to know if Ethan meditated buying a grand piano or
adding a “cupolo” to his house; offering,
in the latter case, to give his services free of cost.
Ethan’s arts were soon exhausted,
and after an embarrassed pause he wished Hale good
day and opened the door of the office. As he passed
out the builder suddenly called after him: “See
here-you ain’t in a tight place, are you?”
“Not a bit,” Ethan’s
pride retorted before his reason had time to intervene.
“Well, that’s good!
Because I am, a shade. Fact is, I was going to
ask you to give me a little extra time on that payment.
Business is pretty slack, to begin with, and then
I’m fixing up a little house for Ned and Ruth
when they’re married. I’m glad to
do it for ’em, but it costs.” His
look appealed to Ethan for sympathy. “The
young people like things nice. You know how it
is yourself: it’s not so long ago since
you fixed up your own place for Zeena.”
Ethan left the grays in Hale’s
stable and went about some other business in the village.
As he walked away the builder’s last phrase
lingered in his ears, and he reflected grimly that
his seven years with Zeena seemed to Starkfield “not
so long.”
The afternoon was drawing to an end,
and here and there a lighted pane spangled the cold
gray dusk and made the snow look whiter. The
bitter weather had driven every one indoors and Ethan
had the long rural street to himself. Suddenly
he heard the brisk play of sleigh-bells and a cutter
passed him, drawn by a free-going horse. Ethan
recognised Michael Eady’s roan colt, and young
Denis Eady, in a handsome new fur cap, leaned forward
and waved a greeting. “Hello, Ethe!”
he shouted and spun on.
The cutter was going in the direction
of the Frome farm, and Ethan’s heart contracted
as he listened to the dwindling bells. What more
likely than that Denis Eady had heard of Zeena’s
departure for Bettsbridge, and was profiting by the
opportunity to spend an hour with Mattie? Ethan
was ashamed of the storm of jealousy in his breast.
It seemed unworthy of the girl that his thoughts of
her should be so violent.
He walked on to the church corner
and entered the shade of the Varnum spruces, where
he had stood with her the night before. As he
passed into their gloom he saw an indistinct outline
just ahead of him. At his approach it melted
for an instant into two separate shapes and then conjoined
again, and he heard a kiss, and a half-laughing “Oh!”
provoked by the discovery of his presence. Again
the outline hastily disunited and the Varnum gate slammed
on one half while the other hurried on ahead of him.
Ethan smiled at the discomfiture he had caused.
What did it matter to Ned Hale and Ruth Varnum if
they were caught kissing each other? Everybody
in Starkfield knew they were engaged. It pleased
Ethan to have surprised a pair of lovers on the spot
where he and Mattie had stood with such a thirst for
each other in their hearts; but he felt a pang at
the thought that these two need not hide their happiness.
He fetched the grays from Hale’s
stable and started on his long climb back to the farm.
The cold was less sharp than earlier in the day and
a thick fleecy sky threatened snow for the morrow.
Here and there a star pricked through, showing behind
it a deep well of blue. In an hour or two the
moon would push over the ridge behind the farm, burn
a gold-edged rent in the clouds, and then be swallowed
by them. A mournful peace hung on the fields,
as though they felt the relaxing grasp of the cold
and stretched themselves in their long winter sleep.
Ethan’s ears were alert for
the jingle of sleigh-bells, but not a sound broke
the silence of the lonely road. As he drew near
the farm he saw, through the thin screen of larches
at the gate, a light twinkling in the house above
him. “She’s up in her room,”
he said to himself, “fixing herself up for supper”;
and he remembered Zeena’s sarcastic stare when
Mattie, on the evening of her arrival, had come down
to supper with smoothed hair and a ribbon at her neck.
He passed by the graves on the knoll
and turned his head to glance at one of the older
headstones, which had interested him deeply as a boy
because it bore his name.
SACRED TO THE MEMORY OF
Ethan Frome and ENDURANCE his
wife,
WHO DWELLED TOGETHER IN PEACE
For fifty years.
He used to think that fifty years
sounded like a long time to live together, but now
it seemed to him that they might pass in a flash.
Then, with a sudden dart of irony, he wondered if,
when their turn came, the same epitaph would be written
over him and Zeena.
He opened the barn-door and craned
his head into the obscurity, half-fearing to discover
Denis Eady’s roan colt in the stall beside the
sorrel. But the old horse was there alone, mumbling
his crib with toothless jaws, and Ethan whistled cheerfully
while he bedded down the grays and shook an extra
measure of oats into their mangers. His was not
a tuneful throat-but harsh melodies burst from it
as he locked the barn and sprang up the hill to the
house. He reached the kitchen-porch and turned
the door-handle; but the door did not yield to his
touch.
Startled at finding it locked he rattled
the handle violently; then he reflected that Mattie
was alone and that it was natural she should barricade
herself at nightfall. He stood in the darkness
expecting to hear her step. It did not come, and
after vainly straining his ears he called out in a
voice that shook with joy: “Hello, Matt!”
Silence answered; but in a minute
or two he caught a sound on the stairs and saw a line
of light about the door-frame, as he had seen it the
night before. So strange was the precision with
which the incidents of the previous evening were repeating
themselves that he half expected, when he heard the
key turn, to see his wife before him on the threshold;
but the door opened, and Mattie faced him.
She stood just as Zeena had stood,
a lifted lamp in her hand, against the black background
of the kitchen. She held the light at the same
level, and it drew out with the same distinctness her
slim young throat and the brown wrist no bigger than
a child’s. Then, striking upward, it threw
a lustrous fleck on her lips, edged her eyes with
velvet shade, and laid a milky whiteness above the
black curve of her brows.
She wore her usual dress of darkish
stuff, and there was no bow at her neck; but through
her hair she had run a streak of crimson ribbon.
This tribute to the unusual transformed and glorified
her. She seemed to Ethan taller, fuller, more
womanly in shape and motion. She stood aside,
smiling silently, while he entered, and then moved
away from him with something soft and flowing in her
gait. She set the lamp on the table, and he saw
that it was carefully laid for supper, with fresh
doughnuts, stewed blueberries and his favourite pickles
in a dish of gay red glass. A bright fire glowed
in the stove and the cat lay stretched before it, watching
the table with a drowsy eye.
Ethan was suffocated with the sense
of well-being. He went out into the passage to
hang up his coat and pull off his wet boots. When
he came back Mattie had set the teapot on the table
and the cat was rubbing itself persuasively against
her ankles.
“Why, Puss! I nearly tripped
over you,” she cried, the laughter sparkling
through her lashes.
Again Ethan felt a sudden twinge of
jealousy. Could it be his coming that gave her
such a kindled face?
“Well, Matt, any visitors?”
he threw off, stooping down carelessly to examine
the fastening of the stove.
She nodded and laughed “Yes,
one,” and he felt a blackness settling on his
brows.
“Who was that?” he questioned,
raising himself up to slant a glance at her beneath
his scowl.
Her eyes danced with malice.
“Why, Jotham Powell. He came in after he
got back, and asked for a drop of coffee before he
went down home.”
The blackness lifted and light flooded
Ethan’s brain. “That all? Well,
I hope you made out to let him have it.”
And after a pause he felt it right to add: “I
suppose he got Zeena over to the Flats all right?”
“Oh, yes; in plenty of time.”
The name threw a chill between them,
and they stood a moment looking sideways at each other
before Mattie said with a shy laugh. “I
guess it’s about time for supper.”
They drew their seats up to the table,
and the cat, unbidden, jumped between them into Zeena’s
empty chair. “Oh, Puss!” said Mattie,
and they laughed again.
Ethan, a moment earlier, had felt
himself on the brink of eloquence; but the mention
of Zeena had paralysed him. Mattie seemed to feel
the contagion of his embarrassment, and sat with downcast
lids, sipping her tea, while he feigned an insatiable
appetite for dough-nuts and sweet pickles. At
last, after casting about for an effective opening,
he took a long gulp of tea, cleared his throat, and
said: “Looks as if there’d be more
snow.”
She feigned great interest. “Is
that so? Do you suppose it’ll interfere
with Zeena’s getting back?” She flushed
red as the question escaped her, and hastily set down
the cup she was lifting.
Ethan reached over for another helping
of pickles. “You never can tell, this time
of year, it drifts so bad on the Flats.”
The name had benumbed him again, and once more he
felt as if Zeena were in the room between them.
“Oh, Puss, you’re too greedy!” Mattie
cried.
The cat, unnoticed, had crept up on
muffled paws from Zeena’s seat to the table,
and was stealthily elongating its body in the direction
of the milk-jug, which stood between Ethan and Mattie.
The two leaned forward at the same moment and their
hands met on the handle of the jug. Mattie’s
hand was underneath, and Ethan kept his clasped on
it a moment longer than was necessary. The cat,
profiting by this unusual demonstration, tried to
effect an unnoticed retreat, and in doing so backed
into the pickle-dish, which fell to the floor with
a crash.
Mattie, in an instant, had sprung
from her chair and was down on her knees by the fragments.
“Oh, Ethan, Ethan-it’s
all to pieces! What will Zeena say?”
But this time his courage was up.
“Well, she’ll have to say it to the cat,
any way!” he rejoined with a laugh, kneeling
down at Mattie’s side to scrape up the swimming
pickles.
She lifted stricken eyes to him.
“Yes, but, you see, she never meant it should
be used, not even when there was company; and I had
to get up on the step-ladder to reach it down from
the top shelf of the china-closet, where she keeps
it with all her best things, and of course she’ll
want to know why I did it-”
The case was so serious that it called
forth all of Ethan’s latent resolution.
“She needn’t know anything
about it if you keep quiet. I’ll get another
just like it to-morrow. Where did it come from?
I’ll go to Shadd’s Falls for it if I have
to!”
“Oh, you’ll never get
another even there! It was a wedding present-don’t
you remember? It came all the way from Philadelphia,
from Zeena’s aunt that married the minister.
That’s why she wouldn’t ever use it.
Oh, Ethan, Ethan, what in the world shall I do?”
She began to cry, and he felt as if
every one of her tears were pouring over him like
burning lead. “Don’t, Matt, don’t-oh,
don’t!” he implored her.
She struggled to her feet, and he
rose and followed her helplessly while she spread
out the pieces of glass on the kitchen dresser.
It seemed to him as if the shattered fragments of
their evening lay there.
“Here, give them to me,”
he said in a voice of sudden authority.
She drew aside, instinctively obeying
his tone. “Oh, Ethan, what are you going
to do?”
Without replying he gathered the pieces
of glass into his broad palm and walked out of the
kitchen to the passage. There he lit a candle-end,
opened the china-closet, and, reaching his long arm
up to the highest shelf, laid the pieces together
with such accuracy of touch that a close inspection
convinced him of the impossibility of detecting from
below that the dish was broken. If he glued it
together the next morning months might elapse before
his wife noticed what had happened, and meanwhile
he might after all be able to match the dish at Shadd’s
Falls or Bettsbridge. Having satisfied himself
that there was no risk of immediate discovery he went
back to the kitchen with a lighter step, and found
Mattie disconsolately removing the last scraps of
pickle from the floor.
“It’s all right, Matt.
Come back and finish supper,” he commanded her.
Completely reassured, she shone on
him through tear-hung lashes, and his soul swelled
with pride as he saw how his tone subdued her.
She did not even ask what he had done. Except
when he was steering a big log down the mountain to
his mill he had never known such a thrilling sense
of mastery.