[Greek: Heauton bur_on aeidei.]
1.
If Fate should seal my Death to-morrow,
(Though much I hope
she will postpone it,)
I’ve held a share Joy and
Sorrow,
Enough for Ten; and
here I own it.
2.
I’ve lived, as many others live,
And yet, I think, with more enjoyment;
For could I through my days again live,
I’d pass them in the ‘same’
employment.
3.
That ‘is’ to say, with ‘some
exception’,
For though I will not make confession,
I’ve seen too much of man’s
deception
Ever again to trust profession.
4.
Some sage ‘Mammas’ with gesture
haughty,
Pronounce me quite a youthful Sinner—
But ‘Daughters’ say, “although
he’s naughty,
You must not check a ’Young Beginner’!”
5.
I’ve loved, and many damsels know
it—
But whom I don’t intend to mention,
As ‘certain stanzas’ also
show it,
‘Some’ say ‘deserving
Reprehension’.
6.
Some ancient Dames, of virtue fiery,
(Unless Report does much belie them,)
Have lately made a sharp Enquiry,
And much it ‘grieves’ me to
‘deny’ them.
7.
Two whom I lov’d had ‘eyes’
of ‘Blue’,
To which I hope you’ve no objection;
The ‘Rest’ had eyes of ’darker
Hue’—
Each Nymph, of course, was ‘all
perfection’.
8.
But here I’ll close my ‘chaste’
Description,
Nor say the deeds of animosity;
For ‘silence’ is the best
prescription,
To ‘physic’ idle curiosity.
9.
Of ‘Friends’ I’ve known
a ’goodly Hundred’—
For finding ‘one’ in each
acquaintance,
By ‘some deceived’, by others
plunder’d,
‘Friendship’, to me, was not
‘Repentance’.
10.
At ‘School’ I thought like
other ‘Children’;
Instead of ‘Brains’, a fine
Ingredient,
‘Romance’, my ‘youthful
Head bewildering’,
To ‘Sense’ had made me disobedient.
11.
A victim, ‘nearly’ from affection,
To certain ‘very precious scheming’,
The still remaining recollection
Has ‘cured’ my ‘boyish
soul’ of ‘Dreaming’.
12.
By Heaven! I rather would forswear
The Earth, and all the joys reserved me,
Than dare again the ‘specious Snare’,
From which ‘my Fate’ and ‘Heaven
preserved’ me.
13.
Still I possess some Friends who love
me—
In each a much esteemed and true one;
The Wealth of Worlds shall never move
me
To quit their Friendship, for a new one.
14.
But Becher! you’re a ‘reverend
pastor’,
Now take it in consideration,
Whether for penance I should fast, or
Pray for my ‘sins’ in expiation.
15.
I own myself the child of ‘Folly’,
But not so wicked as they make me—
I soon must die of melancholy,
If ‘Female’ smiles should
e’er forsake me.
16.
‘Philosophers’ have ‘never
doubted’,
That ‘Ladies’ Lips’
were made for ‘kisses!’
For ‘Love!’ I could not live
without it,
For such a ‘cursed’ place
as ‘This is’.
17.
Say, Becher, I shall be forgiven!
If you don’t warrant my salvation,
I must resign all ‘Hopes’
of ‘Heaven’!
For, ‘Faith’, I can’t
withstand Temptation.
P.S.—These were written between one and
two, after ‘midnight’. I
have not ‘corrected’, or ‘revised’.
Yours, BYRON.
[Footnote 1: From an autograph
MS. at Newstead, now for the first time printed.]
