Chapter X
The next morning Carrington called
at the Department and announced his acceptance of
the post. He was told that his instructions would
be ready in about a fortnight, and that he would be
expected to start as soon as he received them; in the
meanwhile, he must devote himself to the study of
a mass of papers in the Department. There was
no trifling allowable here.
Carrington had to set himself vigorously
to work. This did not, however, prevent him from
keeping his appointment with Sybil, and at four o’clock
they started together, passing out into the quiet
shadows of Rock Creek, and seeking still lanes through
the woods where their horses walked side by side,
and they themselves could talk without the risk of
criticism from curious eyes. It was the afternoon
of one of those sultry and lowering spring days when
life germinates rapidly, but as yet gives no sign,
except perhaps some new leaf or flower pushing its
soft head up against the dead leaves that have sheltered
it. The two riders had something of the same
sensation, as though the leafless woods and the laurel
thickets, the warm, moist air and the low clouds,
were a protection and a soft shelter. Somewhat
to Carrington’s surprise, he found that it was
pleasant to have Sybil’s company. He felt
towards her as to a sister—a favourite
sister.
She at once attacked him for abandoning
her and breaking his treaty so lately made, and he
tried to gain her sympathy by saying that if she knew
how much he was troubled, she would forgive him.
Then when Sybil asked whether he really must go and
leave her without any friend whom she could speak
to, his feelings got the better of him: he could
not resist the temptation to confide all his troubles
in her, since there was no one else in whom he could
confide. He told her plainly that he was in love
with her sister.
“You say that love is nonsense,
Miss Ross. I tell you it is no such thing.
For weeks and months it is a steady
physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving
one, by night or by day; a long strain on one’s
nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable
at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain
on the strength. It is a disease to be borne
with patience, like any other nervous complaint, and
to be treated with counter-irritants. My trip
to Mexico will be good for it, but that is not the
reason why I must go.”
Then he told her all his private circumstances;
the ruin which the war had brought on him and his
family; how, of his two brothers, one had survived
the war only to die at home, a mere wreck of disease,
privation, and wounds; the other had been shot by his
side, and bled slowly to death in his arms during
the awful carnage in the Wilderness; how his mother
and two sisters were struggling for a bare subsistence
on a wretched Virginian farm, and how all his exertions
barely kept them from beggary.
“You have no conception of the
poverty to which our southern women are reduced since
the war,” said he; “they are many of them
literally without clothes or bread.” The
fee he should earn by going to Mexico would double
his income this year. Could he refuse? Had
he a right to refuse? And poor Carrington added,
with a groan, that if he alone were in question, he
would sooner be shot than go.
Sybil listened with tears in her eyes.
She never before had seen a man show suffering.
The misery she had known in life had been more or
less veiled to her and softened by falling on older
and friendly shoulders. She now got for the first
time a clear view of Carrington, apart from the quiet
exterior in which the man was hidden. She felt
quite sure, by a sudden flash of feminine inspiration,
that the curious look of patient endurance on his face
was the work of a single night when he had held his
brother in his arms, and knew that the blood was draining
drop by drop from his side, in the dense, tangled
woods, beyond the reach of help, hour after hour,
till the voice failed and the limbs grew stiff and
cold. When he had finished his story, she was
afraid to speak. She did not know how to show
her sympathy, and she could not bear to seem unsympathetic.
In her embarrassment she fairly broke down and could
only dry her eyes in silence.
Having once got this weight of confidence
off his mind, Carrington felt comparatively gay and
was ready to make the best of things. He laughed
at himself to drive away the tears of his pretty companion,
and obliged her to take a solemn pledge never to betray
him. “Of course your sister knows it all,”
he said; “but she must never know that I told
you, and I never would tell any one but you.”
Sybil promised faithfully to keep
his confidence to herself, and she went on to defend
her sister.
“You must not blame Madeleine,”
said she; “if you knew as well as I do what
she has been through, you would not think her cold.
You do know how suddenly her husband died, after only
one day’s illness, and what a nice fellow he
was. She was very fond of him, and his death
seemed to stun her. We hardly knew what to make
of it, she was so quiet and natural. Then just
a week later her little child died of diphtheria,
suffering horribly, and she wild with despair because
she could not relieve it. After that, she was
almost insane; indeed, I have always thought she was
quite insane for a time. I know she was excessively
violent and wanted to kill herself, and I never heard
any one rave as she did about religion and resignation
and God. After a few weeks she became quiet and
stupid and went about like a machine; and at last she
got over it, but has never been what she was before.
You know she was a rather fast New York girl before
she married, and cared no more about politics and
philanthropy than I do. It was a very late thing,
all this stuff. But she is not really hard, though
she may seem so. It is all on the surface.
I always know when she is thinking about her husband
or child, because her face gets rigid; she looks then
as she used to look after her child died, as though
she didn’t care what became of her and she would
just as lieve kill herself as not. I don’t
think she will ever let herself love any one again.
She has a horror of it. She is much more likely
to go in for ambition, or duty, or self-sacrifice.”
They rode on for a while in silence,
Carrington perplexed by the problem how two harmless
people such as Madeleine and he could have been made
by a beneficent Providence the sport of such cruel
tortures; and Sybil equally interested in thinking
what sort of a brother-in-law Carrington would make;
on the whole, she thought she liked him better as
he was. The silence was only broken by Carrington’s
bringing the conversation back to its starting-point:
“Something must be done to keep your sister out
of Ratcliffe’s power. I have thought about
it till I am tired. Can you make no suggestion?”
No! Sybil was helpless and dreadfully
alarmed. Mr. Ratcliffe came to the house as often
as he could, and seemed to tell Madeleine everything
that was going on in politics, and ask her advice,
and Madeleine did not discourage him. “I
do believe she likes it, and thinks she can do some
good by it. I don’t dare speak to her about
it. She thinks me a child still, and treats me
as though I were fifteen. What can I do?”
Carrington said he had thought of
speaking to Mrs. Lee himself, but he did not know
what to say, and if he offended her, he might drive
her directly into Ratcliffe’s arms. But
Sybil thought she would not be offended if he went
to work in the right way. “She will stand
more from you than from any one else. Tell her
openly that you—that you love her,”
said Sybil with a burst of desperate courage; “she
can’t take offence at that; and then you can
say almost anything.”
Carrington looked at Sybil with more
admiration than he had ever expected to feel for her,
and began to think that he might do worse than to
put himself under her orders. After all, she had
some practical sense, and what was more to the point,
she was handsomer than ever, as she sat erect on her
horse, the rich colour rushing up under the warm skin,
at the impropriety of her speech. “You
are certainly right,” said he; “after all,
I have nothing to lose. Whether she marries Ratcliffe
or not, she will never marry me, I suppose.”
This speech was a cowardly attempt
to beg encouragement from Sybil, and met with the
fate it deserved, for Sybil, highly flattered at Carrington’s
implied praise, and bold as a lioness now that it
was Carrington’s fingers, and not her own, that
were to go into the fire, gave him on the spot a feminine
view of the situation that did not encourage his hopes.
She plainly said that men seemed to take leave of
their senses as soon as women were concerned; for her
part, she could not understand what there was in any
woman to make such a fuss about; she thought most
women were horrid; men were ever so much nicer; “and
as for Madeleine, whom all of you are ready to cut
each other’s throats about, she’s a dear,
good sister, as good as gold, and I love her with
all my heart, but you wouldn’t like her, any
of you, if you married her; she has always had her
own way, and she could not help taking it; she never
could learn to take yours; both of you would be unhappy
in a week; and as for that old Mr. Ratcliffe, she
would make his life a burden—and I hope
she will,” concluded Sybil with a spiteful little
explosion of hatred.
Carrington could not help being amused
by Sybil’s way of dealing with affairs of the
heart. Emboldened by encouragement, she went
on to attack him pitilessly for going down on his knees
before her sister, “just as though you were
not as good as she is,” and openly avowed that,
if she were a man, she would at least have some pride.
Men like this kind of punishment.
Carrington did not attempt to defend
himself; he even courted Sybil’s attack.
They both enjoyed their ride through the bare woods,
by the rippling spring streams, under the languid breath
of the moist south wind. It was a small idyll,
all the more pleasant because there was gloom before
and behind it. Sybil’s irrepressible gaiety
made Carrington doubt whether, after all, life need
be so serious a matter. She had animal spirits
in plenty, and it needed an effort for her to keep
them down, while Carrington’s spirits were nearly
exhausted after twenty years of strain, and he required
a greater effort to hold himself up. There was
every reason why he should be grateful to Sybil for
lending to him from her superfluity. He enjoyed
being laughed at by her. Suppose Madeleine Lee
did refuse to marry him! What of it?
“Pooh!” said Sybil; “you
men are all just alike. How can you be so silly?
Madeleine and you would be intolerable
together. Do find some one who won’t be
solemn!”
They laid out their little plot against
Madeleine and elaborated it carefully, both as to
what Carrington should say and how he should say it,
for Sybil asserted that men were too stupid to be
trusted even in making a declaration of love, and must
be taught, like little children to say their prayers.
Carrington enjoyed being taught how to make a declaration
of love.
He did not ask where Sybil had learned
so much about men’s stupidity. He thought
perhaps Schneidekoupon could have thrown light on
the subject. At all events, they were so busily
occupied with their schemes and lessons, that they
did not-reach home till Madeleine had become anxious
lest they had met with some accident. The long
dusk had become darkness before she heard the clatter
of hoofs on the asphalt pavement, and she went down
to the door to scold them for their delay. Sybil
only laughed at her, and said it was all Mr. Carrington’s
fault: he had lost his way, and she had been
forced to find it for him.
Ten days more passed before their
plan was carried into effect. April had come.
Carrington’s work was completed and he was ready
to start on his journey. Then at last he appeared
one evening at Mrs. Lee’s at the very moment
when Sybil, as chance would have it, was going out
to pass an hour or two with her friend Victoria Dare
a few doors away. Carrington felt a little ashamed
as she went. This kind of conspiracy behind Mrs.
Lee’s back was not to his taste.
He resolutely sat down, and plunged
at once into his subject. He was almost ready
to go, he said; he had nearly completed his work in
the Department, and he was assured that his instructions
and papers would be ready in two days more; he might
not have another chance to see Mrs. Lee so quietly
again, and he wanted to take his leave now, for this
was what lay most heavily on his mind; he should have
gone willingly and gladly if it had not been for uneasiness
about her; and yet he had till now been afraid to speak
openly on the subject. Here he paused for a moment
as though to invite some reply.
Madeleine laid down her work with
a look of regret though not of annoyance, and said
frankly and instantly that he had been too good a
friend to allow of her taking offence at anything he
could say; she would not pretend to misunderstand
him. “My affairs,” she added with
a shade of bitterness, “seem to have become public
property, and I would rather have some voice in discussing
them myself than to know they are discussed behind
my back.”
This was a sharp thrust at the very
outset, but Carrington turned it aside and went quietly
on:
“You are frank and loyal, as
you always are. I will be so too. I can’t
help being so. For months I have had no other
pleasure than in being near you.
For the first time in my life I have
known what it is to forget my own affairs in loving
a woman who seems to me without a fault, and for one
solitary word from whom I would give all I have in
life, and perhaps itself.”
Madeleine flushed and bent towards
him with an earnestness of manner that repeated itself
in her tone.
“Mr. Carrington, I am the best
friend you have on earth. One of these days you
will thank me with your whole soul for refusing to
listen to you now.
You do not know how much misery I
am saving you. I have no heart to give.
You want a young, fresh life to help
yours; a gay, lively temperament to enliven your despondency;
some one still young enough to absorb herself in you
and make all her existence yours. I could not
do it. I can give you nothing. I have done
my best to persuade myself that some day I might begin
life again with the old hopes and feelings, but it
is no use. The fire is burned out. If you
married me, you would destroy yourself You would wake
up some day, and find the universe dust and ashes.”
Carrington listened in silence.
He made no attempt to interrupt or to contradict her.
Only at the end he said with a little bitterness:
“My own life is worth so much to the world and
to me, that I suppose it would be wrong to risk it
on such a venture; but I would risk it, nevertheless,
if you gave me the chance. Do you think me wicked
for tempting Providence? I do not mean to annoy
you with entreaties. I have a little pride left,
and a great deal of respect for you. Yet I think,
in spite of all you have said or can say, that one
disappointed life may be as able to find happiness
and repose in another, as to get them by sucking the
young life-blood of a fresh soul.”
To this speech, which was unusually
figurative for Carrington, Mrs. Lee could find no
ready answer. She could only reply that Carrington’s
life was worth quite as much as his neighbour’s,
and that it was worth so much to her, if not to himself,
that she would not let him wreck it.
Carrington went on: “Forgive
my talking in this way. I do not mean to complain.
I shall always love you just as much, whether you
care for me or not, because you are the only woman
I have ever met, or am ever likely to meet, who seems
to me perfect.”
If this was Sybil’s teaching,
she had made the best of her time.
Carrington’s tone and words
pierced through all Mrs. Lee’s armour as though
they were pointed with the most ingenious cruelty,
and designed to torture her. She felt hard and
small before him. Life for life, his had been,
and was now, far less bright than hers, yet he was
her superior. He sat there, a true man, carrying
his burden calmly, quietly, without complaint, ready
to face the next shock of life with the same endurance
he had shown against the rest. And he thought
her perfect! She felt humiliated that any brave
man should say to her face that he thought her perfect!
She! perfect! In her contrition she was half
ready to go down at his feet and confess her sins;
her hysterical dread of sorrow and suffering, her narrow
sympathies, her feeble faith, her miserable selfishness,
her abject cowardice. Every nerve in her body
tingled with shame when she thought what a miserable
fraud she was; what a mass of pretensions unfounded,
of deceit ingrained. She was ready to hide her
face in her hands. She was disgusted, outraged
with her own image as she saw it, contrasted with
Carrington’s single word: Perfect!
Nor was this the worst. Carrington
was not the first man who had thought her perfect.
To hear this word suddenly used again, which had never
been uttered to her before except by lips now dead
and gone, made her brain reel. She seemed to
hear her husband once more telling her that she was
perfect. Yet against this torture, she had a
better defence. She had long since hardened herself
to bear these recollections, and they steadied and
strengthened her.
She had been called perfect before
now, and what had come of it? Two graves, and
a broken life! She drew herself up with a face
now grown quite pale and rigid. In reply to Carrington,
she said not a word, but only shook her head slightly
without looking at him.
He went on: “After all,
it is not my own happiness I am thinking of but yours.
I never was vain enough to think that I was worth your
love, or that I could ever win it. Your happiness
is another thing. I care so much for that as
to make me dread going away, for fear that you may
yet find yourself entangled in this wretched political
life here, when, perhaps if I stayed, I might be of
some use.”
“Do you really think, then,
that I am going to fall a victim to Mr.
Ratcliffe?” asked Madeleine, with a cold smile.
“Why not?” replied Carrington,
in a similar tone. “He can put forward
a strong claim to your sympathy and help, if not to
your love. He can offer you a great field of
usefulness which you want. He has been very faithful
to you. Are you quite sure that even now you
can refuse him without his complaining that you have
trifled with him?”
“And are you quite sure,”
added Mrs. Lee, evasively, “that you have not
been judging him much too harshly? I think I know
him better than you. He has many good qualities,
and some high ones. What harm can he do me?
Supposing even that he did succeed in persuading me
that my life could be best used in helping his, why
should I be afraid of it?”
“You and I,” said Carrington,
“are wide apart in our estimates of Mr.
Ratcliffe. To you, of course,
he shows his best side. He is on his good behaviour,
and knows that any false step will ruin him. I
see in him only a coarse, selfish, unprincipled politician,
who would either drag you down to his own level, or,
what is more likely, would very soon disgust you and
make your life a wretched self-immolation before his
vulgar ambition, or compel you to leave him.
In either case you would be the victim. You cannot
afford to make another false start in life. Reject
me! I have not a word to say against it.
But be on your guard against giving your existence
up to him.”
“Why do you think so ill of
Mr. Ratcliffe?” asked Madeleine; “he always
speaks highly of you. Do you know anything against
him that the world does not?”
“His public acts are enough
to satisfy me,” replied Carrington, evading
a part of the question. “You know that I
have never had but one opinion about him.”
There was a pause in the conversation.
Both parties felt that as yet no good had come of
it. At length Madeleine asked, “What would
you have me do? Is it a pledge you want that I
will under no circumstances marry Mr. Ratcliffe?”
“Certainly not,” was the
answer; “you know me better than to think I
would ask that. I only want you to take time and
keep out of his influence until your mind is fairly
made up. A year hence I feel certain that you
will think of him as I do.”
“Then you will allow me to marry
him if I find that you are mistaken,” said Mrs.
Lee, with a marked tone of sarcasm.
Carrington looked annoyed, but he
answered quietly, “What I fear is his influence
here and now. What I would like to see you do
is this: go north a month earlier than you intended,
and without giving him time to act. If I were
sure you were safely in Newport, I should feel no
anxiety.”
“You seem to have as bad an
opinion of Washington as Mr. Gore,” said Madeleine,
with a contemptuous smile. “He gave me the
same advice, though he was afraid to tell me why.
I am not a child. I am thirty years old, and
have seen something of the world. I am not afraid,
like Mr. Gore, of Washington malaria, or, like you,
of Mr. Ratcliffe’s influence. If I fall
a victim I shall deserve my fate, and certainly I
shall have no cause to complain of my friends.
They have given me advice enough for a lifetime.”
Carrington’s face darkened with
a deeper shade of regret. The turn which the
conversation had taken was precisely what he had expected,
and both Sybil and he had agreed that Madeleine would
probably answer just in this way.
Nevertheless, he could not but feel
acutely the harm he was doing to his own interests,
and it was only by a sheer effort of the will that
he forced himself to a last and more earnest attack.
“I know it is an impertinence,”
he said; “I wish it were in my power to show
how much it costs me to offend you. This is the
first time you ever had occasion to be offended.
If I were to yield to the fear of your anger and were
to hold my tongue now, and by any chance you were
to wreck your life on this rock, I should never forgive
myself the cowardice. I should always think I
might have done something to prevent it. This
is probably the last time I shall have the chance
to talk openly with you, and I implore you to listen
to me. I want nothing for myself If I knew I should
never see you again, I would still say the same thing.
Leave Washington! Leave it now!
—at once! —without
giving more than twenty-four hours’ notice!
Leave it without letting Mr. Ratcliffe see you again
in private! Come back next winter if you please,
and then accept him if you think proper. I only
pray you to think long about it and decide when you
are not here.”
Madeleine’s eyes flashed, and
she threw aside her embroidery with an impatient gesture:
“No! Mr. Carrington! I will not be
dictated to! I will carry out my own plans!
I do not mean to marry Mr. Ratcliffe. If I had
meant it, I should have done it before now. But
I will not run away from him or from myself.
It would be unladylike, undignified, cowardly.”
Carrington could say no more.
He had come to the end of his lesson. A long
silence ensued and then he rose to go. “Are
you angry with me?” said she in a softer tone.
“I ought to ask that question,”
said he. “Can you forgive me? I am
afraid not. No man can say to a woman what I have
said to you, and be quite forgiven. You will
never think of me again as you would have done if
I had not spoken. I knew that before I did it.
As for me, I can only go on with my old life.
It is not gay, and will not be the gayer for our talk
to-night.”
Madeleine relented a little:
“Friendships like ours are not so easily broken,”
she said. “Do not do me another injustice.
You will see me again before you go?”
He assented and bade good-night.
Mrs. Lee, weary and disturbed in mind, hastened to
her room. “When Miss Sybil comes in, tell
her that I am not very well, and have gone to bed,”
were her instructions to her maid, and Sybil thought
she knew the cause of this headache.
But before Carrington’s departure
he had one more ride with Sybil, and reported to her
the result of the interview, at which both of them
confessed themselves much depressed. Carrington
expressed some hope that Madeleine meant, after a
sort, to give a kind of pledge by saying that she
had no intention of marrying Mr. Ratcliffe, but Sybil
shook her head emphatically:
“How can a woman tell whether
she is going to accept a man until she is asked?”
said she with entire confidence, as though she were
stating the simplest fact in the world. Carrington
looked puzzled, and ventured to ask whether women
did not generally make up their minds beforehand on
such an interesting point; but Sybil overwhelmed him
with contempt: “What good will they do by
making up their minds, I should like to know? of course
they would go and do the opposite. Sensible women
don’t pretend to make up their minds, Mr. Carrington.
But you men are so stupid, and you can’t understand
in the least.”
Carrington gave it up, and went back
to his stale question: Could Sybil suggest any
other resource? and Sybil sadly confessed that she
could not. So far as she could see, they must
trust to luck, and she thought it was cruel tor Mr.
Carrington to go away and leave her alone without
help. He had promised to prevent the marriage.
“One thing more I mean to do,”
said Carrington: “and here everything will
depend on your courage and nerve. You may depend
upon it that Mr. Ratcliffe will offer himself before
you go north. He does not suspect you of making
trouble, and he will not think about you in any way
if you let him alone and keep quiet. When he
does offer himself you will know it; at least your
sister will tell you if she has accepted him.
If she refuses him point blank, you will have nothing
to do but to keep her steady. If you see her
hesitating, you must break in at any cost, and use
all your influence to stop her. Be bold, then,
and do your best. If everything fails and she
still clings to him, I must play my last card, or rather
you must play it for me.
I shall leave with you a sealed letter
which you are to give her if everything else fails.
Do it before she sees Ratcliffe a second time.
See that she reads it and, if necessary, make her read
it, no matter when or where. No one else must
know that it exists, and you must take as much care
of it as though it were a diamond. You are not
to know what is in it; it must be a complete secret.
Do you understand?”
Sybil thought she did, but her heart
sank. “When shall you give me this letter?”
she asked.
“The evening before I start,
when I come to bid good-bye; probably next Sunday.
This letter is our last hope. If, after reading
that, she does not give him up, you will have to pack
your trunk, my dear Sybil, and find a new home, for
you can never live with them.”
He had never before called her by
her first name, and it pleased her to hear it now,
though she generally had a strong objection to such
familiarities.
“Oh, I wish you were not going!”
she exclaimed tearfully. “What shall I
do when you are gone?”
At this pitiful appeal, Carrington
felt a sudden pang. He found that he was not
so old as he had thought. Certainly he had grown
to like her frank honesty and sound common sense,
and he had at length discovered that she was handsome,
with a very pretty figure. Was it not something
like a flirtation he had been carrying on with this
young person for the last month? A glimmering
of suspicion crossed his mind, though he got rid of
it as quickly as possible. For a man of his age
and sobriety to be in love with two sisters at once
was impossible; still more impossible that Sybil should
care for him.
As for her, however, there was no
doubt about the matter. She had grown to depend
upon him, and she did it with all the blind confidence
of youth. To lose him was a serious disaster.
She had never before felt the sensation, and she thought
it most disagreeable. Her youthful diplomatists
and admirers could not at all fill Carrington’s
place. They danced and chirruped cheerfully on
the hollow crust of society, but they were wholly useless
when one suddenly fell through and found oneself struggling
in the darkness and dangers beneath. Young women,
too, are apt to be flattered by the confidences of
older men; they have a keen palate for whatever savours
of experience and adventure. For the first time
in her life, Sybil had found a man who gave some play
to her imagination; one who had been a rebel, and
had grown used to the shocks of fate, so as to walk
with calmness into the face of death, and to command
or obey with equal indifference. She felt that
he would tell her what to do when the earthquake came,
and would be at hand to consult, which is in a woman’s
eyes the great object of men’s existence, when
trouble comes. She suddenly conceived that Washington
would be intolerable without him, and that she should
never get the courage to fight Mr. Ratcliffe alone,
or, if she did, she should make some fatal mistake.
They finished their ride very soberly.
She began to show a new interest in all that concerned
him, and asked many questions about his sisters and
their plantation. She wanted to ask him whether
she could not do something to help them, but this
seemed too awkward. On his part he made her promise
to write him faithfully all that took place, and this
request pleased her, though she knew his interest
was all on her sister’s account.
The following Sunday evening when
he came to bid good-bye, it was still worse.
There was no chance for private talk. Ratcliffe
was there, and several diplomatists, including old
Jacobi, who had eyes like a cat and saw every motion
of one’s face. Victoria Dare was on the
sofa, chattering with Lord Dunbeg; Sybil would rather
have had any ordinary illness, even to the extent
of a light case of scarlet fever or small-pox than
let her know what was the matter. Carrington
found means to get Sybil into another room for a moment
and to give her the letter he had promised. Then
he bade her good-bye, and in doing so he reminded
her of her promise to write, pressing her hand and
looking into her eyes with an earnestness that made
her heart beat faster, although she said to herself
that his interest was all about her sister; as it was—mostly.
The thought did not raise her spirits, but she went
through with her performance like a heroine.
Perhaps she was a little pleased to see that he parted
from Madeleine with much less apparent feeling.
One would have said that they were two good friends
who had no troublesome sentiment to worry them.
But then every eye in the room was watching this farewell,
and speculating about it. Ratcliffe looked on
with particular interest and was a little perplexed
to account for this too fraternal cordiality.
Could he have made a miscalculation? or was there
something behind? He himself insisted upon shaking
hands genially with Carrington and wished him a pleasant
journey and a successful one.
That night, for the first time since
she was a child, Sybil actually cried a little after
she went to bed, although it is true that her sentiment
did not keep her awake. She felt lonely and weighed
down by a great responsibility.
For a day or two afterwards she was
nervous and restless. She would not ride, or
make calls, or see guests. She tried to sing a
little, and found it tiresome. She went out and
sat for hours in the Square, where the spring sun
was shining warm and bright on the prancing horse
of the great Andrew Jackson. She was a little
cross, too, and absent, and spoke so often about Carrington
that at last Madeleine was struck by sudden suspicion,
and began to watch her with anxious care.
Tuesday night, after this had gone
on for two days, Sybil was in Madeleine’s room,
where she often stayed to talk while her sister was
at her toilet.
This evening she threw herself listlessly
on the couch, and within five minutes again quoted
Carrington. Madeleine turned from the glass before
which she was sitting, and looked her steadily in the
face.
“Sybil,” said she, “this
is the twenty-fourth time you have mentioned Mr.
Carrington since we sat down to dinner.
I have waited for the round number to decide whether
I should take any notice of it or not? what does it
mean, my child? Do you care for Mr. Carrington?”
“Oh, Maude!” exclaimed
Sybil reproachfully, flushing so violently that, even
by that dim light, her sister could not but see it.
Mrs. Lee rose and, crossing the room,
sat down by Sybil who was lying on the couch and turned
her face away. Madeleine put her arms round her
neck and kissed her.
“My poor—poor child!”
said she pityingly. “I never dreamed of
this! What a fool I have been! How could
I have been so thoughtless! Tell me!” she
added, with a little hesitation; “has he—does
he care for you?”
“No! no!” cried Sybil,
fairly breaking down into a burst of tears; “no!
he loves you! nobody but you! he never gave a thought
to me. I don’t care for him so very much,”
she continued, drying her tears; “only it seems
so lonely now he is gone.”
Mrs. Lee remained on the couch, with
her arm round her sister’s neck, silent, gazing
into vacancy, the picture of perplexity and consternation.
The situation was getting beyond her control.