For reasons which many persons thought
ridiculous, Mrs. Lightfoot Lee decided to pass the
winter in Washington. She was in excellent health,
but she said that the climate would do her good.
In New York she had troops of friends, but she suddenly
became eager to see again the very small number of
those who lived on the Potomac. It was only to
her closest intimates that she honestly acknowledged
herself to be tortured by ennui. Since her husband’s
death, five years before, she had lost her taste for
New York society; she had felt no interest in the
price of stocks, and very little in the men who dealt
in them; she had become serious. What was it
all worth, this wilderness of men and women as monotonous
as the brown stone houses they lived in? In her
despair she had resorted to desperate measures.
She had read philosophy in the original German, and
the more she read, the more she was disheartened that
so much culture should lead to nothing—nothing.
After talking of Herbert Spencer for
an entire evening with a very literary transcendental
commission-merchant, she could not see that her time
had been better employed than when in former days
she had passed it in flirting with a very agreeable
young stock-broker; indeed, there was an evident proof
to the contrary, for the flirtation might lead to
something—had, in fact, led to marriage;
while the philosophy could lead to nothing, unless
it were perhaps to another evening of the same kind,
because transcendental philosophers are mostly elderly
men, usually married, and, when engaged in business,
somewhat apt to be sleepy towards evening. Nevertheless
Mrs. Lee did her best to turn her study to practical
use. She plunged into philanthropy, visited prisons,
inspected hospitals, read the literature of pauperism
and crime, saturated herself with the statistics of
vice, until her mind had nearly lost sight of virtue.
At last it rose in rebellion against her, and she
came to the limit of her strength. This path,
too, seemed to lead nowhere. She declared that
she had lost the sense of duty, and that, so far as
concerned her, all the paupers and criminals in New
York might henceforward rise in their majesty and
manage every railway on the continent. Why should
she care? What was the city to her? She
could find nothing in it that seemed to demand salvation.
What gave peculiar sanctity to numbers? Why were
a million people, who all resembled each other, any
way more interesting than one person? What aspiration
could she help to put into the mind of this great
million-armed monster that would make it worth her
love or respect? Religion? A thousand powerful
churches were doing their best, and she could see no
chance for a new faith of which she was to be the inspired
prophet. Ambition? High popular ideals?
Passion for whatever is lofty and pure? The very
words irritated her. Was she not herself devoured
by ambition, and was she not now eating her heart out
because she could find no one object worth a sacrifice?
Was it ambition—real ambition—or
was it mere restlessness that made Mrs. Lightfoot
Lee so bitter against New York and Philadelphia, Baltimore
and Boston, American life in general and all life
in particular? What did she want? Not social
position, for she herself was an eminently respectable
Philadelphian by birth; her father a famous clergyman;
and her husband had been equally irreproachable, a
descendant of one branch of the Virginia Lees, which
had drifted to New York in search of fortune, and had
found it, or enough of it to keep the young man there.
His widow had her own place in society which no one
disputed. Though not brighter than her neighbours,
the world persisted in classing her among clever women;
she had wealth, or at least enough of itto give her
all that money can give by way of pleasure to a sensible
woman in an American city; she had her house and her
carriage; she dressed well; her table was good, and
her furniture was never allowed to fall behind the
latest standard of decorative art. She had travelled
in Europe, and after several visits, covering some
years of time, had retumed home, carrying in one hand,
as it were, a green-grey landscape, a remarkably pleasing
specimen of Corot, and in the other some bales of
Persian and Syrian rugs and embroideries, Japanese
bronzes and porcelain. With this she declared
Europe to be exhausted, and she frankly avowed that
she was American to the tips of her fingers; she neither
knew nor greatly cared whether America or Europe were
best to live in; she had no violent love for either,
and she had no objection to abusing both; but she meant
to get all that American life had to offer, good or
bad, and to drink it down to the dregs, fully determined
that whatever there was in it she would have, and
that whatever could be made out of it she would manufacture.
“I know,” said she, “that America
produces petroleum and pigs; I have seen both on the
steamers; and I am told it produces silver and gold.
There is choice enough for any woman.”
Yet, as has been already said, Mrs.
Lee’s first experience was not a success.
She soon declared that New York might represent the
petroleum or the pigs, but the gold of life was not
to be discovered there by her eyes.
Not but that there was variety enough;
a variety of people, occupations, aims, and thoughts;
but that all these, after growing to a certain height,
stopped short. They found nothing to hold them
up. She knew, more or less intimately, a dozen
men whose fortunes ranged between one million and
forty millions. What did they do with their money?
What could they do with it that was different from
what other men did? After all, it is absurd to
spend more money than is enough to satisfy all one’s
wants; it is vulgar to live in two houses in the same
street, and to drive six horses abreast. Yet,
after setting aside a certain income sufficient for
all one’s wants, what was to be done with the
rest? To let it accumulate was to own one’s
failure; Mrs. Lee’s great grievance was that
it did accumulate, without changing or improving the
quality of its owners. To spend it in charity
and public works was doubtless praiseworthy, but was
it wise? Mrs. Lee had read enough political economy
and pauper reports to be nearly convinced that public
work should be public duty, and that great benefactions
do harm as well as good.
And even supposing it spent on these
objects, how could it do more than increase and perpetuate
that same kind of human nature which was her great
grievance? Her New York friends could not meet
this question except by falling back upon their native
commonplaces, which she recklessly trampled upon, averring
that, much as she admired the genius of the famous
traveller, Mr. Gulliver, she never had been able,
since she became a widow, to accept the Brobdingnagian
doctrine that he who made two blades of grass grow
where only one grew before deserved better of mankind
than the whole race of politicians. She would
not find fault with the philosopher had he required
that the grass should be of an improved quality; “but,”
said she, “I cannot honestly pretend that I
should be pleased to see two New York men where I now
see one; the idea is too ridiculous; more than one
and a half would be fatal to me.”
Then came her Boston friends, who
suggested that higher education was precisely what
she wanted; she should throw herself into a crusade
for universities and art-schools. Mrs. Lee turned
upon them with a sweet smile; “Do you know,”
said she, “that we have in New York already
the richest university in America, and that its only
trouble has always been that it can get no scholars
even by paying for them? Do you want me to go
out into the streets and waylay boys? If the
heathen refuse to be converted, can you give me power
over the stake and the sword to compel them to come
in? And suppose you can? Suppose I march
all the boys in Fifth Avenue down to the university
and have them all properly taught Greek and Latin,
English literature, ethics, and German philosophy.
What then? You do it in Boston. Now tell
me honestly what comes of it. I suppose you have
there a brilliant society; numbers of poets, scholars,
philosophers, statesmen, all up and down Beacon Street.
Your evenings must be sparkling. Your press must
scintillate. How is it that we New Yorkers never
hear of it? We don’t go much into your
society; but when we do, it doesn’t seem so
very much better than our own. You are just like
the rest of us. You grow six inches high, and
then you stop. Why will not somebody grow to
be a tree and cast a shadow?”
The average member of New York society,
although not unused to this contemptuous kind of treatment
from his leaders, retaliated in his blind, common-sense
way. “What does the woman want?” he
said. “Is her head turned with the Tulieries
and Marlborough House? Does she think herself
made for a throne? Why does she not lecture for
women’s rights? Why not go on the stage?
If she cannot be contented like other people, what
need is there for abusing us just because she feels
herself no taller than we are? What does she
expect to get from her sharp tongue? What does
she know, any way?”
Mrs. Lee certainly knew very little.
She had read voraciously and promiscuously one subject
after another. Ruskin and Taine had danced merrily
through her mind, hand in hand with Darwin and Stuart
Mill, Gustave Droz and Algernon Swinburne. She
had even laboured over the literature of her own country.
She was perhaps, the only woman in New York who knew
something of American history. Certainly she
could not have repeated the list of Presidents in
their order, but she knew that the Constitution divided
the goverument into Executive, Legislative, and Judiciary;
she was aware that the President, the Speaker, and
the Chief Justice were important personages, and instinctively
she wondered whether they might not solve her problem;
whether they were the shade trees which she saw in
her dreams.
Here, then, was the explanation of
her restlessness, discontent, ambition,—call
it what you will. It was the feeling of a passenger
on an ocean steamer whose mind will not give him rest
until he has been in the engine-room and talked with
the engineer. She wanted to see with her own
eyes the action of primary forces; to touch with her
own hand the massive machinery of society; to measure
with her own mind the capacity of the motive power.
She was bent upon getting to the heart of the great
American mystery of democracy and government.
She cared little where her pursuit might lead her,
for she put no extravagant value upon life, having
already, as she said, exhausted at least two lives,
and being fairly hardened to insensibility in the
process. “To lose a husband and a baby,”
said she, “and keep one’s courage and reason,
one must become very hard or very soft. I am
now pure steel. You may beat my heart with a
trip-hammer and it will beat the trip-hammer back
again.”
Perhaps after exhausting the political
world she might try again elsewhere; she did not pretend
to say where she might then go, or what she should
do; but at present she meant to see what amusement
there might be in politics.
Her friends asked what kind of amusement
she expected to find among the illiterate swarm of
ordinary people who in Washington represented constituencies
so dreary that in comparison New York was a New Jerusalem,
and Broad Street a grove of Academe. She replied
that if Washington society were so bad as this, she
should have gained all she wanted, for it would be
a pleasure to return,—precisely the feeling
she longed for. In her own mind, however, she
frowned on the idea of seeking for men. What she
wished to see, she thought, was the clash of interests,
the interests of forty millions of people and a whole
continent, centering at Washington; guided, restrained,
controlled, or unrestrained and uncontrollable, by
men of ordinary mould; the tremendous forces of government,
and the machinery of society, at work. What she
wanted, was power.
Perhaps the force of the engine was
a little confused in her mind with that of the engineer,
the power with the men who wielded it. Perhaps
the human interest of politics was after all what really
attracted her, and, however strongly she might deny
it, the passion for exercising power, for its own
sake, might dazzle and mislead a woman who had exhausted
all the ordinary feminine resources. But why
speculate about her motives? The stage was before
her, the curtain was rising, the actors were ready
to enter; she had only to go quietly on among the
supernumeraries and see how the play was acted and
the stage effects were produced; how the great tragedians
mouthed, and the stage-manager swore.